#Berdly in Chapter 2. Pain can make people do horrible things.

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Pain is a great motivator…

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Meanwhile Toriel:

(Loud noises don't wake her up usually.)

Artist note: I’m so proud of this :))) I know it’s a lot of dialogue and reading, but dialogue is grueling work for me. I’m glad with the art and for the amount of pages I made in such a relatively short time span -w- page 5 was super fun to work on. A lot of blood, sweat, and hours here... :) The backgrounds were a big bore tbh, but I finished them! Yippie!

[berrymeter]

okay i hadn’t heard of the secret route but i watched a playthrough and wow scarring! just slowly and deliberately traumatizing noelle my favorite character and breaking the key plot elements of the game. and i never would have noticed because it requires such specific parameters! wild and horrible. and yeah the two knights chess allegory makes a+ sense! although it’s probably not a matter of good knight bad knight since player character AS EVIDENCED BY SECRET ROUTE can also suck and be bad.. i wonder what other knight’s motivations are and how they interact with pacifist and genocide routes. would that be them slashing the tires in the end then? i mean so much goes over my head because i barely remember chapter 1 and i care more about susie and noelle talking about their feelings than any plot related foreshadowing. and there’s a million easter eggs everywhere that i’ll never know i didn’t find. just how toby intended.

oh honestly i liked chapter 1’s soundtrack better it felt more memorable! but chapter 2’s was fuller i think. the car parts are just how traffic is in my city so 😌 and spamton in my route was just a creepy little computer man so imagine me seeing ppl talk abt his tortured backstory and motivations. like Please I Do Not Care LMAO as queen would say. i’d rather fucking rouxls kaard be the next sexyman at least he’s an idiot and has better legs!! -tt

RIGHT it's so specific!! it was found via datamining which makes sense bc how the fuck else would you find this snfkjsdhfj. literallyyy terrible -_-

and berdly dying... although i have a theory he might be stuck between existence & nonexistence (or like a coma) in a fucked up way bc the enemies were *frozen* and didn't necessarily die like what if they were unthawed? (i know it's thawed. but unthawed is dear to me) but also the fountain being sealed implies the characters that were frozen there stopped existing as characters since this specific dark world would've disappeared the way lancer's did. i'm also pretty sure in this world monsters still fade into dust upon dying bc when you go to the cemetery and talk to the priest he tells you they buried a hammer in his father's grave which implies they don't have anything else to bury? but anyway i don't like this :)

AND YEAH i was wondering what the implications were then if you do Abuse Simulator route. i don't think we know enough atm to really say though :( pains me bc iiii hate having questions left unanswered sndkjfdgh and it prob will take at least two years before we get the next chapters. ough. i wish i were u ansdkjfhd i'm just dying to know these things ahhh... although i also just want casual little happiness for my besties i don't play toby fox games solely for the Normal bits HJKSDHFK

NO YEAH THE TRAFFIC PARTS ARE... me when i have an appointment and not a single fucking car will let me pass <3 i hate it here ppl in the countryside were nicer. also that's fair ahdsjkdfh chapter 1 didn't really mark me though, i have a lot more tracks from chapter 2 on my playlist :pensive: (too lazy to add the actual emoji i'm on computer LMAO)

i actually kinda like spamton! the fact that his secret boss theme directly takes leitmotifs from power of neo & dummy! feels Important somehow. he also has mettaton neo's body at that point which hmmm but also WHERE IS THE METTS OF TONS GIVE HIM BACK TONBY. as for his backstory & stuff it's... idk it makes me really sad nskdjfndsh those games evoke a lot of compassion in me bc i'm a fool (i don't even hate the king of spades!! hello!!!) so here we are. i don't want rouxls to be the next sexyman though. he IS a silly guy but i don't want people to turn him into a character people don't want to see online like a lot of people feel about sans :( he's my funnyguy...

spamton being a sexyman fits bc sexyman isn't a qualification you want your favourite character to have UNLESS you're into sexymen DHQSJKFHSKJ i think he fits the bill perfectly. he also has a fucked up speech pattern that's honestly fun to me and the "now's your chance to be a big shot" will Not exit my brain which...? typical of a sexyman methinks. rouxls can just be a beloved idiot. also on the better legs i HOPE u mean spamton's normal not-mettaton legs Or Else..... /j

[kurathemonster]

Mask of Memories - Chapter 2[Deltarune Fanfiction]

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Time Taken - 1-2hours for writin

