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Random ahh writer things for romance except idk if imma put this in my novel or nah

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"...Why....Why do you still love me after everything?"

My eyes teared up as I looked up at him, I never felt any type of love before, I don't even know what love it.

Even in my past life I never knew how to feel love in the first place, and i was considered too boring or plain to have someone be even a bit interested in me.

His eyes looked at mine softly, almost as if looking at a poor stray cat.

'He pities me...he doesnt actually love me...I can tell...'

The way his eyes softened yet he wasnt blushing, he wasnt flustered, he just looked at me with pity in his eyes.

"Sora...I do love you, you are too unique for me to ignore that easily-"

"Is that what it is? I'm somehow too unique to be ignored? Everyone is unique, so stop trying to convince me that you somehow like me."

I looked away from him, but before I could do anything else, i suddenly felt the palm of his hand on my cheek.

His hand felt warm against my cheek as his thumb softly massaged my skin.

"Sora...Sweetie i-...Please believe me! I do love you!"

He pulled me into a tight hug, his arms wrapped around my body as I could feel his tears fall down his cheeks and land on my shoulder.

"Why do you always act like you aren't important to anyone...to me?"

I couldnt say anything.

I didnt have an answer at all.

All i could do was stand there in silence, I didnt bother hugging him back since i didnt want him to feel like I somehow wanted him.

He was just another character to me.

Nothing more, nothing less.

I cant see him as a real person, so why is he so focused on convincing me that he loves me?

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More ideas for my current novel "Trapped in my Worst Novel"

Lowkey self-projecting onto the mc here except i make my issues sound x500 worst than it actually is

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"I hate myself."

"I fucking hate myself."

I was again in this white void that burned my eyes.

My surroundings were white, and nothing but white.

All of my deep thoughts, all of my hidden insecurities, the truth could finally be revealed to me...

...And as soon as it did, this white void suddenly turned dark without any warning.

The color black perfectly described my current thoughts and mental state at that moment.

Die, revive, live, die, revive, live, die, and repeat until i survive.

I'm going to die soon enough, and i'm going to revive back to the morning as if nothing happened just to re-live the same goddamn day over and over again.

"I want to do everything yet I expect others to do it for me instead of actually putting in the effort. I'm impulsive and only actually think about the conséquences after I already got my punishment."

My chest felt cold, cold with the guilt of even living.

"Ah yes, my dear writer, admit your mistakes. Admit just how pathetic you are..."

The same girl from my dreams with those white wings got behind me as she put her hands on her shoulders, almost as if trying to comfort me without any true empathy.

"I hate myself. I hate this world. I wish i would just...die..."

"Yes...continue, ehehe~"

My eyes were silently tearing up and my fingers were shaking.

"My words never say what i truly mean, I always push others away when i realize that the other person may not actually like me..."

The Void around me got darker and colder, almost as if taunting me to keep making myself feel worse about my entire useless existence.

"I'm a mistake. I'm not supposed to live....Why am I alive? Why am I so selfish?? Why am I so stupid??"

Before i could even realize it, I started genuinely crying my eyes out.

The thoughts overtook me, and all that was left was sadness.

A deep sadness that no amount of pills could help with.

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I have ambition but im lazy.

So many ideas yet no motivation.

So many plans but not smart enough to execute them.

Whats the point in living?

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Aight heres a REALLYY rough draft for angst for my novel "Trapped in my Worst Novel" that's currently on Wattpad.

This could be kinda count as spoilers ig but its just a really rough draft that im not even sure if i'll add or not.

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Here it is.

The dungeon boss that our teacher claimed was dangerous to go check out.

I looked behind me to make sure nobody was missing.

Zineb Bankary, Aaron Earlking, Youssouf Prothano, Ghita Adarnalin, Yoo Suho.

'Alright, everyone's here.'

Since my role was the distractor, i was the one that should enter the boss room first to make sure i could somewhat distract the boss and allow my classmates to defeat it.

"Well...here goes nothing.."

I pushed the door open and i took a few steps inside.

Yet the others were looking at me almost like they were guilty...except Aaron Earlking, who had a smirk on his face.

"What are you guys waiting for?"

