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Getaway. E.W PART ONE

Synopsis: You decide to bring your girlfriend on your family vacation for the first time, which deems difficult as you try to juggle the chaos of hiding the fact you’re both dating from the rest of the group.

Pairing: modern!ellie x femme reader. WLW.

Content: swearing, fluff, alluding to somewhat homophobic parents, some smut.

<3 this is WLW. Men and minors do NOT interact.

It was a minor white lie. Really didn't mean much, seriously!

Nothing "life changing" or something you would feel guilty of....well....maybe a little guilty?

Your annual family vacation to Arizona was approaching, something you somewhat dreaded. Not that you didn't love your family, however, being cramped up within a small cabin in the woods for a week is not the ideal "vacation" you'd whip up in your mind. You have been going since you could first walk, so its mandatory, but now that you were an adult, your mother granted permission to bring along a guest.

You had eagerly brought up your friends name, not needing a second more to consider the plus 1 who will be trapped beside you.

"How about Ellie?"

Your mother was folding clothes, fitting them into her old maroon suitcase, the same one she has had since 2002. "hm..Ellie. I like her" her voice carried a casual and neutral tone as she looked up to your figure, leaning against the doorway.

"so I can bring her?"

"I mean, my only concern is that she's just quiet, a bit more introverted than the rest of us, no? Think she can manage?" her red acrylics scratch her chin, thinking of the situation.

"ma, its Ellie, if she can handle being my friend, she can handle the whole thing"

Except Ellie was in fact, not your friend.

You met when you were younger, 2nd grade to be exact. She had a collection of Dino Japanese erasers, and to you, that seemed like a good enough quality to be best friends.

Play dates began getting arranged between conversations with your mom & hers, and soon enough you were showing her your pink, stuffed animal covered bedroom. Perhaps, subconsciously, you've always felt something for Ellie, even if you didn't know it. The way you'd get so excited whenever she would agree to finalllyyyy play monster high dolls with you, despite her hating them, or the way she would defend you from her own brother's antics.

You didn't even think it was possible to be in a relationship with a girl, the crowd you grew up in were religious, and conservative. Now, you loved your parents, of course, but as you grew older with Ellie, some boundaries had to be put into place.

"When is that girl gonna bring home a boy?" Your own aunt would speak at the thanksgiving table, sipping a strong beverage that was as red as her lipstick.

"I think she is just school oriented, y'know her, always got her head wrapped around college" your mother's hand dismissed with a wave, as you peaked around the corner wall, listening carefully as the last family members who lingered after dessert drank at the kitchen island, gossiping about YOU.

"Well...she oughta hurry up. You don't want her to be an old maid or something"

Your Mother, Maria, laughed, "She is only 17"

"so?"

Your uncle chimed in, "Lets just hope she's not into girls or something like that. I've been seeing it a lot more nowadays"

Your dad scoffed, offended, "our girl? no, she's headstrong, she is in no way "confused"....She knows better than to ever bring that shit here"

Your ears picked up the chatter, some laughs of agreement. It was almost violating. You didn't know at this point if you were gay, but you definitely knew one thing: you liked Ellie.

Whether that was as a best friend, or a crush? who could tell. You grew up forcing yourself to pick random boys in your class to crush over, it was never natural, so what did it feel like? to be enamored with someone so deeply, you'd willingly spend the rest of your life with them, even if it meant cutting off other family in sacrifice.

Ellie and you were attached at the hip with any free moment you had, it was senior year, and finals had the two of you packed to the brim with stress.

"Can you put the laptop down, please?" Ellie groaned, itching her top lip as she hugged her knees, sat at the end of your bed.

"I'm trying to check my status, just hang on. Start without me" you gesture to the tv with some urgency.

With a huff, Ellie switched the Mario Kart to single player, absent minded-ly playing with random people as she waited for you to hurry the fuck up.

It was Friday night, and the first one in a while you two could hang, at that. It was tradition for her to kick your ass and win every video game, you knew she'd beat you, and yet you didn't care.

