#梦溪石

[bellaroles]

I think I made the list before but I can't find it. So I made a new one since I just finished reading Beidou/the Plough

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The Slow Burn romance is really slow but I love every single little bits of relationship development in every ship so far. Also the payoff is so good! I also love the banter in every one of her books. Very satisfying to read!

Tsundere shou! ( Not always but I think Shen Qiao, Tang Fan, Cui Buqu are these types and also Ling Shu to a certain degree) Though they're under the same category, they're portrayed as very different in personalities and I can't get enough of them. Their respective gong are also very unique and cunning in their own way when it comes to making the shou admit their feelings!

Cross dressings! Hilarity ensues!

Solving mysteries! be it crime investigation, treasure hunting, political machinations, unmasking evil cult or even ruining evil cultivators plan to rule the world etc.

Strong women side characters. Also if they're among the very beautiful then they usually are either evil and end up dead or they find a way out of their predicament on their own.

Spoiler alert: the betrayal! We need at least one scene of either true betrayal (looking at you, Yan Wushi!) or it was just an act (Peerless, the Plough) or qi deviation (Shen Shang)

The last few chapters at least one or both of the main characters fight to the brink of death and yeah their love for each other is reaffirmed because of this but...that's not the true ending though! Go read that in the extras!

I've read 5 series of hers so far and I like them all very much.

Thousand Autumns

14th year of Chenghua

Peerless

Estranged

The Plough

Have Bu Tian Gang on my shelf already. Might start on that next, or All under heaven.

[angieloveshua]

Qian Qiu ENG cover reveal!

I've been over the last half an hour wondering if Yan Wushi has make-up or eye bags. What do you think?

Close up:

Chibi by artist:

[incipienthappiness-quotes]

In this world, there were countless villains and hypocrites, and there is no lack of those who appear to be morally upright gentlemen on the surface, but in truth are hypocrites who cannot control themselves in the face of temptation.

Thousand Autumns/ Qian Qiu - Meng Xi Shi

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・°☆ ♡ Feliz 2023 ♡✩‧₊˚

[hunxi-after-hours]

hey, big fan of your blog! read some of your qianqiu metas, and was thinking lately about the presentation of the statist consolidation of power and framing of political unification as an unproblematic moral good in a lot of the wuxia/xianxia I've engaged with. having grown up with these genres, I know that censorship and sociopolitical circumstances are big influences on the message that gets put out. (1/3)

but also as an anti-authoritarian looking to art and literature for countercultural inspiration, I guess I've found a lot of wuxia lacking in a vision for a radical future. this certainly isn't to say that art needs to be radical to have value, or that wuxia spaces haven't created avenues of self-expression and joy for oppressed groups in an airtight society where there are dire risks attached to political activity. (2/3)

wuxia/xianxia are my favorite genres, but many aspects of its narratives seem to uphold structures of oppression (i.e. ableism, colorism, xenophobia, misogyny, etc). but hey, 嫌货人才是买货人, no such thing as perfect, best thing to do, I suppose, is to engage with art with a critical eye. thanks for your time! (3/3)

an anon after my own heart, hello! you're definitely getting at certain themes, assumptions, and values that in a way were built in to the wuxia genre as it has evolved today. whether you’re reading classic authors like 金庸 Jin Yong or remixers like 梦溪石 Meng Xishi, I’ve definitely noticed that wuxia as a genre has, well, complicated relationships with the structures of oppression that you brought up

(I'm leaving xianxia out of the discussion atm as I’m less familiar with it as a whole, but also I don't think it has the same concerns of nationalism and historicism that wuxia does)

in many ways, the modern wuxia genre is a heavily compensatory genre, which I mean specifically in a “hey, compensating much?” kind of way. it took me a very long time to realize and process this, diaspora kid that I am, but so much of contemporary Chinese culture is still profoundly affected by the events of the past 200-250 years. I mean, when you think about it, the imperial dynastic system wasn’t all that long ago; in many ways, Chinese society is still reeling from the century of humiliation, the breakneck industrialization, the mass deaths of the 20th century in war and famine and revolution and government abuse (there is also the matter of the government deliberately evoking public memory of past atrocities to fan nationalistic sentiment for its convenience, which not only keeps historical national humiliations top-of-mind but also disrupts processes of collective memory and collective grieving).

Stephen Teo, in Chinese Martial Arts Cinema: The Wuxia Tradition, tracks the origins of wuxia as a genre, and from the beginning wuxia has been bound up with anxieties over masculinity and national agency, which in literature can often be one and the same. Teo, in tracing early forerunners of wuxia and the historical context of its emergence, notes that "[i]ntellectuals initially regarded the warrior tradition in the genre as one of the elements that could provide a positive counterweight to China's image as the 'sick man of Asia'" (Teo 37).

Given the repeated incursions and invasions onto Chinese soil and China’s status as a semicolony for much of the 19th and 20th centuries, it’s almost too obvious how the wuxia genre provides a balm for those exact anxieties: the martial warrior tradition (the 武 wu in 武侠 wuxia, if you will) directly addresses fears regarding the emasculation of Chinese men; the historical settings of wuxia novels often set during or against a backdrop of past imperial Chinese glories; the featuring of military triumphs over “foreign barbarians” who sought to invade or occupy imperial land, or even better — the protagonist, raised among the “wolfish barbarians,” is uniquely positioned to combine the “raw, savage strength” of “barbarian” culture with the “cultured civility” of Han Chinese culture; the strong emphasis on tradition(al aesthetics) and traditional Confucian ethics of morality and righteousness as contrast and counterpoint to the rapid modernization and Westernization of 20th/21st century Chinese culture... you get the idea

Teo’s book surveys the wuxia genre over the past century, particularly through film, and he discusses how wuxia in the 21st century begins “to manifest as made-in-China historicist blockbusters mixing the epic form with wuxia" — which is to say, wuxia has increasingly become intertwined with the genres of period dramas and historical epics:

"Having been grafted onto the period epic, wuxia becomes a showcase of Chinese history, seeking to be universally accepted while at the same time locating itself within the historicist confines of the nation-state." (168)

wuxia’s increasing hybridization/conflation with historical epics (particularly in Zhang Yimou’s 2002 film 《英雄》 Hero, John Woo’s 2008 - 2009 《赤壁》 Red Cliff duology) increasingly politicizes the genre, and that politicization thereby links wuxia to national issues of structural oppression, like the ones you mentioned: the statist consolidation of power and framing of political unification as an unproblematic moral good, ableism, colorism, xenophobia, misogyny... any one of these could carry a research paper on their own, and I don’t presume to be able to solve or explain away any of them in a tumblr post, but I do think there are many ways in which the wuxia genre’s (often uncritical) support of structures of oppression are directly linked to the origins of wuxia as a genre that was in many ways wish-fulfillment for a 20th/21st century Chinese culture wracked with political turmoil, economic disaster, and cultural uncertainties

I particularly like Teo’s discussion here:

"...The grand historicist self-fashioning of the genre in a film like Hero and its offshoots Curse of the Golden Flower, The Banquet, The Warlords [...and] Red Cliff demonstrate the kind of nationalistic self-aggrandisement that critics find so disturbing, particularly so when the nature of the regime is authoritarian and autocratic, ever ready to invoke militaristic power as the means to their end of a unitary nation state.

