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kitty-meowskers · 14 days

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oh my god.... oh my god..... his trailerrrrrr

#it was made with so much love urgh #i cant #what if i dont get him #WHAT AM I TALKING ILL HAVE ENOUGH FOR HARD PITY TWICE #ugh i wish i could be #more aventurine coded with this #how do i be aventurine coded about aventurine #urghhhhhhhh #he better come early tho #him and his lightcone #i kinda need robin #i dont have a single built harmony character #is that the reason i cant moc?#shut up #babbles #aventurine #hsr

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hyaciiintho · 6 months

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🌸｡*ﾟ+. ADHD as a roleplayer and ✨ creative ✨ person is just having 3 different drafts open at the same time, all varying in progression length, 2 other windows open (youtube and a reference), and a slew of stray papers scattered on the desk you intended to use for doodles but are still blank, and still coming up with new things to do even though you haven't done the first few things you started.

You finished 2 replies like 2 and a half hours ago and have posted nothing else.

#MUN SPEAKING 🌸 ᴬ ʷᵉᵃᵛᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ᵗᵃˡᵉˢ; ᴾᵃⁱⁿᵗᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ˢᵗᵃʳˢ #And the IMs... don't get me started on the IMs... thankfully tumblr won't notify me of them so I can't suddenly LEAP into them #I have to actually check my activity and open the window to see if there's a new notif. Otherwise I'd have even LESS done LOL #This is why I have to close all IM apps when I'm on at any given moment or I'm just.#Not getting anything done. I hate that the hotel plays music with lyrics because my eyes just glaze over #and my attention starts picking up on the lyrics and I'm like 'Please I want silence I can't focus'#My focus lasts for an hour and then it's GONE c:#But UGH okay I just finished making coffee for the hotel guests so... lemme try and... FOCUS!!!!!#I'm about to start being interrupted by early workers ringing the door to come in and early guests checking out #but imma TRY!!!! MY HARDEST!!!! TO GET AT LEAST TWO MORE THINGS OUT!!!!!#Life is hard man hdfksjhdf functioning is hard

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etysky · 8 months

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Highkey wanting to die today

#ety talks #why do I always do this to myswlf #let myself be signed up for early morning shifts while KNOWING those will destriy me #like im not even working full time rn #so it wont happen that often #but still #I am still actively self sabotaging myself rn #lowkey just dont want to show up at all the next time #but then what the fuck am i supposed to live off of #like yea i will look for another part time jon that wont require such stupid hours #but also like #actually getting a new job is hard af #also there is the one month notice I havr to give in advance with my current job so like #ugh #wish Id listened to my inner feeling of “this is weird and idk if I will like this job”#but I have never been able to tell exactly what that feeling is in that moment so #theres that #oh amd ofc theres the usual emptiness ive been having since like #january at least?#wouldnt mind if I dropped dead tomorrow #then i wouldnt have to deal with anything ever again

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lord-squiggletits · 1 year

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Getaway and the whole mutiny arc literally is one of the most disappointing things in all of phase 2 lmao and it’s not that I’m like “oooh Getaway should’ve been a perfect angel who was right and a better captain than Rodimus” it’s more that I would’ve liked to have him NOT immediately descend into cartoonish levels of pure evil and for him to have gotten to make a point about Rodimus/Megatron being shit captains besides the final confrontation between him and Rodimus. Like goddamn I understand now why there are so many Getaway fans/Megatron haters because I’m pretty sure if I didn’t come into this continuity as a Megatron simp I would hate him too

#like it's just... ugh i guess the early cancellation was part of it but like #(holding hands together)#getaway was literally right that it was unfair and ridiculous for the LL to accept an ex genocidal dictator as their captain without questio #he was right about rodimus being a shit captain #and instead of him getting to be 'asshole that has a point' as a sort of rival to rodimus #he basically just went insane immediately (literally insane)#and then what the story ended up being was like #getaway is just a delusional mentally ill asshole with no redeeming traits except his sad backstory #like ugh HE WAS PRETTY MUCH LITERALLY MADE MENTALLY ILL TOO #'getaway wants primus himself to come and tell him he's right' was literally a serious thing that happened #the characters more or less outright stated he had primus apotheosis (not like diagnosed but this is a narrative so we're meant to #take the implication as such)#and then getaway died one of the most brutal on screen deaths faced by anyone except maybe the people who died in grindcore #like it's just so fucking over the top how much getaway became a moustache twirling villain and was cast as pathetic in every possible way #and then got killed in the most horrible way possible #and then afterwards the mutiny isn't even spoken of besides 'oh i forgive you uwu'#JRO put fucking megatron in the final panel of the LL quantum copy as if the mutiny was completely solved #as if megatron was just one of the boys lmao #just leaves such a bad taste in my mouth when i think too hard about it #negativity #squiggposting

