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I haven't thought about running away to Hawaii since I met my new girlfriend for the first time. I'll give her the pseudonym of Neo. I guess I can't think of anything better, and i feel like it fits.

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The ties that bind.

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Be the fucking elephant every day, every time you see someone or an animal struggling. We only have each other. Look to the helpers.

Elephants have hearts of gold....

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Well i have a girlfriend! A really nice woman i met off fb dating. We went to an amazing concert for our first date and it was perfect. My awkwardness doesnt bother her and she seems to really like me as a person. Im falling pretty hard for her. Shes very cuddly and affectionate, super cute, and pushes my buttons in the right way. I have to come up with a pseudonym for her soon. 🤔 the concert was the womack family band and hebdo.

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Hello 👋

Hi yourself! Thanks for following my silly blog its really nice of you.

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Gundams love house plants!?!?!

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Do you think this civil war will have whiskey rations on the front line like the last one?

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Heres a little video of my dear friend Scoop the cat!

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Had a cool day yesterday with Fixlicks! Went to the rec, park, and he did a little event at the library. I found a woman on fb who didn't ghost me when i told her i didn't have a car, but seemingly she now has for other unspecified reasons. I guess we will see. Oh, and Judy is mad at me and Sally, and I haven't talked in days. Im starting to realize Sally has only ever wanted to taunt me with friendship for some reason, idk. Idk why she encouraged me to flirt with her, idk why she gave me her number. Idk why she lies about music she has heard before, idk anything about her, really. I guess i never really will 🤷‍♂️.

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Things are fine. Sure. Im outside and they are fighting inside. Hmmmmm fml. Jfc. Fuck this party. Fuck my life. Fuck fuck fuck imma die alone. Yes please. No sir. Who knows.

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Im at a work party i helped set up. Its super nice out, people are having fun and my coworkers are getting all fucked up lol. I havnt gone to a party where i basically know nobody in so long. I might just leave in a bit idk im feeling awkward af. Whats wrong with me i used to love parties. There is a manager here that's pretty hot and my age. Idk if she is single or not ill figure it out maybe. Im updating my blog at a party jfc.

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I feel like the universe is telling me to be myself even more. I already walk around getting high all day and work hard?!?! What else is there? Maybe lean into my nerdy side more? Id love to run DND, Pathfinder or my game again but idk how to even meet people for that and im not interested in online ttrpg playing. I dont have a computer good enough anyway.

I dont bismirch anyone that does like to play online btw, its great for all kinds of people and has tottally made the hobby i love more accessible. Accessible to introverts, handicapped people and people who just live in the middle of nowhere. Thats amazing, role-playing games are so special and historically important they should be shared with everyone. Im just a person that really feeds and gives back energy in person when im in a trusting group and i need that to spin a tale or act like a dwarven scam artist.

Gunpla is obviously very nerdy, but amazing omg master grades are so dope, but it wont help me meet people irl. Unless hmmmm....some kind of gundam girl. Like not half gundam half girl. That would be weird. Youre the weird one.

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Fuck fuck fuck i just told autumn too much about my dumb ass life. Fuck fuck fuck..

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So at one point i tried to quit smoking with vaping and i just ended up smoking and vaping.

It’s so infuriating that teen smoking rates were at an all time low in the US and we were on track to basically eradicate smoking and nicotine addiction in teens like it was flat out uncool to smoke and then They came out with nicotine injector flash drives that light up and taste like cotton candy. And have lead in them.

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Things have been weird again haha ofc. Its so hot out its a pain to go out and do anything which sucks but i should be going to the rec center tonight with fixlicks to do some swimming so that should be fun.

The weekend was decent, i finally met judy. Shes nice and everything but not really my type, which i guess is good because the distance makes dating impossible. We had a chill weekend at a hotel not far from here.

It sounds like sally lost her job 😞. I wish i could do something for her but i have nothing to offer really. I hope she figures something out for work that fits her soon.

I might have gotten a chronic gunpla addiction as well omg. I just bought my first master grade after i built one high grade. They are so much fun to put together.

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im not an "alpha male" or even close. im goofy looking, anxious, insecure, old, partially broken, and generally diametrically opposed to everything those fucking dorks think, feel, say or do. fuck andrew tate, joe rogan, that dude that dips his face into bowls of ice - fancy water - and lemons, all the other red pill manospehere douchebags, and all the rest of those fuckbois but....

im a believer in a few man myths, and i can not shake them, probably because they make me feel good about myself. men should be able to use tools a bit, just a few basics. know the difference between phillips and standard, how to use a measuring tape, use basic saws (hand, miter, table, etc), how hammers work lol, basic plumbing, how to square a joint, fix shit idk but jfc. men should exercise some outside of their job. go to the gym or buy some weights, it's not hard. you can get high and fit at the same time. stand up for people who can not stand up for themselves. politics shouldn't play into this, btw. if i saw a conservative getting berated by libs i would step up and at least take the heat off them, fuck any situation where your opinion gets you jumped on by a multitude, noone can stand up to that heat. sally is so fucking pretty.

what else? men should be present and not off in the clouds when big things happen. men should explore their sexuality instead of letting society tell them how to be. men fight, when appropriate. anyone that says violence solves nothing is a fucking idiot. ww2 wasn't solved with feelings or talking.

men pay attention and keep their heads up and focused on what's going on around them. men look at wounds at laugh. men go to the doctor and dont whine about it. men take good advice and apply it. men bury their ghosts. men are good at eating pussy and fucking. men go to the therapist. men tell everyone the truth about themselves and dont live double lives. men raise their kids.

just to be clear lol fuck red pill dudes, fuck mensrights dork losers, fuck dudes that like joe rogan or whatever, fuck 4chan incels, fuck nice guys, fuck you and the horse you tode in on, fuck homophobes, fuck traitors, will smith dont got to cuss in his rap to sell records. well i do, so fuck him and fuck you too.

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get off the fence now or get crushed when the fence is shoved over