#12/10 wish to smooch him and love and appreciate him

[kenobion]

Andrew Garfield for W Magazine

[ellohcee]

smooches loooove youuuu

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

3. What ideas come from when you were little

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in

9. What are your file name conventions

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw

12. Easiest part of body to draw

13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing

14. Any favorite motifs

16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways

22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with

29. Media you love, but doesn't inspir you artistically

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated

I loVEE YOUU!!

smooches you and cracks my freakin McKnuckles OKAY!!

Under the cut though!

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

My default that I can never turn off is 3/4 view facing to the left! (or their right)

3. What ideas come from when you were little

I guess I really liked drawing dragons and pokemon when I was young and those have definitely carried forward

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

oh my god fucking David. I don't know WHY but sometimes he just won't respect me and it's ALWAYS HIM >:(

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

Ooohhhh lord hmmm I would saaay anywhere from 20-40% of stuff never gets posted, either I give up or get distracted or it's just for me for funsies or of the saucy nature

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)

if there is it's too subconscious for me to think of right now!

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

I LOVE heavy oil paintings. I love the TEXTURE, those thick strokes of paint that look like the artist just went ham and globbed it on, delicious, keep slathering that paint on there baby

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in

A lot of "old" stuff I never really lose interest, it just goes dormant, but uhhh I guess the closest would be any ideas for animatics or animations because I KNOW i do not have the patience or the willpower and it just never happens

9. What are your file name conventions

much the same as my fics which is very on the nose simply so I can find what I'm looking for such as:

Not pictured: such classics as merdavid1-5 and selkiejasper1-4

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw

shirts with sleeves rolled up shirts with sleeves rolled uop shirjsj with skeeves fhshfg

12. Easiest part of body to draw

I do not have that option in my settings

13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing

ummm hard to say! Usually if I admire a creator it's because their work IS my thing!

14. Any favorite motifs

Star chart/artsy type constellations

16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing

does "good" mean the results are good or it comes easy? bc I don't have those either, if I THINK I'm good at something I usually have some fun doing it?

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

I don't know if I specialize in anything that anyone finds hard to draw

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways

I like most art styles that aren't like my own! I find a little of something in everything that I wish to absorb or just admire

22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any

I do not!

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by

A really recent one is actually people thinking the magikarp koi variations was about magikarp jump. I've never played it and to be honest I forgot that game existed until droves of people started tagging that drawing as magikarp jump!

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with

I do not, at least not intentionally. Sometimes the first thing or two or three I sketch will be crap and I'll restart and I guess that can count as a warmup?

29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically

Mmmm I guess most anything, but more in the way of "sure I'd LIKE to draw that but I don't want to learn to draw it" I can barely draw the same two nerds I've been obsessing over for the past 3 years you think I have room for new ones??

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated

shakes this aggressively I thought this came out PRETTY DECENT and maybe a little good but it just!! Died!!

[tsunflowers]

ANOTHER RIDERS LEAST TO MOST SEXY

25. another kuuga

his cgi model is so janky and ugly. no

24. another quiz

ugly I hate him

23. another blade

just unfuckable imo

22. another ex-aid

I like this design but it is not sexy and I would not fuck it

21. another zi-o

the baggy crotch pants were a huge mistake. he also looks like an astronaut that died in space and came back

20. another gaim

he’s just boring I don’t feel anything towards him

19. another shinobi

also boring but slightly less boring

18. another ooo

the details of the body are fun but I can’t with that face. imagine waking up to that the morning after. no

17. another decade

he has a thick and powerful body which I appreciate but I don’t like that he has a human face trapped under black lines

16. another zi-o II

definite improvement over another zi-o but that’s all I have to say

15. another kikai

LOVE this guy. but I cannot even begin to imagine how I would fuck him

14. another kabuto

sexy lobster

13. another double

guys got like four faces for extra smooches

12. another drive

his face looks really cool but you can’t see it in this pic so just believe me

11. another fourze

it’s about the teeth

10. another ghost

this guys punk and he’s nastey

9. another faiz

I think he speaks for himself

8. another wizard

you wish this was your man

7. another kiva

idk why the riderwiki render has her holding the ugliest weapon from kiva but fine. she rules regardless. very sexy

6. another ryuki

hes not as good as another ryuga but he is very good

5. another ryuga

he looks basically like another ryuki but his face is better and I love him more

4. another build

very frankenstein’s boyfriend kind of look

3. another den-o

hot stuff

2. another agito

a classic. big sexy

1. another hibiki

beautiful. decadent. handsome. unparalleled. another hibiki is the sexiest another rider

[yikes-xander]

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1. cute cute cute!! I luv tarlos 🥺

2. every time I see anything about tk I realize more n more that I have a type,,

3. tk n owen have the best relationship owen gets the Best Dad Award

4. *slams fists on table* I would die for carlos!

