O4O: part i
|| jing yuan x reader || E/18+ || omega for omega, soft smut || wc: 10.3k ย || ao3 ||
Jing Yuan has been content riding out his heats alone for centuries. You, despite being another omega, are happy to lend a hand if Jing Yuan will have you.
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๐ฆ๐ this piece is apart of SPRING FEVER: an omegaverse collab! ๐๐ฆ
part i (here) ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ part ii โ part iii (coming soon!)
notes: hello omega jing yuan omega jing yuan save me... the way omega jy has haunted me for months. MONTHS. this fic is incredibly indulgent soft, needy smut with non-traditional a/b/o dynamics. THANK YOU to the lovely @owlespresso for beta reading!! please read the tags and enjoy!! <3
CW: a/b/o dynamics, omega jing yuan (with afab and amab anatomy), omega reader (afab anatomy), past yingxing/jing yuan/dan feng, bottom jing yuan flavors (though reader does not do any penetration), use of toys, worldbuilding around omegaverse, lots of biting, milfy jing yuan, mommy kink without the word mommy (at least not in this part ๐๐!!),
Jing Yuan has not shared his heat with anyone in a very, very long time. Centuries, most certainly. Jing Yuan doesnโt find it very useful to keep track of that length of timeโ he finds it cumbersome if anything. Thereโs no use holding onto a past that only forces him to redigest pain.ย
Jing Yuan rarely has heats. He keeps a diligent schedule of medication and only has to go through them once every decade or so. Occasionally less, if the Luofu is passing a particular star system or comet field. His heats are always cumbersome. He can conceal his omegan sensibilities often, but it is more difficult prior to a heat.
Preheat is a different beast.
When Jing Yuan sequesters himself in his estate for the better part of a week, anyone who knows heโs even there assumes it is to go through a rut. A week is a standard amount of time to take off for a rut and is expected. However, a heat has a standard time off of about two and a half weeks. Much longer to accommodate preheat and nesting needs.ย
Jing Yuan rarely indulges his own.ย
The Luofu, at large, assumes he is an alpha. This is manufactured, however only partially. Generally, the citizens of the Luofu assume, given that he is the General and he has a larger, broad-shouldered stature, that he is an Alpha through and through. He always wears scent patches in public, which is normal for both omegas and alphas. Betas, too, occasionally. Depending on the subtype. The Charioteers know that he is an omega, but they are committed to some amount of discretion and guard the information as a secret. Lady Fu, an alpha, will occasionally scold him for being so secretive. Like he harbors some sort of self-hatred that he is an omega.ย
It is simply more convenient for him to be seen as an alpha. Jing Yuan doesnโt wish to disturb this perception.
And therefore, it is much easier to wait as long as possible between heats and bear them alone. Whatever instincts he has can be satiated with toys and a half-decent nest. Jing Yuan has always considered this enough. โEnoughโ.ย
(Itโs not sating. Jing Yuan cannot lie to himself about this. He remembers laying with Yingxing, and how the alpha made him feel more full and content than Jing Yuan had ever thought possible during a heat. Or ever, truthfully. He remembers how calming Dan Fengโs presence had beenโ grounding and reassuring, too. Jing Yuan was fucked, filled and protected. An omegaโs dream.)
Jing Yuan... copes with what he has. A large, plush bed with a downy mattress, a few donated, alpha-scented garments, and a collection of inflatable, knotting toys. He always leaves his heat with lingering cramps, a brutalized hole, and a yearning that takes a few weeks to quiet itself.ย
It is natural that he craves his mates. Even if they are long dead (not dead. Not really. Not the same as they once were, anyway.)
And certainly, never to be his again. The mating mark on his neck has long faded.
Jing Yuan tracks his heat so such yearning can be anticipated and planned for. He knows when his heat is approaching, down to the specific day it will occur. He titrates off his suppressants carefully, and maps out a portion of time off for himself a year or so in advance.ย
Which is why it is very odd that he starts exhibiting preheat symptoms in the middle of the day, a random day, during a tactical meeting.
Even if he had been titrating down his dose in anticipation for a planned heat in a few months time, it is far, far too early to begin feeling symptoms. The familiar itchiness prickling under his skin is entirely unexpected. Jing Yuan has to put a particularly large amount of effort to get through this unnecessary meeting without letting a single symptom slip. He can only adjust in his seat so many times before it is improper, or juggle the cradle of his jaw from one hand to the other before it is clear something is wrong.ย
If any of the Charioteers and their advisers notice anything amiss with him, they say nothing. The only one who looks off-put is Fu Xuan. Sheโs a spitfire alpha herself, and perhaps sheโs keen enough to notice that Jing Yuan is beginning to feel... unwell. Though he is masking his scent as he always does, he imagines that the flush in his cheeks is becoming increasingly obvious.
Fu Xuan gives Jing Yuan a wary look as the meeting is dismissed.
โGeneral,โ She says curtly. โAre you well?โ
โIโm fine,โ He gives her a rich laugh as he stands, muffling a groan as his stiff back and knees ache. Heโd sat for too long. He feels light-headed as he rights himself and Fu Xuan glares at him.
โI doubt that,โ Fu Xuan huffs. โI will not interrogate you in public, nor do I think you would give me an honest answer even if I didโโ
โSo little trust in me, Master Divinerโโ
โ However, I will urge you to go home. โ She takes a step closer and sniffs the air. Itโs just the two of them in the meeting room now, the rest of the parties in attendance having filtered out. Subtly and without fanfare, she takes his hand in her own, and presses her wrist to his. Jing Yuan keeps an easy grin on his face but canโt help the way he tenses his fingers, flexing them at the contact. โDo you need an escort?โ
โIs Lady Fu worrying for me? How kind.โ
โIโmโ not, โ Fu Xuan huffs now and more roughly smears their wrists together. The scent gland she is almost abusing is swollen and hot to the touch. It takes all of his composure not to squirm with her treatment. โIโm no fool. If you have a heat starting, you should be comfortable at home, not in a war room.โ
โMaster Diviner, you think Iโm an omega?โ Jing Yuan says with a smile. He knows she is already privy to this, but he canโt resist teasing her a bit.
โYou are insufferable. Even in this state. Go home. I will take you there myself.โ
โIโm afraid I canโt return home just yet,โ He hums. He imagines he has a few hours before proper pre-heat sets in. โI have a lunch date that I cannot miss.โ
โYouโ a lunch date?โ
โYes, of course. Itโs a scheduled event, dear Diviner.โ
โDo not patronize me.โ
Jing Yuan laughs as she fumes. He has the urge to ruffle her hair, but thinks better of it. The complicated updo would surely be ruffled, and Jing Yuan is already getting an earful as it is.ย
โI would never.โ
Fu Xuan yanks her arm away with a growl. She wears some type of masking perfume, she always has, but with her frustration swirling, a bit of her actual scent peaks through. Itโs light on the back of his tongue, floral almost. Nearly inedible, but the kind of scent Jing Yuan that makes him nostalgicโ
(For a master with a scent like frost-covered roses, and a packmate with a scent filled with springtime lilac blossoms in fat clusters.)
โIf this lunch is really so necessary, may I escort you there at least? Or will your alpha be meeting you here?โ
โTheyโre not an alpha.โ Jing Yuan hums. His stomach feels warm regardless. โAnd Iโll be just fine getting there myself.โ
Fu Xuan looks at him, questioningly. Her lips open, then close once more. There are questions she clearly has. And for all her brashness and hot-blooded fervor, she understands decorum better than most. She pries out of care and her good intentions, and Jing Yuan can respect that if nothing else.
โIโll concede,โ Fu Xuan sighs. โ However, please let me know if thereโs anything else you need. You have my number.โ
โNoted.โ Jing Yuan rises, and feels the heat clouding his head sink lower in his body. Heโs being engulfed.ย
Fu Xuan deadpans, โGeneralโโ
โHave a good rest of your day, Master Diviner,โ He calls with a light laugh, slipping away before Fu Xuan can give him any further grief.
...
As the Arbiter General of the Luofu, Jing Yuan knows its streets and secrets very well. Thereโs more than one way to arrive at his favored terrace garden without being seen or smelt by the public. It is helpful that this path is lined near an aqueduct stream, surrounded by lush greenery and clumps of fragrant azure asters. This path is tucked away, straddling an external tunnel of the Luofuโs inner tunnels. Really, only the Calibrators aboard the ship use it, and as there are only a few and they tend to keep to their delve, Jing Yuan has very little fear walking this way at his own leisure.
