#I GOT WORK STUFF TO DO AND MONEY TO SAVE
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#vu talks shit#I HAVE A PC THAT CAN B A R E L Y RUN THIS NOW#AND THEY KEPT ASKING WHEN ID BE ABLE TO PLAY AND I KEPT SAYING PROBABLY NOT TIL CHRISTMAS#I GOT WORK STUFF TO DO AND MONEY TO SAVE#AND THEY BAND TOGETHER#LIKE A BUNCH OF SCHEMING LUNATICS!!!!#ALL OF THEM!!! ALL OF THEM HEATHENS!!!!
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so proud of myself for putting a big part of my last paycheck in my savings like an adult but now im gonna spend all my savings like an idiot 😵💫
#i mean i am paying cash for my first vehicle which is like...adulting pro level but....at what cost (the price) 😭#also its a very cheap rusty old car tbh but i need a truck for the farm basically#so even tho i could keep driving my dad's car to work since he works from home it makes sense#especially bc its three people sharing that car with me and my brother#and my little brother is a full time student w no job so im the full time employed one so i should be the one to get a car#but i was determined to not take out a loan so its not a super nice car#but i'm buying it from a friend of my mom at a steal basically#like who sells a decent working car for 1500 anymore#but thats literally my entire savings so.... 😬#no car payment tho which will be nice but aaaaaaaaa#and im worried its kind of a junky car and will need tons of repaira all the time and not be reliable#but my commute is really short and i never drive anywhere besides work which is good for an unreliable car#im not convinced its a great investment to put all my savings into an unreliable vehicle but my parents told me its a good investment so#😬👍#adulting yayyyyy#i am getting paid this friday tho so my savings wont be so alarmingly empty for long#but i have other big expenses so im stressed#however it is a nice christmassy red pickup truck which is good for a christmas tree farm#but last payday i was like why do i have so little money in my savings thats dumb and not very grown up im gonna put as much as i can spare#then a week later withdrew almost all of it for the car 🤡#possibly a stupid decision#but maybe a great one idk#and it saves my parents having to buy a trailer for my mom's car for farm stuff so they're gifting me $300 towards it#and it will be satisfying to buy it outright and have no debt on it#but oof it hurts so much to make big purchases#i've never spent this much money except on tuition#i dont know that its specially unreliable i just know its got rust and duct tape and they're selling it bc they'd rather have a car payment#bc they put more money into it than its worth#but its got new tires and brakes and passed inspection somehow with the rust sooo? maybe its not as bad as it looks 😂
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my mum out of nowhere threatened to check my bank account bc 'girls your age are saving money for their wedding' 😃 let's be so serious right now
#ameera speaks#for a year i only made £200 a month and had spent all of my money when my brother tricked me into paying his car insurance (told me it was#a one time purchase and then had me pay it solo without telling me) £120 on driving lessons. my lunch at work. and then like the actual#stuff i wanted and NOW im making a substantial amount of money and ive rebuilt my savings account and shes mad#like i dont wanna show off or anything u guys but im not like broke (right now) like i kust got paid and no moneys been takej out of my#account yet AND i told her the other day that im planning on finally bidgetig my monthly expenses so i can save more money#but every thing i do with good intentions she twists and deforms#ALSO it must be known u guys. im no where near getting married#no one wants me
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Man....I hate having a job.
#Like I really hate it#Or maybe I just hate my job#But yeah not a fan#On the one hand : I have money; I'm independant; I got some cool coworkers and nice customers#On the other I have way way way way way less time for myself; i constantly feel too tired to do things I enjoy#and I have to deal with shitty coworkers and shitty customers#also like; been at this job for two years and it's been a constant mess#and we're understaffed as fuck right now#Wanna leave so bad but can't find another job#sorry sorry i just felt like ranting#but yeah god i hate it#I wanna be able to live free and independant while still not having to work every day of my life godamnit#I wanna do stuff!!! I wanna go out and see friends!! I wanna go to the pool !! I want to bicycle! I wanna play video games!! I wanna draw!!#Literally had an ''interview''' with my boss and while she is nice and definitely better than the shitty boss from 6 months ago#she gently reproached me to ''only work for money'' LIKE??? MA'AM YES#WHY ELSE WOULD I BE WORKING#YOU GUYS ARE PART OF A MULTI NATIONAL OF HOTELS WHO HAVE MORE THAN ENOUGH MONEY TO HAVE MORE EMPLOYEES#YET INSIST ON UNDERSTAFFING TO SAVE MONEY#ALSO IVE BEEN HERE 2 YEARS#AND HAD 4 DIFFERENT BOSS IN THOSE 2 YEARS#ONE NEW BOSS EVERY SIX MONTHS#WHY WOULD I FEEL MOTIVATED#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#okay im done
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As a brief acknowledgment: I checked online for nearby electronics stores stock and sadly, nowhere had what I was looking for in regards to drawing tablets. So I have no ordered one online but it said earliest I’d get it is January 4.
