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the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

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recently, i’ve been having trouble sleeping through the night due to constant weird nightmares, waking up multiple times. however, for the past 2-3 days, it had gotten better—even if i had a nightmare, i wasn’t waking up in the middle of the night until yesterday when my sleep got interrupted again due to a nightmare.

even if i manage to get 8 hours of sleep, the next day is always stressful. i feel lost and not in control of myself or my thoughts, which makes it difficult to stick to my morning routine.

although today started rough, i decided to just simply let my body do what it wanted. i took a break from my usual routine and went straight to my yoga practice to relieve stress. it was a bit difficult but definitely calming. while i was already on my yoga mat, i completed an ab workout routine.

after moving my body a bit, i felt much better. after doing some physical activity, my mind went into a productive mode, and i ran on the treadmill for about 15 minutes. i showered, had breakfast, and feel much, much better now.

i won’t lie—the fear of nighttime hasn’t entirely escaped my mind. however, i did some research and found that nidra yoga is very effective for a good night’s sleep. i will also avoid using my phone 30 minutes before bedtime and try to read a book instead.

i will do an update on my sleep tomorrow. anyway, here’s my to-do list for studying today:

[ ] statistics (lecture three)

[ ] sociology reading (chapter one)

[ ] discrete mathematics: finish sets reading (optional)

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I'm the kind of reader who scribbles on the pages of a book to express my great love for the work or eternal hatred.

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🛀 posting after a while. i'm still getting used to studying after such a long break. i've been very productive in other areas of my life, but studying remains a bit challenging. however, i will work on it, even if it means studying for just ten minutes a day.

it's easy to lie on the internet about studying just to feel a sense of accomplishment and to appear accountable. however, for my own betterment, i want to be honest and start this journey of becoming productive and restarting my studies. it will be slow, but i have a strong will to fulfill my goals. even on the days i don't study, i will try to understand the reasons and work on them.

anyway, today was another great and productive day after a while. i'm learning more about yoga and still striving to be more consistent with it. 🧘🏻‍♀️

📑 this time, i’ve attached my mathematics notes from today where i spent time working on the in-chapter exercises and then checked my answers. practicing is fun.

[study log]

–discrete mathematics (sets): reading and some practice

–sociology: reading from the textbook

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how to brain dump like a pro

what you need

a messy notebook (I like the Leuchturm bullet ones)

a pen

a beverage for emotional support (or several <3)

how to get started

grab your notebook, and sit down in a quiet moment with enough time so you won't stress even more. The point of a brain dump is to unload all your thoughts, everything that is stressing you is put to paper. not aesthetically, no cutesy Pinterest vibes; we need it plain, unromanticised, and personal.

some prompts to get you going

do I have any deadlines coming up?

have I been making time for myself and my hobbies?

what projects, tasks, appointments, and/ or plans are currently stressing me out?

am I procrastinating anything?

am I properly looking after myself? (mental/physical health, skincare, hobbies, school/work, etc etc)

am I currently working through any challenges, and if yes how is that going so far?

how are my friends/relationships doing?

is there an area in my life that I should prioritise right now?

do I feel confident and comfortable at the moment?

Review and reflect

take some time and go over your writing; you can underline or highlight the points that you find most important. make this whole "brain dump" thing a routine; sometimes it takes a bit of writing until you actually get comfortable with putting your emotions onto paper (it sounds easier than it is..), but the more often you do this, the more comfortable you will get!! <3

As always, please feel free to share your own suggestions and tips in the comments! <3

love ya ･:*₊‧✩

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sunday = funday. i forced myself to relax & not worry about anything today. that’s it.

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the intimacy of being stuck together in the rain

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today was great! i’ve recently started practicing yoga in the mornings, and i’m loving it so much. other than yoga, i make sure to do physical activity during the day, and today it was walking.

after that, i spent the afternoon planning my upcoming academic year and the rest of my plan & goals for the remainder of this summer.

🌟 i’m using an excel sheet to track my performance in each course i’m studying. basically, it helps me determine which topics i’m confident with and which topics i’m struggling with, so i know what topics to study and work on everyday (start with the weakest topic).

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–discrete math (sets): completed lesson videos

–sociology readings for class #2 pg. 1-2

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Start telling yourself it’s going to happen, because you’re going to make it happen. Game changer. Because now all the power is in your hands.

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i’m taking up a communication technology course this upcoming term, and i’ve decided to start my reading this summer since it is a pretty ‘readings heavy’ course.

i didn’t get much done (about 2-3 pages), but progress > perfection, am i right?

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–read ‘new media: an introduction’ pg. 1-3

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“Pushing through fear is less frightening than living with the underlying fear that comes from a feeling of helplessness."

Read it again. I know it’s hard to take in at first. It means that no matter how “secure” any of us feel in the little cocoon we have built for ourselves, we live, consciously or unconsciously, with the fear that the day of reckoning will eventually come.

People who refuse to take risks live with a feeling of dread that is far more severe than what they would feel if they took the risks necessary to make them less helpless—only they don’t know it!

—Susan Jeffers

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info — name : rainy age : 20

daily blog. double major in statistics & econ. working for a strong academic comeback.

— currently working on :

1. basics of math [starting with algebra] & stats [intro] for strong grasp

2. reading and analysis

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It’s never too late. It’s never too early. Whenever you are ready, you are right on time.

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