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[pokemonblack3white3]

Girlies I have got to stop feeling guilty about creating art I enjoy

[blackeyed-daisy]

actually I'm gonna be real here can someone lay down some like actual fucking rules on how you're supposed to vent to/generally be upset around your friends.

like I keep seeing people wax poetic about how it's so sad that people don't open up to their friends and they would be so upset if their friends never leaned on them for emotional support :( and other people saying that yeah of course they reached out to their friends when they went through a really rough patch and it was so helpful!!! and everyone should do that because that's what friends are for!!!

and then these same people will say that venting too much or venting about the wrong things is just absolutely terrorizing your friends and it's this great huge burden to reach out because it's an obligation that people don't want to or can't deal with and venting about the same problem consistently is just using your friends as a crutch instead of actually fixing anything in your life because you care more about using your friends as stress relief instead of actually taking initiative to fix anything and it's just a massive massive burden and an obligation people don't want to deal with. which I mostly get since emotional labor exists ofc

but then nobody ever actually elaborates on what exactly are the wrong things to vent about or what exactly is too often or whatever other millions of issues exists that nobody even bothers to tell me about until they've been dealing with it for years and silently seething the whole time and even when I've explicitly asked people in the past for an answer in that regard I've literally never gotten a clear answer. and even when I give up on getting a clear answer in that regard and I just ask them if I can vent before I do I've had people literally just fucking lie to me directly and say they totally were okay with it when they weren't because again it's an obligation they don't always want to deal with so they had to say yes regardless of how they really felt

so like what's the fucking truth here man. how am I supposed to make anyone happy in this regard. because clearly I can't vent or people get mad but I can't not vent either because people also inexplicably get mad/upset from that too????

[catnykit]

dont'ya hate it when interesting asthetics are aslo connected with 𝐓𝐫𝐚𝐮𝐦𝐚𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐞 which means that you came for pretty images and you got triggering vents

[only-angels-have-wings]

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i post about tcc , mental health , ed , sh , and nsfw stuff so please block me or block the tags i use !

i have no dni except for old men who wanna dm me because i use the girlblog tag , LEAVE US GIRLBLOGGERS ALONE ! ! follow your own dni !

my fave cases / people are : dylan klebold , eric harris , adam lanza , roger needham , jason smith , brandon hole !

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i dont have a stance on condoning , i think . i dont care if you do or dont . my personal opinion is i do not care about the victims , i am not sorry . obviously i dont think anyone should just go kill people but i also dont care that they did . block me if you have a problem with it , if you try starting shit with me over it idc im just blocking you , cus unlike you i DO have hobbies to put my time into !

BLOCK DONT REPORT , I ALWAYS COME BACK ! !

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im literally an angel 丰 gen posting , on every post

gedichte 丰 poetry or stories

l0v3 l3tt3rs ! 丰 love posting , rare but it happens =]

ashonthesun. 丰 triggering stuff over all , like venting or shed

biohazard. 丰 angry posting

reinraus. 丰 horny posting , sorry in advance .

yes im a necrophile , no i dont care because theyre literally DEAD im not fucking traumatizing them unlike an alive person . fuck off my blog !

[botanical-garden-system]

Are you pro/neutral Endo?

Short answer:

People would say I am most likely neutral. I don’t care what someone labels themselves as, and I don’t think it is important to obsess over this so much. It makes me uncomfortable when people keep trying to push whether I should be pro or anti anything when I don’t even experience it. I think we should let people be until they are actually inflicting harm/pain onto others.

I used to be huge in discourse communities on Insta in 2018-2019 and I never want to be in them again. I just want to educate people and provide resources otherwise inaccessible. This will probably be my last post on this because this debate has driven me away from ever using tumblr, and I have nearly deleted my profile because of it.

If you wanted the short one, then there you go. However, this answer will never suffice to me. It doesn’t represent the complicated feelings I have across so many different parts of myself. I have a lot of conflicting thoughts about this, and I plan on being more in depth with my process through these feelings below the cut. (I got tired writing it and like just started half assing and not correcting stuff, but I’ve wanted to get this out and away from me. Just comment if you need more clarification)

My feelings: Neutral or Pro?

I will always support people in figuring out things for themselves and finding ways to describe themselves. Even though I cannot begin to understand non-disordered plurality, I do understand that endo does NOT mean without trauma. Trauma in itself is extremely complicated, and things we don’t think are trauma tend to be very traumatic (i.e. neglect, systems of oppression, emotional abuse, etc.). Even then, I am not in someone’s head nor have I lived their experience.

If someone says this is their experience, I am not going to disagree and argue with them over it. That’s stupid and pushy. I would rather learn of someone’s experience so that I can understand it, which is ultimately what we NEED to be doing. Frankly, there isn’t enough research or information about non-disordered plurality for me to make any claims, and even then I wouldn’t jump to say it could NEVER happen. There’s a big reason I have no DNI: my account is all about accessing free resources and making people feel seen in their symptoms.

