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seepy

hey guys! im still alive lol

testing szn at school rn, sooo tired.

jk i never study i am in deep crap rn

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAX

TODAY IS MY DOGS BIRTHDAY!!

he is turning 10 years old!

please wish him a happy birthday 🥳

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is keratin worth it?

i'm considering a keratin hair treatment

will the chemicals really flatten and damage my hair? my hair is crazy frizzy and curly, and i am so tired of killing myself every day styling it and getting it wet and getting hair product all over the bathroom it is so. tiring.

doing my hair at night always ends up with me going to bed at 1:45 am and having to normally wake up at 5:25 for school

if i do it in the morning, i will (without fail) be late for school

i've tried detoxifying shampoo, it just makes my hair flat and straight and unable to curl, and i've tried shampoo for high porosity hair (mine) and it just makes it absolutely impossible to do, it feels so greasy and weighted after using it.

i've tried cheap shampoos and conditioners, expensive shampoos and conditioners, mousse, gel, leave-in detanglers and conditioners, curl cream, atp im just so DONE

no matter WHAT, my hair will be 1. frizzy 2. flat 3. uneven because one side of my curly curtain bangs coils more than the other 4. UGLY

no matter how LONG or SHORT or LAYERED my hair is, IT. WILL. BE. UGLY.

and on the RARE RARE RARE occasions that it does look good, it only lasts ONE DAY

im getting angrier while typing this

please help one curl girl to another

love you bye

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GAGA. IS. BACK.

i was (and still am) mesmerized by her new music video. its literally everything. EVERYTHING!!

i am SO excited for her new album to come out this march its gonna be so epic

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grammies (part two)

HOW. DID I GORGET. TO MENTION. BILLIES PERFORMANCE?

my bad guys but that was genuinely such a beautiful performance. the LA mountains in the back, the squares that would fade in showing the destruction, the memories, and just the beauty of the nature that once was, it was absolutely amazing.

but anyway, when i first started writing about the grammies, i mostly believed that watching the show was NOT worth it on a school night.

now looking back, i see the pop culture significance and i am definitely glad that i stuck through the night watching that long ass show.

the show was exciting, intriguing, and surprising all at once.

the red carpet outfits were pretty fun to poke fun at, especially that guy with the house on his head (???)

but the craziest outfit, (lack of an outfit..) was of course the completely sheer dress that bianca censori wore next to kanye west and his unexpected appearance at the red carpet.

being a model, i can see how she could have the confidence to do that, but just because you can doesn't mean you should

...moving on, charli xcx's performance last night was absolutely slayful slayful slayful and slayful. i hope one day i can have as cool of a style as she does 🤞

charli was absolutely robbed of a grammy last night. brat shouldn't be seen as just an album, it should be seen as a lifestyle. brat made its way into our lives through politics, pop culture, and dance. last summer was called "brat summer" for a reason!

however, that is just how the cookie crumbles in the music industry. there aren't enough awards for every artist.

a nomination is an award in itself, just being recognized for your hard work is certainly something to be proud of, and im sure most of the nominations last night understood that.

with that, ill wrap up this grammy talk. comment your opinions below!

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the grammies (part one)

i stayed up til 12 last night watching the grammies, and honestly, i wish i didn't

i always expect something super crazy to happen, (like for taylor swift to announce rep tv) (yes we got clowned again i know)

but the absolute unpredictable definitely did happen last night!

beyonce's win for AOTY had me a bit shocked and appalled, since there was TIGHT competition

i wont be commenting on if she deserved it or not, but i am definitely surprised that the award did not go to billie eilish for HMHAS

that album was absolutely phenomenal. every song, every music video, it just felt like the strongest candidate for winning the album-of-the-year award.

but that wasnt the only surprise of last night-both record AND song of the year award went to "Not Like Us" by kendrick lamar.

the grammies tend to have a strange opinion when it comes to choosing song of the year every year, but choosing a song that not even my parents knew was a bit odd

dont get me wrong, the song is generally pretty good and definitely beat drakes ass during that whole rap feud, but to win record and song of the year?

thats pretty impressive

of course, this is coming from a sabrina fan who was rooting for espresso like crazy, but i guess we cant always predict the future lol

one thing about the grammies last night however, is that the performances were TOP NOTCH.

Doechii- AMAZING Sabrina- AMAZING Chappell- AMAZING

the others- PROBABLY GOOD

im not the biggest weeknd fan so idrk about that one but OH MY GOSH LADY GAGAS MUSIC VIDEO MASTERCARD AD.

also taylor sharing a seat with cynthia erivo was really cute ok bye

also cynthia erivos singing was AMAZING last night ok bye

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my tumblr activity

i haven't given up on this website just yet!

still here, just offline most the time because i forget to charge my laptop.

here is a happy calico critter family:

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you people are CRACKING. ME. UP.

history really does repeat itself.

does nobody else see how corny that whole "winter boots" thing is on tiktok?

like lets be so serious rn. you capitalizing the words "EAT THE RICH" on tiktok comments will not benefit the world whatsoever.

this is like a branch of chronically onlineness that we are re-discovering

and its so unrealistic to think that we, as people, can just come together so easily. people have tried that for years and years! do you understand how challenging it is?

i wish we could too, but thinking that everyone in america is just gonna stop shopping at big corporations or gonna stop using instagram is actually insane

people have families to feed, children to care for, and it is the LEAST of their worries to be worried about where they are shopping at.

not everyone is a genZ teenager on tiktok guys. love u but.. please get offline.

