#30dayssober

[johnjacobjinglebell079]

Shoutout to @nfrealmusic . Thank you for making me realize I can face my own problems, instead of just say this is the way I am. I had no idea that I could be worst than demons and such and still have the capacity to try my best to handle it and get a reign on ME. I’ve come to realize that if I don’t attempt to get to the bottom of this, I’m going to be my own worst monster that haunts and torments me. I have to figure this out. Thank you for showing me it’s possible, and that it’s also a must. Trauma will not be my god. #30dayssober https://www.instagram.com/p/Cpjb-h7jxfF/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[confessionofacatlady-blog]

Hello world, day 5

Day 3 my mind felt so full. I was mourning the drinks. I was panicking, what if I could never ever drink again? I decided that day to take it day by day. Honestly the first thing that made complete sense in what seemed like days.

Day 4, I decided to do something that I have been wanting to do for weeks, months even. Go get my blood checked seeing I've felt very tired for months now. It felt nice to finally leave my bed early to do such a thing, even though I still felt so cloudy and emotional. Tomorrow I'll get the results.

Day 5, oooh yeah. She's almost here, I can feel it. Who might you ask?

ME

The quirky, kinda crazy, smart ( sometimes ) stubborn bitch that has been hiding herself into this little depression. She's nearly here.

The moments I feel like I can't breath are reducing. I am working very hard to rationalize my scary thoughts. I am very excited but also a bit scared about my first weekend without alcohol but bitches. I am gonna pull through.

Of course I am not sure, my mood can change day by day, the road is still long but hey.

Day by day and this bitch is slaying day 5

[elfarb]

30 day chip. (Actually 31 but who’s counting) #30dayssober #athiestinAA #transandsober #soberlgbtqcommunityexists #LGBTQsobriety #LGBTQ (at Gainesville, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bnuh4HgHH1X/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=exyjwvv81ql1

[transgendergoblinfromspace]

In an hour, I will be one month clean and sober and I honestly couldn’t imagine ever going back. Y’all might not see a difference, but I do. I’m happy again. #happy #happiness #30dayssober #sober #sobriety #soberisworthit #soberlife #soberliving #soberaf #soberwomen #soberdogmom #sobrietyrocks #sobrietyforwomen #sobrietyisworthit #addiction #addictionrecovery #recovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryjourney #recoveringaddict https://www.instagram.com/p/CJSZF2fFivF/?igshid=yen4uvbxr73m

[redfeathersfarm]

There is No Distance that can't be covered over and over. You are not Hopeless. You are Loved. Here are 3 sobriety chips for a client in CA. We were able to incorporate the tree from his tattoo onto the coins. On the back is a verse from an @iyaterra song, "Life Goes On". "Dust to Dust and Ash to Ash, This too Shall Pass in Time, And you got to Trust, Yeah you got to Trust Good Things come in Time and Life Goes on. Life Goes On" Thank you for trusting in us to make such a memorable, meaningful items. Message us for your next gift or personalized item. #redfeathersfarm #reggaeinfused420lifestyle #RootedOhana #art #cannabis #music #sober #sobriety #twelvesteps #30dayssober #60dayssober #90dayssober #chips #wood #handcrafted #iyaterra #lifegoeson #Raven #FlyRavenFly https://www.instagram.com/p/B_77CK2pg7Z/?igshid=u8w6wo5bgwy6

[12stepping12-blog]

In early sobriety is not the coin that matters, its what happens in between the coins

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[rouletteweekend]

30 Days Sober

Things are starting to feel right #30dayssober #sobriety #alcoholism #love #relationships #friendships #life #blog #rouletteweekend

I went with Flea Market Guy to his AA meeting today. He’s been sober for 30 days. And I think we’ve been shacked up for about 28 of them. A month ago, I had a hard time imagining this day. I was certain he would take a drink. More than once. But he’s been really self- aware about his triggers and when he should be at a meeting. He’s gone to one everyday and some days two.

He said today, that in…

[confessionofacatlady-blog]

Second day

Today is my second day of my 30 days no alcohol challenge. People have no idea how long it even took me to get this far to just.. take on this challenge. 

If I tell people I have a problem with alcohol ( which I am quite honest about, even at my work ) they raise their eyebrow because what I see as a PROBLEM is not viewed as a problem in normal society. No, I do not start drinking secretly at 10am. No, I do not drink 5 bottles of wine a day. I do not seem to have any physical difficulty if I do not drink, like shaking.

I used to drink two to three glasses a day, it actually started with my parents drinking wine everyday and my slowly joining them. It started of course like every teenager, going out, drinking at a party etc. But it slowly progressed to coming home from school/work and having one or two glasses in the evening. Now and then it would progress to a 1 bottle a night, which I would turn back to again, one or two glasses. It has been continuing on for quite a few years now, seeing I just turned 27 this January. 

