#I DIDNT EVEN KNOW THERE WAS A V ROUTE

[mrs-monaghan]

https://x.com/kkukvmin/status/1720292904152023531?s=20

Now we know what intimate scenes he did with actress

HE DIDNT TOUCHED HER ONCE... NOT ONCE

This is the 3rd time anons/ot7s expected something but failed.. so can we give it up already ? Idk what's in future but as of now he's definitely not gonna do any scenes where he have to get lovey dovey with the Co-star. Idk if it's because he's too awkward for that or won't do it because he have some 'no touching and acting' policy with his partner (🤡) but yeah he's there to sing, dance and make song reach to audience. Not deliver a whole acting performance. Saying that, his acting definitely improved a lot from SEVEN.

Okay, hold on... I did NOT notice that at all 😳😲😯😮😳 I really did think he ran his hand down her cheek. Well damn!

I got yet another ask speculating about how he would make out with this woman and I deleted it ASAP. Didn't even finish reading. Its just....

I keep saying people really don't know JK. Especially those who consider him their fav. They know him the least. JK had a chance to make SEVEN the MV where he was all over his love interest. And if it was a Western Artist that had been given that song he would have definitely gone that route since the song is so damn sexual. But alas! JK turned the MV into pure comedy.

JK wasn't going to do nothing with the women in his MVs. And neither was V for that matter since I saw comments about that too. Matter of fact the person who people least expected, Jimin, was the one who had women touching all over him. 🤭🤭🤭 But he was telling a story, getting a message across so that made sense.

These guys aren't gonna start acting a certain way just coz y'all and your y/n fantasies want them to

How long have u been a fan of BTS? More than a month? Well then, bitch act like it!!

[fictionfixations]

jaehee best route presentation

this is just me jokingly dunking on mysme's other routes and pointing out the weird and wacky shit that happened in comparison to jaehee's significantly more tame route (because i love her route. we stan jaehee in this household.)

meant to make a presentation cause a bunch of friends were getting together to make some dumb af presentations but im procrastinating

anyway ive never played deep story or another story mode. and the only routes ive actually played are jaehee's and yoosung's. i cant be bothered to do anyone else's (the notifs get so annoying. im the type of person who sometimes spends whole days in a row desiring me time and being all alone. so guess what when you give me a game thats basically like a messenger in which you have to actually interact by then? its like. actually socializing! which no. it hit my social limit and i just stopped trying after multiple bad endings trying to actually get to zens lol)

since im not gonna be showing off my presentation (because ah.. socialization.. and two, now im kind of scared i might trigger someone..?)

so. here.

MAJOR MYSTIC MESSENGER SPOILERS

its a gif..

[ Content warning: Swears, possibly triggering content, uh. Mention of bombs, death (faked su//cide), possible implied in//est thoughts (he doesn’t harbor those thoughts I don’t think, but it can still be the impression he gives off), ..mention of s*x maybe?, kidnapping, held captive, weird shit that’s meant to be kinky but actually comes off as really creepy, INACCURATE PORTRAYAL OF PEOPLE WITH MENTAL ILLNESSES, cringe, false reporting / negative media, captivity, yandere ending sob??, and ill add more if i can think of more - and torture. I wont go indepth but ill mention it. …beastiality? Just remembered headbang. I dont think its said but ppl kinda see the implications of it i think. ..ive never played his route so i have no clue | is cucking a trigger??? I dont..>>>????? / sexual implications probably  | mentions of S/A. It doesnt happen but a character falsely accuses another to ruin their reputation, toxic relationships ]

thats it lmfao

what i was going to continue with:

jumin. so. you know that bad ending where you're basically kept in his house and he puts trackers in your shoes so you can only walk as far as like the kitchen away from him and doing so alerts him and shit?? and its played off as being some kinky shit i think but like hello? (also i think. it was either him or saeran, but we fuck in the basement he has trauma in??)

(i mean theres also the thing with his cat. the 'i'll treat you like my pet' or something like that line?? i dont remember. or zen having a dream that elizabeth his cat was running away so he locked her up even worse so then when he opened the door she ran??)

707 is the most story-depth i think, the one ppl consider canon. in which. crazy shit probably happens there with the obligatory kidnapping and bomb threat. i honestly cant remember i didnt even go to his page to check . altohugh i think theres an ending where saerans is like 'give me a hug'. 707 does. then saeran kills him. which. oof…. poor guy. or its revealed who their dad is and basically bad things happen i think?

saeran/ray/unknown. inaccurate depiction of mental disorders or something like that (not meant to offend with wording, but i can never remember the names of shit). it was like.. we first get to know ray whose the nicer one. and then there's saeran whose an absolute asshole. there was something like 'if you dont listen something bad will happen' (which is apparently something his mom said to him or something like that?) very sucky situation

V. cucking??? IDFK wtf

V's CELL?

DRUGGed. from. RAY's. TORTURE. okay. okay.

(someone explain to me whats going on in that ending where we're cucking, im so confused)

ah...

so. yknow. jaehee's route is significantly more tame. and relaxing. and stress relieving imo.

the end

[nahalism]

Did you ever experience some kind of…almost debilitating anxiety? I’m talking of months or + gnawed and exhausted by fear and both mental and physical sensations that come with it. How did/do you move through it

luv

a long one in advance but lol yh bare times. ill answer ur question, but there's two sides to the route i took and i have 2 preface with everything i did and do is based off of what i feel is right for me at the time. it doesnt mean its right though, and im very aware of that, so ill share some parts, but ultimately each person has is their own experience. the first step to moving through something, is looking for answers so like.. deeper than whatever i have to say, the answer is not in my answer, its in the fact u want answers

anyway. throwback to 6 ish years ago, i was having a breakdown breakthru and i started viewing what i called anxiety, as hyper vigilance. i started to see i was using a way of perceiving reality, along with my ability for analysis, to create correlations between my present, based on my perception of the past, to determine/predict the future (both futile and fallible), not cause i wanted to know what was going to happen, but because i thought keeping account of all possible outcomes gave me control and control would keep me safe and stop me experiencing a version of life i didnt want to go back to (more specifically it stopped me feeling helpless & inconsequential). as i understood that, along with the traumas at the root of my hyper vigilance, and the anxiety (social and general cause they r v separate), i recognised that i wanted control because i wasn't confident i could take charge or respond to reality without immense preparation. on top of that, i was resisting the fact that i was anxious because i was calling the symptoms i was experiencing my anxiety, but the real anxiety was the way i thought, and i was actually addicted to thinking in that way, because even though i hated it, and what it did to my body/nervous system, it was protecting my ego by giving me a false sense of control.