“However, if we see the wuxia genre as a mirror of the nation, it shows China in perpetual crisis, torn apart by internal strife and the urge to cohere as a unitary state." (186)

the framing of political unification as an unproblematic moral good is something I find particularly interesting, because a lot of that has to do with Chinese history. the famous opening line of 《三国演义》 / Romance of the Three Kingdoms references this directly: 天下大势，分久必合，合久必分 / “All great movements under heaven [follow this rule]: that which has fallen apart for a long time must come together, and that which has been together for a long time must fall apart.” The entire cyclical narrative of imperial China has been this: a dynasty rises, a dynasty falls, the land fractures into squabbling kingdoms, out of which a single dynasty eventually rises, to eventually fall, to eventually fracture again. and so, a dynasty’s collapse and the subsequent societal fracturing into warring territories is naturally paired with the crisis and violence that ensues with the fall of a state. simply put, there just isn’t a period of Chinese history (or if there is, I don’t know of it) where political fragmentation has not been associated with civil unrest; therefore political unification must be an unproblematic good as it eliminates domestic warfare and returns order to the central plains. handily, this supports the current regime’s nationalistic and authoritarian agenda, and so we see this particular moral value reflected in much of wuxia fiction

not to simply brush aside ableism, colorism, xenophobia, and misogyny all with a wave of a hand, but I do think that much of this has to do with contemporary Chinese society’s current attitudes towards these issues. when a society privileges pale complexions in its beauty standards (see: the triptych of 白富美, the omnipresence of beauty products that advertise skin tone lightening, the entire entertainment/idol industry), colorism is a natural (and shitty) result. government-spurred nationalism, historical racism, and Han chauvinism all contribute to the rampant xenophobia of much of Chinese media, especially when it comes to depictions of non-Chinese Asia (Central Asia, Japan, SE Asia in particular). when wuxia needs a faceless enemy, it reaches for the barbarians on the border. ableism and misogyny are issues that contemporary Chinese society struggle with now; the issue of ableism in particular feels stifled in the cutthroat nature of the current job market (the flipside of China’s massive labor force is the knowledge that every person is fundamentally replaceable), and the depths to which cultural misogyny runs in China is growing steadily more and more evident as the gender gap widens

and when it comes to fiction, when it comes to literature, widespread change often doesn’t occur until there is a societal call for it. I’m thinking of the U.S. science fiction and fantasy scene, which went through its own reckoning with diversity and genre-reified prejudice over the past decade and a half. and now we have brilliantly diverse authors and searingly postcolonial works, queer characters on the regular, Tor Books itself advertising to us soft sad queer freaks on tumblr. the journey wasn’t easy though, nor is the journey remotely close to over, but the fact remains — there was, in a sense, a collective cultural awakening about the ways in which more classic SF/F often utilized and reified racism, prejudice, misogyny, ableism; and subsequently, there was a conscious effort towards holding the genre(s) and its creators accountable, towards writing and supporting and amplifying voices previously shunned and silenced

and, well, to be fully honest, I don’t think that cultural moment has arrived yet for wuxia. this is not to say that there are no wuxia creators out there trying to decolonize the genre, but that we haven’t reached the turning point where decolonizing the genre and examining its history of misogyny, xenophobia, ableism, and colorism is expected, accepted, even celebrated, and I don’t think we’ll get there until contemporary Chinese society goes through a cultural reckoning with these same issues

I also think it’s worth mentioning that whatever that collective cultural awakening/reckoning looks like, it must be and will be distinctively Chinese. Chinese culture maintains different moral values from Western (Euroamerican) culture; contemporary China faces different social issues and political problems than contemporary Euroamerica. whatever this journey looks like, I don’t think it will look like or should look the same as what the U.S. went through/is going through. decolonizing/deimperializing East Asia is inherently different from decolonizing/deimperializing the West, so I would like to stop short of making prescriptive statements on what that cultural turning point should look like

that being said: if anyone’s run into some good postcolonial wuxia lately, I’d be VERY interested to hear more about it

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I L O V E your Peerless fanart, I even made it my background. Can you recommend some of your favorite danmei?

OMG!! I'm HONORED WWWAAAAAAAA!!! crying, screaming , throwing up, etc. You've made my day thank you. omg.

and uh yes but my preferences are a lil scewed and I always feel a lil awkward giving reconmendations because idk I have such a weird ranking system in my head and I just read and get obsessed with things and then reread them (TGCF does not count, I have read it 4 or 5 times through and is an outlier that should not be counted; plus I'd assume you mean like lesser known/not MXTX novels)

SO. That being said I actually have a SUPER chaotic presentation on all the ones I've read that i will not dump on u here but I might make a recs post with my ramblings 👀✨ or yk if you really want a break down/ more info message me

Personally tho my favorites:

Thousand Autumns / Qian Qiu / 千秋 by 梦溪石 Meng Xishi (I assume if you like Peerless you probably also like Thousand Autumns LOL which is top teir for me persoonally)

Idk if i'd say it's my favorite but it's my favorite; Lord Seventh / Qi Ye / 七爷 . I cannot stress how much I love Qi Ye. It is sooooo omg. LOVE it. And of course along side it is Faraway Wanderers / Tian Ya Ke / 天涯客 both by Priest (which is of course aka Word or Honor/Shan he ling/山河令 because of the LA, def reconmend both and read in the order they take place in; it hightens the experience for sure)

UUUUM another that I have started and really enjoyed and highly reconmend but havn't finished myself yet for one reason or another are Qiang Jin Jiu / 将进酒 by 唐酒卿 Tang Jiuqing (I think the English name is like Invitation to Wine??? Don't quote me on that)

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Summary: Cui Buqu was absolutely, 100% certain that he was above a midlife crisis. Therefore it was profoundly galling when he found himself tipping headfirst into one without so much as a by-your-leave.

(If asked, he would of course blame the whole thing on Feng Xiao. Because it was his fault.

Obviously.)

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I just read a blog of yours mentioning your preference against fics portraying Yan Wuhsi as a softie, and I am interested in reading fics that you did like. Could you kindly share some fics you've come across where Yan Wushi's characterization remains true to his core traits?

I don't remember what exactly I said in that post lmao but I gotta be honest.... I've been super picky about yanshen fics, and yeah yeah bold of me to be so picky when there's so little food (there's literally only 25 pages of EN fic that are over 1k words lmao..), but also. tbh of the fic I did test-run, I only have, like, a handful or so bookmarked, and for the most part they top out at like a 3, 3.5 as far as hitting what I'd want out of a Qian Qiu fic or like, hitting the characterization points I think should be in a good QQ fic

The one fic that I'd give a 4 is so because it's an actor AU and I like those as an indulgence, I wouldn't say it's necessarily THE most in character, but it's sort of like... along the lines of the donghua as far as in-characteredness.