5. I luv bucks smile n would like to give him smooch pls

6. I'm jealous I need boyf I wanna be cute together I deserve kiss 😔

7. the audio choice 🥺 tk deserves all the happiness in the world!!

8. I'm gonna cry IM SOFT BUCK HAS MY WHOLE HEART

9. I need more tarlos content s2 pls come faster thank u

10. I'm very gay n tk is the love of my life, its soft for tarlos hours bb, I luv the group hugs 🥺, I am small n would like buck to give me cuddles that's all

11. mr evan buckley is the man of my dreams, "did I pass?" hes so CUTE IM GONNA CRY, buck being confused is my constant mood, buck is my sunflower I luv he, I would die for everyone at the 126, I've decided that I'm gonna binge lone star again I need to asap

12. best siblings 🥺, I luv bucks laugh n his asking to punch the snake KILLS ME

13. bobby n athena are bucks parents no one can change my mind, ronens laugh n his dogs? *chefs kiss*

14. carlos n I are on the same wavelength - cant stop thinking about baby boy tk

15. oh how I wish I could bake sweets for buck 😔

16. someone take care of buck for once he deserves the world 🥺

17. mr evan buckley may I please hold ur hand sir?

18. I'm sad hello universe pls let me have boyf thanks

19. okay but the first time tk almost died??? that shook me to the core

20. tk is picky baby I relate but carlos is trying his best 😔

[needs-to-stop-looking-at-valves]

Brave police j decker character review!! (1/5)

Alright you guys! Lets get to reviewing the BEST part of this show. The characters!(note, i will not include all villians, despite them meeting my criteria. Too many goddamn people, that honestly? We won't remember. Humans first, bots second, and any other creature last. Bots will have their alt modes.)

Humans!!;

Yuta Tomonaga!!;

Yuuta!! The boss of the brave police! While young,(about 9-10) Yuuta has more passion in his pinky finger than any of the adults on the show. Loving, caring, and determined, Yuuta has proven time and time again that hes a worthy leader, and an incredible friend. He's faced more than most kids his age should've honestly, and the nightmares and trauma needs to stop for him. He just needs ONE goddamn day with him hanging out with his friends and family, with plenty of good food.

Verdict:10/10. Hes adorable, and i wanna hug him and give him a golden sticker. Take him home, feed him and Deckerd.

Juuzo Saejima!!;

He. Is the most EXTRA bitch ever. Seriously, he's essentially a 12 year old in a 44 year old body. Constant upgrades for the team, constant new names and abilities. Hes an oddball, but despite this immaturity, he's a GOOD person. He listens to Yuuta and his opinions, and treats him as an adult, and treats the bots as humans. He deserves all he has, and honestly? Underrated character.

Verdict:9/10. Wish we had more background on him, but overall a character that i enjoyed seeing on the show. Take him home, be prepared for him to be SUPER extra.

Shunsuke Toudou!!;

SUCH. A surprising character. He made his one and only grand appearance in one episode, and i surprisingly??? Fell for the guy. He cares about the bots, and cars. He puts in effort, probably more than his entire team would. Even as a mechanic, this guy does more than his fair share of work fixing up the bots, physically mostly, but we've seen him do so emotionally as well.

Verdict:10/10. Hes the father we all need??? He GETS people. He knows what you're gonna say before you're even gonna say it, and buys you feel good snacks, and drives you around a few times while you talk to him. You've heard of mama bear, well this is papa bear. 10/10, take him home, talk to him about cars.

Seina Onoue!!;

(First of all. Yes I've been getting her name wrong this entire time. Im still putting her as 'Seina' and not 'Seia' for tag reasons)

My girl Seina! Gorgeous, headstrong, and and underestimated, sweet gal. Military lady, she's quite firm handed, but thanks to her boyfriend, McCrane, she's learned more about being human and embracing life. For someone who specializes in Japan's offensive branch, she's surprisingly shy and self conscious. Its sweet, in a way.

Verdict:9/10. She's a sweetie! She cares, an fights for whats right. Plus, she's a total historical figure, being one of the first few women who smooched a bot! She demands respect, and damn does she have it.

Ayako Kimizuka!!;

Our fellow reporter lady! (And Seina's best friend)She's the person who sinks her head deep into the news sand, fully commiting herself to her reporting. She dives in headfirst so strongly and quickly, the rest of the world melts away. A bit abrasive, but i grew to like her, and I've approved her to date my boy, Dumpson.