so that was my first step. i began to take action from where i was, as i was. that meant listening to what made me anxious. for example, if a place or person made me anxious, i didnt interact or go. i validated myself and what i was feeling. & i dont mean that in an avoidant sense, ill say why in a second. but yeah i validated what i was feeling, and began to see that the more i gave myself permission to be who i was, and do what i wanted unapologetically, the less direct anxiety id experience. and that sounds like an easy decision to have made in hindsight but usually, the change a persons anxious to make is something that in the moment requires a huge leap of faith but seems inevitable in hindsight. anyway, that's when i really realised that i was anxious because i was living an inauthentic life based on premeditation rather than presence. i had/have concurrent ptsd, so there were a lot of emotions i hadn't felt in a long time without realising, like passion or genuine laughter, happiness, joy, peace. id literally forgotten anything but this autopilot need to protect myself, be there for the people that had been there for me and stay alive. in giving myself permission to be different from who i had been, i started to see the world free from what my past dictated it should be and everything started to open up as as a consequence. side note, id been studying metaphysics and philosophy since 6 form, and i can't underestimate how much the principles i learned there helped me transmute my situation. ive recommended all those books in here before, so u can find them, but yeah . it sounds pretty and idyllic and as essy as 'changing my mind' but it was fucking brutal. i transformed in every sense of the word i lost almost everything in the process. there were wins along the way but 90% of them were silver linings of my own deciding. however, nothing i lost needed to stay! and everything i chose to go through or was subjected to led me to understand me and opened options as to how i could cultivate a beautiful and real inner life that eventually began to bleed out into the 'real' world.

the dark side of that, which is how i reached most of those revelations and insights, is the experiential bit that i can't communicate. i literally put myself through hell, and i can type till my fingers fall of and still never convey the full picture of how what why when, but yh. when i said i listened to my anxiety, i meant that literally. as i said before, i didnt allow myself to be avoidant. so if there was a reason i didnt want to do something, i honoured it, but lets say the only obstacle to me doing something was my anxiety, id force myself to do it, to the point of masochism. literally, i was obsessed. day in day out i was reading on self improvement, i studied every religion, researched philosophers, listened to hour long lectures on youtube, i did everything i could do to understand myself, my mind, life, and how to reprogram what i was experiencing. at the same time as this i used to myself in situations that would trigger panic attacks, or dissociative episodes and find ways to 'function' through it. one that worked very well was smoking weed, sometimes alone, sometimes in bad company. weed gave me severe panic attacks at the time, so when i was on my own, id smoke to induce panic attacks so i could meditate, breathe, draw, write, literally do whatever helped to bring myself through the panic attack. then when i felt capable with that, id smoke in bad company and practice with the pressure of being in front of people and there would be times id b having full blown panic attacks in front of people, sometimes with, but usually without them knowing and the whole time was just training myself to understand or pay attention to my mental patterns, training myself to calm myself down, to reach a zone where i could see through what was triggering me, or at the very least just firm it. and the more i did that, the more i understood why i was dissociating, or collapsing, or having chest pains, hyperventilating all that shit. the more i understood, the more i reeeaaally understood, and then i got to a point where even though the trigger is there lol, it still exists, but when it gets pulled i can hold the explosion. because i feel it happening, i see it happening, but it happens to something within me and not to me now? and so i kind of watch it and love and appreciate it for what learning to temper it taught me. its like a familiar old friend has its quirks that i wouldn't change for the world and yh idk im just rambling i need to go to bed. but basically i stopped being debilitated by anxiety by living in complete debilitation of it until it couldn't debilitate me any more. id be lying if i didnt say it drove me to very dark, lonely, appearance of being semi crazy states of being, but it was worth it and still is.

without the period of isolation the second half of what i described put me through, i couldnt have found realignment cause i wouldnt have seen how incorrect my projection of my past onto the future was, or how to correct it. & deep it, if all u know is death misery lack poverty shortage economic & social insecurity, then all u can see for the future is that. once u open ur eyes and see urself and the world for what is u can start playing. it wasnt easy, and im still not over being anxious. but its not debilitating, just an uneasy emotion. & the way i see it at this point, its just my inner system seeing something what my eyes dont & making me aware. when i listen im redirected, and can find alignment. when i dont it gets worse, and the only way out is to be numb. but i wanna live and i cant live numb. hope i answered, love <3

[lawtistic]

my ranking of mystic messenger main outfits except i know nothing about fashion and have really bad opinions

10; Ray

minor spoilers ahead also i dont know how to work tumblr apparently so the keep reading is going after the first ranking label

i have more to say under this im just currently mentally absent right now

what the fuck is that. what. did he forget what century we are in? i like the magenta on him but girl who let you leave your cell looking like an elizabethan

i prefer ray over saeran but not if hes wearing this because to ellys smelly ass litterbox and back i will burn that ruffled collar if it the last thing i ever do in my life

9; Casual & Deep Story V

why is bro built like a stripper pole??? hes just unnaturally long and its disturbing to a point that i cant not take it into consideration even if this is an outfit ranking

that haircut is not it for you man and get new sunglasses i know why you have them but pick something else theres something off

the outfit is so overwhelmingly basic and void of color and its really a spoiler for how hes blind because he could not have consciously put this together

8; Yoosung

again hes built like a stripper pole but to a much lesser degree

ive always felt uncomfortable looking at yoosung and his big beady eyes. do not get me wrong i love yoosung but i always feel like he knows my sins

those shoes are hideous, get rid of them. get a better haircut because this one does not make me feel any better about him and its so horrenously big that i know his hair is full of secrets

the shirt is fine, i guess, and i like the jacket, i also have nothing to say about the pants. i like the color palette but thats it. i would have ranked it higher if he didnt give me carpal tunnel with a single glance

7; Jumin

i have little to nothing to say about this. its a basic suit

i like the little bit of purple because thats his color and its cool

his legs are oddly skinny and long in comparison to the rest of him tho and its making it to where i want to classify him as built like a stripper pole but its just his legs so i cant

6; Jaehee

same with Jumin but she's less basic due to the accessories and the tights

i fucking live for those tights. those are great tights. people need to talk about her tights.

i have nothing else to say except justice for jaehee kang's tights i love those on her

5; Zen

he was originally switched with jaehee but then i realized hes wearing his own damn logo and i could not ignore that

only he would wear his own logo on his jacket like that and pose in the such a way to flex it the best he possibly could. i didnt even realize he had a logo but hes literally wearing it what

the rest of the outfit is bland and mid but wow hes wearing his own logo

also rat tail

4; Another Story V

he looks physically functional!! wow!!

this is such an upgrade, i love the haircut on him now he looks like a wet dog and its amazing

the outfit is kind of mid but it looks better on him and its still okay i would let him leave the house in this

3; 707

by most standpoints this outfit isnt that fantastic and hes only this high because i said so

its overall kind of basic but i like the hoodie and i love his funky glasses and for some reason cross necklaces make people hotter despite the fact im wiccan

the jeans are so... eh? but you cant really put anything better with this??? im a certified jean hater but i literally cannot think of anything else to put on him instead

also those shoes are fucking horrendous

2; Vanderwood

this is why i have bad opinions because i like leopard print. fight me.

this is such a fancy suit that i have nothing negative to say about it

you can tell hes a whore just by looking at him. i wish he had a route

1; Saeran

ah yes i have one alter in last place and the other in first. this isnt that funny i just think its ironic

"youre biased!!! you dress like this youre so biased!!!" yes i am. i am so biased. why do you think 707 is number 3?

the leather jacket is iconic as well as the black and red combo

the bracelet and??? choker thing??? what is that??? looks very nice on him and i like the tattoo (even if it means something i do not like)

