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basket-of-radiants · 3 days ago

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Why were you so disappointed by Rhythm of War?

This has been sitting in my askbox for years. I've taken several cracks at answering, only to get frustrated with the subject matter and burn myself out every time. I didn't like Rhythm of War. More than that, I didn't like it in a way that tainted my enjoyment of the entire series. And despite what it may seem, I don't actually enjoy discussing things which I don't like. I always want to talk from a place of good faith. Which is why now that my feelings towards the series are a little more positive, I think I can finally answer this.

I'm going to try to stay away from specific plotpoints and story beats for this post, because my goal isn't to nitpick (if for no other reason than it would take a week to write this post), I'm just looking to talk about my overall impressions. I think that might mean the only spoilers here will be structural? idk, if you haven't read Rhythm of War yourself then you should probably do that before looking for other people's opinions anyway.

I liked Way of Kings when I first read it. I didn't love it at the time, but I liked it. Certainly enough to keep reading once I'd finished. One thing that made me a bit uncomfy, however, was the war against the Parshendi. They were this unknowable enemy which the book was not interested in knowing. An inhuman army. Their main purpose was to kill Kaladin's friends, or else be killed by Dalinar's armies. And yet the Parshendi, and the parshmen in the form of Shen, did show hints of personhood. And so it bothered me how Dalinar spoke so casually about how the Alethi had decimated their numbers, how the others used the war as a means to amass wealth and power. (It didn't bother me in a "this is a bad book" way but in a "these characters are bad people" way.)

One of my foibles as a reader is that when a book is very clearly treating one side of a conflict with more humanity, I tend to be a bit predisposed towards the other to account for that. And with the Alethi clearly being the invading party and superior military force, there was also some underdog favoritism. I didn't really like how the book treated the Parshendi. This is to say that going forward, the singers would be more important to me than any other through line.

So imagine my delight at reading Words of Radiance and meeting Eshonai, one of the Parshendi, who even gets her own point of view sections! They were no longer being treated as a faceless mass, we were getting to see things from their perspective as well. And it became plain to see the damage the Alethi had done to them. I couldn't really bring myself to root for Dalinar or really any of the humans against the listeners. I couldn't even bring myself to like most of these characters. I still enjoyed the book but once it became clear there wouldn't be a peaceful conclusion, let's just say that I wouldn't have wept for Dalinar and Adolin if Szeth had managed to off them. Like everyone in the book, I assumed that going forward all the parshmen would be turned into evil voidbringers in the everstorm and that the listeners were mostly dead. Except for Rlain, and Eshonai because I'd read or been told that book 4 would be Eshonai's book and thus had assumed she was fine. (Oathbringer spoilers, she was not fine.) So ultimately it was still a bit of a downer way to end the book.

So imagine my delight at reading Oathbringer, where for the first time singers were being treated as people, full and real people, and where the human characters could no longer ignore or dismiss them. We met Khen and the others, common singers who were sympathetic and just wanted freedom from bondage. We see Venli grapple with the loss of her home. We see Leshwi and Moash connecting with and understanding one another. We learn of a history where singers were the original inhabitants of the planet. Parallel to this, Dalinar is having a truly excellent character arc about confronting one's past actions and acknowledging them to move forward and do better. I loved Oathbringer, for some years it was my favorite book, and I was excited as hell to see what came next. At the time, it seemed to me that there is a clear direction the story is going. Two books about needless war, and then a third where the main cast is forced to acknowledge the personhood of their enemies. This was so cool, all of my feelings from the previous installments were being validated, the characters were going to have to face what they've done in the past and outgrow their militaristic mindsets, I was so sure of that.

Imagine my disappointment when that does not even remotely resemble the direction the story went in Rhythm of War. RoW presented a clear, straightforward “us vs. them" narrative, where every character was totally fine with killing singers. Characters aligned with the singers were either flattened into wholly evil versions of themselves (Moash) or were expected to turn on their side in favor of the humans (Venli.) Because clearly there was no reason good people would be on the side that's all former slaves trying to stay free. Maybe there's some sort of accord or understanding between Navani and Raboniel that I might have found meaningful if the seeds of mutual understanding weren't already there in Oathbringer and then apparently ignored for a year by all the characters.

I have a lot of issues with how the listeners are handled in these books. (Here's some elaboration.) Following OB, I had thought that all my concerns were going to be addressed. Following RoW, I knew they never would be.

Which is my main complaint, because that's the thread that matters most to me in this series.

I have a lot of other Things as well. Gonna just talk about a few big ones.

One outsized source of disappointment that may seem a little petty, and which probably is, is that I felt mislead by the premise of the book. It had been announced that this book would center Venli and Eshonai, and I was unbelievably hyped for that. That did not really turn out to be the case. The purpose for their backstory chapters felt less about exploring them as people and contextualizing their arcs, and more about filling in gaps of world history. In the main plot, Venli was a POV character and she certainly played a role, but honestly not a very important one overall. To me she felt like a side character in her own book. I don't think it's controversial to say that the main character of RoW was Navani. A lot of people really like Navani and are happy about that. Unfortunately I'm not one of those people, and I found it all the more difficult to enjoy her when it felt like it was coming at the expense of some of my favorite characters.