Verdict:9/10. Shes cute, flighty, and honestly cares about Dumpson! She teases him often, and i appreciate it. Plus...she's kinda gorgeous, honestly.

Regina Argine!!;

Me and her got off on the wrong foot. She treated bots, her own Duke included, as mere tools, to be molded perfectly into whatever was requested of them. However, upon almost losing Duke and meeting Yuuta, she learned. She had basically mentally abused Duke, and she can't un do. She can however, grow and try to make amends. She is now highly favored amongst the team, and no longer has this strong sense of entitlement. Most importantly, her past is no longer hurting her. And she's had such an impressive change, honestly. Duke cares about her immensely, and now? I do too.

Verdict:9/10. She's adorable, and now i absolutely adore her whenever i see her. She's just a delight to have around, honestly.

Azuki Tomonaga!!;

Yuuta's older sister!(who i just learned is 16) despite being the eldest, she doesn't behave as though she has the authority. Timid, a bit flighty, and incredibly sweet, Azuki is honestly just a cinnamon roll. I adores her the second i saw her, and i want whats best for her. She's essentially considered Shadowmaru's best friend (though my boy wanted to go to the pound, we all know what i mean), and although doesn't get many opportunities, shes a surprising emotional support, and a wonderful caretaker.

Verdict:9/10. An absolute bun! She'd absolutely make a nice, cinnamon cake for her neighbors, just because. Take her home, she'd just absolutely love to cook for you and your folks.

Kurumi Tomonaga!!;

The second eldest of the Tomonaga family! Shes adorable, albiet a bit abrasive and gossipy. Towards the end, she was considered friends of Shadowmaru, along with her sister, but honestly? She...kinda doesn't do much in this series. We wouldn't lose much having her leave, but i liked her personality, and shes pretty relatable.

Verdict:7/10. She...didn't really do anything in the series, plot wise. She was more of an extra. She worked, but really, she wasn't that important of a character.

Eva Farhzeug!!;

I know i said i wasn't going to include every villian. But i AM including her, mainly because i like the whole 'some other force was in control of shit getting messed up, and is now controlling everyone in a giant ass ship, and is a mixture of hot and creepy ' trope. I found her interesting, and honestly? Led to an ending that i didn't expect. She had a good villian motivation, was visually appealing, and had quite the surprising tie to the plot. I mean, the mother of all robotics??? No way you could've seen that coming in the first watch.

Verdict:8/10. She was good plot wise, but not an overwhelming character. I just wanted to point out that i liked the role she played. Don't take her home. Bitch is NUTS.

Emily, Kikjmaro, and Masaki!!(right to left;

These three are essentially labeled as Yuuta'd and Power joe's best friends. Id give them their own spots, but honestly? They're almost always together anyway. Emily is essentially kinda spoiled and whiney, and honestly? An itty bitty bitch. But shes cute, and she cares. Sometimes. Kikjamaro is the smart guy, basically, acting as the more level headed and reasonable of the group. Masaki is the dumbass. He's got anger issues, and is prone to being pretty fucking annoying. This group by themselves are honestly useless. But i fucking LOVE them when they're with Power joe. They think hes the shit, and hes DAMN right.

Verdict:7/10. This is PURELY because we have one thing in common. They love Power joe. Unless Power joe is with them, id kick them out tbh.

[marshmallow-the-vampire-slayer]

MTVS Epic Rewatch #180

BTVS 7x02 Beneath You

Stray thoughts

1) I’ve always got some strong Run Lola Run vibes from the opening scene of this episode…

It’s the setting, the music, the pace, the fact that the girl is – duh! – running, and her look and outfit. It’s all very Run Lola Run, right?

So, do you think this was an homage to the movie, plagiarism, or Joss’s idea of what Germany is like based simply on one movie he’d seen?

That aside, these scenes bring up a lot of questions about how potential slayers are treated in other countries. We know that Kendra was raised and educated as a potential slayer, knowing that one day she may become one. I think Kennedy was, too. We also know that Buffy and Faith weren’t. But the two girls shown in the opening scenes from episodes 7x01 and 7x02 seem to be aware they should run away and they’re not asking for help in the regular way any citizens would do, you know? Like, they’re not screaming for help or going to the police? So it kind of feels they knew what their deal was and why they were being chased…

It’s all the more interesting because Buffy was having a prophetic (or live action?) dream about the German girl. I’ve always loved Buffy’s prophetic dreams, and I wish her connection to other slayers through her dreams would’ve been explored more in depth in the show.

2)  Spike’s chasing rats just like his dad did back when he got his soul back...

3) I love how excited Dawn is to have Buffy around school!

4) This was sweet…

XANDER Those kids are damn lucky having a slayer and a friend on campus there for 'em. I hope they appreciate it. I know I did. Days gone by, huh?