I think the one fic that I feel like (to me!) is the most in character for Yan Wushi is this one:

And, like, it's a Shen Qiao POV fic lmao. But I think it manages to capture something very interesting that, after writing the last two posts I did lol, has also helped me figure out something about how I interpret Yan Wushi vs how I think other ppl do as to defining what it is exactly that I think some people don't "get" about Yan Wushi. (But if I do write more about this in detail, I think it'd probably be in a new post lmao because the paragraph under this is half-typed out before this edit and I think I've already evolved my opinion/how to define my interpretation again lol.)

But yeah- A lot of the other fics to me just like... don't seem to "get" Yan Wushi - if he's too shmoopy or lovey dovey, that's not really his way imo. If there's anything making him feel or express regret, especially for the Sang Jingxing thing, then that also isn't it for me either - because explicitly, he doesn't regret it. (and tbh lmao, I can see why he wouldn't? Like I just pinned down that by Chap 23/24, SQ already has a marked shift towards YWS even if maybe he doesn't realize it, but I think for YWS he's still very much in, like... still in his bonsai-experimenting phase with SQ. Because at that point, SQ still HASN'T fully realized the potential of the ZhuyangCe yet, so he ISN'T (yet) on Yan Wushi's level. Which means that he's not yet Yan Wushi's peer, and at this stage, he's still treating SQ rather more like an experiment to see how far he can push him and where exactly his bottom line might be. (I think, though, unfortunately we'll find that Shen Qiao has perhaps a different bottom line with Yan Wushi than with, say Huo Xijing, but that's yet another matter again.)

(this is the other fic btw lol, where it's like, both a guilty pleasure kind of AU for me and also enough of an AU that I can deal with it being a sort of eau de cologne of characterization vs like a full on parfum if you get my analogy here lmao:

so... sorry, I don't really have a good answer for you here! except that I'm maybe too picky for a fandom with limited food in the Anglophone-sphere lol;;

[bellaroles]

Every time I start reading a new series of Meng Xi Shi, I keep thinking, "Damn this pairing has the best banter I've ever read." And then I reread parts of Thousand Autumns and I have the same feeling again😂

Now I'm shipping Ling Shu and Yue Dingtang so hard. About 50% into the Plough atm. Don't want this to end so soon!

[angieloveshua]

CHIBI YANSHEN, NOW I HAVE REASONS TO LIVE.

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There are many clever people in the world; however it was seldom that one would find those who have enough self-awareness, and the ability to recognise their own shortcomings. And as for those who acknowledge their flaws, speak up about them, and are willing to correct them-- such people are as difficult to find and as rare as the mythical feathers of a phoenix or the horns of a qilin

Thousand Autumns/ Qian Qiu - Meng Xi Shi

[thesilversun]

Reading Kinky Translations tranlation of Bu Tia Gang by Meng Xishi (Thousand Autumns, 14th Year of Changhua/Sleuth of the Ming Dynasty, Peerless)

It's modern with cultivation. Video game artist Dong Zhi is taking a break from work to travel and do some sketching, when he runs into some very strange goings on on the train he's travelling on. Which leads him to meet people from the Department of Exorcism. And things only get stranger from there.

It's fully translated 156 chapters and 17 extras.

It's danmei, and looks liks being as slow burn as Thousand Autumns and 14th Year of Changhua. I'm only on chapter 19 as yet, Dong Zhi and Long Shen have at least spoken to each other.

Setting wise and because there is some humour to it too, I think this might appeal to people who like things like Guardian (Priest) and maybe for people who aren't familiar with danmei, but like modern with magic type investigations stories, if you like Rivers of London (Ben Aaronovich) this might be worth a look.

[hunxi-after-hours]

hunxi’s danmei awards 2.0! (aka 2022 edition)

Featuring the return of some categories such as:

Best Worldbuilding

Best Interrogation of Themes (aka the “Rent-Free Award”)

Best Moment That Wrecked Me (aka the Knifiest Award)

Best Beleaguered Side Character Award

Best Unreliable Narrator

As well as never-before-seen categories like:

Best Himbo

Most Brilliant Moment of Backstabbery

Most Ambitious Scope

Most Heartwrenching Line Delivery in an Audiodrama

…and more!

This year’s candidates in the running:

《小蘑菇》 Xiao Mo Gu by 一十四洲 Yi Shi Si Zhou

《不小心救了江湖公敌》 Bu Xiao Xin Jiule Jianghu Gong Di by 六木乔 Liu Muqiao (有声漫画 audiomanhua season 1)

《无双》 Wu Shuang by 梦溪石 Meng Xishi

《问鹿三千》 Wen Lu San Qian by 光合积木 Voicegem, 吼浪文化 Houlang Studio, and 斗木獬编剧工作室 Doumuxie Screenwriting Studio

《师弟还不杀我灭口》 Shidi Hai Bu Sha Wo Mie Kou by 子鹿 Zi Lu

《默读》 Mo Du by priest

《督主有病》 Du Zhu You Bing by 杨溯 Yang Su

《海中爵》 Hai Zhong Jue by 七药 Qi Yao

《哏儿》 Gen’er by 南北逐风 Nan Bei Zhu Feng

《杀破狼》 Sha Po Lang by priest

《金牌助理之弯弯没想到》 Jin Pai Zhu Li zhi Wan Wan Mei Xiang Dao by (nominally) 非天夜翔 Fei Tian Ye Xiang and (mostly) 传奇火箭队 The Legendary Rocket Team

(unmarked spoilers, including but not limited to these titles, under the cut. for introductions of these titles, click here. for last year’s danmei awards, click here)

Best Worldbuilding

Winner: 《杀破狼》 Sha Po Lang by priest

This award goes to 《杀破狼》 Sha Po Lang for the effortless ease with which p大 manages to merge the genres of imperial intrigue, steampunk mecha, alternate history, and wuxia elements. Over the course of the novel, priest explores how the development of 紫流金-based technology leads the fictional Liang Dynasty into industrial revolution, and doesn’t hesitate to include all the negative consequences of early industrialization. So you’ve rolled out mechanical alternatives for farming? Have fun dealing with the uprisings of unemployed farmers while fending off international threats on your borders. So you want to roll out paper currency/government bonds to stimulate your war-torn economy? Good luck even getting people to trust the validity of paper the way they trust the hardness of coin. In a way, 《杀破狼》 Sha Po Lang carries on the tradition set down in priest’s earlier novel 《七爷》 Qi Ye of protagonists using decidedly underhanded methods to effect the change they wish to see in the world, and the morality thereof remains just as thorny in 《杀破狼》. what would you do in the name of peace? how much of yourself can you give away before you are no longer the same person?

oh and I have to give a shout-out to the trains in this book, I’d give this award to 《杀破狼》 Sha Po Lang for its (re-)invention of trains alone

Best Interrogation of Themes (aka the “Rent-Free Award”)

