#I Don't Wanna Be Me

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

Type O Negative - I Don't Wanna Be Me

[anaisthete]

i never understood the whole "overrated"-thing (even with songs from other bands). if the song is good, people will like it. and these "overrated" songs are often gateways for people new to the band to learn and explore more of the bands discography. which then leads to a bigger community (which surely isn't always good but whatever).

i really don't get why so many people don't want their favorite band to become "popular"; fans are still fans, no matter when they start liking the band. don't you want to have people to talk about your favorite band with? i would beg on my knees for my friends to start listening to the stuff i like and i would be THRILLED if the also loved it (even if the aren't goths or metalheads)

[emoxxzombie]

[karontte]

I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be me. I don't wanna be me anymore.

1,2 1, 2, 3, 4.

[martitheevans]

Joining Love Will Tear Us Apart and every Oasis track on my list of songs that I hated when I first heard them and are now my faves

[vanalex]

[gonerface]

Cried four times during my appointment with my psychologist 🤠

[sp00ky-p00ky]

Please don't dress in black

When you're at his wake

Don't go there to mourn

But to celebrate

💚

[i-wish-we-never-met]

I still picture us growing old together. We're dancing while cooking our dinner, we will argue about what movie we should watch tonight but we will just end up talking about life until the sun comes up. We will always do that until only death do us apart. But that won't happen, we won't happen.

[mossymushroomzs]

I feel so small all the time. Like my words don't matter

[suspiriaslair]

HUGE SALE ON RB

have a treat while we prepare our shiny new sustainable pod website.

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

𝔗𝔶𝔭𝔢 𝔒 𝔑𝔢𝔤𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔳𝔢  -  ℑ 𝔇𝔬𝔫’𝔱 𝔚𝔞𝔫𝔫𝔞 𝔅𝔢 𝔐𝔢

[switchthedragon]

Fuck it

If this post gets 30k notes I'll ask to go see a therapist.

[nanbatsu]

Without warning, heart attack

He fell asleep in the snow

Never woke up, died alone

[inkskinned]

what is with men being mad any time a woman raises her voice where did that even come from. someone posted a video of a small electrical explosion, and the top comment was of course the woman screams. the second comment is women try not to scream challenge, level impossible. i had to go back and watch the video again. there is, somewhat fainty, a little gasp emitted off-camera, more of a yelp than a scream. it is mostly lost in the crack of the explosion. afterwards, you hear her voice, shaken, say, are you okay?

i am helping one of my friends train her voice pitch lower, because she wants to be taken seriously at work. she and i do each other's nails and talk about gender roles; and how - due to our appearance - neither of us have ever been able to be "hysterical" in public. we both appear young and sweet and feminine. she is cisgender, and cannot use her natural voice in her profession because people keep saying she appears to be "vapid". we both try to figure out if our purposeful voice lowering is technically sexist. is it promoting something when you are a victim to it?

a storm almost sends a pole through a car window. in the dashcam, you can hear the woman passenger say her partner's name twice, crying out in alarm. she sounds terrified. in the comments, she is lambasted for her lack of calm. how is that even fucking helping?

in high school, i taught myself to have a lower voice. i had been recorded when i was genuinely (and righteously) upset; and i hated how my voice sounded on the phone speakers when it was played back. i was defending my mom, and my voice cracked with emotion. it meant i was no longer winning the argument: i was just shrieking about it.

girls meet each other after a long summer and let out a little joyful scream. this usually stops around 12-14, because people will not tolerate this display of affection (as it has the effect of being passingly annoying). something about the fact that little girls can't ever even be annoying. we are trained to examine each part of our lives (even joy) for anything that could make us upsetting and disgusting. they act like teenage girls are breaking into houses and shrieking you awake at 3 in the morning. speaking as a public school educator: trust me, it's not that bad, you can just roll your eyes and move on. it does not compare to the ways boys end up being annoying: slurs in graffiti, purposefully mocking your body, following you after you said no. you know, just boy things.

there's another video of a man who is not allowed to yell in the house, so he snaps his fingers when he's excited about soccer. the comments are full of angry men, talking about how their brother is unfairly caged. let him express himself and this is terrible to do to someone. eventually the couple has to address it in a second video: they are married with a newborn baby. he was trying not to wake the infant up. there is no comment on the fact women are not allowed to yell indoors. or the fact that it could have been really alarming or triggering for his wife. sometimes i wonder if straight men even like women, if they even enjoy being in relationships with them.

for the longest time, i hated roller coasters because it always felt inappropriate and uncomfortable for me to scream. one of my friends called me on it, said it was unusual i'm so unwilling. i had to go to my therapist about it. i don't like to scream because i was not raised in a safe situation, and raising my voice would have brought unsafe attention towards me. even when i am supposed to scream, it feels shameful, guilty. i was not treated kindly, so i lack a basic form of self-protection. this is not a natural response. it is not good that in a situation of high adrenaline - i shut up about it.

something very bad is happening, i think. in between all the beauty standards and the stuff i've already discussed - this one feels new and cruel in a way i can't quite express. yes, it's scary and silencing. but there's something about how direct it is - that so many men agree with the sentiment that women should never yell, even in an emergency - it feels different.

is the word shriek gendered automatically? how about shrill or screech? in self defense class, one of the first things they tell you is to yell, as loud and as shrilly as you can. they say it will feel rude. most women will not do this. you need to practice overcoming the social pressure and just scream.

most women do not cry out, even when it's bad. we do not report it. we walk faster. we do not make a scene. what would be the point of doing anything else? no matter what we do, we don't get taken seriously. it is a joke to them. an instagram caption punchline. we have to present ourselves as silent, beautiful, captivating - "valuable."

a woman is outside watching her kids when someone throws a firecracker at them. she screams and runs towards her children. in the comments, grown men flock together in the thousands: god. women are so annoying.

[martitheevans]

I've had to listen to it like five times but I Don't Wanna Be Me by Type O Negative has finally grown on me a little, low-key a banger?