It really takes you back, doesn’t it?

5) Dawn made a good point. And I guess she was officially one of the Scoobies...

DAWN You guys need to really to ease up with the whole dating demons thing.

BUFFY Uh, hello, I'm sorry. Wasn't that you having the smooch-a-thon with teen vampire last Halloween?

DAWN See, this is why I don't want you talking to my friends.

6) This season is super heavy on the self-references and I love it.

PRINCIPAL A little authority can be a wonderful thing. Just remember that while you are here to help, you're not here to be their friend. Trust me, you open that door, and these students will eat you alive.

BUFFY You heard about Principal Flutie, right?

7) The cutest!

BUFFY I was, uh, just curious, you know, uh—not that I'm not grateful or anything. But, uh, I guess I was wondering why I—

PRINCIPAL Have this job?

BUFFY I still haven't finished college.

PRINCIPAL I know.

BUFFY Was it my sparkling personality? Or maybe you enjoyed my work at the Doublemeat Palace?

In case you were wondering: no, Wood didn’t provide a satisfying/convincing answer, 

8) 

GILES Willow, we could spend another two years here training and practicing and learning to hone your powers and still there'd be no way of knowing for sure that the friends you left behind you are still your friends.

WILLOW Well, sure. I mean, if you put it that way, duh.

GILES I'd love to offer you some guarantee that you'd be welcomed back to Sunnydale with open arms, but I can't. You may not be wanted, but you will be needed.

So… are we supposed to believe that neither Xander nor Buffy cared enough to check up on Willow? To know how she was holding up or if she was doing any better? That they didn’t call Giles IN MONTHS? I mean, he MUST have known something about how they felt about the whole Willow-going-dark thing, right?

9) LITERAL NIGHTMARE! NOT WITH THE DOGGIES, YOU BASTARDS! 

10) This is sad…

DAWN Should we round up the gang?

XANDER Good thinking, except... this is the gang.

11) Explain this…

Why hadn’t Buffy bothered to do the spell that removes Spike’s ability to get into her house without an invite? Why hadn’t Dawn or Xander? Yes, he was gone, but they couldn’t know if he would be back and they were giving him free access to do as he pleased. And yes, Willow and Tara (*cries*) were not around to do the spell, but I’m sure the Scoobies could’ve managed somehow if they wanted to.

12) I can understand Buffy’s nonplussed reaction to seeing Spike again in Lessons because she was caught off guard. But when she sees him again here, she had had some time to mull it over and to come to terms with how she wanted to deal with him. I have to say, I hate how they wrote the - delayed - attempted rape aftermath. Buffy facing Spike again after what he had almost done should’ve been written with more care and respect towards her character, considering she was the victim. Instead, the focus was shifted and it became about Spike’s pain with little - and even that is an overstatement - regard to Buffy’ trauma. Regardless of how I feel about Spuffy in general and during the course of season 7 in particular, I have to be unambiguous about this: this is bullshit. All of it. The whole attempted rape scene and what they did with its fallout. How they didn’t address Buffy’s pain. How the would-be-rapist became the victim in the narrative. Bullshit. 

BUFFY Do not start by saying you're sorry.

SPIKE I didn't come here to atone.

BUFFY Then what the hell do you want?

SPIKE I'm here to help you.

BUFFY Help me what?

SPIKE I was hoping you'd tell me. You're the slayer.Connected to the visions. Long line of worthies, right? I'm just a guy with his ear to the ground, and even I can feel it. Something's coming. I don't know what exactly, but something's brewing. And it's so big, ugly and damned it makes you and me look like little bitty puzzle pieces. I mean, if I'm wrong, say so. Lovely. No hard feelings. I'll go out that door and you can lock it behind me with any spell you like. So, am I wrong?

BUFFY Everything about you is wrong, Spike.

Something big coming or not, Buffy should’ve sent him off the minute he set foot in her house. She shouldn’t have wanted to engage in casual conversation with him. Not yet, at least. Not before they had addressed what he almost did to her. It feels wrong, and I hate they did this to my Buffy.

13) FORESHADOWING, though.

BUFFY Since when did you become the champion of the people?

14) It just doesn’t make any sense for Buffy to be accepting Spike’s help so easily. It just doesn’t. No no no.

15) Bless you, Dawn Summers. At least someone was reacting somewhat appropriately...

DAWN Spike. You sleep, right? You. Vampires. You sleep.

SPIKE Yeah. What's your point, niblet?

DAWN Well, I can't take you in a fight or anything, even with a chip in your head. But you do sleep. If you hurt my sister at all... touch her... you're gonna wake up on fire.

