#HE IS LAMENTING TO THE GODS

[cathedraldecay]

you have to be fucking kidding me

[natp20]

this is going to hurt later, isn't it

[pinkrose05]

Seeing a resurgence in surface-level takes about my favorite Kitchen Knife for some reason these days.

[sskk-manifesto]

Technically, Atsushi is not mistaken here... But it's also true that Dazai is also the person least likely to be harmed by anyone in the pm, literally.

[spiked-mall-goth]

[minuet-blue]

lord knows it would be the first time.

[adriles]

KHOL DRIPS DOWN MY BEAUTIFUL FACE INTO A DEAD SOLDIER’S GAPING NECK WOUND... ˜¨¨¯¯¨¨˜ª¤ SAD WAR GIRLS ¤ª˜¨¨¯¯¨¨˜

[brothersonahotelbed]

4 months

i haven't been hungry lately and this is because i am keeping you safe in my stomach keeping you safe, and inside the darkness of my gut you will make a home. so this way if they want to take you, they'll have to go through me first. they'll have to slice me open.

i am so full of you that i could throw up and all that'd come out would be eyes & bones & teeth & tongue – all yours and i know the acid's burning you alive but i promise you're safe here you're safe and they can't take you away and i won't have to be hungry anymore i will be full of you forever and when june comes you won't have to move to dallas and learn new ways of wanting to die you won't leave because i won't let you

i hope God is listening i hope He is watching the way i deliberately capitalize every G and H i hope He is listening and watching me pass between states of grief and quietude as my body begins to liquefy with each passing day, as i am wrought powerless to His divine will and this is the thesis of my suffering:

Anything that causes this much pain Can't be an act of God. It is an act of false belief.

"God's way is the hardest way," but where did that leave His son? hanging from the cross by his wrists. i know how jesus felt now, helpless against the Divine Plan, doomed by the God of Mercy –

every time i write about God, it turns into an oxymoron.

God, I hope you're watching because this is the thing that finally broke me. they said it would be devil who'd do it, but it was you, it was your will that i should not recover from this. my hands outstretched to you cradling the frayed wires and bits of metal that were once a heart, and as hot, holy tears stream down my face i beg you to make it better make it better make it better but you just pat my head and say i am a creator not a handyman. and you laugh and feel a pleasurable sting in the ghost of your side wound.

reminds you of those old testament days, doesn't it?

[silkling]

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Rest easy, brightspark

Your work is done

Come now, brightspark

Your peace is won

You've given much

For that,

I grieve

But it time now,

My dear

To leave

You need not be strong enough

To carry the world

Not anymore

Your burden passes on

As those you've left behind

Greet a new dawn

I am sorry, brightspark

For what my blessing brought you

I am sorry, brightspark

That you cannot see your promise through

But it is time, my brightspark

To move on

Rest easy, dear brightspark

Your work is done

Come now, little brightspark

The war is won

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[free-n-wild]

hi hi I really liked that scene in Green Lament au :3c

KAZZY????????

LOOK AT THIS I WASN'T EXPECTING IT AT ALL I'M???????

[rendnotmyheart]

Just some ramblings about the differences I've found interesting so far between the A and B texts of Doctor Faustus:

1) A-text 1.3.14 "Then fear not, Faustus, but be resolute."

vs. B-text 1.3.14 "Then fear not, Faustus, to be resolute."

Not many thoughts on this except that in the first, being resolute is put in contrast to fear, as if by being resolute Faustus can assuage his fear. Whereas, in the second, being resolute is what is to be feared. It's Faustus trying to assuage his fears about being resolute.

2) A-text 1.3.45 "No, I came not hither of mine own accord."

vs. B-text 1.3 "No, I came now hither of mine own accord."

Just completely different meanings here. Did Meph come of his own accord when Faustus called or not? Well, you get a completely different answer to that depending on which text you read. (I like the second one, and I think it makes more sense for it to be "now" instead of "not." These two are close enough though that I feel like one of them is probably just whoever wrote the quarto mishearing the word)

3) A-text 2.1.136-142 "Faus:...cannot live without a wife / Meph: How, a wife? I prithee, Faustus, talk not of / a wife. / Faus: Nay, sweet Mephistopheles, fetch me one, for I will / have one. / Meph: Well, thou wilt have one? Sit there till I come. / I'll fetch thee a wife in the devil's name."

vs. B-text 2.1.136-138 "Faus:...and cannot live / without a wife. / Meph: Well, Faustus, thou shalt have a wife."

I thought it was interesting that the B-text didn't have this little spiel. In my other edition based on the A-text, the footnote for "How a wife? I prithee, Faustus, talk not of wife" says that Meph can't produce a wife for Faustus because marriage is a sacrament. Which I don't think marriage is a sacrament for Protestants? But it is interesting to think about how marriage is something holy, and therefore even when Meph eventually fulfills this request, he specifies that it's a wife in the devil's name, not God's.

