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tswwwit · 1 year

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do yhink theres like a life where bill accidentally 'kills' himself and isnt able to get to Dipper in time?

so dipper is just there thinking like no one will love me 😔😔💔 with no memories anf bill is just floating around pissed off

then BAM dipper remembers and comes to bills rescue somehow. then it cuts to dipper making fun of bill 🤭

A Fine concept! Alternately: A Dipper who still doesn't have his memories stumbling across Bill, and the subsequent shenanigans.

#answers #I was gonna say that Dipper might recognize Bill but then remembered he'd be in his real form #The triangle is less immediately recognizable after all the time Bill's spent in the human body #I imagine this is very confusing and also eerie for Dipper who has no idea how he got here most likely #Bill though? Oh man #After however long he's spent 'dead' he's having a great time all of a sudden #Now time to convince his unwitting husband to patch up a body and set him free #Who better to do that than Bill himself??? He knows the guy so well!#Not making a deal or anything for it though. Not a real one; he already has one of those in place with this guy #Catch Bill advising Dipper how to vastly improve his life. Riches! Fame! Love! All you gotta do is some life magicky stuff.#It's way simpler than it looks kid. Don't worry about it I'll walk ya through it #And he's technically not lying either! Dipper WILL Have all those things once he does this 'innocuous' life magic thing #Just not in the way a memoryless Dipper would expect #And what do *I* get outta this you ask? Well #Nothing much! But it *will* cost ya something #Namely: A smooch. With *tongue* this time. (He's still annoyed he didn't get it the first deal round)

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buttercup-barf · 4 months

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Under the cut are mostly self-insert doodles of decreasing quality. Again, not much directly tied to Team Fortress 2. Might as well toss these out while I have no access to my puter. Much yapping under the cut and in the tags incoming.

Another self-insert, this time less of a "here's me as a tenth class" and more of a "here's my game experiences translated into the class I would take the place of". The Cleaner. Although I guess they could still be wearing either suit. It doesn't matter that much.

That one Convict's Case taunt with Backup would be extremely funny, because the man would be on the verge of a breakdown (he does not want to go to jail so bad you have no idea). The second image- I owe no explanation. You know what I am. You see the pattern with my favourites.

The duality of the man. Resting face versus "just heard you express interest in religion/Russian folklore" face. He's not that hard to make friends with, when you pull him away from all the explosions.

Some doodles of trying to figure his face out. Unfortunately, the more I stare at him, the more I worry that he looks like A Certain Guy With The Last Name "Kazarin", and the fear of never being original in my life caught up to me.

Don't look at me, don't perceive me, I refuse to explain any of my actions to you.

#team fortress 2 #tf2 #that's it that's the only tags i am putting this in. maybe someday i will have the balls to do more but for now that's about it #while i have the chance - and since posts with more of my yapping in the tags don't pop in people's feeds much - i might as well ramble-#-about these guys here. self-inserts or not i'm projecting only half of my bullshit on each one of them. creativity 👍#backup is tall and pale and has sharp canines and more of a dull brown hair colour with tired grey eyes. no amount of babyface or soft-#-hands can really help a motherfucker when he's grimacing so much because he just Hates being around half the people on the team.#cleaner meanwhile is on the shorter side and has constantly flushed skin and brighter colours and whatnot. you can't see it because of the-#-mask most of the time but they do smile a lot more and have a more cheery disposition towards life and see the whole team as their friends!#backup transitioned fully (albeit not very legally lmao) and is scared shitless of not being seen as a man although the last time that ever-#-came up was years ago. he holds onto his last name as part of the heritage he loves and loathes at the same time - attached to his culture-#-and religion and bloodline while also resentful of his family and the regime he knows someone else on the team suffered under.#cleaner just kinda binds and calls it a day. he only does it to confuse the team because while he doesn't identify with being a girl he-#-loves the confused looks his epic gender reveal moment gets. they do not remember their family name or where they grew up or what even got-#-them to this kind of mental state. and he's chill with it he values the here and now way more than some dark edgy backstory.#backup despite trying to be an honest man is afraid of vulnerability as well. he stubbornly refuses to express love towards certain people-#-lest they feel disgusted and turn away. he's afraid of consequences afraid of losing the people he loves afraid of his ''interests'' being-#-what drives them away. it doesn't by the way and he just wasted time being a cold indecisive loser for several months lmao #cleaner wears a suit that hides all of them yes but they pretty much never lie. he is always his truest self and he can always just burn-#-people who don't like him enough to make it a problem. they are a lot more comfortable indulging in their interests - be they innocent-#-and juvenile or violent and dangerous. he is quite open with his affection and his fascinations that backup would rather keep secret.#i want to establish that these two can only exist in separate universes because they both have feelings towards the funny assistant lady-#-and the funny inventor guy (selfshipping for the winnn) and would fight over those two. cleaner would win by the way #it's also a really funny point of comparison. cleaner is objectively more fucked up than backup and still managed to be more normal about-#-their feelings and live as a healthier and happier person than that guy. comedic gold honestly #OKAY I'M DONE if you read up to here you get uhhh a cookie :-)