"Heh, thanks for being such a good distractor, my dear Sora."

Before i could even understand what he meant, he suddenly pushed me roughly even deeper inside the boss room before immediately closing the door.

He locked me inside the boss room.

I was just a distractor with barely any actual fighting abilities other than distract ennemies.

My chest felt heavy and cold as i ran towards the locked door.

I could feel myself getting stressed again.

This wasn't good.

"LET ME OUT!!! LET ME OUT YOU BASTARD!!!! WHY DID YOU DO THAT?!?! LET ME OUT RIGHT NOW!!"

"Pff....haha...."

I could barely hear Aaron's voice, but i could still tell that he was laughing as if he did something good for the world.

"PLEASE LET ME OUT....I DON'T WANNA DIE HERE PLEASE..I DONT WANNA DIE PLEASE.."

Tears fell down my eyes as I slowly turned around to see a huge, 10 feet tall monster.

His teeth was covered in blood, his claws were long and sharp, his blood red eyes looked at me as if I was his prey.

'My role wasnt meant for individual fights. They're meant for a team fight.'

I cant do anything.

No matter how many skills i may have, I'm still rank D-. That's considered below average.

I was frozen in fear as the monster ran at me with glee in their eyes.

"GET AWAY FROM ME!! SOMEONE OPEN THIS DOOR NOW PLEAS-"

My words meant nothing in the end as the creature bit my entire arm as if it was nothing.

"AAAAAAAAH! Y-YOU BASTARDS!!! I HATE YOU GUYS!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!! LET ME OUT IMMEDIATE.....Ly.....please....."

I felt an intense pain in my chest as i realized that this boss was already digging into my chest and throwing my organs behind him as if I was some sort of toy.

"H....help....."

Those were my final words before my entire heart was pulled out of my body, killing me completely.

I couldnt feel a thing. I couldn't hear a thing.

I was alone, and betrayed, by my own classmates.

I deserted this.

This was all my fault.

My fault for being a writer.

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Currently writing a novel so here's a scene i lowkey wanna put in my novel for angst ("Trapped in my Worst Novel" currently on wattpad).

Btw these arent spoilers, its just a quick draft (and theres not really any plot here).

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I sat down on the cold, green grass, my arms wrapped around my legs as i looked up at the dark, star filled sky.

It's been...weird. Everything about my situation is weird.

I died and woke up in my worst novel, I managed to become somewhat acquaintances with some of the important characters of the original novel....Yet...

Yet...I still can't see them as human. I can't see this entire world as a real.

I'm still stuck. Stuck on this idea that im the only real person here. Stuck on the fact that im the only one who knows that this world isnt real.

I can't talk to anyone here about it, they'll just think I'm a psychopath or have some sort of mental health issues.

"....I miss my friends..."

My vision felt a bit blurry, as if I was about to start crying.

My old family, my friends from my past life. They were all so dear to me. So important.

But...even though I wrote these characters to be inspired by my old friends, nothing can replace the real thing no matter how many times you try to recreate them.

"Hm? Sora? Is that you?"

Even though the moonlight was the only possible source of light, Zineb still manages to find me.

I quietly wiped my tears away with my shirt so she coudnt see me act so weak.

"Uh..Yeah.. It's me."

My voice thankfully didn't sound shaky, so she wasn't suspicious of me at all.

"I knew it!! It's really easy to recognize you because of your eyes!! You know? Those hetechromia red and cyan blue eyes you got? They really shine brightly in the moonlight."

She sat down next to me, but unlike me, she leaned backwards and put her arms behind her to keep her upper body standing while crossing her legs.

Her ocean blue eyes shone brightly as the moonlight hit it perfectly.

'No matter how much i look at my surroundings or the characters infront of me, I still feel like i don't belong here.'

My mind and heart couldn't fully connect with her, almost as if I put up a wall to avoid being close with a character that shouldn't have noticed me in the beginning.

"The moonlight is really pretty, huh?"

I looked back at the moon and the stars, which looked so close yet so far.

"Mhm...They really are.."

I hated this.

I didnt want to be close with a character I created.

I wasnt supposed to be here in the first place.