I still plan to update daily but it will be pen doodles for the next... more than a week. Not much I can do about it since it’s the holidays thus the worst time for an electronic to break when shops only wanna stock the expensive stuff in store. If you stick around for pen doodles, thank you. If not, I get it. I really miss digital art already myself.
#moe talks a lot#not art#really wanna draw so much stuff but i dont have the means to do so#luckily i looked tonight while what i have been using was on sale by 35% but only until the end of tonight#so i got the sale by like 3 hours yeehaw saving money#i guess im gonna have to relearn traditional art techniques a bit#im so used to my undo command RIP#also no i wont use a pencil i refuse theyre awful i hate them i can only work in pen im sorry for being like this
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#WHY do things i want have to cost money#i know I've still got like $100 set aside from stuff like birthday/graduation card stuff that i haven't been counting towards my wheelchair#cuz like. that's birthday/graduation gift money y'know?? i can wait a bit longer and work for my wheelchair‚ i can save that $100 to enjoy#but I've been specific with how much i spend on any given thing so i don't waste it#but i REALLY REALLY want this game#it's SUPER hard to find in general since it's been sold out for years and it's even harder to find an unused copy (without writing in it)#but i found a copy that is not only like new but ALSO has the original bonus trinkets with it you can't find anywhere else#the only problem is it'd take the last of that money :(#so like.... i COULD do it. but also i probably shouldn't spend it all on a hundred dollar board game#and i know it's silly and kinda dumb to actually consider spending that much money on a game but I've been wanting it for ages lmao#idk just kinda talking to the void here about it lmao
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i'm actually so stressed about money it's not even a joke like oh my god
#frugal-ness + guilt about food do not mix#i eat a meal and i'm like#'oh so not only was it EXPENSIVE it's also BAD FOR ME IM RUININGMYSELF#etc etc#like i worked less this week and normally that's fine#but my paycheck i just got oh boy.#not NEARLY enough to cover all my stuff#like literally my paycheck only paid for half of my fuckass groceries it's ridiculous#and i meab i havé a (moderate) amount of money saved like i won't actually be unintentionally going hungy just#ugh#it makes me soooo fucking guilty like#i had two portions of dinner tn and my brain was losing its fucking mind how not only should i feel guilty for the amount of food it was but#now the amount of MONEY each serving is probably costing#i'm losing my mind guys#i didn't even buy much unhealthy food i thiught for thé most part i bought cheap vegetables and staples that last a while like eggs and stuf#but ughhhh#UGHHH#WHY ARE WE HERE#JUST TO SUFFER#🥯.txt
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RARE TECH-RELATED VIRI W
i was gonna Fucking Lose It if these were gone tbh.
