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[starwilt]

A rant about YOU

(where I basically share my thoughts on the ending, and some critiques I disagree with)

I liked the ending, especially because the show is widely considered to be a social commentary. It really makes you reflect on yourself. “Maybe the problem isn’t me, maybe it's you” functions as both a deflection, and an accusation, to us, the readers. Are we really any better than Joe if we enjoy his story? Listen to him, believe him, stay with him, and hope he changes for the better? (Even though he shows us that won’t happen?)

We rationalize his violence by blaming the women, calling them “dumb” or saying they “deserved it”, as if that somehow makes Joe less dangerous. Even despite acknowledging that, we consume his twisted story for entertainment. We root for Joe, praise him for getting away, for being clever, outsmarting others (even when doing horrific things in the process). How we interpret stories and characters like Joe says something about us. Joe isn’t getting away this time, isn’t that what he deserves?

The critique that the ending is bad because Joe got “sloppy” feels shallow. The story was never just about Joe being clever, it's about misogyny. How easily people (especially audiences) can sway, so long as the story is compelling and the narrator is charming. As long as we keep feeding into the version of the story given, we're just as susceptible as Joe's victims, and just as blind.

This season, we finally see Joe for who he really is, and so does the whole world. Not as a misunderstood antihero, but a man who’s unraveled. Like most killers, he’s devolved, sloppy, paranoid, and drunk in the absence of consequences. Joe Goldberg isn’t a genius. He's a delusional, pitiful lunatic. He's not impressive. He's pathetic.

Why are we dismissing an ending where Joe is punished? The women survive and thrive? The narrative finally flips the power dynamic? Why don’t we want that, why don’t we like that? If Joe just kept killing again, it wouldn’t be deep. It’d be lazy. It would be recycling the same arc without growth or consequence. That isn’t edgy, that's stagnant writing disguised as darkness.

Like I agree some things could’ve been done better, (like maybe Kate should’ve stayed dead…), but to say this season sucked? That it shouldn’t have ended that way? Hard disagree. If you believe Joe should've ended up anywhere other than dead, or in jail, you’re still trapped under the guise of his manipulation. I’d rather have a “cringe women empowerment” ending (as some men have stated) than a “omg Joe continues to be a misogynist and kill and traumatize women like he has already been doing for the entire fucking show” ending.

(I just finished the series so prepare for a lot more rants about this show lol)

[starwilt]

hey, anyone else got ADHD? and on adderall? lets discuss something (big rant)

i keep seeing stuff on my feed about “euphoria” after taking adderall, and how that means you “dont actually have adhd”.

note: i am not a medical professional, and this is just my take. medication and adhd is different for everybody.

so the reason for this (that ive heard) is, “if you don’t have adhd, your dopamine levels are normal, so taking adderall increases it to the point where you feel euphoric.” if you’re past taking adderall regularly for like a few weeks, if you’re taking insanely high doses, if you’re feeling LITERALLY high for like 15 minutes after taking it. yeah, that seems iffy and something to be concerned about, and this post isn’t directed towards that.

but i felt this euphoria, especially now, and it made me concerned. everyone saying “you dont have ADHD if you feel this way” made me feel somewhat, invalidated? confused, and questioning if i even actually had adhd?

but i figured it out.

i always wondered what was wrong with me. why i am the way i am, why i can’t just be like other kids, why im different. but after getting diagnosed, it felt like everything clicked. like i just got told something that explains everything about my life, and how i feel, and something that actually gave me a solution. you can’t find solutions when you don’t know the problem.

it already helped me discover so much, that there were other people like me, struggling. researching symptoms and going “ohh yea, that makes sense now”. but after getting prescribed adderall, it went to a whole new level. i finally felt NORMAL.

adderall makes me feel euphoric, yes, it helps me feel happy. but im not “happy from the drug”, im happy because for once, i can actually do the things that make me feel alive.

