#AGGHH basically.

[organchordsandlightning]

continually and constantly thinking about Hawkeye: "And you're my best friend, I never got along this well with anybody, moron!" BJ: "well, that goes double for me, stupid!"

[autisticlalna]

i know this is the most basic opinion ever but i dislike duo names. if i have no idea who you're talking about because you named them after some obscure thing that literally means nothing to me then i am going to roll down a hill

[nana-b0b]

》🔞 These panels are censored, you can go to the last of the post to find out where to see them!

A little historical info to better understand:

♡♡♡♡♡!!! I really feel happy and overcome with these panels, I was thinking a lot about how to make them since there were several obstacles: I had never drawn something NSFW before as it should be 😅 I never got that far so to speak, there was always a line that prevented me from taking that step, since it is not the same to draw some small scene where you only see something specific to a whole pose as such and all that implies. But after many ideas and turns I managed to take that step (maybe small for some but for me it was like reaching the moon 😂) and the most important and most feared was that the essence of the drawings and the style would be lost but I could keep it well and make it coexist ♡.

Note: as for the text accompanying the panels I want to say that it's not my best work as a narrator hahaha I don't write anything since I was about fifteen and it was my era of fanfics and stuff, so I feel its very basic and empty! 😅 ♥!

Now, let's talk a bit about the panels! Well, as we all knew this moment was coming, it was no surprise -3- Ryomen really had to be patient to get what he had been thinking for a while, but he didn't want it to be something random as it could be with any woman he wanted, he was really curious to see how Aurora could look like with the full appearance of a lady of the Heian era and when he saw her, he just couldn't resist. One thing will be clear: Aurora won't wear black teeth again, there will be no way to paint her teeth again without someone losing a limb. As for her eyebrows: she's really mad about that, but I'll let it go.

And to close this post I come with a novelty (I've been thinking about this for days) now we are going to be able to have these drawings completely uncensored on patreon.

I'm not going to lie, using more than two social networks for me is already a lot 😥 if it were up to me I would only post everything in one place but we know how the rules are and we have to respect them, if just by showing a nipple (which is a pixel 😂 ) they almost censored me on Instagram I knew this would be difficult and Tumblr is not lagging behind, while there are things that it lets pass there are others that it doesn't and it's not nice to have to make such complex drawings so that the AI doesn't detect them as 🔞 since there comes a certain point that you get tired too and it loses the grace.

My patreon will be the place for all my works 🔞 without any censorship already, you are going to be able to enjoy both public and private content depending on the type of work ♡. I think also for me it's an incentive to be able to start letting go more of my ideas and continue with everything I want to do :)

To say goodbye first I want to always thank you for all the support you give me and all your messages 🖤 and second to warn you that this CAP of Ren will be in patreon already published privately but all the other censored drawings are public for you to see and enjoy them as they should ⭐

Here are the publications that I censored and that you can now see, there are not many at the moment x'D

[just-a-dinosaur-i-guess]

??? kunichuuzai maybe !!! <3 (knchz ceo asking about the knchz wip? how unexpected)

HEHE this fic.. basically, knchz where kunikida is the last one to learn they're dating . also an examination of how he's let them into his schedule and all that and agghh.. hopefully it should just be a sweet and cute fic <3 (i will probably put them through things.)

Kunikida steps in through the door to their shared apartment, sighing. "The agency is so nosy about my love life." He complains. Dazai snickers. "Don't they know-" "They should know I'm single, I've already told them plenty of times." Kunikida drops the groceries he bought for all of them that week on the counter. Double Black exchanges a look.

[hamartia-grander]

IM BUZZING AT JUST THE DESCRIPTIONS OF YOUR FICS GOOD GOLLY but uhhhhhhhh the time travel Serennedy fic and the polycule fic?????????

I'll start w the polycule fic bc I'm not actively writing it rn. Basically I'm the smartest person ever, and I know that 1. Ethan is in love with Mia, 2. Ethan is also in love with Chris, and 3. Ethan has the potential to be in love w Heisenberg but at the very least there was obvious attraction from Heisenberg. So I put them all in a polycule. that also serves as a re8 fix it fic where Heisenberg saves Ethan, Chris extracts them both and Mia, and they all return home safe with Rose. Chris is gay homosexual gay to me so he's only in love w Ethan not Mia and Mia is only romantically with Ethan (they are so bi4bi and t4t) but I mean who couldn't love Mia so they're all just a big happy family. I'll finish it someday just not any time soon.

