#I didnt tag anyone in this because it's a prompt...

[asirensrage]

Ah prompts... Yandere prompts, about Eliott Spencer maybe?

"2. You know, there’s only so much you can do to ignore me when we’re this close."

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No pressure or expectations, am already happy to be able to post a gif of this stud.

OKAY! This took way longer than I thought (but not as long as the other prompts in my ask box) so I'm sorry for the wait. I hope you enjoy it, even if it's not that long!

Rating: M...ish? Fandom: Leverage Pairing: Eliot x unnamed!female!oc Warnings: suggested obsession? Persistent interest despite being shut down. Sexual themes? Being trapped in a closet. I don't know what else tbh. Un-beta'd!

Honestly, she’s been in worse situations. 

She’s not worried about being trapped in what can barely count as a supply closet, or the fact that the guards are searching them. It’s the man pressed up against her, trying to protect her from whoever might open the door as he crowds her space. There isn’t any room for her to move back, but she’s tried. All she got for the trouble were the shelves digging into her back. 

She tries not to look at him, praying that they are given the go-ahead to get out of here. Or that the dark will swallow her whole. Anything to get away from the way she can feel him staring at her, from the heat of his arm around her waist. 

“You know,” his voice is soft. “There’s only so much you can do to ignore me when we’re this close.”

“I’m not ignoring you,” she murmurs. It’s a lie. She’s tried to distance herself from him since she became aware of his interest. She doesn’t believe in mingling work and pleasure. 

“Sure, sweetheart, and I’m Santa.”

“Technically, you were,” she says, thinking back on one of Parker’s favourite Christmas stories. 

“You know what I mean.” 

She does but she falls silent. The warmth of him is sinking into her and she finds herself focusing on the way he’s holding her. His grip is tight, as though he can stop her from retreating from him despite the fact that there’s nowhere for her to go. 

“Sweetheart,” his voice is laced with a warning. She swallows tightly, trying to ignore it. He bends down slightly, lips brushing her ear. “I ain’t interested in your games.”

“Then what are you interested in?” She says it before she can stop herself. 

“Thought I made that clear.” His grip tightens, as though he can pull her closer. 

“Eliot.” 

“Yeah?” His voice lowers. “You gonna tell me to stop?”

“Pretty sure the team is listening,” she mutters, trying to dissuade him. “Eliot, don’t do this.”

His lips brush her cheek. “They ain’t listening. Why you still runnin’ from me?” 

“Why are you so persistent? Can’t you take a hint?”

“Because I know when a woman’s not interested, and you are. You’re just scared.” 

She snorts. “Of what?” She won’t admit that his tenacity continues to surprise her, but she knows he’s dangerous. She’ll get lost in him if she lets him close. She also doesn’t want to be the target if his enemies decide to come after him. It’s bad enough she’s working as a part of this team. 

“That I know how to give you what you want. That you ain’t never going to want to leave.”  He lowers his face, lips pressing against her neck with a soft kiss. It’s enough to make her breath hitch and make her flinch back only to be blocked by the shelves. “Shh, it’s okay, sweetheart,” he murmurs. His thumb strokes her side where he holds her. 

“Eliot…you can have any woman you want. I’ve seen you. Why are you–why are you chasing after me?”

He pauses for a moment and she shivers when she feels him exhale across her neck. “Something about you that I can’t stop wanting.” She goes to protest and he stops her, squeezing her waist. “It ain’t the chase. Ain't anything but you.” 

She moves carefully before putting her hands on his chest. His muscles are firm under his shirt and she tries to ignore that as she pushes him slightly. He doesn’t budge. 

“Still running…” he says softly. He presses a kiss against her cheek. “You want this as much as I do. Wouldn’t be this determined if I didn’t know that, sweetheart.”

“You don’t know that.” 

He shifts, his grip tightening for a moment before his thigh pushes its way in between her legs. He pulls her closer, making her rest on it. She bites the inside of her cheek, keeping herself from making a sound at the sudden increase of pressure and friction between her legs. 

“Ain’t lying,” he says before one of his hands moves to her cheek and he bends forward, capturing her lips with his. Eliot knows how to kiss, how to ease her into opening up to him so he can deepen it. He groans as he does. It’s strange to taste him, to feel the way his grip tightens as his tongue moves against hers. Her hands on his chest clutch his shirt, unsure whether to keep him close or shove him away like her survival instincts demand. 

The door suddenly opens and Eliot is off of her faster than she can process. He takes down the first guard before going for the second. She stays where she is, mind reeling over the fact that she just gave in to him until he leans back in, looking at her. 

“Come on! We gotta move!”

She shakes the feeling out of her head before running after him. It’s fine. She just needs to get through this job and then…she’ll take a break. Get some space. 

His hand suddenly grabs hers, fingers wrapping around hers. “We’re continuing this later,” he tells her, as if he's read her mind. “You ain’t going anywhere until we do.”

She snorts. That’s what he thinks. 

(don't ask me why the team isn't listening. i'm using my artist license so i don't have to explain...aka come up with a reason. maybe they were. who knows.)