Additionally, it’s no one else’s job but my own to curate my page. I see something I feel uncomfortable with or heavily disagree with? I will block them. Until they are INTENTIONALLY causing malicious pain or damage that CAN BE CONFIRMED, I am not going to publicly “denounce” or “shame” someone. I am an adult and can just block freely if I don’t feel comfortable with something, but that’s not even the point of why I made this blog. While it sounds hypocritical for me to say this after positing a few vents about this discourse, I want to be clear that no matter WHAT tag I look at, it always has something to do with a “-genic” label. It’s literally inescapable atp and I am thoroughly tired of it.

Just let people be is what I will always say.

The Complications: My thoughts

When it comes to these topics, it makes me feel really alienated to only see the most discussed symptom be the “alters” or identity states. It also feels extremely alienating to see people trying to rename this disorder to focus on the “multiple identities” part, ignoring the OTHER symptoms and the history of CALLING this disorder that. I think it’s a big reason we see some traumagenic systems becoming so aggressive about this: our identities are not stable and it can cause heavy denial to see the focus shift only onto one aspect of the disorder.

“Dissociative identity” is a great name for those with disorderly symptoms because it IS a dissociation from one identity to another. Additionally, this is NOT only about identity dissociation, this can be dissociation from one’s motor skills, cognitive abilities, sensations and perceptions, behaviors, emotions, memories, and literally ANYTHING related to cognition in general. I do agree that we need to recognize the spectrum of dissociation, but that ALREADY exists in things like DPDR, OSDD-1, P-DID, and DID.

The lexicon surrounding DID vs plurality DEFINITELY calls for more defined edges, and I think people have already been working towards that (many with non-disordered plurality use “plural” or “multiple”). However, it becomes confusing and muddled when people are constantly fighting about who “coined what label” or “whether someone should use this label” when experiences are very fluid and different.

Traumagenic systems also need to recognize extreme anger and emotional attacks on non-disordered plurality gets us no where. If someone is willing to be hateful towards the smallest community with high vulnerability, their support was only conditional to begin with. It is clear that many of the reddits making fun of systems do NOT care about the “legitimacy” of your diagnosis. They do not care whether or not what you’re experiencing is real, they just want something to make fun of.

Conclusions

I will never be able to experience non-disorder plurality as “plurality” is not my own or full experience. I have had many people make jokes about my life being, “A shitty wattpad fanfic some kid shoved every single trauma into” because of how gruesome and fucked my childhood was. I cannot begin to understand how plurality is shaped outside of trauma, and that is why I will never engage or force myself to debate to legitimacy of someone’s experience.

Regardless of the labels someone chooses, I made this blog with the intent to make other systems like me feel seen. I want to discuss the intricate symptoms and severities in my own conditions that I never saw publicly discussed. My entire goal is to try and bring awareness and education to the community so they can better understand how something like DID impacts them. I didn’t come out about my disorder to engage in discourse, I came out so other people like me would be able to parse through everything and find themselves.

I WANT to make people happy with themselves, and I WANT to bring meaning to my own life. Academic research was one of the first times I had actually felt seen and heart through a diagnosis.

[fandomsfan1]

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[roped-n-railedd]

oof. vent below

i just had. a super big talk with my partner n it was. a lot. mostly about kink stuff, n i realised that he has grown less interested in being called daddy at all outside of sex and even during sex is sometimes too much for him. over the course of our relationship

and i don’t blame him at all, there have been a lot of external things recently that have led to him having his kinks exposed to a number of people that was really traumatic for him, but it was part of why it was so important to have a chat about it.

but i realised that even tho all the other stuff is okay, i just need to wait until my birthday/“special occasions” to call him daddy and it. really hurt because i didn’t realise that’s how it was and was hoping it could be a more frequent thing that just wasn’t happening because i felt nervous about it

but um. yeah he’s really not that into it anymore and needs to have some time until he can think about being into it. which is so okay and i don’t want to push him on his boundaries and and i appreciate him for so much more than just what i get out of sex

but i also am going to edit my bio and start tagging posts as #fiance posting instead of what it currently is

and we’re probably going to have another chat tomorrow about it but i’m. really upset for the moment n might either go really hard with it here as an outlet or completely withdraw from engaging with certain posts, im not really sure and can’t even decide how i feel right now

but i love you all so so so much and if you’ve read down to here i really appreciate it <3

[musashi]

i JUST realized this might be related to one of my other friends in the mvk fandom suddenly hardblocking me so uh

hey y'all! if you frequent the mvk tag, there is a regular blogger there who i will not name, but who has some sort of pathological attachment/obsession with me. they and i were tumblr mutuals but we were not close. we DM'd twice and had scattered interactions here and there.

they are accusing me of:

being abusive toward them

being otherwise cruel to them

being ableist against disabled folks who are high-support???

sending suibait/having my friends send suibait

probably other things.

