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Summah, Isabelle Feliu

isabellefeliu.com

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women are socialized to be so accommodating of others and you don’t even realize it until you’re already in the middle of some elaborate favor for someone and you’re wondering what the fuck you’re even doing

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Duck with afro

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https://www.instagram.com/oumaimancr/

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If the oldest person on earth is 117 then 118 years ago there was a completely different set of humans on earth.

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Editorials.  Ebonee Davis.  Paolo Roldan.  PAPER Magazine.  Images by Micaiah Carter.

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Marie-José Leenders (Dutch, b. 1953, Helmond, Netherlands) - Interiorisation  Paintings: Sumi Ink, Watercolors on Paper

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Lakeith Stanfield by James Wright.

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I think we found baby's first name but no way I would tell the internet or anybody lol

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I'm sorry for stressing you today, baby. I know you can't get as many nutrients when I'm stressed. I'm really doing my best. I love you.

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I, Timoteo Rodriguez Garcia, and his relatives dedicate this retablo because we almost drown in the strong current trying to cross the Rio Bravo following the American Dream before Donald Trump would build the wall. Crazy fucked up gringo, racist, ku-klux-klan, his whole country is Mexico, bald fatso. Long live the Mexican workers!

Los Angeles, California June 18, 2017

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I can literally never tell when it’s hormones, depression or actual real bad feelings based on real live action stimuli. I cannot remember the last time I WANTED to do something for myself. I cannot remember the last time I felt truly good about where I am in life. I cannot remember the last time I didn’t force myself to get out of bed to do LITERALLY ANYTHING OTHER THAN BE IN BED. I am extremely isolated and cling tightly to the literal 2 people in my city that I call my friends, my partner and my platonic life partner. I feel so over being alive, really. I feel exhausted by the constant fight to keep myself above water. I am always chest deep in emotional labor. I don’t know if anyone accounts for the emotional labor depressed people do for ourselves, to stop ourselves from sitting in the middle of the street and waiting for a reckless driver to put us out of our misery. It is so hard to be nicer to myself. It is SO HARD to change my inner voice, even with all the therapy and medication. And maybe I need more medication? I don’t know. I want less. I want to fly so far away and I want to cut all the emotional ties people have to me so I don’t hurt anybody. I want to just let myself die off. I don’t feel strong enough. 

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I forgive you, babygirl. It’s not your fault your head is all messed up. You are not broken. You are not irredeemable. You are not embarrassing or dumb or worthless. I forgive you. I forgive you. I forgive you. You don’t deserve to die just because you haven’t figured out how to be here like this. Don’t give up. You are worthy of all the grace and love you give every child. 

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from beginning: Caroline Knapp, Beyonce’s Lemonade, Survey athttp://rolereboot.org/…/det…/2016-05-daughter-know-ok-angry/, Janine Antoni, interview from Chain with Dodie Bellamy and Andrea Juno, Kiki Smith, Carrie Lorig’s “The Book of Repulsive Women”, “Hunger Makes Me” by Jess Zimmerman, Alice Notley, Carrie Lorig again

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Queen Latifah red carpet looks from the 90´s