The Serennedy time travel fic. I'm so excited for this and I'm so fucking close to finishing it you Have no idea. It is literally the length of a short novel and I'm still going. It's going to be so mdbfdkdhskshsjs Yk. It's based off of a convo I had w @tryhardsars where Luis is sent back in time to Re2 time, and ofc Sara wanted it to be angst for Leon where Luis pampers him for what he went through bc she's a little Leon stan, but I of course turned it into Luis angst and made it 100000x worse than anything we talked about. It has a happy ending tho because I can't do angst without a happy ending. I'm so fucking excited to finish it agghh I've been writing it frantically since June. It's got lots of Ada too because again it's me.

[sxulcxtcher]

Your page legitimately just isn't Fanfiction anymore (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) though the anons are basically better, got me gigglin' and blushin'

agghh I'm gonna post something I swear but in the meantime….<3🌹

[waterfallofspace]

Do you have any fics in progress by chance? You’re such an amazing writer :)

Hiya!~ Thank you for the ask dear~

Honestly, despite how much I love getting asks like this, they always surprise me! It's still such a foreign concept that people not only enjoy my work, but are actively curious about it!

Aghagh and to answer the actual question, yes I do! I usually have at least 10 different prompts sitting in my google docs, but I find I have less WIPS since I'm a fairly 'get going on it and finish it in one - three goes' type of writer. Recently been a bit burned out of my hyperfixations, and finding it a bit hard to just write things (perfectionism kicking in).

That said, I actually have two started! One that's almost finished part one of two (A m/agnus a/rchives fic, two different focuses for the different chapters of snzdom~) and one that's been started, and is abouuuttt halfway done I think~ (A c/huuya centric fic as a so... sooooo late birthday gift for the amazing Hachii, which is turning into a new years/christmas thing too agghh ;-;)

Thank you for the ask!~ I always love getting uh... basically any asks haha~

[1loer]

i watched girl interrupted because of your post and id love to hear more about the au, it sounds very neat!!

GLADLY first of all. You're Welcome. Secondly

I dont think my AU would stray very far from how things pan out in the original movie. BC Komaeda (at her worst) would be as volitile as Lisa is in the movie. I'd like to think that something that changes maybe is if I have Nanami as Jaime, it'd be her suicide that properly pushes Komaeda over the edge. I don't like to fridge Nanami like that though, but i unfortunately also think it works, esp. w/ their relationship being sort of similar in canon as to that. If Komaeda had or believed she had some sort of hand in her death too- AGGHH I think perhaps Komaeda wouldn't attempt to escape as often as Lisa does in the film. If she did, it'd just be to see if she /could/ do it rather than a genuine attempt at escape. Whereas Lisa believes that she doesnt belong there, and thats adds to why she wont get better, Komaeda would believe its safer that she is there, so wont work to get better bc she wants to stay there bc she likes the comfort in being ill.

I actually spoke about this w/ @/biteattack, and biteattack made the differentiation as where Lisa is very loud and charming, but Komaeda would be a lot quieter w/ her manipulation. Their relationship would basically pan out exactly like it did in the first chapter of SDR2, with Hajime trusting Komaeda without realising she's playing right into her hands. Much like Susanna, Hajime wouldn't believe there was anything wrong w/ her. Hajime would also have BPD in this AU, but her symptoms would be a lot more prominent than Susanna's in the film (there is a whole side argument to be had here over whether Susanna in the film actually had bpd. Many ((including the irl Susanna who wrote the book)) believe that it was a mis-diagnosis just due to the time-period it all occured in.) But while inside, Hajime would find an understanding and peace there that she never found anywhere else. ESPECIALLY from Komaeda. Hajime would attach herself to Komaeda instantly, both from Komaeda wanting that to happen and also because, just like in canon, Hajime wants to understand Komaeda so she can better understand herself. But she wouldn't realise that Komaeda's behaviour towards her is actively making her worse.