He is glad you tend to take your lunch dates in the privacy of this particular garden, under the gazebo and nestled atop its many silken blankets and pillows. A conventional restaurant in this state would be doable, but unideal.ย
Jing Yuan can smell you as he approaches. It makes him pause, just outside the gate. His hands hovers over his jade abacus as he opens his mouth to taste you in the back of his mouth.
(Warm, a familiar scent that he associates with the rare indulgence of relaxation. Itโs not overly sweet or ripe, but balanced and full-bodied. Not quite floral or fruity, and not deep enough to be akin to an aged black tea. Perhaps like the roll of a hearth or the beeswax of a lit candle.)
Heโs sighs. It calms him instantly.ย
Even if you arenโt an alpha, you are familiar, as is the current setting.
Youโre sitting at a low table in the shade of the gazebo. There are several plates of cheeses, cut fruits, salted meats, and nuts laid out. Youโre ladling sticky honey into a small dish as he enters, and look up at the sound of the gate closing.
You smile when you see him.
โGeneral,โ You smile. โI apologize, I started setting up lunch without you. Everything should still be chilled.โ
โNo need to be sorry,โ he laughs gently, brushing a hand against your shoulder before rounding the table, and taking a seat across from you. โI could never complain about your diligence. You have chosen quite the spread today, havenโt you?โ
You flush with a nod, and gesture down to the table, โThe markets were lovely today, I had to splurge. Youโll have to let me know what you think.โ
โOnly if you do the same.โ
โI-I can do that,โ You smile at him softly.
Despite your familiarity, you still regard him with some amount of anxiety. Jing Yuan has long since placed this has less to do with his status as General, and more than likely due to a deepened amount of affection that Jing Yuan... entertains. Enjoys. Thrives off of, even. He perhaps returns it, though he hasnโt told you that explicitly.
Besides, you believe him to be an alpha. Heโs sure that, if you did know his secondary gender, such affections would fade quickly. The allure of what he could provide as an alpha is quite different from what he can provide as an omega.
Jing Yuan takes a sip of sparkling juice, and as he lowers the thin-necked glass, you look at him strangely. A crease knits itself between your brows.
โDid I get some on my face?โ Jing Yuan chuckles and wipes at the corners of his mouth with his thumb.
โNo... you just,โ You stumble with your words, hands flexing in your lap. โAre... are you alright? Your cheeks look quite warm, and youโre sweating around your hairline.โย
You always have been keen to bodies other than your own. Itโs not the most common trait.ย
โ... Am I?โ Jing Yuan could choose to lie at this moment. It would be easy to say he was using a new brand of suppressants, or blame it on a stressful day. However, he doesn't like lying to you, only twisting the truth when entirely necessary. โI do suppose Iโm at that point in my cycle.โ
โOh!โ You startle and sit up more straight. You push a plate at him. โPre-rut? You should eat, then. Youโll need your strength. Doโ do you have someone I can call? I donโt mind.โ
Your worry is cute.ย
Jing Yuan canโt help thinking about it. You are an omega full of so much care and urge to help. Jing Yuan has seen it and experienced it many times, and has also seen how it has gotten you into unfortunate situations. You have a trusting mind and spirit, and more than once, it has been used against you.ย
Jing Yuan likes keeping you close, so he can look after you, even if itโs from a distance.
He stares down at the plate. Thereโs a pile of glistening orange grapes, a few roses of sliced, cured meats, a chunk of honeycomb, and buttery looking crackers. It does look delicious, however Jing Yuan has always struggled to eat in his pre-heat. When he looks up at you to decline, your expression looks even more worried, almost sour.
Before he can speak, you are. Petal-soft lips lips downturned. โAre you... not in pre-rut, General?โ
He deflates, slightly. He is oldโ and. He does not wish to steer you away from what is a correct assumption. You are his most trusted companion.
โI am not,โ He says softly, and picks up one of the grapes. He squeezes. The skin is taut and tight. โAnd, please call me Jing Yuan. Formalities can be dropped, yes?โ
โIโ yes, of course.โ You look from his plate to him. โSo, youโre... pre-heat?โ
โI am, yes.โ
โOh!โ You immediately heap his plate with several other kinds of fruit, and grab a clean glass and pour ice water from a pitcher into it. โI apologizeโ for. Making such an assumption.โ
โNo need to apologize.โ He soothes and lays a hand over yours. โIโm aware of what the vast majority of the Luofu assumes my secondary gender to be. It does not bother me. If it did, I would have corrected the greater public long ago. I apologize for not telling you directly until now.โ
โItโsโ okay,โ you reply. Perhaps a bit hurt. โI never asked. I justโ I just thought. Wrong.โ
(Please be kinder to yourself, he thinks. It hurts to see you saddened on my account.)
โNonsense,โ he laughs and gracefully takes the water you offer. He downs the glass down his parched throat. Heโ hadnโt realized how thirsty he was. โNo harm done. If anything, Iโm grateful that you now know.โ
(Regardless of how it could change your feelings toward him.)
Jing Yuan has tempered heartbreak for millenia. Another oneโ is not nothing, but it is manageable. Perhaps not during preheat, but he still has time to mourn.ย
โIโm glad too,โ you tell him, and squeeze back his hand. You only scent him sometimes, always so shy about it, but now you firmly rub the scent gland in your wrist against his. His aches, and the sensation and exchange of pheromones nearly makes him wheeze. He straightens his spine.ย
โWas thatโ?โ You almost pull away.
โNo, itโs very welcome.โ
You stare at him, intent and soft, before settling. Tentatively, you rub at the gland in gentle circles.
โYou should eat,โ you say after a moment. โDo you have an alpha I can call? Orโ um, anything you need me to pick up for you?โ
โI am fine.โ Jing Yuan will text Qingzu for the essentials, rather than troubling you. โIโll finish lunch with you, and then see myself home.โ
โ... No alpha to pick you up?โ
โNone to speak of, no.โ Jing Yuan manages a smile.
(It has beenโ centuries since Jing Yuan had an alpha to care for and stake a claim on him. The notion of finding another has been put out of his mind since he himself had to confine Dan Feng to the Shackling Prison and exile the man Yingxing became. Even after meeting them as they are today, Jing Yuan knows they are no longer his mates.)
โOh.โย
Every one of your emotions is so clearly on your face. You look so sad for him and you squeeze his hand. He has half a mind to pull away, and remind you that he does not need your worry. However, he is in pre-heat, and by Lan, he is craving worry.ย ย
โAnd... heatmates?โ You ask. โI donโt want to pry, but itโs hard to spend a heat alone.โ
โOnce again, none.โ Jing Yuan replies without hesitating. The silence that follows is poignant as you study him.ย
โI see.โ You frown again, clearly thinking. Jing Yuan can see the thoughts turning around just behind your eyes. You pile on even more fruits to his plate. โEat, eat. You need it.โ
โThis much fruit will give me a stomach ache, I fear.โ
โSome of it, at least!โ You huff at him. โFor me, please?โ
Jing Yuan meets your gaze, easy and soft. Thereโs no threat, only the heat that matches your scent and the feel that radiates in his chest.
(You are not his alpha. You are something entirely differentโ something that he wants so badly to hold.)
โFor you.โ
...
By the end of lunch (in which, Jing Yuan does manage to eat a decent amount of the fruit youโd put on his plate), Jing Yuanโs pre-heat has begun to simmer into a more uncomfortable territory. He desperately wants to shed his uniform and armor, and slip into a robe and no bottoms. He hasnโt begun to slick yet, but he will surely start to by sundown.
Jing Yuan stands after the meal, stretching. Itโs proper afternoon now, and the birds of the garden chirp eveningsong.ย
โJing Yuan?โ You ask as he stretches his arms above his head. His name sounds lovely in your mouth.
He hums, โYes?โ
โDo you want a heatmate?โ You ask quietly.ย
He looks at you.ย
Youโre fiercely meeting his gaze, even though youโre clearly struggling to. Your bottom lip is tucked between your teeth, and youโre fighting a frown from the crinkles on your forehead. Regardless, you stand your ground and ask a question that is surely difficult to broach, especially so directly.
