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#it was SO GOOD#Australia has the best cast I’ll fight about it#god I wanted to sob start to finish#ORPHEUS#Noah was incredible#CHRISTINE#GODS ABOVE SHE WAS SO GOOD#Indigenous Australian Hermes THE storyteller#I wanna go back#I wanna sing it again#I’m not gonna be able to shut up about it#Orpheus’ stims#Hermes’ countdown in language#WAIT FOR ME#it’s a SAD SONG#HE TURNED#Hadestown#Hadestown australia
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So we all agree Jinshi was unreasonably horny when watching Maomao rain hell on Lihua's ladies in waiting for being shit at taking care of Lihua right
#I'm not planning on live blogging this necessarily BUT#I do love this fucking series#Like god jinshi is SO whipped#It was hot tho I can't blame him#Maomao is such a character I love her#She REALLY inhibits one of my favourite tropes of 'Not as terrible as she thinks she is' and it's so good#Like she's passionate as SHIT#Maomao really out here trying to claim she's an expert idgafer#But oh no baby that woman is Above all a passionate expert#Love her so much dude#jinmao#the apothecary diaries#kusuriya no hitorigoto#Manda's Maomao Simpage#Yeah let's make a tag for it#Note to self write a fanfic about how whipped Jinshi is specifically for Maomao's Passionate Rage Trademark
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I hate when Chakotay is watered down to be Janeway's yes man because their disagreements are actually very interesting. [A lot of rambling analysis of this debate in particular below]
Chakotay in Parallax is very interesting in that he has to navigate a lot of different dynamics. Balance a lot of plates while being watched keenly by everyone around him. Immediately preceding this scene we see him ask B'Elanna for her opinion on the bridge - both as a chance to show her knowledge in his bid to make her chief engineer (because she wouldn't get a chance to otherwise as Janeway has clearly indicated that at this point she views B'Elanna as a troublemaker who won't be considered for the position) and because he just thinks she's a better engineer than Carey and wants the best possible chance of them succeeding. Janeway sees this as unacceptable. Carey is the chief engineer and so he should be called and Chakotay NOT asking for his opinion is an insult to Carey, Janeway, and might make the crew doubt Chakotay (and by extension the Maquis') loyalty to the Starfleet crew.
At this point it seems that to Janeway integration ["They're not your people"] means the path of least resistance, specifically tailored towards the Starfleet crew. She wants Chakotay by her side to keep the Maquis crew calm but also seems unwilling to consider them for important positions aboard the ship. Though she says that the Maquis are not Chakotay's people, not his crew, she certainly doesn't seem to consider them hers [Compare this to later instances where she stresses 'our' crew, here she simply says they aren't Chakotay's: Whose crew are they? Are they crew at all?]. This less leaves the impression of "We need to be a cohesive team" and more "You're not in charge here." She essentially accuses Chakotay of playing favorites. In her mind Chakotay's actions are not conducive to integrating the crews which would (again, in her mind) mean the Maquis being docile and accepting, obedient and content - not making trouble for the Starfleet crew. Chakotay counters Janeway's accusation with one of his own: That he IS trying to integrate them into the crew but her not allowing the Maquis any opportunity to prove themselves or succeed, not showing any trust in any of them (except, implicitly at this point, him) is making things difficult. At this point the Maquis crew are ready to mutiny on his word at any time. He knows this for a fact. Aside from that looming threat (the threat being that tensions are high and if nothing changes and they remain high there might be a mutiny even without his word) - Chakotay knows these people and trusts them. Though Starfleet and Janeway think of the Maquis as a violent bunch of criminal terrorists, Chakotay and a good number of the Maquis joined because they believed in the cause they were fighting for. These are people Chakotay knows WILL fight fiercely for what they believe in and conversely, AGAINST what they perceive as injustice. Even if they're not in the majority - they're used to picking fights which seem impossible to win. At this point Janeway admits that she ISN'T making it easy for Chakotay to integrate the Maquis - specifically talking about practical concerns; how she doesn't feel she can let Maquis crew have roles of importance on the ship because they lack the ability to hold them. "They don't have the discipline, they don't have the training," - asserting that they just aren't prepared for any such roles and it doesn't have to do with them being Maquis specifically. Ostensibly, she's treating them as she might treat anyone unqualified for the job.