Winner: 《小蘑菇》 Xiao Mo Gu by 一十四洲 Yi Shi Si Zhou

I listened to 《小蘑菇》 Xiao Mo Gu via audiodrama before I read the novel, and every time I finished an episode I would have to just sit for a few hours, processing. Despite its seemingly lighthearted premise,  《小蘑菇》 Xiao Mo Gu shows us an apocalypse in all its cruel magnificence. The oppressive atmosphere of unending martial law, the seductive proximity of despair, the omnipresence and unpredictability of death, the utter lack of justice or closure or meaning in a world slowly grinding to a halt, the vast, inhuman lengths civilization will go to in the name of survival... to this day,  《小蘑菇》 Xiao Mo Gu haunts the solemnity of my early mornings with questions like what would you condone to survive? and wherein lies the locus of meaning when everything it means to be human has been stripped away? and like. I haven’t been the same since my mushroom phase, okay

Best Beleaguered Side Character Award

Winner: Ji Bolan from 《小蘑菇》 Xiao Mo Gu by 一十四洲 Yi Shi Si Zhou

This poor man had to deal with his childhood friend growing up to be a governmentally-licensed and universally-reviled mass murderer, the complete breakdown of the laws of physics, and witnessing Lu Feng and An Zhe flirt in front of his salad soup, all during the apocalypse that he is frantically trying to solve. Frankly, he’s allowed to roast Lu Feng as much as he wants, and the fact that he’s voiced by the same person who did AD!Jiang Cheng and AD!Xiao Zheng (winner of last year’s Best Beleaguered Side Character Award) is 1) extremely funny, 2) very on-brand, and 3) further proof that being in voice actor fandom 其乐无穷

Best Moment That Wrecked Me (aka the Knifiest Award)

Winner:  《默读》 Mo Du by priest

The character of Fei Du in priest’s 《默读》 is easily the character who had me clawing at the walls the most for the better part of this year (I’m still clawing at the walls, if we’re being honest). I am in love with everything about the way priest wrote him; from his introduction as the flamboyantly aggravating playboy chasing after Tao Ran (brilliant character work there as well as brilliant comedy, 感谢陶然不弯之恩 etc etc) to the slow, methodical reveal of his backstory and how deeply, deeply traumatized he is, Fei Du is one of the most complex and intelligent and nuanced and terribly lovable meow meows characters I’ve had the good fortune to run into

To pick a single Fei Du moment? A single one? Well if I have to choose, unfortunately it’s going to have to be chapter 180 朗诵（五） for the simple reason that it hurts me:

他恨不能撕裂时空，大步闯入七年前，一把抱起那个沉默的孩子，双手捧起他从不流露的伤痕，对他说一句“对不起，我来晚了”。

[Luo Wenzhou] wished he could tear apart time, to barge back into that moment seven years ago and pick up that silent child, to cradle those hidden wounds and say to him, “I’m sorry I was late.”

“我来晚了……”

“I was late...”

直到上了救护车，费渡才好像是有了点意识，难以聚焦的目光在骆闻舟脸上停留了许久，大概是认出了他，竟露出了一个微笑。

Fei Du only seemed to recover a semblance of consciousness when they loaded him into the ambulance. His eyes, unfocused, stopped on Luo Wenzhou’s face for a while before smiling slightly.

骆闻舟艰难地看懂了他无声的唇语。

Luo Wenzhou read his words in the soundless shape of his lips with difficulty.

他说：“没有了……怪物都清理干净了，我是最后一个，你可不可以把我关在你家？”

He said, “They’re all gone... All the monsters are taken care of, I’m the last one. Can you lock me up in your house?”

I’m just. if you need me I’ll be screaming about sunflowers in the abyss

Best Unreliable Narrator

Winner: Yan Zhuoqing and the Deer God of 《问鹿三千》 Wen Lu San Qian by 光合积木 Voicegem, 吼浪文化 Houlang Studio, and 斗木獬编剧工作室 Doumuxie Screenwriting Studio

surprising shortage of unreliable narrators in this year’s contenders, but 《问鹿三千》 makes up for it by having not one, but TWO unreliable narrators involved. can you believe that BOTH of these semi-immortal dumbasses have amnesia? smh Deer God you’re literally the god of time and memory, how you’ve even gotten this far I’ve got no idea

honorable mention: Fei Du from 《默读》 by priest. this man had the audacity to say the words “我没有创伤” / “I’m not traumatized” after asking for Luo Wenzhou’s assistance in recovering some of his repressed memories that he’d blocked out because of the — you guessed it — trauma

Best Himbo

Winner: Situ Jin from 《督主有病》 Du Zhu You Bing by 杨溯 Yang Su

I think it’s safe to say that Situ Jin is a Very Good Egg With No Braincells Whatsoever. None. This man had to be bullied into a hurt/comfort scenario by his future wife, and when she came to him for comfort, grieving her father’s death, he responded to her “now I’m all alone” with “don’t cry: you’re one, I’m one, together we’re two.” proud of u for basic math, bro, but is now really the time. his other highlights include: thinking dreamily about his wife while in prison, defending innocent bystanders regardless the personal cost, and continually failing to seek medical attention while bleeding out

Side Character I’m Still Mad About (aka the Gongyi Xiao Award)

Winner: Fu Luo from 《海中爵》 Hai Zhong Jue by 七药 Qi Yao

so it turns out that I am Weak for this very specific kind of character, the one who is a Good Kid, the one who tries their best to be responsible and reasonable, the one who could honestly be a protagonist in another novel. double points if you can trust them with a spreadsheet (Bian Yanmei), triple points if they’re delightfully lowkey devoted to the actual protagonist (can I get a wahoo for the Jiangzuo Alliance in here??)

and you know what the author does? murders them with prejudice

tl;dr I’m still not over Fu Luo, because like oh man that scene was well done but also ouch

"most memeworthy/meme-able"

(this one’s for you, @presumenothing)

Winner: 《督主有病》 Du Zhu You Bing by 杨溯 Yang Su

I mean I literally—

this book is a Very Serious and Somewhat Grimdark book, but I have to say the sheer amount of misunderstandings that occur are comical in their quantity. have you ever met two people more in love with each other and less capable of uttering a single sentence about it, it is only by the grace of the author that these two didn’t murder each other before their happy ending at the many given opportunities throughout the book

"most deserving of a shenshen OST"

(this one’s also for you, @presumenothing, ty for all the brilliant category recs)

Winner:  ........?

this is such an interesting award category to consider, because it’s like asking “which one of these texts would you like to hand a steak knife to gut you with,” but it also begs the question of what a shenshen OST would bring to the text that the existing music/adaptation doesn’t. it also raises the question of what kind of narrative (grand, sweeping, vast in scale or minute, gentle, heartbreaking?) would be most compatible with a shenshen OST?

