#CANT LOSE BAYBEE

[nerdlydelicious]

So, the original Volume 9 storyboards are out.

THEY ARE LITERALLY HOLDING HANDS.

COMMON 👏

WHITE KNIGHT 👏

W 👏

[fallenclan]

recent moons have reinvigorated the fallenclan brainworms, so here are my headcanons about what happened during and after the dog attack! (plus a crowflame section bcuz he is my beloved)

-Fernslug, Bluefern and Newtscar suffered the most violent deaths of all cats. Fernslug was being chased by a dog, when she slipped and hit her head on a rock (Rainflower style), Bluefern was being torn apart (not literally i just cant find the right words) and Newtscar's belly was sliced from chin to belly (Tigerclawstar style, but no organs out. newt doesnt need organs out). Evie, their kits, Sweetclover and Ivybounce saw their deaths, mortified.

-Eaglestripe died to protect Daisypetal, Hawkwish and Sorrelstem. Hawk and Sorrel tried to save them both, but nothing worked.

-Gyoza's death was fully accidental. A dog was aiming for Poppyfeather, but miscalculated and killed him instead.

-Evie and Crowflame often have nightmares about that day. At least they try to comfort eachother about it.

-Moosefall buried Salmonskip while looking at the stars, noticing a new star twinkling brighter than the others.

-Flyspots died to protect Wormshade, Beefreckle died to protect both of his dads and Spiderfoot died to protect her dad.

-Russetflare desperately shielded the medicine den, where most living sheltered, along with Cinderstone, Mudsplash and Salmonskip. Some dogs broke her defence and flooded inside killing the four aformentioned cats.

-Hawkwish begged to Rustbee and Bub to take the apprentices and Juniperfoot and ordered them to take shelter at the old abandoned barn.

-Rustbee, Bub, the apprentices and Juniperfoot are lucky enough to not have seen the massacre.

---------------------Crowflame time baybee----------------------------

-Before losing his vision, he would often take walks with Antbite near the fox-pelt thicket (which i imagine have pine trees that easily frost over in leaf-bare) to help with exercise. Though, he would constantly look at the gaps of sunlight inbetween the trees. It reminded him of his family and Blizzardfang.

-Crowflame doesn't have dreams. He stopped having dreams ever since Molesong died.

-He believes he's lost that flame in him.

-He's decently good friends with Evie, Moonstep and Troutspeckle, all in an effort to help them.

-After finding out that Otterslip had died, initially he didn't believe the news, only to be presented his dead body. No one knows how he died, but Crowflame thinks he might have died of hypothermia.

-He always shivers and twitches at night.

-Crowflame has a huge fear of unnoticed by anyone and dying alone, while Pinefrost feared interactions and being grieved by others. Naturally, lots of cats grieved.

-Often times, he forgets he is even transgender. He's completely forgotten he was even a girl.

-After losing his vision, Antbite refused to leave his side.

-He regrets yelling at Lightningtail everyday, even though Lightningtail apologized for pitying him.

OHHH really cool headcanons,,, i especially like all the Crowflame ones, i love that old man sm

[uniquezombiedestiny]

🔊 AND UHHHHH idk ur fandoms well so uh . your current blorbo

:3 :3 :3

this is for abno yui bc she is invading my mind. it was originaly about vera and gem but then i was like. what if abno yui. and then *vine boom* it actually fits.... even if it takes some exaggeration

also i shortened/combined? some of the lyrics with a / since with all the line breaks its kinda long (atleast on mobile). also makes writing the meaning simpler

also also some info on abno yui:

idk (impact font)

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my bare bones ache / a placebo effect runs deep - just about her abnormalification and its physical effects, but also about how taking souls changes how she looks, with the souls being the placebo effect (both metaphorically and literally, since her goals arent very feasible and taking souls is how shell reach that goal)

the corvids are blind / to the separation of dreams and life - became an abno through a dream which well. very much affects her life lol. also about her dreams/beliefs vs reality

it wasn't always like this - self-explanatory

a grotesque sight / you're frozen in fear - this. thats it thats the meaning

we're all built the same - like everyone in pousseys facilitys an abnormality

wake me up / before it takes me whole - "hmmmm maybe making a deal with the devil isnt a good idea.... wait this actually isnt a good idea" <- cant go back

i stare in the mirror - vibing in containment 👍

i don't know who i was / or who i am now - self-explanatory but less like... severe? than this. she does know who she is but taking souls will fuck with that lol (also about losing herself to her goal/the deal she took)

