#(well that's a lot of tags but i needed to vent)

[unhinged-waterlilly]

Hello!

Something about @/demigod-jack-hearth

Something I wanna say about this post (with my reblog on it). I wanna give a side of a story. Mine to be exact.

They were one of the first people I talked to outside of rp. They were a close friend. But that fades.

I DONT WANT THEM TAGGED IN THIS I DONT WANT THEM TO KNOW ABOUT THIS. I HAVE THEM BLOCKED. IF THEY LEARN ABOUT THIS, IT IS BECAUSE SOMEONE SEND THIS TO THEM.

Tw: sa, strong language, I'm a little bitch, please please please read at your own risk

When start this by saying Jack worries me. I've seen so many post, rp or otherwise, where they bring up extremely triggering comments...just randomly. This has happened to me too. I don't get bothered by them I've been lucky enough to not deal with most and be comfortable with what I have dealt with. I think he needs professional help. Or to talk to someone that is an adult. This is difficult for some people. But there are free therapy websites out there. I have seen them. I have participated in them. The people on the other line aren't professionals but they are people willing to listen. And adults.

It started with when I saw an rp they had with camp Sky. I can't give screenshots of that but I do have some of confronting them.

Now all good right? Yeah! I thought so too. Untill an anon confronts em.

Posts here and here

Oh...kay? What's wrong about this?

Yeah...

Actively calling out anon

Now mind me I thought they had buried this au deep deep into the ground. Wasn't until I opened Circe's blog that I realised they didn't. I was pissed. I had every reason to be. We have so few stories of male victims as it is and this 'au' was blatantly disrespectful to victims of all genders. I felt really fucking disrespected that's for sure.

Unfortunately I don't confront them. But I do vent.

Now I feel bad for this. Maybe this was dirty laundry I shouldn't have aired out. But I was just so angry I couldn't think properly. I didn't mention Jack in this post, but friends figured it out. I won't say who these friends are for obvious reasons. Also, this is a bit wrong. They thought Odysseus cheated with only Circe, and Calyspo was SA. I got that wrong, and I admit it. I only remembered that when I scrolled up our dm to take a screenshot of it.

Now I wanted to leave that convo because I wasn't in the mood for arguing, and I've learned to give people what they want, which makes em and yourself stop. My fault again.

Things happen. It leads to the apology. Now, obviously, I can't tell if an apology is genuine through a screen, and I am most certainly a pessimist. So, like, I don't think it is. Also, I'm almost certain that most was written by whoever the friend was who 'helped' em.

Sure, people can change, but not enough times do they actually. Just look on the Internet. And real life. A person like Jack, well, they've talked to me enough to know it is most likely not the case. If they were so angry at a piece of good criticism, then I don't have much hope.

Am I an angry person ? Yes. Do I think I have the right to be? Yes. Am I also a logical person? I believe so. The people I've asked think so, too. I don't dislike something for no reason. But I do dislike things. What I do like is reasons for my dislikes. With me so far?

Good. Moving on.

After the apology and after I finally got my thoughts in order, I sent them a message because they tagged me. A lot.

This is what I sent. It's emotional, but in my opinion, it also makes sense. I was mad they lied to me. I was mad they twisted the story so. Fucking. Much. Odysseus isn't a rapist and Circe isn't an innocent flower. That is not what an AU is. What was their reaction to this? Nothing. To me at least.

A mutual friend told me they sent the last half of my messages and told them that they were angry I. Didn't. Thank. Them. For. The. Apology. Take that for what you will.

Now they made another post replying to the first anon who criticized them. I've read it. And when I tell you it is so fulled with self-pity-

I haven't collected my thoughts properly about this so this is bad and more emotion than the above. but this is the basic things behind it.

1) never directly addressing what he did and constantly tell em to read the apology. Don't wanna repeat yourself. How much time is it gonna take out of your day exactly?

2) not acknowledging the fact the male sa victim. At all. They don't say anything about it. No 'my condolences'. No 'I'm so sorry that happened to you' . Not acknowledging how terrible of a thing that is. At all.

3)says they aren't gonna defend themself... and defend themselves

4) have yet to tell us who these people are. Which is just bad cuz there are people out there who are okay with this. If they were IRL friends just say that.

5) it felt just fucking dull

Maybe this isn't right. Maybe you disagree with these points. But do not tell me you disagree with the rest.