Word Count - 2,083

Programs Used -  Google Docs

WARNINGS

Mental illness

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“Did you hear something?” Toriel said as she slowly turned her head behind her to find the source of the noise. Alphys’s expression changed to worry as she looked up the boss monster. “Uhh… Y-yeah. I did.” Toriel walked towards the large door at the end of the hall. The metal of the door shone yellow from the setting sun gleaming through the windows. Toriel stepped in front of the door and put her hand on the handle to open it. Alphys stood behind her, concern in her eyes. The light from under the door inside began to move. Kris noticed the difference and saw a shadow cover the space under the door. They panicked and pointed the figure out to Susie. “Someone’s here!” Susie said in a hurry to escape from view of the door. There was nowhere to go. Everything seemed to lead to dead end, straight in view of the doorway. The door opened and Toriel was standing to see the students panicked at the sight of her. “Kris? What on Earth are you doing?” Kris stared at their mother hoping that she would say something else instead of look for an answer. “I was just… uhh… playing with my friend?” Toriel gave Kris her stern face, indicating that they were in trouble. “Kris, go home. No more play for today” Kris sluggishly walked towards the door. As they passed Susie they turned towards her and waved. They could hear a silent “sorry” come out of Susie’s mouth. Kris passed their mother and went into the hallway as Toriel turned back towards Susie. “I should really be telling your parents about this. You shouldn’t be in the school this late.” “I know, sorry,” Susie said quietly as she walked past Toriel and out the door. She tried to avoid making eye contact with her, but Toriel seemed to be staring her down. Toriel faced Alphys and sighed. “I’m really sorry about that. Can we continue our conversation tomorrow?” “O-of course!” The lizard monster looked relieved to see that no fight has arisen. Toriel smiled at Alphys and took Kris by the hand. Kris was shocked at the strength of her grip and the speed at which she grabbed their hand. “We’re going home Kris. If you are good, I’ll allow you to play tomorrow.” They walked past Susie who was watching from the door. “We’ll find some way to get in there tomorrow,” Susie whispered to Kris on their way out. Kris nodded their head. Kris got into Toriel’s car and sat still and obedient as their mother turned the car on. The trip back to the house was completely silent. No words were exchanged when they drove. Toriel concentrated on the wheel with a worried look on her face. Kris only stared out the window to see their classmates playing with each other. They recognized almost everyone on their street. Noelle was walking on the sidewalk, in the direction of the hospital. Berdly was talking to some children near the apartments. Monster Kid was waiting next to the door of the “Librarby”. Their dad was watering the flowers in front of his store. He noticed the familiar car on the street and saw Kris staring in the window. He waved and smiled at them. Kris waved back. They could feel a faint happiness after seeing him again. Although Kris visited Asgore often, it still didn’t feel the same as when he was at home. Kris thought about how much Toriel used to comment about the simple things Asgore would do. It made Kris a bit mad to see how she treated him. She views him as an irresponsible and naive influence to Kris and their brother, when he was just trying to bring fun to their world. He left before Asriel left for college. Kris honestly thought that things would be the same forever. Asriel left not too long after that though. They pulled up in their driveway and Toriel quickly got out of the car. Kris slowed their pace and walked out into the yard. They looked far in front of them. They could see some people beyond the thick brush on either side of the road. Toriel opened the front door then looked behind her. “Kris? You can go out tomorrow, but come stay inside for tonight.” Kris looked back towards their mother and slowly dragged their body towards the door. Toriel put her bag down on the table at the front door and went to open the fridge. “Kris, I have some leftover stew if you want-” “I’m not hungry,” said Kris as they walked upstairs in a hurry. They didn’t even bother to glance toward their mother. Toriel looked at Kris when they stopped in their tracks near the bottom of the stairs. “Kris, may we have a talk?” Kris hesitated for a second, then turned around and stood in front of their mother. Toriel grabbed their shoulders and gestured them towards the table. She then walked back to the fridge, took out the cold pot of stew, and placed it carefully on the stove to heat up. “Kris, I…” she started as she sat down on the opposite side of the table. “I’m worried about you. You were out all day yesterday and now you’re going in places you know you’re not supposed to be in.” Kris stayed silent and listened to their mother. Toriel sat up straighter. “Kris, I know you’re excited about your new friend, but that doesn’t give you an excuse to do whatever you wish.” She paused. “I want you to be happy, but I don’t want you to get hurt. And I know how hard it’s been for you since Asriel left. And even more so after…” She stopped talking as if it had been too painful to continue. The look on her face hurt Kris. She looked sad and stressed out from worry. Kris hated to see their mother like this. “I know you miss him, Kris. You miss Asriel. You two used to have so much fun times together, and ever since he left,  I feel like a part of you stopped working. You’ve changed a