my astarion hot take
i'm sorry guys i do actually HC that astarion was temporarily sex repulsed, but not in an ace way. i do think he has a moment of 'ohmygod was i ace???' and then realizing he's just blood starved and also has to get out from being crushed by the weight of being viewed only in terms of sex. it's not sex-repulsed bc he doesn't like sex, but repulsed bc of the baggage that comes with it.
and like having to deal with the fact that he objectified himself the same way caz was, but there was no force this time. he just fell into old habits. and repulsion that omg can i fucking control myself ??? after nearly two centuries of not having to show an OUNCE of self-control bc Caz had them so closely controlled.
but then the freedom of no longer being repulsed bc he's been freed of enough weight from his guilt and self-loathing to not only no longer be repulsed, but eager to try new experiences - with someone he's certain won't only view him as a sex object. who will still see him for who he is beyond that one moment they share.
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Had a dream about Ziggy showing Chiyori the Universe, or part of it at least. They were holding hands, floating through the continuum of cosmos and space. It’s hollow, it’s dark. The sight of just how vast the Universe is leaves a profound impression on Chiyori. It’s all too quiet out here. It’s a heavy feeling. So dark, yet so beautiful. It’s eerie.
Space is filled with so much emptiness, she can’t help but wonder: “Do you think the Universe is… lonely?” And Ziggy turns to her. She squeezes his hand. It’s not something he's considered before. Even if he knew, he wouldn’t understand. He smiles. “I don’t know." Then he guides her to the nearest star, a white dwarf that had already reached the endpoint of its life.
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my god churro is the lone woman performing amid a bunch of men saturday night
what a brave girl! ugh i’m so proud of her and also fuckin terrified that i’ll hate the set. it’s supposed to be edgy humor, so i’ll just brace myself to expect what i hear from josh on the regular, i guess. but churro also said she was doing a couple jokes about our grandfather (the bad one), and frankly THAT makes me worried about how i’ll respond to someone making jokes about… about what? what he did? the trial? my god, charity was just a little baby when all of that happened.
i want tomorrow night to be about her, though, not about how i feel about someone making light of an ordeal that tore our family apart and hurt so many people i love— including churro— you know? so, like, while i was definitely encouraged to only ever look upon that issue with the utmost seriousness (you have to be serious if you’re testifying in a criminal trial, uh, helloooo), i will do my best to have a sense of humor about it
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does anybody else feel weirdly misplaced being a woman who grew up in the "I'm not like other girls" era, an era of girls who prided themselves on being "low-maintenance" and rejecting current beauty standards... only now you're all grown up and you're living in a era where beauty is more attainable now than ever before, an era where plastic surgery -- nose jobs, BBLs, face lifts, lip injections, eyebrow threading, buccal fat removal -- is the new normal, practically an expectation, for many , and twenty year-olds are getting "preventative Botox", and like everyone around you is "glowing up" and Gen Zers are just BORN pretty, like they came out of the womb looking "snatched", and you still look like you did your junior year of high school except with better brows and more body dysmorphia than you ever had before --
and like, you don't want any part of it but the pressure is weirdly still THERE, like, maybe I should have the same nose that everybody else has? or maybe I should get my eyebrows done -- and it's like NO. Why do you feel that pressure to conform? Who said you weren't beautiful the way that you are? why are we always looking for things to change about ourselves? Why is changing your body packaged as 'empowering'?
anybody relate
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