โIโI am offering.โ You stammer. โTo clarify.โ
โTo be my heatmate?โ
โYesโ I hate to think of you suffering alone, Jing Yuan. If I can be by your side to ease it, if only a little, I would like to be.โ
โThat is very brave of you to ask.โ He smiles with a tilt of his head. โAnd bold.โ
โIโ Iโm being honest.โ You almost whine. Itโs so cute. โIs that a no?โ
โNo, not at all.โ Jing Yuan replies. โHowever, I wouldnโt want you to help solely for my benefit. If you wish to enter my nest exclusively to be an aid, and not out of... personal wants, I would feel guilty.โ
โItโsโ itโs personal wants too.โ
โ... Is it now?โ
โYes. Absolutely.โ
โEven though Iโm not an alpha, as you thought?โ
โYes.โ
โYouโre certain.โ
โ Yes, Jing Yuan.โย
โI cannot give you a knotโโ
โI do not need one!โ You break, much to Jing Yuanโs amusement. โI am happy to be by your side, regardless of that! If anything, Iโm more than happy to share a nest with you without the assurance of a limp and a potential pup.โ
Jing Yuan smiles, almost unrestrained, and your cheeks heat deliciously.ย
You stammer, and poke at his chest, โYouโre teasing meโ!โ
โI apologize, you must forgive meโโ
โ Rudeโ!โ
Your bury your face in his chest and nuzzle there. Itโsโ clearly a self soothing action, one you realize a moment too late isnโt quite proper. You stiffen, beginning to draw away, before Jing Yuan catches you by your scruff and holds you there.ย
โYouโre alright,โ He holds a wide palm there. โI apologize for teasing you. I mean so warmly.โ
โ... Scoundrel.โ The sound muffles into his chest.
โAm I?โ
You peer up at him, so warm in the cheeks and eyes... almost watery. Something in his chest feels sticky and molten.ย
โ Yesโโ You dare to meet his eyes again. โBut, one Iโm very fond of.โ
Jing Yuan steels himself.
You are an omega. It is not your pheromones addling his mind. There is clarity in the attraction and affection he has for you, one not influenced by the urge to be knotted and bred. Though, Jing Yuan wants that, maybe part of him needs it. There is a trunk full of toys and implements he has tucked away that will sate the urge. The feelings that he carries for you will not so easily be placated.
โI would like it very much if you were to share my heat with me,โ He speaks softly, just for the two of you to hear. Not even the garden birds will know his words. โIf you are still offering.โ
โYes,โ You say quickly, tentatively wrapping your arms around his waist. โYes.โ
He chuckles, easy and low, and presses his nose into your hair. Perhaps itโs pre-heat, making him sentimental and mushy. He usually hides out and bears it alone in his comfiest nest so these feelings typically do not get expressed in any other way other than delirious, anguished cries while a knotting toy takes the edge off.ย
Jing Yuan finds these are nice to indulge, as your scent envelopes him.
...
โI lied earlier,โ Jing Yuan says as you enter the threshold of his estate. โI apologize sincerely.โ
โOh?โ You ask with a tilt of your head, accepting a pair of house slippers eagerly. โ... What about?โ
โI am in pre-heat unexpectedly. Though I have been tapering suppressants for an anticipated heat, it has come far earlier than planned . Things are... not as I would like them. Youโll need to excuse me for a few moments.โ
Jing Yuan, like any omega, is particular about his home and nest, especially around his heat. He knows his home and inner chambers are not to his liking and heโll need to prepare them. Even if you arenโt an alpha entering his nest, you are a guest and companion he is very fond of. You deserve only the best.
โOf course, whatever you need,โ you assure him. โDo you need me to grab anything while you do so? I donโt mind running to the marketโโ
Jing Yuan turns on his heel, grabbing your arm firmly, โYouโre not leaving.โ
โO-Oh.โ
Your eyes widen, and heat rises in your cheeks. Your throat bobs as you swallow and nod. Jing Yuanโ were he not in pre-heat, would perhaps be a bit embarrassed by his brazeness. However, now? The idea of you leaving his home sends him reeling. You cannot leaveโ not until you smell like him and his nest. Not untilโ not until this is over.
โI sent a request to Qingzu to fetch us a few things during the walk over. Sheโll be here shortly. I do, however, have a bowl of fruit that could be cut up while I get myself sorted. How does that sound?โย
You nod eagerly, happy to follow instruction. Jing Yuan knows this about you and enjoys it thoroughly.
He sets you up in the kitchen with a bowl of sunsiettas, a box of meldberries, and a few bunches of perfectly ripe, round kaishen grapes. Jing Yuan leaves you to the task, which he can already tell you will do dutifully. You thrive off of praise and direction. Itโs a dangerous trait of an omega to carry, even more terrifying to hold openly as you do. Jing Yuan knows it has burned you before.
However, he intends to indulge you well and kindly, as it pleases him very much.
His mind, far-too warm and itchy, yearns to spin fantasies as he locks himself in his room with a shake of his head.ย
He must keep it together. Just for awhile longer. His bed isโ not a nest. Not the nest he wants (needs) it to be. His duvet, thick and luxurious as it is, needs a fluffing and a fresh scenting. His pillows are not arranged to his liking, and he needs to poke through his linen closet and add some extra layers as well. He needs to make sure thereโs lube nearby with clean toys. Water out. His phone charged and volume onโ (though, he already sent a message to Qingzu stating his heat has hit and heโll be out for at least a week. โDefer to Diviner Fu :3โ , which is Jing Yuanโs payment to Lady Fu for the list of errands he had sent her.)
Jing Yuan shakes his head with a laugh. The little alpha will certainly be pleased when she hear sheโll get to play General for a while.ย
Pre-heat drives him forward. He sheds his many layers (without aid, which is objectively a headache and he regrets not asking you for assistance initially. However, Jing Yuan is fairly certain that if he were to be fully bare around you, regardless of his pre- heat or not, he may jump you and drag you into his nestโ)
Pre-heat is also making him somewhat irrational.ย ย
He throws on his favored robe, a silken, cream-colored garment with delicate gold and red embroidery around the hems. The sleeves drape at his wrists and a sash ties it snugly around his waist. The itch thatโs been rolling around just under his skin feels duller, with the less restrictive garment. The fabric crosses over his chest in a way that is... revealing. Probably too revealing, under any other circumstance, especially given that you have never seen him in anything less than his daily regalia.ย
The thought of looking so indecent around you has its allure to it. One that Jing Yuan lets himself entertain with a smitten smile as he works.
He is attracted to you, surely. This he knows and has known.ย
Jing Yuan acknowledges that this is both emotional and physical. You are dear to him, truly. In a way that is unique to any of the connections, he holds in the present. Your presence is one he thoroughly enjoys, and, more than once, (many times), has craved during his late-evening ruminations in his courtyard. Heโ has thought about inviting you over, if for nothing else than a chat in the moonlight and tea or wine to your preference, howeverโ
He has always stopped himself.
Yearning, he will allow in the ways he has learned to manage it over the centuries. Small doses of longing that can be enjoyed and swallowed down, without festering. Being brazen with his wants and feelings is... slipperier. Especially concerning you, as you are dear to him, and Jing Yuan, for better or for worse, would like to share space with you for as long as he can manage.ย
This attraction is regardless of secondary gender.ย
Jing Yuan has not cared about secondary gender for a great while (since he shared a bed with a short-lived alpha and one of Longโs Scions, who, like all Vidyadhara, did not have a secondary gender at all.)ย
Your presentation as an omega was never a deterrent to him. If anything, it was something of a comfort. Jing Yuan was claimed long ago, and he knows that no alphaโs claim will feel the same as Yingxingโs and he wouldnโt want anyone, especially you, to attempt to emulate it. The ownership of a claim was not something he sought. Jing Yuan has had his heart broken enough for this lifetime. He is sure you could rend his heart asunder, however it would not be in the way of losing a mate that he is biologically tied to.ย
Statistically, Jing Yuan is lucky that such a loss did not cause him to become Mara struck five hundred years ago.
He is very content with whatever your relationship could become. If nothing else, the prospect of it allures him. Especially now that you know his presentation and clearly seem undeterred yourself. Ifโ if anything. Your scent calmed and cooled when heโd told you on the terraces.ย
Another thing that Jing Yuan will have to parse when he isnโt so wet that heโs leaving puddles in his wake.ย
For now, Jing Yuanโs nest is satisfactory aside from a few personal items.ย
Now, all itโs missing is you.ย
...