"where is rika?" between my steel knuckles would you like a visit

[ghost-town-dwellers]

im writing a full smpronpa review because honestly that fic kinda changed my brain chemistry. this will be bullet point format as i am lazy

okay, so disclaimer- i havent seen smplive so i cant talk about those streamers characterizations. HOWEVER, i had a 3 year long derange danganronpa phase and have been abnormal about technoblade since 2017 so i do consider myself a bit of an expert on those aspects. oh also im taking the poke route and replacing that guy with yahi 👍

- gettin the techno things outta the way. first off, really likes his characterization and how it didnt fall into the trap of “overly bloodthirsty and unemotional” technoblade while still keeping his hitman status from tekkitlive i believe? and his deadpan demeaner. A+

- on the negative side, i will never get forgive the author for missing out his speech quirks like dropping the “g” at the end of words or constant use of “bruh”. additionally, plotwise, i feel like technoblade as the hitman sent after schlatt and co was disregarded a bit too quickly? and also came off as weird considering no one was meant to have any memories?? like why did schlatt and co and techno remember that part??? idk that just confused me but its danganronpa so whatevs

- the talents. they didnt.. feel like they had much of a purpose? like they didnt feel like they added much to the characterization, but that does add something interesting to the fact that the talents were a fake concept all along so i will not say if this was good or bad and will leave it up to you

- speaking of, was there a reason we never found out ty or travis’ talents? like they died and we just never found out what they were or why we didnt know. like. that confused me

- on the OTHER hand. the fake talents imply that yahi made HIMSELF the ultimate comedian which is objectively hilarious. big obama giving obama a medal energy

- poke. girl they did so little with him that i REGULARLY forgot he was there. bro just do SOMETHING with him. however, this is also a classic danganronpa experience so i will accept it

- the third trial kinda went crazy. i liked the twist on two victims to instead be two killers. genuinely an interesting version of the third chapter, and ryan was like.. a weirdly compelling character, especially after that trial

- half of the end twists were just straight ridiculous. im not.. really a fan of the “it was joko actually it was yahi actually it was cooper” thing, but its very sdr2 core so tbh thats fair. on the other hand, what in the world exactly happened to joko????? like he was at the final trial for like a Minute but he was dead beforehand in the flashbacks???? was he a robot????????? im so confused

- also, what was the purpose of charlie fakin his death? once again, very danganronpa of them but fundamentally kinda weird and unnecessary. i understand the in universe explanation but like.. out of universe why was that decision made?

- i would like the give the author massive kudos for the actual murders and trials. as someone who has participated in and even RAN danganronpa fangame rps, that shits HARD. it was pretty well done! not perfect, and some parts were hard to follow but i have ABSOLUTELY seen worse

- i also started really liking angel as a character. i liked the choice to have her actually be a detective lying about her “ultimate” and she felt very genuine and interesting. schlatt also came across as a pretty interesting antagonist with canon-typical confusing motives

- also whatever the fuck joko and cooper had going was gay as HELL. like idk what was up but it was deeply homosexual

- i also liked the way the ending had a sort of commentary on fan culture and the increasing escalation of entertainment for the cruel enjoyment of the masses. very yugioh arc v z-arc core for the like two people who get that reference. im not entirely sure on how WELL it was executed especially within the wider context, but i still found it interesting

thats the general review! ill update this if i realize i forgot stuff but all in all thats what i wanted to say

[silentoathprincess]

i love dmmd but i have seen you reblog about other nitro chiral games, how would you rate them? like which game do you like the most and so on, I've only played dmmd and i love it but seeing your posts makes me want to play those too!! love your blog

thank you anon thats so nice!!! ill try to keep this shortish bc otherwise i WILL infodump forever. and ill try not to spoil anything

dmmd is definitely my favorite! it is kind of an outlier compared to the other n+c games tho. it has a lot more comedic moments and the bright cyberpunk aesthetic is pretty different than the usual nitty gritty nitro chiral vibes. if you havent played reconnect you totally should! it adds so much to the characters (msg me if you cant find a copy online) and im forever trying to get my hands on the mizuki recode route lmao

togainu no chi and slow damage are about even for me. slow damage is the most recent one and might have the best story that n+c has ever written. its the only one without any supernatural elements but i think it makes up for it with compelling plot. its VERY dark but i think that makes getting to the end and figuring out all the mystery of the game v exciting. i DO wish the routes felt more...equal? like theres very clearly a true route and its very clearly the best of the bunch lmao. also give me an ikuina route pls hes sooo unwell <3

tnc is the first n+c game and its showing its age a little (i kinda love the early 2000s emo vibes tho). i think the premise for it is really intriguing! theres some killer world building and really fantastic bad ends (if you're into that sort of thing). the character personalities dont quite hit the same levels of intrigue as dmmd for me but theres not a single one i dislike. theres an extra character in the re-release tnc true blood too but ive never been able to get a copy

i'll be so honest, i did not like sweet pool at ALL when i first played it. theres some fantastic fanart out there thats actually swayed me back around to liking it more but like. i didnt know what i was getting into and i definitely should have read a summary first. i thought the thing about youji shitting meat was a running joke. i was not prepared for it to be like baby meat fetuses and cult omegaverse stuff. i like omegaverse but i wish i had been more prepared. its a low tier game for me tbh

i havent finished lamento yet! it took me years to get it working lmaooo im still in the common route. right now i'd probably put it between tnc/slow damage and sweet pool. its definitely better than sweet pool but its not hitting tnc/slow damage levels for me yet. i like the catboys tho catboys catboys catboys

per usual with n+c games id recommend checking out a warnings guide first just to be safe but let me know if you play any of them or which ones you like! i hope this helped!

[autisticbokutoenthusiast]

can we talk about that china v turkiye match cause what a fucking match

i mean the crowd being over 10,000 was fun and we know the turkish team loves a big crowd even if theyre not routing for them

but onto the big upset: china coming back from being 0-2 and then just absolutely getting it together and coming back and just what a performance. like we've seen several matches from them this tournament against the top team where they lose the rhythm early in the game and cant come back (im thinking the canada and japan matches) but they really just got it together this time and played extremely well.

and i mean it when i say they played well cause turkiye was also incredibly strong (like yes they gave up a bunch of service errors but also theyre defense set 3 onwards was some of their best imo)

highlights for me include: all of vargas and karakurts pancakes, yuan x.y. having multiple stuff blocks she didnt even jump for, china's liberos working overtime, eda erdems post game interview (she takes that time seriously like she always gives such detailed answers)

just no words rn what a match. like china lost to canada to brazil to JAPAN but take down number 1 turkiye just.... wow

[dearmrsawyer]

hello! it has been a long time since i've talked through my day! this one had such a big turnaround that i needed to document it, mostly for myself.