16) And then we get this moment…

SPIKE Hold the torch, would you? (Seeing Red Flashbacks...)

BUFFY Look, this... us working together—it's not a way for us to get back together, if that's what you want.

SPIKE It's not. Look, I can't blame you for being all skittish.

BUFFY Skittish? That's not a word I would use for it. You tried to rape me. I don't have the words.

And while I do appreciate the fact that we finally have Buffy saying it out loud and calling it for what it was, it feels too little. She shouldn’t be hanging out with her would-be-rapist, especially not so soon and without addressing her trauma in any other way than this.

17) Of course Xander even thinking of daring to go on a date would end up in utter terror. OF COURSE. 

18) I love how Anya just uses the word “penis” as a cuss word.

19) Okay, so Spike was present when Anya revealed that the worm-monster was, in fact, the girl’s ex… This will be relevant later.

20) I’m Anya.

BUFFY Anya, that thing you created burst through solid pavement and ate her dog.

ANYA Ooh, puppy!

XANDER Wait, that gets your sad noise? People's lives are in danger, and you give it up for the Yorkie?

ANYA You never understood me, Xander.

21) There’s not a single thing that I don’t love about this whole exchange…

ANYA Hey, hands off the merchandise. Spike, you don't get to go there again.

SPIKE Please. I've already forgotten about our little time together.

NANCY I thought you were Xander's ex-girlfriend.

ANYA I am.

NANCY But you and Spike...

ANYA Had a thing.

SPIKE Didn't last.

NANCY But weren't you Buffy—

SPIKE Briefly.

BUFFY Never serious.

NANCY Is there anyone here that hasn't slept together?

22) I love Anya’s reaction when she realizes Spike got his soul back…

ANYA Oh, my God!

SPIKE What are you staring at?

ANYA Oh, my God!

SPIKE Right. Let's go.

ANYA How did you do it?

BUFFY Spike, what is she talking about?

ANYA I can see you.

SPIKE Nothing. Let's go. Got some worm hunting to do.

ANYA How did you do it?

SPIKE Shut up.

ANYA You shouldn't be allowed to.

SPIKE Shut your mouth!

ANYA I mean, how did you get it?

23) Anya vengeance make-up looks a lot different but in a good way.

24) So, we Spike fans can agree that this moment has given us all fantasies, right?

25) And he was clearly trying to piss her off so that she would take it out on him, right? I mean…

BUFFY You haven't changed, Spike.

SPIKE Working out some personal issues, are we? Hey, I guess this would be first contact since, uh, you know when. Ooh, up for another round up on the balcony, then? Right you are, luv. I haven't changed. Not a lick. And watching your face trying to figure me out was absolutely delicious.

It’s almost as if he saw what we see - the fact that Buffy wasn’t reacting properly to him showing up again. She should be angry, scared, repulsed, outraged. And yet here she was, patrolling by his side and saying she didn’t have any words for him. Spike said he wasn’t looking to atone, and I believe that. I think he was looking for punishment.

26) Why were Buffy and Spike running on the rooftops, though? Wtf

27) He was attacking a man who had been turned into a giant worm, which he was fully aware of, so how surprised could he be that he turned into the man again?

28) James Marsters really nails the breakdown, doesn’t he?

SPIKE Right. Wrong. All wrong. Wrong maneuver. Not hardly helpful.God, please help me. HELP ME!

BUFFY You're not the one who needs help. He's going into shock.

SPIKE No. No. Too much. Too much. Too much. Too much. Too much. Too much. Too much...inside me all the way. (...) Deep, deep, deep inside me.

BUFFY Look, Spike, whatever you're doing—

SPIKE Get away. Get. Uhh—

BUFFY Do it somewhere else. I am through with this.

SPIKE Oh, oh, lucky girl. Call it quits. Now, there's an option. If only it were so easy. If only— If only— If only— What the hell are you screaming about? I can hear you. No need to SHOUT! I get it. The joke's on me. Lots of laughs. Yeah. Hey, bring the wife and kiddies. Come see the show 'cause it's going to be a circus. This... just the beginning, luv. A warm-up act. The real headliner's coming, and when that band hits the stage, all of this...  all this... will come tumbling in death and screaming, horror and bloodshed. From beneath you, it devours.

The circus references remind me of his part in Giles’s dream in Restless. 

29) I appreciate Xander supporting Anya and acknowledging what she did was courageous. Credit where credit’s due and all that.

XANDER You did the right thing here.

ANYA Tell him that.

XANDER You reversed the spell. It took guts. I know this is bad, but it could be worse.

ANYA Oh, it will be.

And Anya knows there will be consequences for her actions...

