Uniform
Everyday as the sunrays peak in through the plastic curtains of my room i know i have to open my still too tired eyes.
i’ll get out of bed and button up that same white collared blouse containing a puny logo on the left side of the shirt, right above the heart.
i’ll pull pin the plaid kilt together tightly near the bottom of the fabric where one of the ends slightly overlap with the other so that it doesn’t unravel, and as soon as i’m finished with that i’ll put my navy blue knee highs on and i’ll pull on them to reach my knees until the fabric starts to stretch a tad bit to much.
and i’ll put my backpack on and head for the door, and i’ll think that this day could be different, but it isn’t, it never tends to be. maybe i could switch the shirt, maybe instead of placing the pin uniformly straight i’ll pin it sideways or maybe i’ll wear my socks wrinkled and pushed down to my ankles. then perhaps something would change this day, something could end this cycle of repetition.
but it won’t. and it won’t change cause i wont let it. i know that if possibly i would have the guts to change something about myself maybe everything else could conceivably change too, but i wont let it because i’m terrified.
terrified that if i pin my kilt another way it will come undone, that if i wear my socks low it will weigh me down, or that if i change my shirt bad luck will form around me, so i let the thought run free from my mind.
i walk out the door in this uniform i will always wear, and will never change, and although the sense of familiarity pacifys my thoughts it also repulses me, knowing that tomorrow i’ll go through this exact day again, and the day after, and the day after that, until my body rots and decomposes, creating another form of life to be stuck in this loop as well.
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definitely not the best thing i’ve written but it’s just a little vent even still hope u liked it i’ll def write more planned out stuff in the future ^_^
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Trick or treat :3
YIPPEEEEEE ok ok lets see what i have for you guys
just gonna reaaaaaaaach in here.... and.....
GOTCHA. HAPPY HALLOWEEEEEEEEN
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