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Going through a creative drought so send in requests :) can’t promise I’ll write anything cause uk…

Anything JJK, AOT, and COD cause I’m obsessed rn, no minors please unless they have a canon timeskip thnx

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A little something cause I can’t sleep. The loml toji, pure affection and admiration ♡

Thinking about toji and how drunk he is on his love for you. The blood pumping into his heart turns into an intoxicant, and he’s addicted. It spreads through his veins, filling every capillary and scar. He’s dizzy with the weight of it all.

He looks down at you pretty face resting on his chest. You’re so vulnerable like this. Your delicate inhales and warm exhales that create a warm spot right under his collarbone. He finds himself a little jealous of the oxygen you breathe, wants to become it so he can become one with you, as close as possible because holding you in his arms like this isn’t enough.

He feels that he should never sleep again to keep you safe from harm. To make sure you’re never alone.

His eyes trail over your face when you take in a sudden deep inhale, a tiny noise with your exhale. He takes in whatever he can from this angle, your soft lashes and perfect brows, the apples of your cheeks a little red from the combined body heat, the bridge of your nose and how it curves to create your perfect portrait. And your hair. He tilts his chin to your forehead to inhale the scent, eyes slowly shutting as he walks through the gardens of heavens itself. Your strands feel like clouds on tip of his nose. It’s not the products you use, it’s you. You’re beautiful—no, you are beauty itself. Everything you touch transforms and blooms, he experiences everything all over again with you.

He’ll pay whatever prices to stay like this forever and feel the warmth of your soft, supple flesh moulding against his fingertips, your legs wrapped into his own.

The drowsiness gets to him, he doses off wondering what you’re dreaming of. Maybe if he tries hard enough, he can join you in whatever realm you’re in. Perhaps in that realm it would be possible, just a little bit easier, for him to tell you how much he loves you. Cause god knows, he could learn every language ever spoken, still he wouldn’t be able to show you how much of you there is in his heart.

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Omg why are there so many people posting jjk 🌽 links to twitter all over my feed 😭😭 just go on twitter?? Why make multiple posts to literal 🌽 I don’t get it :( actual writers pouring their heart and soul into to their writing are being over shadowed by these multi part link posts… just use chrome ya nasties smh

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The Annunciation (details, ca. 1525) Joos van Cleve 

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Christ in the Garden of Olives (The Agony in the Garden)(detail, 1824-6) Eugène Delacroix

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The Scottish Highlands, 1875 by Gustave Doré (French, 1832–1883)

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The Room of Cameos by Eduard Hau

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The Love Letter by Eugene von Blaas

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ウォッチマン

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Madeline After Prayer, 1868 by Daniel Maclise (Irish, 1806–1870)

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A Violin Concerto, 1898 by John Gulich (English, 1864–1890)

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The Spider, 1884 by Nikolaos Gyzis (Greek, 1842–1901)

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"Absolutely no one comes to save us but us."

Ismatu Gwendolyn, "you've been traumatized into hating reading (and it makes you easier to oppress)", from Threadings, on Substack [ID'd]

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SZA's lyrics ♡

"Why am I so easy to forget like that?" "Leave me lonely for prettier women." "I could be your super model if you believe, if you see it in me." "Why I can't stay alone just by myself? Wish I was comfortable with just with myself."

"Promise I won't cry over spilt milk, gimme a paper towel, gimme another Valium." "Why you bother me when you know you don't want me?"

"You came with your new friend and her mom jeans and her new vans and she's perfect and I hate it." "I get so lonely I forget what I'm worth, we get so lonely we pretend that this works." "I'm sorry I'm not more attractive, I'm sorry I'm not more ladylike, I'm sorry I don't shave my legs at night." "I'm sorry I'm so clingy I don't mean to be a lot" "Cause it's hard enough you got to treat me like this, lonely enough to let you treat me like this. Do you really love me?"

"Fearing not growing up, keeping me up at night, am I doing enough? Feel like I'm wasting time." "Promise to get a little better as I get older." "Hopping through poppy fields, dodging evil witches, these houses keep dropping everywhere."

"Probably true what they say about me, probably came from my inner circle, it usually come from your inner circle or lack thereof and I don't know who I can trust." "I belong to nobody, hope it don't bother you, you could mind your business."

"Need you for the old me, need you for my sanity, need you to remind me where I come from." "Ground me when I'm tumbling, spiraling, plummeting down to Earth. You keep me down to Earth." "And hope you never find out who I really am, cause you'll never love me, you'll never love me, you'll never love me" "Can you hold me when nobody's around us?"

"I've paid enough of petty dues, I've heard enough of shitty news." "I ain't got no time, just burning daylight" "I moved on for the better, you moved on to whoever, I was down for whatever and then some." "Think I forgot you love me."

"Maybe I should kill my inhibition, maybe I'll be perfect in a new dimension." "This time baby promise I have learned my lesson." "Maybe I should pray a little harder, or work a little smarter." "Do you even know I'm alive?"

"I think I'm bad as hell, I got issues, out of line. Saying tomorrow I'll get the dishes, never come" "Just give as much as you take, forgive as much as you hate, or get the fuck out."

"Love the way I pump my fist or how I bust my hip for your affection, tryna be down." "Wish I was the type of girl that you take over to mama." "This time next year I'll be living so good won't remember no pain, I swear." "Before that you figured out that I was just a normal girl."

"When hating you feels good for the night. When the morning comes I hope you're still mine." "I wanna take all of my hair down and let you lay in it, spread all of my limbs out and let you lay in it." "How could it be 20-something, all alone still? Not a thing in my name." "Ain't got nothin', runnin' from love, only know fear. That's me, Ms. 20-something." "Weird, took us so long to separate. I feel it's permanent like a riptide, this time" "Praying the 20-somethings don't kill me."

love her so much ♡

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arabic poetry that reminds me of how men should love:

They asked "do you love her to death?" I said, "speak of her over my grave and watch how she brings me back to life"

"How can words carry to you what I carry in my heart?"

"If you are not mine, then why does your name beat in my heart like a pulse?"

What do I have to do to get a man who speaks to me like a poet?

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taking on major roles for my third year of uni... it's a lot already and the sem doesn't begin till September. I know this is good for me, it'll teach me responsibility and time management (a big one) and all that. I think it's my social anxiety and shitty communication skills, it's both of those things... who knows. Also, Architecture school is not for the weak yall and I am the weak!!! 😭😭 lmao one thing about adulting is all the stress piles up and you have to manage how much it affects you cause it does not go awayyyy :((((

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love love love ♡

I’ll embrace all your versions.

Details by Roberto Ferri.