i had an appointment with a 'root canal specialist' today bc i had my first app with my new dentist a couple of weeks ago and his xray revealed an abscess wow how fun :) i couldn't feel it bc that tooth has a decade old root canal so there are no nerves to reveal there is anything going on!! fun!!!! he's a super nice dentist, i like him but he made me very panicked lol he was showing me how close it is to my sinuses on the xray. so he was like 'go see this guy asap' bc he wanted to know whether there was a chance my old root canal could be redone or if i'd have to get the whole tooth removed/an implant, all for the low low price of $5-6000 🙃 but obviously you can never see specialists asap!!! so i've been walking around for 2.5 weeks with dread/phantom pains that by the time i saw him the infection would've spread and idk had catastrophic consequences??? and then today when i went there was CONSTRUCTION at the turn i needed to make and the road was closed and i was like i don't know how to get there from another street??!?!?!??! i spent 10 minutes driving through suburban streets and my navigation kept trying to take me back to the original route with the closed road, and its the middle of town so there was nowhere i could just temporarily stop and look at the map, and i called them almost crying to let them know i'm coming but i might be late bc i just can't navigate these streets jegjkdgkjdkg

anyway i MADE it, i think i parked in another business's parking lot and just hoped they didn't care lol and then the lady at the desk was like 'our other specialist will have to see you bc the guy you're here for isn't here' so i was feeling uhhhh not good after my dentist talked him up so much. AND my dentist didn't send over my electronic referral and i had LITERALLY been stressed that he would forget to do exactly that for the whole 2.5 weeks oh my god, thankfully they didnt even seem to care. but then as i was filling out the paperwork in the waiting room 'no judgment' came on, and then 'wolves' right after??? and i was like this seems deliberate to try and calm me down 😂 and when the substitute specialist called me in he was so extremely calming and talked me through my options, one of which is indeed to try and redo the root canal bc he's confident he can, it would still cost a lot but wayyyyy less. he also said i could 'do nothing' (which is obv risky, and i would never do nothing, but that made me realise my infection is not about to bust through and spread across my sinuses any second, one fear down!). he was just softly spoken and super relaxed and he made me feel like this was not in fact a crisis and said i could go and think about what i wanted to do, and just call for an appointment when i decided. and then when i went out to pay 'i want to write you a song' was playing 😭 i asked the receptionists if there was a 1d fan in the house and one of them said it must just be a random playlist on spotify, so this was all a complete coincidence????? i told them i was enjoying it very much.

anyway long story short i had already taken the rest of the afternoon off work to go work in the garden, but figured there was a good chance i'd be so down about an unexpected and immiment $5000 hit that i wouldn't want to do anything, but i drove home feeling extremely reassured that i had options and i was not on the clock to decide, and also very relaxed by 1d playing in the background the entire time. i have also been extremely stressed that i would need to take the next step asap and this would be such a bad time as mum is working 50 hour weeks right now bc of the referendum, so i am on caring duty with nonna/nonno anytime we don't have carers here. but there's time! i had a v good afternoon in the garden after all!

[transarsonist]

Different anon. I don't want to argue, I'm mainly just wondering how much thought is being put into this. It sounds accelerationist rather than... actually wanting to keep our own safe.

I know I could be reading you wrong, so that's why I specifically am not trying to argue. Instead, I'd rather share reminders of the garbage trump already got into in his first term. Potentially a refresher of what he could make even worse in a second term.

https://www.businessinsider.com/trump-biggest-accomplishments-and-failures-heading-into-2020-2019-12?op=1#failure-replacing-the-affordable-care-act-aka-obamacare-10

The two main ones from this specific article that stand out to me are about his horrific covid response and the fact that the Supreme Court is THIS bad being due to who he put in power.

If I am reading you correctly and this is an accelerationist route, please just be direct about it. Your current phrasing comes across as not actually wanting safety for other queer and disabled people. Just so long as people keep talking. I don't want to die from covid, I don't want to die from bigots feeling impowered by him getting back in. I don't want my loved ones to die either.

this isnt accelerationism, rather im noticing that biden didnt do anything signifigant to undo or harm reduce the effects of trumps presidency, then went on to allow even Greater atrocities than trump even mananged to perpetrate, im noticing that bidens voting history has indicated a greater love of money than people.

Remeber when this was a fucking option?

remember how this is a fucking option? I AM TELLING YOU. BIDEN COULD HAVE FIXED TRUMPS CRIMES

HE CHOSE NOT TO

[cherienymphe]

Cherie please give me advice

So...these 'friends' i used to talk to made jokes about this girl they didn't even know getting SA'd. Backstory the girl will be refered to as Sam. So sam is a first gen american indian girl in college. She's roomates with one of the girls I cut off and from what we were told Sam grew up in a traditonal indian household. Its expected of them to be caretakers..to men specifically. So there were this group of guys who would come over to see sam all the time and sam is a naive/innocent girl, she assumes their friends. BUT the guys dont like her but they keep hanging out with her AND they have gfs. Which i find weird AF.

In group chat the girls were saying how she shouldnt have guys over and she's giving off pick me energy. They were so quick to say they dont like her BEFORE they met her. I personally didnt agree because I dont have beef with her..idk her. So then they make jokes about trains being ran on Sam(which is weird). They started mentioning her screaming and i said "what if they arent happy screams?" Then they said "its not our problem". Afterwards they proceeded to say if they heard her cries for help they would go to sleep and ignore her. I felt very upset because wtf is wrong with you?! I called them weird and they said "how are we weird?"

I got so mad I sent a voice calling out their pick me behavior like:

- giving head to her bf in the care after he was ignoring and blowing her off. And stayed with him after he didnt mention his family is racist. She's also VERY desperate to lose her v-card.

- dating a guy after they a friends with benefits deal. Only for her to fall first and make the meredith gtey pick me, chose me speech (iykyk). Only for him to actively try to get in a relationship with someone else they didnt choose him so he came back to her. He lied saying he wasnt ready for a relationship

- literally ditched us at a festival for 2 hours to talk to a guy. She was like a wet blanket until he showed up.

Anyways Idon't trust them..like i personally think those jokes arent funny AT ALL. Like if its so funny why didn't you say that to the girl. Am i wrong for cutting them off?did i take it too far? What would you do ol' great one.

You made the right decision. They were weird and knowing Sam's history, instead of having a girl to girl moment about being wary of college boys and attempting to look out for her, they chose that route instead. It's 2023. We're not hanging out with people who make rape jokes.