Ofc, bc its me, I can't help but add Mikan into the mix and make her relationship w/ Komaeda rocky and hateful as Fuck. Komaeda would probably help Hinata escape bc Komaeda would convince Hinata htat theres nothing wrong w/ her (<wrong) and that she SHOULD get out. Komaeda would be so jealous of Mikan bc she got out, and would be spiteful as fuck bc she'd see Mikan as someone who needed to be kept inside, and would not understand why she would be allowed to live so freely and think she was delusional, nad would (just like in the film) rile her up enough that she'd kill herself and AGH- I HATE THEM

The biggest betrayl would be when Komaeda realises that Hajime is actively trying to get better, just like in the film. Komaeda would see it as a personal slight, I think. But underneath it all would be jealousy. That'd be the centre of Komaeda's character, and hope would be the centre of Hinata's.

It's highly toxic and doomed. 0 happy endings. Hinata would visit Komaeda and paint her fingernails red, just like at the end of the movie.

That;s just me spitting off the top of my head and from what me and biteattack talked about. HONESTLY this all started just because I think Lisa and fem!Komaeda are the exact same flavour of sexy HJOAOHUROEGHOUETHOTEOHTH. I haven't watched the movie in a while, so its just from what I remember too. I think Yukizome would be Nurse Owen, and Monomi could be one of the other nurses bc i think thats cute and silly >u< It's not well thought out, its mostly vibes. I could iron out the mess and maybe one day i'll write something short for it but for now i have other projects I want to focus on.

IM SO HAPPY MY STUPID POST I MADE WHEN I WAS BORED IN WORK MADE U WATCH THAT FILM THO ITS SO GOOD!!!!!! if ur further interested in it, the book is rlly easy to read too, and a lot more grounded in reality. It goes more into what Kaysen's mental illness really presented like. The film skips over a LOOTT of it. Ofc, its no where near as explosive or exciting as the movie,but they had to ramp up the stakes and characters and such to make a cohesive story out of it. But i'd still rlly recommend reading the book!

[bizarrescribblez]

hii mia wld u mind talking a bit abt u n spotty? ^_^ are there any special scenarios you've thought of recently?

AAAAAA HI HARLEY HIIIIIIIII ;w; 💕💕💕 YOURE SO SWEET FOR THIS ASK????? I’m so bad at gushing but I kinda need it rn so I’ll so my best hehe

IVE BEEN TALKING TO A FRIEND OF MINE SM ABOUT THEM it’s still so O_O ! how much they love it,, IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY I’m just still getting used to people.. liking the content I make especially something as self indulgent as this HEHE BUT ANYWAYS TO ANSWER YOUR ASK IVE BEEN THINKING SO MUCH ABOUT before collider days… like working at alchemax together and getting into silly scenarios and the ultimate pining stage of it all.. like equally patching each other up when we have science accidents (cutting his hair when he accidentally gets it singed by something science-y, him patching my hand up after it gets stung, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY ME PATCHING HIM UP AFTER GETTING HIT WITH THE BAGEL 🥲)

Also theres one idea that I’m attached to its super sad but basically it’s us at that party kingpin has for Peter’s death and we’re both too 🥲 caught up in our planes to hang out (me doing spider stuff/him having to help with the collider) and us promising to come back and have a dance (which ofc DOESNT HAPPEN 🥲🥲🥲) ITS SO SAD BUT I LOVE ANGST SM AGGHH

BUT TYSM FOR LETTING ME GO CRAZY HARLEY ITS FR MUCH NEEDED RN :( 💖 AND PLS DO THE SAME FOR PETER B I WANNA HEAR YOUR IDEAS SO BAD!!!!!!!!

[g-xix]

https://www.tiktok.com/@oliviastelfox?_t=8jCPUEOTmIi&_r=1

Ginge’s (alleged) gf. Think it’s the second video in the comment section she says she’s 19.

They were following each other and he was commenting on her videos but they unfollowed and the comments got deleted when people twigged. Her comment section now is basically all about him. 😅

Also high-key wondering if that’s her on his insta story with the pancakes bc you can see a girl opposite him.