This particular gripe somewhat comes down to preference, obviously everyone prefers to read about characters they like more than those they don't, and it can go both ways. (For instance, on a craft/technical level RoW is probably the superior book to W&T, but I liked the latter a lot more because of my stupidly outsized attachment to Szeth and Nale.) But I do think there's something of a real criticism in how the book would rather focus on the feelings of a queen rather than those of a genocide survivor, and how the former's are given significantly more weight and import. It ties in with my main criticism, I think.

And then there's how human/human racism had also been wholly cast aside as a plot point. Jasnah fixed slavery so that's resolved, and the only person who still cares about structural racism is the evil bad bad evil villain Moash/Vyre, who is now wholly irredeemable and who you're allowed to totally write off because he's sold his soul to Odium. I've already talked a lot about this. Other people have already talked about this, probably better than me. The writing was actually on the wall for me in OB, but again, RoW was when I fully accepted that this was never going to be addressed.

There's something else that probably deserves its own discussion rather than being quickly tacked on at the end here, but here we are. This book changed how the series approaches war.

In WoK, war was very clearly portrayed as a bad and inglorious thing. It was brutal, it was painful, those at the bottom died cruelly and unceremoniously and pointlessly while those at the top turned a profit. Every day was a new horror. The enemy were never evil, they were always just more people forced to go through the same thing. Through the next couple books, it felt to me that even if the characters had accepted war as necessary, there was still a tragedy to it. Conversely, in RoW (and W&T) war is basically a series of boss battles, in between which our protagonists can kill dozens of footsoldiers with barely a thought in the same way WoK had criticized.

Final note on all this, it sucks how we have no perspectives from the former-slaves-singers demographic. Those guys are really thrown under the bus, and seemingly get no self-determination now or ever. It was a glaring problem to me in RoW. Conscripted and enslaved humans and singers probably have just as much ground to form mutual understanding as a fused and a queen. (In fact they already had. In Oathbringer.)

In essence, RoW disappointed me because it left me with the distinct impression that none of the series's most important through lines (well, most important to me) were going to be resolved well. I liked W&T, but I haven't revised my opinion very much about the overall handling of these topics across the series. Maybe one of the reasons I was able to enjoy W&T so much more was because I no longer had such high expectations.

#sorry i sorta need to get this stuff off my chest to unpack my feelings about the series.#i hope posting this out of the blue doesn't come across as too mean spirited. my sensitivity reader DID sign off on it.#(that is a joke. although i do let my sister look over any 1000+ word posts ahead of time. and i would respect any disapproval from her.#but normally she just tells me i'm allowed to be more forceful in my opinions without qualifying them or apologizing all the time. pfff.#the reason i've been hesitant to write any especially spoilery w&t meta is mostly because she hasn't read it yet.)#discourse #asks #hey anon if you're still here after all these years. thank you.#at the time i was kinda fishing for an ask like this bc i wanted to vent but it felt mean to do so unprompted #of course this was still really hard to write. mostly because every time i tried i completely spiraled.#the version of this post that was sitting in my drafts was honestly a lot better than this one. in basically every way. except.#except it was nearly the same length and all i'd gotten to was the oathbringer paragraph #below which was a stupidly thorough outline of my itemized complaints #you KNOW i don't care about brevity but my god that would have taken forever to write and finish #and i did not want to spend that sort of time with a book i didn't like. which i would have had to do to get all my planned citations #sorry past self. you were clearly writing from a place of much more passion and that made your work better than mine. and yet.#so as i said. i'm only writing this bc i now like the series enough to talk about it again. sincerely not trying to be a hater.#side note: if any of you have thoughts/opinions about the shift in the way war is used in these books. i would love to hear them. lets chat

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mikuyuuss · 4 months ago

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I wonder if Doll and the Circus fam are aware that the Funtom Candies are made by the same boy that their father wants them to abduct… I mean they should know right? I don’t think it’s a secret that the Funtom Company belongs to Phantomhive.

I also think about how Doll, Joker and even Snake must have felt, after knowing that it was “Smile” all along

Imagine Doll looking back at how her roommate was the ceo of funtom corporation this whole time, and now she hates his ass.

#my post #kuroshitsuji #black butler #book of circus #noahs arc circus #while they are kidnapping kids under ciel and sebastians noses #they dont know the boy they are looking for is right under their noses too #i mean yeah technically hes not actually ciel #but doesnt rlly change much given kelvins obsession w the phantomhives as a whole but u get what i mean #sometimes I think about what yana said how doll and ciel could have gotten along but their worlds didnt meet #and how the symbol of their friendship was the funtom sweet #the one ciel made because it was his dream #he wanted to make things that kids like him could enjoy #and it reached doll #thats why their friendship (no matter how brief) is represented by that funtom sweet #and how it was eventually destroyed #im going off topic lmao but theres something so tragic about ciel pursuing his dream #actually having a positive effect on people #maybe even helping them #except its tainted bc in the end he will prioritize his revenge and his watchdog duty #but then again in this case #its not rlly ciels fault that he is being targeted by the circus