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machinthemachine · 1 year

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I'm sorry

#shenmue #I am so sorry #if any of these have been done my bad I went through as much of the shenmue tag as I could to check #I feel like Joy and Ren would make Guizhang's life a living hell if they ever had to team up #That man wouldn't be able to say a word without one of them descending like a vulture #don't actually know how well Shenhua and Joy would get along but I like to imagine they'd speed run disliking each other-#(cause honestly I don't think they'd get along right away like at all)#-then become besties to the extreme confusion of Ren and Ryo

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sophiethewitch1 · 7 months

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🫶 thanks for responding back! i appreciate all the hard work you’ve planned out for us 🎉 i can’t wait to see more of the darker themes fleshed out at the end of the first part, i will be waiting patiently LOL 👍 in terms of yandere, how bad do you think it will be? what do you have planned in that department?

also i hope you get better soon 😅 please take breaks and certainly take your time!

well ive said that its very mild on the yandere side even later on in the slowburn. its barely yandere more, like... obsession??... at least for the first while. the yandere part is more just there as a warning because I don't want to shock people with the small bit of dark content there will be. i really don't like yanderes that hurt reader (they just don't make sense to me. yandere to me is about having too much love, and you wouldn't hurt someone you loved??) and like,,,, spoiler cut here but like, these are all things that are in the tags/warnings/just information around

i need happy endings. i cant handle even the slightest bit bitter ending it hurts me physically. i am writing a happy ending. it will take grovelling, compromise, and probably fixing the universe but idc. i will uncritically romanticise toxic relationships. i can fix him he can fix me we will fix ourselves for each other. THATS ROMANCE BABEY!!! ITS BEING YOUR BEST SELF BECAUSE YOU LOVE SOMEONE!!! AND YANDERE IS ABOUT LOVE. ITS ABOUT LOVE!!!! ALWAYS LVOE!!!!

#sophie speaks #sophie answers #series:www #i know people want darker content #and like totes respect to that but I'm going to ride the line #we WILL have a happy ending and we WILL have reverse harem ending and I REFUSE TO ACCEPT ANYTHING LESS #YES they will kidnap you NO i don't consider that a dealbreaker. just let me out and say sorry and its fine #i wasnt even sure if id share the fic when I first started writing it #didnt think anyone would like it or its weird jokey/dark/overly sappy/also the weird dynamic all at the same time tone #this is a story about all the parts of life #the good and the bad and the parts you probably shouldn't laugh at but will anyway #im in a bit of a weird place mentally atm. I'm healing and I'm also reverting and I've never experienced dissociation in this form and its.#its confusing. this fic is just meant to be confusing but hopeful. because I'm confused but I'm never not hopeful :)#whatever man if i cant think properly i dont think its really my fault if my silly little fanfiction is too long and wordy and insane #im insane it leaks out #if that wasnt obvious...m

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sunnys-sonnets · 11 months

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Head canon about the mask👀

I really do feel inclined to believe what Odin's says despite all the signs that say don't do that. But Freya did say that even when Odin tells the truth that his purpose is false soooo... I think he was telling the truth about what he knew/believed about the mask.

The mask is the answer to any and all questions, possibly the answers to magic that would otherwise be impossible in the Nine Realms. Odin said that he doesn't know where he goes when he dies so he wants to know and wants to know potentially how to prevent Ragnarok. Makes sense. This man doesn't want to die, doesn't want his people, realm to die, and fears the unknown.