Wowww okayy 👀👀

Holy fuck she's leng though. Honestly, the way that Danny and Ginge can pull such gorgeous girlies will forever be beyond me.... And the fact that the boys in the comment section are comparing Ten n Kaci and her is so horrid, honestly. Stfu. (stfu to them not u ofc anon xxx)

And agghh i missed this story but if it was that'd be super cute

tbh good for him for finding a girl, especially a girlie that's abso gorgeous like, damn 🤩

[outpost-31]

do you think the flesh beast creatures would have their own unique abilities? or would they just be differentiated by size and color and stuff?

AGGHH EXPLODES. THANKYOU FOR LETTING MY TALK ABOUT MY CREECHERS.

under the cut bc this is long but I LOVE THEM.. none of this is exactly spoilers this is just stuff it goes into in the story explained in more detail ^_^

OK! SO. the thing about these beasts. hangon copying and pasting from some chats here because I cant explain them better than I have previously:

" !!YEAH EXACTLY. THEY CAN MIMIC VOICES. ANY VOICE THEYVE HEARD. THEY INTENTIONALLY STALK SOMEBODY BEFORE KILLING THEM SO THEY CAN HEAR THEM SPEAK AND COPY IT AND UGHHHH "

" im not gonna spoil anything but the scariest part of these monsters is theyre not just killing for food or survival with animal intelligence. theyre entirely sapient and are knowingly hunting their target with methods they know they'll fall for via observation.. I may or may not adore my own monster concept.

Meaning theyre absolutely smart enough to do things like. open doors (if the weird sludge form they took has proper parts to mess with a lock). replicate the voice of somebody it knows the target trusts. again, stalk for days beforehand to know exactly what it needs to do. imagine trying to fight against something that's intelligent as a person, if not more because of hivemind, and has been observing all your weaknesses for days. rest in peace "

"it's very cool in concept! and the thing is theyre not just mimicking what they've heard to garner trust (though it still sounds a bit off because clearly most of them don't have the proper parts to vocalize), they can understand and form sentences from what they've heard somebody say too.. so eg if you ask it to say something specific to verify its not just parroting it will say it back to you (as long as its heard the sounds to replicate). still not entirely convincing bc again its off, esp if they haven't heard the proper noises to replicate a word, but its VERY convincing from, say, a distance.. if youre not paying attention.. if youre in enough distress to believe its whoever theyre replicating.. etc. which is an incredible feat of 'nature' and is cool as fuck. but also HORRIFYING "

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" YEAH!! not all of them are like that like I said, its actually bc of a specific thing about that character it was about but.. it can kindof fuck with your body however it wants to. repurposes your biological material for itself yknow "

(about beast process->) " I DONT HAVE IT FULLY DEVELOPED YET. However. the general thought is that theyre basically dead and having their body used, but.. it's like some greater organism that consumes you and uses your bits to remake other things with the knowledge it gained from Absorbing You. so technically your brain is still there. just part of a greater hivemind now in a different way. its horrifyingly intelligent and replicates new creatures from the slop.. or atleast begins to transform you once you're way too deep in the " my skin is falling off im dying " stage to recover so it just slides on in and slurps up your melted flesh and starts to reconstruct you "

" basically yeah you're dead its just using your flesh and the basic structure of your body but your mind is still kindof there in a way through the knowledge it has 👍 your consciousness isnt there with it, whoever it takes is GONE but. "

" I mean it doesn't really melt you its more rapid infection and necrosis of the flesh so that your shape falls away away and is no longer stable so it can take over and change into something else and attempt to replicate what was there before but. yknow "

" it makes a convincing deer! somebody goes out to photograph wildlife and sees this thing and stops to take a picture and then its fucking face tears open the second it notices him and its form unravels entirely. its intelligent enough to actively hunt and trick you and thats exactly what it's doing "

+ this post

THATS ALOT. But basically I just set it down bc these things all share those few central important traits bc otherwise they're not exactly 1 group of beasts! there's multiple. and it spreads. TLDR shared traits:

Can spread the beasting through fluids/bites (think rabies), and Creech other things with it

(But don't have to creech things! sometimes they just eat)

Technically a hivemind. Stored knowledge from everything they've killed like a library. They can't exactly read the minds of eachother when separated into different creatures, but from the Goop..