I just really like that little bit of nuance about wives and marriage, and was like :// when the B-text didn't have it.

4) And right after that part above the stage directions for each are: A-text "Enter Mephistopheles with a Devil dressed like a woman"

vs. B-text "He fetches in a Woman Devil."

Which is just so so interesting. The distinction between a devil dressed like a woman and a woman devil. One is not a woman, just pretending to be. The other is a woman, but it's also a devil. Idk, it's just so so interesting.

5) A-text 2.3.17-24 "My heart's so hardened I cannot repent. Scare can I name salvation, faith, or heaven, / But fearful echoes thunder in mine ears, / 'Faustus, thou art damned.' Then swords and knives, / Poison, guns, halters, and envenomed steel / Are laid before me to despatch myself; / And long ere this I should have slain myself / Had not sweet pleasure conquered deep despair."

vs B-text 2.3.18-24 "My heart is hardened; I cannot repent. / Scarce can I name salvation, faith, or heaven. / Swords, poison, halters, and envenomed steel / Are laid before me to dispatch myself; / And long ere this I should have done the deed, / Had not sweet pleasure conquered deep despair."

Ok first of all, "My heart's so hardened I cannot repent" vs. "My heart is hardened; I cannot repent." To me, the first puts more emphasis on the degree of hardendness, which makes it feel more nuanced than the second. In the second, his heart just is hardened and that's why he can't repent. In the first, he can't repent because of the degree to which his heart has hardened. Idk, the first give off "how has it gotten this far?" vibes, while the second gives off "this is how it is" vibes to me. Add the extra two lines of the A-text to that, and it really emphasizes the way Faustus's fate is being shaped in contrast to the the B-text simply stating how things are. The hardendness is a degree; it has become hardened rather than it is or it isn't hardened. There is an echo that reminds him he is damned when he thinks on heavenly things, an echo that is followed by the appearance of various weapons. It emphasizes the series of actions that lead to an end instead of just stating the facts that Faustus can scarcely name heavenly things and that weapons appear before him. Idk, the A-text seems to show how Faustus believes he is damned while the second just tells us everything straight up.

6) A-text 2.3.76 "Never too late, if Faustus can repent."

vs. B-text 2.3.80 "Never too late, if Faustus will repent."

Can vs. will. One's ability to do something vs. one's choice whether or not to do something. Again, I really like the A-text, the question of can Faustus repent rather than will he. It's just so much more interesting to me to ponder how much control he really had over his fate than how he came to one choice or another. Like sorry, but that's so boring. Literally who cares what Faustus chooses. I care about whether he ever really had a choice to being with. That's so much more interesting.

7) A-text 2.3.161 "O, this feeds my soul!"

vs. B-text 2.3.63 "O, how this sight doth delight my soul!"

Nothing here except that I adore the A-text's line because of the way Faustus using magic is characterized as gluttony or surfeit throughout the play. I like how the A-text taps into that metaphor again.

[bloodofvalyriaarchive]

this one weekend i had sex with this guy who's like 6'5 and the next night when on a """hinge date"""" but just ended up giving this poly guy a handjob on his couch while his wife was out. i felt like i was in a episode of hbo girls but im not in my early twenties or in new york so its a little bit off putting

[multi-lefaiye]

one thing that's really funny for me to think about is the fact that, like. all the characters in the into darkness campaign are in this situation bc they committed a Mortal Sin and are cursed by it. and that's been explained to them, and i think for the most part they've been picking up on it a bit for what their sins were.

not eden tho. his sin is pride and no one has explained to him what he did that correlates with it. as far as he knows he went to purgatory bc he was too good at everything and the gods had to strike him down.

[yokoyas]

shipping akiangel is great it’s about two guys who go i hate your species and i do not want to be your partner and a few weeks later they’re discussing life philosophies over brunch and it’s about the juxtaposition of a guy who can’t touch people without shortening their lives and a guy with a short life expectancy it’s about coming to care deeply about someone you initially didn’t want anything to do with. and it’s great bc the narrative draws parallels between the human angel once loved and aki and it’s great bc aki puts himself in danger simply bc he doesn’t want to watch angel die. and it’s buck fucking wild bc they die together but they die in the most miserable fucking way and aki not only never avenges his family but he becomes the thing that killed them and isn’t even able to protect the people he was trying to save and if anything puts them in more danger and angel remembers his past because of aki and tries to save him only to once again have makima take away everything he holds dear and use his powers to hurt people. and also it's great bc it's about two guys who would be absolutely insufferable to be around for any amount of time.

[adriles]

I’m curious which war crimes you do and don’t approve of

i enjoy any war crime induced by rage, racking up a ton of kills, maiming every enemy combatant in sight. only shitheads kill in attempt to live up to the heroism of others