Ellie was focused on controlling her avatar when a gasp made her jump, pausing and turning around to see your hand covering your mouth. "what?? what happened?" she urgently crawled over to see your screen.

"I got in..." your voice wavered with emotion, showing her the application status that had been updated. You were accepted to your dream school.

Ellie felt her lungs deflate, sitting for a moment before realizing she had to react. Her hands were thrown around you as she rested her chin against your shoulder, looking down, "congrats...thats really....thats really good!"

You hugged back, heart beating out of your chest, "oh my God, I can't believe it!!" you gently pulled back to see her, laughing and smiling widely.

Ellie mirrored the expression, "Im really proud...I know you wanted this"

Your eyes were wide, still in shock. "I know I just, wow, wow!!!!" your hands waved around with excitement, before cupping her face and kissing your best friend.

I suppose the rush of happiness and the unexpected email resulted in you not thinking....definitely not thinking. Ellie's eyes widened, the brunette pausing for a moment before kissing you back.

When you pulled away, your fingers grazed the skin of your pink bottom lip, the tingling sensation still palpable. "uh..sorry.."

"...'s ok" Her face was red, almost waiting for you to kiss her again.

But you don't. In fact, you get up and run downstairs to show your family the email, bragging about the scholarship as well. The kiss is never brought up again. ever.

It was a really....confusing and isolating time period, the months of April all the way to August. You two don't really hang, talk,...text. No night time face-times, or Friday night hangs. She would eagerly check your Instagram, often times being the first viewer to your story.

"33 seconds ago. great. Now I look like a stalker"

She'd like the post anyways, not even caring. You wouldn't even view her story at all, it was almost like you forgot about her overnight. Ellie understood to some degree, moving into college was a change, maybe you were stressed?

Ellie chose to continue working at her father's farm, as college was not something she would be wanting to do now, maybe in the future.

The only saving grace she'd have is that you weren't too far, it was a college about 30 minutes away, so why the hell did you seem much further?

The reason behind your absence wasn't malicious. It was out of fear. You loved Ellie, and you knew it for a long time. How could you ever confess that given the environment you grew up in? You were 100%, completely, without a doubt, suffering from comphet, and Ellie assumed you hated her.

On the opposite, Ellie had always known she was gay, something she didn't have to think twice about, just like her feelings for you.

By some saving grace up above, Ellie found herself picking up food for herself at a local pub. She walked in at the right time, standing by the front host as her eyes detected you, sitting at the bar behind.

She mumbled a thank you as she took her bag, carefully walking over to you, almost in shock. "uh..." was all the brunette could get out.

Turning around in the stool, you were met with your old best friend. It had only been a few months yet it felt like more. The guilt washed back up your throat like acid, "h-hey"

The pain within your expression was noticeable, Ellie stood there awkwardly, bundled up with her bags of food. She didn't know what to say.

"mm...whatcha got, there?" you gestured, feeling the weird tension.

"Chicken and rice"

"good choice, I like the food h-"

"why're you here?" she cut you off, face still emotionless.

You adjusted your top, where your the swell of your breasts had been protruding. It was like a magnet for Ellie's eyes. You never dressed like this. "well, I'm back for the week. Headed to my parents later and thought I'd....dunno.."

"pregame?" her voice was bitter, eyebrows creasing. "Don't tell me you have a fake ID"

"I have a fake ID" your voice mumbled way too quick.

The two of you stared at each other for a moment, like strangers. Ellie felt herself getting emotional, "and why haven't you reached out, huh? forget about me?"

"maybe" you shrugged, sipping the liquor you're not old enough to have. With that, Ellie turned on her heel, stepping out.

Something inside you twitched, as if a little bit of your mind was electrocuted back to reality, facing the situation. Your legs stood upright, almost jogging out to see your friends back, unlocking her car.

"wait! wait!" your reached Ellie, hand on her jacket as she yanked away from you, eyes teary, taking you off guard. "what do you want?" she snapped, voice cold..hurt.