It's doubly so considering how much they themselves have sacrificed their dignity and embarrassed themselves for a man and so by their own logic of what they're assuming about her, the same should apply to them no? They seemed very immature and catty and male obsessed so good riddance 😭

[toastsnaffler]

OK done the journey there just jotting down some thoughts so I don't forget omw back:

took me abt an hour all in all bc I was keeping track of directions and going at a v leisurely pace (~8mph). could easily do it in 40 mins or less I reckon

moderate hills esp towards the end of the route but nothing too intense, I'm just out of practice cycling. didnt have to stop at any point tho and I reckon after a couple passes I won't even feel them at all. one longish mild downward slope which was fun to go fast on but might be a pain on the way back

generally rly nice route, much easier than I expected. there's a national cycle trail parallel for the vast majority of it which was semi-busy today as its a sunday but I imagine there'll be far less pedestrians at the times I'd be travelling on weekdays + any cyclists would also be commuting so I won't have to slow down as often.

nice view + smells like wild garlic atm :-)

99% paved which suits me. would be fine if there were some rougher sections bc I have a hybrid/touring bike but honestly I dont rly like cycling off road lol

one confusing junction where I had to come off the cycle trail... I think a diversion for road works (?) it's fine bc the road it connects onto is my old bus route so I'm v familiar w it already + there are bike lanes so it's v safe for cyclists. I'm gonna try and skip straight to the cycle trail on the way back tho just bc navigating traffic is a pain sometimes and breaks my flow. looking at the map it seems to pass really close to my work so I'll just follow it and see if my satnav tries to redirect me again

not feeling any muscle tiredness yet but we'll see how the way back goes and how i feel tmr. when I start cycling to work for real I'll just do it 2-3 days a week until I'm confident I can do it daily. itll be weather dependent anyway, today is gorg but it loves to randomly rain here and I don't have the right kind of brakes for bad weather.. also would be great bc my dr wants me exercising an hour a day which isn't feasible w my routine currently but itd tick that box

need to get cycling gloves + proper cycling shorts. not necessarily w padding but it wouldn't hurt if I'm gonna be doing it often.. didnt get crazy sweaty but that might change w a backpack on + I'll need a change of clothes for work regardless bc I don't wanna get grease stains on my work trousers lol. I think my work has showers but only for the production lab(?) I'll ask my manager if she knows whether im allowed to use them. I could get away without it but it'd be nice to have the option...

all in all successful experiment 👍 taken a 45 min break to chill + have a snack now its time for pt2: going home yayyy

[dilatorywriting]

re: "idia rubbing you the wrong way" THANK YOU! FINALLY SOMEONE ELSE SAID IT! i really really loved his design but he's such a...i don't wanna use a rude word 😡😡😡😡. he's not a fun character and the more i see of him the less i like him. the glorious masquerade fan translation pretty much solidified my dislike for the dude.

also! i know you didnt ask i just wanted to add in some possible ideas for a heroes v villains for savannaclaw? we have characters like zazu (the bird advisor) that you could possibly find a way to squeeze in? he seemed like a character that was kinda (or at least meant to be) clever in a way that could go head to head against leona? maybe there'd be some kinda competition and he was a team manager or strategist that meets the reader behind the scenes at a tournament maybe as a favor to scout the competition for leona?

or maybe he works at a museum/botanical garden that the nrc class visits on a field trip. that while leona slips away to go nap or something and MC goes to look for him runs into zazu?

idk just ideas! thanks so much for all your wonderful writing tho, it's been a pleasure reading your work!

I can appreciate why people love Idia, but dude just isn't for me. And it’s not even the awful-nerd-speak English translations (though that doesn’t help). He’s just mean a lot of the time. Don’t get me wrong, all the Twst Boys are AwfulTM. But his is just… a different brand. Maybe as a fellow piece of nerd trash, it’s more recognizable as the kind of insufferable “intellectual loner” type people I’ve met in real life and therefore rage about. Maybe it’s that Hades is one of my favorite Disney villains and Idia just doesn’t have the presence or charisma that I was hoping to see from that. Idk. (Though I do really think his relationship with Ortho is adorable. That is the one (1) redeeming thing). I have tried to grow to like him. So, so, hard. His design is awesome. I am a sucker for smart, insomniac, weirdo characters. But he just does not click with my brain. It doesn’t help that every time I see fandom stuff for him, I feel he’s grossly mischaracterized as an “uwu soft boi.”

Anyways! Rant over lol

But yes! I was debating on a few different routes to take. I think it may turn into less of a romantic interest vs romantic interest sort of situation, and more just Leona vs the family that's driving him absolutely fucking wild and stealing all your time away because he's too tsundere and would absolutely just tell you to buzz off whenever they try and steal you away, even though it's driving him batshit lol

[fruit-salad-ship]

Potential hypothetical au where peach ran away with Val and bob to Alola and met plum when they were still kids what sorts of potential wholesomeness and angst could they get up to?

Actual kids? Not viable to run away really. Maybe young teens? like 13-14? Might be able to survive without adult intervention, least peach would manage.

hypothetically at that age, Peach's no longer shy, and has been through a fair few things that'd toughen her up and make her harsher than an average kid. She'd be less inclined to have fun, and more driven to get strong and as far away from home as possible. What better place than an island region with a lot of inhospitable jungle and mountain terrain. She's great in the heat so its a good region for her.

If plum met her at that age in her home region, and not at the ranger course, she'd be more inclined to try to get along with her at the start, but would swiftly learn that this traveller is a bit of an ass and perhaps she shoudl try to beat her rather than join her. Plum lacked a present traditional family, and while they were loving and gave her everything she could ever want, they did not give her what she needed, which was dedicated personla time with her parents.

As opposed to peach who got everything she needed, food, water, time with her relatives, dedicated training, but nothing she wanted which was any form of gentle upbringing or regular childhood. Both households are well off, both familys took a different route to raising kids, both girls ended up lonley for very different reasons.

more below, because it was its own little beast and i needed to type it up.

Plum was alwasy the smartest in her class, a real book worm with a sharp mind for tactics and strategy. She thrived doing track and field, and was alwasy known for partaking in the alolan festivals as a dancer with others from her area, being a full blooded Alolan, she was immersed in the culture and loved to show off that aspect of her life. Her rich family though able to give her the things needed to excel, lacked a loving wholesome touch, and she was alwasy left with her brother and a house keeper, instead of her own flesh and blood who were jetting off to secure deals and do their jobs at an incredibly high level. This left Plum lonley, no one posed a challenge to her, and though she had friends, they never pushed her to work ahrder, only ever try to relax.

One day she's in the market, picking up some of Missy's favorite berries, ordering a few items for the week, running errands, and this scruffy looking girl is at a counter haggling over a bag of items on the counter. From listening in its apparent that the girl had forraged for incredibly rare goods, and the price offered to her for them was way below average, even before the markup percentage. Even Plum realised there was clearly some unfair dealing going on, and dropped a comment while looking at some flowers on the same stall close by. The shop keeper eyed her, now it was 2 v 1, and begrudgingly increased the offering price. The scruffy girl agreed, handed over the goods and took her money. Plum was about to talk to her but as she turned, noticed she'd already made off down the street. A little run caught her up.

"Arent you going to say thanks? You needed my help back there you know." The girl looks over her shoulder at her, huffs, mutters 'thanks' and continues to walk. Plum is left standing there, mostly shocked at the lack of interest, a little mad, a little curious, watching this pink haired girl vanish around a corner. Back home she's irritated that she didnt initiate a battle or something, didnt even think to get her name? Or ask what she was doing there? She looked like she was from…Sinnoh, maybe Johto? A guess, but probably right, too pasty looking to be alolan, though the freckles were…present. Been here a while. Her brother kicked her under the table, getting her attention, and the two tried to sit and eat together with the house keeper, discussing their days, plum said nothing of her encounter.

