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The conversation that happens with myself daily.

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This is me if you even care

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When I am unmedicated I get so many ideas and I just can't write them. I spend hours thinking about what I would write and what I want to write without ever finding the will to do it.

I'm also diagnosed and I take meds for it. But here's the catch;

When I'm medicated, everything slows down. Now I can just Do Stuff when I need to, I can just accomplish all of my tasks and finally write.

Finally write. Expect my ideas aren't as interesting. My writing isn't as unique. Suddenly that one fanfiction I've been wanting to work on seems boring.

I can sit down and write if I want to, but now it feels like another one of the chores these meds are allowing me to do. I could do it, but it's... joyless.

I talked about it with my psychiatrist and she told me Tom your brain is now grounded to the present. You're experiencing a life that isn't as frenetic as your mind made it out to be. This is normal. People enjoy their hobbies peacefully and in small doses. It's normal and good that you don't feel consumed by the desire to write constantly.

Then why does this feel like grief.

I'm emotionless and calm, I don't care about bringing this idea into the world and I don't miss it. Yet someone inside me is grieving. A part of my brain is telling me "you should care. You should care that it's been taken from you".

I don't care but I know he did. Aren't we the same person?

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In light of a post I just made….i am still bitter that 2012 Donnie and Raph never had a solo hugging moment.

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I wish so bad they could be friends again 😭😭

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My spring exchange gift for @nantheartist Raven AU and some angsty Jeaneil moments, up for interpretation if it’s just forever partner shenanigans or Jean/Neil 👀

@aftgexchange

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For the 2012 boys specifically:

I think Leo would do something that requires patience and love. I'm thinking kindergarten caretaker or primary/middle school teacher. I know many people see him as a martial arts instructor, but hear me out. As he grows older the fighting becomes more of a hobby. I want him to find peace in kinder activities. Maybe something smaller than a school, like a pet shelter or a plant shop were he gets to care for something. Idk. I just see he him taking care of smaller, younger lives than his own.

Raph on the other hand would chase the adrenaline in his adult life too. Someone else said firefighter and I really see fit in it. He could be a parkour or break dance instructor. Oh but I also see him helping out kids like him, maybe as a social service worker.

Let's be real, Don deserves a job in tech. That's his passion and drive, I can't think of anything better for him to do. And he'd dedicate his life to the betterment of medical equipment, because we know that's also an important cause for him. He could work in the robotic research field; I'm thinking better functional prosthetics, better machines used in the medical field ecc.

Mike as a chef, I truly truly believe he'd thrive in a kitchen. Entertainer is also fitting but I see him best as a cook. Maybe he'd give skate lessons? Also while he's a very artsy person, I don't see 2012 doing art for a living. So yeah, my final answer is chef.

if the turtles had to work regular jobs (for whatever reason, I dunno use your imagination) which ones do you think they would do?

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I am just as scared of skinny raph as the rest of y’all but white raph is what truly haunts me

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He fights with Splinter in IDW too. Given that IDW Splinter is maybe the most controversial out of all his iterations, Mikey is the one that actually stands up to him and fights him verbally and physically.

This scene is followed up by Splinter hitting Mike and Mike smacking him back, leading to a physical fight between the two (to the horror of the others and Jenny who are baffled).

Mikey does not fuck around.

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WE FUCKING DID IT

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Same as it never a was

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we are so, so unbelievably lucky we get to watch mitch marner and auston matthews play hockey together

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Tried to make a human design for the turtles! Ngl I kinda miss the yi's yellow stripes🥹