I wanna end this by saying I am victim of SA. Did I tell him this? No. Maybe I should've. I don't feel comfortable sharing it. Because remembring fucking hurts. Remembering means crying and opening the lights and either sitting or laying down on my back because I can still. Fucking. Feel. It. And I was nine.

I don't want your pity on this. I don't want you to say sorry. The people you should be saying sorry to are the people who are not believed when this happens. Feel sorry for the people who cannot report this stuff because they don't trust the people who are supposed to protect them. Feel sorry for the people who think it was their fault and they actually wanted it when they didn't. 63% of rape are not reported in females. Only 12% of child rapes are reported.

I can't find a clear fucking statistics on males.

Do you know how difficult it is for males to have any representation at all? How many male victims do you see online? Even Odysseus being regonized as one is recent. Fucking. Stop. This is more than a made up story. It means the world to some people. So this actually happen. It might mean everything. This was taken away from them from so many retellings. And a stupid fucking au.

If you want to talk about SA, wanna make a character out of it, learn about it first.

So I'm not going to forgive and I am definitely not going to forget. You can. If you want. I don't care if you do. But I ask you not to forget. Please.

I am tagging Jack's taglist

@zariahthewitch @thegroovydaughterofhestia @if-chaos-was-a-boy @the-gods-strange-children @silena-daughterofaphrodite @fabulousdaughterofhecate @weakest-son-of-sun @chaos-pers0nified @neoptolemus-achilles-son @bast-the-best26 @goddess-of-bubblegum @hispanic-child-of-hermes @gaygirldoodles @luck-is-crucial @reyna4ever @vicious-daughter-of-zeus @feral-hermes-child @oopsies-i-did-a-thing @unfortunate-daughter-of-hestia @that-girl-cupid @ariathemortal @love-lightning-forethought @emdabitchass @kaiaalwayswins @champion-of-revenge @zoe-aura-of-d3ath @itsyourboyezra @lunar-eklipso-r @pink-koi-lovejoy @that-daughter-of-athena @sleepy-as-a-song @smileyalater @gellyhelio @daughter-ofthe-moontitan @demeters-daughter-is-done @the-smart-and-the-dumb-one @trinket-snatcher @creature-under-ur-bed @burnt-out-bitxhes @cloak-of-ares @heraaaaaaaa @unproblematic-hestia @i-was-never-sane

[dilutedbeanibeans]

something something broken angel

[talleslittlelion]

Things will be okay eventually

[dragonlordazuroth]

Bro, Squishmallows are complicated as fuck.

I'm trying to make a list of Squishmallows that I already have, and I'm trying to make it as comprehensive as possible, but it's quickly becoming complicated. There are a LOT of Squishmallow's (which I know sounds obvious at first, but it's simply baffling just how expansive the product line is), and it's more difficult to find help in collecting them than I had assumed.

First off, I'm trying to figure out the size range, and I keep getting mixed results. I keep seeing sources that say there are 12 sizes for Squishmallows (3.5, 5, 6, 7, 7.5, 8, 10, 12, 14, 16, 20, 24 inches), but according to the wiki for Gio and Shahzad, they come in 4.5", which is the size I have both of them in. Then I found one source saying that there wer a whopping TWENTY-ONE sizes, going all the way up to 28", yet all the other sources insist that the line stops at 24". And when it comes to the smaller Squishmallows, I see sources going "oh yeah, all the mini Squishmallows are 2 inches", but these exclude the Micromallows, which are 2.5 inches. In fact, when I search up minis, all that comes up is the Squishville lines. I had to dig to find the Micros (which sucked bc I forgot what they were called).

Secondly, there are far more lines and offshoots of these things than I initially realized. Like, you have the regular Squishmallows, (including the keychains even though I would assume they'd be considered a separate thing but the size charts consider them the same so idk), there's also Squishville, Micromallows, Fuzzamallows, Flipamallows, Squooshems (which I don't think are even plushies), Squishdoos, Stackables, and Squeezemallows (which I had trouble finding ANY info about and only ever saw ONCE at a single Target store), and also the Mystery Squad(s?) (which I don't know if they count as part of the regular line or not). That's not even including the trading cards, hats, shirts, slippers, ornament, baskets, costumes, accessories, pet beds, pet toys, and lord KNOWS what else.

Lastly, there are multiple versions of most of the Squishmallow characters. Whether it be different sizes, different product lines, seasonal versions, or whatever else the creators might choose to through out there, it feels like there's an infinite list of both characters and character iterations.