Or so he says. Assuming he's telling the truth about the mask but not his purpose with wanting it, I'd say there's truth in the fear of the unknown because Odin constantly craves knowledge. He wants absolute control over himself, Asgard, all the realms, everyone as people, and possibly to extend his control further if he feels like it... So the mask, in Odin's hands, could be a tool to control everything in the realms because it grants him all knowledge to do so

#sunny's answers #I think it's like an answer key basically #It has the answers to any question but it's still up to the person to be smart or strong enough to wield it #What I don't get is all the different languages not from the Nine Realms because where in the Hel did it come from #Why is it in the Nine Realms?#Where Atreus destroyed it into pieces again #where did it go?? you know? It's confusing #Was it a trap? Did Atreus save the Nine Realms by destroying it? It could have been a trap from another faraway place that could have lead #to the destruction of the Nine Realms from another pantheon #Lowkey do feel bad that Odin essentially wasted so much of his life after figuring it out when he could have been a good ruler and king #This man could have been the benevolent ruler people believed he was and it's so sad that he became corrupted twisted and paranoid

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steakout-05 · 7 months

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he doesn't know math..... swooning 💞

(this is a promo image for JJ: Test Labs and it has true or false math questions as one of the modifiers in the game)

#barry steakfries #jetpack joyride #headcanon that this man cannot do math to save his life #i cant do math at all either its ok barry i understand #i kinda forget how to count sometimes actually... i don't know most of my times tables #i cant divide stuff mentally #hell i sometimes confuse the divide and addition symbols with each other #get a different looking symbol nerd #the more i type this out the more i think i might actually have a learning problem #my math ability is at like a fifth grader's level at most like it's bad #either i have learning issues or i have never once been taught math properly #except no because everyone else can do it and they were all taught similarly so i might actually have a learning disability.....#hey remember when this post was about jetpack joyride?#me trying not to project all my neurodivergencies onto my favourite character challenge (impossible)#wait actually #barry said in one of the vlogs (vlog 5 i believe) that he often forgets how to count because he hit his head too many times on the wall-#-that he breaks through #so barry might actually have problems learning and retaining math and numbers because of that!!#new headcanon alert barry can't do math #maybe it wouldn't be dyscalculia because you're born with that but maybe something else...#i think i might have dyscalculia #anyway barry and me struggling to do math solidarity

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purecommemasolitude · 1 year

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WAIT MOZART IS WAVING THE FEATHER AROUND IN THE L'ASS MV BECAUSE IT'S ACTUALLY A QUILL AND THAT'S WHAT HE USES TO WRITE HIS MUSIC SALIERI THINKS HIS MUSIC SO MUCH BETTER THAN SALIERI'S OWN AND HE'S CONDUCTING THE PARTY (ish) AND BRINGING THEM JOY AND LIFE AND ENERGY WITH HIS QUILL AKA HIS MUSIC SOMETHING THAT SALIERI VIEWS HIMSELF AS INCAPABLE OF DOING IT'S NOT JUST A RANDOM PROP CHOICE FOR NO REASON

this has taken me three years to figure out. I'm a genius

#i was musing about how mozart brings joy and life into the gathering #and how there's the gay interpretation and the jealous interpretation #and then i had an epiphany #maybe they talked about this in the bts video alternatively maybe a reason that completely contradicts mine is shown there #well i don't want to know <//3 I'm happy with this interpretation #but frfr this has confused me for. well. three years #i revisited the archive of discord live reactions of when i first listened to it and man. i want to read through but also i will be terribl #embarassed #perhaps another time #mor #mozart l'opera rock #salieri #og

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volivolition · 6 months

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what's the theme you're fucking going for here voliiii!!! what are you fucking getting at!!! what are you trying to say, what's the point??

#still working on this drama chapter in Swept Up. they're. confusing to work with? from an empathy standpoint at least.#skill who is trying to honestly understand the other skills VS skill who is just always lying and putting on an act.#and then theres the whole thing that im not going to spoil yet but the dynamic. fuck man. i dont even know what im trying to say here #lying is bad? no i dont care about that. honest communication is important maybe? i feel like i need a central theme for this.#and i dont want the theme to be ''empathy good'' because low-empathy people are also good and i love them!! and also:#empathy is a flawed character!! i try to portray this. i dont like moralism/centrism which empathy believes in and is the main skill for #empathy you stupid centralist (affectionate) i know this is just because you don't know how to make everyone happy. who can fix this?#you dont think you can fix this! you feel too much debilitating sadness to make meaningful change!! responsibilite to others more capable #still. i do depict empathy as often kind on a small level because i think that's in character. empathy just helps you understand.#i guess this fic is also a ''empathy doesn't mean kindness. kindness is a choice you can make afterwards but empathy just means empathy''#but that's not a centralizing theme that all the chapters share. its also about vulnerability and the mortifying ordeal of being known #urgh. i'll think about it some more. knowing me its probably another ''love (in all forms) is the meaning to life'' type story lmao <3 #i need to make a skill chart for this harry. all i know is that Volition is his skill signature but Empathy is his highest stat #hyper-empathetic harry with the rsd that comes from adhd!! haha!! suffering. everybody fucking hate you. this is based on me btw lmao #i was working on voli's chapter which has a flashback and child empathy! new to the mindspace looking out through harry's eyes and crying #the world is full of sad people and it's just too much for a lil guy! the backstory i have planned for this like. huh okay. wild. anyway!!#oh shit ive made a fucking breakthrough with the drama chapter. its not a theme but its something i figured out at least. we stay winning!!#chemi chats #task: swept up