EDIT: someone's informed me they're accusing me of posting private stuff from their vent account? the only account i know of theirs is the one we were mutuals on

i can't stress enough that none of this is true. there is no proof of it and if you press this person they will have none. all that happened was some time about a year ago when we were mutuals, i feared they might be vagueblogging about me when i was having depressive episodes and i sent them this message about it:

i was being honest here, but they then turned around and said i was spot on--they were vagueblogging about how badly they wanted me to shut the fuck up, stop whining, etc (paraphrasing, but that was the vibe exactly) every time i needed social support. they have since deleted their message admitting to this. i am so sorry i cannot prove it.

since then multiple mutual friends of ours have unfollowed them because they squat on ym blog and, again, pathologically blog about me. they revel and make posts about "justice" and "karma" whenever i am upset on here. they scream and yell and cry whenever i am happy. they have admitted to wanting to convince their mutuals to abandon me:

again, i can't prove this is about me but i have a lot of testimonials from people who noticed this being in both our circles and can vouch for it. initially i was just going to roll my eyes and move on but i think they might be telling other people i'm some horrible fucking abuser who mistreated them when i wasn't even close enough to them to do so.

anyways, sorry to everyone who tracks the tag! i don't know how to prove that i didn't hurt this person. but... like... if they approach you, please do your best to use best judgement and consider the facts in front of you.

again, i will not be naming them. this is not a callout post. this is a preventative measure, because i am a traumatized wreck and i really cannot deal with things of this nature.

[rustedleopard]

If after True pacifist Clover got revived and decided to stay with Ceroba, how would you see thing play out especially if Ceroba, Kanako, Clover, had to now deal with all trauma and stuff (in the best case scenario?)

And also what’s your thoughts of Undertale golden years by DrSteph?

I don't have any thoughts on Undertale Golden Years by Dr Steph because I've never seen it before. I looked it up, found this one comic from a brief search, and from what little I know about it, all I can say is that it seems cute. I like Clover revival stories. Not much more I can say about it.

I'm not involved on any other social media websites besides Tumblr and I usually don't invest myself in other people's AUs. I'm casually aware of some AUs that do get posted to Tumblr frequently if they appear in the UTY tag, but like. For the most part, I don't go out of my way to look into them (barring North's Lucky Clover AU). Sorry, but I'm more invested in the ideas in my head ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

And truthfully I can't see things going all that well if Ceroba had to look after both Clover and Kanako. Not for a lack of trying on Ceroba's end, Ceroba would try her hardest to make everything work out. But more because Clover and Kanako would be two kids who need a lot of support. Clover comes from a household of neglect, fought their way through the Underground, and also died and was revived: that's a traumatized child. And Kanako lost her dad, Fell Down, was revived and amalgamated, and was in a dark lab without her mother for who knows how long: that's a traumatized child. I also do like the idea of Kanako having some of her father's racism because she had a bad experience with a human and being raised by a guy like that would definitely impact her opinion.

If it's literally just Ceroba raising these kids and they're staying with her 24/7, then between looking after two traumatized kids (and Kanako might be having conflicts with/be terrified of Clover because of her bad experience with Integrity & Clover would carry whatever negative influences they got from being raised in a neglectful household) and whatever leftover trauma and grief she has to process (depending on how far into the future this happens), something's gonna go wrong. Because that's what happens when you have a bunch of traumatized people stuck in the same household (hell, even non-traumatized people get into arguments/spats with each other).

This is where I think Ceroba (and Kanako and Clover) having Starlo and Martlet and Dalv to fall back on would help significantly. All of them would benefit from the extra support of more eyes to look out for them and more shoulders to lean on. Everybody needs a good community to lean back on. Especially Ceroba and Clover and Kanako, with all they've been through. If one of them needs a little extra space or someone to vent to, they can always turn to their friends. So yeah. A network would be greatly beneficial. Without it, the Ketsukane family would be rife with tension.

[glsneeg-enthusiast]

update 11/21

update 2/15. half life now. 💙

actual serious pinned because some people dont Understand the other one apparently. i talk about serious things and that does include gore and essentially anything that would need a tw. huge gore draw-er also. serious things basically. most if not all portrayal of mental illnesses is based on my own experiences so do not come here saying you dont like how i show it. that being said my blog is not all entirely about that and its mostly silly and or shitposts actually. also i actually dont usually tw things uhmm. were playing roulette here. basically if you get triggered by anything i wouldnt recommend being here its always a 50/50 on if i post something silly or traumatic. dont vent in my inbox unprompted i do not fucking care i will not respond and you will only make me uncomfortable. dont be weirdly sexual at me!! i am a minor!!! i dont fucking care nor want to hear about your sex life or about your fantasies or your private areas!!!!!!! dont shove weird relationship statuses onto me either. i am not your family i am a stranger on the internet

do Not post my art uncredited unless ur a mutual or i say its fine im serious idgaf if its just a silly doodle

standard dni i guess. racists terfs homophobes proshippers zoophiles. all that. also people that ship Real Life People Instead Of The Characters. youre all fucking weird and i dont want you here ill actively make fun of you and then block

i am pro endo and i have endo friends so if you dont like that its ultimately up to you if you wanna be here or not. most htfasj fans have me blocked but if you are one and you dont ur on thin ice bro. im not forgiving any of you for fucking jumping me for saying i wasnt a fan of it. also please for the love of god if you ship glsneeg with any of the other characters do Not talk to me about it because there is a good chance i will throw up in my mouth and block you. glanboo/hetch shippers on thin ice. guy who came up with that kind of ruined it for me and now it just makes me feel uncomfortable most of the time

i have autism and im gay and i use faggot. i have some other problems that will fuck me up or that ill talk about sometimes but thats all you really need to know so im not going to dox my medical problems here