my first thought was 《小蘑菇》 Xiao Mo Gu, since it has both the monumental scope and the fragile, breakable heart that shenshen OST’s are so suited for (他只是一个小蘑菇 goodbYE—), but the music of the 《小蘑菇》 Xiao Mo Gu AD is already so perfect I don’t actually want to add anything to it. my next thought would be 《问鹿三千》 Wen Lu San Qian — again, for that blend of scale and sorrow, wistfulness at what can never be and gratitude for what we have. but 《问鹿》 also has five songs already, and while a shenshen OST would be nice, it most certainly isn’t necessary

so I think I’m going to cheat and give this award to a title that isn’t even on the list of candidates this year, one that already has a shenshen OST: 《天宝伏妖录》 Tian Bao Fu Yao Lu by 非天夜翔 Fei Tian Ye Xiang, which has the great fortune to have Zhou Shen’s 《天地为念》  for its ongoing donghua title song. what a beautiful, meditative song; what an ethereal, gently sorrowful melody. extra brownie points because I maintain that Zhou Shen and 锦鲤 Jin Li (the voice of Kong Hongjun) are counterparts of each other in their respective industries, and also because I’m ride or die for both of them

"most untranslatable ever"

(category shout-out to — you guessed it — @presumenothing)

Winner: oh ABSOLUTELY 《金牌助理之弯弯没想到》 Jin Pai Zhu Li zhi Wan Wan Mei Xiang Dao by 非天夜翔 Fei Tian Ye Xiang and 传奇火箭队 The Legendary Rocket Team

I consider myself fairly proficient in audiodramas on 猫耳FM as a medium/genre now; I’m familiar with the ways script adaptation dovetails with post-production, the roles the voice directors and producers and casts play, the different twists that can happen with 报幕, what names to keep an eye out for while checking out the production team... so when I say that this audiodrama knocked me flat on the ass when I first listened to it, I really do mean that I was in no way prepared for the chaos that was to come. where do I even begin to describe it? the speed? the unhinged energy? the unending 吐槽 / roasts? the brilliant comedic pacing? the extremely 洗脑 片尾曲？whatever the hell this is?

this audiodrama is not only the most untranslatable ever due to the high concentration of internet and culture-specific slang, but also apparently the most impossible to explain ever. idk. listen to this AD and lose your mind

Most Brilliant Moment of Backstabbery

Winner: ch. 116 of 《无双》 Wu Shuang by 梦溪石 Meng Xishi

I described 《无双》 Wu Shuang as “a book about roasting your rival first, saving your dynasty second,” but perhaps didn’t do justice to the sheer lengths these two will go to one-up each other. I’d like to take this moment to recognize a certain flamboyant demonic sect leader (that is somehow not Yan Wushi) for not just habitually backstabbing (gently, for funsies) his love interest but also getting some frontstabbery (once, with great intention) in as well. truly, no one out here is doing it like Feng Xiao

honorable mention: 《不小心救了江湖公敌》 Bu Xiao Xin Jiule Jianghu Gong Di by 六木乔 Liu Muqiao, for the sheer quantity of backstabbing that occurs. maybe this is simply what happens when all of your characters are professional evildoers at fluctuating levels of retirement

Best Comfort Media

Winner: 《哏儿》 Gen’er by 南北逐风 Nan Bei Zhu Feng

earlier this year, I went around asking various people: what makes a book, movie, or other text comfort media for you? listening to the answers, it occurred to me that I don’t really have texts that I turn to on a semi-regular basis to re-read or re-watch. especially because my favorite books tend to be the ones that rip my heart out through my throat, the idea of choosing a “comfort read” from among them seems somewhat, er, misguided

and then I ran into 《哏儿》 Gen’er, which is the only text I’ve chosen to carry over from last year’s danmei awards because the second season of the AD  aired this year. this webnovel/AD is also, genre-wise, the outlier in this year’s awards — no magic, no speculative elements, not a single sword in sight, just slice-of-life, daily trials and tribulations, characters balancing budgets and bantering backstage and discussing art over hotpot. the cast and characters of 《哏儿》 feel real and lived-in in a way that is so deeply precious to me; at times throughout the year, I would simply cue up the beginning of S2E2 to listen to the first fifteen minutes or so to quiet down. the ongoing discussions threaded throughout the narrative about the roles of traditional culture and art in modern society, how to adapt traditional forms to contemporary values and preferences, and the ever-relevant question of how to get other people to care about things you love... 《哏儿》 hits different, hits real close to home, asks thought-provoking questions in a gentle, lighthearted manner in a way that is totally unique among the danmei works I’ve read, so here I am, conferring this new, foreign honor upon it. it’s a first for both of us!

Most Ambitious Scope

Winner: 《问鹿三千》 Wen Lu San Qian by 光合积木 Voicegem, 吼浪文化 Houlang Studio, and 斗木獬编剧工作室 Doumuxie Screenwriting Studio

I know, I know — very bold of me to give this award to an audiodrama that’s still airing, that we don’t know if it’ll ever be completed, but I still have to take a moment to yell about this completely original episodic gufeng AD, because like... wow. there is no answer key; there is no original work; there is no blueprint to work off of, no pre-existing fanbase of readers to appeal to. this entire project with its xuanhuan scope will succeed or fail based on its merits alone, and what scope it has, too — from the five voice actor songs (I guess everyone in 光合积木 can sing too??? sure that’s fine I guess) to penning scripts that play specifically to the voice actors’ strengths, to engaging with thorny dynamics of family and relationship and devotion and misalignment, I think it’s real gutsy of the 《问鹿》 creative team to embark on such a vast and ambitious project, and carry it off as well as they did. now it’s just 乖巧坐等更新.jpeg hours, fingers crossed they come back for a season 2

Best Work I Was Songbaited Into

Winner: 《小蘑菇》 Xiao Mo Gu by 一十四洲 Yi Shi Si Zhou

Definitely the first thing that even put 《小蘑菇》 Xiao Mo Gu on my radar was 奇然’s 《风过荒野》  appearing in my YouTube algorithm. The song’s arrangement is haunting, lyrical,  and so unlike any other AD song I’ve ever heard. The second season’s 《极光入夜》 is also transcendent in lyrics, composition, and the fact that both of the main voice actors can sing 哎呦还让人活吗—and don’t even get me started on the beautiful piano and string covers they work into the soundtrack! 声罗万象请受我一拜！

let’s put it this way: I actually went out of my way to translate the 《小蘑菇》 songs (here and here) for how hard they go. one day I’ll get over the lines “玫瑰静默凋谢” and “审判是我于你的吻别” but today will not be that day

honorable mention: 《督主有病》 Du Zhu You Bing by 杨溯 Yang Su, for having the opposite energy of the 《默读》 AD asdlfskdfjs no less than FIVE original songs composed for a THREE season AD. I was on the fence about listening to this AD until I heard 远皓ZIL’s 《燃灯》, which immediately joined my playlist before I’d even read the book. Again, the lyricism, the arrangement, the melancholy, deeply thoughtful atmosphere of the song got me interested in exactly what kind of maddeningly angsty plot could result in these lyrics:

我愿抚拂前尘 燃着灯 做你归途的引 / I would brush away the dust of our past and light a lamp, and be what guides you back

只求你破迷津 渡极乐 回首看我在等  / I only pray that you break free from the labyrinth and deliver paradise, to look back and see me waiting