lack of concentration / i'd rather remove my own head - the vibes in containment arent very good. also about the memory loss(?) + general confusion about what the hell she's doing

until the crows come home

I'll be locked away / never to see the light - once again. containment and the bad vibes. shes an l corp apologist though

god, what have i done - once again questioning what the hell shes doing (and what the hell shes done, like becoming an abno in the first place)

now we'll sleep walk once more - memory loss/abno instincts baybee

they'll never come back home

the normality of this c-section - once again about an ask (but also about how shes changed from being an abno, becoming less of herself)

who was i? - same thing as above and the 'i dont know who i was' lyric

and now we'll sleep walk one more time - also self-explanatory/same thing as the last lyric like this one

[fireflythecinnamonjollyrancher]

hi yes i just finished wizards so uhm 

[concentrated-mug-of-me]

ohh baby what do you say to a christmas truce this old white flag aint been getting much use its folded and put away ohh baybee im singing the same old christmas blues as long as we're firghting baybee we both lose i cant lose you this waayy on christmas daaayy

[spacetickles]

you know I gotta ask for taz balance for that prompt list >:) also would love to hear more about your ocs!!

who’s the most ticklish character

its a close tie between Taako and Barry, I think Taako ever so slightly in the lead.

who’s the character that most people would assume is ticklish, but actually isn’t

Kravitz, he looks so wreckable, but alas, he is dead.

who’s the character that everyone gangs up on and tickles

Lucretia, for sure, especially during the stolen century, she was the youngest and for sure the number one person to go bully.

who’s the character that somehow knows everyone else’s tickle spots and reveals them to others

merle, enough said.

who’s the character with one specific tickle spot that only one other person knows about

both Lup and Taako have ticklish ears, but I've always been of the opinion that elves are very protective of their ears, so only one another really know about each others ears, the rest of the starblaster crew figures it out eventually, but its much much later, if not far after the plot of balance.

who’s the most likely to win gang tickle wars

Magnus, he is the resident tickle monster, he cannot be beat, only Lup can even compare and she loses to him more than anyone else.

which character has a kink for tickling

oh you KNOW its taako baybee, have you seen that fucker there is no way he cant.

which character didn’t even know they were ticklish until another character tickled them

probably angus, though I don't think he's all to comfy with it, he's too caught up in wanting to be serious. though it was a surprise when he first learned it.

which two characters have tickle fights all the time

the twins 100%, taako had no idea what to do with himself when Lup was gone.

also, I dunno if you want a full thing for my ocs, but quick couple fun facts under the cut:

Nyx's hips are insanely ticklish, they cannot handle it even a little, they kick like mad when they really get got.

Naevius has really ticklish knees, his laughter goes completely silent and he turns to jello when he's tickled there.

Laurel finds Nyx's ticklishness incredibly amusing, xe are more than happy to exploit the fact that Nyx loves it.

Nadege is a trans woman, and i love her deeply.

Nadege, unlike every other wizard ever is not particularly ticklish, she lords this over her siblings masterfully.

[leafcabbage]

Oh, 5, 10, 12?

YOOO THANK YOU!!!

5: Show me your favorite under-appreciated fic; why do you wish it got more attention?

i don't know if i really have one! i only have one other fic on my account and honestly its not my best work. im not gonna take it down because i worked hard on it, but i dont think its under appreciated. same goes for my orphaned fics, none of them were under appreciated. im genuinely not being humble, i just dont know if i even deserve the attention i do have

10: Do you outline? Why or why not?

oh BOY do i!!!! i have a composition notebook for sssd&owtapg as well as a google doc with shorter chapter descriptions. for each chapter i have a sticky note on the app thingy where i outline the chapter. ycssg & winterlude both had docs with outlines. i think it makes my writing better! it creates a clear development i want to follow and consistent characterization. its what lets me build to things in the way i do and it gives me scenes to look forward to :]

12: Where do you commonly find inspiration for your stories?

real life. both of my long fics (one orphaned and no one is ever allowed to read it) were based on something from my real life and fleshed out from there. this fic started as me being pissy about having a shitty senate president (who i saw today???? so weird.) and then developing a deep interest in TBIs. from there i find stories i want to tell, stories that dont always get told, and things i can relate to. one inspiration is definitely wanting to give people representation that they dont really get. i also just like making people happy and its cool my stories can do that!!!

15: What are some of your favorite tropes to write? Do they match the ones you read?

is hurt/comfort a trope? thats all i fucking write baybee. love to read it too. WILL NOT READ STRAIGHT ANGST. cant. no thanks.