i can do things without having hundreds of lingering thoughts, without feeling so overwhelmed, having no motivation for anything. i can read without forgetting words, watch videos without rewinding constantly. i can be productive, i can finally do the hundreds of things i wrote down, but never could do. even things that aren’t chores, (cause for some reason when you’re having a hard time with motivation, people assume you’re just lazy and don’t wanna do stuff like homework and hard stuff) i had a hard time doing. i can crochet without getting frustrated, distracted, giving up, and throwing it in a random drawer. i can watch shows and movies and actually process the information.

sometimes, i didnt even have the motivation to watch my favorite shows. i procrastinated that. THAT.

even small things. if you think this is gross, you’re forgetting what mental health really is— and it can include struggling with hygiene. something i struggled so badly with, something that made me feel unfeminine, disgusting, like a actual alien. a animal or something. of course hygiene is important, but shaming others who are already shaming themselves isnt gonna help. (note: i have a lot of tips that can help, especially if you’re in a bad slump. maybe ill make a post for that) but anyway— i can actually do these small things now, without even thinking twice. like how i always envied others for.

so yeah, sorry if adderall makes me euphoric, makes me happy. its because i can finally FUNCTION. im happy i can DO things. i can get out of bed, focus, start tasks, follow through, be creative, and do what i love. people with adhd have less dopamine than average, but adderall bumps that up to a normal amount. and sometimes finally having that normal amount, after not for so long, makes you feel euphoric.

can we not be so quick to tell others they do or don’t have something??? because everyones experiences are different. this whole post stems from the fact that i saw a tiktok of a girl saying something like “i feel happy/euphoric when i take my adderall”, and every single comment started jumping on her, saying “you dont have adhd. thats not adhd.” etc. acting like she was abusing it?? she said she was diagnosed with adhd too???? like i know damn well yall are no licensed psychiatrists, psychologists, just like me.

anyway again, im in no way a professional. just sharing my feelings if anyone else can relate, or don’t know how to put theirs into words. (im also just ranting). when i saw that post, and the comments, it made me spiral, second guessing my diagnosis. please just be aware of your symptoms, jot them down, talk to your psychiatrist, therapist, let family know. theres a difference between feeling euphoria (a literal high) vs a euphoria (finally feeling free, in control of your life). and also—

don’t listen to any strangers online for mental/health advice. don’t take their words for granted.

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omg okay, little rant (big rant) on tv shows

why is everyone so upset over shows having less episodes? and why do they consider it a new thing?? i feel like some people don’t really understand the difference between shows that have 20+ episodes vs shows that have less than 10. are you really hating on the amount of episodes, or are you hating on the amount of time it takes to produce?

okay point 1.

I feel like theres a huge genre difference between the two, specifically the tones. usually lighter toned shows (sitcoms, comedies, procedurals) have more episodes, while more emotionally heavy shows that focus on cinematography and complex story telling (serialized, anthologies, dramas), have less. it just depends on what you prefer.

point 2.

the narrative structures are different. more episodes = a more flexible story. theres filler, standalone episodes, loose season arc, breathing room. you can jump to any episode and enjoy it, without watching in order. meanwhile, less episodes = a more concise story. each episode builds on the last, everything is connected, the season has a beginning and ending, with much purpose. you can binge it, you’re rewarded for paying close attention to details, you can remember more.

point 3.

production is different. lesser episodes often require cinematic visuals, complex storytelling vfx, stunts, location shoots, compelling soundtracks. this makes each episode expensive and time consuming, but so worth it. each one serves a purpose, packed with significance, cohesion, nothing is wasted. they make due with what they can add. more episodes often require faster shooting schedules, reuse of sets, wardrobe, camera setups. this makes each episode provide comfort, connection, consistency. you know what to expect, they’re easy to follow, family friendly, and give you a long-term emotional payoff.

final thoughts

its not about how many episodes the show has, its about if its good quality. why classic shows like greys anatomy, criminal minds, gilmore girls, etc. has such a devoted audience. why prestige shows like fleabag, yellow jackets, killing eve, are critically acclaimed.