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yeonban · 2 months ago

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I've been watching tons of videos of speeches from serial killers, cult leaders, (confirmed) psychopaths etc today and Tobias does plenty of the subtle things they do, from tone and phrasing to body language. It makes it x100 scarier for me to then look at how Tobias has made every single person he's come across like him to some degree or another, sometimes simply by existing and other times by tailoring his manipulation strategies to their psyche

#tbd.#◜✧ . ❪ muse. tobias. ❫#What makes me most 😬 about Tobias' specific brand of manipulation is that it works EVEN on the toughest nuts to crack #Doesn't matter that the other person hates people. Doesn't matter that they don't trust people. Tobias eventually ALWAYS manages #to make them trust and/or like him (<-depending on what he wants to gain from them afterwards). A degree of fondness is always present #(Yk that 'ugh you're so annoying but something would be missing from my life w/o you here' kind of fondness... yeah Tobias' specialty)#Sometimes he wants both their trust and their favorable opinion. Other times he only needs one & stops after he obtains it #But to watch these kinds of videos & have Tobias in the back of my mind pointing out in EACH speech what the abuser did wrong #and what HE would have done to correct it/make it better; makes me shudder in the knowledge that he's right & he DOES do it better #That said watching these speeches has also made me realize that he's Intentionally not doing certain things that those criminals did #in the sense of body language. Half of the clues you'd get in THEM; /Tobias/ doesn't do bc he Knows people might look out for those #Either way I'm still watching some bc this is simultaneously terrible and intriguing but like 😭 I was thinking about how many #kinds of people Tobias has met on here & ALL of them have some sort of soft spot for him or another; EVEN the ones with the most #barriers known to man. Like Ash for example having a crush on this guy is killing me bc yes Tobias DOES genuinely like Ash #but everything he's done to /gain/ Ash's trust and care was planned. He's thinking everything through before he's doing it. Very few #exceptions of doing smth purely by instinct or impulse. Which again. kinda terrifying! but he's got nothing bad planned for Ash so #that's a relief at least! F to everyone else though. He's perpetually mad at me for not allowing him to kill a muse bc of godmodding 😭#Tobias refusing to work w me after the 3rd time I've reined him in when he Would've canonly killed sb: If I can't kill I also can't reply.

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megagrind · 3 months ago

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Can’t believe I got stuck with a fucked up perception of morality and ethics and I’m not even catholic. What do you mean my brain thinks I’m irredeemably evil for looking at 1 bed apartments and studios? Why do I feel like I have to confess to tumblr.com????

#shit fucking stupid brain #everybody in our house kept flip flopping on what they want to do next year. myself included #everyone sat down and said they were planning on renewing except for me who’s on the fence #so I’m like great. I’ll get a one bed and get the fuck out of here #and then my other roomate now wants to move out with me #which is fair bc I told him we could get a 2 bed together a week ago if he wanted to get out #but that was before I overheard my roomates talking about how much they hate me to the rest of our friend group #and in fairness that got cleared up and we’re good now #but still #idk man going two months living with your friends treating you like shit but refusing to talk to you about it #like I really don’t want to share a house with others at the moment. maybe never again #and I feel BAD bc this was a one off thing and the guy who wants to move out with me has been dealing w this shit for MONTHS #the reason we had a housing convo was because he and another roomate decided they wouldn’t renew if the other was going to #and then last minute they both decided actually they were going to stay #idk man I feel like if I go solo I’m abandoning this guy in an extremely shitty situation #blow 800 a month living along or stay where he is and live with people who won’t even speak to him #and I feel like the right thing to do is move out with him and get a 2 bed somewhere #but every time I think about it black ooze starts filling my head #anyway #this probably sounds so stupid #chat am I irredeemably evil for saying fuck this and leaving everyone else to figure shit out on their own??? is that allowed???

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mono-socke · 7 months ago

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Marry Me A Little !!!

god how I love this album/show

#marry me a little #man (mmal)#woman (mmal)#me doing art #i'd lie if i said that i liked this album immediately after listening to it once #tbh i found most of the songs boring #except for happily ever after #i heard that song and went 'holy shit'#it just?? summarizes my own thoughts so well?? i never thought it could be put into words #and that was enough for me to hang on to the album and when i listened to it again i was like #'holy shit. these songs are ALL cool'#i love 'rainbows' i love 'if you can find me i'm here' i love 'saturday night' i love 'bang!' i love 'can that boy foxtrot' i lov-#i think you get it #for a while i had a new fixation on a new song every new week #and it still goes on #last week it was 'silly people'#currently its 'there won't be trumpets'#(the only song i havent warmed up to yet is 'your eyes are blue' but not bc i dont like it #it just.. isnt my favourite i guess #anyway #rambling over #(hello to the maybe one person who actually read through all this)#(youre cool. youve earned a treat for putting up w/ my infodumping)#(youre allowed to request me to draw something and ill put it as my priority)

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skitskatdacat63 · 6 months ago

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I am Sisyphus the way I "suddenly" have a brilliant art idea, except it's always literally the exact same paper doll concept I've had for years on end since I started drawing digitally. The concept that never ever gets finished. But I SWEAR this time it'll work, I swear it!!!