19: Do you prefer writing dialogue, description, or some other part? Why?

i dont think i really have a preference! i used to only like writing description, but now i think im good at dialogue! (i see a lot of growth from my last multichap fic in that) i will say i think i lose out on things when i rely too much on descriptions. like even the car ride in the last chap of the winterlude, i was gonna gloss it over but its better because i didnt! though i LOVED writing wilbur's chapter, and that was all stream of consciousness/mostly not dialogue. i think everything can be fun

25: Freebie! What question do you wish I had asked? Answer it here!

i dont think i have one from any of these because i have some other in my ask box so im gonna come up with my own.

do you wish you could drop out of college and only write this fic forever?

yes.

[faunusrights]

OFFAL HUNT REMASTERED LIVEBLOG // CHAPTER 19

IN THIS EPISODE OF MURPHY IS SCREAMING, CONSTANTLY, TRAPPED IN THEIR PERFECT NIGHTMARE:

Glynda was saying: “I know we aren’t friends. I know we aren’t partners. I know you’re a criminal. But—I think I can trust you. I think I have to trust you, even if you’ve done awful things before.”

EVERYTHING GOES WRONG BUT LIKE SOMEHOW WORSE THAN EVER? LIKE A WHOLE NEW BRAND OF LOW. LIKE CINDER’S GOT A PICKAXE AND THE CENTRE OF THE PLANET CALLS FOR AID.

IT’S BEEN A WHILE HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but dw offal hunt, like the rising of the sun, the arrival of winter, and the eventual downfall of capitalism, always returns. so lets go.

(i just quickly reread chapter 18 liveblog to remember what happened and Ah Yes I Remember Now. The Suppressed Memories)

The place was emptier without Glynda. Quieter.

/gunshot oh we’re in danger right out of the gate huh? we got some yearning right out here? right now? how quickly the turn do tables.

Cinder appraised her work, holding the beige coat up to the light and squinting.

man i forgot. i FORGET. how much i just love cinder in this fic. sometimes she kinda zones to the back of my mind where she sits waiting for me to start thinking about her again, but now i remember that this cinder is Peaque. look at her GO, minding her own BUSINESS. im proud of her. does she know i love her.

It didn’t take long to don her new, fire-proofed clothes.

in another world, in a more comical plot, she used asbestos. it didnt go well.

The subtle warmth of the Dust teased tension from Cinder’s stiff muscles, even as she marvelled at the strangeness of her own bedroom’s space. It seemed bigger now than it had the last two nights.

h

She chose not to dwell on it.

h

i choose to dwell on it! ME!!!! I CHOOSE TO DWELL ON IT. HEY CINDER WHAT THIS GAY SHIT. hello. ma’am. can we look deeper into this. i, for one, would like to, and i, for one, think its of value to think abt this. that said, small segue

Quietly, Cinder murmured, “I didn’t freak out.”

THE FACT SHE SAYS IT ALOUD LIKE EM AND MERC CAN HEEEEEEAR HEEEEEEEER i am. INFATUATED with this family. cant wait for the 100k spinoff thats basically an elongated beach episode where they go to like. alton towers. or butlins. six flags??? thats a thing in america right??? anyway. beach episode. call me. (wink wink nudge nudge push push shove shove)

 We had to stop back in because Merc left his favorite binder, and it was 2 in the morning, so it was easier to crash here for the night than mess with the ship’s autopilot.

them,,, THEM!!!! mercury is just a son and childe. thast it. he canot change this. i love these kids so much i am SHAKING THE MONITOR RN!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAA

Stuck here in one of the homes they’d shared, Cinder missed them terribly. Missed the sound of their voices and the easy comfort of their presence. Finding the time to contact them had been difficult, between managing Glynda and Hati both, but Glynda was gone, and she’d sent Hati onwards to Atlas. She remembered her call with Emerald, before arriving in Umbraroot; she knew it had not soothed her or her fears.

im sorry was this chapter targeted at me, specifically, as a human being on planet earth? GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS FAMILY!!!!!!!!! THIS WONKY OLD BANDAGED UP FAMILY UNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! i thrive every time they are mentioned on the page. it is a blessing. my succulents grow stronger each time they show up.

“No,” Cinder argued softly, “I had to. Mercury, you deserve to hear it from me as well. I am sorry. And I am promising you: I’ll come back.”

For a long, heart-wrenching moment, he was completely quiet. It was good that Cinder was alone in the apartment; laying herself bare like this would be unbearable with an audience.

