#[small dosage]

[lemonisntreal]

BLINKY BLINKY BLINKY BLINKY BLINKY BLINKY BLINKY BLI

[insertmeaningfulusername]

Its here—

(In the works- thanks for forcing me to write again)

It's beautiful 🥺 ngl I sorta forgot about this fic idea of yours but I just searched for the post again and now I WANT IT EVEN MORE🍿🍿🍿 Luke is trying his best bless him!! I can't wait to see where you'll go with this!!!

[lucidity-real]

ive been studying for tests recently, which left me not able to doodle as much sadly 😔

ive watched perfect blue recently and i decided to combine it with my current hyper fixation of white lily cookie. i thought about doing pv, but i draw him enough already. i was going to actually color this, but i got lazy and left it as a doodle.

[bitstitchbitch]

It’s kinda funny-not-funny when I tell the doctors my grandma had a stroke during my medical history and they’re all like “ah yes, good to know” but not really caring until I add “she was 26” and then their faces go “oh shit” and they start asking detailed questions about what caused it and shit 😅

[edgepunk]

I'm on prednisone again that's why I'm extra insufferable

[sarahwatchesthings]

THERE IS NO KNOWN TREATMENT FOR LISTERIOSIS~

[vstheworld]

my mushroom guy ran out of bulk mushrooms right? because I normally make my own pills specifically so I can manage my dosage

all he had this time was the prepackaged pre-dosed kind, but I was desperate and figured what the hell I’d wait til a day off and try them. no information on the package beyond that they are a ‘microdose’

in related news, the walls are crawling now

[bitchking-of-angmar]

Happy TDOV!

I’ve never taken so many pictures of myself in one year... ever, I believe, so it was hard to narrow it down to my faves. Got my top surgery done last September finally and these are the first pictures I’ve seen of myself actually smiling in many years.

(they/them)

[merulanoir]

Taking quetiapine just for sleep is so funny because it's like

Taking half a pill bc that's all I need these days

Nothing

Nothing

It's been over half an hour what's happening

Nothing

HUNGER AND SLEEP UPON YE MORTAL

[fatcowboys]

ive been tracking my migraines consistently which i havent in a bit since i know most of my triggers and such but since im trialing meds and treatments and god. december was 2/3 migraine days. fuckin 20 migraine days. the past two weeks in particular i have had three days where i have not had a migraine. this fucking sucks.

[greyeyedmonster-18]

(i have energy to make art this evening ((and to be clear the last time i had that was when i was off of school for spring break, and had more space to breathe)) and thats a beautiful thing)

[veinereastath]

Eᴛʜᴀɴ Hᴀᴡᴋᴇ ᴀs Aʀᴛʜᴜʀ Hᴀʀʀᴏᴡ ɪɴ Mᴏᴏɴ Kɴɪɢʜᴛ [31/?] + ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʜᴇ ɢᴇɴᴛʟʏ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛs ᴜsʜᴀʙᴛɪs

+ ʙᴏɴᴜs ᴡʜᴇɴ ʜᴇ ᴅᴏᴇsɴ'ᴛ

[love-songs-for-emma]

they say that "time heals all wounds" but i honestly think that upping my anti-depressants has done more for me

[direwombat]

wip wednesday update: syb has finally found pain meds

A pained grunt is forced from her lungs as she climbs into the cab. She settles in the front seat, exclaiming when Boomer launches himself off the ground and onto her lap before hopping to the passenger side. Her teeth grind together as she rides out the pain and once the worst of it has subsided, she twists around to reach into the backseat. 

Tucked under the seats, she finds her go-bag, right where she stashed it. It’s been a mainstay in her vehicles ever since she was old enough to drive, and something she’d kept hidden ever since she was fourteen. For as much effort as the Peggies went vandalizing the exterior of her truck, they did fuckall with its interior. 

Their mistake. 

Dragging the duffel bag back with her to the front seat, she places it on her lap and unzips it. Extra sets of clothes. A still-packaged toothbrush and travel-sized tube of toothpaste. Deodorant. Spare ammo -- Aha!

Her lips quirk up as her hand wraps around a bottle of generic-brand acetaminophen. “Bingo,” she breathes. Uncapping the bottle, she pours a handful of pills into her palm and swallows them dry. 