"Ellie.....I, I never forgot about you" the words almost slurred, the alcohol having some effect. "I think about you everyday, I worry about you, where you were, what you've been doing, but I..."

"but what?" she whispered, a tear reaching her chin.

"i was just...I still am, scared"

"of?" Ellie sniffled, eyes focusing intently on your vulnerability.

"Ellie I know i've been a total dick, I know it! I know it so damn bad! I just, I was scared because I like you, and once I realized that I was queer, I knew I'd be fucked because in no universe can you and I even exist together, not with my family" Now you had been the one crying.

Ellie almost had a heart attack, suddenly her stomach hurt. She didn't know if she would puke or faint. "You like me?"...

"Ellie I really do....and it's ok if you don't like me back, and I'm very aware that my actions don't mirror my words, but please-"

She kissed you, hands almost desperate to touch as if starved. You kissed back, the situation mirroring the unspoken kiss shared in your bedroom all those months back. There was clarity, somewhat.

Ellie took you to her house that night, where it led to you both losing your virginity to each other. There was no regret, or moral crisis to follow. Surprisingly, it only solidified the feelings you felt.

You laid your head on her bare chest, whispering with a pout, "I'm sorry"

"no..don't be. I kinda get it now....I just wish you would have just opened up sooner" her voice carried a dry laugh, fingers brushing the delicate hair away from your forehead.

"mmm...I know...I just assumed that if I pretended you weren't there, it would go away"

"and....how did it work out?" she whispered, smiling.

"we just had sex in your childhood bedroom, so...."

The two of you shared a soft laugh, it felt normal for the first time in a while, even if it was a new normal. You remained in contact, sharing texts and calls between classes, even inviting her to your dorm every once in a while.

It took a minute, but by that next summer before sophomore year, you two had agreed to bite the bullet and become official. It was scary, not just for you, but for Ellie as well. If your family had found out about your little relationship, You would probably be shunned.

It was quiet. Very quiet, but present. The love was there, even if it couldn't be as loud as you both wanted originally.

So no, Ellie and you were not friends anymore, You were girlfriends.

Inviting her to the family vacation felt like a risky leap of faith, especially considering how tight you'd all be, alongside you both + your parents and older sister, Dina, who was 25, and was very clever at reading you. Not too clever if she has yet to find out.

Ellie was reluctant to tag along, but seeing the desperate look in your eye, she knew it was her girlfriend duty to put up with it.

Your dad, Tommy, hoisted up our luggage to the overhead car carrier, "thanks for helping" he sarcastically shot out, glaring at the two of you girls down below.

"no problem" you shrugged, guiding Ellie into the car. You both sat in the back together, Dina in the middle, and parents in the front. It was a 6 hour car ride from HELL.

You figured being all the way in the back would provide some sense of privacy, but no, there was none. Dina kept turning around to show you both tiktok videos that were not funny. You didn't know if you had anymore fake laughs within you.

Finally, Your elder sister had gotten tired as well, opting to fall asleep. You took a picture of her snoring, jaw wide open, knowing someday it would be good payback.

"don't be mean" Ellie cooed, smiling at you.

"I'm not...." your smirk appeared, plugging your phone into the car charging port before turning your attention back to your girlfriend. "are you comfortable?"

She shrugged, "its a little cold, but i'm o-"

"MA!" your voice rang to the front of the van, "can we turn the AC down?"

"It is 88 degrees, no we cannot." Maria mumbles, dismissively flaring her hand.

You huffed, unzipping one of your bags to grab a blanket. You tossed it over both your laps and shyly smiled, reaching to hold her hand from underneath.

Ellie softened and rubbed your skin, it had only been about 3 hours, if that, since they'd been on the road, but that's a long time to be this close and not touching. She silently mouthed "I love you", making your cheeks dust with a soft pink, your fingers squeezed hers 4 times to symbolize a response of "I love you too".

3 hours, and a few truck stops later, you had all made it to the cabin site, the familiar roads leading you up the hill serving a nostalgic wave of emotion. Maybe this year it'll be more fun with Ellie, you figured.

