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justin bieber yelling swaggie

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Shoutout to Jean dropping “stupid, beautiful Kevin” on us because he ate with that. That’s exactly what Kevin is, both stupid and beautiful. Amazing, descriptive, heartbreaking, straight to the point. I haven’t stopped thinking about it. Stupid, beautiful Kevin indeed

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Ramadan with trojans

Nabil and Laila are sendinh each other suhoor(before dawn meal) pics to keep eachother motivated

After iftar(after sunset meal) workout sessions with cat

Tony brings iftar boxes for them during matches with like dates and some high nutrition foods

(And ofcourse chbekia and other ramadan must have sweets)

When Laila is on her period unable to fast, Nabil still makes sure she eats iftar with him. She sends him replies like "YOU GOT THIS" to the suhoor pics those days. And they include and support each other thru the entire month

When the end of ramadan is near Cat Jeremy and Tony get the team together to organise a Eid celebration for them.

They look up some lebanese and moroccan (my nabil mahmoud is moroccan yes) sweets and traditional food and search where they can get it

Eid is absolutely amazing but maybe ill make a different post for that on the day self we'll see

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The way Nora wrote nabil and laila is so dear and close and precious to me. I have never truly felt so close to characters the way i feel to hers.

I just appreciate so much how she wrote them in so casually but also acknowledging that there ARE racists and islamophobes around them but its not this whole thing yknow its not the main thing about them no its such a small acknowledgment thats exactly the right amount for it to be super natural and them still be their own person.

Especially combined with laila's queer identity (we dont know that about nabil but imma just headcanon that hes queer cuz hes a trojan) i genuinely sobbed reading tgr this series is so close to my heart.

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if i was kevin day id be more annoying actually

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This is everything to me

apparently i cannot read aftg without forcing my own headcanons on y’all (first laila, now nabil) so here you go: my nabil mahmoud (mostly religious trauma so trigger warning) & tony jones headcanons

since tony jones is an assistant i headcanon him to be an intern, maybe a year or two older than nabil is.

since it was mentioned in tsc that tony has made it a habit to wait on nabil to finish praying i would like to put my take out there.

tony and nabil have made it a bit of a habit to linger around each other.

at first they didn’t even realise it. tony would linger after cleanup, and take his precious time doing his rounds, so he could catch nabil after showers and they could leave the building together.

nabil on the other hand would in return linger right after practice, helping tony out with the mess they had left behind on the field during practice.

it was laila who pointed their lingering behaviour out to nabil. she would tease him about how he’d always try to remove himself from conversations during their walk to the dressing room so he could catch a few extra minutes with tony instead.

nabil, who was a trojan at heart, would brush it off as him being polite and friendly— he's very aware of his sexuality, but it's something he has also surpressed a lot, due to religious trauma.

he would disregard his feelings towards tony and shove them down so deep that sometimes even he would forget the feelings were there.

but then he would pray before a game and tony would respectfully watch him in silence and give him a smile when nabil stood up from his prayer mat.

the flutter in his heart right after prayer would be followed with guilt washing over him.

even though his guilt would eat him up so much, he'd never take it out on tony. he would return tony's big smile, but tony would notice when nabil grew quieter— especially because nabil had a loud and hyper personality most days.

also the religious trauma is rooted into the fear of his parents' reactions.

most days he catches himself not even caring that he likes men— the guilt would only catch up with him when he thinks about how angry and disappointed his parents would be.

at some point the tony & nabil lingering around each other to catch a few extra minutes together turns into lingering touches.

it starts during games. nabil plays a full half and tony is quick to catch on that nabil needs a bit of help taking his gloves off. tony would in return help nabil out, carefully taking his glove off and examining nabil's hand.

nabil knows he doesn't need the examination, but he lets tony's hands linger on his and forces his eyes on the field to not get distracted by his feelings catching up with him.

tony nods at him in a confirmation he's okay, which nabil knows— he wasn't injured in the first place, his hands were just shaking a bit more than usual.

after one of the many games nabil asks tony out. which surprises tony beyond comprehension.

tony has watched nabil pray time after time. between practices. before games. during small breaks on the road when they have an away game. tony might have wished for nabil to share his feelings, but he never thought nabil would make the first step.

nabil nervously smiles at him and when the silence drags on a little too long he apologises in shame.

