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I'm alive lol, I don't use Tumblr anymore cuz this app enables me wayyy to much with everything wrong with me. I'm actually in therapy, trying to get sober. Just wanted to let everyone who I've met on the app know that I am okay, and I'm doing better. Thanks to everyone who supported me while I was at my lowest, I love you guys.

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Finch maybe? You raise a little bird from a baby to an adult by completing a daily task list (set by you) If you complete this task list, the bird goes on an adventure where they learn new things. Like favourite foods or places. It's cute, it got me out of bed for a while.

Does anyone know any apps to help me build my routine? I feel like that's what i need in life right now. Just stability

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YK WHAT'S WORSE? IVE TRIED DRAWING IN THAT STYLE AGAIN MULTIPLE TIMES AND I JUST CAN'T GET IT. I DONT EVEN REMEMBER DOING IT CUZ I WAS ON SMTH AHHHHH

WHY CANT I PICK AN ARTSYLE. IT CHANGES LIKE EVERY 5 MINS ISTG.

(also please don't yoink my art I put a lot of effort into It)

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WHY CANT I PICK AN ARTSYLE. IT CHANGES LIKE EVERY 5 MINS ISTG.

(also please don't yoink my art I put a lot of effort into It)

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Guys I may be the problem

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The realisation that I shouldn't just be fine or not care about alot of the shit that's happened to me / in my life.

Like I should feel hurt, upset, want to cry. But I don't care, I'll pretend I care if it'll benefit me but deep down I just don't.

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Vent

Yk what's so strange? I've been alone my entire life, but I've always had my person. Us against the world, I'd die for her type of person. But she doesn't need me anymore, and I still need her. It just feels like I'm begging for love when I won't get it back, I wish I could get it back. I have so many friends, but none of them feel like friends. None of them compare to her, I miss her man. It's not romantic, but I loved her so much. For 5 years I always had someone when it was rough, at least I had some stable part of my life. I wonder if she still has my paintings up in her house, I wonder if her dad still asks about me, I wonder if her mum finally stopped drinking, I wonder if she'll look back on this and feel regret, I wonder if I was the problem, I wonder if she still calls our spot our spot, i wonder if she took her new friends there, was I never enough? Please say I was enough.

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I'm a photography student, I'm also doing a three year course. I joined my current school 4 months ago, we are in the final months of said course. I am not a happy lad I've been letting my friend do the photos and I do the editing cuz he loves photo taking and it pisses me off (I do like modeling though). It takes like 30mins-2 hours depending on the edit and what style I need to do. I have almost finished the project, 8 more to go (each project has 7 sections, and 3 outcomes in each section) I am going crazy.

I have never felt the consequences of my actions before and this isn't very nice. Why do I do this to myself. "Oh it's future Stan's problem" WELL NOW IM FUTURE STAN WTF PAST STAN. What's worse is this is only one subject I've got graphic design l, English, maths, triple science. FUCK YOU PAST STAN ISTG

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I'm just a silly guy with very strong opinions, if anyone ever wants to fight me over any topic I am here and waiting

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Saw a post that was something like "when you start thinking about suicide again after being okay is so painful". I think those okay moments are worth it, I know I've stared at the ceiling and thought "this was worth it". Every moment is fleeting, you will never feel as lonely as you do again, and you will never feel as happy as you did in another moment again. Everything is short, so enjoy it.

You feel shitty? It'll pass

Upset? It'll pass

Grieving? It'll pass

Happy? It'll pass too, and that's just the reality. Nothing lasts forever. Those small moments are your reason to keep going.

It's always darkest before the sun rises.

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Male tattoo th!nspo

(Probs gonna be posting more ED related content, along with my usual rambles, so moots be warned!)

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Gonna try to get put back on my meds (not saying which cuz this is unsafe and I don't want y'all doing it) cuz I love it and my doctor took it away from me cuz I kept overdosing on it cuz it removes your ability and will to eat and I feel fat. But I gained weight so technically I'm a healthy weight now so he can't say I'll use it to not eat cuz he thinks I'm recovered‼️‼️

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Re blogging this as a kid who has been to 6 separate highschools. The worst one I ever went too was a catholic highschool, there was a teacher who was a literal pedophile, evidence against him and proof of his crimes. He still works there to this day, that was when I was in year 7. Im in year 11 now.