There were 3 bedrooms, to be exact. One for your parents, one for Dina, and one for you.

"Where's Ellie gonna sleep?" Maria brought in suitcases, setting them down on the wood flooring of the quiet cabin, it smelled of dust and humidity.

"uh....In my room?" you spoke quickly, stating what you thought deemed obvious.

"Nonsense, you don't have to share a bed. That would be awkward" Tommy snorted, "I got an inflatable mattress!"

You shared a glance of humor and annoyance with the girl across the room, as your dad moved to go fill it up for the guest.

"fun." The brunette muttered.

You moved your stuff into the small corner of the cabin, checking the bed for bugs. "smells like shit in here"

"its the old wood" your dad gestured around, setting the air mattress down beside your main bed. "well, unpack quickly. I'm gonna get dinner started" He smiled, moving out of Ellie's way to head back down to the kitchenette. Your girlfriend glanced before shutting the door, arms seeking your comfort, even for a quick moment.

You hugged the girl, swaying. "This is.....uhg I'm sorry. This isnt fun"

Ellie kissed you gently, smiling against your lips, "shut up, I came here for you only....we can survive."

"barley" your voice mumbled, fingers brushing the girls cheek.

"besides, it's like a bonding exercise, no?"

You deadpanned and playfully nudged her off, "freak"

"oh? freak?" Ellie's giggle rang through your ears, she grabbed your waist and kissed your neck animatedly, making you stumble back against your bed with mirroring laughter. You tilted your head back as she attacked it, your hands sat idle on her hips.

"mm ok...ok, seriously." you tapped Ellie's butt, "off"

The girl stubbornly sat up, still on you. "You're right, this isn't fun."

"Elsssss..." you tried to gently push her off, the force becoming harder as you hear the door open. Your girlfriend sat beside you, adjusting herself as Dina walked in. "uh...dinners ready...."

"cool. thanks" the response was quick.

"what the hellyante was going on in here" she spoke, leaning against the wall.

"we were just playing around, Dina, Geez"

"mmkay...." she turned and walked downstairs, you glared at Ellie, whispering. "baby...we have to be more careful ok?"

She pecked your lips

"Okayyy?" you repeated, stern.

"ok...sorry"

"dont like pasta?" Maria spoke up, eyes focused on Ellie's dinner plate.

She finished the salad, looking up at your mom, "Oh, uh, yeah I should have mentioned something earlier, Im actually gluten free."

"oh, honey im sorry!" Maria stood, "i'll grab some more salad"

"I don't get the new trend these days, oh vegans, oh restrictions! Oh I don't eat meat, or bread, or dairy, or whatever. It's nonsense, ya need carbs! Bunch of bullshit"

You paused, everyone looking at your dad, the table quiet for a moment before you cleared your throat, "dad....it's an allergy."

Tommy blinked. "oh. My bad. In that case, do NOT eat it!"

Your face buried into your hands "Jesus Christ."

"it's all good" Ellie smiled, finding humor in the chaos that was your family. Dina sat across from you both, swirling the pasta on her fork. Once in a while, she'd watch, almost studying you.

"You have sauce on your face" You try to throw off the scent, catching her staring. Your sister wiped at her chin with her sleeve, classy.

Maria spoke, "uh, dessert?"

You were thankful for the distraction.

Despite it being summer, Your dad and sister made a fire outside the cabin in the pit, illuminating the dark area of land as everyone made s'mores.

Ellie ate the chocolate and marshmallow on its own, opting to not burn it, making you raise a brow, "so...thats not how you make one, Ellie"

Your girlfriend giggled, "leave me alone...I don't wanna burn my mouth ok?"

"that's why you blow on it, and wait...You can't wait 5 seconds?"

....."no"

The two of you giggled, making Maria smile and turn her attention over to you both, Dina and Tommy inside.

"Are you enjoying yourself, Ellie?"