Chakotay maintains that some of them, like B'Elanna, have the ability to be trained - challenging her point by saying that IF they're trained there's no reason for any Maquis member NOT to be given a more prominent role on the ship. He isn't suggesting they just unqualified people important jobs. If the problem is that they aren't trained, let's train them. These people have the ability to succeed if you give them the tools they need and a fair chance, he insists. Janeway then switches gears and her argument becomes not "The Maquis are untrained so they can't be given those jobs" but "The Maquis crew are unworthy of those jobs when compared to Starfleet personnel" saying that it'll cause insult and upset among the Starfleet crew if any member of the Maquis were to be promoted above them. Again, her idea of integration is based more on Maquis subservience to the Starfleet crew than it is the two crews working together. (Not that I believe she looks at it that way, it's just where her 'path of least resistance' leads) - though she accuses Chakotay of being too focused on "his" crew, she is admitting here that she believes her real crew are the Starfleet officers aboard, not the Maquis. She also admits here that the system she wishes to maintain (and is asking Chakotay to enforce) is one where there will ostensibly never be any chance of a Maquis crew member being promoted because no Maquis crew member will ever be more qualified, more worthy, than a member of Starfleet. We can see how it'd be difficult for Chakotay to convince his crew to remain calm under these circumstances. There's also Tuvok's behavior toward him at the beginning of the episode where the Vulcan nearly goes over Chakotay's head and when he doesn't do so (as Chakotay reminds him that HE'S the superior officer, the First Officer in fact,) Tuvok acts as if him backing down (partially) and conceding (partially) to Chakotay's authority is a favor to Chakotay.
Tuvok in this conversation is downright insubordinate to Chakotay. Despite Chakotay being the first officer, he doesn't take what he says seriously, argues that his own opinion on what should be done should be followed rather than Chakotay's, lectures the first officer about his conduct, and then almost seems to threaten him with a report. In Starfleet's rigidly hierarchical rules, acting like this to a superior officer (ESPECIALLY the first officer) wouldn't be tolerated and Tuvok knows this perfectly well. He isn't a rebellious character and clearly in other episodes adheres to these Starfleet hierarchies and codes of conduct very strictly. He values them highly. But Chakotay, a Maquis, shouldn't be First Officer. Why should he be given respect for a title he didn't earn? [Affirming Janeway's argument about how Starfleet officers won't be eager to follow a Maquis senior officer] Even though Chakotay tells Tuvok off for it ["I don't have to explain myself to you"] he doesn't threaten to put Tuvok on report or explicitly mention his insubordination. It's unclear if this is Chakotay's personality or if he just doesn't feel he CAN do that. Tuvok is one of the three most senior officers aboard and very close to Janeway. Chakotay has to think of the optics of any situation at all times - we see seconds after this conversation that rumors have already started swirling around B'Elanna being relegated to quarters that've fanned the flames of mutiny. Though we know Tuvok has personal reasons for behaving the way he does toward Chakotay (which he later admits), I really don't think it'd be out of the ordinary for this to be how most Starfleet personnel would treat the Maquis if they weren't outright hostile: Like they're only pretend crewmen. To a lesser extent we even see this with Janeway: In the following staff meeting, she clearly doesn't consider B'Elanna a viable option when Chakotay brings her up and almost ignores the suggestion entirely.
It also, again, leaves Chakotay in an impossible position. If he doesn't protect and fight for the Maquis crew, they won't ever be considered a true part of the crew and dissatisfaction will likely spread among them. Dissatisfaction which the Starfleet crew will then use to further label the Maquis as insubordinate, uncontrollable, unfit. Not to mention that if he doesn't advocate for them, he might lose their trust. However, if he DOES try to help the Maquis crew advance the Starfleet crew will view this as 'favoritism' and will further distrust him, won't respect the people he puts forth as worthy. Janeway seems to be intent on not advocating for any of the Maquis crew and also seems unwilling to ask that the Starfleet crew grant leniency. She implies that the Maquis crew need to learn to get in line and keep quiet and it seems almost like [we must remember the optics] she has Chakotay as the only Maquis in a position of power to facilitate that. Chakotay recognizes and pushes against that, saying that he won't just be her token Maquis - there only so she can point to him and say "See? We don't discriminate against the Maquis here." effectively a tool used to shut down any arguments of unfair treatment and a tool to quell the Maquis if any talk of mutiny DOES arise. In this model, Janeway can just tell Chakotay to calm them down and they'll listen because they trust him. She also doesn't have to really listen to anything he says: A token First Officer has no authority; his words don't hold weight. [Chakotay isn't Maquis anymore, they aren't his crew anymore - ok. What is he then? What are they? Nothing, without respect.] This plan seems untenable, as much as Janeway frames it as sensible: "I can't make it easy, Commander. Surely you can understand that," and alternatives as impossible "How am I supposed to ask them to accept a Maquis as their superior officer just because circumstances have forced us together?" - in the long run, how would this be sustainable? In any power structure, you cannot expect a group of people you're unwilling to grant trust or agency to obediently follow you forever. This proposed form of 'integration' in which the Maquis are kept on the bottom rung and told intermittently to stay there quietly by the only one of them granted permission to stand at the top would never be sustainable - especially with a group like the Maquis who again, were founded on the belief that its members should fight against inequity and are already on the verge of mutiny.