GODDDDDDDDDDD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i am OBSESSED WITH THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM GOING TO BE THINKING ABOUT THIS UNTIL I D I E. of all thing the remaster does better than og, this is just. SPEEDING AHEAD. this whole CONFLICT this whole MESS just makes everything so much RICHER its like when u splash some wine in yr fancy food or stick some cinnamon on yr favourite desserts u dont NEED TO but it adds that lil SOMETHING,,, that little KICK that just ties the flavour profile together and in this case ofgughugguhu it just GIVES SO MUCH. im making SNOW ANGELS in the WORDS on the PAGE.

“Mercury. If I could prove it to you, I would. But you have to—trust me. For just a while longer.”

“It’s getting harder,” he said. He didn’t sound like he was lying just to hurt her. That wasn’t spite. That was honest anger. And it made her feel like dirt.

im less picking these for specific instances of like, things i want to say, but more just because bits of this r rly just so /chef kiss. cinder has these.... endearingly (take that whichever way u like) human qualities in OG to rly make u realise she had ties to add to her #Doubt but the remaster is just AMPING it up and u FEEL IT and ive never been more SYMPATHETIC to a round-faced sinnamon bun of assholery and fire id DIE for cinder fall and this is a fact PUT IT ON MY GRAVESTONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“Is there anything you need?” What was this? Cinder could barely focus on her words. It felt like... “Anything? At all?”

“We’re fine.”

“Mercury, wait please—” She was losing him. “I think—”

“Just hurry up.”

The line went dead.

this place is not a place of honor.................. no highly esteemed deed is commemorated here........................ nothing valued is here................ IM DYING

Cinder began to type out her response, and that was when the nausea really kicked in. 

[...] 

She recognized this now.

Glynda.

stress stress stress stress STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

There shouldn’t be anybody. Cinder had done everything in her power to cut Glynda from people who would interfere. To isolate her. Make it easier to bring her to Atlas, to the frozen north, to her mother and the machine…

Cinder’s esophagus quivered; furiously, she shut her eyes and thought of nothing.

god cinder don’t remind me that you’re an asshole and dipshit and also a moron im trying to be NICE and CARE ABT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STOP REMINDING ME YOU’RE A PIECE OF SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

FOR FIVE MINUTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The front door clicked open.

Cinder couldn’t have said how much time had passed, only that it had passed slowly. What she did know was that it was Glynda returning, the sensation of boils bursting wafting off her soul. It crawled over Cinder’s flesh. She curled in on herself.

There were mites under every nailbed. Salt in her weeping mouth.

offal hunt’s brilliant use of this horror aspect is something i have tried previously to emulate and here’s a fact, take it from me: that shit is HARD. offal hunt consistently able to whack those real nasty, really Disgusting vibes on the head EVERY TIME is a work of art. i mean, kc and diesel do not fuck around, and therefore i am NOT surprised, but it’s only when u try this shit yourself that you realise: this is hard! this is difficult! it’s a huge testament to how GOOD this fic is in every way. also this whole fucking body horror aspect is something i didnt know this fic needed, but it did, and here we are. 

Thickly: “Things were going okay. If you hadn’t gotten nasty, I might have smoothed things over. I could have fixed things with my son.”

with my son

with my son

with my son

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I CANT TAKE IT EVERY TIME ITS TOO MUCH FOR TO BEAR I CANNOT HANDLE IT I CANNOT STAND IT ITS LIKE BEING SHOT JUST DIRECTLY IN MY DICK

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

im like sweating rn

Glynda said, “I’m scared.”

“Why?”

“I don’t want to tell you.”

I SAID IM SWEATING

Glynda asked, “Are you lying to me?”

And Cinder said, “What?”

“About me. About Witches. About Ozpin—” Cinder’s guts went sour. “—About anything. I need to know if I can trust you.”

I SAID I! AM! S W E A T I N G

“I know you’ve lied to people. Hurt people.”

Adrenaline and the image of her kids’ faces behind her eyes made a potent, sick cocktail. “—Not. Now.”

so lets like double back to when i said hey was this chapter written to target me specifically and as it turns out, yes. yes it was. yes it was and as MUCH AS I AM LIVING FOR THIS MOMENT THIS SWEET BUILDUP THE EXPLOSION AND THE CRATER IT ALL LEAVES BEHIND

I

AM

so this next bit is like. i cant really quote one section but as i was saying in Vague DMs, this whole bit feels like wading through mud. usually if you say something consumes energy to Read it’s in a Bad Way when yr bored but this is more like. you Feel cinder all over everything feels so sluggish and it’s like dragging your own corpse around as you try and leave and you’re TIRED and your LEGS HURT and you’re kinda thinking god what if i just fell face down for just a moment of my LIFE.