I want to draw boy king "get ready with me" 😞 I want to draw layers(idea I've had at least 20 times atp) surely I'd finish it. Surely.

#every project threatens to be the picrew again....#except that one actually got finished! wow!!#but yeah literally the whole time ive drawn digitally. i have this same concept idea over and over again #like a recurring dream...or nightmare...#the allure of it is to be able to draw different clothes on one base #so you can see how the character would look w different things on #and not have to draw a entirely new thing every time you wanna test an outfit #but how it ends up is that i finish the base and then draw maybe one outfit and get tired with it 😭😭😭#i really love drawing out the different layers of the outfit #cause that kinda thing is super fascinating to me. especially old styles of clothing #but yeah. it is genuinely pushing the rock up the mountain #bcs as i said i get to a certain point. get bored. few weeks later. omg!! i have an idea!!! repeat.#BUT YEAH.#i wanna draw this boy king au one particularly bcs the LAYERS #theyre so COOL to me #and i want to actually focus on clothing fully #though i know already ill get wrapped up w the face regardless lol #but i am thinking deeply about layers and hair and such #maybe ill do it #i guess its just such a longer commitment than drawing a normal thing #and it feels endless so thats why i end up becoming sisyphus #but i dont think ill ever get tired of the idea of it. i mean its been almost a decade at this rate #catie.rambling.txt

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gralixe · 1 year ago

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One Piece has so much gall giving so much screen time to characters I truly do not give a fuck about

#my thots #one piece #sorry wano #ur amazing except for all the parts that suck #sorry carrot I just don’t wanna see ur lame fight I never cared abt Pedro anyway lmao 😭#I do fuck w Marco tho he can stay #law and kid u are in. drake and apoo sashay away #odens entire backstory was a FUCKING CHORE #I would love oden a lot more if I wasn’t forced to watch all that lmfao #do u think oda knows that story events can be communicated without literally showing it fully and completely #through like clever dialogue and environmental storytelling and LIMITED backstory #anyway wano is still s tier #this is how u kno op fans r fucking cooked 😭#I’ll be like yeah 30 hours of this arc were unwatchable. amazing tho #Sanji getting kidnapped by sexy ladies (again) was whatever. I am so so sick of his I’ll never hit a woman thing I’m sorry #bro some women r evil and literally fighting u…. u have 2 fight them back babes…..#however him calling for help? S TIER #FINALLY #LOVED #made it worth it to me #Robin said I love having friends 😘#they save me I save them #now for oda to have Zoro need savings #put that man into some situations #make him more pathetic. do it u won’t #idk when this turned into my ranking rant #anyway #wano #wano spoilers

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swordbreakerz · 9 months ago

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Late night aro musing: the current couples tiktok trend (its p cute actually) is 2 slides and the first is labeled 'casual stuff me and my partner did before we got together' and then the second slide either has something unhinged like 'moved in together' or 'nothing, we uhauled' or something like that, and it got me thinking about how I rly can't participate in smth like that (not that I want or need to, I dont post stuff on there but it's the principle of the thing) because all of my relationships are so nontraditional, there isn't a clear Before and After divide like that, and it's kind of wild how so many cutesy posting trends for couples are so geared towards allos. I'm not rly feeling any kind of way about it I'm just thinkin

#food for thought!#and z speaks #its making me think abt how i approach relationships again too bc close relationships for me r kinda one sided?#but not in a bad way! like im not gonna establish a dynamic w someone who doesnt reciprocate at least a little #but like. im probably gonna have the bigger feelings and simultaneously im okay to take a backseat to other relationships they have #and im okay w that im consciously making that choice #but it especially excludes me from trends like that bc its unlikely ill ever be someone's primary #and thats okay but it is weird to exist this way in the current social landscape!#like i said food for thought #hope my mutuals enjoyed the death of twitter bc that place used to be my diary and it had a character limit #but since i stopped using it except for ppdcast updates this place is my new diary and i can be as long winded as i want

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my-rights-are-grian-rights · 11 months ago

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🔪: 1,2,19,22,35

🔧: 1,4,5 22, 30, 35

Zhulong: 12,22, 35

HIII HEEHEE finished watching 1 dollar love actually dvd because our wifi went out but IM BACK AND I GET TO TALK ABOUT MY SILLIES

wow this post is gonna be Long soooo adding the cut now~!

🔪:

1: are they associated with a certain color? what color do they wear the most?

UHHHH okay sOOO the simplest answer is probably black bc like. it wears a lotta black. military gear etc is usually black? but! its got this stupid orange striped short sleeve shirt thats actually like. a uniform (as in. I referenced the batman 2022 Arkham uniform when I first designed this idiot. yea) so its usually associated with either orange or red (for blood rawrrr)

2: what sort of music would they like? have you thought about what genres or bands do they lean towards? do they have a favorite song?

oh uh!!!!! I dont think this thing listens to music. tbh everything would be better if it did but! it get zero enrichment ever. so instead for this question I get to give you two songs I associate with it for some reason or another. because I said so. and those are House of Wolves (MCR) and Barbie Girl (Aqua). I want to know what you think of it from these two songs together because the combination is sooooo silly to me

19: are they quick to anger? what sets them off?

ooooo this one is fun to think about. mmm I think generally it's not very like,,, externally angry. it is in a perpetual state of something between annoyance and disdain almost all the time (when not Letting Loose), but that's a bit different from angry, I think. things that will make it snap at you: remove mask w/o permission, get touchy w it without permission. probably other things too I forget. things that will make it do super petty things and/or get revenge on you some other way: assume you've got the best of it. assume you're in charge. assume you're in control.