I specifically find the statement "How am I supposed to ask them to accept a Maquis as their superior officer just because circumstances have forced us together?" to be interesting because personally I'd say that being forced together for the rest of almost everyone's natural life is a pretty good reason to ask people to adapt and Janeway does understand this but only applies it to the Maquis - the Maquis are the ones who have to adapt, not Starfleet. The only thing the Starfleet crew have to do is tolerate their presence on board.
At this point Janeway again claims that if Chakotay can show her a 'qualified' Maquis candidate she'll consider them. I believe this is true but we already know that Janeway's standards for qualification will likely not fit the vast majority of the Maquis and Chakotay ignores the claim in favor of putting forth B'Elanna again, firmly. Janeway predictably dismisses her as unqualified and Chakotay disagrees, arguing that he knows her. He's worked with her. He KNOWS that B'Elanna can excel at the job even if she doesn't meet Starfleet/Janeway's qualifications. He doesn't value those qualifications over what he's observed about her - just as he didn't value Carey's title over what he knew about the gap between his and B'Elanna's abilities. Then, Chakotay switches gears. He admits that Janeway's right - he does view the Maquis as his crew but that's because Janeway (almost self admittingly) doesn't and if he doesn't, who will they have? [What kind of captain, kind of man, would he be?] "You're going to have to give them more authority if you want their loyalty." "Theirs or yours, Commander?" Janeway frames Chakotay's words pointing out the flaws in this plan which I outlined earlier, as almost a threat (if she doesn't have Chakotay's loyalty it'll most definitely mean mutiny). Chakotay asserts that it wasn't a threat, he's only trying to help by telling her how the Maquis crew will react to what she's telling him. "I'm sorry you can't see that" - not an apology for what he said but that she isn't willing to budge, not willing to listen to him and acknowledge that she might be as biased towards her crew as he is towards his. Chakotay is trying his best to acclimate his crew but if Janeway isn't willing to do the same, to talk to her people as he's talking to his, then this will not end well and that isn't a threat. It's just the reality of the situation. He then asks permission to leave, showing he is willing to observe Starfleet protocol (just as when he asked permission to speak freely), and Janeway lets him go, exhaling at the intensity of their debate when alone in her ready room.
#J/C is not interesting to me when they're strifelessly playing house or Chakotay is her lovesick yesman who'll do whatever she says#Kathryn Janeway#Chakotay#I really wish they'd kept up this kind of tension between the crews and used Tuvok/Janeway/Tuvok as like a microcosm of that tension#it'd be so good!!#Tuvok#<- he's there too#chara analysis#star trek voyager#st voy#Is this the only episode they call the ship 'The Voyager' ??#Also hearing Harry call Tom 'Mr Paris' is funny - early seasons voyager you have my heart early seasons voy supremacy#ANYWAY - that's beside the point#I do like how the maquis v starfleet tension is handled in this episode#I love how we see everyone start working together and relationships begin to form#How once B'Elanna shows her stuff Janeway is almost immediately intrigued and excited & how B'Elanna feeds off that excitement#The Doctor: -annoyed annoyed complaining complaining snarky comment- ugh I can't believe I have to help with something STUPID#Kes: You're very sensitive aren't you~? /gen /pos#The Doctor: ???? um ..... haha. idk. anyway I'm glad I could help :)#'how can we be seeing a reflection of something that we hadn't even done yet?' Voyager I love you MWAH#Tom Janeway B'Elanna: -temporal mechanics- / Harry: .... so how do we get out???#SUUCKS that in later seasons B'Elanna & Chakotay's relationship isn't focused on anymore but I mean. Every poc is pushed aside in later#seasons. But here you can see how much Chakotay believes in her and wants her to succeed!!! No wonder she likes him so much#He was probably one of the first people to really believe in her and SHOW IT and now Janeway's doing the same thing <3#My above post may paint Janeway somewhat negatively but it's only in the 'character flaws and being wrong about things means you have#a chance to grow' way - as soon as B'Elanna shows her potential Janeway wants to encourage it#God B'Elanna's so pretty#I forgot Seska was on the bridge!#'many of your teachers thought you had the potential to be an outstanding officer' SOMEONE SHOULD HAVETOLD HEEEER!!!!!!!!#WHY DID NO ONE TELL HEEER!!!!!
