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#Being tired all day and awake at night
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ff2-soda-pop · 3 months
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I'm starting to question if I should even bother with the stupid paper.... I'm probably just gonna fail anyways lmao
#ive been running around stuck on Babysitter Duty for the past three days and the teacher only gave us any instructions on thursday yet#somehow expected a full paper done and edited by sunday. even if i wasnt stuck on babysitter duty she'd get a shitty paper just due to how#little TIME that is to get things done. but because i am on babysitter duty uhhh..... well so far there's no paper#ive been spending practically full days having to take care of my sister and i cant just Ignore Her so i havent done my paper while watchin#her because again: my focus needs to be on Her. and shes incredibly loud which makes it super hard to focus. fun combo /s#so i was like 'i'll just stay up Really Late and do it then' but that hasn't worked because my sister WONT GO TO BED if im awake. i was up#until 4am last night hoping she'd fall asleep and shut up and i could work but Nope!#and then i got too tired to even care anymore#i've tried explaining this to others and they're just like 'ok well you just need to find a way to make it work :/' which is very much#easier said than done! and im scared about this paper because this teacher doesnt accept late work at all for pretty much any reason#and im sure she wont understand my situation. because shes also the teacher that didnt understand that i didnt have the textbook on time#because it was still being shipped and i dont control the rate at which book ships and she was like#'..........okay well you still need to have the book by tomorrow at least <3' when i told her the book had Just shipped and idk when i'd ge#the dumb thing. so yknow i dont have high hopes about this#also just as extra 'make stuff more difficult' i have zero accommodations because my mom cant keep track of my fucking IEPs and they wont#let me have accommodations unless i have that and idk how to get a copy anymore. so i've also been running around with no help in that area#and it's not great </3#idk im just stressed out and frustrated and i Want To Cry :)#vent
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umilily · 26 days
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petition for my body to sleep normal hours.
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sonicunleash · 9 months
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Considering taking an adderall and pulling an all-nighter to draw perhaps. honestly i think im at the healthiest ive ever been
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softquietsteadylove · 10 months
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Hi! Would like to make a request for the Runaway Bride one!
Gil had an accident and Thena patches him up as good as she can, with his help and instructions.
I really love your work! Keep it up!
"Is it...how does that feel?"
Gil smiled at Thena from being laid on the bed, his leg elevated on his pillow (his head was on hers, so he wouldn't risk getting any blood on it.
He had been out 'lumberjacking', as Thena called it, when a stray animal had startled him. His swing went amiss and next thing he knew he had one hell of a cut along his leg from just above his knee. He was lucky to have made it home to Thena using it as a cane.
She had run out of the cabin practically screaming at him.
"Thanks, sweetheart," he sighed, his vision still flitting and hazy from all of his lost blood. She had already made some very weak tea with plenty of honey in it for him, as well as some blueberries she was going to use for cobbler, he assumed. "I'm feeling better already."
"Gilgamesh," she sighed, in no mood to be placated by sweet words. She glared at him faintly, "I mean it. How is the pain?"
He sighed again. In truth, his knee was aching, his muscles were burning, and at the same time he felt chilled to the bone. Walking however far he had certainly hadn't helped the injury.
Thena sat herself beside him, picking up his heavy hand between hers. "Really, Gil."
He smiled at her again, because she was so sweet, his Runaway Bride. She had come so far from the lost little fawn he had found in the woods. "It still hurts. But I feel a lot better than before."
Thena dropped her head to his hand she was holding aloft for him. She had held it together through all of his instruction of how to wash out his wound and apply a medicinal salve and bandage it up as best she could.
"I'm sorry, hon."
She looked up at him sharply.
He tilted his head towards her on the pillow, "I probably won't be able to get around on my own for a while. You'll have to-"
"Gil!" she pursed her lips, and he half expected her to complain about the workload he was putting on her. But then, that wouldn't be Thena. Thena was no less afraid of hard work than she was the bears in the woods. "How could you apologise! You're hurt! This...this is the least I can do for you."
She brought his hand up to face his palm out, letting herself press her cheek into it. She sniffled, "I am still capable of a mere fraction of what you can do. But I owe you more than I will ever be able to express already."
Gil shook his head, "you don't-"
Thena leaned forward, and Gil almost wondered just how close she was going to get to him in this position. But she eyed him up close, letting him note every little ripple in the sea of green within her eyes. "I owe you my life as I now know it, Gilgamesh."
He could say he owed her just as much--that his life hadn't been the same since she dragged herself to his door. And in the best way possible, because she had no idea how much he looked forward to coming home to her making a mess in the kitchen, or sweeping the floors for the third time in a day. He no longer dozed off in his chair in front of the fire because he would rather crawl into bed and know that she was happily sleeping beside him.