lot, and I’m so proud of what you’ve become, but I feel like you’re not happy with your life. You do miss them, do you not?” Kris opened their mouth slightly as if to say something, but nothing came out. They sat silent and pained with what their mother had to say. “No need to say it. I understand. You really wish for them to come back and for our… family to be together again. I want to try to fix it, but I don’t know if Asriel would be the same when he comes back. He’s a grown man now, off in college. He might not want to stay with us anymore.” Kris could feel tears choking them. Their breath was tight, but they resisted the tears. Toriel continued, “I honestly don’t know if things could ever be as they used to be, Kris… but I want the best for you. And… and what you’ve been through has worried me as your mother because I see how much you miss them and hurts me to know that I might not be able to bring them back. I don’t know if your dad.. would be willing to…” Kris looked up to their mother when she finished her sentence. They knew how unfairly she treated their dad, without appreciation for anything, and it hurt them more than anything. Especially after she admitted that nothing could ever be the same. That Asriel wouldn’t want to see them as often. It wounded them to hear these words come out of the mouth of one of the last people Kris depended on. Kris also couldn’t believe that they let their guard slip down for too long. They acted like everything was perfect, even to their mother, but when the player came in, she noticed how different things were. Kris was confused by all of their feelings. They were astonished by the truthfulness in their mother’s words. They were hurt to realize the reality of things. They were never coming back Not as they were before. Kris realized that their parents’ relationship would never be the same and that Asriel wouldn’t come home as a playful and imaginative child. Kris looked back down towards their hands resting on the table. “Why is it Dad’s fault? What did he do?” Toriel was shocked at the question, not expecting so straight forward from someone such as Kris. “Why he- there are many times where he…” Toriel was nervous and trying to recount all of the times Asgore had messed up. “He- he’s irresponsible and neglectful as a parent. He never tried to stay serious about anything, or- or…” Kris looked straight at their mother and suddenly stood up from the chair. “You didn’t have to mention anything! You treat him, like he’s done something horrible, and yet you- you’re not… guilty for any of it? It’s all his fault?” Toriel looked more stressed than ever. A few seconds of silence passed. Kris suddenly pushed their chair back and walked towards the stairs. Toriel stood up slowly. “Kris? I’m sorry, Kris, will you just-” Toriel stopped and they were gone. Kris went upstairs and shut the door to their room in an instant. Toriel stood in silence and shock. She looked around for a bit, trying to process everything she said and heard. “What have I done?” she said aloud, almost whispering. Small tears were forming in her eyes, sticking to them. Toriel just kept thinking about everything. She realized that never once had she really sat to think about why she treated Asgore the way he did. It was just that something about him, a flaw, made her hate him. He wasn’t that bad of a person, yet she still pushed him down. He’s only made a few minor mistakes, nothing that important, but it still made her angry. She didn’t know what to think anymore. All she wanted was for it to be the way it used to be, when Kris was happy and their family was together. She never intended for any of this to happen and honestly thought there was no harm she was doing. She took a deep breath and sighed. She could hear the pot of stew boiling and walked over to the stove to turn it off. She sat back down again and only put her hands on her face and cried more. After Kris mentioned it, she definitely felt guilty. She felt like this entire mess was her fault. A few hours passed. Kris didn’t know exactly how long, but they knew it had been a while. They lay on their bed, sheets pulled halfway up their body. They rotated their body so that they were facing their brother’s side of the room. They saw all of the trophies and decorations. A lot of his stuff was left behind when he left. Kris saw the drawn picture on the wall of a flower. A golden flower. Kris remembered helping Asriel color the picture. How long ago, it had been. They turned back around to face the wall on their side of the room. Empty, their side was. They sat up on the bed, the bed sheets falling of their stomach and onto their legs. The player’s soul was still trapped in the cage, silent as ever. Kris thought it to be strange for some reason, how something such as the player would only be active for a day. The soul was so restless, nothing moved. It almost scared Kris. They heard a knock at the door. Their mother was standing behind it. “Kris?” Kris stayed silent. They could hear their mother’s desperate voice behind the door. “Kris, I’m sorry about… what I said and what I did, but I’m going to be honest with you. I didn’t know that what I was doing was hurting you too. And I’m sorry for that.” She paused. “I want to fix this, if you’re willing to let me. I want to be there for you as your mother.” She knocked lightly on the door. “Kris?” She realized that Kris wasn’t going to answer. She sighed as her hand left the door and away she was. Kris stayed still on their bed, nothing to say back to their mother. They just sat still and silent.

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Thanks so much for reading! Can't wait to show you what happens next!