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Btw im like full on blocking people who defend the live action Lilo and stitch lol
#I WILL DELETE THIS LATER BC IM DRUNK LOL#but like godddd anyone who defends nani literally giving lilo up to to the state is missing the fucking point#and is also probably white ITS NOT ALWAYS ABOUT LIVING YOUR DREAMS#i bet u hated encanto too like jesus christ#SHES 19 ITS UNREALISTIC AND UNFAIR TO HER UHH. YEAH DUH HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF A TEEN MOM............#like its literally the point oh my godddddd AND THE NEW ENDING AND EVERYTHING STRIPS AWAY THE COLONALISM/TOURISM MESSAGE LIKE......#obviously nani deserves a happy ending but guess what. in the og movie SHE GETS THAT. SHE DOES GET A HAPPY ENDING#WITHOUT GOING TO COLLEGE AND WITH OUT A PORTAL GUN#LIKE I KNOW THE MOVIE HAS ALIENS IN IT BUT THE PORTAL GUN IS SUCH A DUMB JUSTIFICATION BC ITS LIKE.....#if LA nani was struggling so mucj she could have give lilo to her neighbor in the first place that shes so close w#in the og SHE WAS ALONE AND HAD NO ONE TO LEAN ON and pushed david away bc she saw that as selfish#and SHE. WAS THE ONLY ONR WHO UNDERSTOOD LILO IF SHE WAS W ANYONE ELSE THEY WOULDNT UNDERSTAND HER#AND THE LA MOVIE STRIPPED LILO OF HER WEIRDNESS SO IT LIKE JUST ALL FALLS APART#like ohhhh. my god#il drink and tis is apst hyperfixarion fro me so im very passionate abt it#but u have to he so dumb. to defend the new movie like. i csnt even fsthom#like im so baffled at the overall letterboxed rating. cmon guys i thought we were better than this#I KNOW THIS MIGHT SOUND EXTREME LIKE NORMALLY I WOJLDNT SAY THIS ABOUT MOVIE OPINIONS BUT LIKE.....#if u think a version of a movie that removes its colonialism/tourism message. has an actress do brownface. sanitizises the hardships native#hawaiians face daily AND LIKE GENERALLY TEENAGERS WHO HAVE TO GROW UP TOO FAST. and removes any queer and neurodivergent subtext is anywher#near as good as the original movie. uhh then. youre wrong and probably have other bad opinions about either POC neurodivergent people queer#people or more than one or all of the above#and i dont wanna be around ppl who think like that
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i need ty to be a morally grey character in twp
#my man already did necromancy he does NAWT care about the law !!#also he believes he failed two of the most important ppl in his life +#his sister turns evil if she wanders too far#i think he deserves to be a little villainous#even if its bc evil!livy is controlling him idc#besides his family is not above murders#especially when it comes to kill someone they consider a threat n protect their loved ones#i want to see him play god so baddd#the whole conflict of deciding who deserves to die and who gets to live#IMAGINE THE ANSGT !!!#the whole ‘You made yourself a different person than the one I loved’#kit would drop dead bc he has this vision of ty that cant do no wrong and is entirely good and innocent#cant wait to see him realize its a madeup version he made in his head and to see it shattered#the wicked powers#twp#shadowhunters#tsc#the shadowhunter chronicles#ty blackthorn
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I just realized the most tragic thing - that I cannot gush about 31st October being Dziady / Forefathers' Eve because it's a Polish thing and none of my mutuals know what it is and no really good translation of the dramatic works exists to have them read it :(((
It's like a traditional Polish Halloween and nowadays it's mainly known from Adam Mickiewicz's (he's to Poland what Shakespeare is to England) 4-part drama centered around it. It follows a tortured poet (my blorbo, I love him) during the time Poland was partitioned and erased from the maps, its people oppressed but always fighting back. It is one of the most important and culturally significant Polish works ever created. And it's got, like so many themes, so many themes you guys. It's one of my favorite works ever one of my all-time dreams is to play Konrad, a protag from part 3.
