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I'm in a mood so have some songs from my Angel Dust playlist

Every time Pavlov calls, I end up drooling all over my dress. So I stopped buying nice dresses, but I can't stop picking up the damn phone.

I'm not anyone's anything, nothing more than a fling. Nothing more than a late night call, never see me without alcohol in your bloodstream. Guess I'm just a wet dream.

Play me into nothing, work me 'til I'm broke, use me 'til I snap. Cause I love to be used by you. I let you love me like you love to. I live to love you.

I love to get high on my lows. Fuck around and lose control, drink fast until my brain moves slow—Is this how it feels to slip away? I don't know, I don't know. Should I just go home? No, it's alright. I'll go all night.

I learned love was destruction, no truth and no discussion. Felt so safe in the chaos. Fuck, I think I was brainwashed—I'm dying for attention, you met me with aggression and promised me protection. Funny how it works out like that.

You're an infection I am keeping, no matter the sepsis. You are staying. I'd rather the wound than have you removed. Enough rotting for two, killing me, keeping me high.

You know I tried my best to turn your black eyes hazel, and kiss away your cruelty. I gladly got undressed, put all my cards on the table—I dont wanna bleed anymore. I just wanted love, but you wanted gore.

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Specifically, caedosexual Angel Dust. He was allosexual, but over time became more and more numb and repulsed by sex. He doesn't think he's asexual, and he's frustrated and distraught by not wanting it anymore. Off hours he hooks up with people to reclaim what he's lost and take his own body back, but when he gets nothing out of it he's left feeling hurt and empty. Being around in hell where everyone wants to have sex every minute of the day, and growing up in the early 1900s and not having any exposure to queerness, he's not really familiar with asexuality, especially that you can have been allosexual in the past. Even if he was, he believes his worth comes exclusively from sex and what his body can provide.

When in a relationship with Husk, he sleeps with him because "that's what he's good for and what partners need to do". He's able to fake it and goes along with it for the first few times, until a particularly bad night when he can't help it and breaks down into sobs. Husk doesnt really know LGBTQ identities either, but he tells him that they don't ever need to do it again if angel doesn't want to. Angel thinks he's no worth to Husk anymore. Husk shows him he is.

Asexual Angel Dust Asexual Angel Dust Asexual Angel Dust

I will die on the hill of Asexual Angel Dust

"Hes literally a porn sta-" shut the fuck up Asexual Angel Dust

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Asexual Angel Dust Asexual Angel Dust Asexual Angel Dust

I will die on the hill of Asexual Angel Dust

"Hes literally a porn sta-" shut the fuck up Asexual Angel Dust

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Holy fuck I voted for this thinking it was calling me a bottom if I preferred to shop at hot topic over amazon

Hazbin Hotel Pride group shirts!

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I put a lot of work into my character playlists please check them out :<

Like. Hours of my life poured into this it takes a lot longer than you'd think lmao

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Ugh seeing the contrast between Dazai and Beast Dazai hurts so good

There's just such a different atmosphere when beast Dazai meets Oda, with how much more injured he is, the almost petrified look in his expression. He looks... almost inhuman. He's a child just like our Dazai is, but there's none of the life in him. No spark.

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You know what Chuuya, fuck Dazai for a bit, go see your European boyfriend. Shirase is out there, he wants to come home, please bring him home, I miss him. You're in France, you might as well. Please I miss my pathetic boy bring him back

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Watching Tokyo Revengers after Link Click is wack because why are there two shows about a very ambiguously gay cast using a hand based time traveling ability, being forced into a time loop and watching their partner die over and over and over, while in the process hurting people around you and kind of making everything worse

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I was told this read like an ironic wattpad fanfiction

I can no longer stop thinking about it

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I love finding songs for characters and making playlists, check put my new account

Cybernetic Heart by Ivycomb - Chuuya Nakahara

"Something as sophisticated as a heart wouldn't suit me"

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Chat

Chat was this an accident

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Aya & Bram wallpap?? :D

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Cuz you're hot? Don't be hot and online idk :(

Chuuya wallpaper for your Chuuya needs

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Chuuya wallpaper for your Chuuya needs

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I need help crafting head canons and backstories for a BSD au I'm creating

I'm working on making head canons for a normal world no mafia no Ada or whatever au. For the most part I'm trying to take canon events and adapt them in a way where they could realistically happen, but for characters with more unknown or vague pasts I'm great for any HCs

Starting with Dazai, Dazai is not an orphan he was removed from his home by CPS when he was about 2. He was in the foster care system for a while, tossed around until he ended up in a home with Mori from ages 9-16. Mori was abusive, so Dazai ran away and lived in a shipping crate for a bit. Eventually he was taken in by Oda, who was a foster parent to mostly younger kids. He was there for 6 months but when he was out with Oda, Oda was killed in a mass shooting.

I know Dazai "improved" in canon after Oda died but I didn't give him a chance for this big long speech and there wasn't any reason for Oda to anyways, so Dazai completely spiraled after that. I have like a whole story written about that. But short things is his alcohol addiction got worse, he often spent days just not moving from Oda's grave and since you see him inject himself in season 5 and pop a pill in season 2, I have him experiment with drugs like fenty, shrooms, and heroin. Not addicted, just trying them out. Dazai is my most fleshed out in the au I'm creating, idk why.

Dazai bullies Akutagawa in school because of course he does.

Now for Chuuya I haven't finished stormbringer so my HCs for him might change. But.

He was also in foster care. I haven't fully fleshed out his life yet and I want some ways to integrate the sheep some how? But he entered the system when he was 8, I don't know why because I haven't finished storrmbringer. It varies from Verlaine killing his parents to them dying in a car crash so. Working on that. Verlaine went to a different home from Chuuya, he doesn't know him well he just hates him. I've been debating between having Kouyou be his sister or foster mother, but since I put Dazai with Mori I figured Chuuya could go with Kouyou and she'd just be a younger foster mom. I was also thinking I could find a way to make them in the same house? I really want the whole betrayal thing where Dazai leaves Chuuya and I thought it could be cool where Dazai left Chuuya in an abusive home to deal with it himself but I'm not sure, would it even make sense for him to have been with Mori?

Chuuya is in college, Dazai is struggling to get by. They still have their personalities obv so Dazai isn't like this sad mopey mess he's just a sad mess who mopes when he's alone and everyone doesn't really realize where he's at mentally

Mori has also fostered Yosano and Q, while having Elise as his bio daughter.

Atsushi and Lucy's backstories are basically the exact same as they are in canon

Akutagawa is homeless ofc, he just moves from place to place with his sister. His clothes are shit and he smells because he never showers so he isn't treated well at school. I'm tryna think if he'd go to college, also he's still got his terminal illness. I'm not sure how his need for Dazai's validation would come out in this au

Ranpo was adopted by Fukuzawa. His life was also basically the same. Yosano was also adopted by him.

I'm thinking Kunikida has a normal ass life with normal ass parents, just too much of an overachiever and on the verge of burnout but not allowing himself to burn out

Poe is rich. He was born rich, he's got money, that's all. I've got for him lol.

I'm trying to find ways to add the rest of the cast, I want to get all the characters in and get them lives and stuff made up.

If you have any suggestions to how I can expand this world I want to write fan fiction on it once I've fleshed it out a bit. Feel free to be like "actually no I dont like your idea, I think this would be better" because I'm open to any criticism on this, I just want it to be good and I'm not stuck on my ideas

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leave those bad ideas in your troubled head today.

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so was he laughing here at how dramatic dazai is?