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First live performance of "queen anne," last night at Couth Buzzard Books Espresso Buono Cafe in the ‪Greenwood‬ neighborhood of ‪Seattle‬. Part two of a two-song set.

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First live performance of "the death i deserve," last night at Couth Buzzard Books Espresso Buono Cafe in the ‪Greenwood‬ neighborhood of ‪Seattle‬. Part one of a two-song set.

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queen anne © 2016 harper blue music

queen anne’s head is missing but i still remember kissing her mouth areolae glistening as i made my way further to the south crimes may have been committed but the judge was high and the jury’s out all our friends are listening and i don’t know what to say to them now i can’t stop walking kinnear in my mind through all the history she left behind i know it’s never the time but we think that it is and i thought it was mine i can’t stop walking kinnear in my mind queen anne’s heart is bursting and there isn’t any room at the inn no not for girls like me too poor to show without an invitation she moved just down the street she’s got a bigger kitchen it’s really nice but i had to gtfo when she said “take the futon for the night” i can’t stop holding her hand in my head wishing she’d held a little longer instead of giving up on these hills alive with sounds of music but buried in bills i can’t stop holding her hand in my head in my head i know i wasn’t royalty but i still fit in and i still was me my mistake was believing that could change i know i was the nobody in your “nobody does that” nobody’s me my mistake was believing that could change i can’t stop holding her hand in my head but i still fit in and i still was me wishing she’d held a little longer instead to her “nobody does that” nobody’s me not giving up on these hills alive with sounds of music but buried in bills i can’t stop holding her hand in my head in my head queen anne’s head is missing but i still remember kissing her mouth

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOd8hufwBTE)

Here's the first-ever recording and live performance of "a diving lesson," at Couth Buzzard Books Espresso Buono Cafe's ‪open mic last Wednesday.

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Here's the first-ever live performance of "bitter doors," at Couth Buzzard Books Espresso Buono Cafe's ‪open mic last Wednesday.

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bitter doors © 2015 harper blue music

are you rea-rea-rea-rea-ready to go home alone well i am drea-drea-drea-drea-dreading it it’s the unknown am i so stu-stu-stu-stu-stuck in my peculiar ways they’re only pe-pe-pe-peculiar to my alien race so am i out of my mind or are you just stuck inside yours or is it something we’ll find that lies between these bitter doors you wanna know know know know what’s happening inside my head but i can’t tell tell tell tell tell there are no words for it what do i call call call call call a color i’ve never seen how do i make make make make make a sound i’m still hearing so am i out of my mind or are you just stuck inside yours or is it something we’ll find that lies between these bitter doors i get so hung up on the ways that i am different but when there’s music i start movin’ to the rhythm and i noticed that you do the same, but when you flash a smile and i can’t read that expression, is it just ironic, is it happy, or is it chagrined or something else that i can’t name i don’t feel safe just out of place i don’t feel sane i don’t feel sane i don’t feel sane so am i out of my mind or are you just stuck inside yours or is it something we’ll find that lies between these bitter doors

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while you're mourning the death of a son who had never been alive i am mourning the senseless waste of your daughter's final night oh how tired and empty all of your words turned out to be now she's gone and she'll never teach you the things you need to see didn't you want to meet your daughter didn't you want to know her name leelah needed both her parents to give her love in jesus' name maybe that will sound familiar for aren't god and love the same faith and hope have led you nowhere she is gone and you're to blame you said god doesn't make mistakes well let's stipulate that's true wasn't that soul inside that body a test for her and you you were given the chance of chances to demonstrate god's love now your failure has brought you mis- ery from up above leelah needed time she needed love while she was alive she needed to be who she was not who you wanted

© 2014 harper blue music

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An old favorite.

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You whispered your secrets so deep in my skin, you clawed your fingertips to leave red marks in my flesh and blood. My flesh and blood.

When I’m hearing ghosts to the side of my eyes, you just get angry whenever you try 'cause it's not enough. It's not enough.

'Cause I let my dreams drag me under the waves like an ocean of thinking we are the same.

There’s something to be said of the things that you hide. The footprints are empty, but lead to your pride, it’s your flesh and blood. Your flesh and blood.

You would take my hand, but you won’t join my cause when I would forgive you for all of your flaws, is it not enough? Am I not enough?

When all you have, you can’t bear to give away, and I’m not enough for you to fill up that space. What you don’t give to me.

So don’t lock me out, and don’t lock me away. We are not our words, we are not what we say, we are flesh and blood. We are flesh and blood.

Written for X-Men: First Class and X-Men: Days of Future Past.

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It's been a year since I wrote and recorded this.  I was out watching a 4th of July fireworks display with some friends, with the main riff stuck in my head.  The words came to me while walking to the show, watching it, and walking back from it.  Then I sat down and sussed out the chord progression, and recorded it with the webcam when I got back to my laptop the next day.

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latest leak

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pete brings LeBroning to Mexico. panicatthedisco & newpolitics have no idea what’s going on 

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i should never be let down

© 2004 harper blue music

for all the ways you’ve lifted me there ought to be no complaints i should never be let down i should never be let down but i am i should never be let down for all the hands i’ve been lent i should have been a better man i should never be let down i should never be let down but i am i should never be let down

http://signsofastruggle.com/songs/i-should-never-be-let-down/

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First new song of 2014.

break of dawn

© 2014 harper blue music

waited for you until the break of dawn now baby i know we’re through and i know that it’s wrong but maybe me and you we could try again this year well what could we do if we stopped pretending things were ever just fine the way they are just punishment for the crime of trying too hard everyone i know’s afraid of dying alone but baby i’m more afraid of being alive did my texts go through i must’ve written sixteen baby they were for you just like all my dreams are lately empty too that missing man formation is my life absence is cruel baby now i understand that things were never just fine the way they are just punishment for the crime of trying too hard everyone i know’s afraid of dying alone but baby i’m more afraid of being alive

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© 2005 Sam Beam Music Originally performed by Iron & Wine, from the album Our Endless Numbered Days mp3 conversion available at http://signsofastruggle.com/s...

Quick acoustic webcam demo of an Iron & Wine song.

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© 2005, 2013 Harper Blue Music, All Rights Reserved Lyrics at http://signsofastruggle.com/songs/resection

Quick acoustic webcam demo of an original song.