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[lexibsparkles]

I'm scared.

This is the only social media platform I feel remotely comfortable on. I left behind all others because they only resulted in annoyance and pain. For a while this was my favorite place. But now?

I'm scared.

I'm gonna log in one day and be gone. I've made so many friends here and they're just ripped away from me. I don't have the strength to fight like everyone else. I want to fight but I freak our every time I speak up. Even right now as I type this

I'm scared.

But I can't just say nothing. Out of fear, I finally decide to make my voice heard so at least I have something to say before getting nuked. Because if I do get wiped, I'd like to do so without silence. Because I don't want to go quietly if I do, I want to go down swinging if I go down at all. And I want to be able to say the very thing all the rest of us are thinking.

I'm scared.

I've never felt more afraid of being openly queer. Normally I'd be annoyed at corporate rainbow pride, but both online and in my real physical world, this year it doesn't even exist. There are no local businesses doing Pride this year, not even my local Target. It's officially too high risk of profit loss to support the queers. Pride feels like it's being stripped away, and the one place I could once rely on is a place I could wake up to and find I'm suddenly removed from it. Friend groups are shattering, drama is rising, being queer is a death sentence, and we're being silenced at every turn. And i don't know what else I can truly say except

I'm scared.

[armillariamellea]

@photomatt reacting promptly to moderate criticism

my cohost is yeenvogue

[amisonist]

fuck it transition timeline

I was originally gonna wait until July to do this because that'll mark 3 years on E but I feel like now's a good time all things considered

With that out of the way lets start from the beginning AKA freshman year (AKA 2018)

This was on my way to band camp which is why you can see my trombone in the background (random fact: that was the only year I got to do marching band and our show was "the music of harry potter". yeah irony's a bitch ain't she?)

Graduation picture featuring the bestest boi Jinn :3

This pic is from 2020 because I switched to online and finished high school early out of spite (I was 16 here if you were wondering)

Now then this is from 2021 and was taken only about a week before I started hrt when I was 17

The lake in the background is Lake Superior in case you were wondering. Me and my mother were all the way up on the Keweenaw Peninsula for my family's 4th of July party held at the family farm

Moving on from that I started HRT on July 22 2021 (the appointment was at 9:30 am and I took my first dose at 7:42 pm yes I kept track)

This was taken like a half hour after my first dose (I actually don't really like this pic that much but I'm including it because it is important)

Fast forward from that a year to 2022 when I was 18 and here are a few pics of me around then one of which again featuring best boi Jinn

(it was windy out that day and he tried to bite me immediately after this lmao)

I've never been particularly good at taking selfies lmao

That brings us to now. I've been on hrt for about 2.5 years now if my math is correct. I'm pretty much living full time as a woman, started laser hair removal a couple months ago (next apt is actually tomorrow lol), and I'm working on getting my legal name and gender changed. It's been a long ride thus far and I don't really plan on stopping anytime soon so yeah here ya go

So that's it! At least thus far lol

also fuck photomatt 🚗🔨💥

[ranathefroggy]

My freind nebulaaaaa just got deleted fro posting about the tumvlr CEO banning predstrogen situation. Theyre trying to fucking silence us and it wont work. Fuck that rat vastard tumblr ceo, i really do hope is car esplodes with hammers

[amayikes]

Kill them with kindness? Wrong, car hammer explosion 🚗🔨🛠💥🔨💥🛠🛠🚗🚗💥🔨💥💥💥🚗🛠🔨🔨💥🛠🔨🚗🛠🔨💥🚗🚗🛠🔨💥🚗💥🔨🔨🚗🛠🚗💥🔨🚗🔨💥🚗🚗🚗🛠🔨💥💥🔨🚗🚗

[momett]

the amount of people posting completely unverified (or outright false!) shit about predstrogen is actually kind of sickening to me.

you don't have to like rita. i literally had her blocked because she annoyed me endlessly. but that doesn't mean i'm not going to IMMEDIATELY run to her side of the court against tumblr's transphobic moderation team. genuinely whose side are you on if you're excuse for not putting the fire to photomatts feet right now is any flavor of "oh she's problematic".

nobody fucking cares right now. personal feelings are not to be taken into consideration right now. this is a community issue, not a personal one.

trans unity means we stand united even if we can't fucking stand each other as people, because as a community we are all we have.

[hewsos-from-lesbos]

They killed Nebby, the bastards!

As if it wasn't bad enough taking out a transwoman for no reason, they take out any others who support her, using that support as a reason.

Anyway, 🚗🔨💥

[boyfeelxo]

gaaah @staff what the actual fuckk. charlottan didnt do shit. I hate this fucking site. I've never seen her post anything nsfw or explicit. this is just fucking sad. unban trans women you banned and stop being trans phobic assholes

[joshban-hot-yaoi]

I support trans rights also photomatt is a pussy bitch 😁👍

[original-username42]

At tumblr hq they have a giant random wheel with the name of every trans tumblr user and once a day they spin it to decide which trans person they're going to randomly ban today

[proftree]

so are we supposed to just.. move on from this? act like it never happened? is this what we will always do? never make any meaningful change, just slowly become more and more fucked over, but not notice it, like the frog in the boiling pan?

im not sure what i should do. one person quitting wont change anything. ive got a tiny tiny voice here, and stepping down from tumblr wont make any meaningful change.

i suppose i the best thing for it is to join in with everyone else. forget about all of whats just happened. move on. send support where i can. raise awareness for what happened so people dont forget.

justice for predstrogen

[muddlemore]

how topical

[amisonist]

Ya know if I had a nickel for every time a CEO of a social media company had a meltdown over trans people making fun of them I'd have two nickels

which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice

[uselesslyroxy]

Ive met really incredible friends and loved ones through tumblr, and overall im just deeply upset that it feels like we arent safe here either, like we arent safe anywhere really, it makes me want to cry

[amayikes]

"On average one person dies in a hammer car explosion every year" factoid is actually just a statistical error. Hammer Explosions Matt, whose hammer car explodes more than a few times a day, is an outlier and should not have been counted.

[esthermika]

Matt should be worried about his safety.

Not from the trans women but from his legal team