22: do they sleep well at night?

bold of you to assume it sleeps yea well uhh. its a pretty light sleeper I think but it can sleep wherever. no nightmares or w/e its just. rechargin I think

35: do they ever return home?

no. lol. zero percent chance of this thing ever returning home and idk if that ever even existed for it. if it gets a "happy" ending its going to have to claw that into existence itself. and why would it

🔧:

1: are they associated with a certain color? what color do they wear the most?

blue! they wear the most black, again, but thats cause of the goofy suit thing I've got ingame. blue tie blue waistcoat blue accents on the gas mask, so blue's ended up as their color :3

4: how crafty/resourceful are they?

the wrench is their emoji because that's its main weapon. if that says anything. dont think it'd be the best at like. street brawlin no supplies no powers but it can be pretty inventive with the things it knows how to use.

5: how do they typically dress? does their wardrobe lean more towards practicality or aesthetics?

oh it's so stupid <3. suit jacket tie collared shirt waistcoat belt black cargo pants with big ole pockets fingerless gloves combat boots w straps and a belt chain. it's sooo stupid. <3333,,. character creators be like what if all the pieces we let you use were assorted pieces of other characters. OH and dont forget the half gas mask. when I made this guy I referenced one of two Literal Actual Techwear Official Dot Com gas masks. the pockets are practical at least? and thats just one outfit realistically it has other clothing too but idk what though. probably they steal clothing from the rogues lol

22: do they sleep well at night?

depends on where they are! with dork squad probably! unless one or more of them get on an inventing bend or something but it can just wrangle them back to sleep or at least to be quieter. with the sirens that's more of a wild card. depending on if harl's there she's def gonna wanna like stay up n talk or something. tbh though most things happen at night. like heists! :D but they can usually get a good sleep in. and even a lazy morning, probably!

30: do they smell like anything notable?

uhhh probably vaguely like flowers and/or fear toxin. lol. can you tell what I sourced this guy from yet

35: do they ever return home?

it never returns to where it came from, but that place (read: dimension. lol) was never really home. they do find a home, where they end up. and they're happy.

Zhulong:

12: how long have they been around? do you know their birthday? is their birthday the day you made them or another day? what do they think of celebrating birthdays?

oh man how long has this guy been around? discord chat messages says I made him December 16 of last year. I do not know his birthday. it could just be dec 16 that would be silly. kayfabe though he doesn't really have one hes just Old lol. out of kayfabe hes like chill about bdays I think he'll get ppl close to him a present or whatever. in kayfabe he didnt really get it pre Punishment I dont think but with his whole Chained In A Human Body thing he gets to have a crisis! yay ! over He Is Aging and He Will Die !! again!!!! yipeee!!!

22: do they sleep well at night?

out of kayfabe as long as hes not too sore or w/e he's good. usually conked out from exercising. in kayfabe uhhh he thinks sleeping is weird. his lore says he never eats or sleeps or breathes but now he has to. and he hates it.

30: do they ever return home?

I think he goes to visit his parents sometimes :3 (outside kayfabe.) lol silly answer. in kayfabe nah the place he considers home is long gone and buried by time. and even if it still existed he'd never be able to reach it as he is. sorry

#this is so long goodness gracious me #half of these are just me going nope! no happy ending for you. :)#at least one of the guys im doing it to isn't a self insert. hes only got a little bit of me in him. instead of a lot #ok now imagine a promo like the ones they did w kane and daniel bryan in anger management except del and zhu as a tag team being forced to #have like. bonding time or something. and zhus like I hear its ur bday and giving del a present and its something dumb and vaguely insultin #(or. more than vaguely insulting.) and then they get in a fight again #(that's it thats the punchline. they punch. each other)#bella said something #ask game answers #wubby my hubby

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matoitech · 1 year ago

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got discharged from the er home and showered i was there umm like nine hours. my final message: fibroid warriors assemble! not for long tho (hysterectomy this yr, maybe i can get it pushed up now lmao)

#i got a lot of scans and labs everything looked good except i said hey do i have endometriosis or something and the docs said maybe lets #look. came back after a couple ultrasounds and were like well we cant diagnose u bcuz it needs a camera but looks like u hve fibroids #well i was KIND of right okay!#anyway i dont rly have specific and exact answers they just told me a lot of things it ISNT and said i wasnt in like #a life threatening dangerous situation rn everything seems like ok im just in pain. so gonna go to my doc app on thursday #they might order a ct scan. the hospital was backed up it was so fucking busy they fucked up and discharged me early and didnt tell me and #had to resign me back in hours later after id been waiting there i had to get in the queue again t was a whole thing.#anyway my point w that was the ct scan thingy was a 6 hour wait they said #and i was like. nah. ill wait. the doc on thurs can order one and get me in like a walk-in why would i not sleep tonight #and spend more time in the er aka the scariest place in the world

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lilac-melody · 2 years ago

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Hmmgggggggggggg.