#viitalks#i know i need a better solution lol#bc my art to-do being stuck in an uncaring corporation's mitts is. Not Ideal#like either stop being a fucking Image Hoarder (HOW??? I'M A SELF TAUGHT VISUAL ARTIST WITH ANXIETY?)#or invest in a bigass multiTB drive just as an inspiration bank#but... that's Slightly Outside my budget for now -_-#and the site in general is a cesspool of unattributed low res work. i don't use it as much these days but idk a faster way to save shit-#from the browser of any device i happen to be on#that doesn't annihilate my storage#also i made my account as a teenager and i wouldn't want to lose the time capsule aspect of it either#just one more problem to throw money at if i ever come by it i guess. lmao#like... the irony of this scare is great too. like#i only got flagged for spam bc i was using an automated tool to slowly pin one image a minute off of my weheartit collections#bc weheartit is going DOWN like it's shutting down & deleting everyone's shit#and those are MORE nostalgic bc i used WHI more than pinterest in my mid teens#like.....#yeah.#there's stuff i actively wanna revisit#related to like. Deviantart Adoptable Critters#but also like early identity development lmao i. identified rly strongly with my silly misattributed unlawfully reposted images#like if i put anything up in my childhood bedroom walls it'd get Scrutinised and Destroyed#so... it was my version of cringefail teen posters#made even dearer by the need to hide them from fundie abusers#so............#idk i'm prolly unhealthily attached to these things but#there's gotta be a way to unfuck the situation & still keep like#the adult improving artist version of reference image treasure troves#idk lol
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i have the most insane fucking news
#fafsa got reprocessed they gave me a pell grant and my college saw that and gave me 20 fucking thousand dollars of grants#i’m in a special club now too with a special name for Scholars with Exceptional Financial Need#i fucking THOUGHT so. was terrifying when they gave me zero dollars and i am so glad it was a mistake#anyway i told my teacher this and he says it’s cause i manifested it….#i would say that my anxiety around the matter was not the kind of energy that brings in good things. but maybe i was secretly being positive#idk shdhdf it did arrive like five seconds after i decided i should commit anyway and figure out how to make it work#so then the universe said oh you’re actually gonna do it?? maybe i’ll save you from the hundred thousand dollars of debt actually#maybe college can be actually a possibility for you without ruining your life forever#so anyway everything is freaking incredible now and everything is okay#and i needed this. cause things have been getting worse and worse at home so like. positive news from an outside source is very much needed#i fucking knew i qualified for a pell grant and financial assistance i felt like i was being gaslit#they literally just miscalculated my family contribution. thought my dad must be funneling his income into something illegal cause we do not#have the money that the fafsa told me we did. but it was literally just fucking wrong and everything is okay#and my dad came into my room crying a couple days ago saying he wants to do everything he can to help me with my loans as soon as he’s done#with paying off his own or once they get forgave in a couple years. so arthur supportive father arc i guess. SHDHDHDF#that graph benji made about my dad getting less transphobic over time it’s coming true. guy put prefer not to answer in the gender section#of a form and he HOVERED OVER THE TRANS BUTTON. that’s insane coming from having screamed at each other about trans issues since before i#even knew that i was trans my dad and i had gotten in screaming debates about queerness and now he keeps saying weird stuff about how he#wants my life to be good. which is fucking baseline father behavior that’s what you’re supposed to get out of a dad but like. i have always#felt like i’m either drenched in expectations or that he just can’t wait for me to leave. so this is really good progress. and with the#financial aid that means that he’s actually going to be able to help. do you understand what this means my dad can help pay off my couple#thousand dollars of loans that are gonna be left over (cause now that they noticed i need aid it’s so fucking cheap) and do you fucking know#do you know what this means. i’m sorry for swearing i don’t know why i am. but what this means is. i won’t be in thousands of dollars of#debt when i graduate or i will be but the monthly payment will be so low and. i can get fucking top surgery is what this means. and go on t#i thought i was gonna be in so much debt that i couldn’t. but its gonna be like. a couple thousand dollars a year something insane like that#so foreseeably i could be getting top surgery by the time i’m 24. that’s insane i can’t even imagine#so anyway. just. everything is going to be okay and there’s actually hope in the world and i’m going insane#obviously saying this can very easily jinx me to literally never ever be happy. but i’m gonna take the manifesting route actually shdhdhf#my life will be So Good Forever. i Believe This Wholeheartedly. Good Things Will Come To Me#anyway i’m gonna run out of tags in a couple seconds but i really needed this you have no idea. i hope everybody is doing well
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god i love health insurance in this country