Jing Yuan does not find you in the kitchen, but rather the foyer, wishing Qingzu a goodbye with a wave and shout.ย
Jing Yuan mustโ
(Temper his instincts because you are far too close to the door and you need to be in his nest and his teeth need to be in you and his scent on youโ)
โJing Yuan,โ you say to him warmly, with a smile. There are a few canvas bags on your arms. โHow are you feelingโ?โ
Jing Yuan canโt stop himself from dragging you away from the tall set of doors and back to the kitchen. You squawk at his firmness, but donโt reject his touch. He helps you heft the bags onto a low table. His own arms shake, with both the strain and his own heat-induced weakness.
โItโs really progressing, huh?โ You tentatively raise a hand, and place it on his forearm to stroke there.
Jing Yuan practically purrs when you rub over the silken fabric, โIt is. Quickly. However, my nest and appropriate supplies are ready. Did Qingzu deliver all that I asked?โ
โIt seems so.โ
There areโ three more bottles of lube. A few pearly-looking medicine pills, a specialty item from the Alchemy Commission. Several stacks of ready-made meals and electrolyte powder. There are several vials of milky-looking oils he had her grab for more scandalous purposes as Jing Yuan would like to avoid any type of friction abrasion. Lastly, there are few unmarked boxes with new toys.
โYouโre so well-prepared.โ Your eyes are wide as you take stock of the haul. Jing Yuan bundles things into a basket and ushers you to his nest.
โI have gone through many heats,โ he chuckles. โI have learned the best tricks.โ
โI-I can see.โ
As you enter his bedroom, you stare at his nest with wide eyes. You jump when Jing Yuan locks the door.
โ... Is that alright?โ Jing Yuan asks.
โYes, yes, of course. I justโโ You swallow. โI havenโt ever helped another omega through a heat. If you have any pointers or preferences, let me know while youโre still in your full mind, please? Iโd like to make this as comfortable for you as possible.โ
Jing Yuan thinks for a moment. With a tilt of his head, he rests his hands on your shoulders. Your scent is spiced, a bit nervous, but also undeniably aroused. Your gaze darts down to his exposed collarbones and chest, then quickly back up to his eyes. Heat rises fiercely in your cheeks.ย
โYour presence will be helpful in and of itself,โ he assures you with a squeeze. Carefully, he hooks his thumbs on your outer garment and pulls it down, undoing buttons and ties along the way. Your lips part, breath hot. โIโll guide you as I need. My heats tend to be mild, though they do last a full week. There will be lulls, which I tend to be quite worn out during. Iโll need your assistance more than anything.โ
You nod, taking in his response.ย
Jing Yuanโ heโs holding it together. Slick is beginning to drip down his inner thighs and thereโs an ache in his core that feels heavier and hotter by the minute. However, he does want to do this part slowly. He prides himself on his patience. Piece by piece, he takes off your day clothes and tosses them into his nest. Without them, your scent is stronger. Your neck is bare from any topical or adhesive blockers.
โDuring the rest of it though?โ You ask, softly. โWhen youโre in the throes of it.โ
Jing Yuan hums, letting a shaking hand rest on the curve of your waist, โIโm not certain. Itโs been quite some time since Iโve shared a heat with anyone.โ
โ... Really?โ
โYes.โ Jing Yuan presses his lips to your forehead without thinking. The heat of it, of you, sinks into his own. He feels like heโs going to burn up. โDoes that surprise you?โ
โYes.โ You answer, and push yourself closer to his neck. Your lips part to taste his scent on the back of your tongue. โYou are a catch. I know you have quite the lineup of suitors... I just assumed.โ
โYou also assumed I was an alpha.โ
โThe General is a skillful liar.โ
Jing Yuan clicks his tongue, sliding a hand below your last garments. Satin, lacey things that are almost sheer. Thin. He could tear them easily, but doesnโt. His touch lingers.
โ Jing Yuan,โ he reminds you. You stammer before pitching into him. He carefully walks the two of you backwards. His legs are close to giving out. โAnd Iโd like to think of it as a skillful withholding of unnecessary information.โ
โ Jing Yuan is very good with his words,โ You murmur into the soft skin of his neck, lingering around one of the scent glands there. They ache, sore and unstimulated.
So carefully, you stretch up on your tiptoes to nose at one of them. Your scents bloom together and his eyes almost roll back into his head at the meld of it, the relief and rush of connection.ย
Itโs the last push Jing Yuan needs before dragging you into his nest with a stifled moan. Coherency is shattered and all he can do is crave, crave, crave.
...
You are a good heatmate.
Astoundingly good. Attentive, kind, and so soft. Itโs a relief to Jing Yuan, whoโs heat-addled mind is so used to loneliness and cold. You do not have the scent or knot of an alpha, but youโre more than enough. Itโs presence and comfort in a way Jing Yuan so, so missed. Itโs enough in a different wayโ and that difference is good.ย
(You are not Yingxing or Dan Feng, and Jing Yuan is grateful that you arenโt.)
Jing Yuan finds himself on his back, with you wrapped around him. You let him pillow his cheek against your collarbone. His nose presses against your scent gland, and he pants against it with an open mouth and spit slicked lips. Your hand lays over his chest, cupping his breast while gently thumbing over his nipple. Heโs so swollen there, aching.
He cries out as you pinch, as if it could relieve any of the pressure roiling around under his skin.
You curl closer into him with your lips against his temple. โDoes that feel good?โ
He can only keen and hope you understand that itโs a plea for more.ย
You must because a moment later youโre squeezing with your entire hand. Itโsโ too big of a handful for you. Your fingers are soft and your touch gentle. The visual of the plump flesh of his chest bulging out from between your fingers rewires Jing Yuanโs brain for a craving he never knew possible. A rush of slick gushes from his cunt andโ itโs so much. He lurches into your neck, licking blindly at your scent gland. Vaguely, he notices you stiffen and your scent grows a little sharper.ย
Itโs worry. Jing Yuan canโt have that.
With every ounce of his strength, Jing Yuan rolls you below him, and sits on your hips. You let him, so pliant and agreeable, and lay below him. Jing Yuanโs breath catches and drool slips to the corners of his mouth.
You are beautiful. You look debauched, and youโre not the one in heat. Youโre flushed and damp with sweat, just as he is. The robe heโd draped you in is mostly open, revealing supple skin and your last bastion of modesty in the form of a cute pair of panties that Jing Yuan will fantasize about later.ย
You look up at him in awe, lust-hazed just like him. Thereโs little composure to be had as your fists ball up in the sheets around his thighs. Your gaze goes glassy as you look from his face down to where heโs seated atop you and back again.
โNo teeth,โ he assures you. It is the last coherent thought he has, if only to provide your some comfort.
You look up at him sweetly and nod, grabbing the plump flesh above his hips. โNo teeth.โ
(A claim wouldnโt take, anyway. Not really. Omega-to-omega pairings lack the necessary pheromones to stake a claim on each other. The most it would do would indicate that whoever has been bitten is a submissive-leaning packmate. Whichโ Jing Yuan actually would not mind biting you. He would like his teeth in your neck if you would ever allow him.)
He groans at the thought, lowering his head as a silver mane of hair spills around his face.
Jing Yuan is drenched and hard, leaking from the tip of his cock and seam of his cunt. Itโsโ filthy. Youโre soaked too, with a mix of him and undoubtedly yourself too, though Jing Yuan canโt scent it over the smell of his own heat. Itโs regrettable as he is sure the mix of you must be divine. Heavenly.ย
He wants it in his mouth.
Jing Yuan slinks down your body, licking and sucking at patches of your skin. You try to bat him off, haul him up and away from your own leaking sex, but he resists. He needs a taste or heโll die, probably. His heat can be quelled in a number of ways, he presumes.
With his face buried in your cunt, surrounded by your scent, the ache for a knot is dulled. When you cry out on his tongue, it is almost deafened.
Jing Yuan drinks you upโ he should pay more mind to your clit, probably, if he wants to get you off properly. However, he is so immensely distracted by your entrance and the essence of you thatโs leaking out. Thereโs a rapidly widening damp spot beneath your ass. A steady flow that Jing Yuan needs in him.ย
He seals his mouth over your cunt, and prods his tongue inside of you. He presses so close, suffocating with his nose tight to your clit, to lap at your insides.ย
Youโ you wail above him. Your hands bury in his increasingly tangled mess of hair for any sort of leverage. Jing Yuan doesnโt let up; he doesnโt think he can. Your tone crashes into one thatโs softer, more airy, begging for more. For less. Jing Yuan canโt entirely tell. He isnโt sure he cares, truthfully. All he knows is that your thighs tighten around his head with each suck and slurp.