[krusies]

gawd . gonna pop some tags here and expand on them but teru really is like... peak slow-burn horror as a character. hes, like, seven tragedies waltzing around in a colourful trench-coat. i like to think that the people around him put together the pieces eventually because, well, hes not exactly subtle, and even when we meet him there is this blaring feeling that something is wrong. aside from the obvious violence he commits, of course, but it just keeps fucking Building

even after his fight with mob, teru as a character is so focused on his capabilities and independence that even when he realizes hes a normal person he still cant believe hes a normal KID. he has to believe hes more mature or capable in Some Way because otherwise theres no way to rationalize what has been done to him-- which is why i find his pre-mob self so fascinating because he is just. Pure hurt. pure attention seeking in a way that overcompensates for what his parents never gave him. those issues never really get Dealt with, either. they just get compartmentalized differently.

it's so nonchalant, too. teru shares his living situation with two people-- mob, who he, at this point, believes is an unequivocally Good Person who wouldnt share more than he has without being prompted, and dimple who... is a ghost. he could exorcise him easily, but more than that, dimple can only communicate with psychics or those who can see him, which means esper kids (aka mob and ritsu, because those are the only esper kids teru's ever met) and esper adults. and to teru, if theyre an esper adult, that means theyre claw, which means they already know.

its hard to remember in the context of the whole show, but teru didnt even know reigen existed at this point-- regardless of assumed psychic status or not. teru had no reason to believe that any adult, especially not an esper adult, would care. it can be easy to read this as teru being cornered because he needed to bring mob somewhere safe, too, but considering how calculating of a character teru IS, its hard to believe he wouldnt at least be convincing himself of his control over the situation

teru views himself as a commoner who lives in uncommon circumstances and thinks its super normal and just happens to never to tell any adults about it-- except that hes stupidly smart and, for all his absurdity, has a pretty decent concept of, like, strategy, and how not to get fucked over by adults. this kid ( again, stupidly smart, figured out his ENTIRE CITY was being brainwashed before anyone else ) focuses so hard on Not thinking about how fucked his situation is that he convinces other people not to think about it, either.

and the thing is that we keep SEEING how adaptable and strategic he is. need a pyrokinetic? air whips? name the technique and teru is LEARNING it. it doesnt take a genius to note that your life is severely different to other peoples. no WONDER he grows up thinking the world revolves around him, he needs something to make it all make sense, and when he finally views himself as a commoner he cant help but urge everyone to look away from the curtains

[seraphont]

FAQ & Important Info

About me:

bday: march 30th

lgbt?: im bi

What can we call you?

Seraphont is fine, its supposed to be a play on of Seraph and Serif Font, you can call me Seraph!

What pronouns do you use?

I'd prefer They/Them, but you can use She/Her.

Whats your Main blog?

not posting it publically for now.

Dying and Getting Over It (DaGOI au) Related:

Where can I read DaGOI?

It will be uploaded to my Ao3. its currently being written, so there is no link to the fic yet.

When will you post the fic?

short answer: I'm not sure, Im busy w life, comics will b made in the meantime. its my first time writing a fic, so I ask you to be patient with me! the outline is written and being tweaked, and its going through adjustments now that MD ep 8 is out. Im also moving across the world, so I'm a tad bit busy rn.

Will you include MD ep8 into the canon of your fic?

at first I was on the fence, but its grown on me, its being integrated now.

Will you be drawing all of DaGOI in comic form?

if I was a stronger man I would. I'll mostly be drawing key story moments. making comics is an aid to helping me write. so I'll be making a lot, but I may not be posting them until the chapters start coming out (trying not to spoil everything). to give you an idea, as of writing this, I have 6 comics on the backburner lol.

Art Related:

What art program(s) do you use?

Procreate -Brushes: Shiyoon Kims Wet Brush pack (X) (everything you see on this blog is made with this brushpack) and several Max Packs (X) for procreate

How long have you been drawing?

I've always drawn, but I started getting really serious at 14, around the same time I first made my main blog. I was self taught up until I got into animation school.

What do you do as a career?

I'm currently doing Freelance work for publishers and individuals. I was previously an animator, I'm making the move to storyboarding

Do you take requests/commissions?

I do have commissions open. only lineart, and flat colours are available. if you want a rendered piece: slots are closed, but you can dm me for interest.

Asks and Messaging:

Rules for asks/tagging?

Anyone can send me an Ask, Mutuals, Anons or not!

Dont send discourse or anything explicitly NSFW. you'll be blocked lol. I'd prefer if you didnt send suggestive. if you send me triggering content I’ll mind blast you into dust. (block).

Do not send and DNI's?

Transphobia, Homophobia, Acephobia. All the obvious bigot contenders.

SA, pdfilia and incest are absolute no goes.

are you okay with me direct messaging you?

only if we have spoken before/ you're giving me a headsup about something/ I've prompted you to send me one.

***minors: please refrain from dming me to chit chat, im not down to.***

Why don’t you answer my asks/dms?

my main has 1000+ asks and my other side blog is pushing 250+, sometimes the ask's get lost in the sauce. that being said, some ask's go unaswered because: 1. it might spoil too much if I were to answer. 2. I simply have to think hard to reply. 3. its super nice and im hoarding it all for myself.

Misc

Can you reblog my donation posts?

no. too many scams.

[raphaerolo]

*sprinting in* SUPERHERO OCs. ?🎤

Hi @cozy-fish-crow i didnt expect anyone to ask about these ones but I can talk about them. I've kinda put them on the backburner but this ask did prompt me to revive and redesign a little their looks so yay!