The putrid weight of Glynda’s soul filled the room until there was no space left for her.

it’s like being trapped in a sauna, like getting stuck in a humid waiting room. where do you GO. what do you DO. god this whole section is fantastic and offal hunt NEVER fails to fucking nail the Vibes but reading it is HARD. i literally keep having to stop and breathe like ive been holding my breath. jesus h christ.

a small intermission for a mood:

“Get fucked.”

back to regularly scheduled hell

Out of the bedroom. Down the hall. The walls were sweating with heat. She tasted smoke. 

i love that i just said how i feel like im trapped in a sauna and it turns out: thats because me and cinder both, baybee!!!! hahahaha help

Glynda’s soul chewed her to the marrow. “Move, Glynda.” 

cinder being hunted at the start of this fic: teehee! im running away! now im gonna getcha! heehee! arent i clever :) cinder being hunted now: this uh. this blows, actually,

Cinder’s pulse roared in her ears. Her hands twitched. She smelled Ochre Brown’s round face melting off. His wide smile shattered with each of his teeth, going black and popping like corn.

this chapter is probably my favourite so far for this blending of so many elements. i cant even begin to like. THINK STRAIGHT about how all of this is tying together. the lore. the THEMATICS. like i said this character rly is just Rich with what og lacked and oh is it RICH. im gonna read this chapter in future and see so much that i know ive already missed. holy shit.

“Ms. Fall,” she said. “The White Fang requires your presence immediately.”

NOT NOW

Cinder stood there looking at it for a moment. Her thoughts were slow. Copper-tinged. Something small and indulgent whispered to her through the blood-fog.

It was obvious enough what would happen if she got into this car. The driver would take her to a secluded place, where she would be ambushed by a squadron of battle-hungry White Fang grunts.

They’d try to take her down. And she was a killer, wasn’t she? Ochre Brown wailed in her ears with every thump of her runaway heart. Her hands itched for action; her teeth, for blood.

She’d burn them black.

never mind! you are already dead,

She thought about Glynda. About her saying that if there was trouble with the Fang, she wanted to come. That she would fight for Cinder.

She thought of Glynda’s question: What aren’t you telling me about Ochre Brown?

Yeah, fuck that.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!! WHAT A CLIFFHANGER!!!!!!!!!! WHAT A MOMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!! MORE MOMENTOUSLY: WHAT A CHAPTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is EASILY my favourite chapter so far. EASILY. everything about this was peak offal. the relationships. the dynamics. the dialogue. the vibes. the Grossness. the fighting. the EVERYTHING. this is some other level and its BITCHIN. PEAK. that said im now very tired. im going to have a cup of tea and Consider Things for a few hours. brb.

[madokasoratsugu]

pls imagine this AU w me for a sec: 

jewelry maker lucette owns a well established shop that’s opposite a tattoo place. lucette doesnt care much for other shops along the street. shes content enough caring about her own, and their steadily increasing customer pool.

until they renovated, took months of noisy as fuck work that drove away nearly half of their walk in customers - lucette is only lucky enough to have had the hindsight to set up an online store so she doesnt lose her business entirely to construction noise pollution.

(also karma has a friend there, and karma says he’s a punk, but he does some damn good ink. even if karma’s her best employee, it doesnt change the fact that she trusts any friend of his as far as she can throw them. karma barks out in laughter and says better than only having one friend, who’s also your work colleague. lucette tells him pleasantly to shove off, barely biting back a smile.)

one day, the noise is really, really, bad, and started way before the contracted time. which to be exact, is five minutes. but lucette hasnt slept well, and sure, she’s always pissed off about one thing or another, but this takes the cake. 

so she strides over to the store, knocks exactly once before letting herself in and tells the first person she sees (and knows is working there - this man has two full inked sleeves, partially dyed hair, and lucette may be working on a bias here but her head hurts too much to care) to tell them in the most eloquent and polite way she knows to tell the construction to shut the fuck up, or else. 

and it infuriates her so much more the way this white haired man just blinks at her, puts his clipboard down, raises a pierced brow, and says: no.

he explains that he cant do anything, he’s filed for all the papers, the city council is backing him, im sorry about the noise but itll only last another month? she’s the fifth person to complain this week and its only tuesday, he swears this construction is going as fast as it can, its only been two weeks for christ sake, please just give him a fucking break.

