#(i... i dont need it. or want it anymore. and thats refreshing.)

[thefirstvessel]

I just realizing I'm coming up on a year since I resurfaced as Vessel!

[helplessautomaton]

WC 876

addon to the last post abt yandere daisuke,, sorry gang i lowkey forgor. also, i dont think i can keep using ingame screenshots for the header so i might ditch that because i don't want to use outside sources. tbf i could just draw my own for that- anyways!

i straight up forgot about the please aspect and did not take advantage of that! mightve gotten cared away, apologies hehe, also this is my last post for today, sorry

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its gonna start off slow with daisuke, he just wants praise from the people around him who know better! he just wants to know hes doing a good job so please tell him he is. as his obsession starts to grow hes unaware of his expression with his eyes. staring at you, expecting— wanting praise, just to give him that extra boost. as time progresses along with his attachment towards you, no matter what part you have in the crew, he tries to help you. his cheery smile making it hard to resist and say no. gently grabbing your hands while you two take a break, blabbering on about what he managed to do and going off topic about whatever. all this while he has a golden smile directed at you, the way his eyes crinkle at the corners to match.

when you hang around swansea and daisuke, you semi-jokingly praise him to give him more of a boost. its sends him over the moon to know hes doing right by you! swansea makes little teasing comments when daisuke is out of ear. as he starts to get more conscious of his obsession with you, he acts on it more knowingly. trying to push the buttons he know works even when its starting wear off and you hesitantly go along with it.

he wants to share his happiness you give to him, he wants to see you happy. at this point you are his world and hes not willing to give that up to anyone. even if it makes him a little uncharacteristicly harsh to the other crew members. he doesnt risk what he doesnt have to, even if curly or anya warm up to you the same way he originally started out. thats not to say it doesn't tug at daisuke and makes him annoyed, he knows its not rational but for jimmy he is justified if he dares to try anything. i feel like he would over look or straight up not notice if swansea treat you very slightly better because lets be honest, hes probably getting that same deal as well. theres so much daisuke wants to do but due to the environment he cant, but him stealing a packet or two of sugar just for you can make up for it.

really at this point, daisuke is at your beck n call whether you want it or not, hes so attached he refuses to let go. hes still his usual self when hes only with you, optimistic and bright eyed. even if swansea is hitting him in the back of the head to make him focus. but during this point everyone is starting to notice daisuke's behavior and the frustration sets in. even if curly tries to redirect him back to speed, daisuke needs you. attempting to praise him just to get him to do his job wont exactly work if you have to speed off to your intended chores. jimmy's comments start to become more sharp as he glares at the both of you while all you can do is look away, really just not wanting this either.

after the crash, he uses his tears to just get something, mostly he wants reassurance to refresh his optimism. especially when he gets drunk on the mouthwash, he cant help it, hes still doing a good job despite it all, right? he tries his best to keep you content in anyway shape or form, even if it means hiding you away from everyone for a little while. afterall, what can he do anymore. so please, just let him make you smile for sometime before the situation breaks back through to reality.

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"daisuke can you please keep on? youre doing a wonderful job we can go on a break soon." you try to charm your way through, swansea was getting more snappy at the both of you. daisuke's let his smile takeover, his eyes crinkling, nodding he continues under whatever swansea needs him to do. the tension in the room was clear, your jaw was tensed up, this had been the 6th day you had to do this. you worked beside anya not swansea, yet daisuke needed you or else youd be hearing complaints from 4 people of the crew out of 5. you werent even paying attention to the way either swansea or daisuke worked on whatever they were working on, yet daisuke called out to you. "alright i think we got it all done for now, swansea said im good to get on break now."

you sighed slightly and let daisuke lead the way, joking and telling you whatever crossed his mind. "i was doing a good job right?" his quiet voice snapped you back to where you were at, stopping just in time so you didnt accidentally knock over daisuke. "uhh,, yeah, it did look like you were, um, working hard! just keep doing what swansea wants you to do."

daisuke looks over to you, watching you carefully with his eyes before he breaks out into a usual smile and carries on with going into the lounge.

[randomositycat]

I cant properly summarize how much i love todays episode... like... seeing maomao's outfit after struggling to imagine whay she looks like... aahhh its so refreshing... and all of the mysteries finally converging except ofc, the envoy (that bitch)

Like you guys dont even understand... you dont get it... im going to die

MY BABY KYOU-U AAAAHHH I MISSED HIM SO MUCH!! HEARING HIS VOICE AND SEEING HIS CUTE BABY FACE :(((

And suirei this episode... woah mama pls... relax... girl.. miss maam... 🥵🫡🫣😋🥰🥰🥰🥰

Shisui's act on the boat i think wasnt 100% faked... shes so cute i love maosui sorry jinshi you fumbled this is maomao's harem and shisui won go cry abt it i guess

anyways i know she was being fr on the boat... that face of misery... she did NOT want to be there i bet my bottom dollar on it (shenmei come outside so i can hit you with my car)

Kyou-u :((((( 🥺🥺🥺🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 MY SON MY BABY BOYYY

Maomao was extra pretty this episode i feel like i fell in love over and over again

Whoever is in charge of drawing her... please let me breathe okay... please let me breathe

Jinshi too extra pretty extra fun this episode i looveee when hes mad i love when hes madddddd GET ANGRY DONT YOU JUST WANNA GO APESHIT

And he said "ill be forced to punish her" girl you aint gon do shit 😏

Luomen too :(( grandma i adore you... i love when he talks about when maomao was young like can you just imagine little maomao playing tricks on her pa :( like bestie im jumping first okay

AND AND AND im reevaluating my opinion on the luomen maomao dynamic yes yes id had pessimists in my ear for so long they convinced me that luomen didnt gaf about maomao and ykw i just :/ dont fw that anymore

Hes a grandma okay there is deadass not much he can do without killing himself, and he knows maomao is capable and has many many many other capable people at her side who care about her just as much as he does!! I def know what it feels like to want to help but helping just isnt in your ability, like he did what he can and pointed them in the right direction

Luomen knows his limits and thats why hes the goat

Also the way maomao takes after her parents and the old people that raised her 🥰🥰 like oh my god pls i love this bitch

I think thats all...

Maomao x suirei and maomao x shisui nation... rise up bc this is OUR episode okay... did you see the way she gRABBED HER HAND???

Oh my god take me oUT TAKE ME OUT!!! theyre so cute :(

Everyone is so cute

Shisui gives the meanest mug too oh my god... the way she was just Looking at maomao

Bitch i would have apologized if she looked at me like that LMFAOOO

And the way shisui and suirei care about each other :( kill me

I knew already but its just to heartwarming to see it

The way shisui just moved to the other side ofnher bc suirei freaked out, and she didnt hesitate to save her sister like AAAAAAHHHHH stab me in the heart please!!!!

Okay chat good night i need to be sedated or else ill start experiencing withdrawals

[gold-rhine]

seeing youtube videos with clickbait titles like "xilonen is better than kazuha????!!!" with comments going "i skipped kazuha bc i heard xilonen is powercreeping him" is sending me into bloodrage, so, for anyone confused: CW LEAKS

kazuha and xilonen will have SAME buffs and res shreds (with their artifact sets), but xilonen's will last 15 sec instead of 10 and will be applied to new enemies without her having to appear on field to refresh buffs. she can also heal on a team with at least two pyro, electro, cryo or hydro characters.

you know what she can't do? and whats most important part of kazuha's kit, even over his buffs? GROUPING!! best and most precise grouping in the game on 6 sec cooldown. good luck running between 10 small enemies, you will that extended 15 sec without grouping

second, kazuha's burst has element absorption and can apply whatever element you need, while also doing a lot of damage. like in aggravate teams or melt he can be doing insane amounts of dmg, bc these reactions scale on EM and his burst does a lot of hits.

tldr, in teams scaling on EM or that want element application and in situations with groups of enemies, kazuha is still untouchable.

where xilonen comes in then? xilonen is set up for teams where kazuha is not played very much already, like in teams with 2 element dps where its hard to swirl both. as a healer, she can also enable furina for these teams while keeping kazuha-level buffs, so she's in fact competing with jean and baizhu here, not kazuha. for example, hu tao double hydro where no one except sweatiest tryhards used anemo anyway, and where you had to basically waste a slot on baizhu or jean or charlotte if you wanted furina bc they didnt do anything except enable her. now you can use xilonen here and get a lot of buffs in addition to healing. xilonen doesn't buff dendro, so baizhu is still best in dendro teams, which he was clearly intended for and has buffs in his kit.

another xilonen plus is that her buffs last 15 sec and dont need to be refreshed for new wave of enemies, so its great for dps who can't swap without losing infusion.

xilonen is also competing with zhongli, bc she gives dmg buffs in addition to res shred, so again, in hu tao double hydro where zhongli was usually used as last slot, xilonen will do more. one thing zhongli has is interruption resist vis shield and thats always going to be valuable for casual or mobile players, but tbh i personally rarely play zhongli anymore, except with arle bc she gets fucking squashed like a fly.

kazuha and xilonen can also be used together, for example, neuvi furina kazuha xilonen is now calculated to be neiuvi's best team, where previously zhongli was used instead of xilonen just for res shred.

tldr 2; kazuha and xilonen are made for different niches. kazuha is a must pull as long as grouping is relevant in genshin, which is ALWAYS. xilonen is filling the niche where kazuha was already rarely used bc of how hard it was to do it, and also filling the premium furina healer niche for non-dendro and non-anemo teams.

[ghostlychaosfoil]

may i perhaps inquire about EVERYTHING YOU HAVE PLANNED FOR KIRBY AND RAPH'S RELATIONSHIP!!

cause i microwave the two of them sooo much I love them please yap about their co-dependency or anything about them id looove to hear it!!

from RAPH’s perspective

this is the first REAL friend that he made all by himself. Im not counting the paper ninja because its not a real sentient person. But from the episode sparring partner, you can tell how he really wanted some kind of friend thats just his friend (AND GE WAS SO CARING TO THE PAPER NINJA, HES SUCH A GOOD FRIEND , HE DESERVED THAT FRIEND and he made one!).

