Started out my day writing a little to do list. I accomplished most of it! Completed a full day at work - despite having to drive the route AND getting super sick due to diabetic complications. After work I took a little break from life and went to a bookstore in town. Something about being surrounded by books is just completely comforting. I wanted to go check out a little pastry shop down the street but it was closed for the day so I headed back home. Made some delicious (if I don’t say so myself) tacos for dinner. Tidied up my room, did a quick 15 minute study session, updated my blog (this), and I’m getting ready to crawl into my cozy bed and read until it’s time to turn out the lights.
Self-care:
Daily hygiene, just getting through the day.
🎧: South Dakota by gavn!
📖: Onyx by Jennifer L. Armentrout
Advice: if it takes less than 2 minutes, do it right away.
Supernatural has really nice lighting but it's funny when the brothers are in like a cave or abandoned building and have big ole flashlights and it's like. C'mon man just step a little to the left into that beautiful shining patch of moonlight
Yesterday wasn’t too productive of a day however I sorted out like a problem/fallout, which still doesn’t feel sorted but going to leave it for the mean time and see what happens. Some exciting news today I had my first ever driving lesson and it was very fun but also nerve wracking, the instructor I had said I need to be less stressed and I’m now thinking that being stressed is my default mood. Something else that happened my friends and I decided to have a fanfic writing challenge so we shall see how that goes….
alex is interesting now because ive changed so much in the year-ish since i made him that hes different now. because i havent been writing, really. because i changed, and he didnt.
and i want to change him, too. not too drastically, though. just to add that element of who i am now.
he's keeping all the songs, of course. thats extremely important. this is the one part i cant not do because jay chou describes the depression fucking perfectly.
and then from there... it gets muddier. ill keep his chinese skill where it is. to be honest, there really isnt much change that could be applied here apart from the music and his language use. under the cultural shift, we're still the same. still the same fucked up broken soul, except he's where he wants to be and i never will be, not in this lifetime anyways.
i hope rax and azhar still love me. i hope i still love them.
It's that thing where you've had a crush for 28 years on someone you've never met, you've never seen anywhere but in ten seconds of video, and you've never found anyone in the world who knows their name.
Today I started the 100 days of productivity. I worked in short bursts on an essay I have been putting off for over a week. I did a quick house reset - I can finally see the laundry room floors, dishes are done, my bedroom is organized. Made sure to practice self care with my body - exercised for about 25 minutes and made sure to eat three meals. Though, I probably drank too much soda. Little things, little things. I have to go back to work tomorrow, but I will definitely be doing more of these little study sessions. The first two went so well, no distractions. I used the forest app to lock out my phone. Will need to move to a private space when family members are home, but that’s the cost of living at home.
Featuring singers from The London Community Gospel Choir: Decosta Boyce, Connie Morton-Young and Simone Brown. Filmed by me - Michelle Tofi - Edited by Ruairí Glasheen and Gabriel Athanasiou Listen to the studio version, on the album Hellbent: https://autoheart.lnk.to/HBLPID Music written, produced and recorded by Autoheart.