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rosicheeks · 1 year

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#I am in soooooo much pain #banged up my knee pretty bad #BEFORE I even left for the party!#was walking to my friends car and tripped and slightly twisted my ankle #and my knee is completely fucked up #I was pretending everything was ok #and then I felt my knee starting to get wet #and I’m like???????#so I rolled my legging up and saw a bunch of blood #kinda left it like that the entire night #I tried to clean it up this morning #but still looks bad and huuuuurts #I just wanna smoke #I don’t normally drink I’m much more of a stoner #so whenever I drink I always smoke after to just kinda ground me and get me normal again #but since I’m out of weed and incredibly broke #I can’t get more #so now I’m just kinda in this limbo today?#laying on the couch #all the lights are off #my head is pounding #my knee stings #my thighs ache #sigh #ok enough complaining #it was really fun don’t get me wrong #and I’m so happy I went #but today I’m hurtinggggg #shut up rosie

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bittsandpieces · 9 days

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I think if we try hard enough we could sexualize migraines

#like. my body is weak and my brain is slow and easily suggestable #the meds make me a little dizzy #i have to be naked because the texture of clothes is too much #curled up in bed in the dark only half conscious #itd be soooooo easy to take advantage of me #plus #yknow #orgasms are actually a really helpful treatment for migraines because of the flood of seratonin #similar to how triptan meds work #to make a long story short im home from work with a migraine and am both in pain and horny. clearly

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aq2003 · 1 year

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ten

#i have series 4 on my computer now. but i have not started it. i am scared of it.#tenth doctor #dr who #ten is so he is soooooo. god. the doctor is so very defined by his loneliness. how he outlived everyone he cared abt #and what i love so much about nine is that you see him growing closer to rose. letting himself be happy #and post-timewar and losing all of his people (and blaming himself/being responsible for it?) that's so important for him to have #ten is like the opposite of this. he was created out of nine's love and sacrifice for rose. his personhood is basically defined by it #so you have his memories of losing his people in the timewar clashing with his inherent need to Be Next To Someone.#so losing people just breaks him. even after nine (ten? does timewar doctor count?) previous lifetimes of seeing death #when i saw ten's wiki blurb w him being described as one of the most human doctors. after watching christmas invasion i was like. 'what'#But Now I Know. they were talking about how he feels grief and pain so acutely. in a way a human might and not a 900y/o near immortal alien #10 era

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heartshapedbi · 3 months

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#usually my pain & fatigue flares are like. a week or two tops #but this one has dragged on the entire month & will probably last thru at least another few weeks due to so many dr appts #& starting work . all of which will be soooooo many spoons #and i am just. not recovered from moving and im so tired and i just want a couple weeks with no responsibilities so i can recover!!#is that too much to ask for!!!

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goldkirk · 1 year

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I have the Lord of the Rings extended edition and I’m going to walk on the treadmill for 2.5 hours straight while watching it today to see if I have enough endurance now to do 20,000 steps a day

#we’ll find out #I can’t wait to try #I’ve got soda bread in the oven and crepes in the fridge and I have groceries again and I walked 17 #*17600 steps yesterday and am almost completely settled back in after last week’s stuff #and I cleaned a little bit and will clean a little bit more #and then do my strength training for pt and then do my walking and then take a bath and then read LOTR fanfiction and go to bed #this work week is going to beeping bc of how much happened last week while I was out and the technical difficulties that went down #but it’s going to be okay if I go into it fed well-rested and already put out to pasture for some exercise #personal #something painful and weird did just happen with my thumb but it’s fine again now so I’m going to choose to believe things are fine #and they probably are and will be!#and I’m doing all this in vibram toe shoes and some shortfalls #*shortalls #which is coincidental but soooooo in line with hobbit vibes it just enhances the experience I bet #I’ll report back!

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puckpocketed · 8 months

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regular reminder to drink water, unclench your jaw, and take care. holding everyone here tn. luv u all my krakenblr girlies (gender neutral) 💙😭

#kraken lb #i am literally in so much pain rn i love these teams soooooo much #it’s just the mackblack deadlift tonight tbh. he’s well rested and on fire #please take care of yourselves if this game is too much 💙💙💙

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scrollll · 9 months

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Teena X Zouey - "Mine"

#teena x zouey #playboyy the series #playboyy #playboyy memes #they are the little calm between the storm #for real i love them ao much and i hope they continue beeing less problematic as a little breather in between #on the other side i am also an enjoyer of pain and angst soooooo...#maybe it's better that not all my wishes come true