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nearly everyone i interact with calls me sneegen. idc if new people do its basically my government name atp

this blog is genloss themed but also i talk about my genloss ocs more than the actual thing now 😓 still a huge genloss fan but sneeg and frank are the only guys ill ever talk about in there and i will throw up slash negative if i have to talk about glanboo. do NOT come here asking about glanboo unless ur a mutual im serious. i take sneeg/frank and the horror that comes with it so violently seriously and overall theres a few genloss ships i like so if ur one of those guys that think any shipping is weird you probably wont like it here. also i usually dont use any of the main tags for. anything i post. if you wanna find something youre stuck to manually searching just like everyone else sorry

kind of multifandom i guess. i have moments where i get really fixated on other media and i post about it for a bit. sneegsnag is usually a common factor in this. heavily into marble hornets creepypastas tmnt dantdm jacksepticeye and markiplier. both of their ego content and any of marks projects by extension. not into ethan nestor As Much but he is included and so is blankgameplays. i like qsmp but if i talk about it its only ever abt qsneeg or qcharlie or qdantdm and his family sometimes. osmp enjoyer but again ill only talk about sneeg if i talk about it at all

the biggest music enjoyer in the world guys. not a professional but i will talk about songs i like sometimes. tfb and teenage disaster mostly i think. maybe typhoon and bcnr also. maybe even alot of midwest emo because im a loser. im literally tfbs biggest fan guys

for my dumbass ocs i do talk about and draw them Alot. and theres alot of heavy stuff in their stories so like. if you get badly triggered by gore or murder especially i wouldnt. recommend reading into them too much. but idrk why youd be here if you did thats like my whole thing really. i dont usually talk about the actual triggering stuff in their stories i think at most ill make a vague comment that implies something but thats about it

you are allowed to draw and write and make hcs and aus for my guys i actually actively encourage it and also show me when you do i think its wonderful. ill talk about them forever if you ever wanna know something just ask and theres a 85% chance ill actually answer it

the only things im 100% serious about for my ocs is that theres canon ships for a reason. i do not give a FUCK if you think a different one is better or interesting because its not. if you come into my asks shipping anything that isnt canon im actually going to block you. im very nitpicky about this because they are My creations and every single thing about them is heavily important to me. also if you baby or demonize any of my ocs im allowed to kill you legally btw.

I DONT GIVE A DAMN IF YOU WANT MY OCS CARNALLY!!! there are certain times where i wont mind if you say stuff like that about them just DONT TELL ME ALL THE TIME!!! it is funny sometimes and sometimes i may encourage it but please god dont tell me how you want to fuck them in graphic detail unprompted. also if thats the only thing you talk to me about and you dont actually bother to know them as characters i will probably block you!!!!

if you want my ocs included in your oc lore please just. Talk To Me. about it. please. if youre normal and dont violently misinterpret my ocs ill probably be okay with it just TALK TO ME ABOUT IT

heavy encouragement to use all your braincells to interpret my ocs characters properly. idk how much more mischaracterizing in my inbox i can take

[the-unconquered-queen]

With Blades 2 coming to an end, I just wanna get it off my chest that I'm really not a fan of how they wrote Nia for a great part of this one, particularly vis-à-vis the way they wrote MC. I know I've been saying some stuff along those lines for ages now, but it hasn't left my mind so now I'm gonna actually get into it.

For starters, I think a lot of the issue with Nia's writing was captured pretty well in the tags of this post, particularly on point 2. Like I've said, Nia unfortunately falls into the category of a Mary Sue in that every "flaw" she's given just serves to elevate her to perfection. Hell, even when corrupted—when a person is supposed to be in their most volatile state—the worst she does is be snarky that first chapter (she is aggressive toward MC at one point before this, but it's neither acknowledged nor repeated later). After that, she is entirely normal, just not as much of a pushover, and while I much preferred shadow!Nia, I do think that this really undermines the whole gravity of corruption and b2's emphasis on shadow-light balance, since shadow!Nia comes off as quite balanced already, especially compared to other corrupted characters we've seen.

But here's the thing, that post that got me thinking is months old, and we have gotten more story since then, and what I have noticed is that Nia does, in fact, have one real flaw in canon, but it's the one flaw she's absolutely not meant to have: Nia in canon can at times come off as self-absorbed. She either makes things about herself or doesn't stop people from doing this, and there are multiple examples of it. There is the instance in Riverbend when MC is taking a moment to finally try to process Kade's capture (which, following their own capture, they never got the chance to process) and Nia derails the conversation and makes it about her own grief and is comforted by MC and Mal. Another example is the moment on Gerhard's ship when she vents about the pressure she's been under and lets MC comfort her without at any point considering that MC might have been under similar pressure.

And don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with a character putting themselves first. But when the book doesn't waste a single chance to tell us that Nia's character is the complete opposite and that she is chronically incapable of not being considerate 25/8, it's quite contradictory. I mean, you can even call out Ethan Ramsey, PB's golden boy, on making things about himself at some point in OH, but because, unlike Ethan, Nia is written for you to consider her super sweet and wholesome and perfect, the Blades MC actually contributes to this by performing mental gymnastics to turn something around to be about Nia.