Raph wanted a friend away from the family and kirby is that friend. Raph can talk to kirby about things he cant talk to anyone else about because the word would eventually spread around the family and it wouldnt be a secret anymore. (when I say family im including the caseys and april because they are a part of the family). Kirby isnt a judgy person, Kirby doesn’t know these other people, he sees raphs pov and raphs pov only, so its refreshing to talk to him. Raph can tell all the stories he wants to this new person who wasnt there and hasnt heard the story, and if kirby had heard the story already, he does NOT care.

This is until kirby does in fact meet the family and find out that he is in fact! related to them. So hes not an “outside friend” anymore, but Raph is overjoyed that Kirby can be part of the family. He does get jealous when kirby starts to get closer to his family but then again he was encouraging it the whole time. Its a classic you introduce two friends and they become close but they dont unfriend raph because raph is literally introducing his brother to his brothers and they are all brothers.

Raph is very territorial and protective of kirby (which is smth that leo donnie and mikey might not like so he gets it out on kirby and kirby doesnt mind it) He will get very worried about kirby for very valid reasons but likewise kirby will worry so much about raph for the most minimal unimportant stuff (but it could be important!)

AND KIRBY UNDERSTANDS HIS PROBLEMS MORE THAN ANYONE IN HIS FAMILY COULD because kirby has also gone through krangification, kirby knows all too well how it is and the physical and psychological problems it comes with. and later in theri friendship after kirby saves them from the double mutated arc, they can also help eachother with the different faces, they ALSO can relate to eachother bc their dads are both dead. Having. kirby to talk to is one of the things raph NEEDS. like if he didnt talk to kirby about his day one day he would tweak tf out.

and from KIRBY’s perspective

Raph literally saved him. Raph (and leo) found him after he ran away after being unkraangified and passed out (just for him to run away AGAIN, but they let him go). After after meeting “for the first time” again, Raph cared for him when he had nobody. Raph helped him with the nerve damage and fatigue that were results of the krangification by recommending him the things that helped him, also helping him recover from the physiological damage as best he could.

Kirby attaches himself to raph really really fast two reallys. Kirby has such low standards for friends since the only ones he had before were his baby sitter(doesnt count), his coworker at minotaurs pizza (who begrudgingly hung out w him), repo mantis (??? the bar is on the floor), and his dad. and not only did raph meet these standards, he EXCEEDED them, kirbys mind was blown at how kind and nice and thiughtful?? he was?? what world was he living in!

Raph sort of filled the void that his Kirby’s dad left but kirby would never tell him that. Raph became his neww person. and that entails kirby getting really fixated on how raph percieves him. Which doesnt become too much of a problem, simce raph is a very reassuring person, but it does come up sometimes.

Raph also comforts kirby very well. Yk how raph during the show, he always made an effort to brighten the situation but it never really hit with anyone? well it hit for kirby. Raphs presence made him feel safe for the first time since the invasion and that feeling of comfort never really left. And raph also subtly helped kirby get out of bad habits of not sleeping and not eating well, by just generally painting those things as positive and encouraging it when the time is right. for example this would be a conversation “kirby did you sleep last night” “no” “well uhh heh I think sleep was pretty cool😅😅” and kirby would not catch on and just be like “💭yeah… maybe raph is right.. Im going to sleep tn!💭”

Even after Kirby joins the team, raph is still his favorite. Raph was ever so encouraging when introducing everyone and trying to help kirby built relationships with them. Raph kinda retaught kirby how to socialize after the repo job (repo mantis basically showed this homeschooled kid that iteracting w peopls is to be tough and intimidating and demanding smth at all times, which is NOTT a good mindset to be in.

In general:

They really relate to eachother so much that if they didnt have that they would go insane, they would each just feel lonely (even though they would still have other brothers (and sister) but lonely in that they would be alone in their expiriences). They give eachother things that matter so much to the other person but doesnt take much effort to give. for example kirby is just naturally a good listener and naturally matches his freak which matters so much to raph and it there was no concious effort from kirby to do that. And raph could bring kirby back from a breakdown with ease, with just his very presence. They mutually provide for eachother and its like perfect harmony. oh and dont get me wring they do NOT just vent to eachother all the time they are so silly like 80% of the time. Their senses of humor collide so well.

tcest dni they are brothers this is all platonic

[yanderecandystore]

Angst ᐛ. So imagine y/n is fully aware of what the beldam is about. I'm talking from the very begining but kept coming back since they felt so alone. And at some point y/n just walks in, plots their head in the beldam's chest, tearing up after a particularly bad day and is just like. "You know, I know what youre gonna ask... About the buttons. I know its just a way to eat me. But to be honest just hearing yoinsay 'i care about you' is making me consider the offer. Pathetic right?" Would the beldam make it a quick kill or would he not want to eat them anymore? Of course if you dont feel comfortable writing this thats fine too.

The reason why I always take too long to write anything about Male Beldam/Belsire, is because I always fear making something that people won't like especially since it's my most liked story-

But after rereading the story I realized it really isn't all that good X'D I feel like it could have been a lot better if I had put more time into it.

I'm sorry for taking so long to write this, but I really don't want to leave you guys hanging especially since I do really like the idea of a "twisted" ending sort of thing. Thank you for requesting this!

It's very short, but I hope I can talk more about it because I do wonder how Y/n will deal with this new life.

TW/Tags: Mentions of: Gore; death // Arachnophobia Warning // Scotomaphobia Warning (Reader is now blind) // Manipulation // Human flesh consumption (not from the Reader) // this is very short sorry // not proofread lmao (headaches) // Reader is very unresponsive to the things that happen around them.

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A peek at the keyhole [Yandere!Belsire x GN!Reader - A short Oneshot]

It was during dinner that you decided to seal the deal, he was acting strange… He was starving and you were sure of it. Which was funny because you never saw him eat, now that you think about it.

He doesn't understand where you got that knowledge of how he behaves or of what he consumes- Maybe it was just a lucky guess based on his desperate need to keep you "unaware", always giving a poorly disguised lie about himself.

Who was he? What was he? What did he want? He was your best friend, silly. He was your other friend, and all he wanted was to be with you.

Lies, lies, half truths. He was simply too shady for his own benefit, too obvious for his own good.

Or perhaps he really liked this back and forth between you two, after all- What proof did you have of anything? You couldn't trust his words, yes, but what else did you have to go with?

Just that sinking feeling in your stomach whenever he was near you, whenever he tapped his fingers impatiently because you were just oh so curious about him!

It was adorable, really. Infuriatingly adorable.

Because it didn't matter how much you knew about him, or his "real intentions" with you- You always came back for more. His words of reassurance coated with thick honey and distributed with a soft, calm tone of voice that was just as patronizing as it was endearing.

Treating you like royalty every time you came around and yet always keeping you at arm's length when it came to learning more about him, but did any of that even matter?

You were being taken care of, wasn't that enough? You had friends with you, an adoring handsome fella that wasn't shy at all about treating you more than a friend, if you wanted him to. There was clear favoritism and although common sense would have told you it was a massive red flag, you couldn't deny it was quite refreshing to be regarded with so much love.

The fun will never end, he said. It could go for as long as you wanted, forever even if you agreed to stay with just a little, tiny condition.

He didn't have to explain it in detail for you to instantly agree with him, you cling to him already aware of what your fate would be. A bad day was all he needed for you to accept it in a heartbeat? He could have done this a lot sooner than.

It was just you and him, standing in the kitchen as you hugged him, burying yourself in both a need for contact but also out of embarrassment- Shame of throwing yourself away to the unknown without second thought.

It took him by surprise at first, although not ideal he still met his goal sooner than he expected- Only a couple of nights spent with him and his creations, with only a few fabulous events in between.

Of course he couldn't go TOO wild with his attractions, after all you didn't need a spectacular show to be lured in, you just wanted to be heard and included.

" … Oh dear… Pathetic? Why? There's no reason to feel this way, you made the right choice… "

He wanted to still reassure you of your actions, but it was hard hiding the eagerness in his voice.

He held you tightly, cooing you gently despite your unisseanes and uncertainty.

It was mostly so you wouldn't see the illusion breaking, so you wouldn't hear the sounds of your other friends turning into dust… He simply couldn't keep them for much longer, and now he didn't need to.

It's a shame they couldn't warn you of your mistake sooner, it's a shame that everything he creates reflects his adoration to the people he lures in. If only they could warn you to not let him do this, that it wasn't really worth it.

" Come… It'll be quick, don't worry. " He led you with his hands, which were feeling colder by the minute, sharper than before. Thinner than before.

The lights of the house were starting to lower if not fully turn off behind you as you only focused on following him to his little workshop. You felt the stairs lose their solidity after lifting your feet, each step turning from wood to web quickly.

You were actively following him to your doom, you knew that, and as much as you wanted to you couldn't run away now.

He opened the door to the attic, the only thing that seemed intact in this empty and dark place- It was as if the house was starting to disappear the higher he went, and as you followed him there was no need to keep the rest of the house.

He was trying to be economical here, too many things to keep magically attached and realistic all the time- With no break for lunch.

The attic was the only thing that seemed actually real for you, stepping inside you felt the old floor creek. It was old, moldy, but somehow always well kept, as it was one of the only real things in this void he took care of.

It was his favorite place in the house.

" You can go sit on that chair over there, but if you would like to choose I have a great variety of colors and types for you to pick. " The voice that held warmth and youth to it was also disappearing and being replaced with a dry throat, a rougher tone and a lack of discernible emotion behind it.

You could only tell there was impatience by the constant tapping of his fingernails on his board as he showed you all the possible options.