[rubberbandballqueen]

me: *briefly counts number of remaining pills when i take my morning medication* ohh i don't need to order a refill yet i got plany of time,,

two days later: there are three doses left

me: shocked_pikachu.jpg

[speckeltail]

idk meta about my interps of riddler and aaron and what it means for them and how they treat each other

spinning off in my own little world has yielded what I am absolutely sure to be an only slightly insane interpretation of tb!riddler; this is someone who's been dismissed, belittled, scapegoated, used countless times, whose inflated sense of ego is... yes, an inflated sense of ego, but also a cover for an insanely damaged self-esteem and general inability to connect with other people. he's defensive of his interests because they've always been mocked until they're useful, he's defensive and selfish with his skills because when he works for someone else and does as he's told he's accustomed to taking the fall. he doesn't trust when people are nice to him because he's been primed to see it as an attempt at manipulation... and he worked as an operator for a carnival game in what I see as his late teens + early twenties while he was getting his degree, so he knows full well what it's like to be manipulative. being an operator for a fun little carnival game where the fun of playing is the real prize is different from leading someone on and stealing their work, though. the biggest similarity is that the games are rigged from the start and only an idiot wouldn't see that (he didn't see that, what does that make him).

so it leaves him intensely distrusting, competitive, accustomed to relying on only himself (except for his little nerd armada, god I love the riddlemen they're perfect in every way) and letting himself be the only person to call the shots. at the same time... he is desperately reaching out for connection. he's lonely! he wants to be validated and treated like he has value for being just a person, not for his immense smarts, though he'd appreciate that too.

aaron coming into the picture doesn't necessarily change things so much as it puts a new coat of paint over it, because eddie finds himself in the same position his own father was in (and failed) but also... not at all. not in the slightest. he saw, in aaron, a kindred spirit who was used, who was abandoned, someone who wanted to get back at a system that was rigged from the start. and, I mean, it's not like Batgirl and Robin aren't on the scene. (and prank and scorn, which is its own thing.) the way I see it, eddie didn't intend for aaron to be more comfortable as sphinx. it just... happened. eddie sinks deeply into riddler as a protective layer against the world (prickly intellect and a mean streak that quite frankly dissolves the very second it's not of use?), aaron takes the thing he loved that became a horrible burden and a source of pain and turns it into the weapon he uses to get back at the world as sphinx.

to some degree, eddie is trying to protect and nurture the child in him that loved puzzles and was shot down at every turn. aaron is the opposite; he grew up fast, too fast, was on a global stage at fourteen and acting like an adult (without the adult privilege of making decisions for himself) and being treated like an adult with his area of expertise. eddie trips facefirst into love with someone who is only using him, and pays the price; aaron carefully portrays himself as someone unattainable and undesirable in his relationship with the other villain sidekicks, prank and scorn. (the context for that is sphinx went to them each separately, after their respective disasters, and went; hey. nobody's going to look out for us. people are going to try and use us. people won't take us seriously. we have to look out for each other. and they have a groupchat where aaron talks scorn down from doing dumb violent shit and donnie goes through cycles where he relapses into prank with joker. all very interesting. I should talk about it later. he's very much a mother hen because like eddie, he needs a sense of control and he cares deeply for people).

so... aaron acts like an adult, mainly. eddie helps him make a fake identity and aaron takes over from there. he's trying to be as convenient as possible, and it never comes out but he's afraid that he'll be discarded as soon as he's more trouble than he's worth-- which would distress eddie if he found out. sphinx is useful, and smart, and eager to please, and takes care of himself. sphinx is altogether more comfortable to be than aaron, who is anxious and doesn't know how to ask for help or care and feels ashamed that he wants it. eddie is his superior, not a father figure. neither of them know how to navigate this.

when aaron graduates high school, he goes to college-- this is when he stops being sphinx and starts being tyto, triggered by him investigating the disappearance of a classmate and friend and discovering a seedy underbelly to newark. it's where his and eddie's similarities come to an uncomfortable forefront. aaron, when given the opportunity, is obsessive. he's willing to wait, but only for so long. a few years ago I was pretty adamant about aaron not killing, but over the years I've honestly changed my mind... I think that he doesn't intentionally kill, but it's happened. and with the people he's targeting, he's not especially guilty about it.

anyway, eddie doesn't figure out about tyto for a while, he thinks that aaron's just retired aside from visiting gotham and doing sphinx stuff for him as a favor on long weekends and holidays, and when he does he's surprised at how much he does not like it. he did invite sphinx into the whole business with the promise of getting back at people who hurt them (and the world, in general, and the way things are rigged, and it's fine for them to break the rules because nothing is fair) but that was stealing money. blackmailing people, at most! silly bullshit like jello bombs. people in speeding cars they control so they're not really in any danger. distractions. you know. supervillainy? tyto is not a supervillain. tyto is not even necessarily a vigilante, though that's what he's treated as. tyto is indeed getting back at people with precise and violent intent, much as an unsupervised nineteen year old with extensive training and too much compassion for his own good might.

it's not going to end well! it's a hopeless crusade that leaves power vacuums and is endless work, and what's going to happen when aaron graduates? How the hell can Eddie respond to that? he can't tell aaron to stop because he's not in charge of him anymore. he doesn't disagree with what aaron is doing but it might get him killed, and in fact there is a high chance that it might get him killed.

anyway I think that's what makes eddie realize that he cares for aaron a lot more deeply than he ever expected he does, or should. and once again things are spiraling out of his control and the only thing he can do is watch and hope there's enough pieces left to pick up.