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sorry im not active on here anymore ive basically fully moved to edtwt

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yall the shit thats goin down on edtwt rn💀😭

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i miss when ana tumblr felt motivating

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okay ik i said edtwt was scary but i actually rlly like it lmao, ive actually started to lose weight <3

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I just accidentally rusted my bl@d3ds so bad. omfg.

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sorry if i become a bit less active ive been more on edtwt lately<3 ill still post on tumblr though:)! its mainly bc tumblr is v sensitive abt content unlike twt so i can post more “graphic” things w/o getting ban risks

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i miss christmas so another one of these

winter th1nsp0 imagine

you open your eyes slowly as you feel the warm blankets wrapped around your thin frame. you feel a hand resting against your thigh over the blankets. “y/n dinner is ready, come and eat before we head down to the Christmas parade.” your mother softly tells you. “okay ill be down soon” you say groggily lifting yourself up. as your mother steps out of your room, you place your hand on your curtains. your arms seem a lot thinner since you last noticed. you pull open your curtain to see snow coming down. it covers the entire street, glistening under the neighborhoods lights hung around porches. you slowly lift yourself out of bed trying to avoid dizziness, but inevitably failing. grasping onto your desk you close your eyes for a moment. once you feel stable again you pull a sweater off your chair and slip it over your head. it hangs loosely over your body. you recall when it had been gifted to you last Christmas, how the fabric clung to your rolls, now none existent. you grab your phone and begin to walk downstairs. as you reach the landing you see heads turn. family members you havent seem since your heaviest smile at you, some greeting you and wishing you well. as you step into the dining room your grandmother turns her head. her eyes widen when she sees you. “oh my! you sure have lost a lot of weight darling!” she pulls you into a hug. “i am so proud of you. you know i was only 90 pounds when i got pregnant with your mother?” she brags. after catching up with different family members you grab a plate, smaller than everyone else’s. you scoop on a small portion of mixed veggies and some turkey. your aunt insists you have more, but you brush it off saying you loaded up on Christmas cookies earlier, though you know you didnt touch a single one past baking them. after finishing half of your food, you feed the rest to your cousins dog. “go get changed so we can go!” your mother says. on your way to your room you see your favorite cousin. they stop you in the hall, “are you coming with?” they ask. “yea i just have to change real quick”. you choose some baggy jeans, as well as a long sleeve and a oversized flannel to put on. you grab your coat and a hat before meeting your cousin outside. you both ride in your grandmas car. on the way to the parade you two catch up. the point out how despite being smushed, both your thighs are the size of one of theirs. as you walk through the streets through crowds you notice how you cant feel your thighs touching as you walk. once you get a spot, you and your cousin sit down on the side of the road. as you watch the lit up floats you totally forget about your hunger. after a while the both of you stand up, you tell your mother and father your going to find a place to grab some drinks. you walk until you find a cute cafe thats still open this late. you hear Christmas music from the parade in the background. you two head in and order. you get a medium coffee with oat milk and low calorie sweetener. your cousin gets a chocolate milkshake as well as an order of fries. you both sit down and talk while finishing your drink and your cousin eat their fries. after your done, you meet your family back at their cars. as you drive home you fall asleep dreaming of reaching your ugw.

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if u use f@tsp0 dont blame it on ur ed, most of us have enough mental clarity to know the difference between right and wrong and using others sizes as a motivation of what not to be is awful<3

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i have a delusional misidentification to a fictional character or wtva and when my delusions were worse i was so good at starving omfg can i pls get sick again

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so like i keep trying diets were i fasts the first and on the second day i binge, so like imma just fast until i cant and then start over

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i tried edtwt and that shit is kinda scary, i mean ill stay but ed tumblr will always be home<3

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dancer thinsp0 for my ballet anas

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i have a ballet intensive today so im gonna probs end my fast at 27 or 28 hours so i dont pass out

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i got my hair cut- so like all i needa do now is just be thin. how fucking hard can that be😍

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summer thinsp0 imagine

you and your friends pulled an all-nighter, and while they’re busy finishing off the snacks which you didnt take a single bite of and sitting on there asses watching tv, you decide to go outside and watch the sunrise. your still only wearing an oversized t-shirt and some shorts that used to be tight, you feel them hang off your hip bones as you walk. before heading outside you grab a diet coke from the fridge. you sit down on your front porch and take a long deep breathe of the cool summer morning breeze. you sit for a while before one of your friends joins you. there wearing less then you but immediately comment on how hot it is outside. your surprised considering your basically shaking. you slowly sip your drink as the air begins to warm with the rising sun. you look down at your slim thighs that still look small despite being squished by the seat your in. you feel proud of yourself, knowing your ugw is close.

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time to play the game of “which ed song am i gonna obsess over this month?”

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