#i dont really “hate” anyone tbh #like if i get annoyed or pissed @ someone ill forgive them within 2 days max #usually within a few hours im chill again #but my coworker. Holy shit i actually hate her sm mam pls pls pls shut the fuck up stop talking to me #im ngl im actually openly a bitch to her #like when i leave in the late afternoons ill call bye to my managers and coworkers by name...#except her. I flat out dont say anything to her #when she walked to the back and left the register unattended she said she needed help w smthin #and i flat out lectured her instead of gently explaining that she cant leave it unattended #i didnt cuss or anything but even i could hear my tone beinf a very “duh” voice #And im kinda fuckin tone deaf #i get a lot of complaints abt her from customers too lol #shes rude and never says please or thank you or anything #like she says fuck manners or smthin #and she keeps! Interjecting!! In my convos!!#Ill be talking w Anyone and she'll but in and be like #For example #the other week i was trying to separate two carts and one banged against my chest. I held my chest and whined @ my coworker (whom i adore)#and we were laughing together and i said “im short! carts will hit my tlts! it happens!”#and lame coworker walks over and goes “youre not short. I saw an adult the size of a toddler earlier.” In this smug bitchy tone #or when im telling a coworker im trying to budget #she'll come @ me going “youre not trying to say youre Poor are you? Because you dont look poor”#like girl what the fuck. First off i wasnt fucking talking to you! Secondly thats none of your fucking business???#i get my clothes cheap online or in thrift stores #ONCE IN AWHILE ill go to a fancier store and get 1 or 2 items but thats it. And thats vvv uncommon #she pisses me off sm im gonna be meaner lol

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oozywoozycon · 2 years ago

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porsche

bc he’s the one most likely to accept mistreatment out of all the theerapanyakul love interests.

sure there’s the whole thing w pete and vegas lmfao but imo pete is aware of the fucked up parts of their relationship, and that is in fact a key component of his interest in it; anything healthier would simply not work for him. and also vegas is deeply aware of it.

porsche tho i mean he is consistently fucked (figuratively, here. lmao) by kinn. you’ve got their whole pre-relationship thing, then their beginning when porsche is drugged to high hell, there’s the tawan situation that’s almost made worse by the fact that kinn was faking it the whole time? it’s one thing if he was tricked by tawan but he WASNT he was just keeping porsche in the dark and yes he had his reasons!

the point isn’t that ‘oh it’s unforgivable etc etc’ bc these guys are literally in the mafia, a good normal healthy relationship is not possible and also would be no fun. who watches the mafia show for well-adjusted people and same relationships

the point is porsche does not stay angry about any of these things nearly long enough. he’ll do a little silent treatment and maybe run away but he’ll forgive so so quickly !!! and i understand it in terms of his character!!! it makes sense and it’s delicious!!!!!! but i feel that it’s a very important part of him to keep in mind bc yes he does stand up for himself occasionally but truly he is not the poster boy of enforcing boundaries and self-respect

#don’t think i know quite what i’m trying to say here but i needed to put it out there #i mean chay specifically would not have tolerated any of kinn’s behavior had it been kim to him #not sure about pete but like i said he’d at least be aware of it #not that i think porsche is unaware of the fucked-up-ness of it all BUT #he’s spent his entire life up to this point sacrificing for his loved ones and putting away little pieces of himself for it #and he does do this for kinn as well #he does it a little less! and he kinda gets better at it except not really at all bc if you look at pre-mafia porsche #he would’ve hated post-mafia porsche #but the series is ab survival and love and what would you do to keep it !#and porsche is willing to do quite a lot actually #it’s one of his traits that makes him so interesting and dynamic as a character! you can make him do so many things by putting his loved #ones in Situations #hm again do not remember where i was going w this #kp #porsche kittisawat

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autism-corner · 6 months ago

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big tragedy

#ok so a couple friends that ive known for. 8. 8!!!! years now (sorry thats insane wth) are on their minor abroad #and generally being in separate uni's we RARELY see eachother #so were going to do a powerpoint presentation catchup thingy. you know the tiktok ones.#fucknig fine whatever thats cute ig.#except i am boring as hell and have nothing to talk about. yes miku expo was a big thing for me so i can talk about that yadayada #BUT THEN.#i realised that a. huge fucking part of me. (<- TRANNY) has never been officially addressed.#ok! fun ill officially come out and mention my other names and pronouns yippeee thats good!!#sillyposting #but now. the horrors are hitting.#otherwise known as: girlypop wants to loop her birthday together with this get-together.#and thats awesome i fucking love her shes great but now.#NOW IT FEELS SO BAD TO MAKE THIS MY SPECIAL DAYY T-T #and i KNOW i shouldnt bc. were all coming together as friends and shes just being efficient but. you get it.#i will officially come out. im ready.#and that alone feels great.#it should already be pretty clear im a faggot transgender etc but. itll be nice to really say it. i hope theyre not surprised.#like. ive said it. in my opinion. but who knows if they remember or care or believe.#most of them are already gay n. itll be FINEE im excited.#=w=bb #anyway yeagh feels bad to do it on her bday ig but i get itt this is something i HAVE to do o7 #its a shame other girlypop fell off she was the first one i EVER came out to. looking back its weird to come out as ace to someone but.#it was nice. i was a newly queer teen. i wish she could be here but. as soon as highschool ended she dipped. good for her.#oh to be 15 years old again. i didnt even know what the fuck would happen to me.

