survivingwithborderline

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I was prepared, but it still hurt.

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awe whats wrong babe, u’ve barely touched those promises u made..

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what if i hugged u really tight and then gradually loosened my grip and then told u ur blood pressure is 130/95

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babe it's so hot the way we only talk once a day

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i can’t believe you’d treat me like this, i have been nothing but a menace to you

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im actually going to fix my life this month. or maybe make it worse we’ll see

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i hope your charger only works at a certain angle

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i know deep down i really am never going to make it, and this will end by my own hands

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please let me stay dissociated I don't want to feel anymore

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“Sometimes losing a toxic relationship is not just losing that person you thought you loved but also losing a part of you that’s no good for you. It’s going to be painful but it’s shedding a layer off of you that needs to go.”

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Hello? 911? I'd like to report a missing vape.

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My coping mechanisms may be worse than my actual problems 🙃

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My brother told me a long time ago that no matter who you "have", you still ONLY have yourself.

I could not understand this until now. How many people have promised to stay? How many are still here? All the "I love you"s. All the "no matter what"s. All the "forever"s.

Having borderline just tops the cake. When we say forever, we mean it. Parts of me belong to so many people.

Forever mourning what has been lost.

I wonder if I ever even cross their minds.

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borderline personality disorder is known for making it hard for people to manage their emotional reactions. most of us with bpd were punished or shamed as a child for being emotional. our feelings & thoughts were never valid & we never learned how to control our emotions. since we never know what emotions or reactions are correct, we just end up with too much all at once & boil over. we were never able to understand if our feelings were correct in certain situations, which makes things much, MUCH harder.

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“Be his peace”

Me: I’m gonna bite him

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I put the ✨fun✨ in dysfunctional.