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opikiquu · 5 months

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aventurine pl. Plea s e . PLLEEEEEEASE

#★ arin rambles #‘here we go again’ you think everytime you see my ramble tag. I dont blame you #AVENTURINE AVENTURINE PLEASE SAVE ME WHITE BOY #OH MY LORD #OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS OH MY GOODNESS.#MY JSOE IS RUNNING HES RUINNING MY LIFE I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE IM SO ILL PLEASE I #AVENTURINE. im so serious i can talk about this man all day. and more specifically this video #‘it was just posted 30 minutes ago arin youre scaring the kids’ SILENCE. I NEED SPACE #I NEED A. A MOMENT. EVERYBODY PLEAS GETA WAY FROM ME IM GOING TO GET SO SCARY #Please. Im so sorry. Im begging you . I love this man oh my gish please hes so cute #HES SO CUTE. HES SO CUTE IM SO SICK OF HIM WHY???????? WHY IS HE SO PRETTY HES SO PRETTY HES GOREGOUS HES SO STUNNING. HELLO. HELLO.#Im going to. Slam my head against the wall im overwhelmed with joy and happiness hes everything ive ever wanted ever #any minute not spent talking about him is a moment wasted i promise you MY PRINCESS IM COMING TO SAVE YOU #IM HIS KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR EXCEPT ITS NOT SHINY #IM COVERED IN DIRT #IM STILL COMING FOR YOU AVENTURINE RUN #oh goodness me oh my #im so happy hes so prettu im so happy i cant do rhis im sweating geniumnly i feel so sick #Im cant . Do this anymore. I CANT TAKE IT. I HAVE TO… AAUGH… AAAHH… I HAVE TO…. DANCE!#guys…. he my favorriet…#my slinky….. my krimpet… my teacup i think. My doc mc stuffins doctor playset. My dishwasher. My italian coldsteel cinquedea . atp anything #hes my EVERYTHING. MY EVERYTHING…!!!!!!!! *MY TELEKENISIS THROWS EVERYTTHING ACROSS THE ROOM*#yall i dont think ive had a hyperfixation this horribly bad since. Since the. Since. MAN I DONT KNOW #IM COOKED. HE WOMT LEAVE ME ALONE. I LITERALLY DREAMT OF HIM LAST NIGHT LIKE IM SO DOOMED? ACTUALLY?#oh to be medicated and focus on . Things like cooking. Or idk. Getting a job. No i just think about some messed up blonde all day im absolut #ly DOOMED #yes im still yapping i got 30 tags u gon stick through them all. Every single one of them. Dont leave me please i want to talk about him ton #TO SOMEONE. I WANT TO TALK ABOUT HIM TO SOMEONE ALL DAY. ALL MY FRIENDS ARE TESTING. IM LEFT ALONE ALL DAY I JUST WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY WIFE #i womder how crazy i look right now #Sighs lovingly at him..

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aropride · 1 year

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my shirt that says "i don't have an eating disorder" has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt

#text #(this is a reference to another tweet i dont have a shirt that says that)#ed tw #weight loss tw #talk about weight in general tw #like yes i eat the same thing almost every single day & have to force myself through every bite #no i dont have an eating disorder #i just have autism and anxiety and its making my life a little bit unliveable at the moment ❤️#i know i also have arfid which yes is an eating disorder but not like. in the way people probably think of if they look at me during #a meal and judge the way im eating and decide they think i have an ed (which i know is anxiety and nobody does that but still)#but i probably wouldnt get diagnosed bc im at a ''healthy weight''#even tho i know that for My Body it's not healthy . i was eating relatively well for a brief period of my senior year of high school #& very briefly my freshman year of college #and i got to around [number] both times #and they were both short periods of time so i still dont know what like. a healthy weight would be For Me and for My body #but i know a doctor would tell me my weight rn is Normal and Good and that if i gain weight thats Bad and Wrong #even though i am definitely not eating enough and not getting enough Fuel For My Body To Work Right #its such bullshit. also i hope whoever invented the bmi kills themself #Well anyway. swagever ive been eating one singular slice of pizza for half an hour so i gotta get back to that