now he’s folding his arms and somewhat glaring at lucette, as if this is in any way her fault. 

for all his handsomeness (lucette was never one to be lured in by looks anyway), lucette decidedly thinks, she hates this man. 

so she grits her teeth, repeats one month, and leaves, vowing never, ever, ever to step foot in that shop again.

lucette expects that 100%.

here’s what she doesnt expect: her meeting the handsome grouch again.

only this time, he’s wearing long sleeves that covers his bold ink sleeves, and most of his piercings are taken out (thats hard not to stare at, when he’d had as much silver on his face as his arms had tattoos) save for simple earring studs. this time, his hair is soft and loose around his face, even with the odd streaks of black interspersed. 

this time, he’s standing in the middle of her aunt’s flower shop and she has an arm full of huge dahlias, hair messily bundled back, in her favourite long pleated maxi instead of a sharp a line pencil skirt.

this time, he’s blinking owlishly at her, the one out of his element, and he breaks into a ‘youve got to be fucking with me’ laugh, back of hand pressed over his lips and it sounds so genuine and more about the comedy of their repeated meeting than her second job, and oh, lucette knew she thought he was handsome for a reason.

THAT’S RIGHT, its a fritz/lucette jewelry shop/florist/tattoo shop AU w a horimiya twist, baybee. 

[rachylook]

another thing!

❥⚬R͟e͟a͟l͟ N͟a͟m͟e͟: rachel ❥⚬A͟g͟e͟: 16 ❥⚬R͟a͟c͟e͟: white hispanic ❥⚬N͟a͟t͟i͟o͟n͟a͟l͟i͟t͟y: uhhh? american? ❥⚬R͟e͟l͟i͟g͟i͟o͟n͟: christian ❥⚬S͟t͟a͟t͟u͟s͟: single ❥⚬B͟i͟r͟t͟h͟d͟a͟y͟: janurary ❥⚬Z͟o͟d͟i͟a͟c͟: stinkin capricorn ❥⚬H͟a͟i͟r͟ C͟o͟l͟o͟r͟: dark brown ❥⚬E͟y͟e͟ C͟o͟l͟o͟r͟: brown ❥⚬H͟a͟v͟e͟ T͟a͟t͟t͟o͟o͟s͟?: nooo ❥⚬P͟i͟e͟r͟c͟i͟n͟g͟s͟?: ears only ❥⚬W͟e͟a͟r͟ G͟l͟a͟s͟s͟e͟s͟?: nooo → Dσ Yσυ. . . ❥⚬W͟r͟i͟t͟e͟?: when im stressed, bored, and inspired :) anytime! poems and stories and feelings. all of it. ❥⚬R͟o͟l͟e͟p͟l͟a͟y͟?: i used to as a joke years ago ❥⚬S͟i͟n͟g͟?: yes ive been practicing and i can sing really good tbh ❥⚬D͟r͟a͟w͟?: yes!! i discovered this year that im so much better at realistic drawing than cartoons LMAOOO ❥⚬E͟d͟i͟t͟?: its so fun. yes!!!! editing videos and photos is such a great pastime. especially editing videos1! I LOVE EDITING VIDEOS SO MUCH ❥⚬E͟x͟e͟r͟c͟i͟s͟e͟?: like crazy!!!! sports keep u moving ❥⚬P͟l͟a͟y͟ S͟p͟o͟r͟t͟s͟?: yes!!!! track and volleyball.  ❥⚬D͟a͟n͟c͟e͟?: YESS! I GOT OBSESSED WITH JUST DANCE WITH SUMMER! i honestly want to join a dance studio soon. its so fun and makes me happy ❥⚬R͟e͟a͟d͟?: only fanfictions of snufkin and moomin and teru and mob and reigen x reader- i mean wha no ❥⚬W͟o͟r͟k͟?: im a coach and i babysit. so yeth! ❥⚬B͟l͟o͟g͟?: oh yes but im only active on my personal cause i can just hop on at night and blurt whatever ive been keeping in all day ❥⚬D͟r͟i͟n͟k͟?: pffffffffft ❥⚬C͟o͟o͟k͟?: barely. i suck at cooking. ok well i dont suck, i just dont know how ❥⚬B͟a͟k͟e͟?: YES11!!! IM A BAKING QUEEN! COOKIES, CAKE, BROWNIES, CUPCAKES, CAKEPOPS, CINNAMON ROLLS, PIE, YOU NAME IT!!!! ❥⚬P͟l͟a͟y͟ a͟n͟ I͟n͟s͟t͟r͟u͟m͟e͟n͟t͟?: my humble little uke and my keyboard → Fανσяιтє . . . ❥⚬C͟o͟l͟o͟r͟?: pink :) ❥⚬A͟n͟i͟m͟a͟l͟?: ahhh idk lmao. i guess my little baby boy (dog) and i also like lizards ❥⚬B͟o͟o͟k͟?: oh shit i uh....dont rlly read :( ❥⚬M͟o͟v͟i͟e͟?: oh shit i uh....dont watch movies that often??? i cant rmemeber. BUT I THINK COCO WAS REALLY GOOD! I UGLY CRIED SO BAD ❥⚬A͟n͟i͟m͟e͟?: MOB PSYCHO 100. NOTHING ELSE COMES CLOSE. ITS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL FUCKING THING. (and sun and moon i GUESS because me and my brothers watch it as a joke and being so close with them makes me very happy) ❥⚬T͟V͟ S͟h͟o͟w͟?: moomin :) so soft and beautiful. really soothes the soul ❥⚬C͟h͟a͟r͟a͟c͟t͟e͟r͟?: snufkin. snufkin. snufkin. oh did i mention snufki- ❥⚬A͟r͟t͟i͟s͟t͟?: 