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kamitv · 6 months ago

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Your best friend Sukuna is a complete slut.

Though you’d never say that aloud—albeit more than true. That's the only way to describe him because why else would he be in your bedroom, sitting on the edge of your bed, with his legs spread wide open, fingers wrapped around his thick cock, and groans of your name leaving his lips?

Because he’s a goddamn slut, that’s why. And normally when you interrupt his… sexual acts, you quietly apologize and rush off as quickly as possible.

Yet, here you were, being ordered by your best friend not to run away this time.

“I’m not gonna repeat myself,” Sukuna’s raspy and slightly husked voice drawls out to you, eyes boring into yours from across the room, “Bring your ass over here.”

Funny how he said he wasn’t going to repeat himself only to follow up with a literal repeat of his initial order-

“Now,” He hums, his voice sending a chill down your spine.

You stiffen up where you stand, trying your absolute best to keep your eyes anywhere and everywhere else except for the hand he had stroking his cock.

Gulping, “Sukuna-,” He shoots you a pointed glare and you start getting nervous. “You can’t just… j-jerk off in my room and expect me to… to help you.”

“Fuck,” He hisses, your eyes nearly falling on him again as the low noise makes you fidget, “Fine, then get out,” Sukuna tells you.

Your brows push together at the audacity of him, not that it really surprises you anymore, “But-“

“Out. I’ll be done soon,” He cuts off, sitting back and fisting his cock at a quicker pace, eyes drinking in every inch of your still figure.

You didn’t want to look at him. Nor did you want him jerking off in your bedroom. But, you also didn’t want to leave for some strange reason.

Hence why you just stand there and look around your room as if you don’t know the interior already. Sukuna can’t help but crack a smirk as you stand there, his breath growing heavy before he calls your name— watching the way you flinch at the sound.

“Kinda’ awkward if you just stand there, y’know,” He chuckles out to you, finding you oh so amusing.

You frown, “Kinda’ awkward if you just jerk off in my bedroom.”

“It wouldn’t be if you came over here,” He snaps back.

You hate how quick he always is with his responses, something you still haven’t gotten used to throughout all your years of friendship. Swallowing, you just barely glance at the man, “What?” You huff out.

Your eyes were on his and his were on yours. Tension was vexed into his gaze, desire pouring out of his maroon shaded eyes and making you so utterly nervous as you stood across the room from him.

All as he just sat there, shirtless, tattooed and chiseled chest very difficult not to gaze at, large thighs spread lewdly, and hard curved cock twitching within his grasp as precum oozed out his tip.

You couldn’t help the way your gaze dropped for a moment, catching sight of his cock and the way his plump tip glistened under your dim bedroom lighting. His hand movements got noticeable faster as you watched and you drew your thighs closer together.

Sukuna lets out a deep sigh, “Y’know,” The sound of his voice makes you flinch yet again and you lift your gaze as though you’d been caught doing something wrong, seeing the smirk on his face, “You can come get a closer look.”

You bat your lashes at him, “W-What?”

“Is that all you know how to say?” He chuckles, “Hah, just c’mere already,” He suddenly requests, voice softening ever so slightly. “I won’t bite.”

And that’s… roughly how you ended up on your knees in between his legs. With a mouthful of his cock, you don’t even remember what’d come over you after you listened to his request and came close to him.

One moment you started shyly teasing him about being a pervert who jerks off in your bedroom and the next you were curling your fingers around his shaft and making your way down to your knees. Sukuna had let out a long shaky sigh as he watched you settle in between his spread legs, his urge to tease you dying off as some other emotion swelled within his chest.

He’ll never admit it to you but, he was shy. How could he not be when your soft hand begins stroking his cock like he’s just some kinda toy for you to play with—what’d you expect him to do when you look up at him and lean forward to wrap your lips around his drooling cockhead?

Unfortunately for him, his expression gave away everything and as soon as his dick began disappearing into the warm caverns of your mouth, he was a goner. A hand was now tightly gripped onto your scalp, his breathing unsteady as he watched you suck him off with that pretty ass mouth of yours.

He’ll never be able to forget the sight of drool spilling out from the corners of your mouth while you tried your best to take him all the way into your throat. And his mind just about blanks when you move your hands to his thighs, push them further apart, and then sink down completely—your lips meeting his base.

Now that was a sight to see.

“F-Fuck,” Sukuna stammered, the sound alone leading you to choke a bit as a moan attempted to leave your throat. His darkened eyes were seconds away from rolling to the back of his skull with how sexy he found the sight of your lips bulging around his thick cock.