He still feared the day that he would come home and find that his Runaway Bride had been found and dragged back to the altar.
Gil blinked out of his reverie, and he was pretty sure he had actually fallen asleep for a split second. Thena was adjusting him on the pillows and pulling a blanket over his legs. He looked around him, "you're gonna have to climb over me, I guess."
"I'm not sleeping in the bed."
"What?!"
Thena looked at him with a hint of her usual stubbornness. "You're hurt, Gil. Moving around in your sleep will only do more harm. I'll sleep in the bed when you're healed."
"Wh-" his jaw hung open, trying to conjure denial after denial. This was not what he had in mind. He waved his hand as she stood to dump out the ice cold bucket of rags and bandages. "That's-"
"No, Gilgamesh," she frowned, and the continued use of his full name made him pout more. "I can sleep on the hay bed while you heal. In the morning we'll test how well you can or can't walk."
Gil crossed his arms to himself, pouting as Thena disposed of the wash bucket contents. He thought he was supposed to get whatever he wanted when he was sick or suffering.
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nerdie-faerie · 4 months
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Feeling a lil vindictive, a lil nasty this morning
So context, my brother had a work do last night and before he left he told my mum he'd becoming back here and doing so alone. So tell me why he called me at 3am when I'm trying to sleep but travel anxiety and says he's bringing two mates back? I tell him he can't I'm leaving at 6 tomorrow he just goes yeah they'll just be passing through your room. No I've gotta get up in 3 hours you can't be keeping up, yeah it's fine. The fuck it is not
Anyway so my alarm goes off 3 hours later I've barely slept, my brain already woke me up several times prior but that doesn't mean I'm turning my alarms off immediately or getting ready quietly after the prick disturbed my sleep
#Demon Spawn#travel tag#the rest of my siblings got a nice goodbye but im not a morning person on a good night sleep let alone when i havent been able to sleep#like i wouldnt have gotten much sleep regardless because of anxiety but i woulda been able to fall asleep sooner if i hadnt been dragged out#of bed kept awake by the rage induced adrenaline and the sounds of sports being played on tv and chatter in the next room#and hes gonna spend all day in bed anyway so i dont feel guilty particularly when hes had guests over constantly for the two weeks ive been#home which denies me access to the ensuite and kitchenette thats accessible from his room and he constantly keeps me awake#i dont get to enjoy my comfy non student accommodation bed because the fcker never lets me go to sleep and my mum wont let me sleep in#i did fix my sleep schedule minutely was getting tired at 12 instead of 2am from where i fcked it during assignment season so small mercies#had to wake my littlest brothers up to say goodbye and the babby started crying 😢 my mum wanted me to wake her and the baby up too#but the baba was still half asleep and definitely not processing that i was leaving 😂 she was so unbothered guarantee ill have to facetime#my dad dropped me to the bus stop and hes as bad at small talk and emotionally constipated as me but he was just coming back from a night#shift so i appreciate that that was him putting in extra effort and him checking i had enough money is as close to sentiment as he can do#everyone else? cute goodbye. my sister was already awake when i got up to the house pretty sure she had an alarm set.....#my oldest younger brother? i hope the hangover sucks
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woukd like to file a formal complaint for getting sick right now. I am in the midst of finals week. my project is due on Friday and I need to work on it. could i not have waited a few days. im drinking all the fluids and resting why is my body still unhappy. im doing all the things. please let me recover so I don't fail my fucking class <3
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pepprs · 1 year
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not doing good. at all
#purrs#today and yesterday ive been unspeakably depressed. and no one knows what to do with me and i don’t know what to do with me. but ivs been ge#getting absolutely SHIT sleep bc of my siblings staying up late and my sisters ocd stuff which is probably part of it. I now im wide awake a#and it’s 2 and im miseravle and can’t sleep and already did sleep for 2 hours and it didn’t help and im hungry and weak#i truly don’t n kw what’s wro ng with me. i want to be happy and normal but every day i have long moments where im trying so hard not to cry#and i think most ppl would excuse themselves to go cry or take a break or like. speak up and ask for help if they’re miserable but i don’t d#do any of that. i just hold it all in until i get so tired it disappears. and then when i do snap im too miserable and ashamed to actually b#be honest about how anyone can help me which only makes me cry more. atp idk what will help. im in therapy now im about to have some time of#km eating food i like even though it’s not the healthiest ive tried resting and getting sleep and whatever. maybe im just not cut out for#any of what im doing and i just need to detach myself from reality even harder than i am already doing apparently. idk nothing im typing is#making sense i just can’t fall asleep now and im so pissed at my siblings and im pissed at my whole family for not giving a shit that im mis#miserable and easily overstimulated by noise bc i could’ve had ghe room downstairs and im still being held hostage by redacted and being#shaken awake to redacted like last night and work is killing me for the dumbest reasons. i literally cannot keep living like this#delete later
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hellfireeddiemunson · 9 months
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getting a tooth extraction is so weird. what a weird experience i’ve been having the past eight days
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chatonmagique · 6 months
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Learning to sleep when I'm tired is such a bold act of selfcare out of my comfortzone with adhd. With so many days feeling unfinished filled with procrastinated responsibilities, leaving me exhausted thinking I've never done enough to sit back and relax let alone sleep. Even if that means a dysfunctional relationship with sleep and productivity, while spending the evening barely productive yet also not going to bed. That is all I'm used to so to allow myself to relax and go to bed when I'm tired, not because I'm done with everything and deserve to but because I physically need it to recharge and not mess up my ability to sleep well, is such a bold different choice to me.