By the time she saw that girl again, she'd nearly forgotten her, it was only because she was out on the beaches training with some pokemon, early morning hours as plum walked past to get to the post office, that she even thought to go over. She watched as a vulpix, torkoal, rockruff, ribombee, and Stuffle all seemed to work hard with her, there however was a lot of other mons around, some whimpod had crept in from the rocky shore, a few morelull had emerged from the tree line. She would talk to them all, and though plum was too far away to hear, she saw the angry face soften for them. Perhaps she'd been a little quick to judge her. Taking a step closer, a twig snapped under foot, every pokemon either turning to face the sound, or scattering fast. The girls gentle expression hardened just as quickly, a sneer as she peaked from behind a bush. "Oh. It's you." She turned to leave quickly, a single whistle that rallied the pokemon with her to follow, the vulpix staying behind to give Plum a menacing sneer, before following like a flash behind her trainer. "Wait! You were training right? Wouldnt it be better to train against someone?" The steps in the sand paused, a moment passed where the girl clearly considered the options, before half turning to look back at her. "You dont look like much of a fighter." She saw the eyes look her up and down, judging. “Then its easy money right?” Plum knew how to manipulate enough to at least tempt her to stay, and so the girl fully faced her, and shrugged. Their battle was brief. Plum only had one pokemon, a Dratini, and the girl fought it with her Rockruff. The little dragon clearly didn’t listen well, if pokemon got ADHD, that one certainly had it. A few attacks and it was returned, hurt but fine. As agreed plum handed over some cash, and watched the girl pocket it and turn to go. She had something plum did not, and perhaps it was a golden opportunity to learn more, and be better. “Can we fight again sometime?” The question didn’t stop the girl walking, but she did glance back at her defeated opponent. “You want to lose more cash so easily?” “I cant just accept defeat and give up trying. It’s a matter of time before I figure you out and win one day…If we get a few more battles in?” Only now did she stop, still watching Plum, a determined expression across her face. The girl appreciated her tenacity, wouldn’t say it out loud, but she wasn’t willing to give up so easily, in all honesty she expected the purple haired teen to cry over the loss, she looked soft, too soft. This would be very easy cash… “Sure. Why not. I’m here every morning ‘cept weekends. You want a rematch, I’ll happily take some cash off your hands again.” And so the girl vanished off the beach into the forest, plum didn’t even get her name, but rushed her pokemon to a centre, and considered the next fight, the strategy she’d take.

This consumed her, she stayed up to research the girl’s team and figure out its weaknesses, and got up early to give her partner the best breakfast of champions. Every day rushing to the beach to find her new acquaintance. There they would fight. At first it was brief, she lost….an irritating amount of times, countless days getting so frustrated with the seemingly fluid connection between her opponent and her team, until one day, something changed. The defeat was no surprise, her little Dratini was still so scatter brained, and while she loved Missy dearly, she wished she could find a way to focus her up. The girl came over across the sand and watched plum return her partner, already digging in her pocket for the payout, brow furrowed with frustration. But her opponent did not take the money, after weeks of defeat, she had not given up, and though slow there was progress, something Peach could appreciate. “You know, dragons have their own language, it’s really complex, so human conversation can be hard for them to grasp at such a young age. Try using a clicker for attacks along side the words, your pokemon will get the hang of it with some practice.” The girl held her scratched and worn hand out, in it a training item, just a little button on a keychain you press and it made a click sound. Nothing crazy but she kept one on her person for various reasons, just so happened today the reason was to give it to someone else. “I don’t get it.” “It’s not hard. Say attack, click once, say another attack, click twice, and so on. Just set a system up-“ “No not that! You’re helping me? Surely if I stay bad at this you get more money.” It had been peach’s driving force for a long time sure, she needed to win enough to feed her team and survive, it was not easy doing it all alone. She shrugged, trying to play it off. “No fun if it’s without challenge.” It had been a while since peach’s team saw a poke centre, and plums was as good as KO’d, so the two found themselevs chatting strategy and practice methods, walking over to the town, sitting together with a hot drink on plush benches while waiting for their teams to be healed up. It was admittedly the first moment peach had taken to relax in days. She spent all waking hours in the jungles finding rare herbs and fruits to sell, to keep her team fed and happy, she however was often the last on the list when it came to self-care. This did not go unnoticed.

“You uh…don’t strike me as someone who takes days off.” Plum did not find it hard to see, this girl would look over her shoulder at every noise or person who strayed too close to her, even if only subtly, and sat a little awkwardly around this many people. “Where do you live anyway? You’re not from Alola, I can see that much.” A nurse called them over, both girls up on their feet, at the desk to acquire the pokeballs of their partners. “I uh, I’ve been camping out a while. Came from Sinnoh, got here, kind of just wandered around trying to make ends meet.” They ambled their way back outside, rain just starting to fall, forcing them to stay under shelter. Peach immediately let her vulpix out, watching it sneer at Plum once again, staying as far away as possible from her. “How longs a while?” From the state of her hair, the holes in the jeans, the general amount of scrapes and cuts on her, plum could only assume it was more than a week or two. “Dunno, around 8 months now.” “8 MONTHS?!” The noise made several strangers in the street look around, and peach sunk into her jacket a little, never one to cause a scene if possible. “No. We’re going and getting your things, and you’re coming to my house.” “Uhhhh no?” But it wasn’t negotiable, she grabbed her hand and started to pull her in a direction, swiftly realising she had no idea where her battle partner had set up her tent, turning back to her. “Lets go already, lead the way!” She wouldn’t take no for an answer, Peach could see this, she’d dealt with stubborn before, and did not have the energy for it today. As soon as they were free of the town, the girl let her whole team out, the stuffle on her back, vulpix at her heels, rockruff running ahead, ribombee dancing around the flora, and of course, bob, steadily keeping up behind them.

They walked for a while, out into the woods, past any well trodden paths until they hit a river, where they followed it inland for about 20 minutes. All the while plum couldn’t comprehend that someone would live all the way out here in the wilds like this, finally able to ask the question she couldn’t shake. “What do your family think about this?” Watching her companion stiffen up a little, almost unnoticeably so, continuing to walk. “They don’t care.” They did, and they’d do anything to bring her home, but peach wasn’t about to say that. “Well…their loss.” Plum continued on without missing a beat, catching sight of the top of a greenish hued tent past some shrubs. “You’re a hard worker, know your stuff, they get to miss out on you being…well, you.” For the first time since leaving her home, Peach felt some small shred of emotion she could not place, joy? Perhaps reassurance? support? It was a mystery to her, but it was nice. The pair reached her campgrounds, not a lot there, just an old soggy campfire, a tent that had seen better days, and some travel gear. A pan, a pot, a sleeping bag, some food items, some spare clothes. Nothing that stood out. “You’ve been out here for 8 months living like this?” the girls started to pack things away, rain growing ever heavier. “Yeah. Not one for people or social stuff or crowds or towns…or really anything where others hang around.” It wasn’t exactly difficult to see that, plum helped her fold the tend material up neatly, rolling it into a tight bundle and stashing it. Before long, they were wandering back to the town. Peach felt sick from nerves, she was getting anxious about hanging around people, what if plums family asked questions? What could she say to deter adults? Her brain began to devote a billion lies to cover her ass.