Classic black like his? Baby blue? Chartreuse?? His constant tapping made you feel like a ticking clock taunting you to pick a color already-

You just pointed to the one color you liked most, hey, who wouldn't want to have their favorite color as their eye color? Although, it wasn't really eyes. Just buttons.

He hummed while giving you a soft smile.

" I'm glad you made a choice for me, I would have been too indecisive. Ah, but they're perfect for you..! You're going to make me so jealous, doll.." It was a joke, or maybe a compliment. It was hard to tell if his monotonous voice was out due to boredom, anger or was his voice like this in general.

Well, he didn't seem mad?? It was hard to understand him and to be honest you were getting very nervous. You sat down in the tall chair, its pastel colors did little to nothing to calm you down. Was this really a good idea?

" Are you ready?... It'll be quick I promise… Although… "

He grabbed your face, trying to be gentle as he inspected your panicking eyes.

You didn't understand what was going inside his head, you couldn't tell what he was planning to do and you weren't sure if his touch was starting to freak you out or sooth you.

" … It'll be fine. I'll make sure of it." He sighed before kissing your forehead, so you wouldn't forget he cared about you.

It was agonizing.

You don't know for how long you stayed out, but you remember your brain blacking out after he sewed the first one in.

You're not sure how you even survived through him stabbing your eyes with a needle- Hell, were you even alive at all?! You couldn't see anything, so either he successfully closed your eyes or you were dead.

No, you probably weren't dead yet, your headache just as bad as your entire face- Raising your hand slowly to touch your face you could feel your eyes covered by thick cloth, it was slightly wet.

Slightly touching and pushing like that caused you to feel immense pain, you immediately stopped- It was still fresh so of course it would hurt like hell.

You were sure that you felt the shape of the buttons underneath the cloth, however.

Your ears buzzed as you tried to regain some of your strength, as you tried to get out from your torture chair you forgot how tall it was- Missing a step and crashing down to the old attic floor with no one to help you.

Falling sure felt like falling! The floor sure felt like a crusty old floor! Yep, you weren't dead.

Your head was aching so badly you weren't sure if what you heard was real or not, but you were sure you heard some commotion coming from downstairs.

It was loud enough to muffle your little accident.

The voices below were followed by painful screaming that lasted for a few minutes after complete silence. A chilling sensation settled in as you started to wonder if the screams you heard felt familiar to you in any way.

You carefully started to get up, slowly you started to consider if you should go back to the tall chair or just make a run for it- But to where? You couldn't see anything!!

You considered taking the cloth off- But you didn't want to feel the pain that came from it. You needed to let it heal after all. Though, you doubted that you would be able to see anything with freaking BUTTONS in your eyes!!

Was it too late to regret your decision? It seemed like it.

You walked around trying to feel your way, where was the door again? You were sure you were on the right track… Your hand went from old wood to a nice clean carpet- Wait- Wasn't the house entirely destroyed? Shouldn't it be a spider web here?

Or, well, everywhere?

The fur of the carpet fooled you as you felt your hand squeeze something very soft that squeaked and scurried away from you. A rat.

" I'm sorry!- " You whispered to him, but he didn't appreciate your attempt at escaping, he squealed as he ran down stairs alerting his owner that you were awake.

Well, shit.

You would have screamed if you were able to see the heavy thing that came up the stairs in such a hurry, it didn't help that although you couldn't see him, the sound of metal hitting the walls and the floor made you highly concerned.

What the fuck was that-

" You shouldn't have left the room without telling me. " The same monotonous voice, although he didn't sound so exhausted like he did before- Not as hungry, you assumed.

" Come, let me help you. " You could hear him approach, as if he was wearing high heels it was hard to not hear him coming closer.

And you couldn't help but feel like distancing yourself further, his boney fingers didn't help you feel any more relaxed- They were sharp and cold, it felt like pure needles taking your hand and pulling you up.

" You need to rest for a little longer, doll. But you can't heal with an empty stomach right? " He guided you with his hand, you felt sick at the mention of food.

He helped you get down the stairs by holding you bride style, and you almost cried at the sensation of his hard and cold skin, you trembled at how those same needles would gently squeeze your skin-

One wrong move and they would tear your skin apart.

He helped you sit in a chair, you assumed you were at the kitchen's table by now.

Was this your end…? Was he really going to do this now??

…. No. He was just cooking something, presumably for you. It smelled of omelets and orange juice, it was simple but it was a very nice scent.

This kitchen reeked of blood, however. Instinctively you took your hands to cover your nose, and probably your mouth as well since you weren't sure if shouting would be a good idea right now. He hates loud noises.

" Don't worry about it, it was just a pesky guest who didn't take no for an answer! I'm sorry for the mess. I'll clean it up after you eat. " A more upbeat and sweet voice, the same one you were more accustomed with. Reassurance and comfort all tied with a smile you were more familiar with.

Approaching you with a plate in hand, and a juice glass in the other.

" Don't worry, I didn't put any of the nasty stuff for you. Just eggs and lots of love. The spoiled food is for me. " He kissed you on the cheek, it felt like being touched by porcelain.

He handed you the fork, but you weren't sure if you wanted to find out if he kept his word or not.

He killed someone here, didn't he? Those noises you heard when you were up in the attic plus the smell of iron coating every inch of this kitchen sure weren't just coincidence. He… He wouldn't force you to eat someone, would he?

Who was it?... Who was it..?!

Was he referring to the person as "spoiled food"?

" Doll. I told you to not worry. There's no meat on your plate, I'm a bit selfish when it comes to sharing food. I'm sorry but there's nothing left of them for you, if I knew you wanted to try I wouldn't have been so careless- "

" N-No, it's… It's fine! I'm just… I can't really see anything…" You tried to not sound as terrified of him as you were, heaven knows you shouldn't feed any monster your own fear, it's what they live on.

" …. Aw… You're blind, I'm so sorry! I forgot about that. " He started to laugh as he slapped his forehead about forgetting something so crucial, silly him!

You weren't sure if he was being honest about forgetting that, but you sure as hell knew by the way he snatched the fork from your hand and how he seemed to drag his chair closer to you that he was probably very excited to do this.

" Say, ah~! " You knew he was having fun when he pinched your cheek to make you open your mouth.

Well, yep, those were just eggs. I mean it was a very tasty omelet but that was it, the orange juice didn't taste any different. Probably a little too sweet, but that's it.

It was probably due to the pain you were feeling in the front of your entire face that made you very much NOT interested in eating, or maybe it was the dripping sound and the smell of blood. The thought that somehow you were sitting possibly next to a murder scene, and/or a body, and the murderer was feeding you, made you very unease.

" Try to not think too much about it, it's just the way things will be for now… Isn't it so much better this way too? We will be able to spend so much time together and I just need you to stay in the attic whenever we have "guests" over. Do you understand me? "

" With just a little bit of magic I'm about to make the house more comfortable for you, to cook you meals endlessly and I can even make you a few more outfits. I'll be sure to make the house more appropriate for a human like you. "

He petted your head after you finished the plate, kissing your forehead and letting the dishes in the sink.

" Now, let me help you get up, we'll need to give you a bath and put you in more comfortable clothes, and then we can lay down. I'm sure you're still very tired after our little surgery. "

He helped you get up and walked you towards the bathroom… You couldn't help but feel worried about what you were doing.

Wasn't this all you ever wanted? To be adored by someone who treats you so well? Didn't you feel glad you accepted his offer?

Were you a bad person for wanting this?

Well, you didn't want THIS as in- Him eating people- All you wanted was to be with him for longer…

Why did you feel really scared whenever he touched with the same gentleness but none of the softness his skin used to have? You knew running wouldn't be a good idea since you couldn't see anything, and you didn't know the layout of the house well enough to memorize where the little door was...

Right?

" You're so stiff, my love! Are you scared of walking around your own house? I promise I kept everything intact, it's my house as well you know… And besides I'll always be here to guide you while you still recover. " You felt him nuzzle his hand against your neck, cold, hard. You wondered how much he changed now that he didn't need to pretend to look a certain way for you.

Maybe it was best to not know.

" … You're so silent right now, it almost feels like I have been running my mouth for hours! I didn't know you were such a silent type. " He teased, while kissing the back of your neck gently.

It was probably your lack of spatial awareness, but he somehow seemed a lot taller- As if it took some effort to lower himself down just to kiss you.

" My head… it hurts so much.."

" Aw, I know, love, I know. It'll take a while for you to feel better but it'll be so worth it… I'll help you learn new things, like how to feel the vibrations in my web, it'll help you "see" better. Or how to read braille, or how to walk around the house carefully, or how to tell someone is planning on running away during a conversation. "

He poked the sides of your stomach, an action that was supposed to be just couple's teasing but was actually quite terrifying and painful considering how sharp his fingers were.

" You couldn't be any less obvious love. I'm sorry if I scared you, I couldn't resist. " And yet he didn't sound irritated or annoyed, it could be that he was just pretending to not care… But he sounded more amused than anything.

" I'm just teasing you, doll! Come on, don't look like that, I'm just in a good mood! You know I can't stay annoyed at you. Let's hurry up and get you cleaned, alright? "

As he carefully started to shove you inside the bathroom you wondered if he didn't mess with something in your head alongside your eyes.

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[andreabaideas]

Djats ships

As a part of a popular ask from my mutuals @jesstasticvoyage and @mzannthropy

I'm making this a post.

It all started on the comments section of this post :

So now i'm making It a post :

Daisy Jones and the Six show Its very cool,but I find It like that because It has 5 of my otps at once and also (just like with Twilight) for Its unexplored - I refuse to say wasted because thats what fics on ao3 are for XD- potential.

My 5 otps are :

Daisybilly or Daisily or Daisy x Billy

Camibilly or Camilly or Camila x Billy

Karengraham or Karen x Graham

Simornie or Simone x Bernie

Warrenlisa or Warren x Lisa

So i was moderately happy with the show (happier than with book on ships, because It has a lesbian couple, to me in a story no gays = no fun. And karengraham and Daisily are better done on the show too.)