HORRIFICALLY intelligent, fully sapient and possibly even sentient depending on beast

Can manipulate their own anatomy when Creeched due to being able to melt and reform flesh (though their mass stays generally the same, they can't randomly get LARGER unless they absorb another thing). It takes time of course, theyre still ripping and changing and liquefying flesh and bone, its not instant. but they can still do it

Able to mimic voices they've heard. Cant speak on their own, they need to have heard a voice to replicate (usually the one of the person it originated from

Are we on the same page. ok COOL. So, even with that, theyre not all exactly the same. They won't turn into the same gorebeast every single time- their appearance varies based off " host "- as well as alot of other traits. they won't solve situations the exact same way, may develop different hunting strategies best suited to their appearance, etc etc..

For example: take whoever became a BEAST was very intelligent. that monster would display that same extreme intelligence and thinking, despite no longer being them. it just might be used in different ways. And with that varying intelligence comes the difference between their natural survival instinct as a living thing vs actual sapience extending into sentience.

The sapience doesn't exactly MEAN super extreme intelligence: it's just learning and wisdom. Knowing something and acting based off that. It doesn't exactly mean it's capable of feelings and EXTREME critical thought (despite also being able to think)

+ with different physical appearances (i usually based the beasts off of something correlating to their stand ^_^) comes different kinds of uses of their anatomy/abilities that others may not have or think of. it's not like MAGIC, its like strategy and conforming to their own anatomy , and they can't exactly do something impossible (go invisible, breathe fire) but they can certainly develop things other beasts wouldn't have depending on what they became during transformation and their own specific thought.

EG: one might learn to camouflage in some way or learn stealth hunting strategies + change their own anatomy to be better suited. Like developing soft pads on the feet to move silently. or if their body was severely damaged, ripping and cracking their own ribs out of place to hold their own organs in for safety and even reforming their own peritoneum so they aren't just spilling out, vulnerable.. yknow!

Their forms usually remain vaguely humanoid in some way, due to building up off the appearance of the thing they've consumed and taken and changing it, but it can be intensely graphic in different ways for that reason. And sometimes the mutations can occur without reason in rotting and melting away their host to cause the process to go faster (eg: skin splitting open and folding back down to bone, having flesh tendrils somewhere)... just happens.

+ considering theyre still a living thing, they need guts to function. and will even actively attempt to reform them or make new ones as backup from the viscera theyre made up of... they'll stop the life functions of whatever they've taken and just start them over immediately and replace organs (eg brain, any important vital bit) they've dissolved before going anywhere.. have a screenshot for this too actually

SO I hope that answers the question kindof.. theyre not all exactly the same they vary! in different incredibly gruesome disturbing ways! general size and ability just comes down to what they believe will work (and sometimes it doesnt)

[escapewriter]

im curious what your process is like in terms of planning the coffee house diaries? since it's something that you have put so much time and thought into, i was just wondering if you wrote an outline or rough drafts for each part that you are going to put out?

i love this question agghh

so i first put this out in december of 2020 as like a christmas/new year surprise so its been quite a while and i havent finished it yet🤡

how i planned it: i just knew i wanted to make a series where it was connected. not something where the series is the plot of the entire thing (like lost cities which is another work im going to continue later). but i just wanted to make one where all the members were in one universe.

with that idea, i obviously needed to have a theme or au universe. so the basic one i knew was university au, but i wasnt sure how i would just tie it around that because then it would get repetitive, so i added the cafe au in there.

the names were just coffee orders that i googled lol. and for the title ‘the coffee house diaries’ my friend and i both brainstormed ideas til we ended up with what it is.

as for the plots, i started with wooyoungs. i didnt even have a clue what i wanted to do with the others. but then once i finished it, and i had a little break in between with other projects, i found motivation and made a whole outline that lists the basic ideas of what i wanted to happen for the other stories.

once that was down, i kinda of just went from there. but i have to redo hongjoongs because it was deleted💔 curse you google. but yeah, that was the thought process lol.

thank you for asking, i love talking about this!!❤️

[hawkeyedflame]

Agghh here's a writing idea I need to share now: main protag pairing basically have a terminal condition and the time finally comes (too soon ofc). Char A calls out Char B's name and doesn't say anything after. Char B realizes that it's because that Char A wants B to be the last thing they want to see. And B heard the barely masked fear in A's voice so B smiles to be reassuring right until A closes their eyes.

hey quick question what the fuck

[enyzay]

Ooh tell me all about your OC! Government Hooker is such a sick name agghh

Aww!! Sure sure!! I will say it’s name/appearance are way cooler than what it can do, but basically if the stand user knows your name and preferred pronouns he can control your involuntary hormonal responses. Or: he can make the affected person go through puberty… again. It’s a little silly cause it started as a joke, but I started leaning into it more and more. The range is large but the user has to concentrate on the process. Losing focus makes the effects stop.