Which brings me to my final point: Blades 2 pushed MC to the side to revolve around Nia, but MC is exactly the person they meant for Nia to be, by virtue of the dissonance between showing and telling. They tell you that Nia is selfless because she always puts everyone else first. Well, I can and did name examples showing the contrary, meanwhile, MC is the one who was been through the most traumatic ordeal and is constantly checking in on everyone else without expecting and without receiving much of the same courtesy in return, even apologizing to Nia because she was "carrying all that weight on her own", never mind that MC always has the weight of the world on their shoulders. They tell you that Nia is the heart of the party, but they both told and showed us that everything fell apart without MC.

Even some of Nia's most defining character traits, MC has in similar measure. Nia sees the best in everyone? MC can be the #1 believer in Aerin's redemption after all the shit he pulled. Nia is trusting to the point of naivete? MC literally trusted Valax while she outright told them at every turn she would turn on them at the first opportunity, and was genuinely hurt by the betrayal. Miss me with MC calling Nia "our better self".

Every trait that they've gone out of their way to tell you Nia has they've shown twofold in MC, which is why it's so exasperating to me that they reduced MC to the conduct through which other characters' (particularly Nia's) stories get told while their own is an afterthought. I am by no means saying that two people can't have similar traits or that two people can't be good people at the same time, but there is something about praising these traits in Nia when, based on these, MC should be held to a similar standard. Instead, they relegated MC (main. character.) to a supporting character in Nia's story, elevating every trait that MC possesses only in Nia while ignoring them in MC to the point that many scenes felt frustrating to play.

[monandre]

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Hello hi I'm Monroe and I like self-shipping !!! :)

I'm not at all new to the selfship scene but I've only really started posting my selfship stuff recently so. Baby's first selfship blog. My other blog is @impuubus go follow that if you want hehe..

Like I said, this blog is for selfshipping, which i do for fun and comfort, so there might be mentions of mental illness, traumatic events, or shots/needles/hospitals (because i'm. diabetic and so or my S/Is), so this is your one and only warning (unless I'm posting something really serious)! Nothing too in depth, but just figure I should maybe mention as an FYI :)

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Andre Lee (Inside Job) — #🩷HR Violators🧪 — ♡ 02/08/2023 ♡

Sans (Undertale +AUs) — #🩷In Every Universe🦴 — ♡ 12/01/2015 ♡

Thanos (Squid Game) — #🩷 FallingStars 🪽 — ♡ 02/16/2025 ♡

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I do not mind if we share f/os if we're friends/I've told you I don't mind, in fact if we do I think we should be friends and go on a double date with our silly versions of our f/os. mwah mwah much love <3

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—> Anything I may reblog

#impy talk

—> Me babbling about anything

#impy art

—> My own art! Doodles, Finished drawings, gifs, etc !!

#impy vent

—> If i'm ever ranting/venting about something, it goes here, so you can mute it if you don't wanna see that !! Won't happen too often.

„ To feel something so pure. ”

[doooooozy]

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last edited: 05/05/2025 (dd/mm/yyyy)

edits made: added horse race tests to my list of fandoms

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hihi!!! my name is doozy! i’m an alexigender girlflux aroallo lesbian & i use xe/xyr, they/them, she/her & xe/xem pronouns (in order of pref). i’m irish-somali & i am multifandom! however i’ll mostly talk about object shows. i often make fanart, but i do theorize sometimes… i’m also autistic & a minor!

(stamp credits go to thisdastampdoesnotexist & objectshowstamps, both on tumblr)

LIST OF FANDOMS

- Object Shows (will be posting about the most about + will be making fanart of)

- Animatic Battle/Object Fool (<- fav)

- ANOSIMBIB (<- 2nd fav)

- BFDI

- Inanimate Insanity

- Showvember

- TDOS

- The Post-Traumatic Manifesto

- Horse Race Tests

- Class of 09

- Nyan Neko Sugar Girls

- Vocaloid/UTAU

- TADC

DNI

my dni goes both ways! if you’re apart of my dni & i interact with you, then please either soft-block (blocking then unblocking) or block me. if you’re apart of my dni & you interact with me, then i’ll either soft-block or block you

- basic dni

- zionists/pro-israel/anti-palestine, pro-RCTA, think that people in racial minorities can't also be racist, pro blue/all lives matter

- misandristic

- lolicons/shotacons

- zoophiles

- if you believe in narcissistic abuse, psych2go supporters

- exclusionists, anti-objectum, anti-microlabels, think gender dysphoria is necessary to be trans, pro-lesboy/are a lesboy (unless you use the lesboy label in a reclaiming way), pro-turi/gaygirl/are a turi/gaygirl (again, fine if you use it in a reclaiming way), radqueers/transharmful

- if you say slurs that you can’t reclaim

- pro/comshippers/anti-anti/any other synonyms, follow someone knowing that they’re a pro/comshipper, mirrorshippers/ship selfcest, think that tacomic (or any taco ships) is abusive/is a proship, think that enemies to lovers is abusive/is a proship

- anti-rarepairs, anti-crack/crossships, anti-selfshipping

- SBN3, jk rowling & vivziepop supporters (or just supports anyone problematic in general)