When you finally do pull your mouth off of him, he doesn’t even get a moment to breathe before your hands are wrapping around him. He goes from leaning back slightly to sitting up a bit straighter and moving his hands down to one of your wrists, his lips unknowingly quivering.

Then a pant escapes him and you’re bringing your eyes back up to look at him. “Slow, woman—fuck, go… hah, slow.” He says hoarsely.

Oh the desperation on his face was priceless. Why ever would you listen to him when using two hands to jerk him off is all it takes to receive a slightly pouted lip and furrowed brows from him. He probably doesn’t even realize the face he’s making at the moment, too grumpy trying to take control of the situation to feel his features faltering.

You coo, “Aw, go slow? But, ‘Kuna, I thought this was what you wanted?”

The nickname you just threw at him has to be evil in some way, shape, or form because the wild twitch it invokes is enough to have your hands tightening their grip around his thick cock.

Sukuna grits his teeth and you can see a vein popping out in his forehead—he’s so annoyed with you now that the roles have reversed, it’s cute. “Fuck you,” He curses, as if that’ll help him avoid the embarrassment bubbling up within him right now.

“Oh, there he is,” You purr, removing one of your hands just to angle his cock back toward your lips and then tapping it against your skin gently. “S’kinda hard to be mean to me when I’m makin’ you feel so good, isn’t it?”

He swears you’ll be the death of him. He’s never experienced this side of you, nor was he aware it even existed. All he’s ever known you as was his shy roommate who’s so unintentionally attractive that it pains him to be around. Is this really the same woman who was stuttering moments ago when she walked in the room and caught him jerking off??

Sukuna huffs out an almost bratty breath of air, “Stop… talking.” Just as he’s never seen this side of you, you’ve never seen this side of him and fuck is it hot. He’s usually such a big intimidating man and yet here he is literally folding and gasping to your touch.

You completely strip your hands away from his cock and then open your mouth, staring right up into his eyes as you whisper, “Make me.”

All that embarrassment and temporary shyness is gone within the blink of an eye. Sukuna’s stumbling up slightly to his feet and grabbing a firm hold of the top of your head, letting out a gruff sigh while taking his dick into his hands and properly aligning himself with your mouth.

His chest is glistening in sweat and his head is pounding, he was all nervous seconds ago for what? Because of you? Oh please.

It only took those two words of yours for him to remember who the hell he is as he then thrusts his hips forward and quickly fucks himself into your mouth. “That’s more like it,” Sukuna grunts, giving your mouth some mean thrusts as he forces your head to move and meet each one of his motions. “Fuckin’ slut, m-makin me nervous,” He admits hoarsely, his tone aggravated with you. “Who do you think you are, huh?”

You’re obviously too busy getting your face fucked to answer that properly but the moan you let out that leads to drool filthily dribbling out your mouth is enough of a reply for him. Especially when he catches how it drips down onto your thighs.

Sukuna releases a pretty groan out into the air at the mere sight of you. He thought he was losing his mind before but now it’s even worse. You don’t even have your hands on his thighs to try and brace yourself or control what’s happening—you just let him have his way with your throat, taking things a step further and moving your hands behind your slightly arched back.

Fuck, he needs a picture of this. He desperately needs this display of you burned into the forefront of his mind for the rest of his life. Especially as he starts hitting the back of your throat and you purposefully choke against him. Sukuna’s other hand lifts to cover his mouth because he swears he almost whined.

Your throats too fuckin’ tight, you’re holding eye contact with him for too damn long, and if he feels your tongue flick against that specific vein of his one more time—

“Hnngh—” Sukuna moans, his grip almost bruising as his head flies back and his cock presses right against the very depths of your mouth, hips stalling with the way his orgasm comes rudely rushing out of him.

Then he feels you swallowing and even though he was trying to keep you head still, you begin to bob yourself back and forth on his cock while he’s cumming and that’s when a whimper is choked out from his lips. Sukuna’s whole body just clenches and he’s letting out all kinds of sounds as his hand, now shaky, holds onto your head for dear life.

Even when he stops cumming, you’re still sucking and his eyes roll back, voice coming out strained. “S-Shit, fuck—stop,” Sukuna moans again, “Please?” Never in all your years of living did you ever think you’d hear Sukuna Ryomen begging you for something and yet here you are.

You steadily pull your mouth off of him with a slick pop, sting after string of saliva hanging in between his tip and your glossy lips. He’s above you panting for a moment before stumbling back to sit down on the edge of your bed again.

A hand of yours moves to causally wipe your mouth off and you don’t even know if you wanna tease him now or later about what just happened. “So, that was—”

“Don’t speak,” He cuts off immediately, his voice surprisingly airy. “Ever. Never bring this up again.”

You snort, “Promise me you won’t jerk off in my room again, first.”

Sukuna scoffs. “Tch. Whatever.”

Like the vixen you are, you begin to lean toward him again and you don’t know if you image it but he flinches ever so slightly. “Promise me,” You say as your hands meet his knees and you begin to lift yourself up.

His eyes go wide and he internally panics at the sight of you moving. “Fucking fine. I promise.”

Smiling, you move to lean over his tensed body and plant a kiss on his cheek, “Good boy.”

…

Yeahhh, his brain just powered off.

pt. 2

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