Here are the two main ones and the ones i was referring to in those tags

Theyre sillyyyy. Mara's a computer engineer and Jackie works in a convenience store and yeah they are roommates along with another not pictured because I have to draw her.

And because theyre my superhero ocs yeah they have powers. Jackie has luck powers, but with each thing he causes to happen in his favour, something of equal bad luck happens to him after. So he might have himself get lucky on a test but then they'll stub their toe really painfully, and the more he upsets fate the more it upsets itself back at them.

Mara has sound powers, she can create big sound waves and has control over them but she doesnt have durable hearing... so due to accident when she was younger she blew out her own hearing and now has the cochlear implant.

Theyre personas tho- Jackie named his own persona Felix Fortuna because they're basic and just picked out some luck synonyms, but Mara - her debut was a disaster and did involve another whoopsie where she destroyed a lot of glass windows on some high rises and yeah they got labelled as a villain... and the public named them Decibel

Some drawings of Decibel and Felix:

I've redesigned decibel so many times and honestly that's what i enjoy about these characters... just get to design them a bunch without feeling the need to come up with new storylines.

And of course eventually they form respective hero and villain teams (and then maybe team up to destroy the real villain) and I have some favourites from their teams. Mainly Lightning Boy on the hero team who makes 20-smth Felix Fortuna have serious responsibility crisis', and then on the villain team there's Wallow Ouija the medium and her boyfriend Wisp (who has some trouble maintaining a corporeal form) who commit cons together. And then finally, one of my all time favourite ocs in this universe: Ape with a gun.

Here's ape with a gun:

He's a bonobo and, well, he has a gun. But not always a gun. Sometimes he's Ape with a bat, Ape with a hammer, Ape with a steel chair, or on really bad days he's Ape with a bazooka or Ape with the nuclear launch codes.

Anyway thanks for the ask, and excuse the long response but I love these silly guys :)))))))

[scorchedmazes]

2024 WRITING IN REVIEW

got tagged by leah (@directionerplusgleek <33)

apparently it took her two hours to do this so i need to buckle up bc i have no idea how many fics i posted in 2024 (im terrified)

sooo:

May:

Rarepair bingo:

my boy builds coffins: minally, prompt: based on a song

is this.. real?: minally, prompt: major character (un)death

the injury of finally knowing you: benho, prompt: missing scene

take me to church: minally and vinge, prompt(s): because i want you to & more than one rarepair ship in one fic

Thominho week:

they'll be okay: thominho, prompt(s): what if & panic attack

June:

I'm Not Living In This World Without You: thominho, set during tdc

July:

a ship to wreck: minally, sequel to 'my boy builds coffins'

Can You See Right Through Me?: minally, set during tmr

I'll be your friend in the daylight: minally, modern au

August:

bad idea, right?: minally, modern au

take my hand, take my whole life too: minally, modern au

Minewt Bingo:

until we meet again: minewt, prompt: 'the letter wasn't for me'

finding warmth in each other's embrace: minewt, prompt(s): 'so that's where my hoodie went' & sick at the same time

an essay and a pillow fight: minewt, prompt: early bird vs. night owl

October:

Whumptober:

Choking On Nothing But Air: Gally centered, prompt: panic attack

come morning light, you and i'll be safe and sound: minally, prompt: healing salve

Baby Steps: minho & newt, alby & newt, gally & newt, prompt: healed wrong

bruises and braids: soniet, prompt: bruises

i'm hearing voices and they're haunting my mind: minally, prompt(s): 'i can't think straight' and regret

I did good, right?: teresa & ava paige, prompt: 'i did good, right?'

i don't know what to do without you: newtmas, thominho, thominewt, minewt, prompt: shoulder to cry on

It was not your fault but mine, and it was your heart on the line: minally, newtmas, prompt: what have i done

Soldier: minally, newtmas, brenderesa, prompt: loss of identity

December:

Fluffcember:

In The Embers: minally, prompt: roasting marshmallows

heart full of love.. and soup: minally, prompt(s): winter flu & winter soup

Christmas Sweater Chaos: minally, newtmas, brenderesa, soniet, prompt: christmas sweaters

ginger spice and everything nice: minally, prompt(s): gingerbread & sugar rush

the black diamond: minally, newtmas, brenderesa, soniet, prompt: skiing

Chicken Noodle Soup: jorge & minho, prompt(s): carols & homecooked meals

in my heart is a christmas tree farm: minally, prompt: christmas tree

ice skating and s'mores: newtmas, minally, soniet, brenderesa, prompt: fire & ice

more than anything: thominally, prompt: the perfect gift

TYSMM FOR THE TAG!! <3333

i underestimated myself bc WOW i didnt realize i typed this much,,, jfc.

(no pressure tags ofc: @ssseashell, @nxwtonsxngster, @unrealisticallyyours, & anyone else!)

[edgessunflower]

can you write these prompts 🥶🤒 with damian after reader woke up sick with the tonsillitis and had a match but she didnt want to tell anyone to make him worry until Damian notices

Gotcha my dear!