But , thinking about that potential...

Being true to the 70's spirit , thus ignoring the book canon...Who cares anymore I ignore already canon for mostly everything XD The whole group + Camila + Simone and Bernie and Lisa should've been a polycule.

The 60's & 70's were are about experimentation and free love so, I find Its an interesting dynamic to explore. And , as no one on the fandom before had suggested It , I find It very surprising that it's not more popular, being the 70's.

(But , absolutely excluding any kind of incest between the Dunne brothers obviously- i'm saying this cause sadly i've seen It on ao3 and i'm scarred for life 🤢... I only tolerate incest on horror stories because Its horrible and horrific, which IS like the whole point of a great horror story tbh. Horror belongs in horror. )

Continuing with the polycule and as @mzannthropy said : " Dracula polycule became quite popular with Dracula daily , so you'd have thought people would all over it" (on Djats show), but no dice.

Its like they dont know or read how the 70's were...And in 70's they were popular, so i think It would've worked, i guess people nowadays is more conservative than I thought?...I don't mean conservative in a political or economical way, but in a "sexually oppresed pearl clutching praying church going righteous 50's era wife" sorta way XD . (In spanish we call them "rancios" , It means old fashioned , It literally mean spoiled food XD).

Even with my otps being my otps (mentioned above) i truly feel that they could be better written too, which i'll talk about later and fix them, if needed.

The thing that botters me is that even with my otps, I can also see the potential with other ships, then i'll Talk my otps ones.

To make things work, imagine everyone on Djats that IS heterosexual Its bisexual.

I'm excluding: Julia (Its a kid, and as Adult I don't have enough info of her Life) & Rod cause he IS smarter than to mess romantically with any of them dumb bitches (affectionately).

Keep in my that My Warren recasts are (right now) undecided between Aaron Domínguez or Michael Trevino , they keep being latino - hispanic. You all know why I do recasts.

Let's start with the Madness :

Daisy x Warren (Dairren/ Warsy)

They could be explosive ,both funny in a very different way, so refreshing and cool. Bonus point for mixed race couple, that isn't as common on fandoms because... why? (Answer: racism).

Daisy x Graham (Daiham/Graisy) is a cool dynamic: "dark girl" with a Heart of gold who wants to becomes good... but doesn't know how x Selfless "light guy" who can help her...and they fall, imagine the scenarios. Redemption and love for her , being edgier and love for him. Billy scarred for life of his sister-in law XD.

Eddie x Daisy (Edaisy/Daiddie) are cool too, as both deserved to be chosen not used (yes I think Camila used Eddie's feelings for her, for revenge).

Then they (Daisy and Eddie) fall hard for each other and they choose each other, self-steem is praised with this ship. Also imagine Billy and Camila reactions, It would be priceless XD. Also in book Eddie liked Daisy (and gushed about her looks and her everything), not Camila. And blond ft Redhead looks pretty (shallow I know but looks influence shipping too).

Warren x Eddie (Warie/ Wardie/ Edren)

I feel they could be a chaotic funny gay one. They listen and DO judge...and mock the shit out the other couples. Plus for mixed race couple.

Karen x Billy (Kally/ Biren) :

They feel more like fuck buddies/ Friends with benefits than anything romantic, but could have a good development of independent close awkward people that sleep together so much... that somehow fall in love in between . Awkward indie movie ensues.

Camila x Graham (Camham / Gramila) :

I like the idea of them, my cousin ships them cause Will Harrison and Camila Morrone look "tan monos juntos"= sooo cuuuteee together, in the behind the scenes pics). Graham and Camila are too pure for this world and deserved better, they could find that better with each other. Plus the brothers with the same girl drama has being explored a lot , so Its possible and fun (Vampire Diaries comes to mind).

Daisy x Simone (Daimone / Simaisy):

Its a no brainer, like Simone treats Daisy the best , out of all the characters (including Bernie, her actual girlfriend!!). Daisy and Simone would be super cute. Also bonus for being a mixed race couple , which is always cool to see (and receive vitriol from fandoms, i'm looking at you The Bear and The Walking Dead fandoms!!! 😡)

Karen x Daisy ( Kaisy/ Dairen/ Karaisy /Daisen) : Two female musicians that rebel against machism in a male dominated work??? Who break molds??? And do what The fuck they wanna?? The ship writes itself . Also they look hot as fuck together.

Daisy x Bernie (Dainie/ Baisy/Beisy)

Again two female musicians, sarcastic, Rebel and groundbreaking. And plus for being a mixed couple, again i'm tired to see hate towards mixed couples...Stop racism. And you have a super feminine one (Daisy) and a tomboyish one (Bernie) for which I have a soft spot.

Karen x Simone (Karone/ Siren/ Simren) or

Simone Its softer, so you have the badass mean one (Karen) with the softie one (Simone). They have the "women breaking rules sterotypes and molds", that I dig a lot.

Karen x Bernie (Karnie/ Berren).

Bernie and Karen would be your perfect sarcastic bitchy lesbian couple Who listen and DO judge the toxic heterosexual couples while eyerolling , the force of the eyeroll would be intense on that ship. They both has the "women breaking rules sterotypes and molds", that I dig a lot.

Karen x Camila (Camren/ Karmila)

Mean tough one + soft nice one dynamic. The Blonde + brunette couple. They are besties already. They get along. They would be awesome. Camila treats Karen like a queen. Karen could be better, but Its okay.

Also they would be "Barbie couple" goals. And gets points for being mixed race couple (white + latina).

Lisa x Karen (Liren), Bernie x Lisa (Linie) , Simone x Lisa (Sisa/ Line) or Daisy x Lisa (Daisa/ Laisy/ Lisy) to explore both the cinema and the music scenes (and their fondational machism) and the fame issues with gossip press too.

Eddie x Billy (Edilly) would be epically hilarious and Hot too?? The dinamics would be: Friends to enemies -or directly frenemies- then frenemies to lovers at its finest XD . And It should be more popular here at Tumblr tbh, like Its the lgbtaq+ safe Space on Internet?? You all love gay otps being antagonistic towards each other then falling in love and then fucking each other senseless examples: Hannigram, Loustat, Daniel x Armand... hello? Did I miss something?

Billy x Nicky (Bicky/ Nilly). The amount of times i've seen here at Tumblr pairing actual enemies that would kill each other on sight , like Moriarty and Sherlock or Jonathan and Drácula or Harry Potter and Voldemort, or Robin and the Sheriff... all of them without even half a chemistry scene or anything remotely romantic between them , just puré hate, and Its too alarming to be ignored , so i leave this one here if anything for the lolz XD

Its enemies to lovers at its finest. It would be dark romance (so loved by Booktok 🙄), a dark romance so dark It would end in homicide (probably).

At least they would look hot while at It, as Sam Claflin and Gavin Drea are Hot.

Camila x Simone (Camone/ Simila) They are too pure for this world and deserved better, they could find that better with each other, they would be wholesome, cute, loving and also super well dressed. One of the few non toxic ones.

They would be "Barbie couple" goals. And gets points for being mixed race and being both POC , Its super rare seeing mixed race couples with both members being POC (not involving anyone white) and also gay, and even more rare if their WOC. So yeah bonus for being original.

Camila x Daisy (Daimila/ Camaisy) would work awesome, they could be couple goals, like if Camila can deal with Billy worst side, then she can bear with Daisy worst side.

Daisy is more selfdestructive and less grumpy dominant than Billy, so yeah, with Camila's saintly patience and Daisy vivacious Spirit they would live without much conflict (their only issue with each other was liking Billy, erase that and you have a perfect couple). They would be the perfect "Barbie style" couple, too cute and both would look super Hot. And also extra point for being mixed race couple (latina + redhead). This ship works better if you have It in a Edilly Au situation. Just imagine It XD :

" Eddie and Billy shouting"

The Girls:

C : why are they like that ? they should kiss :(

D : Yeah, too dramatic those dudes. XD Their makeup sessions must be awesome ;) "

Camila x Eddie (Edmila/Caddie) would work actually!!!! ....If well written, but sadly It was written catastrophically Bad, like...

I think Camila used Eddie's feelings for her, to avenge herself of Billy's infidelities on the show, that many people considered It Queen behaviour 🙄, but to me Its not : If you can't forgive him then dump him, Its one of my mottos.

Its one of the few times I truly felt sorry for Eddie, cause It was obvious that his love for her was true, Camila was wrong , I'm sorry not sorry with that plot point, go argue with a wall, if you want to cheat on your husband, at the very least be smart about It and don't do It with someone Who loves you (and that you don't love) especially knowing that he does love you... Choose an ex or a hot stranger ffs!!! (Like she did in the book...Way better).

To fix It : Camila and Eddie are Friends (they met on class if dont remember wrong). Eddie loves Camila (what else is new/ Who wouldn't). Camila liked Eddie too but both were too shy to admit it, dont wanting to lose each other as Friends, then Billy appeared and Cami fell before she and Eddie could be a real romantic thing, so she fell in love for Billy faster and harder, but Eddie Crush feelings are still there hidden...That way you have a good romantic link "The one that got away trope". Then their feelings explode after the Daisily affair. Then you can have whatever in this Au, either a divorce and everyone is Happy (or you do not have It and then you enter on Edaisy zone...)

See? That's how you do It, there I would've rotten for Edmila, create a cute crush/friendship previous link, (you can develop It with like 2 flashback scenes!!! Its not that hard), then the show scenario with them would be awesome! But It was sooo bad developed, and I think It was made on purpose to show Camila on a bad side, cause she hurt both Billy and Eddie in the process and the viewer perception about her too. It spoils her character. Ugh.

Thats why my Edmila Au its way better than canon 🤗.