30) And then the scene… so beautiful and heartbreaking, so dark and twisted and sad…

SPIKE I tried to find it, of course.

BUFFY Find what?

SPIKE The spark. The missing... the piece that fit. That would make me fit. Because you didn't want... God, I can't... Not with you looking. I dreamed of killing you. I think they were dreams. So weak. Did you make me weak, thinking of you, holding myself, and spilling useless buckets of salt over your... ending? Angel—he should've warned me. He makes a good show of forgetting, but it's here, in me, all the time.

SPIKE The spark. I wanted to give you what you deserve, and I got it. They put the spark in me and now all it does is burn.

BUFFY Your soul.

SPIKE Bit worse for lack of use.

BUFFY You got your soul back. How?

SPIKE It's what you wanted, right?  It's what you wanted, right? And—and now everybody's in here, talking. Everything I did... everyone I— and him... and it... the other, the thing beneath—beneath you. It's here too. Everybody. They all just tell me go... go... to hell.

BUFFY Why? Why would you do that—

SPIKE Buffy, shame on you.  Why does a man do what he mustn't? For her. To be hers. To be the kind of man who would nev—  to be a kind of man. She shall look on him with forgiveness, and everybody will forgive and love. He will be loved. So everything's OK, right? Can—can we rest now? Buffy...can we rest?

I know this doesn’t make up for the fact that he attempted to rape her. Nothing would ever make up for that. And even if his intentions in going after the soul may have been rooted in selfishness, what stands out is the fact that he did it in an attempt to be the kind of man worthy of Buffy’s forgiveness - even if getting his wish meant he wouldn’t see himself in that way. 

[marlaluster]

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11. https://www.bing.com/images/search?view=detailV2&ccid=rrc2G%2FyX&id=FD5FDDF88B09A7332BC51EB2E869845B46392CF0&thid=OIP.rrc2G_yXaFRpNgFkSKK3XwHaHa&q=samantha+hemsworth&simid=608037964248648525&selectedindex=164&mode=overlay&first=1 12. https://hollywoodlife.com/2018/08/03/gisele-bundchen-tom-brady-kissing-birthday-41-hugs-kids-pics-patriots-practice/amp/ 13. Gisele Bundchen & Tom Brady Make Out On His 41st Birthday Before He Hugs His Kids At Practice Backgrid Such lovebirds! After nine years of wedded bliss Tom Brady and Gisele Bundchen are still so wild about each other. We’ve got pics of them making out at Patriots practice on his 41st birthday. Tom Brady and Gisele Bündchens PDA just keeps getting hotter by the year. After nine years of marriage they are still so loving and adoring.The former supermodel brought along their two kids as she paid a family visit to surprise Tom on his 41st birthday during a Patriots practice on Aug. 3. The couple adores putting on PDA shows and today was no different. While Tom was kneeling on the ground, Gisele joined him and planted a giant smooch on her man with her arms wrapped around his shoulders while he grabbed her around the waist. Even with no makeup and her hair pulled back in a messy ponytail, the 38-year-old looked so gorgeous, wearing tight black leggings and a casual grey t-shirt. No wonder Tom can’t keep his hands off her after almost a decade of marriage. Gisele was joined by the couple’s two kids, eight-year-old son Benjamin and five-year-old daughter Vivian. Tom was just as demonstrative of his feelings with his children, showering them with hugs and kisses. This is seriously the most affectionate celebrity family on the planet. Gisele posted her birthday wishes to Tom on Instagram, showing a pic of the two cuddling and wrote “Happy birthday my love! We love you so much!!! Keep on shining bright!” Tom actually caught heat for kissing his eldest son Jack, 10, during a Facebook webisode of his Tom vs. Time series on Feb. 1. Jack came in the room while the shirtless quarterback was on a table getting a massage and the father and son discussed fantasy football scores. As the boy headed out of the room he gave his dad a quick kiss on the lips. “That was, like, a peck,”  Tom responded and Jack came back and the two had a three-second lip lock. It actually became a national debate whether or not it was an appropriate form of affection to have a prolonged kiss between parent and child. The superstar quarterback got a hero’s welcome from fans who showed up to watch the Patriots practice in Foxborough, MA. They too wanted to wish Tom a happy birthday and show their appreciation for a guy who at 41 is playing at the top of his game. At his age most quarterbacks have long hung up their cleats and called it a career. But TB has indicated he hopes to keep playing until he’s at least 45-years-old if his body and health allow it.  He’s brought the team five Super Bowl victories in his career in Boston, and in four of them he was named MVP. He took the team to Super Bowl 52 last February, but they lost to the Philadelphia Eagles. 14. https://www.bing.com/images/search?view=detailV2&ccid=hLBJhSJ9&id=22E0B2BEF9F8CEC61B4C06E08D3DE1EE9AEADF67&thid=OIP.hLBJhSJ9qfco8aZHIWpeAQHaJg&q=gisele+bundchen&simid=607991823415640352&selectedIndex=172&ajaxhist=0 15. https://www.instagram.com/p/BldL8ADhb1M/ 16. https://www.bing.com/images/search?view=detailV2&ccid=4MvFCHls&id=FD74F6B9A3EA508937F4FD0CC48EFC0A529236D8&thid=OIP.4MvFCHlsKvJDV7XwVqor2wHaFj&q=new+zealand&simid=608013671969982223&selectedIndex=2&PC=SMSM 17. https://www.bing.com/images/search?view=detailV2&ccid=V%2bkkrTtp&id=B914CB86B62875BF6AF0A1DDF060FFA01E8868D5&thid=OIP.V-kkrTtp28snbb6RlckwnAHaEK&q=new+zealand&simid=608042010106990144&selectedIndex=55 18. https://www.bing.com/images/search?view=detailV2&ccid=lmqDtAyo&id=DE7D7F3C0A5B14414470DE99A50AD52B461ED492&thid=OIP.lmqDtAyoF8LE3Sx0Il_WBAHaEo&q=new+zealand&simid=608022618324861404&selectedIndex=142 19. https://www.bing.com/images/search?view=detailV2&ccid=YY9juMBR&id=5E23340807A29719ABA35F17B5D9A4449AC25AFB&thid=OIP.YY9juMBRr5oLR_QHMtWBjQHaE8&q=new+zealand&simid=608032625595123900&selectedIndex=152 20. https://www.bing.com/images/search?view=detailV2&ccid=c0ZigPcf&id=F94CD7FBD96FCBD887FE0BD147653F9BC815F70D&thid=OIP.c0ZigPcfIiDXi6wiLeNj0gHaEK&q=New+Zealand+Animals&simid=607989572854352177&selectedIndex=186&ajaxhist=0