The current school I'm at is slightly more relaxed and with students, so you can wear sneakers they just have to be completely black. And you can wear makeup but it has to be professional or else it gets wiped off. Which is better than some other schools

The best school for student expression and freedom was a behavioural school, because the students would do shit. They wouldn't sit there and take abuse, so they were treated like people. And the fact that kids have to physically be a threat to your safety to be treated human is maddening, because adults don't see children/teenagers as people until they're 18. What I'm saying is, be a problem, fight back, make them listen to you. That's how I have survived high school, and now that I'm almost finished I don't regret a single thing. I was a problem, and I was treated like a human.

the european school system is so corrupt not to mention how intensley strict it is. aside from how horrid marginalized students are treated, severe shortage of qualified teachers, student eating disorder and depression rates, knife and hate crime (this part is mostly focused on britain), how strict it is? im in a shitty public school on a random ass street. kids get hit by cars cuz theres no management. kids get stabbed outside of school. kids get jumped. oh and the uniform. the constant pressure since your 5 fucking years old to wear a button up shirt and perfectly sized tie and no makeup, thats improper, no earrings larger than 3mm, and only one, no lipgloss, lipbalm is a 50/50 to what will get taken. black socks only and those better not be trainers or your sent home. no nail polish, hairdye, piercings, drawings on your skin, permanent or not. no lockers but we dont care if it hurts to move by the end of the day due to smothering amounts of books and work and shit. detention if your missing a pen. miss lunchtime if you where 2 minutes late. the gate is bolted shut, you cant leave. self expression is a lie and we will make you into the perfect citizen. no bracelets, rings or neckakces. all hair accessories must be small and black. only religious headwear allowed is a hijab. don't even try and ask to use the bathroom, only at break. and your only allowed to use the downstairs bathroom in one building. lord forbid your disabled cuz your teachers will treat you like a baby. detentions are an hour or 6 hours. theres only 6 benches and when its raining you just have to crowd in the tiny canteen i guess. oh and your teachers dont do their jobs, too busy telling someone off for chewing gum. and we dont even have teachers anymore, we have subsitutes, standins, people who arent the real deal. history is white and they keep it so. straight people are the only ones affected by anything. if your slow, your slow and nobody will help. the counselor will record what you say and not tell you and send it to your parents. you will get sexually assaulted by a teacher or other student. you will get bullied. you will get threatened. if your unsafe, nobody cares. you arent allowed phones ever unless your outside of school. which you cant be until it ends. but sorry, tell me more about how i face no pressure at school and this is simply helping me for the future. go on.

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💌 send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome >:p ���

IM TOO DUMB TO UNDERSTAND BUT YAYYY!!

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Got the results baby😍

English - 7 (barely scrapped that by one point)

Maths- 6

Science- 8 (also barely scrapped by like 4 points)

I wanna do bio and chem at a levels and I haven't decided on my third subject yet, it's between human psychology or English lang

Anywho I am a god you should all bow down to me fr

Ima try and guess what I got for my GCSEs mocks, cuz I just finished them (thank god)

English- 6/7

Maths - 4

Science - 4/5

I'm doing higher paper which is more difficult than foundation (for my Americans foundation is like the easier version that most kids do. And then higher is the advanced one, fuck knows why I'm considered advance I can't open doors right)

A 4 is a pass, 9 is perfect

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Chaotic, yes. evil, I hope not 💀

Open tag!!

Tag game!!!

Do this quiz

And this picrew

And tag people(obviously)

Although anyone who wasn’t tagged here can of course join in, it’s open to anyone :3

@anartistwithamask @gummy-axolotl @shadowthegay @auseryoumayknow @copper-ichor @moonysfavoritetoast @alexthescaredenby @invaderxeya @fungal-boy-witch-yay @artists-void @hazbin-hotel-lucifer-simp @ka1-the-pr0ot @theautumnalcat

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My biggest suggestion for maths work is this website called Maths genie. Has videos for every topic, practice questions, tests on said topic. Dunno if that'll help but it works well for me and I'm getting 5-6 (in GCSEs scoring) on the higher maths paper :)

i got shit on my exams my brother is gonna beat me