The sound of it is heavenly.
Your thighs press around his face. Flush to his cheeks are the scent glands in the apex of your inner thighs. Not everyone has them, as theyโre something of a recessive trait among all secondary genders. The scent that comes off them is your own, however muskier and deeper. It sticks to the inside of his nose and pours down his throat like a nectar. You mewl when he breaks away to lap at one, coaxing out more of the scent. He gluts himself on it.
He needs, he needs, he needs.
โJing Yuan,โ you pant above him, propping yourself up with one arm while the other blindly reaches among his nest. โDo you need it? Knot?โ
Heโย
(He needs to be filled. He isnโt picky if that feeling is quenched with his cunt, ass, throat, or nose. The scent of you is almost enough, even if he clenches down on nothing and feels hollow in his belly. The sensations are so dull with you nearby. He feels heat incensed, but in a way that craves closeness with you and not the manic pursuit of a knot.)
Itโs refreshing. Jing Yuan regrets not propositioning you for this treatment sooner.
โAre you offering?โ Jing Yuan purrs. He places his thumbs over the scent glands of your inner thighs and presses down on the swell of them, just under your skin.
Your back bends off the bed and you throw your hand over your mouth. Teary eyes meet him and you nod. From the folds of the nest, you pull forth a knotting toy with a shaking grip.ย
Itโs beautiful for a toy. Itโs a model that Jing Yuan had seen in a few high-end adverts on the few social medias he moonlighted on. Itโs a flesh-like plastic cock, with an inflatable knot at the base. A little, wired remote drags along the blankets of his nest as you hold the phallus out to him. The plastic of the toy is a light gold, cut with veins of blue. It looks otherworldly and unreal. Jing Yuan has never cared for much realism with his toys, though this one is human enough.ย
He makes a mental note to get Qingzu a bouquet for purchasing it for him on such short notice.ย
The head of it feels cool against his cunt. Itโs a welcome sensation as it feels like his body is burning up from the insight. He lays over you, wrestling you a bit to be flat below him, with his thighs caging yours. He growls when you try to grab the toy from his hands to assist.
It makes you pause.
Your soft palms cup his cheeks, โDo you not want me to help?โ
โThe angleโโ The angle wonโt be right, Jing Yuan wants to say. His words feel lost in his throat as he slowly begins to push inside himself. He gasps and tries to duck into your neck, to like and suck at the gland there and feast on your scent.
โI can tryโ?โ
โ No.โย
Jing Yuan wants you just like this. In his nest, smelling like him and arousal and safety. The toy thatโs sliding into his cunt is mostly irrelevant, as is the twitch of his cock as he slowly and methodically fucks the toy into himself. Little by little, he bullies it into his underused hole. The stretch isโ is not bad. It would be far more uncomfortable if he werenโt in heat and pouring slick.ย
You ask more quietly, just as he bottoms out. You still havenโt let go of his face. โAre you sure?โย
He is, but he canโt find the words to say so. Instead, he nods and tucks himself closer to you. You pet down the back of his neck and push on his scent glands. They ache with his heat. The pressure and direct contact makes him grunt as he adjusts to the toy in his cunt.
You hush him and nuzzle in his cheeks, โYouโre doing so well. So good, Jing Yuan.โ
He keens and pulls back the toy cock, only to shove it back into himself a moment later. Praise from you is a drug. Heโs sure. Youโre unbearably earnest and sweet and you are too kind to him. You whisper more of them into his ear as he fucks himself, deep and slow. He feels the sentiment of your words more than he hears it. Deeply affectionate and caring. If he were more lucid, he would be disarmed by you, speechless even. Perhaps he is already speechless, but he blames that on the heat haze and how the head of the toy is pressing deliciously into his sweet spot.
He narrows his focus on the spot and fucks him on the toy in earnest.
Jing Yuan will have an arm ache after this. Many aches, actually. It will be worth it. It is easiest to bear with you underneath him, tilting your hips up to grind against his dripping cock. Itโs not the friction his body craves, but itโs welcome. It sends sparks down his spine and he whines into your neck.ย
You nip at his neck, high on the side of it, and Jing Yuan lets loose a cracking moan. Itโs almost embarrassingly loud. Were Jing Yuan able to feel shame in that moment, heโd be red-faced.
Instead, he tips his head to the side, allows you room to mouth and suck marks as you desire. You catch on quickly, and hum, licking broad stripes and soaking him in your scent. Your marks. It surrounds him.
He fucks himself on the toy faster.
(Itโs nothing like the heats he had while he was mated with Yingxing and Dan Feng. Not at all. They were shorter, back then. Perhaps it was his youth or the relentless pace and haze Yingxing kept that burned Jing Yuan out faster. Or, maybe it was that Dan Feng always made sure he was wrung out, despite not craving him in the same way Yingxing had. It was carnal then. It still is now, but it does not feel as manic. You are gentle without qualifiers, sweet without expectation, and happy to let him rut into you and back onto the toy as much as he pleases. Your kisses are bruising, but not bloody like Dan Fengโs. Thereโs a different pace, a different scent, and a different intent.)
Jing Yuan once enjoyed the desperation that Yingxing put into everything he did (including him). He had fallen in love with Dan Feng for his poetics and distanced care. You have neither of these. It is unfair, ultimately, for Jing Yuan to draw comparison.ย
Perhaps, heโll feel guilty over it later. For now, his arm gives out and he falls into your chest with a keen. His back arches, hips raised, and the new angle is so, so good. You run your hands through his hair, and move your thigh, just right, so he can grind on it to his heartโs content.
Heโs close; he can feel it in his belly.
What sends him over the edge is the feel of your lips against his hairline, the way your lips have curled into a soft, easy smile as you kiss him there. You stroke down his back, like how a good lover would.
You are a good lover.ย
He shudders as orgasm grips him. The sound that rips from his throat is shattering, as overwhelming as the heat that boils over in his guts. And you are such a good lover, that the little remote must have already been in your hand, as in the moment he comes, the knotted base of the toy begins to swell. Jing Yuan canโtโ canโt chase his orgasm. He can feel his eyes growing wet while his body feels out of his control (he hates that, he really does). You, however, are a good lover and reach and stretch, matching his angle with the toy and fuck him through it yourself. The knot catches once inside him, then a second time, and with the third, it locks him and the toy together.
And with what can only be called a sob, Jing Yuan fully collapses on top of you.
He canโt keep himself upright, he realizes. His thighs tremble terribly, and his arms are the same. His eyes are filled with tears he didnโt expect and doesnโt know what to do with. It feels vulnerable. Too vulnerable, in a way that Jing Yuan has avoided for centuries now.ย
Before the feeling can consume him, youโre coaxing him onto his side and wrapping yourself around him. A sheet gets pulled atop the both of you and youโre nosing into him wherever you can.
โItโs okay,โ You tell him. โYouโre okay, I promise.โ
A muffled sound that comes from your throat, followed by the low roll of a purr.ย
Oh.ย
All for him?
He shoves himself closer, skin to skin in all the spots he can reach. His tongue laves at your scent glands as his cunt flutters around the toy. He claws at your back before locking his arms around your waist.ย
Youโre purring for him.
He can help but do the same, even chirping without meaning to as he nips at your jaw. Jing Yuan trails his lips to your cheek, then the corner of your mouth. You curl and laugh at his touch, and Jing Yuan steals the lovely sounds from you with a kiss. Itโs something deep and consuming, and Jing Yuan needs more of the taste of you. You squirm into it, gasping and opening your mouth for him to explore as he needs. Your openness continues to undo him.ย
Itโs all the reassurance he needs. Any poisonous feelings fall away, and Jing Yuan, for the first time in far too long, finds himself content and knotted.ย
...
Jing Yuan has never had a heat quite like this one.
It is certainly more mild, and certainly a bit shorter than what he was expecting. The worst of it lasts five days, followed by three days that he canโt quite call post-heat. Though the desire in him is less feverish, he still craves your presence so much it hurts, and the idea of you being out of his nests sends him into a toothy panic those days. The โno teethโ rule is modified to allow some biting, as long as it doesnโt involve any scent glands.
(However, Jing Yuan still would not mind putting a claiming bite on you. He makes a note to bring this up when heโs feeling some clarity of mind and can... attempt to court you properly.)