[mintyyprince]

all of them? owo

u. i appreciate u.

200: my crush’s name is: good. its a good name.199: I was born in: september!!198: I am really: gay197: My cellphone company is: so-so??196: My eye color is: grey195: My shoe size is: nine or ten usually194: My ring size is: no clue dude193: My height is: five ten!! 192: I am allergic to: geckos...??? its weird191: My 1st car was: no car im dying190: My 1st job was: kitchen aid189: Last book you read: enders game188: My bed is: soft warm and welcoming uwu187: My pet: the best white lab ever i love him185: My favorite shampoo is: s..starts with an s....i think184: Xbox or ps3: i have an xbox but all the games i want rn are on ps4 183: Piggy banks are: good and cute i love them182: In my pockets: my phone181: On my calendar: calendars are for chumps180: Marriage is: uhhhh179: Spongebob can: do anything178: My mom: never heard of her176: Last YouTube video watched: this...175: How many cousins do you have? three!!174: Do you have any siblings? two or three173: Are your parents divorced? yes172: Are you taller than your mom? no clue171: Do you play an instrument? i used to play viola!! hh..170: What did you do yesterday? hm. good question.[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: i believe in infatuation at first sight168: Luck: y..yes167: Fate: you make your own fate ultimately but yes166: Yourself: trying to165: Aliens: no clue164: Heaven: no clue163: Hell: not to be edgy or anything but were living in it arent we162: God: i believe there are many for different things!!161: Horoscopes: yes160: Soul mates: sorta159: Ghosts: yes158: Gay Marriage: i.. am gay...157: War: not really156: Orbs: yea155: Magic: yea[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: gimme smooches152: Phone or Online: phone if its someone close151: Red heads or Black haired: i mixed up the words and first read “black heads” and assumed this was a this-or-that acne question 150: Blondes or Brunettes: uh149: Hot or cold: youre yes and youre no youre in and youre out youre up and youre d148: Summer or winter: summer!!147: Autumn or Spring: oh.. tentative autumn146: Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla is now cursed but id say chocolate anyways145: Night or Day: night144: Oranges or Apples: apples.. with peanut butter... nice143: Curly or Straight hair: hm.142: McDonalds or Burger King: ew140: Mac or PC: pc please i love myself139: Flip flops or high heals: flip flops my dude138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: hm.137: Coke or Pepsi: coke136: Hillary or Obama: is this even a question135: Buried or cremated: havent decided134: Singing or Dancing: singinggg133: Coach or Chanel: uh132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: uh??131: Small town or Big city: big city.. maybe130: Wal-Mart or Target: i have Memories in target129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: ngh128: Manicure or Pedicure: pedicure it feels so awkward getting arm massages and not knowing where to look127: East Coast or West Coast: east coast beast coast126: Your Birthday or Christmas: birthday. christmas is cursed i hate it125: Chocolate or Flowers: oh.. oh no.... both124: Disney or Six Flags: six flags fuck yeah123: Yankees or Red Sox: yodels[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: whack121: George Bush: whack120: Gay Marriage: free me119: The presidential election: whack118: Abortion: its a choice117: MySpace: whack116: Reality TV:whack115: Parents:whack114: Back stabbers:whack113: Ebay:whack112: Facebook:whack111: Work:whack110: My Neighbors:  whack109: Gas Prices:whack108: Designer Clothes:whack107: College:whack106: Sports:whack105: My family:whack104: The future:whack[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: uhhh102: Last time you ate: just now101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: t..omorrow??100: Cried in front of someone: no99: Went to a movie theater: i saw spiderman i think its hard to remember98: Took a vacation: spring break i think97: Swam in a pool: no