fleshdumpster/rottenmaggot. their art is so fucking dark and gorey and interesting to look at. its not cause their art is edgy, its cause its just so FUCKING COOL. THEIR STYLE IS THE MOST BEST THING EVER! AND THEIR IDEAS, FUCKKKK.

kficc/kelly ficara she is so interesting. and cool. her art style is LIKE NOTHING IVE EVER SEEN BEFORE! SHE IS SO TALENTED AND DESERVES THE WORLD. her art is just so joyfu and full of love and vibrant colors and characters. 

❥⚬S͟o͟n͟g͟?: theres too many to count. but at the moment im into jack stauber and tame impala. 

❥⚬B͟a͟n͟d͟?: twenty one pilots is pretty rad ❥⚬M͟a͟n͟g͟a͟?: made in abyss is so beautiful but it takes forever to come out. (mob psycho 100 manga too ofc...ones style is so shitty its charming) ❥⚬A͟c͟t͟o͟r͟?: omg idk >_< theres alot of cool ones! ❥⚬S͟u͟b͟j͟e͟c͟t͟?: art ❥⚬S͟c͟e͟n͟t͟?: vanilla and sweet/sour flower smells ❥⚬F͟o͟o͟d͟?: oh shit dont get me started baybee. sushi. ferrero rocher. BURRITOS WITH LOTS OF HOT SAUCE...a lot of stuff ok. im trash that consumes trash ❥⚬D͟r͟i͟n͟k͟?: WATER ❥⚬Q͟u͟o͟t͟e͟?: i dont knoww → Rσмαи¢є~ ❥⚬S͟e͟x͟u͟a͟l͟i͟t͟y͟?: i think im bi. idrk.  ❥⚬C͟r͟u͟s͟h͟i͟n͟g͟?: no im too broken to love (joking, joking. unless...?) ❥⚬B͟f͟/ G͟f͟: NOT TO BE COCKY BUT IVE REJECTED MANY PPL (even boys i liked. i am just too hurt and i feel like i dont deserve anybody, most for some reason its also the fact that i lose interest so quickly and cant keep interest)