The most intense days of his heat are spent with a knotting toy in his cunt, rutting against your soft thighs, or with your hands wrapped around his cock. He eats you out whenever he can muster up the energy to shimmy between your legs and luxuriate there. Any down time is spent dozing in the warm sun rays that his bedroom is perfectly placed to receive.ย
The latter days of his heat, Jing Yuan is more lucid.ย
Itโs in those days he truly enjoys his heat. Though the burn of arousal still lays within him, it is easily tempered with your presence in his nest and your many shared bite marks. Your time awake is spent lazily kissing, speaking in low voices, and sharing laughter and cups of cool water, one after the other.ย
Jing Yuan, partially, did not think he would ever get to experience this type of connection again. with you or any other partner. The intimacy of the act is so deeply vulnerable, and after the spiritual loss of both Yingxing and Dan Feng, he never endeavored, or wanted to endeavor to, open himself up in that way again.
He, perhaps, convinced himself he did not need to.
(Nevermind the many nights, both heat-addled and otherwise, Jing Yuan spent craving nesting companions. Nevermind how many nights Jing Yuan lay alone, accepting his losses and mourning mates heโd never hold again. Jing Yuan could never choose to be selfish.)
It helped when Yanqing was little. He was just a small pup with golden eyes like Jing Yuanโs and a fiery spirit, even when he was so small. Jing Yuan had never considered himself maternal, however having a pup to take care of brought out latent instincts heโd spent the better part of his life pretending didnโt exist. As Yanqing aged, however, he was less receptive to such affections and connections. After presenting (far too young, poor thing, traumatized body), Yanqing wouldnโt share a nest with Jing Yuan unless he fell ill. Even then, Jing Yuan would have to coax him into it.
It quenched something in him. It allowed Jing Yuan to let himself care in the direct way he craved. With his position as General, how often does get to show care with his hands, and not with his words or stratagems? Not with sacrifice or poetry, but with his body and scent.ย
Jing Yuan realizes now that there truly have been so many urges and behaviors Jing Yuan simply did not indulge.
And as his heat breaks, Jing Yuan thinks heโd like to start indulging them more.
...
On the last day of his heat, you stir around nightfall. You are exhausted, Jing Yuan knows this. Though his heat has provided him with a surprising amount of stamina, you are in standard condition, and looked wrung out halfway through day two of his heat. Jing Yuanโs grateful youโre as fond of midday naps as he is.ย
You are cradled against his chest, your cheek pillows on his breast. Heโd thrown a robe on while washing up, and hadnโt elected to remove it. The silky texture of it feels lovely against his flushed, sensitive skin. You seem to enjoy it too as you grip at the fabric of it in your sleep, nuzzling into his chest.
Your brow scrunches and a little sound pops from your throat as you try to burrow closer. Itโs a hopelessly sweet gesture, desperate and honest. Jing Yuan canโt help but chuckle and smooth a hand over your mussed-up hair.
When your eyes crack open, your voice is raw, โโS morning?โ
โNo, nighttime.โ Jing Yuan nods to the darkened window.
You raise yourself up just enough to look, hum, and then fall back on top of him, โFeels like it should be morning.โ
โWe havenโt been keeping a very consistent sleeping schedule,โ Jing Yuan rarely does, but he imagines that you and your position with the Sky Faring Commission have quite a regular routine. โYou can keep resting.โ
โI donโt wannaโ,โ Though, you shove your nuzzle into his chest, smearing him with your scent. โI wanna stay up and talk to you.โ
โMe?โ Jing Yuan smiles, smitten. He pinches your cheek. โAbout anything in particular?โ
โ... Not yet.โ Your eyes slip closed. โMaybe later. I want to say things to you, but I feel... mushy. Inside my head.โ
โPheromone drunk?โ
โโSomething like that,โ Your words slur. โNot that Iโm complaining. You smell so good, Jing Yuan.โ
When you say his name, he shudders. The hand thatโs been playing with your hand slips to your nape and squeezes. You keen at the contact and tangle your legs with his. Itโs an impossible amount of closeness you are seeking, but Jing Yuan must attempt to give it to you. Itโs abashed and honest, and in the stillness of night, how can he not indulge?
โDo I?โ
โ Mhm.โ
โLike what?โย
Youโre falling asleep, clearly. Youโre struggling to keep your eyes open even as you inhale deeply. Your lips part and you take his scent into your mouth.ย
โEarth after rain,โ You hum. โSunbeam and linen. Warm milk.โ
He squeezes you.
(A long time ago, Yingxing had complained about his scent. โComplainedโ. His face had been flushed crimson, telling him how distracting his sweet, rich scent had been. Dan Feng thought it was the funniest thing, considering Yingxing so clearly enjoyed Jing Yuanโs scent, as did he. Theyโd described it similarlyโ โpetrichorโ Dan Feng had told Jing Yuan while sweeping his mane back from his neckโ โthe smell of sunshineโ Yingxing had told Jing Yuan after berating him.)
โHow complementary.โ Jing Yuan purrs and pulls you closer by the waist. Your face is smushed against his chest, but you donโt complain. You keep your lips parted to enjoy his scent. โAnd you like it?โ
โSo much,โ You assure him, droopy-eyed.ย
So good for him, so so good.
Jing Yuan presses the tip of his finger to your lips, a bit chapped from the dehydration and exertion. You chirp with it, a bit more awake.
He hushes you, and pushes his finger further into his mouth, โSleep now, dear. You need to rest.โ
โโSo do yaโ,โ You try to say, though it comes out garbled as Jing Yuan lays his finger on the flat of your tongue. Your eyes widen and go a bit crossed to look at his wrist, then up to his eyes.ย
Jing Yuan isnโt entirely sure what compels him, but something does. Gently, he leans down and presses his lips to your forehead. He idles there, and pets down your side.
โIโll sleep soon, Iโm sure you know.โ Jing Yuan says softly. โWill you indulge me?โ
(He asks to be selfish.)
Without hesitating, you nod.
(And you let him.)
Jing Yuan doesnโt explain himself. He doesnโt need to. Maybe itโs the specific sweetness his scent must take on, or the night air in contrast to the warmth and comfort of his nest, but you understand what he wants and give it to him without so much as a word.
Your lips open a little wider and Jing Yuan slips another finger inside. You stroke your tongue on his fingers as you close your mouth, eyes going dazed and heavy-lidded. You take a deep breath, inhaling his scent into the deepest parts of your lungs. You suck on his fingers gently.ย
Jing Yuan watches with still, even breaths.
Later, he will analyze why this scratches so many itches in his brain. Why his post-heat mind feels more calm and sated than he thought possible. Why he wants more of this, always, even if he doesnโt have a name for it yet.
For now, he is so, so content to have you this way. You are lulled back to sleep so easily, sucking on his fingers with your cheek still smushed against his breast. Even as you sleep, Jing Yuan doesnโt remove his fingers. He explores the inside of your mouth with gentle, easy pressure, so as to not wake you. Itโs exploratory, more than anything.ย
He plays with you in such a way until heโs too drowsy to continue. Satisfied and warm, he drags you under the covers and holds you close, scenting you one last time before letting himself fall into a contented, new kind of sleep.
...
You depart suddenly, while Jing Yuan is in the kitchen deftly chopping fruits and assembling little parfaits.ย
You had been in his bathroom, freshening up with whatever products youโd like from his stash. Jing Yuan had left you your own robe for when you exited, quietly beaming that heโd have yet another article with your scent on it.
However, when you do leave the bathroom, you are fully dressed in the day clothes you arrived in a week ago. You stand at the doorway of his kitchen, pausing, wide-eyed.
โI n-need to go,โ Your voice wavers, like youโre going to be ill.
Something squeezes in between Jing Yuanโs ribs. There are thin, transparent patches on your neck on either side. Scent blockers. Your eyes look watery. Jing Yuan immediately sets down the knife he had been working with.
โIs everything alright?โ asks Jing Yuan. He knows something is wrong, even if he canโt smell you, youโre clearly distressed and disheveled.
โItโsโ itโs nothing. Itโll be okay.โ You tell him. Your voice trembles and you shake your head.ย
โAre you sure? I can help.โ
โItโsโ itโs really nothing. I need to leave. I-Iโm really sorry.โ
You look from him to the foyer that leads to his front door and back again. Thereโs a desperate look in your eye that Jing Yuan has never seen with such an intensity before. It makes his heart ache and his hands feel clammy. He sighs.