- NSFW/fetish/kink blogs

- support NFTs/crypto

- transid/transx

- anti-satanist, anti-atheist, anti-wicca, anti-islam, anti-semitic, anti-christian, or just disrespects peoples religious choices

- anti-otherkin/anti-therian/anti-copinglink

- pro-cringe culture

- if you use ai regularly (chat-gpt/any ai image website/character.ai), support ai “art”

SIDEBLOGS

@ii-confusing-confessions: send confessions that are confusing! mascot is paintball, made on december 22nd 2024

@dailyabwheelship: everyday a wheel is spun and a ship is posted! heavily inspired by dailyiiwheelship, made on january 5th 2025

OTHER STUFF ABOUT ME

- i usually type in all lowercases because it looks nice, however there’ll probably be some cases where i just, forget

- i won’t draw any gore sense i only draw object show characters, unless the characters are blood related (like blood bag tdos) the closest thing to gore i’ll draw are object insides that resemble blood. if you are still triggered by that, then you can block the tag #tw object gore

- i’ll also draw suggestive stuff as well, but 99% of the time it’s only when I think it’s funny

- if there is anything that could be triggering, i’ll always tag it as #tw [thing]

- you’re also free to use my art as a pfp/repost my art, as long as you give PROPER credit (credits to doooooozy on tumblr ✅ [bonus if a link to the drawing is added!], credits to the artist ❌)

- i’ll edit my pinned post if i need to, when i do i’ll add a note saying when i edited the pinned (dd/mm/yyyy) & what i edited

- i deeply apologize if i’ve interacted with you & you’re apart of my dni, i try to read people’s dni before interacting however sometimes i forget!!

- i am very uncomfortable with people venting to me, so if you ask me if you want to vent then i will say no, sorry! :(

[buzz-in-your-veins]

Introduction

~ About me! ~

I’m Vyrus, I’m 18. I mainly use He/Him, but They/Them are alright! So are most pet names! I am unlabelled. This blog was created partly from boredom, partly from hyperfixation, and partly from a want to write! I will happily take requests and constructive criticism! If my spelling is off or my sentences don’t make sense forewarning, I am dyslexic. I also have ADHD and Autism, I have a tendency to fall in and out of hyperfixations fast. This is going to be a Hazbin centric blog, maybe with some Helluva too. Vyrus is a Hazbin/Helluva OC. Again, I am heavily neurodivergent. The tag for this blog is #vyrus.is.a.virus. Comments are like nectar.

My main Blog is @arachnid-silk

~ RULES ~

•Nonnegotiable•

- Please don’t interact with NSFW posts if you’re a minor.

- The more detailed you are, the better I can complete your request.

- Be Respectful.

- Feel free to spam, but not with your request. A different request, HC, meme, ect, are okay, but not the same thing.

- Keep in mind I may be late with your request, but unless I have responded otherwise, I will be working on it.

- Respect my boundaries.

- Please do not trauma dump or vent in my requests. If your request has something traumatic in it, please DM with warning before the trauma. If you need to Vent, please DM me first to ask, and warn me about the nature of the vent please.

- Yes! ~

- Fluff, smut, angst, pretty much most catagories.

- Character x character

- Reader x character

- Minors, only platonicly.

- Yandere, Dub-Con, CNC, Abuse•certain types•, Possesive, Obsessive, Mafia, possibly more.

- Readers with Habits!

- Fem, Male, and Gender Neutral readers! Please be aware I’m still learning how to write GN and Male readers.

- Headcannons!

- Anything unless specified on the NO! list, if you’re unsure, just ask!

~ NO! ~

•Nonnegotiable•

- Romantic minor.

- Piss, Scat, generally stuff that is usually considered gross.

- Vomit. I have Emetophobia.

- Pedophilla, Incest, Rape.

- Detailed bugs.

- Cannibalism.

- Anything gross in general.

- If you’re unsure about something, ask me if I’m comfortable with it or not.

~ Maybe. ~

- Specified race and/or religion. I am a white unreligious person, I may write these characters, but I do ask you provide as much information and detail in your ask as you can, and you give me time to research and learn about your character before I write them. I also ask that should I get anything wrong or incorrect that you correct me.

- Super detailed about body parts.

- Sexual Violence/Abuse.

- Eating Disorders.

~ Characters I Won’t Write For. ~

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~ Characters I Will Write For. ~

- Everyone else.

Please be mindful this blog is still new and ergo still under construction, keep an eye out for any updates to the list. They will be in bold for the first three days.