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crybaby-bkg · 1 year

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I’m writing a long fic about being a singer in a speakeasy that’s always visited by mafia bkg and I am struggling SO BADDDD trying to figure out an ending. everything I come up with feels so unnecessary and SCHEWPID and it’s annoying omg I’ve been actively writing it for over a month and it never takes me this long to finish fics but GODDAMN!!!!!!! why is this so hard I’m gonna cry

#like I genuinely have no direction for it #and I don’t wanna force an idea but honestly I’m ready to finish it #I have like 8 other wips which isn’t like me at all #I typically get an idea and write it immediately and then move onto the next #but I’ve been struggling to write latelt #lately* bitch #and I think it’s bc this semester w stats has genuinely been so hard and draining #everything is such a struggle ugh this is so shitty #I also had a wedding meet cute fic I started which I expected to be like 2-3k words of just smut #and I couldn’t even finish it #I was genuinely so disappointed in myself omg #as I type this I realize this is just my seasonal depression lmfao this happens every year and I’m surprised and confused every time #anyway I’m about to reread all my old fics and that’ll hopefully give me some inspiration #also I wrote for shiggy for the first time EVER and I actually kinda fucked w it #I wanna write for touya more too I’m so in love with his stupid ass I wanna str*ngle him in love #okay I’m rapping sorry #I have to gts I have somewhere to go tomorrow and OF COURSE #I have to be the appointed MUA bc I said I was gonna do my own makeup >:(#which means I have to wake up early so we won’t be late >:(#booooo I just wanna lay around and write and daydream about being loved :(#—in store chit chat! 🍫

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neverendingford · 9 months

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#tag talk #vent #I don't wanna do the whole “I'm so good at psychology cause I've fixed myself. I should go into counseling” thing that overly empathetic #empathetic people do. but like. nothing like deconstructing a tense social conflict to make you feel good #the smol autistic minecraft enby who adopted me had a moment and I helped break down the situation and resolve shit with them. it was cool #but also I immediately went out to the living room and napped for three hours. thinning that hard was exhausting.#do you ever do the depression nap thing? when I'm doing well I never sleep during the day. but when I'm sad I take naps a lot #because I don't want to be awake and I sleep poorly at I night and am just generally lethargic so I nap on the floor or couch a lot #ugh knowing the stress will go away doesn't help the fact that it's super awful right now.#it's times like this that I wish I'd really committed to it in Feb. like. in two weeks I'll be better and joy de vivre and all that.#but right now? ugh. big fuckin ugh #the minecraft emotional labor thing is just a natural responsibility of being a 25 year old playing online video games with 15 year olds.#if I see a situation blowing up I can't hear sit by and watch someone destroy their friendships on the server. I have to help #but also bro I am struggling to help myself. maybe I say I'm packing up my pc early so that I have a good excuse to stay off the server #I literally did the thing again where I make new friends. make everyone love me. and then get burnt out at the speed of light and disappear #making friends is so easy. leaving friends is so easy. nothing is forever and we all die someday. blah blah blah you know it already #meaningless meaningless. all is meaningless. maybe king Solomon was just fuckin depressed when he wrote that. sure sounds like it to me.#I just can't do anything when I'm like this. we're subsistence living now bois.#I wonder if part of my neurological damage is from the lead I used to eat in high school.#the windex shots can't have been good for me. but I don't think that stays in your body the same way #though it did fuck up my urinary tract for a few months. that was wild.#anyway. I wonder how much of my chronic periodic funk is just effects from bad choices and how much is normal natural inevitable.#everything is an ocean. nothing is a lake. the waves are always thirty feet high and the troughs scrape you on the bottom of the reef #nothing is midline except when you're rushing through to one extreme or another.#you're either overstimulated or absent from your body entirely #both of which cause wild and oft unbearable dissociation.#everything gets better and everything gets worse. I'm only like this when I'm stressed. but that's my secret cap (avengers reference)#anyway. I'll survive. I'll make it. I'll live because I need to become even more gay to make my family mad.#I need to keep living so my dad realizes just how much he's lost touch.#so my mom cries about how she should have done something differently so I wouldn't grow up gay. because that makes so much sense right?