(And a quiet, ever-present voice in his mind says, โthey all leave, eventually.โ)
โAlright.โ Jing Yuan gives you a smile, the best he can muster. He knows it must be sadder than intended, as your expression falls and you look like youโve been punched.ย
โIโm so s-sorry.โ
โItโs alright,โ It isnโt. Not fully. โHandle whatever it is that you must. Iโm only a call away. If you need anything, please donโt hesitate to contact me.โ
โOkay.โ You take a shaking breath and shudder out the exhale. Youโre trying not to cry and it takes everything in Jing Yuanโs being not to rush to you and attempt to mend whatever is causing you distress butโ
(He canโt. He canโt do that. You have asked him to leave you be and Jing Yuan has spent his entire life honing his ability not to chase, even when he so, so badly wishes to.)
You give him one final, fleeting look, โThank you. Iโ Iโll see you at our next lunch, okay? Iโm sorry.โ
It looks like thereโs more you want to say, but youโre already out the door before you can. Jing Yuan hears it open and shut with a soft thud that vibrates throughout his home. It leaves Jing Yuan standing alone in his kitchen, frozen, while the robe he wears slips down his shoulders. He bears your marks, and reeks of your scent. His nest grows colder each minute. And though his heat has ended, the yearning for you has not.
If anything, the feeling is far stronger than it was before.
He latches onto the fact you will have your lunches. Thatโ he will find some clarity then. That he can inspect you for damage during the next sunshine-filled meal you share, and prod to see if the last week and half did not carry the same type of... meaning for you, as it did Jing Yuan. He will need to make sure youโre well. Heโll fret until then, he knows this.
(A more dormant, possessive part of him wishes he snatched you back from his foyer and threw you back into his nest. If something was wrong, he could. If something needed fixing, he could help. If it were anything official for your work, Jing Yuan would pull any and all strings to get you out of the obligation. If you were hurt, Jing Yuan would do anything to see you better.)
Instead, Jing Yuan idles in his kitchen, feeling struck and helpless. Something in him aches, deep and low, and Jing Yuan lays a hand over his chest and squeezes it into a fist. He had thought he had become used to this type of loneliness, but it aches all the same.
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I haven't seen many post or descriptions on certain asteroids,( especially s3x ones) and I think it's fun how astrology can tell you how your whole body, mind and soul operates!! WITH THAT BEING SAID WELCOME TO MY SEX ROOOMMM JK LOL!!โค๏ธโ๐ฅ my aqaurius moon and aries sun is talking! LOL ๐
I'll be descriptive as possible when talking about these asteroids. If your offended or uncomfortable about these things then click off. It's important you keep in mind that I'm going off of my own intuitive mind and my personal wisdom. This is how I think placements would manifest in the physical. BTW I'm always right,๐คฃ ย just a disclaimer!!
( da pics from pinterest)
Every vagina is beautiful just as flowers ๐ธ
โกโกใASTEROID KLET (2199)ใโกโก
โก TYPE IN ASTRO.COM
โก PRESS ON THE THREE LITTLE BARS IN TOP SCREEN IT'LL BE ON THE UPPER LEFT CORNER
โก PRESS ON FREE HOROSCOPES
โก AT THE VERY BOTTOM PRESS "HOROSCOPE DRAWING & DATA"
โก PRESS "EXTENDED CHART SELECTION "
โก TYPE IN BIRTH INFO
โก SCROLL DOWN TO VERY BOTTOM YOU SHOULD SEE A TEXT BOX (IT SAYS MANUAL ENTRY) ENTER "2199"
โก SHOW CHART
โก LOOK FOR KLET IN THE HOUSE, DEGREE, AND SIGN
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โค๏ธโ๐ฅ๐โ๏ธ๐KLET is basically feminine sexuality, it can also represent how your vagina might look like certain special features etc. (EACH DESCRIPTION WILL VARY BASED OFF OF ETHNICITY/ GENETICS). I would even associate it with how others perceive your sexuality and how your vagina๐ฆ๐ฅ performs during sex. Oh and of course the kletโclit.๐บ What does it take for her to get stimulated? ๐ธ๐ฎ๐
KLET IN ARIES โ:
โค๏ธโ๐ฅ you could like to take control or you like very dominate partners
โค๏ธโ๐ฅyou are seen as someone who is very sexually active or very sexy in the eyes of others
โค๏ธโ๐ฅ your sexuality can be quite domineering in the bedroom
Channeled song:
๐your vagina might be warm or either Hella tight because aries is about war and friction it just gives me those vibes for some reason
๐men could get easily intimidated with your vagina
๐ raw and rough sex
๐your vagina may have a red hue to it
๐ big sexual appetite
๐ to get the clit stimulated you might have to use a lot of force
๐ doesn't take long for you to climax
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KLET IN TAURUS โ:
๐งก YOUR SEXUALITY IS VERY SENSUAL AND PLEASURABLE
๐งก MONEY & STABILITY COULD LITERALLY MAKE YOU ๐ฆ๐ฆ
๐งกATTRACT MEN WHO ARE WEALTHY OR HAVE THE POTENTIAL TO BE
๐งก YOU MOST LIKELY DONT LIKE CASUAL SEX YOU WANT IT WITH SOMEONE YOU COULD BUILD WITH AND WHO IS COMMITTAL
Channeled Song:
๐ ( could have really pink/brownish hues)
๐ you might have a more fatty vagina could have more skin like an outie or something like that
๐ I feel like yall need to get ate out since Taurus rules the mouth and throat
๐ you are what you eat ๐๐๐
๐ also you kinda like to be teased and worked up slowly to stimulation
๐ you might prefer head over intercourse
๐during sex you like to be kissed as well as your ๐ฑ
๐might take longer for you to orgasm
๐ your clit gets stimulated with someone giving you mouth action
๐ slow and steady wins the race ๐ฆ๐ฆ
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KLET IN GEMINI โ
๐ KNA YALL KNOW GEMINI IS THE LOVERS CARD IN Tarot SO STOP TALKING SHIIIII ABOUT GEMINIS
๐ yall have a very youthful young and free teen ager type vibe of sexuality
๐" once you have my mind you got my cookie"
๐you play mind games on men and make them think they gone get sum
๐pure sexuality and curiosity about sex
Channeled Song
Positions-Ariana Grandรฉ
๐ฑ your vagina could look very new or versatile that's the best way ik how to put it (hope it makes sense ๐)
๐ฑthis sounds weird but give this a try let your partner talk to your ๐ฑ listen your coochie is a living entity too. So let your partner whisper to her let him blow some air on that kitty ๐คญ๐น (gemini is a air sign, words of affirmation is key!)
๐ฑvery experimental in sex
๐ฑchanging positions
๐ฑ I feel like whoever yall have sex with you take a piece of their brain ๐ง
๐ฑ speak affirmations on your womb it could really benefit
๐ฑ I think yall like an equal give and take in the bedroom
๐ฑ to stimulate the clit your partner might have to change up their motion if ya know what I mean ๐ซ๐
๐ฑ clit gets stimulate through being talked through orgasm
Aka I'm here for a good time not a long time- Gemini in klet ๐ฑ
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KLET IN CANCER โ:
๐ธ "SLIPPERY EXCUSE ME PLEASE ME" ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฆ
๐ธ "69": BY TEYANA TAYLOR
๐ธ YA'LL SEXUALITY IS LIKE I JUST WANT TO LOVE YOU
๐ธ ITS GIVING VERY SENSUAL AND CUTE
๐ธ MOTHERING TYPE
๐ธCOULD COME OFF AS CUTESY OR INNOCENT THIS COULD BE APART OF YOUR FEMININE SEXUAL ENERGY
๐ธ YALL LIKE YOUR BOOBIES SUCKED ON
๐ธ NIPPLE STIMULATION ๐ฎโ๐จ
๐ธ VERY BEAUTIFUL SEXUAL ENERGY AND MOON LIKE
Channeled Songs:
๐your vagina may look very moist
๐fertile looking ?
๐pretty p*ssy fr fr
๐ may get a lot of compliments on how wet it is
๐ may get stimulated when you have an emotional connection with your partner
๐ you definitely don't like casual sex / one night stands
๐ breeding kink ??
๐you might get alot of men who try to get you pregnant on purpose
๐ yall can be freaks ONCE YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE
๐ 69 ??
