stylishmaya

[stylishmaya]

must be because of the full moon.

[stylishmaya]

The kind of holding that keeps you whole

you know that feeling?

when your body doesn’t want anything

except to be held?

not out of romance,

not out of neediness,

but something quieter,

like your soul is saying,

“just stay with me awhile.”

not a hug with a purpose.

not a greeting or a goodbye.

just someone sitting beside you,

wrapping you in stillness,

and letting the silence do the talking.

sometimes you want to lean your head

on someone’s chest

and not say a word.

not explain the heaviness.

not be asked what’s wrong.

you want a place to exhale

without being told to breathe.

because there are days

when you’re not okay,

and you don’t need fixing—

you just need presence.

you want someone who doesn’t flinch

when your voice cracks,

who doesn’t fill the silence

with advice or noise.

someone who knows that

being there is the answer.

and maybe it’s been so long

since someone touched you gently

that you’ve started to wonder

if you imagined the softness.

so you fold yourself into blankets

or lean into doorframes,

or let the shower run longer

just to feel something wrap around you.

but nothing quite replaces

the warmth of another person

choosing to stay.

you want to be held

without being asked to perform.

to collapse gently

into a pair of arms

that don’t expect you to bounce back quickly.

to fall apart

without being treated like you're broken.

to rest

without guilt.

and maybe,

just maybe

you don’t even need words.

you just need to know

that your weight

can rest somewhere

without apology

[stylishmaya]

“Sometimes the best way we learn to love ourselves is to be loved unconditionally by another soul.” - Onur Taşkıran

[stylishmaya]

you're allowed to be held.

[stylishmaya]

i am not okay. my support system is trash.. like what do i do? my mental health is really struggling.

[stylishmaya]

life just seems like too much. i know the saying is “take it one day at a time” but i truly need to keep reminding myself it’s one hour at a time.

[stylishmaya]

in my mind i’m a prisoner.

[stylishmaya]

NOTHING MATTERS LOL.

[stylishmaya]

being suicidal and living for others is the most drowning feeling ever.

why can’t i find a reason to live for myself?

[stylishmaya]

the fact i exist pisses me off at least once a day

[stylishmaya]

"you're going to regret it when you're older!" "the scars are there forever you know!"

I heard you the first 7 times I'm not gonna stop

[stylishmaya]

i could leave this world and not one person would miss me. so what’s stopping me ..

[stylishmaya]

Tired. I'm so tired. Emotionally exhausted from existing. How pathetic is that?

[stylishmaya]

I’m so tired of feeling alone in this life. why am i here? what’s my purpose? why do i feel like i’m living my life for others?

i’m tired.

[stylishmaya]

Imagine someone holding you close and kissing all the scars and worries away, making your mind a soft melty mess<3

[stylishmaya]

i am slowly moving forward to a point of no return i am just so tired of living. being alive is a chore i cannot do

[stylishmaya]

being suicidal and living for others is the most drowning feeling ever.

why can’t i find a reason to live for myself?