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nomaishuttle · 8 months

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ahhh fuck my gay faggot life

#i have 2 do my t but i lefit just got out of rhe shower so it will be wet and normally id be like Ugh whatever but i have to wake up early #tmrw for Stupid uber reasons im so exhausted all the time i need 5000000 weeks off and i also want to fly into the sun #i just like im gonna be real everyrhing feels so insanely pointless. i fucked up everything and i tried so hard to get better snd i Did for #a couple weeks and then i fucked up and now i feel so . auhfgjfhrjfbfjfnrnfnjrntjfn #i wish it was snowing and i could go lay face down in the snow and cry for a bit. this would hurt my nose but its a good activity #and then i could lie face ul in the snow and stare at the sky. sighhhh. god life is hell im gonna be honest i cannot live laugh love in #these fucking conditions.

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katyspersonal · 1 year

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#/vent #personal #internets #like you can see the attempts to not vent and focus on the positive availed me nothing #this is just really annoying how people are outright not seeing the hypocricy of the whole thing #i perpetually feel like i've finished a quest people normally take years on early and now i just... wait here. all alone.#for other people to catch up with seeing the Whole Thing.#unfortunately you only really GET this when either you face this attitude or someone you know does #there is just an illusion that if you sit quietly and nod along the witch-hunters will not touch you #but honestly the only way to really be safe is to become just like them #because again autonomy is a reason to lose interest in being your friend at least and reason to shun you at most #ugh... i really really REALLY do not know what to search for to make me focus on GOOD things #it boils down to bugging my friends to send me good drawings or funny memes to reblog #or to urgently shutting internet down because over two vents per day is kind of an overkill #i just do not understand why the hypocricy of the witch hunters is not painfully obvious #how much more obviously bad things can get than the pure desperation to remove the person for merely the failure to control them?#the silver lining i guess is that trying so hard means i really get on their nerves.#i am just frustrated #how many years should pass until people come to me and say 'hey you was right and btw they bullied me too xD'#like they kept coming to Mico after having previously tossed him away too #they always come back but it is always too late and always at the expense of them facing the witch hunt too!#what it takes a mf to learn from mistakes of others and not their own?#i will just... stay here. and wait. until people realise the corruption of the Whole Thing.#sometimes i wish i myself had more time to be naive

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realboutfatalfury · 2 years

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picking up kagura will be useful actually bc i need to learn how to do combos that involve charge inputs

#i love charge inputs it's just hard to remember to charge all the time when doing another move #i sometimes let the charge out to early and not do it orz #i've also been learning leona in 13 and 02 um and woagh.#i wish my pad didn't suck rn orz it's so much easier to do charge inputs there for real!#they're not impossible on stick ofc it's just sigh....#i'll get used to it 👍#i think i'm gonna play guys who have charge inputs a lot more to get me used to it again #woooooooooooo!#oh also didn't mention it but kagura's charge time is slower than i'm used to it's like 3 seconds? idk the exact frames of it #may's and leona's feel a lot quicker than it so it's weird #oooh that reminds me i should pick up venom again <3 he's so fun but ugh </3

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maraeffect · 2 years

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ohhhh my god i feel like SHITTTTTTT agh i could never survive working a 9-5

#im fine just need to vent ugh its so hard to. do anything else while i wait to go to sleep #i woke up very early today and was doing an academic thing for like 9 hours ish #so my whole body is just like the worlds crunchiest sand #does that make sense? very heavy but so gritty i feel everything crunching when i breathe #im in a LOT of pain #luckily tho once i catch back up on sleep i usually feel at least half better #gonna really try and take it easy tomorrow #i just need to get groceries and work on a LITTLE homework!!#chatter

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autisthc · 5 months

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sometimes i think back to my last roommate situation and i just……. like rich ppl are so wild its on another level. like everything about pretending to be poor and needing to control the ppl around them is so true it makes me really sad. idk man i wanted to believe it would work out and that they were ~ different ~ but the longer im living on my own the more i reflect upon how genuinely dystopian it all is,,, the people with the most opportunity and influence really squander it bc they dont view anyone as of consequence as their are, theyre so held back by their individualism its maddening