[ze0n-wuz-here]

TW: Traumadump???? Vent

Hey uh

How much of an unhealthy trauma response is it to block artists when they post something related to the events that happen after ROTTMNT S2? Specially if it’s Raph art? Even saying the name is a trigger

Like, it traumatized me, but not the “Oh haha! Yeah I got traumatized from it!” no, I mean REALLY traumatized, like, losing sleep, heart pounding extremely heavily, shutting myself from everyone, and it would take multiple days until I calm down completely again, only for it to get shoved down the drain as I get another reminder of those events

I have to block so many tags and words, and then also block so many people, people that DONT EVEN DESERVE TO BE BLOCKED BECAUSE I LOVE THEIR ART AND THEY SEEM LIKE COOL AWESOME PEOPLE AND I FEEL LIKE SHIT WHENEVER I BLOCK THESE PEOPLE, THEY DONT EVEN DESERVE TO BE BLOCKED YET HERE I AM. It’s a very weird trauma response that I have, and it’s awful /srs

I feel like I can’t even enjoy the show without thinking of all those awful events that happened after S2, things that even mentioning will trigger me, characters that I have to tag that come from that that I have to tag and pretend they’re not there, because of how traumatized I got from it

I want to seek therapy so bad, but my mom will have to know about this, and if I tell her that I wanna go to therapy because of an ANIMATION, she won’t take me seriously, in fact I don’t think even the therapists will take me seriously

I have gone through all stages of grief except acceptance at this point, it’s so awful, and it hurts so bad, and this trauma wasn’t that bad the first time i saw that. It’s only been getting worse, like a plague. It’s been going on for 2 years by now.

I feel so stupid for having been traumatized by this. It makes me feel so stupid and immature. I can’t even enjoy the fandom because of that. I wish there was something, like a discord server that completely banned topics related to the events after S2, so I could feel completely safe, but I’m being completely irrational, so I can only suffer in silence, I get more hurt by seeing ROTTMNT content than actual enjoyment. Even after telling myself “this isn’t real, this can’t hurt you”, it still hurts like hell.

I tried taking breaks from those events, but they just keep coming back to me like a boomerang, and I don’t really have many people to walk about this. None of my real life friends know. Only about 2 or 3 mutuals know about my trauma

I wish those events had never happened. I wish to have my mind erased, at least to forget those events. I want to enjoy ROTTMNT again. But it’s getting increasingly difficult, as my trauma gets worse and worse, and again, it makes me feel so stupid that THIS is the trauma I have. Maybe it would’ve been understandable had i been 7 or 9 when I watched it. BUT NO. IM ALMOST AN ADULT AND IM ACTING LIKE THIS.

And it’s ALL because of the things that happen to Raph in there. I don’t know what is it about me, but whenever I see aftermath stuff, anything, o get super stressed, specially if Raph is in there. Even if it’s a simple doodle. It sucks. It hurts. It wasn’t like this, and yet here I am. Raph used to be my comfort character. Yes, I discovered him when those events had already happened, but I still found comfort in him, until it started getting worse and worse, like a disease. I took so much of that comfort that seeing him in those situations where he got hurt made me feel so much pain. He had become a stress inducing character, and Im still obsessed with him.

I tried finding alternate fandoms, fandoms that were similar to Rise, or at least that had characters similar to Raph, but none came close to what Rise was for me, because either there’s not enough content, the fandom is dead, both, or they simply don’t hit as hard, and unfortunately it’s gonna take a big while before I can find something that replaces what Rise did

I know the most no-brainer solution is “Quit social media” “go outside” shit like that, but it doesn’t work for me, I get reminders either way. I don’t wanna abandon talking to my friends.

I don’t wanna block people. They did nothing wrong. They were just making art, or posting images, or making fanfics, and I’m sitting here like the cowardly idiot who’s best response is to block them and block everything that reminds me of those events. I’m not as active in the Rise servers I’m in because of those events. Those events ruined ROTTMNT for me.

I just wanna find something. A group. A community, where they talk about Rise, but completely banning topics relating to, well… those events, it would be my safe haven, but since these events are what brought in most people to the fandom, I can’t have that. I don’t wanna leave the fandom. It shaped me so much, and I don’t wanna lose that, I just wanna find a community that only talks about the show. Fanart ONLY about the show, discussion ONLY about the show…. But just as the conservatives say, I’m just being a “special snowflake” for this, and it makes me feel like shit. I feel like shit. It hurts so much.

Im sorry for anyone who’s reading this who had to watch me vent about some dumb turtles

[hizznbyte]

Updated my pinned again for the millionth time sorry

🎖️ “We will get there when we get there, okay? We just haven’t gotten there yet so DON’T GO THERE.”

What’s up losers! Welcome to my enclosure, feel free to wave and toss me some snacks but don’t stick your fingers through the bars. I’ll bite.

I have a very fragmented sense of identity so feel free to call me whatever you want, I don’t care. I go by a few hundred names, including but not limited to: Nerium/Neri, Oleander, Osman, Atticus, Terry, Type, Captain, F… etcetera…

I’m a neurodivergent [autistic and socially anxious], Indonesian-American, muslim teen who’s just here for the meme. I go by any pronouns because I don’t really care frankly, but I do prefer He/They pronouns. Other than that I am merely an anomaly.

I’m going to make my boundaries here very clear. I block anyone and everyone freely. Don’t take it too personally, usually I just block users who go against my DNI or just give me off vibes. You’re free to block me for whatever reason you want as long as you don’t use it against me. If you respect my boundaries I will respond in kind. With that being said, do NOT interact if you fall under the following criteria:

Pro-Pedophilia

Pro-Zoophilia

Pro-Necrophilia

Pro-Incest

Pro-Rape

Racist

Homophobic

Transphobic

Sexist / Misogynist

Ableist

Pro-Israel / Zionist / Nazi

Islamophobic

Antisemitic

Pro-AI

“Pro-Shipper”

NSFW

If I unknowingly interact with anything that fits the criteria please let me know politely so I can block. I understand my DNI goes both ways and will be respectful when possible but ultimately I don’t do background checks.