So if anyone does know it or is interested in finding out more please please please message me or drop an ask I'd love to infodump!!!
#Come to the Forefather's Eve! We got:#DARK EVERYWHERE SILENT EVERYWHERE WHAT WILL HAPPEN? WHAT WILL HAPPEN???#hello i came to you to ask for Church's approval of our Christian-flavored spiritual seances and it's a national tradition so you gotta#today's youth has it too easy they cannot enter Heaven like that at least give them a yucky mustard seed#SHE HAS A FLOWERCROWN ON HER HEAD AND A GREEN WEED IN HER HAND AND BEFORE HER RUNS A LITTLE LAMB AND ABOVE HER FLIES A BUTTERFLY#*mama Imelda from Coco voice* a living boy in the land of the dead?!#romantic love evolving into (!!!) platonic love which is portrayed as better of the two (!!!) <3#Konrad <3 just. Konrad ily. the sad poet#can i call it the cell block tango? i'll call it the cell block tango#the og vampires!! everyone say thank you Slavs for giving you your favorite Halloween monsters!#milliyon TM#Mama Mary rescuing a feral blorbo by not letting him say the Ts word while blaspheming#Poland becoming the Jesus Christ of nations!!! (look it up it's true)#if i had a nickel for every villain struck down by lightning as God's punishment in Polish Romantic literature i'd have two nickels#why can't we find the cute boy i wasn't interested in before but now kinda am? cause you're using his DEAD NAME MARYNA!#so first part is Dziady 2 and the second part is Dziady 4 and the third part is Dziady 3 and as for Dziady 1 it was never finished so we#don't know where it falls chronologically and also there's the Pilgrim poem which is like a sequel to Part 3 and ther#and many many MANY more. it's so good you guys#dziady#adam mickiewicz#gustaw#konrad#wielka improwizacja#mała improwizacja#upiór#vampires#Polish literature#xix century Romanticism#forefathers' eve#🇵🇱
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So uh, me and my sister are watching Steven Universe and we just finished Gem Drill last night
And today, this girl came up to me just now and asked me "Because Pearl cared so much about Rose Quartz, and Pearls are normally servants like the yellow and blue one, was Rose Quartz the Pink Diamond?"
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkkk
#just posting#no she didn't look up anything she “had this idea when I was on the toilet” when I asked how the heck did she “come up with that?”#the reason why she knows about pink diamond is because she noticed the Great Diamond symbol on the arena and moon base#and we've seen Blue and Yellow Diamond thanks to Peridot and Garnet's story#so she figured it's reasonable that “there's a white and pink diamond” which I had to confirm it's not big spoilers anyways#but yeah uh anyways thanks for the heart attack kid. jesus#she figured it out fuck fuck fuck#I told her that she “cooked like Yor (Briar)” which got her to laugh and divert from the tracks for a bit thank god#(yes we watch SxF yes I realize it might be above her age. dw I skip the weird parts and she understands why)#what she doesn't know though is that I'm referring to the one good dish Yor cooked in the whole series so far#holy shit.#steven universe
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you guys really weren't kidding about how fucking good lake mungo is
#i think it just came out above ex machina on my list of favorite movies what the fuckkkkkkkk#technically i need to rewatch ex machina before deciding for sure but either way SUCHHHH A GOOD MOVIE AAAAAGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#wait just remembered- i actually read the plot summary on wikipedia a loooooong time ago (but i hardly remembered any of it)#and having reread it just now after finishing the movie oh my GOD it does such a shitty job of conveying just how great this movie is.#what a dull clinical description what the fuck! please if you've ever read it and decided not to watch based on that#PLEASE give it an actual chance it is SO much better than wikipedia makes it seem.#it just doesn't (and CAN'T!) accurately portray just how truly haunting the movie is. a masterclass in how to tell a great ghost story#without relying too much on jumpscares or obviously horrific imagery (imo). just....wow.#and now for some screaming [🚨🚨🚨 brief spoilers incoming 🚨🚨🚨]:#SHE WAS THEREEEEEEE SHE WAS THERE THE WHOLE TIME IN EACH OF THE 'FAKE' PHOTOS/RECORDINGS OH MY GOD#AND EVEN THOUGH I TRIED *SO* HARD TO BE VIGILANT I NEVER SAW HER!!!! AND NEITHER DID THEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!#GOD I DON'T THINK ANY OTHER PSYCHOLOGICAL HORROR MOVIE HAS EVER MADE ME FEEL THIS INSANE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ok i'm done. anyway cool movie haha#lake mungo#📺 tag#send tweet
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me and a friend were regaling each other with middle school horror stories and then it turned out we went to the same middle school 🫣
#she's 3 years younger than me so we just barely intersected#but like good god#to quote: “i didn't even know we had this shared trauma!”#also hihi. “oh in the same class as [male name]”?#“nooo one class above but we were friends in primary school though :) also she's [name] now”#“WHAAT omg. well she was always nice :)”
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2025 reads / storygraph
Love Points To You
YA contemporary coming of age
an artist struggling to get used to the idea of moving in with her new stepmother & stepsister can't wait to go away to art school