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brianskangs · 6 months

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I AM FINALLY DONE WITH THIS DEGREE AFTER A YEAR OF STRUGGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#literally gonna cry tears of joy because ma i made it!!!!!!#struggling between work work and school work and literally staying up till like 4-5am every weekend to complete assignments...#has really taken a toll on me...#like i literally woke up this morning and somehow sprained my ankle????????? LIKE WHAT????????#3 days right before my 28th bday and a week before my japan trip lmao.. talk about perfect timing...........#literally crying as i hobbled my way to the doctor just now because it hurts like a bitch to walk #ANYWAYS!!!!!!!! I HAVE MY FREEDOM BACK NOW AND IM SO EXCITED TO CATCH UP ON EVERYTHING THAT IVE MISSED SINCE COMEBACK STARTED SFKHDKSJ #(yes that includes listening to the album for the first time)#((and yes this means i have the time to make more gifs now))#personal

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sunday-12-25 · 1 month

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love being crazy. never a dull moment

#its ridiculous how i present myself and my symptoms so neatly sorted VERSUS how i actually experience that shit first-hand #we were doing some grounding safe-space exercise with my doc today n i was you know. imagining the places #n then out of nowhere i saw -her- there. i dont know why it felt so surprising but... she came for me and i was so... touched #like i... think i just... i didnt know she was real? i thought. god this sounds so miserable but i really thought i was making her do this #even though weve been talking for years and shes been my comfort. but i think its cuz she came when i didnt expect her and she just took my #hand and i. i did feel safe #it did feel like a safe space. but then i was so shocked by this whole thing that i forgot why we were even doing this exercise in the firs #place n my doc was like so! what did you see : ) n i know i could. have been quiet but i guess we were trying to mask less and i was still #so shocked that i really just told her. yes doc i... saw a... a friend. shes been with me for a while now but i was still thinking shes jus #a character or something. but she came to me and she told me she cared and im just so happy that shes real bcs i love her #ive loved her and i thought i was making her stay but she wanted to stay with me! bcs she loved me too!!#and i was like trying not to spontaneously cry bcs i legit was NOT expecting any of that. and i was also ... actually i dont think i though #abt it feeling cringe. even tho it. is a little difficult... but i DID think about how strange it felt to be honest abt it with a doctor #bcs its like... with the docs ive had and life in general its always...not about being honest but abt HOW WILL SAYING THIS HELP ME GET X #and yeah i dont trust them. even tho i... trust these doctors i guess. theyve been handling it well for years. they admit the system #still it feels so damn unsafe to mention anything cuz how crazy is TOO crazy for a person with power over you... anyway i do trust the doc #n she knew. but its still weirdddd to mention shit abt it that is not life or death. but it was so out of nowhere and i was so happy like #KATRIN!!! KATRIN SHES REAL!! SHES REAL OH GOD SHES ACTUALLY THERE FOR ME IM GOING TO CRY!!!! WHAT WERE WE TALKING ABT

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nctyaoi · 2 months

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transblr i had my consultation with my surgeon for top surgery yesterday and he had me in tears, i cant believe this is actually going to happen

#he talked to me about my parents and about friends and was really accepting and cool #and he was like this will be one of the most important days of your life and im like yeah. yeah it will be..#im so used to suppressing my emotions and it still hasnt hit me but i do have a major headache today #im terrified of how work will react but i know myself is more important #im already miserable at work and keep thinking about quitting anyway but also i dont have many other options for jobs #but i have to do this for myself. i have to.#i have two doctors notes telling me its necessary..#if my boss wasnt a bitch who already secretly wrote me up twice in the past three months then i probably wouldnt be as scared #but ive been so anxious all day today about it #crazy how i cant even be happy about a good thing happening to me #im supposed to be excited and happy but i just feel so scared of other peoples reactions to me #yes biggest moment of my life. however if no one else is happy for me then it feels... bad #scared of telling my family too...... sobs #this is for me. this is for me. i need it.#text #delete later probably

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brokenhardies · 9 months

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Fourth James and Twelve

"Who I am is where I stand. Where I stand is where I fall. Stand with me. These people are terrified. Maybe we can help, a little. Why not, just at the end, just be kind?"