Warren x Billy (Wally)

That one was hilarious to imagine XD. The serious grumpy one and the funny light-hearted one. It could work. Bonus for mixed couple. Warren can relax Billy. Billy can make Warren focus.

Teddy x Marlene (Telene/ Mardy) : He is lonely she is lonely (Hank can go fuck himself) so they start liking each other and date. In the end Billy and Graham are officially adopted by him. Everything is perfect.

And last but not least of the Au ships :

DaisyxBillyxCamilla , the love triangle

Here i'm turning a love triangle 💔 💔💔 into a throuple❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 (Daillyla/ Dailyla).

Also the three of them being together, loving each other equally, I think would be a great hippie 60's-70's scenario (well written and handled) It could be ground breaking , like The Laureate aka Laura Haddock's (Sam's ex wife) threesome/throuple movie *spoilers for that movie from here: It began awesome but the ending sucked, It was a real story btw, so nothing to do about It, sadly. End of spoilers*

In a Djats throuple Au It would have a happy ending... Because I say so.

It would be perfect and I actually dig It more and more, everyone involved would be happy (no cheap early deaths, no band breakup, getting clean sooner, awesome character dinamics : Camila : the tender love giving one learning to get things she wants, Billy : the insecure love needing leader end learning how to be vulnerable and soft giving truthfull love , Daisy : the one who defies him and who needs lots of love and self-steem learn love ,self steem and to be more empathic . There's also threesomes ...What's not to love?

And -if It had been done by the actual show- I think that they would have had more attention and audiences than they had tbh "The flesh sells" sigh XD . And maybe more nominations and God heavens...even Awards!...They lacked the imagination, or were too faithfull to the book (at least on that account).

Now with my otps :

Warrenlisa : perfect, nothing to fix. Only they should have more scenes, but that's it.

Simornie : perfect, nothing to fix. Only should have more scenes, but that's it.

Karengraham: Only issue was family wanting, they both loved each other well.

1- Make Karen change her mind about family, and then they are having family (i've met women in real life Who said they didn't want family and then got it, so Its possible). But then i'm making Graham a stay at home dad , just like Camila, but in male. Karen keeps singing (like Billy did).

Here you can, if you want , erase the whole abortion scenario in an even more Au land, but first they think It and even discuss it (you totally recover the erased/non shoot scene of Daisy's abortion post teen SA created on the show, It should've been kept tbh) creating an interesting (and still relevant) debate .

2- Or you keep canon abortion but you make Graham be a good boy as he IS, but one that IS so Not wanting kids either just like Karen, so everything Its fine; now they fit better, and stay together. They keep being together and making music too. They are couple goals and a power couple in the music industry.

Camilly : more love/romantic/tender scenes, more cute scenes (the chessier the better) more passion (yes sex scenes), and more obvious visible conection between them. No Billy-ing (sorry I couldn't resist It XD) . No secrets. Camila truly acknowdledging Billy's dark side and not putting Pink colored glasses about It.

Daisily: more physical action (yes sex scenes) , more cute tender scenes (the chessier the better), Daisy being slightly less mean (some spice its fine too much burns), Billy-ing no more (I couldn't resist It again XD), Billy admiting he loves them both way sooner, or at least being less salty about It. Daisy acknowdledging Billy loves Camila too and that he isn't with her just for Julia, but because Camila is loveable and awesome. Both trying to being the light of the other even if they feel like shit. They love each other and themselves as result.

That's It !!!

[jellyaibo]

got to ramble abt loser to someone last nite right and its always a nice lil refresh for me explaining what actually happens in the show AND MAN its so funny how people are so willing to call loser a jerk or think shes evil bc of the things she did and like ok whatever but did we forget abt all the shit this thang had to go thru like ?!?!?!?

getting eliminated with the most votes so far, isolation in the jawbreaker (which ik tghis isnt a serious deal in the show, DONT GET ME WRONG I LOVE ANGST ABT THIS CUZ IM NORMAL) like ofc getting eliminated isnt enough get into the sensory deprivation chamber SADFJKSHDFKHSDF LIKE !

also imsorry this cunt has ptsd HEHAHHAA WE SEE HER GET A FLASHBACK IN EP 4 THATS JUST NEVER BROUGHT UP AGAIN (the paper mache incident)

and like. man it adds layers BC AS U CAN SEE LOSER NEVER ALWAYS HAD IT SO GOOD???? so like OF COURSE when him & winner get popular loser relishes in it. BC ITS DESERVED? LOL? WOULDNT U BE ECSTATIC IF U AND UR BUDDY GOT POPULAR AFTER YEARS OF NOTHANG? ITS HUGE!

and yeah ! her up n' leaving winner wasnt the best but you srsly gotta keep in mind this is losers dream . to her winner just didnt want to support him anymore AND U COULD SEE LOSER WAS CLEARLY UPSET ! hes ALSO losing a good friend too !!

butohmy god im getting off tangent just. you know . loser has gone thru some shit and its funny how many ppl i see just dont talk about it !! AND LIKE !! ON TOP OF THIS LOSER IS STILL NICE !! IDC !! loser has always been helping people n doing her best . and even tho her fans keep flip flopping (shoutouts to cake) she still keeps her chin up

PLUS having all these fans adds another thing: expectations, expectations, THE HIGHEST OF ALL! bc loser is soo popular, everyone sees him as perfect and strong WHEN LIKE WE SEE LOSER IS A HELPER AND A NICE GUY YES but at the end of the day ! shes a guy ! (thinks really hard abt cake n eggy arguing then it just cutting to loser craving nuggets . see maybe this is just me looking too deep into it but it shows the contrast of how the fans feel abt her vs how loser rlly is . just a kinda quiet?? guy that likes helping ppl)

this shows even more in post split when loser has a #normal moment over "a fan doubting her" YOU CAN SEE HOW IT AFFECTS HIM BC EVERYONE HAS SUCH HUGE EXPECTATIONS AND . as u could see ANY ONE MISTAKE WILL LEAVE LOSER ALL ALONE AGAIN ! OFC SHE WILL PANIC INTERNALLY SKFHDKSDFH

and idk where to put this but taco calls him "cuboid" and like see itsounded so derogatory when she says it GAJHAHAHAHA ITS LIKE??? not object slursIM NOT SAYING THAT ITS JUST SO FUNNY TO ME . IT SOUNDS LIKE A DEROGATORY TERM MAN ITS LIKE GETTING CALLED uhhhhhhhhhok other than the f slur i cant think of anything its like shes being called a faggot ok whatever I NEED TO STOP TYPING

[bear-remn]

— ⋆✮ Deadly Eyes ✮⋆

n/t: finally!! i hae delivered this fic so much better and with a (what i think it is) good narrative, i hope you enjoy and support this fic, i appreciatte every interaction with my page. and btw, i'm chaging the tone of my fic to make it a little more serious and deep, but im keeping the storyline.

tw: this chapter is mention and use of drugs.

sinopsis: second day od school at the academy of kirari and mako, dealing with the sakamakis.

⋆༺ chapter two ༻⋆

mako was taking notes in her room, from the past day when she skiped classes to discover that ayato was a vampire, she barely sleep since, too scared one of them came into her bedroom and suck her blood while she's asleep, thats why she locks every door she past, her bedroom and bathroom too. she´s lucky one of her classmates let her borrow their notes, she was´nt the best when it comes to grades and really wants to be a good student, kinda hard when you live with six vampires that can kill you anytime.

a knock on her door interrup her hand writing "yes? who is it?" mako ask, but panic invade her instantly, the idea of ayato coming again and suck her blood, play with her like she was nothing, it make's her sick "its me, reiji" mako get up and walked to the door, her hand doubt a little before open it, wondering why did reiji, a vampire, would come to her room at this hour, but she didnt wanted to belive they were all like ayato.

"hey, whats going on?" she ask when she opened the door, looking at the dark haired man, thinking of his elegant way of dressing is, so different from ayato´s, why did she even think of him? reiji looked her up and down and then give her a cold glanze "may i come in? i have an important item to give you" even if he asked for permission, it sounded like an order. mako didnt move but somehow, her body moved aside, but she didnt do it, it was like the air moved her. reiji come into her room and the door closed by itself, mako felt chills.

"i am well inform of the scene ayato made in school, and the reason why you skipped class so no need to treat me like an equal anymore, you should know your position by now" mako was silent for his words, there was something so inhuman about his way of speaking, the way he treated her... so cruel.

"a good master take care of his food, but you´re not just food, you´re a bride so your blood is whorty of keeping it" reiji leave on mako´s desk a juice box of berries "since we all will be drinking from you, i have to assure your blood does not lose its quality, and dont get sick, it´ll be a problem, do you undertand?".

mako was speechless by his words, a bittersweet moment.

"dont make that face, doesnt look good on you" mako wasnt sure what ace reiji was talking about, she was just standing in silence "do you understand? i ask".

"yes... i understand" mako said, remembering that they, as vampires, can kill her at any time.

"dont stay up so late, sleep well miss mako" on a blink, reiji dissapear from mako´s view.

she walked towards her desk and take the box juice, opening it and drinking it, the flavor was sweet and cold, refreshing, but the situation made her nauseous.

she just cotinued taking notes while drinking the box juice.

...

the next day mako show up at kirari´s room early, she was already dress with the school uniform, her backpack on one shoulder. she knock two times before but she didnt have any replies so she knock again but stronger while asking "kirari-chan? are you up?" no answer until she heard footsteps approaching the door, where finally kirari opens up still in pijamas.

"oh, hey..." kirari looked confused while she rub her eye, like if she just got up "sorry... what time is it?" mako thought kirari was cute, confused all the time "there's still an hour left before classes start so... just wanted to come and hang out a little" kirari smiled instantly and step a side to let mako come in "come here... you" the door close behind mako.

"why you're up so early? we still can nap you know.." kirari ask and sit on the edge of the bed "i dont like sleeping too much" mako responded as she sits on kirari´s desk chair.