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sheogorad · 7 months

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is passing a win for my safety and security? yes. is passing also a fat L for how people view and treat me in the world when it comes to making friendships with women/femmes? yes! like literally i'm one of the gworls. LET ME HANG OUT LET ME IN!!!

#it's like the weirdest gender dysphoria because like #yeah i'm binary. yeah i'm a guy. but like i don't identify with cis maleness. being trans is part of my manhood #and when people don't realize the depth of my understanding and intimacy with femininity and being a girl like #it takes away from who i am as a person. being raised as and treated like a girl is part of my perspective on life #i don't even know how to rectify this internally. i want to but i am so confused man #i'd do well in the drag scene like genuinely tbh it makes sense for me #anyway #cían's ted talks

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sunrise-on-the-shore · 7 months

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i need so much time to process the information i have encountered today. i'm gonna be away for a bit.

#sunrise thoughts #i do not have the stability for this.#call me a coward and an imbecile who fell to parasocial relationship stuff i get it i get it #also people keep saying to not speculate but they're doing so so much speculating and i'm so confused and lost #and i'm aware i should watch shubble's stream and such #but i am not stable at all. i am not capable of watching something that will deeply fuck me up.#i'm not ready and i don't think i will be ready for a LONG LONG while.#if you follow this blog or/and you're my friend you know why.#i am so so sorry for shubble and what she went through is horrible and i'm so fucking sad for her #but i cannot process some of the information that's happening right now.#i am aware shubble has decided to not share names for her safety which i very very much understand.#and i know when i say this it's extremely selfish and so fucking bad but i am begging i am genuinely begging #that everyone who seems to have 'guessed' who the abuser is to be wrong #i know it's extremely bad to say #but i am entering denial mode of the grief processus right now.#and like i said. i will need SO much time to process things.#i've had such a massive special interest on this man's content since 2021. it is my strongest special interest ever.#a literal pillar of my life is crumbling down in a completely unexpected way #so please don't yell at me for not being able to watch this stream and such #i need time #plus the topic is very very sensitive to me for personal reasons too #anyway. that's all i will say. and i said way too much already.

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enbeemagical · 8 months

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my mother seems to think I can exude time. Fascinating.

#personal #cw abuse mention #mom's gonna go all surprise pikachu someday when none of her kids want to talk to her as long as that man is in her life and maybe longer #i am so tempted to contact every one of her friends and business associates that i know about and inform them about her (and his) abuse #i could fucking ruin her life and i don't think she's realized that #but i don't want to isolate her and my siblings more than they already are #im focusing on the ''confusing times you are exuding'' part of her email so i don't scream

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sunjoys · 1 year

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just finished the eighth life and um im in tears 🙏 good book 👍

#BOOK EIGHT BRILKA IM SCREAMING #it's just soooo . Good. my opinion might change as I calm down and think more but like #the ending was perfect the writing+translation was sublime #generational sagas (this is only the 3rd I've read but there's a bunch in my tbr) just feel soo special and the narrative framing of this #one is so lovely <3 it's framed as a letter to the narrators niece and its a history of their family #at times the historical parts were confusing (the use of nicknames like little big man for historical figures esp) but thats more on me #bc I don't know much abt grorgian history or even soviet history in detail #but the scope of the book and the style was perfect I think. idk.#anyway. I recommend it if you think you can get through a 900 page book that's Big in more ways than one #and also very intense and sometimes dark bc sometimes life is intense and dark !!#books

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randomraytrash · 2 years

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Listen I always have bad ideas, but I find them funny, so you will suffer with me, and my brother just begged me to stop talking and go bothering somebody else.

Now, new idea I can't yeet out my brain no mater how much I try.