❥⚬E͟v͟e͟r͟ G͟e͟t͟ M͟a͟r͟r͟i͟e͟d͟?: Okay, That's All The Time I've Got. i’ve got to get back to playing animal crossing new leaf, on my nintendo 3ds ❥⚬H͟a͟v͟e͟ K͟i͟d͟s͟?: I WOULD LOVE TO ADOPT ONE DAY. as for my own, i am so terrified of pregnancy i dont think i could ever do that.  ❥⚬D͟i͟v͟o͟r͟ce?: no ❥⚬I͟r͟l͟ o͟r͟ O͟n͟l͟i͟n͟e͟?: nani? what does this eve mean → Tнιѕ Oя Tнαт ❥⚬T͟e͟a͟ o͟r͟ C͟o͟f͟f͟e͟e͟?: its the tea sis. i stan, snatch my wig please- ❥⚬W͟i͟i͟ o͟r͟ X͟b͟o͟x͟?: WII. WIIIII ❥⚬H͟a͟r͟r͟y͟ P͟o͟t͟t͟e͟r͟ o͟r͟ P͟e͟r͟c͟y͟ J͟a͟c͟k͟s͟o͟n͟?: percy ❥⚬F͟l͟o͟w͟e͟r͟s͟ o͟r͟ C͟h͟o͟c͟o͟l͟a͟t͟e͟s͟?: chocolates. but flowers are wonderful too ❥⚬M͟o͟n͟e͟y͟ o͟r͟ P͟r͟e͟s͟e͟n͟t͟s͟?: i think both are great tbh :( ❥⚬G͟a͟m͟e͟ B͟o͟y͟ o͟r͟ D͟S͟?: DS ❥⚬D͟e͟s͟k͟t͟o͟p͟ o͟r͟ L͟a͟p͟t͟o͟p͟?: LAPTOP WTF IS THAT EVN A QUESTION ❥⚬C͟o͟u͟n͟t͟r͟y͟ o͟r͟ J͟a͟z͟z͟?: ya like jazz? ❥⚬E͟a͟r͟b͟u͟d͟s͟ o͟r͟ H͟e͟a͟d͟p͟h͟o͟n͟e͟s͟?: headphone ❥⚬D͟o͟g͟ o͟r͟ C͟a͟t͟?: doggy ❥⚬S͟o͟d͟a͟ o͟r͟ J͟u͟i͟c͟e͟?: soda ❥⚬H͟o͟t͟ T͟o͟p͟i͟c͟ o͟r͟ A͟e͟r͟o͟p͟o͟s͟t͟a͟l͟e͟?: hot topic ❥⚬P͟u͟b͟l͟i͟c͟ o͟r͟ P͟r͟i͟v͟a͟t͟e͟ S͟c͟h͟o͟o͟l͟? public  ❥⚬B͟a͟c͟o͟n͟ o͟r͟ S͟a͟u͟s͟a͟g͟e͟?: NONE I HATE BOTH ❥⚬M͟u͟f͟f͟i͟n͟ o͟r͟ S͟c͟o͟n͟e͟?: ow wah EEE ah. oOOOhooo its muffin time. WHOOOOO WANTS A MUFFIN? please i just wanna die ❥⚬S͟l͟e͟e͟p͟ o͟r͟ N͟e͟x͟t͟ E͟p͟i͟s͟o͟d͟e͟?: i count up to a specific episode then i go to bed, it just depends on the plan in my head

[00pbz]

cant sleep bc im.. anxious

we decided 2 celebrate rens bday today and.. it was the first time after awhile where i hung out w ppl (the first time after all the drama w w*de)

all in all it wasnt that bad? i had fun and ate (thankfully my fast times aligned w when we were hanging out so i didnt have to explain 2 anyone why i just , wasnt eating for most of the day)

mentioned to alex that i thought he was mad at me/hated me for like half of spring break,, he had to work on stuff but i was like “o ill tell u after u finish :)” n he was like “URE TRYING TO DISTRACT ME” n i was like “yea but its working :)))” n u know what? i was right! he forgot abt it and didnt ask again the rest of the night!!!

which im glad abt bc.. i dont rlly wna rehash things but also? i did kind of want to get it off my chest so hhhhh

anw i think nick esp was trying to b extra nice to me (hes usually one of the best at like.. picking up on how im feeling n all that) but i felt bad bc , im shit at conversation n im so awkward n just :^((((

hanging out w ppl was , ok? it was a lil hard when ppl mentioned things i wasnt even aware of (ie: oh this thing u guys r all talking abt seeing the other night? oop guess i wasn’t there!) but i did it to myself by going Full ghost mode on everyone so i cant rlly fault them for tht

i also just feel so shitty in my body ? like seeing the way i look on camera n shit like that makes me feel so so nasty ...... like im trying to start fasting n eating better n working out but :/ theres So Much wrong w me...

ren mentioned wanting 2 go to the pool n i was like hell yeah!!! but also Wait bc i gta get fit first so im not just this ugly ass bitch floppin around next to all of u....

but to lose weight,, sleep is rlly important so :( mb ill sleep tmrw

i just feel so gross in my Body and even just in my friend group bc, there r so many thoughts in my head n i have no one to talk to them to n AHHHHHH

like the body thing i figure ill get over once i get Fit and all tht but like ,, for rn while im still Large and ugly....... no thank u ! ill pass on that baybee

anw im just . going thru it and i dont know how to reach out n ask for help but thats cool ! its whatever !!! hahaha im gna get through this somehow