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cetoddle · 8 months
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idk idk i don’t think i can do this
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moodr1ng · 9 months
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they need to make like uber eats for pharmacies. the days im out of my meds are also the days where im absolutely incapable of going outside to get more 😭😭
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astridthevalkyrie · 2 years
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my mom finds it very hard to believe that I would be tired after waking up at 6:45 AM to go work and coming back at 7:45 PM and believes that I am just, quote, “being lazy”
#i haven’t had a good cry in a while I think tonight’s as good a night as any#it’s so strange how quickly this spirals into other thoughts#like. my mother is not inherently wrong about me being lazy#I don’t even make time to do things that I want to do#I procrastinate on everything#sometimes I’m too lazy to even shower or eat#do I think that is definitely bc something is up with me mentally?#yes but since I graduated I have had no time nor energy to find a therapist#I’m stuck in this cycle of not getting enough sleep bc I have to wake up early but#I don’t sleep early because I relish the time of night when I’m the only one awake and no one is talking to me#I’m on marriage apps because my parents want me married but I have not found a single guy that I would work with#and a part of me feels like it’s because I act difficult on purpose#I don’t WANT to get married because I am 21 and I want to date and have my first kiss and. that stuff#but I can’t because that’s not halal or whatever tf I’m tired#I want to do skincare and get better at makeup and taking care of myself but every day my bed is just the best thing in the world#I get stomach aches like all the time and I don’t eat properly#i am in a much better place mentally than I have been in years and yet I am still stuck in this maddening phase#i have to wait until I absolutely have to get up bc nothing actually makes me want to wake up and go through the day#my lsat score came back and it was worse than my first time#and of COURSE it was I didn’t study bc between a hellish last semester and a new job#it wasn’t gonna happen#and now I’m considering not even going to law school bc do I really want to work and study at the same time#but then do I really wanna be in tech forever??#I’m gonna go shower might follow up later idk
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backpackingspace · 1 year
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Do you guys ever bolt wide awake from a dead deep sleep? No ? Just me
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hotfuss · 1 year
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i’m once again falling into another cycle of horrifying sleep schedule and work that is leaving me a shadow of a person and i want to cry so badly
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koishua · 2 years
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when he makes me want to become the best version of myself :)
#tp#on the night i was feeling horrible he bought me coffee and walked around the block for two straight hours with me#talking about anything and everything and asking me how i feel#he told me about his childhood and told me little stories here and there and talked me out of feeling shitty#i had been rude to him unintentionally a few hours prior and despite that he approached me with utmost kindness#and i have never met someone like him before#he is so clever and smart and funny and witty and sensible and soft hearted and kind and understanding#he also stayed awake for me while i couldnt sleep past midnight at the lounge area because he knew there was a creep around despite being#utterly tired and that's why i told him we could go back up to our rooms respectively bc i couldnt dare leaving him out of his sleep#and he asked if me or my neighbors had a cat when we first started hanging out after he took a glimpse at my arms#and when i told him no he gave me the most understanding smile ever and i almost cried then and there in front of everyone else#and now i find myself reading about as many topics as i can handle bc i want to be as knowledgable as him#and i find myself trying my best at everything bc i wouldnt want to disappoint him when he brought me comfort at a moment when i#was feeling one of my lowest#i cant do that to someone who strolled around the unfamiliar streets near our hotel at midnight for nearly two hours with me#who gave me a warm cup of coffee when my hands were going numb but i didnt want to go back inside bc i was feeling stuffy#i'll see him again in a few months and i want to (oh so badly want to) show him that i got better#he didnt know me well (we'd only interacted for a week or two) and yet it was like he was the only person who understood#and all of a sudden he's become the person i associate the most with safety and comfort#and i know (gosh i KNOW) that he's suffered through so so much up until this day of his life and that's why he is the way he is#and i just want him to feel okay and i want to be able to comfort him the way he does me whenever he#feels bad#sorry for the feeling dump but i just want to let y'all know that there is an incredible person out there that#im so happy to have met and become friends with
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