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fatcowboys · 2 months

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tonsillectomy has fucked my sleep schedule and also I am craving every food under the SUN rn but won't be able to enjoy most of them for like another week I have list of foods I'm gonna eat once I'm able to

#pizza is number one. but like good ass good ass pizza.#steak too. burger. french fry. oooohfhg just remembered my fav food truck at work burger n fry #its all gonna b worth it and also i am Impatient!!!!!!!#and also tho? i have been proud of myself n how ive handled the food weirdness of re #surgery so far like. i was rlly stressed that between arfid and recovering id have a hard time eating #but honestly ive been doing p good at getting a lot of food in me #def less the past day or two bc my (slightly gross but vague) scabs are coming off slowly but aurely #which means my throat is soooooo sensitive rn #so even tho im craving all of these things so fuckin bad. i know i simply could not eat them even if i had them all in front of me #maybe a few i could but even then id take so much more Work #but. i think im on the uphill at least like #the scabs is supposed to be the most painful part so hopefully soon i can consider soke of those few things that #are an option if im careful abt how im eating them #im being p careful bc the last thing i want is a rebleed and to give me more food and eating trauma lmao #but oooogh im so ready for food to be a lil less complicated lol

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hikeyzz · 8 months

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#anyway um happy thursday i hope y'all are havin a great day thx for following me and dealing with my antics i rlly appreciate you all so mu #esp all my beloved moots y'all are so so precious to me #anyway don't keep reading unless you wanna know what goes on in my dumb idiot brain all the time #i would simply love to not be in pain and suffering anymore #i feel like i'm never going to feel well again #and idk how much longer i can keep going like this #like this life is not so great that it balances out the absolute suffering i endure #so .#why am i doing it??#i never expected to live this long to begin with which is cool whatever like i chose to keep living #but i also expect to have a short life because of my health and my genes #and there's been some comfort in that where i feel a sense of ease knowing i'm not trapped in this life and there is an end #but so far my life has been that i am in poor enough health is seriously disrupts my life but only mildly disables me and does not actually #pose a risk to my ability to stay alive #like none of my health issues are fatal or life threatening in any way #they just seriously make it HARD to live and thrive and bc of that i'm like in disability limbo #and i don't wanna do it anymore #and trust me when i say i have thought soooooo much on it and am TRYING to make it worth it i am TRYING to make this life livable #i just can't keep living like this and my options rn are very limited #i want to ... so bad yet i keep trying and it just really really isn't worth it in my eyes #i don't know much longer i can hold on. i don't think i want to much longer #hikey #talks from ur local sexy psycho <3 #disabled lyfe

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alienaiver · 1 year

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succesfully made miso ramen today!!!!

#it was soooooo delicious 😍😍😍#theres leftovers for tonight 🥺🥺🥺🧡#also i am in So Much Pain from carrying that desk home yesterday KSKSKSKSKSKKS #nohr.txt

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fiona-fififi · 1 month

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#i am in soooooo much pain 😭#i need to learn to sit down while i'm teaching so i don't destroy me knees #and tomorrow i have to teach three classes instead of just two 🙃#gonna need to request a better office chair for office hours or i'm never gonna make it through them either #personal

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raeathnos · 4 months

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#hello hi I am so fucking burnt out 🫠 pls forgive me if I’m inactive for a bit or real fucking weird if I am here #I was supposed to have a 3 day weekend but an hour before I was done it got turned into another 6 day week soooooo 🙃#we had terrible storms yesterday and I worked with no power and then came home to no power (it didn’t come back till 8:40pm hELP)#cat had a vet appointment which ended up being super emotionally draining and upsetting #his heart disease has worsened and he’s on more medication #and though none of these things are ever set in stone it’s looking more and more likely that he won’t live as long as a typical cat #I uh thought I was okay and then just kind of completely broke down sobbing last night #and I can’t really think too hard about it without bursting right back into tears #he’s only 6 and a half and the sweetest cat and it’s not fair #trying to stay positive but I feel so bad for him #gonna love him as much as I can for as long as he’s here which is hopefully still for a long while #it’s not a dire situation it’s just the disease progressing but like it’s still hard #dealing with too much rn #we were expecting the vet bill to be about $400 but then opted to do a few extra things and it pushed it to $750 so ouch #we’re fine we had it saved but you know how it is #he expensive but he’s worth every penny <3 #I also injured my knee so that’s fun- tore something in it I think #it’s not as bad as it was but it’s still painful and swollen and hard to bend #my dumbass is going hiking tomorrow despite this because it’s the first weekend that isn’t supposed to rain since like March #so as soon as I get out of work tomorrow I’m fucking off into the woods for a few hours to go be feral #probably bad for the knee but it’ll be good for the mental health #works only a half shiift tomorrow too and I’ll be done in the am so it should still feel like a long weekend #kinda bummed about it still tho #pls stop depending on me to pick up everyone’s slack kthnxbye #I’m so fucking tired 🫠#on the bright side I have next weekend requested off and it’s only gonna be a 4 day work week because of the holiday #there’s a rock and mineral show here next weekend and I am very excited #gonna buy some neat rocks hopefully 👍🏻#and assuming the weather is good next weekend and my knee doesn’t worsen I’m gonna fuck off into the woods again afterwards to be feral #gotta go rot in the woods for a bit to fix the soul; yall know how it is