Dhawan!Master want to mess with the 13th Doctor a bit more, so he fake being a spy way more and hard than in canon. Why you ask?

Because he's out of control, bored and he lost his fucking Tardis and can't find it, so he need the Doctor (not really the Doctor, torturing her is a bonus, he just need her Tardis technology to find his. Yes, Tardis can do that. Yes, that's how he can always find the Doctor. No, the Doctor never read the Tardis Instruction Manual and it shows, but it's not his problem anyway).

So there he goes exploring the stars with the Doctor. He want to execute his beautiful master plan (pardon the pun), but there is a problem...

The flying toaster the Doctor is flying with.

The Tardis is not happy. The Tardis is not happy at all to have him on board and it tries to kill him on multiple occasion.

That's it. That's the story. Petty Tardis tries and almost succeeds to take the Master down by the sheer force of stubbornness and closing door in his face. (And don't translating shit for him, trying to suck him in its core and not finding his Tardis).

Obv the Timeless Child plot is out the window, for me never happened and never will. I'm petty as the Tardis and I take the trash out, thank you very much.

#Doctor who #13th doctor #dhawan!master #Fanfic #the tardis #Make the Tardis A Petty Bitch Again (affectionate)#The Master is also a Petty Bitch (derogative)#The Doctor is oblivious and just happy she has a big joyful family now #The real companions know something is not right #Graham is mostly confused #Grace O'Brien the only good thing of the season is still alive I don't care #She knows #She tries to addomesticate the Master with pie #Scary thing she probably succeeded #Doesn't make any sense I know #But listen I think the continuity doesn't make any sense either so it's fair game here #Yaz - Doctor is it normal for the Tardis trying to electrocute a man?#13 - Yeah it's just happy and excited to have people on board =))) I'm so happy my family is happy and integrate in with my Tardis!#The Master fighting for his life - Fucking Toaster should have dissembled you ages ago and scatter your useless pieces on a black hole!#Such an happy family!!!

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theflyingfeeling · 2 years

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aaaaaaaaaaaaa 😩

#going to samy's acousic gig tonight but i've literally never been to a bar lol help #the gig starts at 23:30 (💀) but the ig post says doors 23:00?! WHAT #what do you mean 'doors 23:00' ?! YOU OPEN AT 11 AM #i am confuse 😭#''you've never been to a bar?!'' why would i have i don't really drink and i don't have friends lol #also don't even get me started on tomorrow (my niece's namegiving ceremony) 🥲#but i ain't gonna talk about that. y'all don't need to know just how much of a fuck-up i am lol #(man i really wish i was better at reaching out to people #because it gets tiring to keep all these emotions and insecurities all to myself #but alas the fear of revealing just how not-normal i am easily trumps out my desire to share this kinda stuff)#(i am so deeply ashamed of being such a failure on any aspect of my life that i really don't need anyone else to know about all that 😅)

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tvrningout-a · 1 year

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ngl i think if i manage to write anything, it's gonna be like one draft so lemme just say that i'm still waiting for the day i get to write an isekai au and indulge in my favorite cliché trope of all time

#the hour is late so i'm less worried about being embarrassed for posting this asdf #i dunno y'all i just love when a character gets thrown into a world and has to very quickly figure out what to do #especially when it is a world that's supposed to be fictional bc that adds another layer to it #they already know what happens and do they try to change things??#is that really the right thing to do even if they save someone's life? they're altering events and they don't know what's gonna happen!#and then the whole thing of knowing a character and feeling for them but they just have no idea who the other person is #so their kindness and whatnot is confusing #i dunno i just think it's a banger of a plot 10/10 times #get ready to ramble | ooc #oh man the fatigue is really hitting me now

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evilblot · 2 years

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I wonder what's like to have a purpose.

To wake up in the morning, knowing what you're doing with your life instead of just existing. Without a drive, dreams, hopes... Just a consuming void that's making you waste time until it'll be too late.

Wild thought uh?

#sorry everyone the fog has gotten into my mind lately #I'm trying to find my path into life but nothing seems to call to me #also i literally don't have you know. dreams or a something to aspire to.#the best i can do is 'oh [thing] may be neat' and that's about it. no stronger emotions than that.#i feel like I've wasted my whole life making wrong choices and now I'm left with nothing #which realistically isn't right but i can't shake this feeling off of me #i don't know man. I'm tired. I'm confused. I'm scared of my future‚ if i can still talk about having one.#perhaps i should just go live somewhere secluded and raise sheep. maybe that'll fix me.#ink blots #to delete later

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