"i'm sorry. i thought— well, i thought you liked me too. i shouldn't have asked. it was stupid of me. reckless even, i'm sorry."

at some point nabil wonders who he's apologising to. to tony? to god? to his parents? it doesn't really matter, because the relief washes over him almost instantly when he realises he can live with the knowledge he still hasn't commited the sin that's waiting for him.

and then tony apologises in return for his belated reaction and tells nabil he loves to go out with him sometime.

and nabil expects the guilt to eat him up alive, but instead he forgets all his surpressed trauma and fears and smiles at tony.

"really?" he asks.

"yeah, really. as long as you're okay with it. i don't want to come inbetween you and your religion." tony tells him earnestly. and it catches nabil so off guard, that tony might have taken his religion into consideration too.

so in return nabil decides to admit something he never thought he would admit.

"if it's you, i don't think i’ll care what price i have to pay." and nabil realises he truly means his words. he promises himself to make whatever deal with god to keep tony in his life.

a silent prayer follows him around in which he reminds himself (and god) to live as earnestly as he can in return for forgivness on the one sin he knows he can't avoid.

he smiles at tony and helps him out with the last few tasks that tony is supposed to finish tonight.

instead of going to his apartment he goes straight to laila’s address without calling first.

both laila and cat welcome him with open arms like they’ve done many times before.

he spends the night with his head in laila's lap, talking about all his feelings for tony and the guilt and shame that comes along with it when he thinks about his parents.

laila wakes him up around fajr (dawn) prayer. she’s carrying a prayer mat and wearing a hijab (headscarf) which she only wears during prayers.

he wakes up slowly, but he realises if laila is okay sharing her bed with cat and still waking up at dawn so she can commit herself to god— he could be okay with this too one day.

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autumn crows !

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Its so sad because my best work is fanfics and I just want my parents to be proud of me, but if I showed them thousands of words on dead wizards theyd just be disappointed

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I can't read one shots anymore, I need to invest myself physically and emotionally in the fics I'm reading. 86,804 words? yes please. 526,969 words and 188 chapters?? I'll eat it all up, I'll leave no crumbs. it has a sequel??!!!! GIMME IT. I need them to consume me. if a fic doesn't take every hour of every day, then what's the point?

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Reblogging cuz i need em

stargazing date, staring at moon date, museum date, library date, napping date, coffee shop date, bookstore date, art gallery date, painting date, walk in park date, late night date, picnic date, lunch date, dinner date, eating together ice cream date, riding bike date, visiting flower fields date, taking a walk during rain date, reading each other favorite book date, watching movies date, shopping date, skating date, watching sunset and sunrise date, playing basketball date.

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Finished ari and dante (the first book) and life will never go back to the way it was before. Ari and me are the same person but we're also so different. He's everything to me

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Ron: what seems to be the problem?

Harry: I don’t know exactly, but it all started when I was a baby and my parents were murdered

Ron: I meant with the car

Harry: oh, it makes a beeping sound every time I slam my head into the steering wheel

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Imagine not having any specific talent and you're kinda average at everything and now you don't know what to do with your life cuz everyone chooses a career that they're great at and you're just meh at everything even when you put your heart and soul into things hahaha that's me

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When you have trust issues and your friends get new friends and relationships and you think it won't be long till they leave youhahahahahahahah

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Daamnnn I felt this on a spiritual level

me: i love dark academia!!!! give it to me!!!!!! libraries!!!! classical literature!!!!!! coffee shops!!!!! rain!!!!!!! languages!!!!!!! poetry!!!! blazers!!!!!! all of my favorite things!!!!!!

also me: i want to drop out of college :(

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eYE- WHERE IS THE LIE-

Troye Sivan is my twinky Draco

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Hello

I just wanna ask if more people could do hp social media au's because i love them thank you very much