It’s useful in a few ways:

- one time disguises as it can allow the user to essentially feminize/masculinize their appearance or other’s appearance.

- hormonal responses such as blood rushing to other parts of your body can make you lightheaded if physically exerted.

- then just other “annoyance” things like giving people they don’t like acne, making their voices crack, making them feel sweaty / awkward and nervous.

- in more dangerous territory your involuntary hormonal responses control your emotions to an extent and also dictate your health, however flamingo isn’t the uh,,, best user so he doesn’t really put a heap of effort into doing anything more than just what he wants.

Lyric in government hooker “I could be girl unless u want to be man” is the reason the stand name is government hooker, also I’m just a big Gaga fan.

Inspired a lot by Cinderella also from part 4.

[tenderlyspidermomma]

AGGHH lately I’ve been so stressed with my computer, I’ve been trying to work on my lil sims series for months and I’ve finally written out what I wanted to do with the story and the characters laid out but storage was a problem because I couldn’t run my game. So my lovely amazing partner bought me a 2t external hard drive, and once I figured out how to get it to work and get my game to download through there… my EA account asks me to verify an old email I don’t have access to anymore. Which was a very glass breaking moment because of all the memories and saved file and all of the extra stuff I bought basically went down the toilet teehee and reaching out to costumer support didn’t do anything. So I decided to open a new account and bought half the expansions/dlc/ game packs I used to have. At that point I was pretty much over it cause I couldn’t do much more about that, so I went and filled the void with mods/cc but after I tried to open my game none of it show up! Wow so awesome!🙃🥳

So after that I kinda gave up on even playing the game until I solved that issue. To be honest I’m not an expert on solving anything but I will try to solve my computer problems on my own with the help of YouTube so I spent weeks trying to solve the mod problem and when I finally figured out how to make my mods run through my hard drive a demon lord fucks with me again. So that night while I was sleeping, my laptop charger melted and burned while I fell asleep!😚no wonder I smelt burnt plastic, but I really thought it was my dream and that it was just so vivid, my senses were awakened.. Anyways, while I save money to buy a new charger I’m just gonna keep working on the story and taking my sweet time with it, or maybe do something else if that’s what the universe wants me to do. Sorry for the long rant, but I just had to get it out my brain. I might do character polls and introduction to characters and might ask you guys to vote for adventures the party will go through to make it a lil bit interactive.

[suhnnyskiess]

oh and THIS!! no 😂😂😂😂 she doesn’t. y/n is someone who grew up with every aspect of her life controlled. down to her making friends. everything in her life was very mechanical. so she isn’t the most self aware person when she comes to these things. she just genuinely thinks chris is wonderful and constantly wants to remind him of that (basically she likes him so much but doesn’t realise it yet. and all she’s really doing is showing how much she cares about him through actions. but yeah they do tend to make chris’s heart race without her realising 🤡)

and YES!!! i told youuuuu!!! i told you you’d love oa!chris. he’s such a soft, gentle character. i adore him. and i adore the little bond between him and y/n because 🥺🥺🥺 they found the kind of comfort in each other they’d never felt before. both of them ground each other.

also hehe i’m pretty sure there’s another scene where he’s sleeping peacefully that’s even softer. i think it’s in chapter 7…? between the lines, yeah. that’s one of my fave scenes 💛

So basically I'm setting myself up for another idiots to lovers huh? Bc clearly, i find it endearing in a way that OC genuinely thinks "this person must be loved!!" And goes for it bc I can't do that LMAO, BUT ATHE SAME TIME I'm scared bc I know it will gradually become a miss communication problem of sorts and feelings will get involved and it may become a hassle to deal with, but at the present I'll be thankful that someone is finally teaching him that he is loveable and deserving of being loved!! No matter mythical creature or not, so agghh I love it yet I know I'll set myself up 😭👍