The girl sat up, adjusting herself, "y-yeah! yeah, thank you for inviting me along. loveeee sitting in the woods....super cool"

Your sneaker aimed for her ankle, sending her a glare that spoke "knock it off."

"I never asked, What is it that you are doin' now? school?" Your mom's oblivious smile persisted, watching her.

Clearing her throat, "uh, no, no college for me"

"oh? why not?"

"mom, not everyone has to go to college...." you tried to defend Ellie, sensing the judgement brewing already.

"No I know! I'm just curious, This is the time to get an education for a lasting career you know. Precious years"

"I mean...I can go to college anytime I want, I just think right now I'd rather focus on myself. I work at my dad's farm, and work on my art and stuff so I'm pretty busy"

"art?"

Ellie nods, breaking the mini Hershey in half as she ate it.

Your mom smiled, a bit sarcastically, "Well, that's a fun hobby, but art isn't a career"

"mom..." your voice grew worried

Ellie can handle her own, she confidently spoke, "I beg to differ, Art is very important"

Maria simply chuckled, "If you say so"

"I do say so"

You reached around to poke her back, wanting her to stop before an argument began. She got the hint and focused on her snack. Maria sat, amused. "well....I think it's getting late."

"I agree. Ellie?"

"yup."

You stood and tugged her inside, Maria calling out, "get some sleep, we have an early morning!"

Your feet pattered up the stairs, flicking the light on in the bedroom as you shut the door, leaning against it. "what the fuck, babe?"

Ellie's soft eyes got big, curious, "What?"

You sighed, knowing she didn't do anything wrong. "nothing. I just don't want my mom to offend you or some shit. She's...very judgmental."

"no judgement felt. It's not that easy to break me, trust" She spoke cockily, making you smile. "I know..I know, I'm just very protective and I can't protect you properly in front of them without possibly outing us both..."

"and that's what I love about you, you're like a guard dog"

You smiled, turning shy for a moment. "Yeah? You love me?"

"yes, dumbass. I do" Ellie came over, calloused hands rubbing your sides casually yet intimately. "kinda question is that?"

"I love you too"

"good."

Both of your lips met in a delicate, unrushed kiss.

The knock scared you both, you looked at Ellie before gently turning to open the door, "ye-"

"just checkin the air mattress, there was a hole I patched up, good as new. Should be fine" your dad barged in, pressing on the makeshift bed on the floor. "what we thinkin, ellie?"

The girl put her hands on her hips, walking over and laying down. "oh yeah,...quality stuff. Good job" she gave a thumbs up, making you hide a smile as you crawled into the bigger bed, looking down.

"great! works out!" Tommy came over, kissing your head, "night, darlin, you girls gotta be up early, so no chattin about boys or shit"

-and just like that, he's out the room. The sound of the door shutting made Ellie sit up, whispering. "boys?"

You snickered, not yet moving until you could hear your parents bedroom door shut for the night, and once you did, you reached over to flick the dim lamp on.

"yeah, boys." your eyes looked down at your poor girlfriend, basically flat on the hardwood floor.

Ellie stood, "yeah, no, i'm not sleeping there. I don't want scoliosis to be my only souvenir from this trip."

you muffled a laugh with your palm, reaching out to her sleeve, "cmere..."

Ellie crawled beside you, making out the shadows of your features in the dim room. She couldn't wait to touch you, finally. "Hi"

Laying your head back on the pillow, your eyes met hers, a whisper, "hi".

"you're so pretty..." Ellie cooed, nuzzling against you in her dinosaur pajamas. "yeah? you think, honey?"

"mhm" her head nodded, pressing kisses along your collar bones until she reached up behind your ear, the action sending a slight shiver down your skin.

"mmm...I think you're just lovely.." you mumble, hand casually brushing the somewhat messy brown hair on Ellie's head.

Ellie gave you a silly, sneaky look before messing with your tank top strap. "what're you up to..?" your voice was a whisper, no intent to actually stop her.

"Did I ever tell you that I'm gay?"