我匍匐入尘埃 叩长阶 奉上所有虔诚 / I crawl through the dirt, pressing my forehead to the stone steps of the long stairway, offering up all of my piety

 只为听你亲将 相思说 那纸情书太薄 / just to hear you say, yearning for me, that this love letter is too thin

不载残生颠簸 无你我 苦不可脱 / it cannot carry what’s left of our tumultuous lives — without you or me, life would be bitter with no escape

Audiodrama Adaptation with the Strongest First Episode

Winner: 《督主有病》 Du Zhu You Bing by 杨溯 Yang Su

Adaptation is a delicate and tricky practice; how do you accommodate for the limits of production, the requirements of medium, when it comes to translating a work across dimensions? And particularly when it comes to AD’s, how can you capture a listener’s attention within the first few episodes, to bait them into the story and make them willing to pay money to unlock what happens next?

this award has to go to 珞玉 Luo Yu and 子穆木 Zi Mumu for their adaptation of 杨溯 Yang Su’s novel 《督主有病》 Du Zhu You Bing. The book itself runs chronologically, from the two main characters first meeting each other as children, the months they spend together, their sudden (and deeply traumatic) parting, and then resumes the narrative the next time they meet each other seven years down the line, attempting to kill each other (in their defense, it was dark, and neither of them were sure if the other survived the massacre that separated them in the first place). Episode 1 “故人来” of the AD begins with that reunion as Shen Jue, disposing of a body, finds an injured assassin just outside the palace walls. They grapple in the dark until they recognize each other, and the way post-production editing fills in their backstory through a quick, tantalizing flashback and brings the listener back out of it by overlapping young!Xiahou Lian and present!Xiahou Lian saying the same lines (“shaoye, remember: don’t look back, don’t say anything—”)... well done, well played, I sure paid money to listen to the rest of this AD

Audiodrama Adaptation with the Strongest First Ten Minutes

Winner: 《海中爵》 Hai Zhong Jue by 七药 Qi Yao

haha I think I’m hilarious, but while 《督主》 has the strongest first episode I would also like to shout out how good the first ten minutes of 《海中爵》 Hai Zhong Jue are. seamless transition from baby Hailian to adult Hailian, from quiet lullaby to sea battle, and establishing Hailian’s sass, competence, kindness, and swashbuckling swagger as well as introducing Fang Tinglan (and his shamelessness asldfksj). credit has to go to the director 齐杰, the scriptwriter 虾仁猪心@一梦还江月, and the post-production editor 时柒@丶为之奈何 for pacing the opening scene so well, and an extra special shout-out to 梅梅 (韬韬你是最棒的) for the funniest little “bye~~~” as he throws someone off a boat

Most Heartwrenching Line Delivery in an Audiodrama (aka the Knifiest Award, audio edition)

Winner: S1E7 of the 《默读》Mo Du audiodrama

I can yell for years about how talented voice actors are, but there are specific moments while listening where I have to pause for a second or ten and silently mouth “damn”

杨天翔 Yang Tianxiang’s performance as Fei Du in season 1, episode 7 of the 《默读》 Mo Du audiodrama knocks it out of the goddamn solar system with the plaza broadcast scene — this was a scene that I was pretty eh on in the novel, but after listening to it in the AD... 当! 场! 封! 神! with Yang Tianxiang’s measured delivery, the slow excavation of the depth of Fei Du’s anguish, the forced steadiness of his voice when he says “你们如果都这么狠心，为什么以前还要表现出好像很在乎我们的样子?” / “If all of you were always this cruel, why did you pretend to care about us so much in the beginning?” underlaid by the devastatingly quiet, melancholy piano backing of 《以沫》 that then kicks into the sequence that culminates in 何忠义 He Zhongyi’s “等我回来!” / “Wait for me to come home!”... (silently screams into a paper bag) I’m not okay and I haven’t been okay for months

Honorable Mentions:

S2E2 “也恨相逢” of 《督主有病》 Du Zhu You Bing by 杨溯 Yang Su: specifically for 梅梅’s line “少爷，这是我的命” / “shaoye, this is my fate.” for a scene that didn’t even exist in the original novel... hot damn wow

E12 “绝不复寡“ of 《师弟还不杀我灭口》 Shidi Hai Bu Sha Wo Mie Kou by 子鹿 Zi Lu: 锦鲤 has the range and this AD proves it! While he spends most of the AD being generally the comedic, satirical commentary, Zhong Yan/Qin Mingxi absolutely begging, tears in his voice, for Gu Xuanyan to leave him to die in this scene? look I’m not immune to this trope either

S1E13·上 of 《问鹿三千》 Wen Lu San Qian by 光合积木 Voicegem, 吼浪文化 Houlang Studio, and 斗木獬编剧工作室 Doumuxie Screenwriting Studio: (cups hands around mouth, yells) 马! 老! 师! it’s hard to explain the heartbreaking context of the line I have in mind without giving away the entire story, but 马正阳’s throat-scraping scream of “我要你爱我” / “I want you to love me!” is wince-inducing from the sheer force of the raw anguish in it

wooooo and that’s a wrap! thanks for tuning into the 2022 danmei awards :)

looking forward at my reading list, I’m not sure I’ll be doing a 2023 round since my reading is taking me in different directions and I simply might not have enough candidates to fill out a whole awards post next year (and I suspect I’ll have gone so far off the map that people won’t even have the faintest idea what I’m talking about anymore asldkfajsd)

it’s been fun!!! catch you all in the new year!!

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my favorite prayer is you.

by kokoiro short snippets of the lives of danmei characters. Words: 410, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: 天官赐福 | Heaven Official's Blessing (Cartoon), 天官赐福 | Heaven Official's Blessing (Webcomic), 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù, 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù, 二哈和他的白猫师尊 - 肉包不吃肉 | The Husky and His White Cat Shizun - Meatbun Doesn't Eat Meat, 余污 - 肉包不吃肉 | Remnants of Filth - Meatbun Doesn't Eat Meat, 千秋 - 梦溪石 | Thousand Autumns - Mèng Xī Shí, 杀破狼 | Sha Po Lang - priest Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: M/M Characters: Huā Chéng (Tiān Guān Cì Fú), Xiè Lián (Tiān Guān Cì Fú), Fēng Xìn (Tiān Guān Cì Fú), Mù Qíng (Tiān Guān Cì Fú), Luò Bīnghé, Shěn Yuán | Shěn Qīngqiū, Mòběi-jūn, Shàng Qīnghuá, Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji, Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian, Chu Wanning, Mo Ran | Mo Weiyu, Gu Mang (Remnants of Filth), Mo Xi (Remnants of Filth), Jiang Yexue, Murong Chuyi, Shen Qiao (Thousand Autumns), Yan Wushi, Chang Geng | Li Min, Gu Yun | Gu Zixi Relationships: Huā Chéng/Xiè Lián (Tiān Guān Cì Fú), Fēng Xìn/Mù Qíng (Tiān Guān Cì Fú), Luò Bīnghé/Shěn Yuán | Shěn Qīngqiū, Mòběi-jūn/Shàng Qīnghuá, Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī/Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn, Chu Wanning/Mo Ran | Mo Weiyu, Gu Mang/Mo Xi (Remnants of Filth), Jiang Yexue/Murong Chuyi, Shen Qiao/Yan Wushi, Chang Geng | Li Min/Gu Yun | Gu Zixi Additional Tags: Mo Ran | Mo Weiyu Being an Idiot, Fluff, Crack, Angst via https://ift.tt/EvaGNtM