when her ipad is destroyed, her rich classmate offers to buy her a replacement in exchange for concept art for an otome game she’s developing, and as they work on the game, they start to fall for each other
while she tries to get used to her new family situation, and the fact that her parents seem to be more invested in her stepsister’s future while ignoring hers
bi ace MC, bi demi LI
#Love Points To You#aroaessidhe 2025 reads#asexual books#sapphic books#demisexual books#I thought this was pretty good overall!#It’s very much a coming of age kind of story with as much focus on her family relationship as the romance which I appreciate.#I like how their romance developed pretty casually into dating rather than being all in love all of a sudden#- and all the moments of bonding over otome games and both being acespec and both speaking Mandarin#I like how the conflicts with her stepsister/art rival/family etc were quite grounded and mostly resolved (semi) maturely#and not all overblown into drama despite Lynda’s petty explosive personality.#( and honestly; love some girls who are kinda petty and pretentious and stubborn and oblivious)#That is - until the end she kinda fucks up with everyone and pretty quickly realises she’s in the wrong; I feel like it was a bit overdone?#I understand why she felt and acted that way but it was all very fast paced and a bit of a contrast to the rest of the book#where things were handled with more nuance and maturity.#And oh my god if you found out that a potential investor wants you to change the game’s pairing to straight#why would you not think that’s a dealbreaker? like how could you have any other reaction? I know she realises she was wrong to#react that way pretty much immediately but it felt a little too much like it was there to create a conflict rather than being natural#My favourite part of the book was her developing friendship with her stepsister. made me tear up fr#(this also backtracks a little at the end with the final conflict in a way that felt a little overdone but whatever)#I put some specific art opinions and asexual opinions in my storygraph review (in link above) but a main point for each lol:#She has a sticker shop that’s mentioned a few times but no details…. is this via print or demand or is making/sending them herself#because that's a MASSIVE amount of admin that I'd expect to see depicted in some form. i have experience. lol#Generally speaking I liked the depiction of asexuality she already identifies as such and it’s not brought up all the time#but it does effect how she interacts with the world / thinks about people from time to time#- her dad says “even though you're not interested in dating this applies to you too” & she thinks: “I'm asexual not dead"#- which.. oof. unnecessarily arophobic. I know it’s probably unintentional on the author’s part and I’m used to brushing that aside#- because it’s so common in romance books but I’m gonna be honest it soured my opinion on the rest of the book a bit.#it also felt at odds with her otherwise having various anti-amatonormative thoughts and feelings about various things.#that and the slightly too much conflict in the very end i didn't love but everything else about the book i thought was rly good
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what a day ☀️
#it's so amusing but also fucking embarrassing when you want to buy liquor but you always have to show your ID#because no one believes you when you tell them your age lmao#the shock on their faces. all the damn time#like it's super sweet but pleaseee move on people are standing behind me. I'm becoming nervous lmaooo 😭#granny's death anniversary and I will drink our favorite wine at her grave#I love and miss her so much and I wish we had more time together but. I'm still so grateful for everything <3#I know she would be super proud of me. I don't think I would be where I am right now without her tbh#friends and people who still know her always tell me I do have her beautiful spirit and beauty and omg. it always throws me off the track#but I SO embrace it these days and it's honestly such a nice boost my crippling self needs <3#often daily situations remind me of her and how she was viewed. she was such a gorgeous and kind woman with the right amount of bitchiness#yes it makes me happy others see her in me and I'm grateful I inherited her youthful genes ✨#cool neighbors thought we were witches performing funny rituals to keep this fresh lmao#instead of being too sad I try to remember the remarkable good things in our past rather than look back at the dark cloud above us#I deserve to heal and my god. she's helping without even knowing <3#tw death
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I've been thinking a lot about Loki and Frigga these days, I don't think she's an evil, manipulative monster like some people but I do think she's a very flawed mother, from what we see in the movies she's very quick to justify and sugarcoat Odin's actions, Yes there's a deleted scene where she confronts him about Thor's banishment but it was deleted for a reason, in the movie itself we see her telling Loki that "there's always a purpose to everything your father does", she's always defending him, never her sons and that tells us a lot about the kind of mother she is, idk if it's bc she puts her position as queen above her position as a mother but she always stand by Odin's side no matter what.