"why not? its better sleeping than being with those weirdo´s is innit?" kirari put her hair on a bun and start making her bed and closing some drawers she left opend yesterday.

"you right on that" mako wasnt sure i kirari knew about the sakamaki's being vampires, but she did'nt wanted to tell her yet, at least, she wanted her to discover it by herself.

"anyway..." kirari trow herself on the bed and smiled at mako "you smoke?".

the question surprise mako.

"no..?" mako hesitated wrinkling her nose "i have never tried before, but im not interested".

"damn.. respect" kirari take out some cigarettes under her pillow and take one "do you mind if i smoke here?"

"no, its ok"

"thanks"

while kirari smoke, mako wonder i that was the thing that gave her that unusual smell that reiji always talk about.

"since when you smoke?"

"i dont really remember... probably at the beginning of my adolescence"

as kirari smoked, she was thinkign of some topic to talk about to not get mako bored, kirari is an akward person, she knew it but mako was her only option to have a friend in this house.

"in school, wanna hang out too? people there doesnt talk to me for some reason and... they like... avoid me for some reason?" kirari give mako a weird look, for her, mako looked like a little lamb, lost and cute, she didnt have a bitch resting face, instead she have a nice expression all the time, just as her personality.

"really? i think your company is very pleasant" mako smiled at her comment.

"yeah.. were you able to talk to someone tho?"

"i think so..?" she tried to remember someone, but she didnt talk to them, they talk to her but not on a way people wanted to be friends with her "actually, something really weird happend to me, some girl stop me in the hallway and said some things.."

"what kind of things..?"

"something about me and reiji being together, even when i said that we werent in a relationship she insisted"

"what?" mako was intriged.

"yeah... and some boy wanted to snitch on me for smoking in school"

"did you smoke in school? you could get in trouble"

"oh, dont worry, im very careful" kirari appreciate her concern "but the boy was pretty"

"the one who wanted to snitch on you?"

"if you saw him, you would get it" mako felt curious of kirari´s taste when it comes to a romance.

"what did he look like?".

kirari got up and walked towards the window, smoking there while trying to remember him, but her memory wasnt good when it comes to people.

"he was like... tall and with brown hair" mako make a face to kirari in sign for her to continue talking "i dont remember much, but his voice was good"

"your taste is awfully simple" kirari left out a little laugh.

"ouch, what about you? whats your taste?" mako think about it before answer that question.

"i´d say i like... pretty men"

"what ya mean pretty man? whats pretty for you?" kirari put out the cigarette and throw it out the window to walk towards her wardrobe.

"um.." she tried to find an example of her taste, but the only person that come to her mind was "kanato perhaps" kirari turns to her with the uniform in her hands.

"who?"

"you know, kanato"

they both looked at each other in silence for a few seconds.

"again, who?"

"kanato sakamaki"

"what?! you like one of these weirdo's? even worst, one of the weirdo's we live with?" kirari mouth was wide open for the surprise.

"nononono i dont like him" she responded fast while turning around so kirari could get dress "i just think he is very pretty physically but i have never talked to him yet"

"damn girl, you like them femenine"

kirari dressed fully and put on a brown sweeter, the weather was geting a little too cold for her.

"im done" she announced to mako so she can turn around again and keep talking.

"dont you think one of these boys we live with are... idk.. cute or something?" kirari keep silent while she put some stuff in her bag.

kirari doesnt really have a type, she only liked one perosn before and it wasnt a boy... so she could'nt tell if the sakamkis were her taste or not, she just liked people for other reason more than just a physical appeal.

"idk, i mean-" a knock on the door interrumped her sentence and follow by it the door opened showing reiji, well dressed and impecable as always.

"good evening, we'll be waiting for you both in the entrance" reiji looked at them up and down, analizing every part of their uniforms, looking for something to fix "your hair looks better up, keep it like that" he said to kirari who just give him a thump up "we be leaving in five minutes, hurry" and with that said he dissapear from their sight.

they just looked at each other, shrugging their shoulders.

...

already on their way to school, kirari and mako sat together, chatting and making some jokes about a serie both liked.

"i hate ross, he is the actual villain if you pay close atention to it"

"i dont like him either, he is just... so egothistical, rachel deserved better"

"rachel deserved joey, no one can change my mind and its a universal feeling bc i say so" mako put her hand together in front of her, like if she was praying.

"amen" kirari laugh at this but she got shushed instantly.

"shup up, i can't sleep with this much noise" the girls looked at shu, who was with his earphones on and some music can be heard if your're silent for a moment, which made them confused, how can he hear them if he was listening to music?

"we all can hear your stupid conversation over here, talking as if you both were fucking alone" subaru's voice sounded angry, really pissed, his eyes were closed and his arms and legs crossed.

"ok...sorry we'll keep it down" mako apologized no wanting to make any kind of argument, after all, they were the ones in charge and could, literally, kill them out of anger o just because they wanted. kirari just rolled her eyes, she was so done with them.

they are brothers but they dont talk to each other like normal brothers do, they keep silent and just mind their bussiness ignoring the rest, it was so off putting for kirari and mako.

"before we arrive, drink these now" reiji give stawberry juice boxes to mako and kirari. they both took it, mako directly begin to drink it while kirari just put it on her pocket, reiji notice this and glare at her in disbelief "i asked you to drink it before we arrive the academy"

kirari glare back at him.

"why tho?" reiji's glare became dark and scary, he hated being challenged in any kind of way, and worst, if he was challenged by a human.

"everybody like that juice, even your kind" kirari wasnt sure what he meant by that but she didnt like his tone. so dismissive and unfriendly, she felt like a little girl being ordered around.

"what ya mean my kind?"

"just drink it like i said, it'll keep your mind focus on class" mako was quiet, she knew why he gave them the juices.

"its really good actually" she said to kirari, wanting to evade a posible argument between them. reiji appreciated the support.

"I'm not thirsty"

"i know you dont eat before coming to school and I haven't seen you eat at the academy, so I know you won't eat anything until you get home. drink the juice so you don't pass out in the middle of a class, that would be a problem for you and me, and even worst it may affect you academy record" kirari felt a little intimidated, not only because of his words, she felt a strange sensation because of the way he looked at her, his eyes were deep and a little hypnotizing, as if just with his look he convinced her to do what he asked.

"ok.. dont make a big deal about it" she start drinking her juice box in silence until they arrive school.

...

the classes were calm for both girls, they met each break and explored some areas of the academy they didn't know and studied together in the library to kill time during a long break. when they separated for their last class, kirari went to the bathroom to take opioids so she can relaz for the rest time in the academy.

but she freaked out a little to see nothing on her little silver box, she was pretty sure she left some for today but maybe she was wrong, or someone took it, it was probably the first explanation. quickly she take her phone of her bag and called her dear dealer so they can meet right after classes.

"hello? who is it?" her dealer anwser her call.

"hey, its me kirari" she could perfectly hear him get excited, she knew he had a crush on her for some reason.

"heeey watcha doing gorgeous?" kirari smiled for his change in his tone, even if she wasnt interested, it was nice to have someone that treat her like that in a respectfull way, he didnt crossed the line and make their relation unconfrotable, she appreciated that "just wanted to say hi" kirari heard a loud laugh, making her laugh as well "you are terrible at lying sweetheart, c'mon, tell papa what you need and i'll make it happen for you" kirari smile wide.

"i need some opioides, or something new it would really help me"

"everything for you, tell me when and i'll go" she tought for a moment, she didnt wanted the sakamaki's to see her buying drugs, so maybe the enter of the school or the mansion wasnt her best option.

"what about the south exit of the city? I leave school in two hours and I think I can get there in 30 minutes if I get a car"

"i can send you a car, you know i'll do anything to give you some good shit"

"thaks buddy, you are the best"

"i know baby, see ya later then"

"yeah, see ya"

kirari sigh and headed to her last class, anxious for the class to end.

and when it came the moment, kirari had many excuses to say if reiji asked why she wasnt going with them to the house, even if he didnt belive her, she didnt wanted him or them to know. and while all of the brothers including mako got into the car, she stayed out, waithin for them to go without noticing her. but no.

"c'mon, dont make us wait for you" reiji spoke, making her nervous.

"i'll stay, i have some stuff to do, im waiting for a classmate" reiji looked at her, as if he was reading her mind or her soul, either way she was creep out.

"i can tell when you're lying, why would you?" she tensed up for his comment, why he was so good making people nervous? or was he just hot?

"ok sorry... im waiting for an old friend, i'll go to the house later so dont wait for me" reiji remaind silent, thinking his next words, kirari hated this kind of silence, so tense and so weird.

"alright, go, but shu will acompany you, he is in the academy and didnt listen to me when i told him we were goin home, make him go with you, i'll expect you two at the manor" kirari was spechless, why that guy of all of them? she couldnt remember his face. "take care" she didnt have the opportunity of saying something and the car just go.

"fuck, which one is shu?"