๐ your womb wants to have sex with men who feel like home
๐ p*ssy fairy ๐งโโ๏ธ
๐ typical for yall to have sex with someone you see yourself being married to and having kids with
๐ clit gets stimulated by foreplay & touch โ๐ฝ
๐they can get turned on when they are able to nurture their partner
๐ Cancerians need someone they feel emotionally secure with but they really are very sexual and once they feel comfortable with you anything you do is a turn on ๐ซ๐ฎโ๐จ
( this my placement btw)๐๐
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KLET IN LEO โ:
๐ฑRAW SEXUALITY
๐ฑBIG CLIT QUEEN ENERGY ๐
๐ฑ YOU MAY GIVE OFF PORN STAR VIBES THATS NOT A BAD THING PEOPLE MAY JUST SEE YOU AS VERY BEAUTIFUL AND ATTRACTIVE
๐ฑ YALL HAVE A PRAISE KINK FASHO
๐ฑ HAIR PULLING AND A** SLAPPING
Channeled Song:
Private Show - T.I.
๐CASUAL SEX
๐LIKES FLIRTING
๐DEFINITELY GOT SIDE PIECES
๐GOLDEN P*SSY
๐ VERY SHINY & WARM VAGINA
๐ DEFINITELY BEAUTIFULLLLLL
๐ LET THE SUN HIT YOUR VAGINA SINCE LEO IS RULED BY THE SUN
๐YALL HAVE VERY PASSIONATE
๐ yall need to be praised perioddd
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KLET IN VIRGO โ:
๐ "THIS P*SSY BOUGIE, THIS P*SSY DONT DO NO FAVORS"
๐ VIRGO VIRGO VIRGO YALL HAVE A VERY WHOLESOME SEXUALITY
๐ LIKE I WONT HAVE SEX WITH YOU UNTIL I KNOW YOUR CLEAN AND HAVE NO STDS
๐BUT IF YOU PROVE TO THEM YOU ARE YOU CAN EXPECT THEM TO REALLY PLEASE YOU ๐
๐VIRGO IS ALL ABOUT SERVICING OTHERS BUT THEY ARE VERY ANALYTICAL ABOUT WHO THEY GIVE THAT SERVICE TO
๐THEY CAN COME OFF AS RESERVED THEREFORE EITHER IT'S LIKE THEY ARE THE ONE THAT CANT BE TOUCHED
Channeled Song
๐ฎITS TIGHT AND RIGHT
๐ฎ HIGH MAINTENANCE
๐ฎDEFINITELY A PAMPERED KITTY
๐ฎ YALL PARTNERS DEFINITELY LIKE TO DO THE SMALL THINGS TO PLEASE YOU
๐ฎLIKE KISSING YOU AND MAKING SURE YOUR OK
๐ฎ YOU ALSO TAKE CARE OF YOUR PARTNER
๐ฎ CONNECT TO EARTH .
๐ฎYOU MAY GET TURNED ON WHEN YOU SEE YOUR PARTNER WORKING HARD TO PLEASE YOU
๐ฎ A LOT DAILY SEX TOO๐
๐ฎsex could calm the nerves for ya'll
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KLET IN LIBRA โ:
๐คTHIS IS THE TYPE OF SEXUALITY WHERE YOUR JUST BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE THATS THE VIBE YOU GIVE OFF
๐ค PEOPLE COULD APPROACH WHEN YOU SHOW OFF YOUR FEMININE SIDE
๐ค VERY PRETTY DOWN THERE
๐ค MAYBE PINK OR JUST AN EVEN TONE
๐ค YOU ATTRACT A LOT OF PEOPLE IN GENERAL
๐คIF YOUR LOOKING JUST TO BRING IN SEXUAL PARTNERS EMBODY YOUR LIBRA ENERGY
Channeled Song
๐ค whenever you have sex with partners they probably feel like your yoni is perfect
๐คequal give and take in the bedroom
๐ค I feel like yall get stimulated by a beautiful environmental and feeling appreciated
๐คdepending on what degree/house klet is in could give more insight because libra is such a balanced sign
๐ค you don't like it too slow or too fast just in middle to enjoy the act, may be into a lil rough stuff tho....๐
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KLET IN SCORPIO โ:
โค๏ธ DARK AND SULTRY SEXUAL ENERGY
โค๏ธ FIERY & PASSIONATE
โค๏ธ YALL WANT TO FEEL CONNECTED AND INTENSE DEVOTION
โค๏ธSOME MIGHT SEE YOU AS A MYSETERY OR WONDER WHAT SEX WITH YOU IS LIKE
โค๏ธ SEX WITH ME - RIHANNA IS YALL CHANNELED SONG ๐๐ฆ
โค๏ธTABOO/ SEX MAGIC THINGS LIKE THAT
โค๏ธ IF LILITH IS ASPECTJNG THIS YOU MIGHT FEEL EVEN MORE DARKER OR ASHAMED FOR YOU SEXUALITY
โค๏ธ LIKE ARIES PARTNERS MAY EITHER BE INTIMIDATED OR THEY COULD BE INTRIGUED
โค๏ธ DEFINITELY MIGHT HAVE STALKERS AFTER YOU HAVE SEX WITH THEM
Channeled Song
๐HIGH SEX DRIVE AND CAN EASILY REACH AN ORGASM
๐DEVOTION IS HOW YOU TURN THESE PEOPLE ON
๐ BDSM??
๐KINKS??
๐RED & PINK HUE TO THE VAGINA
๐ WET & HOT BECAUSE SCORPIO IS WATER AND OF COURSE HOT BECAUSE THE ORGINAL PLANET IS MARS
๐ I FEEL LIKE PEOPLE WILL LOOK AT YOU AND KNOW THAT THEYLL BE ADDICTED TO YOU
๐ IN WORST CASE SOME COULD BE ADDICTED TO STIMULATION
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KLET IN SAGITTARIUS โ:
๐คBDE
๐ค I FEEL LIKE YOUR SEXUAL ENERGY EXPANDS AS YOU LEARN
๐ค THE MORE YOU RECIEVE BLESSINGS THE MORE YOU ATTRACT SEXUAL ENERGY
๐ค YOU COULD REALLY BE BLESSED WITH GOOD COOTIE CUZ JUPITER IS HERE AND YOIR CONSTANTLY RECIEVEING
๐ค YOU MIGHT HAVE A BIG CLIT
Channeled Song
๐ I FEEL LIKE YALL HAVE WATER
๐MIGHT NOT BE AS TIGHT
๐ OUTIE
๐ JUICY & FAT
๐GETS STIMULATED THROUGH AN ABUNDANCE OF FOREPLAY
๐ I THINK THESE ARE THE TYPE OF PEOPLE WHERE THEY NEED A LOT TO GET PLEASURE ๐
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KLET IN CAPRICORN โ:
๐ณ BDE
๐ณ daddy energy
๐ณI feel like you get turned on when there is a chase to get you
๐ณ you may attract partners who have to work to get you
๐ณpeople feel like they have to do what you say
Channeled Song
๐ gets turned on when you see your partner working hard to please you, and when they put in time & effort
๐you may be very determined in the bedroom to please your partner
๐ your vagina may look very intimidating ( take it as it resonates)
๐ very pretty ๐บ
๐a force to be reckoned with
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KLET IN AQUARIUS โ:
๐พ you or your partners may be very spontaneous & eccentric
๐พ random outbursts of horniness
๐พkinky
๐พ people may feel like sex with you is different and unconventional
๐พraw & real
Channeled Song:
Tumblr wouldn't let me use anymore audio, so here's a link!
S&M - Rihanna
๐ฝyour clit gets stimulated when you feel free and on edge
๐ฝyou feel sexy when you can be you unapologetically
๐ฝthere might be a shocking factor to how your vagina looks
๐ฝ maybe ethereal or something like that
๐ฝopen-minded and willing to try new things
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KLET IN PISCES โ:
๐ฎ YOUR FEMININE SEXUAL ENERGY COMES OFF AS MYSTICISM, and dreamy.
๐ฎ people could feel you have healing energy to you and they may feel deeply connected when you have sex
๐ฎ sex feels emotionally connecting
๐ช your vagina may look dreamy/ enchanting
๐ช since pisces is a water sign you could have a ocean down there ๐คญ
๐ช you get turned on when you feel spiritually connected to your partner
๐ช you may also enjoy role play
๐ช unconditional love is how you get stimulated
Channeled Song:
P*ssy fairy- Jhenรฉ Aiko
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