These lines convey how you plead that person to see your pain, which you felt because of them. The pain which cannot be demolished easily. The pain of leaving. Or maybe the pain of staying back, forcefully. You want to show the agony but you cannot, as the forces of nature and one's mind stops you to, but you try your best manipulate the conscience of the other person.
Is it easy to cope up with pain, before it totally gobbles us up ?
Whenever I used to come pick you up and wait for you downstairs at your curb in the car, I always used to get butterflies. I used to be on my phone watching stuff but every 10-15 seconds my eyes travelled to your door.
Don’t get me wrong. Not because of boredom, not because I had any complains, not because I used to mind waiting for you but because it had been a while since I last saw you.
While I would mindlessly scroll reels on my phone, I used to think about what would you be wearing? Would it be a cute dress, a kurti (that’d just blow my mind off) or just basic street wear. How would your hair be? Would it be open (which I loved), in a pony or a cute bun? What colour would your nails be? Are they short pressed this time or did you get an almond false? What shoes did you pick? Would it be your flashy Jordans or a pair of shimmering Juttis. Which earrings would you have gone for? Would it be the Jhumkas that you recently got or just some boring looking studs. Would you have any bangles on? Would you have thought of putting on a bindi? What shade would your lip colour be if you’re rocking one. Not saying I don’t know what you smell like but I always used to be curious what would you smell like when you get in this car. Which perfume did you pick?
I finally see you, behind the glass door. I have a just got a slight glance because of all the reflections on the glass but my god was I dreaming? You looked like a dream every time you walked through that door. No matter what you wore, how you did your hair, what shoes you picked. Nothing mattered. I could genuinely feel my heart race as soon as I saw you.