[thesmophorus]

31. What post have you seen recently that makes you wanna scream lmao <3

oh boy youre asking me for the spicy hot takes tonight huh. i am always happy to deliver <3 i dont want to put anyone in particular on blast so ill refrain from mentioning specific posts, but i do find that a lot of content lately in the helpol sphere has been very... surface level. a lot of moodboards, a lot of basics, 101 level content, stuff like 'the gods love you!!'. which isn't inherently a bad thing whatsoever. there is a need for that kind of content! however, i've also noticed in my 2 years on helpol tumblr that a lot of the reconstructionist blogs and informative blogs that i used to follow have either went inactive or deactivated entirely. and i can't help but wonder why this is. i think there's a lot of reasons for it: frustration with the shallowness of content leading to people going off and becoming more solitary practitioners, the more you grow in your practice the less compelled you may become to share it, but also i think a lot of people use tumblr and people's ask boxes as a search engine and that leads to a lot of burnout. it certainly did for me -- i took a hiatus from posting for a long time because i wasn't in a place to educate people. it's a lot of pressure, especially on tumblr where it feels like people will jump down your throat if you're incorrect about things or you suddenly become an Authority that people look up to when youre just a person. people who were posting really helpful and informative content about the theoi simply arent here anymore, and i really think the community's gravitation towards easily consumable content and reliance on people to do research for them is a large part of this. i realize not everyone is recon, which is very much okay, although i personally love being recon. that being said, i still think you should do your best to do your research and understand where these ideas come from. they didn't appear out of thin air -- mediterranean culture is very much alive still and is a continuation of the ancient world, and to not acknowledge or understand it is disrespectful to both the cultural context of the theoi and mediterranean people whose culture we claim to revere. i don't expect everyone to become an academic or a classicist. its not accessible to everyone for a variety of reasons, but i do think like. checking out some of the primary sources in a way thats accessible for you or picking one really good book to really deep dive into would benefit a lot of people. basically, i just wish i saw more in depth posts and people engaging on a deeper level with their faith and being willing to post it so we can have more discussions as a community and grow together. helpol is unique among other polytheistic religions because we have a wealth of primary sources available to us, and that isn't always the case for other polytheistic religions. i think it's... honestly kind of sad that we don't really talk about them. its not that i dont want to see peoples upg or that i dont think there should be posts for beginners, because there is a place for it and i enjoy that content too, but i wish there was more variety in the kinds of posts we have in the community. i miss the days when the tags were full of people writing their own prayers or people talking about a new source they read and what they thought, or compiling something for their own practice and being willing to share it with the community. i guess this is my sign to get back to posting my own original content and make the kind of content i want to see in hopes it'll encourage others to do the same. anyway i got on my little soapbox about this and its time for me to hop off before i hit character limit (again lmao). thank you so much for this ask, this was really refreshing and cathartic for me to talk about. may the gods bless you with health, happiness, and love always <33

[saijspellhart]

Damn! 2 chapter completed for my new Fire Emblem fic. I think I honestly just needed something new and refreshing for my brain to work on. I haven't abandoned any stories. And im still working on other wips.

But honestly it feels so nice to stretch my brain writing about different characters for a diffent story. This Sethrika fic wont be very long. Aiming for ten chapters or less. But it feels nice to write anout these characters ive adored for 17+ years.

Im not posting the story until its nearly complete just because I know its not gonna get any traction or readers and i dont want to accidentally discourage myself. FE8 is 20 years old, and I cannot imagine it has much of fandom anymore.

I know ya'll follow me for my other content. YGO, and once upon a time you might have followed me for Miraculous. But I am REALLY loving working on this Fire Emblem Sacred Stones fic.

Its a treat. For me. Thats all it needs to be. But if you see me reblogging a bunch of FE8 characters in modern clothing. Its just me commissioning art for me fic. It's a bodyguard AU. Modern royalty, princess is in love with her bodyguard, and its forbidden blah blah blah. Fun stuff for me.

[elystwelve]

Mystic Flour can we honestly e date? you’re so beautiful. You always make me laugh, you always make me smile. You literally make me want to become a better person… I really enjoy every moment we spend together. My time has no value unless its spent with you. I tell everyone of my irls how awesome you are. Thank you for being you. Whenever you need someone to be there for you, know that i’ll always be right there by your side. I love you so much. I don’t think you ever realize how amazing you are sometimes. Life isn’t as fun when you’re not around. You are truly stunning. I want you to be my soulmate. I love the way you smile, your eyes are absolutely gorgeous. If I had a star for everytime you crossed my mind i could make the entire galaxy. Your personality is as pretty as you are and thats saying something. I love you, please date me. I am not even calling it e dating anymore because I know we will meet soon enough heart OK I ADMIT IT I LOVE YOU OK i hecking love you and it breaks my heart when i see you play with someone else or anyone commenting in your profile i just want to be your girlfriend and put a heart in my profile linking to your profile and have a walltext of you commenting cute things i want to play video games talk in discord all night and watch a movie together but you just seem so uninsterested in me it hecking kills me and i cant take it anymore i want to remove you but i care too much about you so please i’m begging you to eaither love me back or remove me and never contact me again it hurts so much to say this because i need you by my side but if you dont love me then i want you to leave because seeing your icon in my friendlist would kill me everyday of my pathetic life.

I have seen numerous people use this filter and I can confidently say that your rendition of the use of this filter is by far the best I’ve ever seen. You’re absolutely hilarious, very quirky, whacky, and unique. And you know you are all of those things. I just love how raw, unscripted, and genuine your reactions are whilst using this filter. No other person has ever posted something like this. It’s so refreshing to see someone as different yet original as you. As cliché as it may sound, you aren’t like the other girls. You were built different. And I applause you for that.

Date Mystic Flour

Kiss Mystic Flour

Propose to Mystic Flour

Marry Mystic Flour

Have a lifetime lasting relationship with Mystic Flour

Go on many picnics with Mystic Flour

Play games with Mystic Flour

Travel the world with Mystic Flour

Listen to the stories and laughs of Mystic Flour

Fall asleep each night and wake up each morning while looking at Mystic Flour

Have children with Mystic Flour

Build a house with Mystic Flour

Watch our children grow up while we are expecting our fourth with Mystic Flour

Watch the stars twinkle in the night, as we rest, shoulder to shoulder, with our children sleeping next to us with Mystic Flour

Watch our children grow into warm, self sufficient, caring and capable adults, with Mystic Flour

Retire to a farm next to the woods with Mystic Flour

Have our children and grandchildren come to celebrate holidays together with Mystic Flour

Take long hikes into the woods while holding hands, remembering all the amazing events we had in our life with Mystic Flour

Pass away while at home, surrounded by family, holding hands with Mystic Flour

As the void takes me, take the sight of a smile, covered with a stream of never ending tears, and feeling the warm embrace and kiss of Mystic Flour

...

All this mf did was sleep in a cocoon and she's already SERVING CUUUUUUNT 💅✨️

[happi-meals]

Had a great yet simple meal just now :-)

Steamed sweet potatoes and steamed zucchini on a bed of rice, and a turkey sandwich on wheat bread with mustard and vegan mayo.

Twas a very easy-to-cook meal as each entre and side only needed 2 seasonings + oil for the pan (salt and pepper). Actually the sweet potatoes had 3 ingredients lol: i added yummy wildflower honey with pepper and plain salt! I didnt exactly want candied yams but i do like it when theyre sweet. The taste is quite nostalgic as I grew up eating these sweet orange roots as a kid. Mama would make them extra sweet, but this time I spared myself the film of sugar on my teeth lol.

The turkey sandwhich was the protein part of my meal + an effort to stave off spoilage of the lasts of my turkey slices i got last week or so from Aldi. I worry about choloesterol now that im not vegan anymore (and havent been for several years now lol). But i think this type of meal is perfect for keeping those lvls under control bc of the low saturated fat contents and the nutriional benefits of the lean meat. Ive always liked turkey and plan to continue eating it with other meals like this. Who knew a simple lunch meat samdwhich could be part of a nice dinner? 😁

The water I explicity included in the photo bc its summer time! So while always is a good time to hydrate properly, summer is especially so. And Georgia summers can be brutally hot (which I dont mind! I love a Southern summer!). I want to get more used to drinking plain water again. When I was vegan it was easier, but now I notice I only ever have a taste for it if i'm very thirsty or add some sort of sweetening element, like sweet tea or juice. Thats not an issue in itself, but id hate for the incentive to drink water to depend on if it doesnt taste like water? Lol its not like i dont enjoy water. Its a very distinct crisp taste thats always refreshing, esp on a hot day. But getting enough water is a challenge. So making it an explcit element to this meal serves important reminder to hydrate regularly and appreciate water as is when I can!

I'm happy about this meal as it was so easy and my timing was rlly good. I started the yams first, then the rice, and lastyly the zucchini. So none of my food was too cold or too mushy or overcooked by the time it was all ready. Thats a big deal for me!

I wanted to steam cabbage as well and add a cucumber salad but alas lol. I prepared the cucumber salad though and added ginger. I dont have red onions rn but the cucumber marinating in apple cider vinegar, salt, and pepper. I'm excited to eat it tomorrow as part of my breakfast!

[twinkbasement]

i really am despairing and just hopeless in a way that i genuinely dont think ive been before and its rlly fucking with me. like, by all acounts, i am More supported than i have been before, and thats almost part of the problem? i feel ungrateful for feeling So Bad. i don't do Anything, i dont attend uni, i dont write my essays, i dont have a job, i dont clean my flat, i dont rlly cook a lot. of the things that Have to happen so we can continue to live in this flat, or i can continue to access medical services so my life doesnt get worse: those things are often put off way past the last minute and i need a lot of support to do at all. also, rn my life is mostly just calling A Service TM, getting a bullshit response, complaining, calling again, finally getting through to someone who knows whats going on, complaining, rinse repeat. ITS EXHAUSTING! not only that but sitting every day in bed or at my desk refreshing tumblr or staring at my screen saver thinking to myself 'what am i going to do?' and coming to the conclusion of nothing because i have nothing to do, i enjoy nothing, i want nothing, i cant concentrate long enough on anything or process information well enough to do things Anyway. ykw its not even true i dont Want to do anything. i do. i Want to write my essays, on some level i am genuinely interested in the topics. i just Cant. i want to read. i've been pretty keen on reading complaint by sarah ahmed for a while now or maybe rereading whipping girl or even giving notes on suicide another go? but i cant make myself start because i Know that i wont get far and its so fucking depressing. im getting so high, the come down is genuinely distressing because of how scrambled and disorganised my brain becomes and i become so afraid i will be like that forever. and yet i do it EVERY DAY! im struggling extremely badly with some interpersonal shit that has completely destroyed any self esteem or confidence i had in my appearance and my worth. add onto that that i am a massive Massive financial drain and even if i wasnt our finances are just.. Bad? so i was like, ok, fssw time again, that wont be too bad, i can do that. and then i fucking set up by whore phone and downloaded the grindr apk (and it was fucking horrible and evil to do and i hate that evil horrible useless phone) (also did u know u need to send in id for age verification on google now? 101 internet safety says to not do that are u crazy?) and started getting dms and i wanted to cry i got so overwhelmed. like idk if i can do it, but like.. i kinda gotta? idk man. im trying to see things positively? like, i got the form for the work capability assessment and spent all of yesterday photocopying medical letters which detail diagnoses and assessments and reference hospitilisations, etc but also the dwp are evil so who knows if its enough? im trying to get my pip reevaluated but they havent even sent me the Form for that yet? so again! who! knows! i feel like im in beurocracy hell and i cant leave? my uni are trying to work with me, but multuple medical professionals have told me to interrupt or drop out and like if people who are meant to be like have something in your life to keep you going dont think i can do it, what chance do i have of Actually doing it? i dont know what to do anymore.

