Dear diary,
There’s so much to talk about here and I have no clue where to start. I’ve never been the best at journaling (only because if there was ever an error on the paper I’d want to rip the page out and start all over) so this seems to be the best option LOL. I think I just want to use this as a place to vent frustrations or keep up with myself, quite literally as a diary. I’m still debating on whether I want to mention this on my main blog only because this is definitely more personal haha. We’ll see.
Anyways, 2023 was such a shit year for me omfg. Let’s see: got into a huge argument with my boyfriend on my graduation day, birthday bonfire was ruined, had to put down my rescue dog due to his aggression :(, boyfriend gave me a relationship ultimatum, spent months wondering why I wasn’t enough, and then ended the 7 year relationship. Sounds like a sob story HAHA, but fuck that year sucked.
My friends have been my biggest support system though. I love them so so much and they are amazing for putting up with me constantly. Also they always agree to go traveling with me <3 I have never traveled as much as I have within the past two months than the past 3 years. I’ve somehow managed to talk my best friends into traveling to New York with me soon so I’m super excited for that. Hopefully I can meet the cute mustache man of my dreams there LOL.
Also, being single is so new to me still!! I was dating my ex since I was 15 so being single at 22 feels so strange! I know for sure I’m not emotionally ready for another relationship at the moment, nor am I looking for one, but I do miss the aspects of a relationship. Like the causal hanging out and kissing LOL. (Maybe I need a friend who I can kiss occasionally) For some reason in January, I ended up downloading bumble (dumbass alert!!) and boy was that shit a doozy. Some are of the guys on there were cute [especially if they had a mustache] but it just was not for me. I also felt like if I did end up meeting anyone in person for a date it be awkward to mention that I wasn’t looking for a boyfriend. My bumble account lasted 1 1/2 weeks.
Moving on, I think I like talking to people online atm just because nothing comes of it. I can be flirty and no harm done, but boy is it hard to find people I’m genuinely interested in talking to. It gives me such an ick if someone is overly sexual all the time. I get it’s fun occasionally but if I can’t have a casual conversation with you then no thank you!!! I was talking to this one guy on here (which was dumb on my part because this is tumblr) and we had good conversations (plus he was hot) but it would turn me off as soon as he’d ask for pics, especially after I’ve said no. Ended up blocking him </3 (rest in peace).
I’m in no shape or form wanting to send pics OF ANY KIND (unless they’re cute lil selfies) at the moment anyways. I do not feel good in my body and I’d rather rip my eyeballs out then let someone see me naked (a little extreme but my point stands).
Speaking about my body though, I’m wanting to focus on bettering myself this year! I think there’s definitely a lot of things I’ve been slacking on this year and am wanting to change. My weight is my biggest obstacle at the moment. All I can do is workout and eat better though to fix that (have I been doing it? kind of). I just need better accountability!!! Also I need to stop eating out so often. I’m on the fence about not watching porn though LOL. I think I’ve watched it like every other day for the past few months. Maybe it’s bad for me but idk I just like to c*m.
I think I’ll be updating this every week or every other week? I’m terrible at keeping a routine so who knows. I’m planning on going to the gym tomorrow so, fingers crossed.
Sincerely,
Bunni
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math nerd is back! woo! can i have some please?
5/22/24 WIP Wednesday (Open) | Math Nerd AU
Andrew rolls his eyes and with the way Neil laughs again he feels like Neil can see him despite the distance. "What's the celestial fishing hook's story?" he asks instead.
"Well..."
They spend the night like that. Neil and Andrew looking up at the same sky hours apart as Neil tells him lie after lie on Andrew's request about constellations. There's no guarantee they're looking at the same ones but Andrew will point out Neil's constellations to him the next time they're up on the roof.
It's well past midnight and Neil's spinning a tale about a rabbit that learned to stop running when Andrew interrupts him, "Don't you need to do work for Ichirou."
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palestinian fundraisers
(post made on 02/08/24, last updated 03/09/24)
these are the fundraisers from palestinians that have personally reached out to me recently - please be so kind as to share & donate if you are able:
Save Malak's Dreams and Family from Gaza || @malakabed || €6,217 / €25,000 raised || vetted here by @/90-ghost STAGNATED
Help Nour and his family escape from the war in Gaza || @noorabd1992 || $13,632 / $45,000 USD || vetted here by @roadimusprime
Help Gaza Family Evacuate to Safety || @mahmoud1995 || $13,873 / $50,000 USD || vetted here by @/90-ghost
Helping Ahmed's Family: Escaping War to a New Life || @ahmedabuyamin || €55,604 / €59,000 || vetted here, #264 on the Vetted Fundraiser List CLOSE TO GOAL
Help Doaa Reunite her family || @free-gaza2 || $6,324 / $12,000 USD || vetted here by @/90-ghost (on Doaa's old account, but fundraiser checks out) HALFWAY THERE
Support Safaa's Quest To Get Her Family To Safety. || @safaamm || $12,660 / $75,000 USD || vetted here by @/90-ghost
Urgent Help Needed to Evacuate My Family from Gaza || @ahmed-mohammed1 || €5,722 / €30,000 || vetted here by @/90-ghost STAGNATED
Hope for Gaza: Support Ashraf's Family Rebuild Their Lives || @ashraf-family2 || €21,011 / €25,000 || vetted here by @/90-ghost (on Ashraf's old account, but fundraiser checks out) CLOSE TO GOAL
04/08/24 update with new fundraisers:
Save Malak's Dreams and Family from Gaza || @malakabed ||€6,217 / €25,000 || vetted here by @/90-ghost STAGNATED
Help me and my family escape the war in Gaza || @asmaayyad || €15,621 / €45,000 goal || vetted here by @/90-ghost 1/3 THERE
Help Asmaa to continue school outside of gaza || @as-maa-56 || $9,194 / $50,000 USD || vetted here by @/northgazaupdates
Emergency: Help my family in Gaza || @stupendouswolfearthquake || 12,294 / 750,000 SEK || vetted here by @/90-ghost VERY LOW + STAGNATED (10 $ ≈ 100 SEK)
Save Gaza: A Brighter Future for Aya and Her Family || @ayaalanqarsblog || €10,974 / €15,000 || vetted here by @/90-ghost 2/3 THERE
Support War-Affected Children's Future || @ahmadwaleeed || $8,241 / $25,000 USD || vetted here, #167 on the Vetted Fundraisers List
Urgent! building a new life for the family || @alaakh99 || €9,056 / €100,000 || vetted here by @/90-ghost VERY LOW
05/08/24:
Help us achieve a better future for our children || @aslambalousha || €20,343 / €52,000 || vetted here, #124 on the Vetted Fundraisers List ALMOST HALFWAY - STAGNATED!