The pair walked up soaked through to a huge house with a long ended driveway, topiary and tended flowerbeds lining both sides as they proceeded towards the building. It felt…weirdly familiar. Peach’s home wasn’t far off this, fancy, perhaps less modern, more regal but old fashioned, she though it’d be easier to adapt but honestly it just felt like she was going back for a moment, seeing a middle aged woman spot them coming up the drive opening the doors with a rushed wave for them to get inside. It was warm, the woman smiled kindly and tottered off to get towels, seeing the two girls dripping wet. Plum watched her companion look around at the ridiculous grander of the hallway they stood in, elegant floral arrangements and fancy paintings on the walls, she worried that perhaps this was uncomfortable for her, she didn’t take her shoes off, nor put her bag down, not until pushed to do so.

She introduced her housekeeper, the woman who’d met them at the door, and immediately took to trying to find something that’d fit her…friend? Yeah. She was going to use that word. She grabbed a big hoody and some sweatpants, both warm dry and adequate, able to shove peach into the bathroom coming off her bedroom to have an actual shower, and relax for like five minutes. As she sat in the kitchen, she chatted with the woman she’d grown up with who ran the house when her parents were away. Freya, a kind soul who looked out for the kids, fed them, helped with homework, listened to them, sometimes plum felt like she was more a mother than her own flesh and blood, but always felt bad for thinking it. “You made a friend. Thats nice Bex.” A pet name, Freya loved the kids and always saw plum alone, head buried in her books. “Yeah, she’s a little different to the normal bunch around here…Do you think she can stay for a little while? She travelled from Sinnoh, doesn’t really have any connections this end.” The woman set a hot drink down, smiling, the sound of heavy rain on the kitchen windows really making the warm interior all the more comfortable. “It’s not like theres not enough space in this house. I don’t see any reason why she can’t stay.” The family were well off and with plum so obviously happy with some actual company her own age, it was just nice to see her acting like a regular young teen for once. “Just maybe don’t ask about her family? I don’t think it’s a good topic for her…” Cautious to not make her company nervous or uncomfortable, she saw the woman nod sympathetically.

That night, the two siblings, freya and peach all sat together and ate, some questions were asked but no one brought up her family, nor her situation, simply asked how she was finding the region, if she had a job or was taking on any challenges, wether she was part of the academy or not. It was nice to just be part of something ordinary for a moment. The pokemon all got a dinner, and for the first time since she got to Alola, she could see them curl up on warm beds that filled a corner of plums bedroom, all kinds of pillows and comfy surfaces, all mons huddled together, not alert to sounds of potential threats as the night drew on. All of them fast asleep. Well, all bar Val, who sat up and observed the room habitually. In amongst them Missy noodled her way in, they’d gotten use to her by now, and welcomed her to the group without issue. The girls sat on the big plush bed, dry, warm, fed, and for once, calm and dare peach say it- happy. The TV showing some crappy movie neither of them paid much attention to, chatting about various things, even cracking some jokes that got a laugh. They eventually fell asleep watching some show, rain hammering on the windows.

That was the start of their time together. From estranged rivals to friends. Their antics got them in a whole heap of situations and trouble, Freya all but welcomed Peach in as a 3rd kid, and peach of course took to bullying Plum’s brother given any chance, because he was a wet blanket of a boy and an easy target. When plums mom and dad finally came home they took a shine to their daughters new friend, happy that she was keeping plum company, and they noticed a severe increase in her confidence since the last time they were around. They heard about her lack of dwelling and offered their home, and peach no matter what, would always leave cash on the kitchen table towards bills, or try to bring home the pokemon food or just help around the house as much as possible. They did not ask for this, but she had to do something in return. To them, peach kept their kids both tough and brought companionship. What more could they want?

Plum wanted to complete the Island trials, and so she went for that, while peach tagged along for the sake of travel, and the duo stuck through it all together and achieved some pretty neat things. Gaining more mons, lots of experience, and some seriously cool stories to tell. Did they always agree with each other? Oh hell no, they are polar opposites, but they made one complete and fully functional, well rounded human adult when together.

[luckyqueenreign]

Anyways. Summary of my emotions this episode .

Honestly, that whole kiss on the cheek was just annoying, but i have moved on w.e I do think Amelia didnt graft on Lewie

I guess right on who she actually kissed

I do think she was originally going to pick Ryan. I did sense some chemistry between them.

Truth and dare was soo temptating to me specially after that Ozzy pool scene 🤤 I think it was fun, i wish we had more options to ask questions

I have been trying to hard to keep loyal to baby Lewie, but Ozzy and now Roberto are making extra hard. I'm also trying to see if Ozzy is anything like Noah 😮‍💨 i can not do another Noah again. But i will continue to try and keep this sweet, not a hoe route.

NOW after the challenge WTF IS IVY ON??

The whole ex thing didnt really bother me, Amelia seems genuinely sorry, and its giving me the impression that maybe Amelia maybe had a crush on Zeph but saw MC also liked him so she stepped to the side to give her a chance, MC even stated it wasn't an official relationship so maybe Zeph left once Amelia turned him down? I'll give her the benefit of doubt she doesn't seem bother that MC still seeing LI even though they are coupled up, proving she was not trying to coupled up with them (unless you have Ryan route)

Anyways going back to Ivy this hoe is giving very much Kat vibes now.

Now Roberto he's perfect 😮‍💨 and a PILOT?? EXCUSEEE MEE , this Loyal route is just getting harder. I usually have no issues staying in one route but damn first bombshell is not making it easy. AND WE STILL HAVE MORE COMING IN!

The toxic in me wants to come out and have Lewie and Roberto fight for MC

I just need to see my good boy Lewie stand his ground ( get his Lucas on)

And most Importantly now Fucking Ivy i despise her.

She better get herself in check before MC comes after her. And if Lewie doesn't stop her I'm coming after him too. After i beat both im going homie hopping.

Preview of next episode if this kiss happens

Hope, Amelia & Grace after MC

My MC beating Ms. Ivy

Bella and Amelia Hyping me up 😊

Ivy after MC is done with her 😇

LMAOOOOO you know I love your reactions to the game. theyre always my favorite ask 💖💖

I did the Ozzy scenes during Truth or Dare and trust me they are so good!! I need some more of Ozzy's lingering looks outside of your choices with him (similar to how they did Noah but ill settle for them in his choices) He is so conflicted rn its actually v cute. I was gonna hoe around alot more but these Ozzy scenes are gonna make me stay loyal and wait for him. I think I'll keep Lewie as my back burner for now because he's so cute and genuinely seems to like MC.

Roberto...I dont get good vibes from him! He's legit so hot, has the best job but he came in with an encyclopedic knowledge of us!! knowing one or two things because he watched the episode is one thing but remembering verbatim things we said I thought was sus.

I am not an Ivy fan and cannot be convinced otherwise until that girl gets some more redeeming scenes. so I am with u on that!! And if she even thinks of breathing on Lewie next week it's on sight!!!