I couldnt accept that this was my reality now, and i knew that I had to pay the price.

"...You know..It feels a bit weird trying to hang out with you."

"H-huh?"

My confusion was pretty clear from my voice, and my eyes glanced back at her.

She had..a somber look on her face, which was nothing close to her usual cheerful look.

"Well...You always look at me and other people as if they were annoyances to you, you never looked at me as if I was your real friend..."

This...was something I never saw before.

"But you aren't an annoyance to me.."

Although I said those words with as much sincerity as i could muster up, I knew that it was a lie.

A lie I've spoken so often in my past life that its almost natural to me.

"Stop..Stop fucking lying to me. Your eyes tells me all I need to know. You dont see me as a real friend, do you?"

"W-what? I-i do see you as a real friend! I...I just..."

'I just can't see you as anything more than a character. A useless character that is supposed to die in the story for the main character's sake.'

I couldn't actually say that though, it would sound rude.

"Then why...Why do you look at me with those eyes?"

My mouth couldn't even answer that question..I didn't know what to say, i didn't know how I even looked at others.

"I...uh..I just always looked at others this way...."

A lie.

A clear lie.

I don't know if she would be gullible enough to believe me.

*sigh....*

"I..Tsk....Forget it. Just pretend this conversation never happened."

She quickly stood up, her curly blue hair shining as she looked at me coldly.

'Right. I wrote your destiny, and you were destined to die. I deserve that cold, hateful look in your eyes.'

I couldn't tell what she was thinking. I never knew what complex feelings other people felt just by looking at them.

As she walked away, she took one quick glance back at me, almost as if hoping for something, anything.

....And I just waved her goodbye. I didn't know how I even looked at her but she got even colder than before and quickly stormed off.

'Wow....Hah, I must really be stupid if i couldn't even know what she was thinking there...'

'I'm the author who took her own sweet time writing each character, yet i can't even know what one of the most importantly characters of my novel is thinking...'

I buried my head into my arms, which were wrapped even tighter around my legs.

'...How fucking stupid am I? Why don't I have the intelligence or skills like most isekai main characters?'

No helpful system, no extra perk, absolutely nothing.

It's almost like this world is mocking me for being so useless without help.

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BRO IM FEELING SO ANXIOUS RN AND IDK WHY ITS LIKE A GUT FEELING THAT SMTH IS GONNA GO WRONG

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yeah the world is slowly going insane, people are trying to normalize rape, a lot of youtubers are suddenly touching little kids and everything is going wrong

at this point, why would i want to live in a world like this where all morals and common sense are thrown out the window??

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Out of all the superpowers out there, you consider yours the most sadistic; you can save any number of innocent people from death in the face of danger, but to gain that ability, you must kill an innocent person. Named after the infamous moral thought experiment, you are… Trolley Man.

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ahahah yep this is the entire concept, i'm thinking that every monster in the underground still remembers what Frisk did in the other timelines, but since the fallen human has changed now, they are all so confused lol

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lmao i made an Undertale oc, i had an idea to draw a UT oc during class one day so i decided to create a stressed out human called "Sayaka". Might add some info about her since i already has a couple of plans for her lol

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Just a thought

I just had a thought... Imagine one day when i'm home alone, i decide to talk to myself and act out an imaginary situation that will never happen irl...

but what i don't know is some of my classmates or people who know me snuck into my house to try and scare me but instead they just see me, walking around the house talking to no one...

I'm scared now

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... I just coughed and i felt a vibration coming from my chest wtff..This happened 10 times today wtf is happening

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I am now obsessed with Anxietytale (undertale AU), Welcome Home, ENA, Kel (omori) and Noelle (Genshin). Idk it's just a weird hyperfixation i have rn for no reason

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Lmao i'm really sick rn and i really feel disgusting lol, but atleast i don't have to fast today (i'm muslim btw and right now it's ramadan lol) But yeah i'm coughing so much it's unbearable, and i just noticed how loud i cough, even as a girl i cough like a grown man 💀💀

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In the midst of combat, the villain watches in terror as the hero swallows an entire roast chicken, two cheese wheels, and a whole watermelon at once.