[lunatic-fandom-space]

alright so, I have thoughts about the season 5 finale and theyre pretty much all negative. Also, even though Im done with the series I still have a lot of thoughts specifically about whether its a good kids show or not, but I'd have rewatch some kids shows I think are good to refresh my memory a little before I write a detailed analysis on it, so for now this will probably be my last mlb post in a while

A lot of people are really upset because Gabriel got redeemed through death and is presumably going to be remembered as a good person or atleast A Dad Who Tried and a lot of people who liked the finale are responding to that by being like "no, hes not been redeemed, the series constantly showed us how objectively awful of a father he was and how impossible it was to sympathize with him despite his seemingly noble intentions and now hes dead, he hasnt been redeemed and the show is not trying to get us to sympathize with him in any way" and no. I think thats wrong

Lets talk about Chloe for a second. Chloe started out as the obligatory standard mean girl that every show for girls feels the need to have, but then in season 2 the writers were like "what if she had she had some character development, some setup for a full-on redemotion arc later down the line even?" so they put her sob-story about how the was neglected in there and did some other stuff to make her more sympathetic. They werent all that consistant about it tbh, but this is Miraculous Ladybug and thats how we roll babeyy. And then they were like "nevermind actually, we dont want this anymore" and just like that, they stopped bringing up her sob story and stopped trying to make her sympathetic. I get the impression that they were still trying to atleast make her interesting in season 3 with her resisting that akuma but by season 4 she was just more awful and more pathetic than ever before.

Gabriel and his dead-wife-sob-story is functionally the same as Chloe and her neglectful-parents-sob-story except the writers never changed their mind on Gabriel being a sympathetic, if still villainous, character. Like with Chloe, theyre not particularly consistant about it, with there being multiple episodes where hes perfectly fine abusing his son and putting him in danger for the sake of getting the Miraculous. I think that mostly stems from the fact that the writers ultimately want him to be a sympathetic and even tragic character but there are some episodes, like Cat Blanc and Ephemeral, where they just want him to be The Most Evil even towards his own son for the sake of furthering Marinette and Adriens drama, all of that on top of this shows general tendancy towards inconsistancy

So, tldr: no, I think we are meant to sympathize with Gabriel Agreste and also, I doubt we're going to really address him now because I think as far as this show is concerned, we're done with that guy now. the agreste arc is over and we're just not gonna get into it

The other thing that I wanted to talk about was Adriens absence during the fight against Monarch. Ive seen some people defend this by being like "Cat Blanc and Ephemeral prove that Monarch cant ever find out that his son is Cat Noir because he would take advantage of him and his distress and it would result in the end of the world", some people also say that those episodes are proof that Adrien "wouldnt be able to handle the truth" which is really infantilizing and stupid and I dont feel like talking about that particular take rn, so I'll just talk about the former. Obviously my first response to that would be, its a story written by people, they couldve simply not written that in order to have a more dramatically satisfying conclusion. But, if I were to stop being Doylist for a second, I would say, when Ladybug told him that Gabriel Agreste might be Hawk Moth, Adrien was distressed and in denial but nowhere close to becoming akumatized. And I recognize that there is a difference between your friend telling you they suspect your dad of being a supervillain and actually finding out about it for yourself, but still, it couldve and shouldve been different

The thing that kills me about this finale is that I genuinely dont know why it had to be this way because I dont think its like, thematically satisfying which is the first explanation my mind jumps to for these kinds of weird endings.

Like, MLB has this theme of identity and while I dont think its executed that well, its definitely the most complex out of the line up of pretty simplistic themes this show has, so we're gonna talk about it

Ladybug and Adrien are the Ideal to Marinette and Cat Noirs Authentic Self. Theyre not wholly seperate though, because Marinette and Ladybug and Adrien and Cat Noir respectively are still the same people, mask or no mask, its kinda like code-switching actually. You probably act differently around your friends than you act around your family, that doesnt necessarily make one way you act inauthentic. However, Marinette and Chat Noirs situations are not the same; there are two major differences between them and they are connected. Ladybug is essentially Marinettes creation, shes like that OC you have thats like you in every way except theyre cooler and better than you and stuff like that, while Adrien is Gabriels creation, not his own

Marinette starts to become more like Ladybug even when in civillian mode because shes becoming the person she wants to be all the time, shes becoming the Ideal that she set for herself, shes not losing any part of her Authentic Self, shes just changing for the better and finding balance and security. Its different for Adrien because in order to find that same balance between the Ideal and Authentic Self, he needs to shed the Ideal that his father is imposing on him and create on based on what he actually wants, which he cant do because of how controlling he is. As a result, Adrien keeps those two personas almost entirely seperate and they dont meld together into one fully realized identity in the same way they did for Marinette. And I find it interesting because obviously his father is the one forcing Adrien to be the way he is in civillian mode, but hes also inadvertantly giving him an excuse, and even forcing him, to be himself and to "act out" when fighting Hawk Moth/Shadow Moth/Monarch

And idk, I feel like the natural conclusion to all that would be to have him fight Monarch directly in order to truly reclaim himself and start on the path to create his own identity. I guess they kinda tried to do that with the rings but like, he had no agency in that, he doesnt know the true significance of those rings, so it just has no impact

Anyway, thats pretty much it, Im suprised that I had nothing to say about the Senti stuff but honestly, for how much I was worrying about all that, it ended up being a pretty minor part of the actual season and while I hate the concept, they didnt really give me anything to complain about, so yeah

Thanks for reading ^^

[floortile34]

wtf editor crashed and i lost my draft fuck this. ugh anyway this is going in drafts will write eventually

uhh okay a few mins later feeling decent enough to try again

1: autism, system members, outside friends

3: meh i dont really like films

4: shared vocal stims if they count

5: chased off twitter (controversial), chased off reddit (controversial), youtube doesnt give genuine social contact, discord servers demand too consistent attention to keep up with

6: best is getting attention when i want, worst is getting attention when i dong want (not famous enough for anyone to explicitly demand me to pay attention to anything thankfylly)

7: senescence, unhealable injury

8: syscest (tho mostly daydreams and hypnagogic dreams since we dont remember proper sleep much anymore)

9: this is all a story of my childhood. gen alpha best generation fuff yeah (joke ofc i dont discriminate on age)

10: kinda but not as much as i want. yipee mood swings

11: reading them your new smut drafts while theyre depressed and bedrotting

12: never tell school psychs about your problems. especially self-harm or suicide ideation. if needed go to a warm line that cant tell your parents or get you involuntarily committed. if it's enough talk to me i love listening to vents :3

13: sitting in class. recovering from nausea caused by sleep depriv + caffeine

14: od again tbh..

15: my headspace room

16: uhh too much to choose from..

18: ghosts prolly dont exist. aliens do but esrthlings prolly wont contact any sapient ones during this system's lifetime

19: bright

20: everything. dark, cold, quiet. wonderful i luv her <3

getting scared of this bugging out and getting deleted again gonna post then edit the rest in

21: not really. but we do play into our delusions and sometimes thats close

25: winter. basically permanent night <3

26: magenta. impossible colur. is cool plus just looks nice

27: puppy/ouppy/oupy/fuffy/ other variants

28: empty mentos tubes, misc electronics (discarded disposable vapes great to rip lithium batteries out of)

29: not tryna get yermed here, yeesh. i do entirely healthy mental health practices and wont elaborate

31: organised tho doesnt look like it. dirty in ways that arent too bad for sensory

32: 3. all are tumblr and one just dumped ram and refreshed cause i dunno how to force disable ram clearing for this app

35: i basically have the same level of trust for everyone i cant blackmail. so yeah

36: book too tired to infodump. and youll never figure any of my realspace stuff out for sure unless i can blackmail you

38: kyle gordon: crawl to me

39: markiplier. has made huge amounts of good content and seems like a pretty good person from what we audience members can figure out

questions I think would be fun to be asked

what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?

show us a picture of your handwriting?

3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

what’s an inside joke you have with your family or friends?

what made you start your blog?

what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

what scares you the most and why?

any reacquiring dreams?

tell a story about your childhood

would you say you’re an emotional person?

what do you consider to be romance?

what’s some good advice you want to share?

what are you doing right now?

what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?

what do you think of when you hear the word “home”?

if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

name 3 things that make you happy

do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?

favourite thing about the day?

favourite things about the night?

are you a spiritual person?

say 3 things about someone you love

say 3 things about someone you hate

what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

fave season and why?

fave colour and why?

any nicknames?

do you collect anything?

what do you do when you’re sad?

what’s one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?

are you messy or organised?

how many tabs do you have open right now?

any hobbies?

any pet peeves?

do you trust easily?

are you an open book or do you have walls up?

share a secret

fave song at the moment?

youtuber you’ve been obsessed with and why?

any bad habits?

(this post was stolen from @teenage-mutant-ninja-freak, since it couldn't be reblogged anymore)