#would love it if it did literally anything#got to love the news that it won't cover anything at all for me in this surgery!#anyway i can still afford it and im still happy about it but like finances are so tight for me rn lmao.#its like. part of the reason ive been waiting so long for this is the pride and knowledge that i should not have to pay anything for#medical care under a just and correct system and having to set my standards aside and grovel for the fucking. necessary and life saving#stuff i need to not feel horrible and disgusting and ugly every day of my life is debasing and dehumanizing#to sum it u#i'm just really frustrated rn.#its so hard to like... go get help or do anything for myself in the first place ever because like. every single time i try to do anything i#get slapped with the harshest penalties known to mankind#you could argue that i could have tried to find a different doctor or whatever but i need my hand held through everything and i still think#that this one was the proper and correct choice based on that#anyway. i have the lump sum. i dunno if i should try to finance it to make myself not feel like i have no money or what.#maybe ill try to open comissions or something but idk if i even have time for that#like im still going to send them the request to reimburse me for my fucking medical bills anyway and i know theyre not going to because#fuck you. but still. id like a letter saying 'fuck you vintage go die and give me 10 grand' instead of just trusting some schmuck over the#phone about it. lmao.#im so tired. i need a break.#between this and work i think its killing me.#im hopeful my blood pressure isnt going to be too high for clearence lmao i am so fuckign worried about that because if it is then like.#nothing ive done at all to prepare for it has mattered at all#i need to be unemployed i am so tired of working for a living i just want to crawl in a hole and sleep for forever
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crazy how much better other family members parents are than mine
#tiny talking#like my cousins son (lives with his mom. not my cousin) has gotten so many cool things fr9m his parents#like he got the switch as it came out. oculus quest whennit came out. just got a 400 somehting dolalr lightsaber#and so much more and his mom and step dad dont really make too much money. like theyre still living a house too small for the members that#live there. my other (girl) cousins son (hes 7 and they both still live with my aunt) and my actual cousin who is 10 that all luve in the s#same hosue get sucb cool shit too. leo (7 year old) just got an electric scotter after bwgging for it. got 2 hoverboards over the yeras#has a mini dirt bike. has a 4 wheeler and so much other shit that is expenaive and he never uses#and all that menawhile i myself have only gotten a ds for christmas when i wa slike 10#the switcj i have i had to buy with cgristmas miney which i had to pay half of and my brother paid the other half#laptop i had to save up myself and buy#and hell my dad even owes me over 1000 dollars#like even when i was young my dad was constantly working and my mon was off doing who knows what#my brother and i we were all with our grandparents because god damn how much worse we couldve had it#and im grateful but like my mom also died when i was 11 and then my dad had us move to another city#and then he was once again constanly working trying to provide for way more people with my 'step mom'not doing shit#and not making money or anything. so i guess we just felt bad and didnt ask for expesive stuff#like when my younger brother asked for an xbox one for christmas. he got it form our grandparents but as a joint present#it was his and my older brothers present all together.#and again i know hwo privileged this is. god it couldve been so much worse but still#im so very jealous because no one in my dads sude of rhe family is well off with money#but my dad has it worst and i guess#i mena now we are all back living wirh our grandparents#(my dad and all three of my brother and me) so like that move didnt work out#but fuck man. i wish i was able to ask for expensive things as a kid. i yhink i knew even then that it was yoo much so i just didnt#and he loves us and same with our mom but man i wish we had money#kids are coming to school with brand new cars cuase they just got tgeir drivers license#and im lucky enough that my dad know peopel so he got some cars for a cheap monthy payment and my great aunt cant drive anymore#so i help her out and in return i drive and take care of her car so like others have it way worse and our family is pretty mid with the#stuff we have but still#idk where this was going but it started off as my cousins son (the firat one) coming over and showing off his expensive lightsaber he got
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I think I’m finally coming to terms with the fact that it’s okay to just get rid of things because you don’t like them or don’t want them
#aka my family nearly had to file for bankruptcy at one point when I was a kid and it's deeply affected me psychologically#I don't really know how to balance spending and saving money now that I actually have some#as an extension of that I'm kind of a pack rat in the sense that I find it really hard to get rid of some things--in particular clothes#and I'm finally doing a bunch of laundry that's been sitting around for ages because of work/mental health stuff#well I finally decided to say fuck it and pack away my summer clothes to get them out of my closet#then I really said fuck it and just started yanking out anything that I don't want. wear. or things I've had since at least high school#and it just feels... really good? to have a place for everything and know where it all is/goes?#and I have empty space in my closet where I can put other things?#or I can just leave those spaces empty because I don't NEED to fill them?#and even with little gifts I got from people. I can just get rid of them???#absolutely WILD#alisha babbles