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introduction (bear with me for a moment)

im not sure, who I am

i wish i could give a better introduction, but that is the cold hard truth. I am so much and so little at the same time. I can be so weird to many, and so boring to the rest. my relationship with food is complicated, but it's nowhere near as complicated as the troubles of others.

i attempt to be normal, do normal things, but I feel like no matter what I do there will always be a difference. no matter how enthusiastic i am, no matter how shy i am, i still don't feel a sense of comfort in my skin.

i envelop myself with deep obsessions to focus on, and i constantly feel like whatever i am doing is just a memory. like the world around me isn't real. its probably due to a lack of sleep, but also just this feeling that i know too much.

i can't enjoy anything because i feel this embarrassment within myself, like i can feel my future self already judging me for acting this way. i wish i could be as carefree as so many others my age, but i instead resort to feeling somewhat-comfortable around people with an irk-ing feeling like i hate them and love them all at once.

everything i do feels so unauthentic, and i just can't feel true raw emotion for anyone outside of my family. i wish i did, but i just feel so out of place when they are expressing their emotion.

still, i can operate. i know when i am being awkward, so i comfort them and act normal. then i go home and i cant think because all of their emotion is processing within me.

i feel a constant need to stay within what i am comfortable with, to truly hold onto it for dear life, because there is just so little that I have explored and even littler what i've enjoyed. I eat the same foods, balance everything i eat with fruits or vegetables, and when something disrupts this routine i can't stop thinking about it.

most of it is due to my past struggle with acne, but also just with this dirty feeling in my brain like i need to wash my mouth clean of all the oils and sugars i've eaten.

a large problem with all this, is that i can't put myself in the category of a "weird" person. however, i don't think normal people my age feel these things either. i could be wrong.

i find comfort in my childishness, i collect toys, and i am constantly wanting more. i love to waste my time, a mediocre student at best, though i could do so much more. i love to write and i love to learn. ever since i was a child i've loved art, and with time i've been getting better.

im not that deep of a person, but my brain thinks i am. i fear many things, and i just want to make it clear that i am a God-fearing woman.

i've grown with time to learn how to be a better person, i still have ways to go, but so far i have felt a peaceful relationship with Jesus and i hope for it to stay that way.

my only goal as a person is to be kind to all, no matter who they are, and love them as Jesus would.

when i say all, yes, i am including lgbtq+, yes i am inlcluding everyone of all races and backgrounds, and yes i am including anyone with a conscious that has the ability to care for others and deserves love in their life.

I hope that one day everyone can feel this way, and allthough i can have trouble understanding other's pain, i can still understand other's point of view.

and yes, i may be unfamiliar with tumblr and internet culture, but that does not mean i am new to life. sorry for blabbing for so long! a little scared to post this, but if you have any advice share if you'd like. have a wonderful day everyone!

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got any cooking tips?

im in desperate need!

i've randomly picked up an interest for learning how to cook, but i know NOTHING!

if you know the names of any good recipes please comment down below

i really want to learn how to cook (mostly to impress people but also to feel a sense of accomplishment in myself)

(also because you need to know how to cook for like.. living)

anyway i wanna learn how to cook GOOD pasta and make those delicious mouth watering steaks and stuff

it would be embarrassing if nobody commented (lol) but if you know a website where i could find simple recipes to start with, let me know!

and if you are also in need of cooking tips then i hope this post can be of use to you!

sorry if this is a little vague, tootles!

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the tiktok ban?

sorry im a little late on the topic, but i was online on the night that the ban happened

me and my friend were freaking out messaging eachother on tiktok, and slowly the app started to deteriorate until it was no longer usable

i closed out of the app and went back, and it gave this weird message which somewhat glorified trump as some type of "hero" for tiktok?

im sure you've seen it, but if you haven't ill post a pic here>

weird right? its like some type of forced propaganda

im no conspiracy person or anything but this just looks strange

yesterday however, about 12 hours after the ban took effect, tiktok was back up and usable for those in the US.

which is also super weird because.. trump wasnt president yet?

TODAY is the day of the inauguration, not yesterday

i just feel like tiktok is turning towards a direction i dont want to follow

heres the "Welcome back" message>

as a result of trump's efforts? what did he do?

im not sure if tiktok has been put back on the app store, since yesterday even after it came back it still was undownloadable

the app store put a little message at the top which said: "TikTok and other ByteDance apps are not available in the country or region you're in."

i searched up lemon8, same thing

i didnt check capcut yet, but i have a feeling thats gone too

i really want to delete tiktok for my own good, but that would be a decision that i cannot go back on until they bring it back to the app store

should i do it?

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little scary story

there was a beetle-shaped roach in my bathroom this morning

i have a large fear of bugs, but nevertheless i had to kill it

i sprayed it with windex and my curl reviver hairspray as it climbed the walls of my bathroom

sucess! it fell and died!

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goodmorning usaa

learned more about tumblr today, and gonna start using tags correctly instead of just putting random stuff.

thank you to everyone who gave helpful tips and suggestions in my last post!

heres a cute pic of my dog to brighten your day

have a wonderful rest of your day everyone and i hope we'll meet again!

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i forgive you tumblr

i realize my previous judgements were at my own fault, i was scrolling on hastags tab instead of foryou or explore

i apologize for this rash judgement, even though it is still a little strange that i have my feed filtered and freaky stuff still popped up

anyway having a great time on here otherwise and comment any suggestions on what to post! i could post minecraft builds or recent drawings, or just regularly blog about life n stuff

have a nice day

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WHAT DID I JUST SIGN UP FOR

I was NOT aware that this website was freaky

i scrolled a tiny bit today just looking for cute aesthetic photos and saw TATAS?

WHAT?

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new to tumblr!

i like the vibe of this website. already feeling lowk displaced from the whole tiktok ban. is it just me or does it sound almost exciting that we will be free from the chains of doomscrolling? i can't wait to find new hobbies (find different websites to waste my time on).