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[shehasfallennn]

and if you no longer feel the same love you had once felt for me,

please set me free.

do not confuse me anymore by giving me false hopes and promises, by making me believe we still have a future together if you’ll leave me hanging looking like a fool afterwards just simply because you cannot make up your mind.

“it confuses me if you still love me, or you just love the idea of having me so no one else could.” – Rie Jules

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why is there always something sweet in the forbidden?

eyes displaying attraction,

system shaking in frustration,

body craving for heavenly sensation—

what an agonizing seduction!

it was her—your forbidden fruit,

then there's you, a lustful brute;

no one but a slave of burning passion—

restrain from conceding to temptation.

it was her—your brother's bride,

you're not allowed to enter and ride.

look away from those luscious lips;

resist her magnificent swaying hips.

it was her—your dark fairytale,

she got Lucifer's horn and a devil's tail.

don't get lost in her feathery touch;

there's wickedness in her you can't match.

eyes displaying attraction,

system shaking in frustration,

body craving for heavenly sensation—

what an agonizing seduction!

forbidden pleasure | janedowsinistre

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of course i can live without you.

i just think i'd live brighter—better if we're together though.

Rie Jules

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This is a gentle reminder that it's okay to ask. When you're confused, doubtful, in need of help, or when you don't know anything about something that concerns you or you're interested in, ask—kindly, gently, respectfully.

Rie Jules

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I want you to remember that you shouldn't wait for someone else to save or heal you. We are in charge of and capable of mending ourselves. At the end of the day, we are the only ones who can save us. Strangers will inevitably enter our lives at some point, and they will eventually become an important part of our existence. While some will choose to stay, others will not, and this is when one of life's most difficult lessons comes into play: letting go. Whether it's guilt, wrath, love, grief, or betrayal, we've all experienced it. Change is never easy. We fight to hold on and we fight to let go. We must bear in mind that there are things we don't want to happen but must accept, things we don't want to know but must learn, and people we said we couldn't live without but must let go of.

And when things get confusing, don't seek to understand everything; because sometimes, things aren't meant to be understood, but to be accepted.

Rie Jules

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and i wanted to remind you that when you were at your lowest,

you were there for yourself.

you got up and continued living. so why do you think you aren't deserving of anything good?

Rie Jules

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and i needed it—the space, the time to think things through. so i can reflect on everything i did and everything i said in the same manner i've thought of yours. i needed to reassess if i'm still firm with the boundaries i set or if i've bended everything for you already. so please don't make me feel like you're okay without us talking to each other for weeks or months. please don't make me feel like it's so easy for you to give up on us and throw everything away. because i cannot think of such things without the tightness in my chest and without me forcing myself to swallow the lump in my throat and prevent my tears from falling.

i just needed the time and space. it doesn't mean i'm okay with losing you.

– Rie Jules

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i admire those who are brave enough to share their language of love to the universe.

those who aren't afraid to tear down their walls and share their vulnerabilities, those who are courageous enough to try to explain their pain and suffering and heartaches as well as their joys and triumphs and those confusing paths they took towards healing, even if some wouldn't understand. because feelings—they're complex and confusing and startling.

Rie Jules

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If my relationship with the person I consider my soulmate and the person I wanna spend the rest of my life with ends, it would shatter me, for sure.

But I would still be happy for him. And. . .

I would happily tell the world that once, I had this person—we had each other, and we were in love, and it was beautiful. Even if it was meant to end.

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and how many times did i say we're all gonna be alright already? i meant it. i always do.

there will be brighter days ahead of us.

it'll get better. so live. and live beautifully. i'll be one of the happiest people when you finally put on that beautiful smile on your face as you fight your way towards your future. you got this, love.

“i hope we all win in life. ”– Rie Jules

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and maybe they were right about how you didn't deserve me,

but you had me. i chose you. and as if that alone wasn't proof enough of how far i was willing to be held in your arms, you proved them right by pushing me away, by betraying me.

“and that killed me, for betrayal is one thing i abhor the most” – Rie Jules

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he told me,

“if epinephrine were a person, it would be you.”

tears threatened to spill from my eyes as warmth spread through my chest. being someone's “lover” or “other half” or “soulmate” is one. but to be compared to the very drug of choice for anaphylactic shock and asthma attacks by your lover who has asthma and severe allergies is of another level. i told him it felt like i was his saving grace and he agreed, calling me his “lifeline”.

“and if that isn't love, how else would you call it?” – Rie Jules

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i hope you know that i love you. and that you can feel its sincerity despite the distance.

that no other person i get to see or talk to on a daily basis can make my heart thump painfully inside my chest and soothe its troubles and worries at the same time, as you do.

“i love you, and i have no plans on stopping” – Rie Jules

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i know i told you i'll always be here for you, praying for you. . . rooting for you. . . loving you. that i am yours as long as we're both breathing. but when it comes to a point where i had to choose between losing you or losing myself, i hope you'll learn to forgive me eventually for what i would choose.

because i cannot lose myself—not again.

and i know it'll break my heart in more ways than one, but what other better choice do i have but to let go and mourn for a love that is set to ruin me? – Rie Jules

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i wanted so bad to tell you i'm okay and that it doesn't hurt,

but i cannot keep on ignoring this piercing feeling in my heart whenever i remember you can go through your days and weeks without knowing how i truly am.

“i wanna know how you do it without missing me one bit” – Rie Jules

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and perhaps, it was true—

that there exists a love that will make you come undone, in the most breathtakingly heartbreaking way possible.

a love that grips your soul, tearing down every inch of your barrier, leaving you exposed and vulnerable. and you will not regret nor despise it. if anything, you will repeatedly wish for it not to be over, sincerely pray for it to be yours, so that in the end, you can triumphantly say, “the pain is exceedingly worth it, after all.”

“i just wasn't expecting to encounter it at this lifetime”–Rie Jules

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they say when you're tired, your mind has less energy to think about things.

and yet, it can't help but still think of you.

Rie Jules