07/08/24:
Emergency: Help Evacuate My Family From GAZA WAR || @hayanahed || €83,730 / €100,000 || vetted by Operation Olive Branch, #26 CLOSE TO GOAL
Help my Uncel’s family , BE THE CHANGE || @abuyaserayyad80 || €20,235 / €35,000 || vetted here by @/90-ghost (on Mohammed's previous account, but fundraiser checks out) HALFWAY
09/08/24:
Help the Munna Tashmali Family Rebuild Their Home and Future || @monashamali || £14,029/ £30,000 || vetted here by @/nabulsi ALMOST HALFWAY
Save Dr. Farhat's family from genocide in Gaza || @frhatfamily ||$6,922 / $29,500 USD || vetted here, #248 on the Vetted Fundraisers List
Defend my brother's family from genocide in gaza || @motaz225 || 38,437 / 250,000 SEK || vetted here by @/90-ghost VERY LOW (10$ ≈ 100 SEK)
11/08/24:
Death chases my family in Gaza; you're the HOPE! || @ranakhalafgaza || €11,140 / €50,000 || vetted here by @/90-ghost STAGNATED - NO DONATIONS IN 3 WEEKS
16/08/24:
Urgent help to evacuate Iman and Mohammed’s Family || @ema4uhere89 || $7,939 / $70,000 CAD || vetted by PaliLiberation (Family #1) VERY LOW
Help Us Escape the Ravages of War: Emergency Evacuation Fund || @mohammedaldeeb || €39,889 / €55,000 || vetted here by @/90-ghost 3/4 THERE
22/08/24:
Help me evacuate my family and rebuild a new start. || @basel1995s || 8,053 / 60,000 CHF || vetted here, #214 on the Vetted Fundraisers List VERY LOW (10 $ ≈ 8,5 CHF)
Support Fatima's Family in Gaza After Heartbreaking Tragedy || @fatma--gaza || €7,520 / €20,000 || vetted here by @/90-ghost
Help little children of Gaza stay safe and alive! || @mayadayyad81 || $38,997 / $50,000 USD || vetted here by @/nabulsi CLOSE TO GOAL
Help Abed's Family Survive and Escape Genocide | @abed-rashad13 || $6,307 / $50,000 USD || vetted here by @/el-shab-hussein VERY LOW
Help Rebuild Our Lives in Gaza After Devastating War || @ranin3344 || €8,361 / €80,000 || vetted here by @/90-ghost VERY LOW
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Twisted Ties - psh smau
PLEASE DO NOT SPAM LIKE CHAPTERS
PAIRING: brothers bsf!sunghoon x f!reader
GENRE: childhood friends to loves, forbidden love, fake dating
SUMMARY: In the midst of her chaotic college life, Y/N is blindsided by an invitation to her ex's wedding. With no date in sight and the event looming, her brother throws a lifeline by suggesting she bring his best friend. the mix of nostalgia and free-flowing champagne leads to an unexpected night of passion. Now, Y/N must navigate through a storm of emotions and the potential drama within her tight-knit circle, all while juggling her academic responsibilities. Will this one night stand alter their friendship forever, or could it be the beginning of something new?
WARNINGS: smut, angst, fluff, language
FEATURING: enhypen hyung + makenae line, fromis9 saerom, nct jeno, occasionally other idols
STARTED: april 26 2024
STATUS: completed
join taglist (CLOSED)
- profiles: scholars ksana
- 01 life of the party
- 02 the invite [1.5k w]
- 03 just don’t fuck him
- 04 rules and regulations
- 05 night out
- 06 shopping spree
- 07 stress reliever
- 08 exam day
- 09 japan
- 10 the wedding [4.9k w]
- 11 I fucked up. [1.6k w]
- 12 liquid courage
- 13 jealousy
- 14 unbothered, always
- 15 unexpected guest
- 16 petty [1.3k w]
- 17 longing [3.5k w]
- 18 I wish it was easier…
- 19 pretty
- 20 complicated [0.7k w]
- 21 my girl
- 22 idiot
- 23 back to school
- 24 who are you? [1.7k w]
- 25 they’re onto us
- 26 girlfriend era
- 27 revelation
- 28 betrayal, hurt, reconciliation
a/n: AHHH i’m so excited to introduce my first full length smau!! i really hope you guys enjoy it, it’s been stuck in the back of my head for a while now. more updates to come!!
taglist: @cornenhapovs @myjaeyuns @magssu @leeknowsgfsblog @luminouskalopsia @jentlecoeur @heeslut4life @variety-is-the-joy-of-life @jaeyungxrl @rapmonie2047 @anormieee @nishislcve @leesura @en-happiness @kimsunoops @heelariously @rikiwaify-blog
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