Determined to win

Pairing: Damian Priest x Fem reader

Description: You wake up sick but decide to go through with your match until your boyfriend notices how sick you are

You woke up with your throat burning and in a lot of pain but you figured it was your allergies or just minor strep so you didn't think nothing of it. You smile seeing your friends and boyfriend, sharing a quick kiss with Damian before getting ready not noticing the look he gives Rhea of how bad you looked as you fix your hair before rhea does your makeup noticing how swollen your lymph nodes on your neck are after feeling them when she was finishing your makeup immediately telling the boys while you changed in your ring gear nor hearing them all agree to each keep an eye on you in case you had gotten worse at any point even if it was during the match you all had against the bloodline "Feeling alright?" you nod at Finn as you take a sip of water to ease your itchy throat before laying a cough drop on your tongue still thinking it was only a minor sickness. The five of you head out and the first half of the match was really good, you managed to go for a long while against Jey Uso and Solo Sikoa before tagging Dom in but soon you feel the energy seep out of you as the rest of the match went on feeling cold, clammy, and exhausted as you free yourself from Jimmy's grasp managing to knock him down and quickly Ha'lua kick him before you started coughing painfully suddenly feeling your body give out as you fall in the ring holding your throat as your team comes in with Finn standing in front of the four of you with his hands raised at the bloodline noticing a concerned solo and jey standing over you "You okay?! What's wrong?!" you mumble hoarsely and roughly that your chest hurts and you can't breathe groaning in pain when rhea opens your mouth and sees your inflamed and swollen tonsils. You are taken backstage and examined with damian by your side while rhea finishes the match and pulls out a win, your three friends rush backstage to see you in damian's arms as they follow him while he walks you outside to take you to the hospital and as soon as they check you out they confirm the medic's diagnosis of tonsillitis and from how bad they were and when the boys and rhea told them about what happened in the ring while being examined, you are immediately taken into to surgery especially after your throat was looked at and the nurse almost yelped in shock by how swollen they were, you wake up after surgery with the on both your sides coughing as you try to speak immediately sipping on water "Why didn't you tell me how sick you were?" you sigh "Not only because I thought it was my allergies or strep I didn't want to be out of the match and leave you guys hanging" they all look at you before pulling you in a hug "You don't have to do that lovely, you're family and your well being matters more to us than any match win or lose" you smile as you eat on a popsicle before heading back to the hotel and eating on some soup before falling asleep with damian next to you watching you closely.

[phoenixfangs]

ana @littlewitchbee did Not tag me in this game but im sniping it anyway because i thought itd be funnnn >:)

type "[___] aesthetic" into pinterest, using the prompts city/country, eye color, favorite color, and name!! then post pictures from those results

the results for "phoenix aesthetic" were a bunch of suspected ai generated images so i didnt want to use those, and "zach aesthetic" kept giving me some country singer ive never heard of, so instead take this dr pepper gun that showed up on the homepage once i backed out of all the searches id done. Thats my aesthetic DBFKFNFKJS

tagging @ftmrizahawkeye @rizaposting @elfdyke @milekael @oracleofsecrets @flowersforriza @nightofthelividead and anyone else who reads this!! it is not optional ❤️

[oatmilktruther]

fic first lines!

post the first line from the last 10 fics you posted (and are there any patterns?)

i got tagged by @mxmollusca and @chaotic-neutral-knitter

the ocean

“it’s a storm.”

Kalahari Down

“Ed had this sense about the land, the kind that could serve you real well if you knew how to talk about it, but the same sort that would have you written off as funny in the head if you didn’t.”

Every Snowflake Is Different (Just Like You)

““I don’t mean to be presumptuous, but do you think we could— go back to your place?””

Untitled

“Look.”

Half-Light

“Stede had quite a lot of practice not doing things.”

Anything We Want

“It happens in a thunderstorm, because of course it does, cause it had to be a big, poignant moment that would stick in his bones and pulse along to the rhythm of his heart and never leave him when things got quiet or when things got loud or when things simply were.”

I Want It All

“There’s a ringing in his ears.”

Different Names for the Same Thing

“Stede was well used to the feeling of watching Edward as though from afar, even if they were right next to one another.”

It Wasn’t Me

“"What is your mission?””

Take a Byte

“Ed figured he was well past the point in his life, felt like the internet itself was past the point in its life, where he would find himself googling “hot blond dilfs in my area” and clicking “allow” when the browser prompted for his location.”

i dont feel like theres a pattern here except that i am clearly not afraid to make my opening line nearly an entire paragraph. and also that im not afraid to make it a single word. and also that my opening line for KD still fuuuucks. also kinda fuckin crazy to take stock that i really have that many fics (plus three more) posted. damn.

@ajibooks @scarrletmoon @edsbacktattoo uhhhh anyone else if you see this please do it if you want to and if i tagged you and you dont want to, pretend i didnt

[iheartchv]

🍫🍬🍭🎃🐈‍⬛🦇🕷🕸

October challenge hosted by: @thelaundrybitch @leosgirl82 and @post-apocalyptic-daydream 💖💖💖

Fandom: TMNT ( my 2016 Dark Turtle Clones AU, I missed my big bois ;;v;; )

Prompt: Trick or Treat but Truth or Dare Style (this is open to all interpretations)

Hey ive got an idea

What is it

How about we have our own trick or treat... truth or dare style

Trick is Dare, Treat is Truth

Sure sounds like fun

You wanted to do something fun with the guys

This was going to be their first Halloween

They couldn't really go out and do anything because eventually anyone would question their "costumes"

You bought a bunch of candy a couple of days in advance and went to their hideout

You didn't know how the others would react to this idea

Mike didnt seem to mind it though

He probably already told his brothers the plan, anyway

Tag List:

Apparently, they were in

(And you can imagine all the shenanigans that went on that Halloween night x3 )

Sorry for it being short, tumblr published this instead of saving it as a draft.

