#Fuck...

[silly-lesb21]

Ugh... Pretty girls.... Why do I look at them..? They are beautiful..

[sharpiecoffeedragon]

FUCK I LIVE IN A STATE WITH IDIOTS

[pileofblanks]

Hey im listening to episode 26 (the bedrock) feom malevolent

Fuck

Christ

Fuck

The acting in his breakdown is so so fucking stellar such a good performance

Just.....holy shit.......... i was so distraught and disapointed at arthur (which yeah is the point) but fuck......im so fucking proud of him now. hes standing back up.

The dawn has risen once more, the new day has come. The cold is slowly thawing, and he is alive. He wanted to die, but once again, through everything, he is alive He saw himself a monster, and yet he is so painfully human. He is a broken mess, but he is back, and he is alive.

God i've missed him, i've missed the curious Arthur with a spark of caring and kindness so much. Welcome back king.

[georgegraphys]

"From crying for a point in the first two years, to taking P1 with your own strategy, even though you lost in the end, you definitely defeated yourself. Don't be discouraged by this, come on, Russell." - a fan commenting on George Russell's douyin

[h3artw0rms]

Who else is not prepared for possibly never seeing their favorite characters again tomorrow? 🥹

[willowshimmer]

Omg they were roommates.....

MY APOLOGY TOUR REVIEW COMES OUT TOMORROW!!!

Sorry I can't post it today I've been feeling very burnt out so sorry but I PROMISE IT WILL COME OUT TOMORROW!

[pr0cyon-lotor]

Why can't y'all give normal hate comments? 😭 What happened to "kill yourself" or "you're not funny"?

Why are some of you cursing out a mfer's bloodline? Why are you bringing forth plague on my crops? I DON'T EVEN HAVE CROPS WHO'S CROPS ARE YOU BRINGING PLAGUE TO?!

And then some of you are way too creative with your insults. Like damn what did I do to have my writing called "as bland as white bread with the substance filtered water"? GIRL WHAT DID I DO TO YOU FOR YOU TO EVISCERATE ME LIKE THAT?! 😭

I don't think any of my other hate comments hit as hard as that. Just chop off my head in public square next time, I'd appreciate it.

[qin-qin16]

I need to start tagging my mutuals in posts, it's really effective.

[tyraine]

SHE

I USED TO DREAM OF TIMES LIKE THIS

She finally looks more aged oh i love her she means everything to me

[im-tempted]

Tim my good buddy you and your f bombs I love you

Oh god... Tim and the bombs... Tim and the bombs...

[approximateknowledge]

pretense and responsibility

this is gonna be both a personal rant and soa meta post, i promise it makes sense

so a while ago i made this post:

^and the main point im trying to make here is that as far as i can tell eugeo being alive completely changes kirito's situation to the point her egg is finally allowed to crack, because eugeo kind of takes over her narrative role, leaving her free to be someone else

now how is this a personal thing?

well, until my egg cracked i had a certain coping mechanism i clung onto to avoid being *completely* miserable looking in the mirror: trying to be "the kind of guy i like"

now look at kiri and eugeo; eugeo is that guy! explicitly! the lifter of the responsibility of having to be, well, like him! because he's already himself! he's *real* now, not a part you have no choice but to play because someone has to!

he's real

and then he dies

and the burden of responsibility increases tenfold to the point her egg never cracked over the 200 subjective years in the underworld, because *nobody else could do it*, because eugeo is dead so she has to play the part and it's never a choice and she's not even sure she's the *real* one!

like i dunno

it feels so familiar, and then so much of the crux of who she is a as a person finally finds an anchor and in one timeline he stays and in the other his death leaves everything off worse and like

the worse one is the main one

aaaaaaa

coherence failing but there's so much here and like

^she really is it's painful

like i *get* it and it's fucking me up

(reki why aren't you a slightly better writer im gonna fucking die)

[skittlespizza]

kianbecky thoughts? can i hear kianbecky thoghts...

Basically, I started listening to an album I HEAVILY assosciate them with and started getting violent from how much I was thinking about them.

(From First to Cry) oh my god. Becky is my favorite BITB character for context and like I started going insane over her mostly because!!! Fuck!!! Shes unrecognizable and completely changed... and augh... I'm gonna throw a bunch of lyrics at you now because this album WAS MADE FOR KIANBECKY OK?? OK.

This is from the song Wait Until Morning. Anyways I LOVE YOU I'M SORRY I LOVE YOU I LET THE PAST TOUCH ME AGAIN I LOVE YOU IM SORRY I LOVE YOU FUCKKKK FUCK!!!!!!!! DO YOU??? DO YOU SEE THIS SHIT???

This is from Pillar of Salt... hey... hey do you see this? KIAN LYRICS TO BECKY!!!! OKAY?? OK.

Im going to start throwing up... from the song LOVE LIKE GOODBYE. HEY?? FUCK.

So basically this entire album to me is like... fuck. It's the longing for someone you can't have anymore... thousands of miles away. You can't touch them. You can't kiss them or love them like you should be able to and you can't even talk to them.... AUGHH... my friend dawn put it like this:

"It’s like,, Kian was way too self concious and thought too little of himself . Whereas with Becky I think was confident enough in herself that,, she just settled for it. Like she figured that reaching out would be something that someone insecure would do and she wasn’t. Kind of thing. But she thought about him everyday."

Basically, both of them refused to reach out for different reasons. Kian didn't want to reach out because he was anxious, he was scared and didn't really want to make that first step because what if Becky didn't need him anymore?

Becky didn't want to reach out because... fuck well, she didn't want to seem like someone clinging to the past. She has a future- a career waiting for her. If Kian wants to reach out, he can... because he's moved on, hasn't he?

They both needed and fucking loved each other so much, but they couldn't reach out because they were clinging to a memory left behind in highschool... and there's no point reaching out to a memory with the other doesn't need you, right? They can live without each other... they're not clingy and insecure like that!

This is basically the crux of their relationship to me. They were in love with memories, and neither of them moved on... and if they just reached out, maybe they'd be able to love each other as is now. Maybe they could've even fallen in love again if it weren't for the bugs. Maybe it could've been okay. Maybe they could learn to love again. What's that post that's like:

You're not afraid of new love, but afraid of old pain.

That's what it is to me.

[degenbasura]

Hmm, the unbearable feralness I was feeling has now turned back to unbearably depressed.. huh... fuck...

[darknessandasong]

I WANT HIM

[basura-coded]

Today was really weird it's like bitter sweet.. there was no good morning kiss, no time at my exes mom's house to hide eggs for the kids no my nephew (I know he's not but cmon it was a lot of time with him) yelling for me saying Tio play with my hot wheels or dinosaurs in the sandbox and then him looking for the eggs looking all excited saying I got them, I got them.. I wonder if he's calling "J" Tio now... fuck.. there was nothing, just a deafening silence. Playing games helped distract a little bit, but idk I have such an emptiness now... I'm just so tired tbh