It hasn't taken me long to realize Squishmallow collecting is complicated, even to a casual fan such as myself. And I find it strange that despite its large fanbase of avid collectors, it isn't easy to find any sort of comprehensive and all-encompassing guide to 'Mallow hunting. Nevertheless, I'm a stubborn bastard who loves cute plushies, and by god I'm gonna give it my best shot.

[mars-ipan]

steroids have decided the two emotions for tonight are Gamer Rage and Deep Yearning Sadness

[havockingboo]

soft and comfort, and warm like the sun

omg Guard Dog fact that’s tied to these doodles!!

Beowulf is probably one of the only people that gets to see Papyrus like this. I guess Papyrus trusts him to be this vulnerably emotional with, especially like this. Though he’s still private about what’s on his mind, maybe he’s afraid that he won’t make sense or Beowulf won’t understand, which isn’t true! He knows this for a fact! But you know…it’s not exactly the most easiest thing for him to just, let out…so, Beowulf is more than willing to be Papyrus’ shoulder to cry on. And Papyrus isn’t complaining!! Boy can he cry, doesn’t help that Beowulf just feels so comforting to hold, and be hugged by. This tends to go on for a solid 30 minutes or so, he just really doesn’t want to let go, afraid that maybe, he won’t get a chance like this again..I mean, shoot if Papyrus didn’t force himself to stop crying and let go, they both would’ve been in his room for hours.

The future royal guardsman have to be tough!!! He has to be tough, crying won’t do! It won’t get the job done! There’s nothing else you can do besides push forward! There’s always a bright side, a brighter future, try and try again! There’s no need to cry over your failures, or how people haven’t noticed how cool you are! They will sooner or later! But…it can be, a bit hard at times to hold himself up for so long. He’s gotten pretty good at hiding it though, you know, deflecting or projecting it onto others…but Beowulf somehow helped him just, let loose. Something Papyrus is very not accustomed to!! That’s more of his brother’s thing, “let loosing” was lazy talk!!! However, he honestly isn’t complaining that he gets to sit and hangout with someone like Beowulf. There’s just something about him that just makes him feel…wanted.

Uh yeah…they’re really good friends!!

[inniave]

half the time i make a personal post i talk so much in the tags tumblr doesn't even post them all 😭

[zoppzoop]

GAAHAHHHHH

[daz4i]

while I'm not one for romantic relationships or long term stuff i really do hope i meet someone who makes me feel big emotions again (spongebob getting a piano dropped on him meme. of the positive sort) somewhere. somehow. it's been so long. bc of shitty therapy i conditioned myself into stepping back and never letting myself feel and i just want to know someone who'd be able to make me break this conditioning and return that same amount of emotions too. one more time

[sherl-grey]

🍃☔️🏞⏰🖌

[deus-ex-mona]

i thought of my family. i ✨shrivelled up inside✨

[hellpupp]

Big Sad

[petitgalaxy]

..

[inkats]

Ahem. Realization that I’m reverting back to sixth grade -> thinking about the state of sixth grade. Hm. I might not be doing too well right now. Or maybe I am doing well and getting better I am just comfortable in the misery?

[that-stingray-moved]

this whole kdin situation actually makes me feel so sad. not only has rt always been bigoted, but they never want to change, and never want to own up to anything. something that also really rubs me the wrong way is that the employees who commented in the matter only talked about how like “it was a long time ago ive stopped saying those words 🥺” and literally nobody from rt is talking about the systematic worker abuse that was so rampant. how you couldnt go to HR or anyone about your discrimination because of your race or sexuality or gender or anything because they just dont care. how they criminally overworked all the employees, and refused to even pay them. i cant even imagine what other shit theyve been doing that we dont know of yet. i feel ashamed for going to their events, and paying for their merch and for first. we knew they were bad but like fuck it really is rotten to the core. (sorry for the dump hope youre doing well ❤️)

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[dewgongs]

i helped my mom cook dinner and we bonded a bit, its one of my favorite foods ever which is chicken broccoli alfredo.. i feel happy. i took more trash out of my room and im happy about it too... ive been getting more interested in photography... its pretty nice out today. its not as hot as yesterday. yesterday was very stagnant and hot... each day i do something that is worth doing, each day has been longer and more fuffilling. i feel like ive been remembering my days better...