#Eh you live and learn

[chicoryblue]

an old piece (2 years ago sheesh) of art i never posted here

[windydrawallday]

Long-PSA-short of sorts that's more a vent: I was always aware my behavior and way of expressing myself online can surprise many people, especially if they are not used to someone who uses the writing medium as a playful form to tell emotions in a very descriptive way as I do. I'm quite affectionate with words, yes. And I always beg people I hang with personally to let me know if some of that bothers them, curtly of course. So far there have been few instances of individuals confusing those signals with ulterior means, things I assure you there's nothing more than me being friendly and supportive.

Imagine idk an excited dog seeing its owner haha

Until the past week, I found myself being tackled by something that made me almost knock everything aside because it made me realize that probably I'm a walking trigger/squick inducer with even the way I wield words like "love" and "friendship".

Almost...

I'm pretty tolerant of whatever way people conduct themselves in this life, the only moment I flinch is when an individual assumes from my default behavior and presentation that I want to impose my way of life... And nopes.

This is simply how and who I am. Nothing more, nothing less. I don't search for conflict but for understanding. My language for expressing marvel and reflections is like this, never to make the other feel awkward or attacked.

So, it upset me knowing that by wielding this forever welcoming and lovable disposition, I can be something to fear and even despite... to some people.

But, you know? That means that my "love" and "friendship" lifestyle are not made for you, no reason to come back to me and point at it. Just keep walking if you have only rage and rejection to give as a reply to my point of view. Because by wielding rage and rejection, what you only do is burn bridges. To create conflict and assume imaginary antagonistic scenarios where there's nothing of that at all.

You can't create the world you wish to live in by burning bridges.

It took me a lot too to forge who I am right now. I even keep learning and chiseling through traumas and mistakes—kindness and patience taught me more than rage and rejection. And "love" and "friendship" are the bricks I chose to build those bridges. I know everyone else uses different concepts but in the end, we all build bridges. By creating bridges and inviting others to do the same, I expand not only my world, but the other's too!

Isn't that better than demanding to be this or that through a black/white flag of rage and rejection? I think so. And I understand perfectly we sometimes need to be blunt when marking our boundaries. Still, never justifies treating the other bad.

And if some of you find "fake" or distasteful the way I wear this flag of "love" and "friendship" I'm sorry: this place will never be safe for you then. The exit door is always open. Go ahead.

I hope you find your place and flags out there too, but don't forget that to do that you need to build bridges. If you don't want to call it "friendship" call it "glue" or whatever makes you comfortable, but don't kick people like me who fought with claws and teeth to reclaim those words and feelings.

Fight your fight by being a good example, not a bad experience that makes someone never want to deal with something like this again in their life.

"Any color you like, (in the end) they're all blue."

[pennamepersona]

the thing that finally let me understand wyll was seeing a couple posts about how he's like. unfazed in the beginning. this is normal to him

very "the day you were taken by the nautiloid was the worst day of your life. for the blade of frontiers, it was tuesday"

[chromotps]

hi hello i had another acelu supernatural AU thought while I was working... I know Original Anon said it wouldn't get into the angels/demons storyline, BUT

what if there was still the doomed-brother plotline? Like, if it's Luffy who's like Sam, destined to be the vessel of a Lucifer-figure... maybe Nika (who I haven't gotten to in my OP read, so I'm just going on vibes) has chosen Luffy as its host. And it's mostly a creature of chaos/not purely evil, but it's so powerful that the longer it inhabits Luffy, the more likely it is that he'll be lost/"taken over"

meanwhile Ace is still the son of Roger, famed demon hunter and has taken on all his skills and tricks... but it's the way Ace is different from Roger—that he still sees Luffy as his brother, someone he knows and loves and has learned to trust—that allows him to save him

[bobbinalong]

Happy Pride Month to all Jonathans and non-Jonathans.

[artykyn]

I was like “I’m so excited to move somewhere new and do a lot of exploring and traveling!” only to discover that actually I find exploring to be really boring when I’m alone

Like yeah sure I can go on a road trip and see some cool views and interesting places. But if I’m not sharing those memories with someone, then all my memories might as well just be dreams. I want somebody pointing things out to me and saying something funny about it. I wanna point things out to them. Quietly gazing at the ocean is boring alone, but a wholesome relaxing moment if I’m with someone. When something weird happens I want someone to laugh with me. When I’m alone I just go “huh okay” and move on.

At first I thought “maybe I can get a remote job and then pop around living in temporary housing for a few months at a time and explore everywhere!!” but the more I learn about myself, the more I realize I would be soooo bored. Unless I had a partner who also had a remote job and was willing to lead a lifestyle like that. 

[asiancatboy]

need a new crafting survival game to come out or i'll shrivel up and combust into flames

[dykeyuu]

me when my mom told me everyone had horrifying intrusive thoughts so i never received diagnosis or treatment for my ocd but the only reason she thought that is because she also has ocd🤡

[forecast-rain]

I just remembered I was thinking about that everybody's life story is interesting post - and I wonder what you guys life stories are? but of course I won't actually ask since... I dunno. I'll just write about this thought of mine and see what happens. perhaps nothing.

...probably nothing.

[sonic-adventure-3]

I DIDN'T REALIZE IT WAS AI IM SORRY no I just tho it was cool, I'm sorry 😓😭

it’s alright! i also thought it was really dope until i found out it was ai

[on-my-way-to-the-woods]

Got cussed out by a bunch of hummingbirds this weekend

[medu-nefer]

i used to think that in my mid-20s i would have been smarter than to read until 4:30 am in the middle of the work week 🫠

[spock-smokes-weed]

im realizing if i put maybe a crumb of more effort into the background of my last piece, it could have looked way better if I used perspective

I hate finishing art pieces cus immediately start seeing all the ways it could have been better. but I won't get too hung up on it cus It's done and I want to move onto the next thing. improve as you go and all that

[speckled-biscut]

LOVE that piece of art with the gun but. Dude. Cannnnot distinguish that background! If you want a suggestion, you don't have go take it, I would make the background green yet still at night, like a bush or grass, then I would make the jacket pitch black, and at last I would make the gun silver-ish with highlights/reflections.

Steve already has great contrasts per design, so it really makes everything around him more dull compared to his harsher colours. So sad your artistry is lost, I didn't know what I was looking at before I turned up my brightness, which, the drawing may look different on our devices so everything I say could be bullshit.

I this isn't meant to be criticism, it's meant to be a friendly pat on the back, if you don't experience it that way, then I'm terribly sorry and I want you to disregard everything here.

Bye!

Oh my gosh thank you so much for the advice! unfortunately my computer has color issues which makes colors that stand out there seem to blend together everywhere else I see the piece (I actually have a whole discord log of just drawings with different levels of contrast to make sure the pieces look decent) BUT your absolutely right when I could've made the gun silver to help better the contrast (I was trying to make it look like an "underground brand" looking gun and threw some of my knowledge to the side in that pursuit lmao)

[sanpape]

You know. I probably should have looked up a tutorial before agreeing to paint this wall but alas. It's a bit late now.

[ceaselessbasher]

Gaining knowledge and confidence when it come to installing new operating systems in your computer means going from "I have to be sosososo careful I'm so nervous oh no oh no oh no" to "Eh, live and learn, I guess *cocks gun*"