@turtle-babe83 @tmntspidergirl-deactivated20230 @leosgirl82 @angelcatlowyn @annaliaandtheturtles @pheradream-15 @cowabunga-doll @bluesakurablossom @darksaphire2002 @foreignbrunette @greenprincess @half-shell-bo @lady-maria-the-wolf225 @moonlightflower21 @narwals14 @nikitaboeve @nittleboo @raphaelsrightarm @southernblossoms @thelostandforgottenangel @white-masked-beauty @roxosupreme @kawaiibunga @captain-kinda-trash @yumefuusen @sivy-chan-blog @artsolarsash @crazedtmnt @raisin-shell @sacredwarrior88 @leosgirl82 @egg-on-the-run @ashleighclark98 @dilucsflame33 @tkappi @happymoonangel @allybutton @android-cap-007 @androidships007 @turtallyawesome @doctorelleth @crazysarah-98 @phd-in-fuckery @angelicdavinci

🎃 let me know if you'd want to/not be tagged 🎃

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

💚💔 forrrr either prime defenders or danny phantom >:}

OHHH FUCK THESE R GOOD. I THINK IM GONNA DO BOTH

DP:

💚- literally the way the fandom as a whole characterize danny. considering the fact that apparently 70% of the ppl in the tag have not actually watched the show (this kills the me. every time i think about it), nobody actually knows What The Main Character Is Like . hes supposed to be an awkward quippy annoying 14 yr old boy. of course hes gonna say and do stupid shit!!! hes not some capable noble hero who always does the right thing and is nice to everyone. hes a kid who has a big heart with a crippling sense of responsibility. head in hands

💔- this might be cheating bc hes only a minor character and existed for exactly one (1) episode but.. fucking Gregor. i haaated double cross my heart that episode sucks so bad. lets just. remove the whole thing. also its really funny i had to google his name because i just kept thinking of grefgore (<< npc from the jrwi vampire campagin who is my angel the light of my life). would the fandom kill me if i said wes weston. hes not even a real guy it wouldnt matter if he was removed.

EDIT I JUST REALIZED THE PROMPT LITERALLY SAYS MAJOR CHARACTER. FUCK. uhhhhhhhh idfk. i guess if i HAD 2 pick. maybe clockwork? as much as i fucking love clockwork he was not utilized enough. he couldve been such a cool mentor character working in tandem with frostbite in season 3 and he just. wasnt. god hes so cool i wish they wouldve done more with him. but also if he didnt exist neither would my favorite ever episode. FUCK this is HARD

PD:

💚- NOT ENOUGJ PEOPLE UTILIZE WIWI BEING A PETTY JEALOUS LITTLE BRAT. THIS IS A FUNDAMENTAL PART OF HIS CHARACTER AND I AM SO ANNOYED ANYTIME IT IS SANDED DOWN. honestly? also? any time anyone writes william as being. 100% Automatically Morally Good. if dakota wasnt there his ass wouldve gone full villain arc halfway through season 1.

💔- i????? honestly???? dont know if i would remove anyone??? i genuinely cannot think of someone i wouldnt be super distraught about not having. maybe like. idk. Bacon Man. but bacon man is sweet bc hes a character bizly made up when he was a kid and im weak for including old ocs in current projects bc i think its fun. I CANT EVEN SAY LIKE. PARTY CITY GHOST. BC I LOVE THE PARTY EPISODES.

[faerunsbest]

BG3 Backstory Bash by Kelandrin

This is a challenge to help people flesh out their Tav’s backstory by exploring their past. It is organized into four sections with seven prompts. You can treat this as a monthly challenge or a general project. You can write headcanons, fics, or share art based on the prompts! You can interpret the prompts however you want. If you want to share use the tag #bg3backstorybash

i was tagged by @rolansrighthorn , this is just out here making my day! i tag @dutifullylazybread

Baby:

Parents: an unknown peasant woman with many a john to pay the get what was needed at times

Birth: out in the fields she was born in the dirt of drying crops and had to be plopped into a basket as mothers shift wasnt over.

First word: "mama?"

When they first walked: there was no one present to remember the day she waddled across cold wood floors to try and pry a door open so she could follow her mother out. it didnt work she cried until she fell asleep

Tantrum: too many to count, she didn't like being left alone

First sickness: she was perpetually malnourished, any other ailments where hard to pick up on

Thunderstorm: she loved the rain and she loved when the sky was angry, it made her feel validated and understood

Childhood:

Friends: Dwylla didn't really have friends she kept robbing people and on the off chance they caught her she would just go kinda wild and make sure they couldn't take anything back.

Siblings: she was born to a woman who thought she was infertile, there are no others.

Birthday: midspring precise date is unknown but she doesn't know this.

Games: tap, when she was sold to a gladiatorial ring her and the other kids would play tap. you have to touch a persons face and if you win you get half their dinner because the whole thing seems cruel. she won so often that she wound up being the bulkiest of them all.