i also feel like its not really a new thing for shows to have less episodes…? it gained popularity, yes, but because network television has really died down (this could be a whole other rant). but there are plenty of shows that have fewer episodes, made before like 2016 (cough cough cause people blame it on stranger things), like black mirror, breaking bad, dexter. some shows still have 20+ episodes (despite it being rare), like abbott elementary and young sheldon for example.

mind you, while yes, fewer shows nowadays have over 20+ episodes per season, network tv used to be SO popular! theres plenty of shows out there, with so much content! these shows used to have 10+ seasons! and are we forgetting the most popular ones ran for SO long, they only just ended recently? hell, greys anatomy is still airing out new shit. and also, shows with less episodes have LONGER episodes. instead of 20 minutes, its up to an hour.

honestly i feel like the whole charm of it is clouded by nostalgia. many of these longtime shows were honestly… cheesy. not too well made. but it was still good! it comforted us, we watched these characters grow over long periods of time, and maybe watching something that wasn’t so serious made us feel good. those factors make it hard to remake in modern tv, where the line straddles between cringey and fun.



i personally don’t care if shows have less episodes. the biggest problem i see actually, is how long they take to produce. we are having to wait literal YEARSSSS for new seasons to come out. like up to four years 😭 (cough cough, stranger things) and then when they do release it, we have to wait months for it to all air. its ten episodes, why do we have to wait 3 months for the end…? its so shitty that even if the shows good, it doesn’t feel worth the wait. you lose interest.

honestly there are negatives, and there are positives. i personally enjoy many modern media shows, and also enjoy many old shows! theres so much content out there man. nobody is forcing you to watch anything you dont like. (and maybe this is because i love to rewatch stuff often, if you dont, i can see how its frustrating not getting anything new)

p.s if you read this to the end (holy cow, did someone actually do that??) thanks for listening!

maybe some of this is obvious, but im just rambling :) and maybe trying to help others figure out what they may prefer in shows

[starwilt]

tbh why does nobody wanna be whimsy??

like where are the girlies who just wanna go read books at a cafe together, and swap books to annotate? who wanna do silly arts and crafts, go thrifting, and dye eachothers hair? who just want to be themselves around eachother and not give a single flying fuck if something is considered “cringe”

this world needs more joy

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welcome to the blog of a homeschooled 16 y/o, with severe adhd! i try to stay whimsy :)

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you guys can call me stella (just a alias)

im here cause i have way too many thoughts, and thought, why not make a little blog so i can share some of them? i don’t suppose many people will care for the silly things i say, but this is my little diary for now haha

my posts will probably just be really self-deprecating (my life is sad) or little rambles that are truly, just, meaningless.

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i enjoy reading, but have been in quite a stump as of recently! favorite book: the perks of being a wallflower (book recommendations would be epic btw). i love writing as well, (if me making a blog to write doesn’t make that clear enough), i just love indulging into the world of fiction and glory

i adore films and shows, as i am a true cinephile at heart. the highlight of my day is finishing a movie, and then getting to review it on letterbox’d. despite this admiration for the craft of filmmaking, i have so much to watch! yet here are my top picks from what ive seen so far: everything everywhere all at once, fantastic mr fox, me and earl and the dying girl, little miss sunshine, i saw the tv glow, hunt for the wilder people. for shows: boy meets world, over the garden wall, the good place, and the umbrella academy

arts and crafts! ive dipped my toes into a many, but i mostly crochet, sew, do clay work, and draw (digitally and traditionally). I’ve cycled through like a hundred different crafts, so i own so much shit lol (kinda handy)

gaming!! i play a ton of random steam indie games, but i mostly play minecraft, roblox, stardew valley, and repo! (plz someone game with me)

I also own a electric guitar, but i SUCK!!

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I love cats! been a cat person since i was a kid, grew up with them, and own one (my precious child). my mbti type is INTP-T, but honestly whenever i take those tests i always get different results. they are mostly similar tho! the other two ive gotten are INFP and ENTP, but i just say INTP cause thats what ive gotten the most. i am a scorpio! and a raven claw (i don’t really like harry potter but im strangely proud of being a raven claw ok?) also im from the US. now now, thats it lol

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if anyone wants to be friends just dm me and we can exchange instas :D