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卑微到骨子（深圳的爱）

在深圳城，我对你的爱卑微到骨子里

流水线的工人，有留不下的城

和回不去的家，他们称我为打螺丝的人

我从遥远山区来，睡过天桥

住在廉价的出租房，饿了等着外卖小哥

衣服破了就等着快递上门

像蝼蚁一样穿梭在别人的高楼大厦间

这便耗尽了我青春，耗尽我的一生

在这城里，大大小小的机遇如彩票

互联网，虚拟币，没有一个为我准备

颠簸离乡路，故乡人也嫁为人妇

我却天涯无尽，归乡无期

流水线的工人，打螺丝，进厂

在深圳城，对你的爱卑微到骨子里

每每深夜里，总拾起孤独的枪

却找不到一个，愿把我视为敌人的对手

——杨东泽2022年09月16日于广东深圳

远方的谋生者

神色异常的大街

路人衣衫不整，穿着拖鞋蹒跚

在马路中不知道避让汽车，向全副武装的白衣人张口

他们把他们新生的孩子叫做疫生

窗外的荔枝树下

猫陷入一种寂静，传说的死亡墓地里

微风吹过你的面颊

在夜里寻找，你的双眼和二月薪资一样单薄

买菜，做饭，隔离，做核酸

日子无数，你把自由交给明天

被未知恐惧宣判，年轻的意志被时光消磨

心存理想的异乡人啊

你在东莞的某个旧旅馆中安生

在疫情中，面包和自由无处可依

历史向前，滚动着谋生者的意志

明天过后，日子仍然要过，房租仍然要交

大街上广播的大喇叭也仍旧要来

唯有青春，一去不再复回

—杨东泽2022年03月11日于东莞大朗

本不相识的人

—华为溪流背坡村欧洲小镇记

我不愿以爱之名

绑架一个流入迷途的心

本不相识的人，有时我很爱你

有时我也不那么宠你

我驾着你想象的灵魂去追寻着自由

穿省过市，在偏远小镇里放歌

常常用你的名义叫醒老街道的黎明

机翼突破云层，今日，我又来到松山湖

带着你的希望，在溪流背坡村

乘着红色的小火车，在风雨里依然如旧

穿棱在巴黎和海德尔堡间，常常过康桥

到布鲁日与牛津去闲逛

在勃艮第喝咖啡

在克伦诺夫花园里荡秋千

吃最多的猪脚饭，看最大的蜗牛

在欧洲小镇，在大郎镇，在大岭山

我来时从不拨弄衣袋

去时，也不曾在荔枝林里深埋遗物

唯一能做的是，我愿意

能在离开时，从你悲伤的深处

把你的忧伤带走

—杨东泽2021年10月16日于广东东莞松山湖

佛山城记

姑娘，如果我爱你

我将会追寻你的脚步，去到广东

佛山，这个岭南的天地之城

有你最喜欢舞狮，最喜欢钟楼钟声

有你爱喝的千灯湖烈性德国啤酒

姑娘，如果我爱你

我将在每次经过佛山时

给你打来异乡的长途电话，告诉你

你曾经走过的飞鸿路我正在走

你曾经听的粤剧胡不归我正在听

你曾经吃的勿米粥火锅我正在吃

姑娘，今夜我从佛山城过

在龙塘诗社诗会上舞文弄墨

在南风古灶前广场喂着白鸽

在佛罗伦萨小镇喷泉边合着节奏

姑娘，那禅城南海给我的美

我将要用诗歌为你收藏

那祖庙给我的辟佑神牌

我将要加上你的名字

姑娘，今夜我在禅城想你

那渔人码头的霓虹见证我的思念

那顺德逢简水乡的小船带着你温柔

姑娘，我追寻着你的脚步

听你最喜欢的钟楼钟声

唱你最喜欢的粤剧名曲

学你最喜欢的舞狮

但是亲爱的，我深夜里的孤独

伴着我走遍了佛山城的每个角落

飞鸿街，祖庙，南风古灶，佛罗伦萨

千灯湖，都给不了我

你可以给的温柔

——杨东泽2022年01月08日于广东佛山岭南天地

东莞城记

我从广东过

光与影中，与东莞相遇

清澈的爱，迷离的人

他们生在虎门南城，死在南海珠江口

为民族站岗，为人民放风

我不曾想过，在孤独的夜

走过东莞的每个角落

在东江水道上来来回回，摇船

在黄旗山上放声高歌，迷雾

东莞，你给我的

我将会带到世界播散

你给不了的，我将尽情在你的土地享受

在下坝坊听着音乐摇摆

在富民街吃着莞式奶茶

寮步，大岭山，长安，塘厦

东莞啊，他们说来到你的土地上

他们是为了爱

但我到你的世界里，却唯独现在为了情

在孤独的夜，我从不曾想过

我会在黄旗山岭上高歌

光与影中，与莞城相遇

虎门大桥下的东莞人

他们生在珠江口，却死在了历史之中

—杨东泽2022年01月15日于东莞南城厚街

深圳城记

我从没有见过螳螂山的夜色

但是我喜欢深圳的风

我从没有去过大梅沙的海滩

但是，我喜欢深圳湾的水

姑娘，我不喜欢别的，我的意思是

我喜欢你的温柔

即使我是住在城中村的人

即使我每天需要挤上罗湖开出的轮渡去往香港谋生

即使我的生活如此残酷，如此冰冷

即使有人告诉我是一个需要被爱的人

但是姑娘，1979年我也是从远方来的人

姑娘，我见过你没有见过的深圳

我来时世界之窗还是一片沼泽

大芬没有你想要的绘画艺术

蛇口码头也还是一处无人知晓的茅地

姑娘，1979年，我的灵魂

还没有把肉体裹挟

说爱别人的话比爱自己的话更多

但是，姑娘，在深圳的车水马龙间

抓住让人害怕，分别却往往留不下祝福

姑娘，我也是从远方来的人

1992年，我还住在白石洲

我从没有见过螳螂山的夜色

也没有去过处处艺术的油画村

但是，姑娘，我最喜欢的

还是你无可替代的温柔

—杨东泽2022年01月25日于广东深圳观澜湖

停摆的春

枯叶纷飞

黄花铃再次开放

一周又一周，停摆的城市里

追求理想的人终日穿街过巷

在铁轨上追寻故乡

说是要在火车上创造灵感

在深圳的街角

他说他有理想、还有艺术

炮仗花高挂检测点篱笆枝头

一月又一月，摇曳在隔离病房的窗外

坐上绿皮火车

他说怎能我看见他口罩后的逝去容颜

枯叶纷飞，黄花铃再次开放

他说他与众不同，他说他要远行

在旅途中把春歌声唱遍大地

去下一站寻找家乡，他说那里有理想

有艺术，有山峰，也有自由

枯叶纷飞

黄花铃再次开放