Learning something new: she stares and watches with intense focus, she can learn so much that way as there was rarely ever anyone to teach her. she would watch patrons and guests she watches pick pockets thieves and assassins at work. its when you are seen as about the same as the damn floorboards

Trauma: Her mother sold her to a gladiators for a small pouch of gold. Dwylla started in the stocks and mills, cleaning up and serving people but after rebuffing unwanted advances was punished by being put into a selection pit. they didn't expect her to win. As he prize she was permitted to enter the smaller rings as a side fighter, where she was expected to die a splendid death. instead she won and kept winning and with every victory came a prize, a little potion bottle. it contained a small but permanent strength boost, hers focused on the parts of her that had the best circulation. her legs and tail.

Teenager:

First love: First love was an visiting gladiator who didn't know who she was he played and though she would be a fun bedding, he was the first person she strangled with her tail alone.

Rebellion: when she was given the prize of a private room with a view to the outside she ripped apart parts of the wall and clawed her way out .

Running away: its all she ever wanted to do but resulted in her being locked up and tied down in the 'champions tower' until it was time to go out in he ring again.

Reckless behavior: her reckless behavior keeps her alive though just barely.

Peer pressure: you cant bully a person who sees you as competition

Growing pains:she has stretch marks on her upper thighs,lower back and around the base of her tail from those damn strength potions

Taking responsibility: she is very much of the mindset of ' i either did it or i didn't" and has no problem admitting when she did something. until waaayyyy later

Adulthood:

Their “first time”: It's Rolan because of course it is. She sees straight through him, she loves how much he loves his siblings and it breaks her heart that he only has himself really. she can put up with how prickly he is because its nothing to her, words said in anger are very little most of the time. Rolan rarely stings her this way and hes never even considered raising a hand.

Serious relationships: its really only ever been Rolan, it only ever could be.

Work: after winning her way out of the ring she does manual labor, building houses and bridges. she just loves being able to build things instead of tear them down. the first things he makes a is a traveling wagon. it has the tiniest wood stove, it fits about 5 pine cones in it and keeps her little wagon toasty, with s a single massive window on side its easy to feel at ease in it

Leaving home: she won enough fights to 'buy herself' and was free at the tail end of 29 years old but was taken up by the nautiloid about 1 and a half years later

Aging: she will age slower than a human but much faster than an elf, so maybe she'll never live to be several centuries old but maybe one or two

Finding their place: she though she found her place in the world when she was building houses at super cheap rates for families who just cant afford more. she loved watching kids run in thrilled to have a roof and a door.

Staring a family/found family: she truly considers with all her heart Lae'zel and Astarion her family as she calls them her left and right, in reference to heart ventricles but they joke Astarion the left because something ain't right! Lae'zel takes pride in being her right hand.

in fact the 1st reason Rolan may have noted his importance to Dwylla is because he realized she left behind Lae'zel to protect him and the siblings. Dwylla would never do that, not for anyone. when he mentions it to Lae'zel, she tells him he must be of some value if was smart enough to make the connection.

she does eventually build a family with Rolan though she never gets comfortable in the highest parts of the tower

[illuminiscentboba]

Behind the scenes <3

hi guyssss!!! tysm nohr for the tag !!! <3333 this is my behind the scenes expernece as illumminiscentboba !! prepare yourselves bc this is gon be personal~~~

Started writing: I've been writing on and off since middle school, and have been posting works since that time on quotev <3 i actually still use quotev to this day and im so thankful that it was a safe space to write fiction, fanfiction and participate in random writing challenges :)

Started blogging: I starting blogging here around 5 years ago, using this acc to just bingeread fics and repost art! i didnt originally plan on writing on here until I read a few HQ fics and ichiruki fics from bleach on fanfiction.net that had me like..,,in awe, I wanted to replicate that awe and here I am.

Followers: i've been around 179/180 when I was more active around 4-3 years ago but have been on hiatus up until this month so now im at 113 LMAOODSBHDSBJ HELPPPPP followers did mean a bunch to me in the earlier years but now i'm just happy i enjoy my own work

Communication: ahahaa,,,about this,,,as of late I have been going nonverbal more often and just been a lot less social. The later is for no reason beyond not wanting to give anyone the illusion that I am very active here esp bc I havent been publishing work for such a long time. but now that I've mentioned it here and once I get my tags reorganized, I'll reblog a lot more...prepare to be sick of me.

Likes: I actually was surprised about how much more interest people had in headcannons than fics or blurbs but that aside I don't really have an opinion on likes but to those who do leave likes on my work, I appreciate it a bunch :)) likes used to help me define how much people enjoyed my writing style/the characters which is sooooo wrong and quite a damaging mindset to have. I don't share this sentiment nearly as much as I did in middle school thankfully but it does suck when I feel like i'm the only one that enjoyed smth i cooked

Requests: for a long time I got such little request, my inbox deadass had tumbleweeds skipping past everytime I opened it but then around the time I was beginning to feel burnt out here...i actually got a bunch...(i hate it here) a lot of the requests are so cute and sweet, I'll fulfil them in my own time and space :) but i appreciate them soooooo much i love silly billies in my requests