Ofc we know she asks Odin not to kill Loki in tdw but that's just the bare minimum she could do, she always does everything thinking about pleasing Odin above all, she goes visiting Loki as a illusion, in secret to not anger her husband, when Loki is going through the trauma of finding out the truth about his adoption she never acknowledges any responsability for what she and Odin did, she justifies his lies agian by saying he lied to protect Loki
She doesn't acknowledge Loki's pain or his right to be angry at them, she tells him he's their son as if that's enough to heal his wounds, she doesn't ask for forgiveness and doesn't offer Loki any comfort bc her husband was taking a nap and she had to stay by his side at all seconds, it doesn't matter that her son had his whole sense of identity stripped away from him, holding Odin's hand was way more important than giving Loki a hug or anything else
I think at some moment Loki realized that she cared more about being Odin's queen than being their mother bc she'd never stand up for her sons and defend them from the abuses Odin put them through, she just kept justifying it bc she wouldn't dare going against her king, it must've hurt for Loki, realizing that he was truly all by himself in Asgard, he couldn't count on his own mother to publicly defend him from the humiliations he undoubtedly suffered, she would just sneak into his chambers and whisper some words of encouragement privately but when in public he was entirely on his own and he knew it
That's why I care more about Loki reuniting with his friends/found family than him going to New Asgard or to Asgard in the past, I have no doubts that he loves his family with his whole heart and he wants to see them again but I love the new family he built for himself in the show, he has Mobius who will defend him with everything he has and will be his emotional support, validating his feelings and genuinely listening to him, he NEVER felt like he belonged in Asgard but in the show he finally found his place, he found the people he belonged to (as stated by the crew) and he fought to save them for hundreds of years so there's no way I'd want him to leave his new home for him to go back to the place where he was mistreated, belittled and mocked just for being who he was, I want him to stay in the place where feels free to be his true self thank you very much
(Ofc that doesn't mean I don't want him and Thor to reunite again, I just think it's best for him to stay with the people he chose to be his family)
#loki#loki series#loki meta#Mobius#Frigga#Frigga tries her best as long as she doesn't anger her husband and I think Loki deserves better than this#I don't think this makes her a monster but it does make her VERY flawed#like she's not the perfect mother the fandom paints her to be but she's also not the Most Evil Monster Ever#she's complex and I think she places her place as Odin's queen above all else#a truly good mother would have protected her sons from Odin's abuse instead of enabling it#all this to say that Loki deserves better#tva family#loki build his little found family and i'm so proud of him for it#let him be with the people he chose and who he feels comfortable with#even if he went back to asgard eith his new mentality that wouldn't change the way his people view him#it also wouldn't change how Odin views and treats him and ofc the asgardians would treat Loki in the same way their king does#it has always been like this imo#Odin treats Loki like trash so ofc the asgardians feel free to treat him the same#he needs to be protected from that toxic enviroment#he suffered enough#let him be happy for god's sake#Odin is a trash bag#Odin#anyway just let Loki be with his found family bc he loves them so much#he deserves it
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WHY AM I SO BAD AT BEING MEAN IN THE BEING MEAN UNIVERSE :(
#oc: leda#tay plays rogue trade#my problem is that leda is 80% iconoclast 20% dogmatic#and her dogmatic views are all related to chaos worship/misappropriation of the warp#as a divine psyker herself she knows the cost of messing w the immaterium and its like. the one thing she will start screaming heresy over#BUT. as a psyker (who was caught by the inquisition significantly older than most psykers are) she does empathize#thats why she kept idira around to begin with. to give her the opportunity to control herself maybe w herself and heinrix as mentors#BUT LIKE. DAMN. U REALLY KILLED A WHOLE BUNCH OF MY CREW HUH....................