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danceandsing · 6 months

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maybe I'm like physically ill considering how severe the pain is when the Tylenol wears off.

#well like duh I'm physically ill but i mean not just the chronic shit #I'm shivering and in soooooo much pain and feel so so so sick #cannot tell if its normal #i just feel sad and alone #they let me stay in the building past 11 though so i am going to uhhhh eat take a bunch of stimulants and meds and learn how to use pro #tools all in one night✅️✅️#btw pro tools sucks reaper my best friend reaper let me use reaper 😔😔

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tinypinkheart · 1 year

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I spent too long swallowing everything down and it made me sick. now my body doesn't work quite right

and the top theory from the doctors is that I swallowed down too much sadness and it's begun to act like a poison (rather slow moving if it took this long, geez).

oh, it seemed so silly at first!! a diagnosis of "got too distressed"?? let's be serious now. medical offices are not the place for such wildly fanciful conjecture. but as time keeps passing and symptoms get weirder and tests keep coming back strange and my prognosis remains a question mark - I'm no longer so sure.

when I last saw my therapist, he had told me he was astounded I was not dead. it was meant to be somewhat complimentary - commenting on how most people get faced with extreme hardships one or two at a time, whilst I'd had to face several in rapid succession. now, his words give me an ominous feeling about the growing sense of rot coming from my gut.

If I were to venture out into the world of fanciful conjecture: I spent too much time wishing myself dead, and my body is engaging in some spiteful irony. "see how you like it!!" well I don't, thank you.

#chill......chill......my body is just playing a silly prank on me #its actually very very funny that my stomach doesnt work right and i am laughing soooooo hard #i know the first doc only suggested the root cause as being emotional bc she saw my ptsd diagnosis in my chart and went #well ofc this bitch is gonna feel bodily weird #shes seeming more and more right with every appointment though because scientifically none of this is making sense #i just want to stop feeling awful all the time havent i earned that??#the worst part has to be how much is kept to myself though #i dont want to get everyone down with knowing how sick i feel all the time so i just dont tell them #i dont want to be a downer or a little sicky girl i want to be normal and good #but sometimes i want to say #i would like some extra credit for doing all of this whilst feeling like death has made a home in my stomach bc it makes it so much harder #you think im doing great work?? just wait until you find out how i did it while nauseous and woozy and in pain!#but without an actual diagnosis yet i feel like its gonna sound so trite and made up trying to explain all the symptoms i feel #what a pickle. ugh!

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miraeism · 1 year

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i can’t wait to be done with college

#BEST YEARS OF YOUR LIFE MY ASS #SO MUCH CAN AND WILL BE BETTER THAN THIS #shawna speaks and no one listens #my stupid senior design course #that requires one to be on a team of 6-8 people #i don’t have any friends in my major 😭 where am I supposed to find people #this is so painful #I’ve been emailing people I’ve talked to once in class asking if they have a group #responding to random persons message to see if they’re still looking for anyone #I feel like such a fucking loser #i hate school so much soooooo much #i just wanna be done #if you saw the other post I made about senior design . no you didn’t #I’m just having a bad day and needed a vent post #maybe alos a good cry later

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innocent-until-proven-geeky · 1 year

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out here having daily meltdowns because my dog whom I love with my whole heart is still young and has yet to grow out of “playing with people using my teeth”

#I love Blue so much despite what I might say when I’m actively in meltdown mode #but I have had a week of bad shifts at work and him biting me to get my attention #I am in pain and tired and SOOOOOO dysregulated and every day is meltdown day lately #plus add on the fact that it can take several days for cortisol levels to go back to normal after a meltdown #and you have a recipe for Miserable Ver Needing A Vacation

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