Writing: the hate love relationship I have with writing...i have quite a lot of ideas but putting them into works is....something else HELO doesn't help that I've got ADHD and keep getting ahead of myself when writing...but yeah I have been writing things as of late that Ive been enjoying and playing around with diff au concepts (which im quite excited for) that aside, one of the ultimate contributers to my hiatus was the change in environment and in myself a few years ago. Many of my friends happen to be ace and a lot of my other friends at that point in time had aversions to affection? strongly disliked verbal affection, physical affection, you could name it and they were not about it. It did actually effect my behavior in a sense where to this day I instinctively hold back on hugging hand holding, arm linking etc. and it feels so weird now bc some of my friends now are the opposite LMAO its very jarring, the sudden change and realizing that to make my writing flow better I would put myself in the situations and id do the same with dialogue which made writing for characters i didn't feel much for harder to digest, and constantly writing romance prompts also made things hard for me because it felt quite repetitive and made me lose touch with what writing was for me which was like the final straw for me at the time. Some things have changed since then, especially my life cirumstances and preferences. you guys can request as you like but I hope that there is understanding if i'm unable to fulfil the requests, some of many of my works that are romance may have other genres with it like thriller, mystery, fantasy or villainess concepts, and/or historical time period fics. and since my program is keeping me busy asl I wont be able to update as much as I hope but i'll likely be more active now that there are some things cleared up :))

once again, tysm nohr for the tag and this oppurtinity to rebrand and I'd love to see @cloudyevaa @cup-of-fluff @kaeyazuha @sexyandcringe @anyone else who see's this to do it :)) I actually deviated a bit from the normal format so here is @alienaiver 's who ate it up :))

[fishyartist]

converted an amv into a flipnote for drawing reference by using a program i found (link), really like how it looks in this form :) gonna try to make something of my own inspired by it eventually

[lovelyreaper]

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[ziptieparty]

i havent seen anyone alloromantic specifically talk about their experiences in aplatonicism, so i thought that more input from a different perspective could be useful?

i relatively recently (maybe 2-3 months ago) saw someone use the word "aplatonic" to describe themselves, and several things clicked into place with me, my general thought process being something like "of course theres a subset of aspec labels for platonic attraction, people feel romantic and sexual attraction separately so obviously theres a platonic side to." and i left it at that for awhile but something about it stuck with me.

i suppose ill start at the beginning,

when i was a kid i was mainly friends with boys, and for awhile i attributed this to being trans and just relating more to male peers. i do still believe this to be a factor but now thinking back on it i realized there was a pattern to my relationships.

at one point or another, i had had crushes on almost all of them.

i realized all at once that the only reason i had even spoken to a majority of my childhood friends was because i had been romantically attracted to them at the beginning of our friendships.

now, i can anticipate some kind of argument along the lines of "thats just how crushes and friendships grow with everyone" or some such nonsense

but i can say with my whole chest that thats not what was happening.

im not very good at explaining things in a way that makes sense to most, but i will attempt to be as clear as possible.

a lot of people wanted to be my friend.

i was funny and loud and friendly to my classmates. i liked to play tag at recess and brought pokemon cards and my tamagotchi to school before they were banned. i shared the parts of my lunches i didnt want, i stood up to bullies, and sat with people that were alone.

but that was about the extent of it

i was friendly

but i was never your friend

i generally considered myself a "loner" and no matter how friendly or talkative or persistent or technically compatible my classmates were-

it never took.

i just. wanted to do what i wanted to do.

i had kids i interacted with often and i named them friends when prompted to list any, but i never actually. spoke to them? it was more like i sat next to them and we did things alongside eachother (parallel play style) and i would say little things to them like hello or good morning or maybe that i liked their shoes but i never like. discussed what i liked with them or vice versa. i couldnt tell you a thing about them beyond their names.

this pattern continued until i started to develop crushes, suddenly i was initiating contact with kids without outside factors. i sat with them and gave them the sweet parts of my food and for the first time

i asked them questions

i wanted to know if they liked the cartoons i did and who their favorite characters were, i was curious about what they liked and what they thought. their input mattered to me.

a majority of my relationships from then on followed similar patterns, i thought they were cute or funny and so i talked to them and could tolerate the connection that followed.

i didnt keep my feelings for a lot of them of course, i had no way of knowing who these people were before getting to know them but the point still stands; i had to have a crush on them first.

this wasnt always the case with my friends, sometimes when i would interact with someone the stars would align and id stay in contact somehow and id end up with a friend that didnt start with romantic feelings.

my life gets messy from my teens on and i will spare you my life story, but i ended up in a position that i only had one person i could pass off as a friend. the relationship was just like the ones from my early childhood, i just kind of existed alongside her and i couldnt really tell you anything about her.

ive never formed bonds with anyone without outside influence and the ones i did were rare or romantic at first. isolation doesnt really bother me, i dont like or need to talk to people often, my own family barely knows me and has to force my interaction

sometimes i kind of joke with my husband that id never had a real friend before because i could never tell him anything about the friends i still had when i had met him, and now i think i have the words to describe why?

im not entirely sure what i should label myself, demiplatonic fits but i feel is a disservice to the people that i was or am friends with that were faster and didnt start romantically. perhaps grayplatonic or something but im just going with aplspec for the moment.