Tumblr is my safe space. I use this blog for just about anything, mainly out of sheer boredom. I am extremely reblog heavy so be warned, I will clog up your timeline a bit. Sometimes I add tags with my own commentary but most of the time I leave them as is. It’s a little unorganized. Sorry if I sound a bit… annoying in the notes I am just very excitable, especially if I have a lot to say. Please don’t mind me. Aside from that I do post pretty sporadically. Most times just shitposts and life updates, though I do also post some art, story lore, and the occasional essay long post. I am very prone to yapping believe me. Uh some of my stuff on this blog might contain some dark/offensive and sexually suggestive humor so if you’re uncomfortable with that I apologize. I’ll try my best to tag it appropriately or avoid it all together just let me know.

I don’t always tag my own posts because I sometimes forget but there are a couple tags specific to this blog that you can go ahead and look through:

#Oleanswers [Just me responding to stuff people send in my inbox]

#Neri Text or #Null Context Nerium [Yapping central]

#Neri Art [My original art, WIPs, and doodles]

#Neri OC [Stuff about my original characters like art and lore]

#Neriblog or #Neri Reblog [Older unorganized reblog tags]

Additionally… I do use my blog to vent at times. It’s pretty rare and anything that can be triggering will be tagged appropriately. Please try to understand that I am just a deeply traumatized child looking for comfort by coping in the space I have created on this platform. I understand if that makes you uncomfortable and it is not your job to have to look out for me, just be patient and gentle with me, especially when I’m having an episode. All I ask is that you don’t push me away. Please.

[COUGHS] -ANYWAYS. Other than that I’m pretty casual. I try to keep drama and political stuff away from here I just wanna chill man. This blog is a mixed bag of multi-fandom nonsense because I can’t ever make up my mind. Obviously. Mainly I focus on media I’m hyperfixated on. I’m also a huge shipping enthusiast I’m a multishipper and selfshipper. I love yaoi and yuri and angst you cannot stop me. I play with my favorite fictional blorbos like toys. Plus, I’m a nerd! I like to learn new things and have a ton of interests, including art, animation, music, photography, toy collecting, design, technology, literature, linguistics, zoology, botany, history, and world building. Also I adore cats you will see them everywhere on this blog.

Speaking of world building… I have my own original series world building project called Blood Magic and all the other tales from the BM Universe!! I am so extremely passionate about this story and my original characters they mean everything to me. So definitely expect me to yap a lot about that. I love my creatures my children my little freaks. I’ll add my lore masterposts here as time goes on methinks.

[ Update: PersoNeri Lore Post is finally up. Yay :) ]

Hey, by the way… don’t be afraid to stop by and say hi! I promise I’m not so scary, just a little bit awkward and weird but I love to talk to people and make new friends! Feel free to send in an ask, tag me in something you think I might like, or even slide into my DMs for a chat. Even just liking a post, leaving a comment/reply, or reblogging with silly little tags makes me so happy. My favorite part of day is just opening up Tumblr and seeing what you guys have in store for me. I think you guys are so cool and kind and it’s this community that I have to thank for getting me through my toughest moments. I love my mutuals and consider you all my friends who I trust with my lives. I’m grateful for those that stick around and support me even when I’m lonely!

SHOUTOUT TO MY BELOVEDS WHO YOU SHOULD TOTALLY FOLLOW AND SUPPORT !!! @dewingedveil’s is so cool and based and their art is so much nicer than mine. If you like Creepypasta and gay people go check em out. Oh! Also, @pollyaris has returned to Tumblr!! Give him and his gang a big warm welcome and flood their inbox with cats. For all you Bungo Stray Dogs and Soukoku faggots fanatics he will be there ranting about them for hours so check em out too. Okay there’s your free promo so enjoy.

One more thing. I LOVE fanart you don’t even have to ask permission to draw just send it my way and I will freak out over it believe me. I have to print them out and tape them to the wall for me to cherish forever. I am seriously not normal about fanart so if you do draw anything please show me. Anyways here’s my art wall:

Art of my Persona Neri by @/faaake-radio!! My kitty meow meow EVER.

Art of my Persona Neri by @/mourningarchivist!! I fucking LOVE Mourning’s style oh my god the rendering I’m… [sniffles]. I need Nerium marketable plushy rn this needs to be real.

Art of my Persona Neri by @/ward-leon!! OUSHANSNJ BELOVED. PEACE AND LOVE ON PLANET NERIUM.

KITTY CATS RENAT(A) AND NERI BY @/ward-leon BECAUSE THEY ARE SO PRECIOUS I SOBBBBB. So cutesies

[Clears my throat]. Yeah! That’s uh that’s the post. Thanks for reading and yknow, visiting my enclosure. I’m pretty content in here but if you could just open the lock I’d be much happier. Yeah. Don’t listen to the zookeepers they don’t know what they’re talking about I’m not insane at all. I promise… I think I’ve said enough. Well, that’s all I have for you today folks! Much love from ya boy, Nerium “Osman” Sylvir.