You snort, closing your eyes as your hand rests on your forehead, hair sprawled along the white pillow beneath you. "What!? you are??"

"surprise" Ellie bit her lip, giggling quietly as her fingers gently pulled the fabric of your tank top down, now exposing the soft covering of your sports bra. "you still fuck with me or nah?"

"mmmm....nah"

You both shared another laugh, attempting to be quiet. You watched her with hooded eyes as she continued her actions, hand gently groping your breast, lips attached to your neck, making you involuntarily moan.

"shhh..." Ellie reminded you, a smirk evident.

"you're such an ass...."

She shrugged, not denying your statement as her fingers pulled the sports bra down, your breasts slowly sliding out of it. "actually I lied"

You tilt your head

"i'm not gay...i'm really gay"

You flicked her head before brushing her hair back, not having time to make a stupid comment in return before she attached her lips around your nipple, her mouth ever so gently sucking at the soft skin.

You shut your eyes, mouth agape, "oh, babe...." your fingers found her nape, rubbing at the spot slowly.

On cue, Her other hand reached up to slide her thumb over your untouched breast, humming against you in contentment.

Your breath was slightly uneven, letting her do whatever as you stayed put, hands comfortingly brushing through your girlfriends hair.

Ellie slid her knee between your legs, brushing against your cute, purple pajama shorts. "oh...mmm" you looked down, making eye contact as you rutted your clothed pussy against her knee, with 0 shame.

Your hand reached to hold her side, moving up and down slowly as her tongue continued to swirl around on your chest, the feeling making you arch into her.

Ellie sat up, looking at you with a smug expression. Your eyes were big, and fucked out already, almost a pout.

She laid beside you again, kissing your lips slowly as her hand reached down, parting your bent legs, fingers sliding under your panties as she watched your reaction.

"uh-mphm" You tiled your head back, arms clung to her as your face read desperation, Ellie's reading humor.

"gotta be quiet, yeah? imagine your parent's findin out. no fun.." The brunette teased, fingers slowlllyyyy circling your clit, finding this exhilarating.

You kissed her again, not trusting your mouth to be quiet as your tongues clashed against each other. Ellie continued her relentless assault on your soaked core, speeding the pace up as you clenched around nothing.

Inviting Ellie on the family trip meant you'd have to be really secretive, and you knew that. What you didn't expect, is for her to already have her fingers in you on the first night.

So much for "easing into things".

"It feels good? yeah?" with her mouth pressed against your ear, the words felt more intimate, you were overwhelmed, arm cling around her as Ellie's middle and ring finger curled inside you, the noise of your arousal was louder than both of you.

You whined, looking up at her with scrunched eyebrows, hips chasing her hand's every movement, "oh I know.." she whispered against you, "I know it feels so good, you wanna cum for me? I know you can, wanna feel it, baby"

Her barley audible dirty words made you clench, nails digging against her arm, "ellie..."

"mm?" She smirked, focusing on your expression, her aim hitting just the right spot. She saw it in your face, you were close.

Your thighs clamped together as you arched, face hidden in her neck as Ellie put her hand over your mouth, "shhhhh...poor baby, be quiet..."

Her hand slid out of you, trailing up your stomach as they left a slight trail of wetness. "you didn't even tell me you were coming?" she teased, tilting her head as she forced you to look at her.

"it just happened" you squeaked out, clinging to her, legs slightly shaky.

"mm...really needed that, huh?" Ellie draped the blanket over you both, licking her fingers clean before rubbing your breast gently,

"you're really ballsy for doin that with my parents down the hall..."

"yeah, I am. But it felt good, didn't it?"

".....shut up"

Your girlfriend embraced you lovingly, rubbing your back slowly as her eyes watched your sleepy figure. You lazily looked back at her. "I love you."

"love you too...so much, baby"

You slid your hand into hers, interlocking your fingers as you whisper again, "ellie....?"

She noticed the slight change in your demeanor, paying attention, "hm...?"

You swallowed, watching her.

"I think I wanna come out soon."

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