[babochkas]

i'm putting this post under a read more because it's long & i'm sorry it's related to the drama but, i really need to clear up the situation on my end:

to start with, i've never sent anyone anon hate. i don't support that at all because i know how shitty it is to get it. my post today was absolutely a vague, but not about anyone in the rpc and i specifically stated it was related to twitter lesbophobes that spread into the tumblr community (NOT THE RPC COMMUNITY, i never specified rpc & my wife clarified in their post as well it was not the rpc) and specifically mentioned seeing topics of conversion. this post i made didn't even specify if it was about bronseele. i never mentioned their names. but because i posted it on seele, my current main blog, it's tied to that. accusations of anon hate and biphobia. it was absolutely horrible timing, absolutely looks suspicious, but: i had no way of seeing this because i don't follow. i do not keep tabs on the people i block and avoid them from my radar entirely. i never talked nor judged anyone's portrayal or interpretation. people are making accusations STILL because of a matter of shit timing and coincidence related to someone ive had blocked. i want to say clearly, i did not send the anon that was received. i did not even know of it, nor the post that prompted the anon. i have not ever sent anon hate, and have not vagued about anyone in the fandom's portrayal.

again, my original post was kept vague in wording because i woke up (around 3pmest, i have bad insomnia so my schedule is weird) starting my day seeing people on twitter erasing the canon rep of my favorite characters (i'm not talking just up for interpretation characters, i mean seeing people straight up talking about leona/diana in league - excuse vulgarity - "taking dick to cure their mind.") & then while looking at fanart on tumblr shortly after, saw more of the same with other ships i like art of. of course, as a lesbian, i am very passionate about these cases of rep, and of course very triggered by seeing the lesbophobia i was seeing on twitter (the conversion i mentioned in my post, which i followed up with by saying i was seeing more of it on tumblr) not the best wording & def should have clarified but, i just woke up for the day, i was tired, and my brain hadn't fully kicked into gear so i opened my tumblr app to check my notifications and make a quick vent post. it had nothing to do with bisexuality, nothing to do with a bi interpretation, nothing: it was about the disgusting and harmful conversion posts and discussions i was seeing. i had no idea about what was going on hours before because i was asleep. i was logged in on seele, so i just made the venty post (again specifically about conversion therapy comments) and didnt think anything of it because i didn't know what was going on, basically until i started finding out about the accusations.

i do want to note again, i did try to unblock to send an IM clarifying before everything really blew up, but IMs were off & i was already being told of more being said by others so i did make a heated post. it isn't deleted, though i did make it private because i don't like leaving drama up. as with rule updates, they're tagged as "tbd //" and later removed.

on a related, but separate note:

people who talk to me and know me, know the kind of person i am. i have been in way more fandoms than hi3, hsr, or even genshin. i've been on this site a long time and multiple people have known me for years. they know that i keep to myself a lot of the time & only seem to get dragged into drama when it relates to setting boundaries. as stated in my rules, i am exclusive and not dupe friendly. this often leads to me blocking simply for comfort. otherwise, i have only ever blocked people for breaching my rules. breaching my triggers. have i always handled my blocking in ways people prefer it to be handled (via a DM beforehand, knowledge of why first, etc?) absolutely not. especially not when it's related to my triggers, as i state in my rules, seeing those untagged/unfiltered sends me into a trauma response. i have, in the past, contacted people prior to softblocking or hardblocking to let them know why - and these instances have ended in things varying from my mental health being invalidated, being called names (bitch, most often) & often, honestly, end up escalating to something worse.

aside from trying to defend myself, i have only ever, ever said anything about drama in relation to someone harassing me, making violent threats, calling names, etc. i've kept to myself, blocked these people to keep my distance, and it's still somehow a problem. they are still coming to my accounts to keep tabs or, if they deem fit, find ways to stir the pot again. i know people were keeping tabs on my posts, because these people who i've had blocked for years now were making posts about mine. not even knowing what it was about. honestly, after being told of some of the people who have been known to stalk and harass the blogs of myself and other mutual friends, i got paranoid. because it was not only just straight up block evading me, but these people i've been avoiding have harassed, have made violent threats, have called names and been disrespectful when i tried to end on peaceful terms. i won't say names because it doesn't matter. i'm not here to start a witch hunt, and on the same note, i'm not wanting a target on my back when i've already had problems of varying degrees with these people.

that brings me to my dni. in regards to my dni additions, i did add a new group on there due to a prior callout, and this situation: namely, because i felt this was on a level of baseless accusations as a previous callout mention and it did heavily upset me after seeing what i was accused of because of this. my dni does not change according to fandom, and has remained the same (with minor updates) since my time in the league fandom. the recent update including the lesbian erasure dni rule was added as it was in my original rules on my caitlyn blog (my caitlyn carrd can be found here, the last rule being established as i also have a diana, and planned to write neeko - canon lesbians to the league universe. it's something i've been vocal about there as well.)

i am a very firm believer in curating your own space of comfort. write what you want with who you want, but my rules and dni are for my space. to explain why i do not want to engage with certain topics or people who have made me uncomfortable, often due to situations that are related to my triggers and ocd. regardless of this, i do not condemn anyone for who they decide to write with, because at the end of the day this is just writing. i wouldn't accuse or try to instigate drama between two people without first talking. just wish i had been extended the same courtesy.