There is so much to tell, so much to progress for me. Which is why I decided to create this Tumblr. I do not expect people to read/comment/like/hate this. I just feel very empowered by my decision but oh so so so very lost. 

The 1st of January, like any person, I decided that 2019 was going to be different. I was not going to have this complicated relationship with alcohol ever again. But it took up untill yesterday, the 24th of March for me to be ready to atleast start this 30 day cleanse. I know it is not much, but this is a really big thing for me. I have been drinking pretty much daily for years ( a side from some weeks of trying to atleast not drink during weekdays )

I am so freaking scared

These last few weeks have been riddled with light anxiety attacks. My work has been super demanding and I feel like I am so tired and empty. Ofcourse wine was one of the ways to relax, but it only lasted the night. When it became morning and my alarm started ringing I felt the worst ever, hangovers and a high demanding job is no joke. If there is anyone even reading and wondering how much I would drink, it would vary from 1 bottle a day to 2 glasses. I would be pretty strict during weekdays but my weekends would be filled with atleast 3 days of pretty much drinking a bottle of wine a day.

So here I am,a 27 year old anxiety filled, kinda proud of myself very tired cat lady.

I just kinda wish I could meet people that feel the same way.. or have been there. If there is anyone out there that would spare a little time let me know! I could at least send you cute pictures of my cat as a thank you.

[thepunisher333]

Follow my writings on www.mirakee.com/thearchemyst #mirakee @Mirakee #AA #recovery #30dayssober #4thstep (at Ottawa, Ontario)

[confessionofacatlady-blog]

When life gives you: third day cloudy mind, being tired and just not feeling okay withdrawels.. be okay with laying in bed for an hour or so. It's fine don't beat yourself up you're doing good.

[eriksmobiledetailing89-blog]

Getting ready to go to AA to go pick up my 30Day Chip #AA #30DaysSober #thevalleyclub #TeamErik®

[booozeforbreakfast]

Sometimes, I think about all the days, weeks, months...years I've wasted. Or just spent completely wasted. I could be so much further into my career. I could be living my dreams in LA right now, if it weren't for alcohol. I could be so much bigger. I could have shined so much brighter, so much longer. 

I know it's pointless to wish you could go back and do things differently, but I can't help it. I just wonder how much different my life would have gone.

I probably would still be in an illusion. I would still be practicing a faith that was actually destroying me, psychologically. I would have made completely different life choices. I probably would have finished that semester of college, instead of flunking out and wasting my parents hard earned money. I would have probably married that guy that had 2 kids. I would probably be living a very unfulfilling, but moderately happy life. I would most likely be full of resentment...at the same time.

Sometimes, I regret ever taking that first sip of alcohol. I was addicted from the FIRST time I felt that weightlessness of being drunk. I was free for just a moment...for the first time. I had no worries. It felt so good. I couldn't let that feeling go. I do wish I could have never even started this spiral...but, at the same time, I wouldn't be half of who I am today without those shitty experiences.

I can't count the number of times I'd been taken advantage of whilst drunk out of my mind. I can't count the amount of times I sobbed my eyes out, wishing it were different. I can't tell you all the times I woke up in my bed/someone else's bed, wondering how the fuck I got there. I have no idea how many times I risked hurting myself or another person from driving drunk. I'm not a religious person...and I don't believe in a biblical definition of "God"...but I know that SOMETHING/SOMEONE was looking out for me all these times.

I've faced some really shitty things. I've DONE some really horrendous, unforgivable things. Things I wish I'd never done. BUT...even though it's painful...those lessons made me this girl I am today. And I'm learning that this girl...she aint so bad. She's actually...pretty alright, when she's got her head out of her ass.

I'm grateful for my shitty experiences. I'm grateful that I experienced/am experiencing addiction. I know that probably sounds fucking bonkers..and, it is! BUT..without addiction, I wouldn't be able to spread this message that I KNOW I was sent here to tell. I want to be so much. I want to DO so much. I want to help those who've lost faith in themselves. I want to be a rope that pulls them out of the deepest pits. I want to carry them, when the weight is just too much to carry alone. Without all this experience, I could NEVER serve that purpose.

Learning to accept defeat to this disease is the furthest thing from easy. But learning to love what I can do from that knowledge gives me the strength and power to carry on. Here's to another 30 days. And another. And another. From here to infinity.  

[replicated-insanity-blog]

September 19th, 2014

 First day out of Rehab. Who knew 30 days sober could change you. Heroin and Meth were my Lovers, but now Im single and Free, ready to do all the things I want in Life. This disease won't take me down this time.