[kidfoundonstreets]

i'm glad to hear you enjoyed the coffin of andy and leyley, as well as no-good noelle! sorry for only just getting back to you on this—it completely slipped my mind until now

i agree that it was definitely a delight to see the improvements in tcoaal compared to earlier games, and yes! it was very much made in rpgmaker. i'm ALWAYS a massive sucker for comic panel-styled cgs

and i think what andrew meant by discarding andy and leyley to die in the coffin was him essentially. swearing to drop the power imbalance he and ashley once had as children and instead have the both of them stand on equal footing? i'm not sure, but that's what it read to me.

as for the parasite thing—who knows? nemlei apparently did go through with making a continuation to this game, so maybe we'll learn more about it there. the fact they're siblings roughly around the same age is also so tastefully fucked up by the way because like… how do i explain it. siblings usually live together ever since childhood so they have more time to affect each other growing up, and there's ALSO this general """agreement""" that family should always be your no. 1 priority when it comes to the people you choose to keep in your life or whatever, so it's like. yeah

(this is NOT meant in a weird way btw i'm a youngest sibling with two older sisters myself)

anyways yule nogoodnoelle is built different and i would drench him in milk until he's sopping wet before slamming him against the wall. real. 💯

DONT WORTRY ABOUT IT!! i apologize for the laytre response as well :3

discussing this with you is v fun i love hearing your thoughts on it,,

the equal footing makes a lot more sense! it literally says in the description of the game "co-dependency" and discarding how it's been for years is just so. well took a couple murders to get to that moment but yk (it was also mentioned i think they've had these types of arguments before and i find that interesting though im sure its never gone this far) anyway it also reminds me of a song called Evelyn Evelyn. don't know how well that works though. i need to stop getting off track

stuck with eachother and moving towards something that doesn't have the other as a doormat or the other as the boss . i don't know how possible that is for them but if there is a continuation id love to see it <3

heyy youngest kids gang. the "agreement" of family being no.1 priority and the same ages.. i didnt even think of thst but aaa. "your priority should be me!" as the rules say aswell its also like andy since the start his personality wasnt stronger than leyleys anyway he ended up as the quick go to (you live with him, it feels like obligation, he's as bendable as a rubber band) and i guess there's a line of friendship and family that is hard to clear unless you get rid of all the formalities and morals- which is also like. not only are your lives centered around your family now it also could be centered around a stranger,, but once that person is gone it'll forever have a gaping hole you can't get rid of unless theyre back. because youve known them so long. adapting to everything especially the tough situations that argumens and misunderstandings make your bond stronger

i dont know what im saying or what that means but i will eat your ideas ok

that's one of the most perfect descriptions of yule you get it you literally do. playing ivys route made me feel dirty after goig throigh all of yules bullshit (i would willingly click play on him again while insulting him)

[gothwizardmagic]

lots of homeschooling lore in your tags these days LMAO would you mind sharing a bit about how that works? genuinely curious

lmao sure tho it isnt the most exciting story

my mum always wanted to homeschool bc she wasnt a fan of how restrictive school curriculums are (shes v much an advocate for montessori style child-directed learning) but i wanted to go to school Like The Kids On TV so she let me. i spent about 3 years at primary school where i was the classroom punching bag THE ENTIRE TIME. highlights include being pushed down a flight of stairs IN FRONT OF A TEACHER WHO DID NOTHING, another teacher punishing me for being better at maths than my classmates bc i kept tearing through her worksheets too fast (i cant do maths for shit anymore she scared it out of me) and a "friend" of mine's brother getting his hands on the axe they had for firewood and chasing me around while i was over on a "playdate" (these quotes are bc this girl was in fact horrendous to me)

i was actively suicidal by the time i was 8 and my mum just stopped even trying to take me to school at that point (around the time i started throwing up with fear every morning) and after a lot of VERY angry meetings the best the school would do was an anti bullying assembly, which meant everyone knew i had tattled. my mum was fucking furious about all of this & went ahead with the homeschooling application she had halted when i decided i wanted to go to school. the guidelines at the time (im not sure what they are these days) were just that a child had to be educated "as regularly and as well" as they would be in school, with check-ins from the MoE every few years.

i dont remember how long it took the application to go through but yea after that i was homeschooled. my mum bought up a shitload of textbooks and workbooks and drew up lesson plans but her focus was still on student-directed learning so as my interests developed in various areas that was where the focus went. we did have designated sit-down time every day, but for the most part she would give me resources and assignments/goals and let me go hog wild at whatever my current fascinations were with some guidance and oversight along the way. it did mean losing access to anything that required specific facilities - i dont know shit about chemistry bc we didnt have like. a lab lmao. but yea by the time i was 11 i was on to university textbooks for some subjects (this is not a big flex these were early 00s computer science textbooks the first lesson in cs101 was literally "this is called an on button. this is called a mouse.") and by the time i was 16 we were doing uni-level work in pretty much every subject i was interested in, at the expense of subjects i didnt give a shit about. (i do not know fuck shit about like. geography or maths to this day)

the assessments were pretty chill, govt people would basically just take a few random samples of my work to look over and do a lil interview with me to make sure i was learning shit. for socialisation my parents made sure i did plenty of after school activities (dance, swimming, scouting, drama, conservation club, etc) and my dad took us on trips to like. the museum or nature reserves or whatever every weekend for Enrichment.

once i was 15/16 we started looking into uni entry, but the rules had changed since i started homeschooling. when i started there was a single uni entry exam you had to sit at sixth form and that was that. they replaced it when i was. 12-ish i think with the current system, which involves a complicated nightmare of three years of both internal (classwork) and external (exam) credits and the requirements are nebulous and seem to change year to year and basically it sucks shit and every single assignment from fifth form onwards counts towards your uni entry so its massively high stress. this also means you CANT get uni entry as a homeschooler, because theres no way to get those internal credits. we tried a few different routes to get UE but the best option we were given was one high school offered to let me sit fifth, sixth, and seventh form all at the same time in one year to get my credits. this was Unideal because the whole point was to Not go to high school, it was work i had already done and didnt wanna do again, and it was three years worht of work crammed into one. so i never got uni entry and have basically been bumming around since.

UE problems aside, homeschooling worked really well for my family. my mum is disabled so she was home all the time anyway. both of my parents are highly educated so they had the backgrounds to provide a cohesive and varied curriculum, and my sister and i are both neurodivergent so the one on one attention and flexibility in format was ENORMOUSLY helpful for us. my sister has never been to any kind of mainstream schooling and it would have been absolute hell if she had tried. (shes very severely dyslexic and schools in the early 00s were. not set up to help with that)

so yea thats the homeschooling lore - i missed out on a lot of stuff for sure (met one of my exes entirely beecuase i wanted to go to formal SO FUCKING BAD and my only option was to go to someone else's so a mutual friend set us up so i could go with her lmao) but it took me out of an extremely bad situation and gave me an education that was much better suited to my own learning needs. i know homeschooling has a Certain Reputation, especially in the us, but my experience was wholly unrelated to that side of the homeschooling community, and it was unbelievably beneficial to me. looking back i dont regret the time i spent in mainstream school (i met my best friend there and i literally dont know where i would be without them weve been through the fucking fire and back) but homeschooling was the healthiest thing possible for me and my family and im so so so grateful my parents were able to do that for me