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#ocappreciation #ocapp #ochub #queerocs #OC: James #story: life on mars #i need to talk more about james iv and twelve #tbh like compared to thirteen and jane v where their relationship is just very much implied #james iv and twelve really did love each other #like even under post regeneration trauma twelve basically tells his new girlfriend (the dinosaur) not to hurt his son #and after its killed he makes sure to comfort james before he runs off #they both will do literally anything for each other #like when twelve is in the confession dial dying over and over and over again #james basically goes to gallifrey and injects himself into gallifreyan society as a reminder #'this is why you dont hurt my dad'#the doctor literally has to stop him from planning another time war - and yes even tho the doctor is over the edge #bc of clara's death and everything he still has some form of morality #so basically theyre both messed up during those three episodes lol #then when bill comes into play and the doctor p much adopts her james views her as like #his big sister #that racist who gets decked in the face also gets kicked in the junk by james #so like double whammy :')#its why the master forcing bill to kill james hurts the most tbh :(#i also imagine that they have the best relationship and its one where they can #talk about stuff like twelve was going to tell james about the timeless child and #his true origins but it was interrupted by other events #twelve definitely wins best parent award lol

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voidimp · 5 months

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anyway heres a funny little thing that happened to me today. for context im experiencing some uh. routine bleeding. u know

#im so mad ig i havent been back on t long enough for it to stop it yet #i had to go home sick from work bc this shit hurts SO FUCKING BAD #literally the only thing that has made me actually genuinely cry from pain since i was like. a child. fucking unbearable i hate it here #(yes ive talked to a doctor about it)#anyway u can rb this if u want

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cherrygarden · 6 months

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#i hate being more financially responsible than my parents #I HATE IT #like i've lived through them obsessing over bills and having our services cut many many times and risk our shit being taken from us #and have to listen to my dad making phone calls begging for money from friends and how humilliating that is #and now we're doing a little better but i was raised with that stress and that just doesnt go away #and i see them spend money on shit we don't need and that would be fine if we didn't still have many debts and health issues we keep postpo #postponing bc we don't have money #and since my exchange i've been feeling so guilty about how much money it cost them #and ive talked to them about it when i was applying to give them the chance to tell me no and reconsider #and during it bc i felt like the worst person alive for needing to eat #and after bc i put them in so much debt with my uni that i can't enroll for this semester #and so much shit has happened and ive been feeling guilty and a waste of money and space and most of the time i feel like a shell of myself #and they see it but they dont know what to do because instead of comforting me ever they just put me in a psychologist's office #and just now my mom smiled at me and told me that since they weren't able to give me any presents last year they were talking #and wanted to buy me tickets for lollapalooza this weekend #and i want to go so badly and i entered so many giveaways and stuff but i didnt win so i was also sad about that #but i just looked at her like 😐 because we are definitely not in a financial situation to be spending money like that #like i appreciate the gesture but i've taken enough from them and i already feel guilty #i told her i would feel guilty and wouldn't enjoy it bc they literally don't have the money #and she said ''oh we just can't pay the full amount that we owe right now but we have enough''#???? then put the money on a savings account????? not spend it because you have '''extra'''#which you dont even have!!!!! i told her to prioritise our health bc we all have to get blood work done and exams and multiple doctors and #our general bills!!! like there's more important things that would put me more at ease than a concert which yes would have made me happy #but not like this and not when it's a present out of guilt and inability to know me #and i was crying and she was sad at my reaction and i had to apologise for not accepting it and being like this #literally told her ''i also wish i wasnt like this'' and she said nothing #so that was a fun start to my day :)))))))))#i hate that she thought it was a good idea and i hate that i had to say no #at least i didn't say any of the hurtful things that went through my head so i'll take it as a win #it sucks that we both feel guilty over the uni situation becuase we're both equally at fault

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terriblelizbians · 1 year

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whenever im really really stressed and too scared to open my computer bc there’s deadlines in there, and then i finally peek at my email and there’s something saying the deadline has been pushed back. oh it does something bad to my brain. but good to my heart...