clue96: Changed a diaper: no clue95: Got my nails done: too long let me be a pretty boy94: Went to a wedding: Years93: Broke a bone: never actually92: Got a piercing: uhhh?? i think i was eleven91: Broke the law: never anything serious90: Texted: an hour i think[ MISC ]88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: nothing i will be Free87: The last movie I saw: gotg2.. i left early it was so boring86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: hm.85: The thing im not looking forward to: hm.84: People call me: they call me bell they call me stacy they call me her they call me jane thats not my n83: The most difficult thing to do is: oh worm just one?82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never im too nervous a driver81: My zodiac sign is: libraaa80: The first person i talked to today was: @/haj-ime and i love him79: First time you had a crush: this fucko noah in the first grade i think78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: myself........ was that edgy enough or77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: me?76: Right now I am talking to: no one im 2anxious4talk75: What are you going to do when you grow up: oh hey lmk when u figure this one out id love to know74: I have/will get a job: i stare into the camera like im on the office73: Tomorrow: yes?72: Today: what is the question here71: Next Summer: no really 70: Next Weekend: im so confused69: I have these pets: i have one single evil fish bc he ate all the others and also my puppy cooper i love him68: The worst sound in the world: anything to do with chalkboards i hate them67: The person that makes me cry the most is: oh hey trauma mention opportunity-66: People that make you happy: everyone on my friends page and my mutuals uwu65: Last time I cried: oh64: My friends are: Good i love them63: My computer is: a trooper even if it crashes at least twice a week62: My School: i am my school 61: My Car: NONEXISTENT 60: I lose all respect for people who: lose my respect59: The movie I cried at was: hm. its not a movie but does kiznaiver count?58: Your hair color is: uhhhh57: TV shows you watch: A Lot56: Favorite web site: the internet is a bottomless pit55: Your dream vacation: maybe a cabin in the mountains... good54: The worst pain I was ever in was: oh hey another trauma opport53: How do you like your steak cooked: c..ooked52: My room is: neat..ish51: My favorite celebrity is: none50: Where would you like to be: how many people do u think replied coffin49: Do you want children: yeah!!48: Ever been in love: hm.46: More guy friends or girl friends: boyfriends im gay45: One thing that makes you feel great is: making people happy44: One person that you wish you could see right now: my friends uwu43: Do you have a 5 year plan: it changes every week i42: Have you made a bucketlist: not really41: Have you pre-named your children: nah40: Last person I got mad at: uhhh39: I would like to move to: colorado.. maybe38: I wish I was a professional: something[ My Favorites ]36: Vehicle: none they all scare me35: President: obama maybe?34: State visited: coloradoooo33: Cellphone provider: hm.32: Athlete: hm.31: Actor:hm.30: Actress:hm.29: Singer:hm.28: Band:hm.27: Clothing store:hm.26: Grocery store:hm.25: TV show:too many that fluctuate 24: Movie: too many that fluctuate22: Animal: dogs!!!!!!!21: Theme park: all of them i think20: Holiday:hm.19: Sport to watch: no thanks18: Sport to play: double no thanks17: Magazine:hm.16: Book:hm.15: Day of the week: uhh14: Beach: all i think13: Concert attended: any symphony 12: Thing to cook: i like baking cakes.. 11: Food: either fettuccine alfredo or pizza bc im basic10: Restaurant:hm.9: Radio station:hm.8: Yankee candle scent: idk but i have this one really nice candle thats campfire smoke scented and mmmmmm i love it7: Perfume: i dont really wear perfume!!6: Flower: yes.5: Color: blue!!4: Talk show host:hm.3: Comedian:hm.2: Dog breed: this is such a trick question1: Did you answer all these truthfully? 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