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neptuna’s only daughter btw

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hello we are cute

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yay

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it's cuz you're always living in that damn society

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some thoughts- “i take a shot of vodka”

i take a shot of vodka, i say never again. my cheeks bare blood-flushed as my palm grasps a bottleneck. My brows furrow at the fate of ache in my stomach, of how butterflies burst through nerves as they cauterize.

i take a shot of vodka. i jolt in repulsion.

the force of a thousand lilliputian pinches pierce through my throat, my body tries to betray me as i betray her; and i say never again.

the same lie i voice before i go back to men. a poison of my choice, i’d been enticed to indulge in. i’d make our plans, and at the last moment, air all my avoidance; fearing the fate of ache in my stomach.

because behind my eyes, i’d visualize our night, wasting my time trying to predict while preparing. then i’d be bombarded with the bite of tightening in my pharynx, thinking ‘this just isn’t right’.

and it’d remind me of when i drink, fettering the foresight of contrite-fraught morning-afters; viscerally aware of this dismal despair disguised as delightful encounters, a life locked conforming to the state of affairs, it’s a sign i’m ’bout to shatter. as i straighten my hair, slip into tights, as i study small talk smatter and placate the melodrama; i find i flirt and flatter, like i take a shot of vodka.

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about to go outside and smoke a joint while i scroll tumblr and contemplate my relationship to the tangible world around me thanks👾🩷

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garage going

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i consume under capitalism, i am responsible, i am financially complicit, and it is a complicity intended to be inescapable, birthing this dark absurdity that comes with my indulgence of escapist coping mechanisms. actively seeking means to numb my mind as i attempt to bear life under capitalist empire, while simultaneously being aware that this is the way they want me. having the knowledge that this is me submitting to the apathy encouraged by the ruling class, and also having the self compassion to understand why i’d do such a thing. but do not forget to notice how the blame/guilt tends to always fall solely on the consumer rather than the producers and the exploitative systems set in place to ensure this process continues. when your buyers get used to prices born of slave labor, the prices of ethically produced goods start to seem unreasonable given the economic climate that has been created. fast fashion is supposed to be easier to get your hands on. and so we buy it and then make each other feel shitty about it while the manufacturers hold the whip and wipe their shit with our money.

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soo trueee girl

cruelty is so easy. youre not special for choosing it

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pretty girls and mary jane 🫰🌙😁

who ready for summer !?!?!?!

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pleaseee give nemahsis her flowers!1!1!!1! this song is so raw and the music video too. ive loved all her songs and videos for Verbathim, but this one may be my favorite. every interview and live show, u can feel her humility, regardless of her multifaceted talents and beauty. the type of person i’d like to see more of in the public eye!! she’s not afraid of being genuine, in the age of the nonchalant epidemic. Nemahsis, we need u.

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hai i missed tumblr

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cursed image.

i’m kinda obsessed