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#i’m really going through it right now but i can’t even afford therapy anymore bc even tho i’ve been applying for jobs since May#only one got back to me but they said they weren’t interested in hiring only seasonal even tho they said it was a good job for students#or temporary workers to pad their resumes after long gaps which i have bc after i had to leave my job to go to chicago for school i’ve been#unemployed and constantly applying for work w absolutely no responses for the last 2 years#which was easier when i was getting unemployment but i used all of that up a long time ago and i keep getting hit w weird charges whenever#i manage to save up any money and i keep being put in the negative in my account#and i tried to open a threadless store just to get SOME money ANY money but no one really bought anything so i've lost all motivation to#add designs bc it's a lot of effort for no reward and i can't think of what to add that would interest ppl in buying my stuff so i can get#pocket change essentially and i'm about to enter my final semester and i have to put together my bfa show at the end of it and i don't have#any money to create anything that's worth anything or that would be a good representation of my ability as an artist bc everything costs#money and i think i made a mistake deciding to go to art school instead of doing literally anything else but i don't have any other skills#and i now i'm wondering if all that time i spent cultivating art skills i should've been learning a vocation so i could actually have a#future and i hate all of my classmates bc they're getting gallery jobs or work in the field and i'm just trying to get trying to see if i#can get a host position at a shitty restaurant again bc i just need any sort of paycheck so that i can scrape by#my posts#.jpg
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anyway it’s really funny that my entire childhood my mother was desperate to connect with me about Aesthetic Matters Of The Flesh™ while also being bound & determined to keep me from Doing Anything Goth, which of course is the ONLY form of Aesthetic Matters Of The Flesh™ i was interested in, and had she y’know. just been supportive of that. we could’ve had that ~intergenerational Flesh Decor bonding experience~ she was so desperate about
#like wow gee whiz it's as if you give your kid the option of Not Being Themself or simply refusing to engage with the concept entirely THEY#RE GONNA REFUSE TO ENGAGE WITH THE CONCEPT ENTIRELY!!!!!!!!!#you can't force your kids to be something they're not y'know#anyway as an adult dressing like a freak is my primary hobby & where the bulk of my discretionary income goes tbh#like i eat food. i drink coffee. i read (free stuff) and write (free) and hang out online (free) and use all the money i'm saving by not hav#ing a more exciting social life to dress like an ABSOLUTE FUCKING FRUITCAKE while i do those things#LIKE DAMN MOM WE COULDA BONDED BUT YOU HAD TO BE A BITCH ABOUT IT LMFAOOOOOOO#anyway. bodyartforms order says hi#i got better-sized 12g rings for my septum cuz whatever cheap cbr from work i had in was IRRITATING IT it was getting jostled too much cuz i#t was TOO BIG#and a bunch of miscellaneous ends to match various setups & i'm p stoked abt it#i am passionate about looking cool but it's a set of standards that only exists in my own head & ig that's where i fucked up with my mom lol
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don’t even know how I’m affording my rent for the summer and my sister is here booking us a trip to Thailand 😫
#mostly staying in Vietnam and Cambodia but primary flights are to Thailand#Idek she’s just graduated and has tonnes of savings from working the entire way through her degree and she wants to do it I dunno#I’m paying her back for the flights obviously but I’m just stressed bc the job I got hadn’t gotten back to me#and I applied for a bursary for my rent which I haven’t heard back abt lol#again my sister is entirely estranged this is all money she earned as an essential worker in hospitals during the pandemic#I’m excited I think just stressed and low mood and I have so much uni stuff I need to do this summer#And I get back and like 5 days later have 3 exams which probably isn’t smart#i need to work on my thesis and apply to masters degrees ahhhhh#deep breaths …
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I’m tired and bored at work and I want to go home and I don’t have much left to do
#i can’t go home yet#and i have a couple of meetings after lunch#and i also have to go the office tomorrow and I don’t really like that office that much#the office where I am today is lovely and I get to see my best friend from uni and it’s an overall nice and calm place#the other office is just sad#but that’s ok#it’s hopefully only a one time thing and next week we will be back to normal#i also got my knitting needles yesterday and I have started to learn the basic stitches and I want to do that instead of work#but my wrists are a bit sore so I should take it easy to avoid any serious injury#and overall I want to go home. back to my parents’s house and be with my cat#that is such a safe space for me#right here I’m not really looking forward to much happening#also bc I don’t have the energy to do stuff#i might be traveling for a cousin’s graduation in June and meet my parents there#but i am still not sure bc the tickets might be too expensive and I can’t really ask for time off#and my mom is traveling in may to visit her best friend in Florida#and i have some money saved and I really want and need to change my phone so I’m waiting on that#mariana.txt
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