他说他有理想

他说他要在铁轨上寻找家乡

——杨东泽2022年03月15日于广东东莞大朗

黄风铃

微风吹动枯叶

黄风铃，在湖岸边摇动

曾在松山湖边祈祷

心爱的人，请勿在旅途中迷失

你是百木丛中的一点黄

也是我我心中的一点痛

一夜间你吹落了枯叶

一念中你吹动了枝头

我曾经在你的花冠下求爱

我曾经在你绿叶下避雨

黄风铃，你尽情地卖弄你的妖艳

人民的苦难，你可以装作不知

历经冬的山芋抵不住春天的风

开着硬派越野姑娘也要一次次地洗劫黑夜

黄风铃，她，消失在花丛中

她把你的黄，遗失在了旅途

—杨东泽2022年03月19日于广东

三十岁

我喜欢杭州

我喜欢三十岁的女人

她在黄浦江边的沼泽地里长大，浦东

她的童年被一座座摩天大楼暗杀

三十岁的女人，住在江嘴村

出门是钱塘江，开窗便可以与湘湖相遇

三十岁，开着她的宝马三系

她在芝江绿道边规划未来

三十岁，生活，父母的意志和理想的追求

她在西湖边结婚，离婚，然后与爱人相恋

年复一年，三十岁的女人

我对你的爱，如杭州城里的樱花期待春风

三十岁，向诗人寻求未来

你具有其他人不具有的勇气

金钱，占有，安稳，依赖

诗人的未来如在大地上的风，四处游荡

三十岁，我是一个贫穷的人

不善于在平淡的爱情中存储甜言蜜语

爱情这东西，吃多了会让人厌

离开了，却又让人止不住的念

——杨东泽2022年03月19日于广东

汕尾城记

茫茫南海，一个人的记忆

在迷雾中迷失，是谁让章鱼游上了岸

又是谁看到了他走过的志向

海虾，血蛎，螃蟹，今日空船而归

写下的诗，走过的路，爱过的人

带上一切，明日便又从海湾出发

打渔人，从未停下过与夕阳的交易

一日四季，月月在浪尾上飘泊

翻过雪山，白日在沙漠里打滚

晚上便在草原上乱窜

汕尾的夜里，寻找着

码头上的海货，寻找着排档里的生腌

茫茫南海边，白色沙滩，无边无际

你我在天际线上行走

渴了就喝凉茶，到海湾处，饿了就吃咸饼

——杨东泽2022年05月29日于广东汕尾保利

惠州城里的约定

看三千里绿水

我从西枝江来，又沿东江而去

那西湖里的静默。

是与垂柳的前世的依依相守

罗浮山里，前世我们心心相印

约定，在西湖边等那个人

约定，在古城边等那首诗

如今，我在石桥下，我在古城边

在水东街，在文笔塔

静静地等，默默的念，坠入了梦

梦里花落，今夜，诗人已到岭南

我将城门洞开，张灯结彩

高榜山下，惠州城里，红花湖边

我在在高楼上备下那客家酒菜

为他接风，也为我送葬

——杨东泽2022年05月30日于广东惠州平湖

大鹏所城记

搜山检海，阳光，沙滩，海湾

在弯延曲折的山路上飙车

南海边的医生，不再向更深的水域

一个拿着手术刀，见惯生死的人

始终战胜不了内心的恐惧

在大鹏所城的咖啡馆

灯光昏暗，海浪醒忪，一只蚊子

误闯了天下，几个瑜伽人的体式生硬地

倒挂在将军府的牌匾

人，见惯了别人的死

却仍执念着自己的生

一壶桃花酿，几块青石板道

落地窗内家乡的过去

就足以收买我们的彼此手掌

生命线很长，你说你可以长命百岁

而我感情分叉，最终可能独守空房

搜山检海，在弯延曲折的大鹏半岛

灯光昏暗，海浪醒忪，我们

见惯了别人的生死，收买彼此的手掌

一壶桃花酿，几块青石板

你说你可以长命百岁，而我最终可能独守空房

—杨东泽2022年05月28日于广东深圳大鹏所城

交际花（打工人）

在深圳，却不是深圳人

失去土地，告别家乡

漂亮的乡下女人收拾行囊

踏上养活自己的南下打工之路

酒肉林池，贪财好色，

城里的人为她争风吃醋

律师、医生

忙忙碌碌的体育教练

他们刷着她孤独寂寞的朋友圈

吃着她做的饭

身边全是男人的人

社区里的交际花

若为情人会让心生无比的嫉妒

若为朋友，她却是打开城市男人的阀门

丑陋，罪恶，相恨相杀

男人们色欲、贪欲、占有欲

��人们的嫉妒、复仇、侦探般的防线

在深圳，漂亮的女人慢慢老去

收拾行囊，回到家乡

向法庭提起诉讼，为了城市里的包养

她愿意抛夫弃子，到大城市里

过着足不出户的生活

——杨东泽2022年09月16日于广东东莞松山湖

观澜湖

浅浅的海湾池塘

孩子灿烂的微笑透着善良

你期待的眼睛

对我的一无所有目不转睛

我的存在就是

我的价值的低估

她的声音在说着

对我未来的一切否认

我裂心力竭眼盯未来

欲用心灵的低吟

召唤世界的主宰

你却用全世界的解脱

迸裂着梦的欢乐

五月的太阳晒着

为梦想奔忙的人儿

网球场边上的水壶

唱着欢快的曲调

晚霞映衬着观澜公园七彩风车

轻风浮过的沙沙声

伴随我心灵破灭

摩天轮孤独地守望远方高球场

远归的孤鸿向远方传递情愫

不要在爱的草原梦境中回复

你还爱我

—2018-5-20于深圳观澜湖网球场打球有感

白石洲

失去了生命的春

追求理想的青年

在羊城伤心的游荡

天如太阳般为世界带来烈焰

是到了我说话

的时候了

我们的分离并不是因为我们的无知

自认为有所知才是我们的裂痕

所以我们各自只能属于天空

世界之窗乌光的屋顶上

你和江泽民题字一样久远

在将来的一天

当我跪在你的坟头

向你哭诉自然的不公

你是否会在天堂诵读我赠予你的诗文

我幻想过不止一次

你我在浅浅海湾向日而行追逐心灵的交融

可是枯萎的日子啊

你是否能够和我的愚昧一起

用心追随着爱情的梦想

即使你我百孔千疮

—2018-5-11于深圳世界之窗

未完之诗 I 忘却

十一点一刻

航班停留于宝安机场

机翼划过欢乐的海风

珠江海岸远方的黑夜

守候一个从沪都到访的心灵

那颗期待的心

在微信上一再催促

用一首短暂的诗歌

证明他尚未离去

因为它的美丽

深圳

—2018年4月12于深圳龙岗横岗