#like thank fuck bc i was procrastinating and about to be Fucked #but also this is absolutely enabling my procrastinatory tendencies #but also it would have been. Bad if i didn’t have more time #i think i would have been able to get it done but then i would definitely skip my early morning class tomorrow #which ive already missed too much of because i can’t exist in the morning #not to start crying about a different issue on this post about one issue but.#it sucks in general the whole ‘you only get our minimal meager accommodations if you give us proof from a hundred doctors’ bs #but my sleep-tired-whatever problems is especially frustrating for me personally #like i know it’s not my fault or my choice and i know it’s literally just how my body works #but it feels like. impossible to convey to people who demand that sort of proof #’sorry i keep missing your class. um well it’s because im too tired. yes i know everyone is but it’s different for me. it’s like a Thing.’#i know technically i can go get like. specific sleep related tests all done or whatever.#i just don’t like talking to doctors about my problems lol

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tiredlinguist · 1 year

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doctor who will always be The Show to me. watching episodes i haven’t watched in years, noticing little things i didn’t notice my first time watching, laughing as i recall how much the 2000s-ass effects used to terrify me when i was younger. and i get to watch it all through a more sophisticated lens; i’m older, so i pick up on more cultural references, know how to listen for motifs in the music, and can appreciate the finer details. nothing will ever be as nostalgic and as comforting. i will always be in the mood to watch an episode or two of that shit.

#ESPECIALLY if it’s s1-s4. absolute golden era. i could talk for ages about the writing and acting and music and story and dialogue.#absolute bonkers disaster masterpiece. made me cry more times than i can count. also has kept me sane more times than i can count.#i know that from an objective viewpoint it’s not the most groundbreaking television #but i simply do not care #this is my beautiful perfect incredible show and i will never criticize it #unless you’re asking me to critique anything from s5 onward OR a chibnall episode. in that case ill tear those hoes to pieces #but otherwise? Yeah.#can’t think of a single time someone has asked me if i wanted to watch dr who and i said no #or a time ive asked myself if i wanted to watch doctor who and the answer was no #it’s always yes. i always love this show. well. parts of it.#it’s complicated. you wouldn’t understand #echoes

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deliciousmicroplastics · 1 year

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hi boss yeah sorry i can't come in today i came down with a case of my chronic illness is going to quit for me if we don't make some major changes after doing this job for three and a half months

#which is to say i called in and told my boss i want to talk about why ive called in multiple times #shits too labor intensive and the people generally possess a type of grit that makes me look stupid and weak bc theyll work sick but i wont #am i missing out on like $130? why yes. that is how sick days go i think. am i going to get a first warning? i can't imagine not getting on #Ugh. well im gonna go contact my doctor and see if he's got any ideas #op #i need a work tag

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senseiwu · 1 year

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Me last year: wow! I can relate a lot to this guy in ways I haven't with other characters! :) this is nice! :)

Me now: ...oh.

#please dont laugh at me but yes this is about the good doctor #i hope this makes sense xhizkbxigzkg #its. been an interesting few weeks.#but things are. kinda starting to make sense the more i think about. everything #im sorry if me constantly talking about possibly having autism is annoying #its been the biggest thing on my mind lately #its also kinda... i dont know.... freeing??#like. now i know theres probably a REASON behind my issues #and maybe not everything is just anxiety like ive been thinking #which gives me a bit of hope that. maybe i can beat the anxiety and ptsd if not everything is caused by them #and maybe then i can #idk #be happy?? or something? idk lmao

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vapesemblestars · 2 years

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