#so now im like ok well. she COULD help idira she WANTS to help idira!!!! but it goes pretty clearly against her one red line lol#and she could just kick her out of the voidship but that seems even more cruel and also like. endangering other people#she wouldnt ask argenta to do it bc tbh argenta is too excited about it w peace and love <3 she would do it herself#BUT THEN VIGDIS..... VIGDIS IS GOING TO BE SOOOOO SAD.......#god. this sucks. the choices in this game rly are above and beyond lol#like this is agony SHES TRYING TO SET A GOOD EXAMPLE FOR HEINRIX SHE CANT KEEP EXECUTING HER COMPANIONS LIKE THIS.....#and performing exterminatus on entire planets!! tghis is so foul i just want to make out w heinrix i cant be doing this. IM SORRY VIGDIS...#she kills yrliet too after cammoragh :( hate my stupid baka LIFE.......................
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i absolutely lack the brainpower to put my admiration for this mini arc into words but holy shit this was beautiful.
i love how complex the gods are, the relationships between them are so deeply loving and so broken. their family is prioritized over many things, mortals, promises and other families. even though they hurt each other that family tie is more important than almost everything else. they didn't want to hurt their children but they did it anyway for each other. at the end of the day they will cast aside their children in favor of their kin. the line is between those who matter and those who do not.
#critical role#critical role spoilers#this was definitely worth a 4am wake up to watch im obsessed. will be tuning in for the second rerun too i need to see this again#obsessed with the way ashley and nick lived every part of this story their characters are my absolute favorites#but omg laura as the matron. the way she portrayed her is so good#and tbf im just obsessed with everything they did in this arc from a to z#this is a different kind of heartbreak than exu calamity but a huge heartbreak nonetheless#but it's hilarious how brennan planned a slow rollout for the powers and then bam meteors lmao#also sorry if I don't make sense at all i slept 3 hours before losing my mind over this 6.5 hour episode 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻#anyway i think the moral of the story from Luda's is that they are no different from mortals they don't need gods they are not above mortal#gods are only merciful when they want to be and when it benefits them. otherwise they will smash a flying city into the ground.#god im gonna shut up now i have so many thoughts and NONE of them are coherent anymore
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she has a friend nowwww
#oc: yesui#i like the idea that yesui was something of a crytpid at the crystarium#no one knows her she acts weird and shes always going in and out of the tower#also at least three people SWEAR theyve seen her summon a guy made out of pure shadow which is like#hhhhuuh. maybe a good sign?!?!?!?#no... no she's too weird.#but like actually. when ppl try to talk to her she just straight up doesnt realize they're trying to get her attention#bc shes so used to not being able to be seen#or heard for that matter#for a while she didnt see the point in getting to know anyone cuz she was so focused on helping to summon kiril#but she starts warming up to ppl when she realizes theyre genuinely curious about her and are nicies#she has a little crisis like#oh gods. is this normal. are people generally kind to their fellow man#and from then on she's still a cryptid but people are like that's yesui ^^ she does weird magic and is a little scary but she's nice#it also becomes common knowledge that if you ask her for help w something and she says no...#if you ask a second time. she will look like shes trying REALLY HARD to say no. but she will help out#listen its hard for her shes still getting used to the being kind for no personal gain thing#she was stuck in 'i gotta survive above all else' mode for so long its a big change!!#UMMM ANYWAYS.#thats all... shb yesui is good
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my mother is a marcos supporter so any discussion about him is just her licking his boots what the hell did i expect
#brought up presidential decree no. 148 because i was reading up some stuff and you know what this woman fucking says to me#(fyi its a decree lowering the age requirments of working ie. 14 above can work jobs due to the economic recession)#she fucking told me 'oh so you should be working back then.' she says this like its s good thing. god please strike down all#brainwashed conservative marcos supporters i hate being here#this is why i hate discussing politics everyone i know is conservative
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