#08222023

[theunstuffedpepper]

These first two weeks postpartum have been going kinda great, honestly. I expected to be wracked with anxiety and fear after the experience of losing Linc last year, and there’s definitely a small amount of that in the background of my mind, but it’s not taken over like I expected it to.

Derrick is a wonderfully healthy little babe. Breastfeeding is going so well; he had lost 5oz in his first few days of life, but by 1.5 weeks, he had already gained the weight back and surpassed his birth weight by a few ounces. He’s now 2 weeks and 4 days old and he has yet to have any formula. I didn’t go into this journey dead set on exclusive breastfeeding but it’s just been going so well that that’s what’s happened so far. I’m proud of myself and I’m proud of him. We’ve bonded so much in these first weeks and we’re kinda kicking ass together. I feel very connected to him already. I have moments where I feel myself falling more in love with him. It’s beautiful.

So far, sleep has been a mess as you’d expect, but I haven’t experienced the frustration of him waking and fussing every time I try and put him down in his bassinet. Once I nurse him to sleep, for the most part, I can tuck him into his bassinet in a swaddle and he’s good. We’re waking about 3 times a night but he’s letting me get 1 longer stretch of about 3 hours each night. I’m piecing together sleep at this point and napping when I can. I’ve been able to rest as much as I need to.

That being said, sitting around and not doing much has been tough. I find myself wanting to do things.. whether it’s laundry or sweeping or just getting out of the house, I want to be able to do things. I’ve been doing little things here and there but I think I’ve been over doing it a little. The last few days, my body has physically regressed in its healing. I feel it. I’m having a hell of a time with digestion this time around and it’s getting worse, not better. My back and neck are incredibly sore and knotted. Time to slow down, rest, and trust that the healing will continue.

My MIL has been here supporting us however we need and that transition of having her here has gone largely better than expected. She takes Holden for the mornings some days and brings meals often. Holden looks forward to going to nana’s house to play with all the toys she has for him there. It’s pretty great. I’m happy he’ll grow up close to his grandmother.

So, all things considered, this postpartum experience has been surprisingly positive so far. I can’t get over how blessed I am to have been able to bring another healthy baby into this world. There’s a part of me that’s terrified that something will happen to him, but that part hasn’t taken over. Things are really, really looking up for us over here.

[kinhship]

Provincetown Part 2 with Andy and Robert

[rozie-rose]

Can I discontinue living in this world?

I don't have the strength and motivation to live and to work.

All I want is to stop living.

[snapthistiger]

exercise 08222023

bike ride to the gym

3 x 10 lat pull

3 x 10 overhead press

3 x 5 dips

3 x 10 tricep press

45 minute spin class

3 x 10 cable press

3 x 10 cable row

bike ride to the hospital, then home

the gym workers received Hershey kisses

my Mom was awake at the hospital. she did ok with her physical therapy. the social worker visited with us and the doctor has recommended that my Mom go to an assisted living facility for further physical therapy rehab. my Mom doesn't want to go to an assisted living facility; instead she want to go home. the doctor said my Mom needs 24/7 care and my Mom balks at that. my niece is planning on staying with my Mom at night and others of us during the day until we can get additional help, like a sitter or something during the day. my Mom's resistance is very stressful for my sister and i. we both want what's best for Mom but also need to carry on with our lives.

middle = we had a video for spin class. instructor was out of town. i thought i wouldn't work hard enough but ended up burning a few more calories than i usually do

bottom = my goodie bag for the gym. i use an old insulated mailing envelope to try to keep from melting the chocolate. Hershey kisses in the bottom and a couple of poptarts for me

temperature = 99F w/ feels like 118F. supposed to be hotter the next 2 days

hope you have a peaceful afternoon and evening..

[lgcpoints]

NAME: OH EUNHYE | DATE: 08222023

SUBJECT: LGC UNIVERSITY STUDENT PROFILE

STUDENT PROFILE: ( 📝 SUBMITTED! )

📝 REGISTERED & ACCEPTED ! WELCOME TO LGC UNIVERSITY.

[yanafiles]

Augustus August: Life Update 08222023

I have a game for everyone: Hulaan niyo kung ano ang ginagawa ko ngayon imbis na maghalungkat ng journal para sa assignment namin sa pinakamamahal naming professor?

Got it right, currently visiting tumblr amidst having no assignment yet. I've been planning to write another blog but kept forgetting, a classmate only reminded me a while ago about my blog and so I figured to stop by for a while.

Lately, I've been preparing some adulting stuff that I find important especially now that I am only less than a year behind graduating, finally ending my student journey. I wanted to be ready when I graduate (kung gragraduate... pls po) in case I have a hard time in getting employed. In short, I need a financial backup so the pressure won't be so pressurizing haha. My scholarship and allowance will be cut off by then.

And recently, I had the courage to change my environment. I joined a different organization requiring a different skill from me. The good news is I no longer edit pubmats, while the neutral news (which is neither a good nor a bad one) is that I planned to continue serving at previous org but with other responsibility. But to tell you, I am still chained in photoshop because I just remembered my pending tasks to the project which my friend and I are involved in. Commitments Yana!! Commitments!

And when I speak of commitments, is it a good thing I have not committed to any relationship yet? Maybe.

But who knows?

School started last week and my schedule is not so tight which I am really grateful for. I am still subscribed to my dorm but ever since last week, I am yet to pass by. I guess I just love being at home. I miss home after being away from it lately. And I also love the people at home.

For now, I have to sign off. I'll be back some time in September. I hope everything will be fine as it is but I am open for improvements. I just finished another Mitch Albom book and if I find the time or manage my time right, I'll be sharing my favorite quotes from there (there's a quite a lot actually). Bye for now.

[sensounico-jp]

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[theunstuffedpepper]

We went on a little outing to a sunflower festival over the weekend! It was our first real outing as a fam of four, aside from trips to the playground. So fun.

Yesterday was a big day for Holden — he officially said bye bye to his binkies. We’ve been reading a “bye bye binky” book for a while and decided finally to just do it. The dentist told us the binkies are pushing his front teeth out and it’s true, I can see it. He had a really hard time adjusting to his first nap without a binky, which was hard for me too, but I stayed strong and we did it. After his nap he got a balance bike from the binky fairy, who took his binkies that we left out while he was sleeping. So cute. He’s uncomfortable on the balance bike for now but I hope he warms up to it. I can’t believe he’s such a big kid already!

[sensounico-jp]

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